#i want the eggs to be happy and live long fufilling lives

[x-crowmancer-x]

Been thinking about QSMP,

Thinking about Tallulah feeling abandoned

Thinking about Richarlyson being reckless

Thinking about Chayanne trying to stay strong

Thinking about Pomme being afraid of dying

Thinking about Trumpet waiting for so long

Thinking about Leonarda feeling isolated

Thinking about Bobby being violent to others

Thinking about Tilin wanting a good home

Thinking about Ramón wanting the best for his dad

Thinking about Dapper living with trauma

Thinking about Juanaflippa losing her bestfriend

Thinking about Pepito feeling lonely

Thinking about Sunny feeling self conscious

Thinking about Empanada being anxious

[captaincloudink-blog]

Recovery: 4 years on

So, I decided to come back to the website that 4 years ago helped develop my eating disorder. I think it started when I was 14, I learned what a thigh gap was what a thigh gap is, then I became obsessed with pro ana posts, learned how to purge, I developped body dysmorphia from comparing myself daily to images of thin women. It meant that by 15 I was scared to leave the house, eat meals, meals without fruit or veg would make me panic, so would seeing myself in photos or in the mirror. I think it’s important to note that I never lost weight during this time. 

I’m incredibly lucky to have gotten the therapy and suppport i did, and I’m so glad I never ended up joining pro ana and mia communities. I took a break from school which allowed my mental health to improve, I found worth in myself as a person rather than a number on a scale or the calories I ate. One of the biggest things that helped was being discouraged from not eating and losing weight, and being praised by people around for eating healthy and gaining it. I began to realise I have an influence on others. I have two sisters, (10 and 14 now) and seeing how my bad example had an affect on how they view eating broke my heart. I realsied I wanted to be the better example that I needed when I was younger. You have to get better for your own sake, but having a positive impact on other peoples lives, no matter how small is a much better feeling than spreading pro ana/mia. I’m doing better now, I’m improving my lifestyle, I lifting makes me physically and metally stronger and helps me keep bad thoughts away. I love going outside and wearing outfits that make me happy :) (even when it’s cold), I know what I actually look like, I no longer see a distorted version of myself in the mirror, just good old beautiful me. I will always have bad thoughts and bad days but there’s a stronger person in me who refuses to give up. Today I had scrambled eggs on toast, avacado and brie on toast, salad, chinese take away, a tea, some chocolate and a hot chocolate. I am the healthiest and strongest I have ever been and I finally feel alive. 

I felt like I needed to come back here to show you all change is possible, the road to recovery can be a long widing one but it is a more fufilling one. I understand people need to vent and I think it’s healthy to do so, but please think before you post. Glorified images of ill people, diet challenges, weight loss images, calories ect are not going to help you or anyone else who sees them. 

I made this account to post this and maybe help people, if this helps even just one person out there. I won’t be very active on here as tumblr is triggering for me, but please message me if you want advice or need to talk :)

[sometimes-alolan-vulpix]

“...Your awake”

“I am, will you tell me now about this “her”?

“...Yeah, Now that your better, I will step up to my promise”

“See, Winter, when I was young I came across a young alolan vulpix cub, she was alone in the snow, abondoned by her parents, she lived all alone in the snow, Almost the same condition I found you in, I couldnt bear to see her alone, so, I stepped in to raise her”

“Her life seemed to have gotten better, she lived with me for a long time until she moved to the other vulpix and ninetales colony, where she belonged with her species, she would occasionally visit me, as of course, I was a father to her, and for the longest while, she felt happy”

“...Until”

“A kantonian Ninetales showed up to the group, of course, everyone in the colony got defensive, they saw him as a threat, I didnt think anything was wrong, cause eventually, my daughter fell in love with him, and he did back.”

“I dont know what made him want to leave, maybe he just wasnt satisfied where he was, but I was furious to see him break my daughters heart”

“Eventually she recovered from the breakup and everything continued normally, or at least it seemed like it, cause my daughter, was hiding something from everyone in the colony, not only did her mate leave her alone, but...”

