#i was fucking superman. i am so proud of myself. why couldn't she be proud of me instead of resentful? | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

brainjuicey · 1 year

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I like those little stories about heartbreak and two people who come back together like streams of a river, like the one by my house, because i think life was cruel to me and the love I had that "all turned to guilt and shame" because. because. there's a lot of reasons and also none. it just happened. we broke up. I don't even know who I'm mourning. if we could've figured out how to fix what went wrong, I would have, she didn't feel the same way. I was tired of always being the one who had the plan, until the plan didn't serve her anymore.

#you trust someone and then they self destruct and hide it from you and then blame you #i told she was addicted to her own pain #she said nothing could undo the amount of gaslighting but it was her responsibility to know what was going on with herself #so how can i be accused of intentionally invalidating her problems with me? she treated me so unfairly #so wrapped up in her own suffering #i believed in her and it hurts to see her break it over and over #why wont she apologise?#i deserve an apology #i just dont understand how she could think any of it is my fault #i was fucking superman. i am so proud of myself. why couldn't she be proud of me instead of resentful?#i trusted myself and i honestly dont care what crimes i may have committed to survive #it was a miracle i survived and she didnt give me any help #she never helped me she had nothing to offer i gave everything i made all the sacrifices i didnt care because i believed in her #it was not equal #and i will never forgive her

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