“She was all alone and the egg was about to hatch, she was so scared to become a mother, she didnt think she was ready for the responsability. I Gave her the comfort she needed to hear, after all, I was alone raising her”

“Before her cub was born, she told me this: “If something were to ever happen to me, take care of my cub, as I want them to live a fufilling life, just like you gave to me when I needed it the most”“

“M-Me? Im the cub you were promised to protect?”

“You are, I heared the news that my daughter was caught by a trainer, I was...grieving, she was gone, now out somewhere listening to commands of humans, I could no longer see her again, which was why I didnt focus on watching you at first, however, seeing you being picked by the other vulpixes made me realize you were also suffering, after all, you were now alone, just like your mother, so I knew I had to snap out of it and help you out”

“...”

“...I know its a lot to take in, I will give you time to think about it, and if you hate me, well...You have all the rights to be mad at me”

“...”

[vegils]

a spooky survey

thanks @cloyfronkol! for the tag!!

Vampire: Someone offers you a chance at immortality. Do you take it, and why or why not? not to be depressing but um let me just die

Werewolf: If you had to spend your life with just one person, who would it be? emman we tell each other that we think our friendship is beyond “toleration” and that we love each other so we see each other as flawless ppl who do no wrong

Witch: If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be? how it always seems to betray me and what i want out of it

Ghost: Do you have any regrets? YEAH BOI HO DO I HAVE REGRETS LEMME TELL YA........ LEMME TELL YA

Frankenstein: Is someone telling you how to live your life, or are you an independent person? i am a mildly dependent person i need occasional guidance in my life bc i’m not certain if i’m making a rational decision

Mummy: If you were to fall into an eternal sleep, do you think anyone would miss you? maybe not i’m quite inconspicuous so i’m not a person someone would “miss”

Zombie: Do you miss anyone right now? i miss my little sister and friends back home, i miss my old high school friend who doesn’t talk to me anymore, and i miss my friends from my old job :( i miss my dogs oh boy there’s a long list of things that i miss and it breaks my heart

Faerie: If you could get away with anything, what would you do? getting my dream job and living a rly fufilling life and there not being a standard or prerequisite to it lmao that’s such a boring answer but if i get my ideal career without being qualified to have it n staying there i’d be so happy lmao

Nymph: What are you like when you’re by yourself? tmi i hate being alone and i’m highly neurotic when i’m in that state

Mermaid: How far would you go to keep the one you love? um perhaps not very far i don’t know i never thought about how far i’d bend backwards for someone does this make me unloveable is this an unattractive trait

Shapeshifter: What would you change about yourself? everything physically and socially unappealing about me

Banshee: If you knew one of your loved ones/best friends had only one day left to live, how would you spend that last day with them? i would hope they’d mutually want to spend their last day with me first :( and then i’d just hold them until i have to leave

Siren: If you could make anyone do anything, what would you make them do? i wouldn’t wanna manipulate anyone for anything 

Genie: If you had one wish that would come true and couldn’t be reversed, what would you ask for? that i could go back home to the philppines whenever i wanted without costs

Fury: What is a word/phrase that you dread to hear? “EGGS”

Incubus: What would someone have to do to get in your pants? they would have to unbutton, unzip, and remove my pants, then, slip into them (one leg at a time)

uhhhhhhh i mean i’m not saying i wouldn’t want anyone to get in my pants but the chance is very unlikely........................ or just............ just be frankie celenza, cook me pasta, talk about ur le creusets, be witty, play some jazz music, wrap me in ur arms, hold me sideways and use my head like a battering ram 

Succubus: What’s one thing you can’t live without? validation cuz i’m insecure and perpetually unsure about how i’m doing as a person

[thestalkerbunny]

, pavy, beans, love potio 42, tumnult, yoldanda

Full Name: Pavi (no known Surname as of now.)Gender and Sexuality: Male, HomosexualPronouns: He/HimEthnicity/Species: Aasimar (Peacock kind)Birthplace and Birthdate: A deserty country, sometime in AprilGuilty Pleasures: His life is 99% guilty pleasures. But he really likes to indulge in fresh fruits.Phobias: Snakes, Fire, VasesWhat They Would Be Famous For: Either Sexual prowess or really good belly dancingWhat They Would Get Arrested For: Public indecencyOC You Ship Them With: Well....no one right now.OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Fae. Fae will probably make the most attempted Pavi based murders.Favorite Movie/Book Genre: He doesn't care much for reading in general. Not even sure if he CAN read.Least Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: *see prementioned question*Talents and/or Powers: Cant summon a beautiful glowing Halo, very good belly dancer, excellent at blowjobsWhy Someone Might Love Them: Outside of the whole sex and promicious lifestyle, he's a geniunine caring person who is putting a good 88% of his funding to taking care of his adoptive witch daughter.Why Someone Might Hate Them: He's rather self serving, he often puts himself first before anything else.How They Change: Unsure; gotta play Pathfinder to findout.Why You Love Them: He's a flamboyant Peacock man who bellydances. I can't NOT love him.

　

Full Name: Beans The Charity ClericGender and Sexuality: Female, UnknownPronouns: She/HerEthnicity/Species: Cat Person with Aasimar BloodlinesBirthplace and Birthdate:Guilty Pleasures: She likes to dip into the Nip once in a while. She feels bad later and prays for like 8 hours afterwards.Phobias: Girl can't swim. Keep her away from water.What They Would Be Famous For: Probably bringing peace to the world or something. She will hug everyone into submission.What They Would Get Arrested For: Probably for standing too close to ULT. Ult is the one who probably gets arrested, but Beans is like 'no. I shall go in your place.'OC You Ship Them With: Ult, but Beans is very oblivious girl.OC Most Likely To Murder Them: NOBODY WOULD WANT TO MURDER BEANS. TOO PURE.Favorite Movie/Book Genre: The bibleLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: She hasn't found a book she hasn't liked yet.Talents and/or Powers: Healing, basic animal communication, shedding cat hair on black clothes good purring skills.Why Someone Might Love Them: She's this pure friendly creature who has faith in all the creatures and that interanlly everyone is good inside. She is friends with EVERYONE.Why Someone Might Hate Them: *see above*How They Change: IDK.Why You Love Them: She's a frickin' cat named Beans. She's literally a BAG of SMILES.

　

Full Name: Love Potion 42Gender and Sexuality: Genderfluid, PansexualPronouns: He/HimEthnicity/Species: SlimeBirthplace and Birthdate:Slime Witch's Lab, Febuary 14thGuilty Pleasures: Oviposition, Breeding Kink with Eggs basically. Phobias: Water. Slimes don't really DO water. They're Hydrophobic creatures.What They Would Be Famous For: Fabulously hyper Libido What They Would Get Arrested For: Public indecency.OC You Ship Them With: anyone. They're down to clown.OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Slime Witch. She's so tired of cleaning up his gross boi messesFavorite Movie/Book Genre: Trashy Porn with Plots/Trashy novelsLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: He doesn't like horror movies.Talents and/or Powers: Shape Shifting and being...well. gelatonious.Why Someone Might Love Them: He can be anything and take anyside so long as it doesn't exceed his default slime. Soooo, he can fufill a lot of people's personal requirements.Why Someone Might Hate Them: Well, he makes a giant mess most of the time after his little sexcapades.How They Change: No change yet.Why You Love Them: He's just asthetically pleasing to look at with his pinks and little hearts.

　

Full Name: Bertram 'Tramber' LyreGender and Sexuality: Genderlfuid, BisexualPronouns: He/HimEthnicity/Species: Formerly human, now sort of an organic robot?Birthplace and Birthdate: A parallel Earth, sometime in March.Guilty Pleasures: Drinking...a Lot. It's not even really guilty, it's the only thing he seems to want to do with his spare time.Phobias: People moving the furniture. Like it's not even a real Phobia, but it's just something that pisses him the hell off. He can't see very well, so he doesn't like people REARRANGING THE DAMN FURNITURE.What They Would Be Famous For: Tumult was already fairly famousWhat They Would Get Arrested For: Murder, human expermintation, breaking and entering a liqour store.OC You Ship Them With: Moshi. But since I'm a complex bitch, it's onesided where Tumult just LOATHES Moshi. Scapel the MoonRat has a big gross crush on him. Tumult was apparently married before he became 'Tumult'OC Most Likely To Murder Them: SO MANY PEOPLE WOULD LOVE TO MURDER TUMULT. But None More then SAI, the living Virus.Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Historical FictionLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: Science Fiction. They're usually highly inaccurate and he has little patienceTalents and/or Powers: Electrokinsis, can hook up to almost any computer or electronic device, skilled surgeon, doctor and robotisits.Why Someone Might Love Them: He is very hard to love. Few have seen his more compassionate patient gentle side or even rarer his more vunerable moments.Why Someone Might Hate Them: He's mean, abrasive, snarky, sarcastic and rarely apolgizes. He hurts people and rarely makes amends for it.How They Change: He was orginally a goofy silly character, but since he's been put in the Starfell story line, he's much more darker, bitter and moody.Why You Love Them: I orginally made him for an RP group and he just grew on me.

　

Full Name: YolandaGender and Sexuality: Female, Most likely asexualPronouns: She/HerEthnicity/Species: Frosslass, GhostBirthplace and Birthdate: Siberia, unknown.Guilty Pleasures: Indulging in Emotional relationships (usually friendships.)Phobias: ???IDK.What They Would Be Famous For: Either her notablely impressive boobs or the fact she appears in a lot of students art galleries since she's a part time art model.What They Would Get Arrested For: Public MurderOC You Ship Them With: I did ship her for a while with Freak, but now it's more one sided. I ship her currently with happiness.OC Most Likely To Murder Them: Can't kill A Ghost.Favorite Movie/Book Genre: Mad Max, Adventure novelsLeast Favorite Movie/Book Cliche: The Kind of Romance books where There is zero character development for the female characters.Talents and/or Powers: Manipulation of Ice and SnowWhy Someone Might Love Them: She's beautiful, pretty smart and funny.Why Someone Might Hate Them: When she catch's on that you're only into her for her tits, she's a mega super bitch.How They Change: She used to be a huge Yandere character....uh...still is, but much less Yandere.Why You Love Them: She's just fun to draw, idk man. I can't justify everything.

[mtwy]

Tiger Beat Star

USA March 1985

Singing sensation, Madonna, who has always loved performing since she was very young, says that her parents didn’t really appreciate her talents. “My father is a very conservative Catholic/Italian. When I was young he thought that I was a show-off and that’s not considered proper in the Catholic Church - to get on stage and make a spectacle of yourself. I was always very sexy when I was a little girl - my father saw that and I think it scared him.

After the success of her debut LP, which has sold more than 1.5 Million copies and produced such hits as “Borderline, “Holiday”, and “Lucky Star,” Madonna is quickly establishing herself as the total star. The second record, Like a Virgin has jumped to the top of the charts with an equally popular video. If that wasn’t enough, she can be seen making a cameo appearance in the film Vision Quest and star in the soon-to-be released, Desperately Seeking Susan. STAR visited the set of Desperately Seeking Susan and had a revealing talk with the irrepressible Madonna.

Why Madonna is her own Lucky Star

by Lisa Arcella

Late one afternoon we find ourselves headed to New York City’s Harlem where we plan to visit strangely enough, a movie set. From the outside of this abandoned ballroom, you’d never guess that inside a film starring Rosanna Arquette, Aiden Quinn and rock star Madonna was in progress. We are greeted by the film’s publicist, who takes us on a guided tour of the different sets and even lets us sit in while a scene is being taped. The really special portion of the day comes when we sit down at a table near the wardrobe room and wait for the arrival of Madonna.

She greets us with a smile, as she sits down with a cup of tea and makes herself comfortable. Her blond hair is swept up to reveal the crucifix earrings that have become her trademark. I want to know if making movies is as glamorous as it seems “It couldn’t be further away from being glamorous.” she laughs. “There are lots of long hours and lots of waiting around and lots of doing nothing, and lots of eating terrible food! It’s not glamorous at all.” While she waits, Madonna says she likes to “read, play music, dance around and exercise in my trailer.”

She also manages to read her mail and she’s certainly getting a lot of that these days. “It’s either boys writing in letters to tell me that they want to make love to me, or young girls writing letters saying that they want to be like me and dress like me, stuff like that,” she smiles. “They’re all adoring.” Getting fan mail pleases Madonna mainly because she’s worked hard to get to where she’s at in her career.

She is someone who is undeniably and unashamedly ambitious, ever since she was growing up as Madonna Ciccone (named after her mother), outside of Detroit, Michigan. In the eighth grade, she starred in a Super-8 movie directed by a friend, who fried an egg on her stomach. After a short stint in college, it was off to New York to pursue a career as a dancer and she arrived in the Big Apple with $35 in her pocket. She studied with the famous Alvin Ailey Dance Troupe and in her spare time sang and learned a variety of instruments.

A brief trip to Paris followed where she was promised stardom, but she soon returned to New York to establish her own style as a performer. Her career really took off though when a friend, Mark Kamins, a deejay at New York’s Danceteria played her demo tape at the club and had everyone on their feet and dancing. It wasn’t long before Madonna had signed with Sire Records.

Coming to New York was a definite risk for Madonna, and one that wasn’t supported by her family “I didn’t go to New York with my father’s good wishes,” she explains. “In fact, he was very angry with me. I think he still has mixed feelings. I mean, I’m sure that he’s glad for me now that I’m doing well, but I don’t think that he truly understands why or what I’m doing. If I said I was going to be a doctor or a biochemist, he could understand that, but being an entertainer doesn’t really make any sense to him. Now he sees me, running around stage in my garter belts, that doesn’t really thrill him either!”

Although she concedes it would be nice to please her father, she realizes that it’s important to first be true to yourself. “Yeah, it would be nice if he was happy with what I’m doing, but I can’t dwell on it, you know? I have to have time to be my own person and I have to please myself.”

In Desperately Seeking Susan, Madonna plays “Susan,” a girl living life in the fast lane of New York City. Rosanna Arquette plays “Roberta,” a bored New Jersey housewife looking for excitement. For some time, “Roberta” has followed a flamboyant love affair being carried through the personal ads, involving a young man who is ‘desperately seeking’ a certain “Susan.” “Roberta” invites herself into the lives of these strangers and before long she is part of a comedy of errors where she is mistaken for “Susan,” and so the confusion begins.

One of the reasons Madonna was attracted to the role of “Susan,” was because she saw a lot of herself in the character. “When you say I describe myself as a free spirit and adventurous person, I think we have that in common,” she says with a smile.

In addition to making that movie, Madonna has recently released Like a Virgin and made the video to that song in Venice, Italy. Musically, she says her greatest influences came through the Motown era during the 60′s as well as some of today’s top performers. “Prince, Michael Jackson, something like that, I am affected by it, maybe not consciously, but it affects me. It’s definitely my favorite kind of music because it crosses all race barriers. I prefer that.”

What’s next for rock’s newest superstar? “When I am done with the movie, I’m going to make another video. I’m supposed to be getting ready for a tour of Japan and Australia, then come back here and maybe do another movie and go on a tour of America in the late spring. And then I will probably commit myself to a mental institution!” she laughs

With all of this success at an early age, it’s bound to change you somehow. I asked Madonna if she thought that success had made her a better person and she responded by saying, “Success doesn’t make you a better person. Hopefully the learning that you do and the education that you get as you are moving up makes you a better person, not the success. You know it’s nice to finally have the chance to do what you want to do, that’s fufilling. To say that you have recognition and respect makes you feel good about yourself. It makes you feel like you’ve made the right decision but I don’t think it makes you a better person. A lot of times it will ruin you if you take it too seriously.”

It’s very obvious that Madonna made the right decision. As a star, she continues to move up with her feet firmly on the ground.