#you trust someone and then they self destruct and hide it from you and then blame you

[piplupod]

mistakes were made. should not have gone to library today. i will be leaving the house all five days of the week now (plus we went to a waterside on sunday for several hours) and uhm... i feel like i need to go hibernate for several weeks to feel even remotely okay again fhdkdl i am so tired i can barely think enough to string words together in any comprehendable way 🧍<- upset

[brainjuicey]

I like those little stories about heartbreak and two people who come back together like streams of a river, like the one by my house, because i think life was cruel to me and the love I had that "all turned to guilt and shame" because. because. there's a lot of reasons and also none. it just happened. we broke up. I don't even know who I'm mourning. if we could've figured out how to fix what went wrong, I would have, she didn't feel the same way. I was tired of always being the one who had the plan, until the plan didn't serve her anymore.

[seelestia]

⟡ to set one's self aflame. (do it all for love.)

⎯ how protective are they of you? how do they protect you and how do they like being protected in return? { s for security ノordered by @phantovia! }

RESERVED FOR! ꒰ character ꒱. lyney ft. gn!reader. { 1.5k words wc }

FLAVOR! ꒰ genre ꒱. fluff & sprinkles of lore angst, established relationship.

TOPPINGS! ꒰ tags ꒱. lowkey a character study made poetic (???). mentions of self-destructive habits, also pls don't smile at lyney bcs he's weak in the knees for u.

BAKER’S NOTE! ꒰ thoughts ꒱. thanks for the req, yona! i got to appreciate this silly guy all over again thanks to u ‹3 ik ur acc is already archived so i hope this made for a nice tribute. pls take care of urself & have a good life ahead 🫂

© seelestia on tumblr, june 2024. please do not repost, plagiarize, translate, use for AI-related purposes or claim as your own.

lyney is protective to a concerning extent. the instinct of an older brother, maybe?

there is some sort of irony to be found in it all since the reason he protects to a 'concerning' extent is out of concern in the first place.

behind his show of brilliance, you consider yourself lucky enough to have witnessed a side to lyney that his audience wouldn't have guessed; that he is a worrier in every aspect of the word. whether for his family, for you, for his friends or for others he comes across that are plagued by misfortune - if all that worry were to come in the shape of dimes, he'd already have an abundance of them to share with the entire nation of fontaine.

but he has no choice, does he?

his background is not a clean slate nor is it a display of sunshine and rainbows resembling his magic shows. lyney's hands are tainted, covered by his gloves as a measly means of self-solace. he has to worry. associating himself deeply and intimately with another is a risk on its own - comparable to dragging someone else down into the murkier depths with him. he can never do that, never has the courage nor the heart to.

(but fortunately for him, you've always been braver than most.)

. . .isn't that why you offered your hand, your trust to him first? he swore to never let you down from that day on.

easier said than done, however.

the house of the hearth operates within the shadows but as for its foes? some also prefer to dwell in the dark and some move in broad daylight. no matter what it is, they all require the same precaution: for him to keep his guard up at all times. every child has been trained by “father” to know that but you're an innocent, tied to this precarious matter merely due to your connection with him.

(“i don't regret anything,” you told him but he didn't look into your eyes, conflicted. you couldn't tell if he believed you or not.)

how was your day? have you eaten? you look sad, did something happen? — all these little questions are a way for him to show that he cares, that you're important, that you're his responsibility and he'll be there for you.

bound by both guilt and love, lyney promises to keep you safe. from whatever kinds of threats there are; whether it be fools with nefarious schemes or even an insect you're too scared to touch, he'll keep you safe all the same. so please, don't hide from him if you're dealing with something. it's better to let him handle it. . . right, correction: the two of you can handle it together.

(truly, his desire to protect can both be his greatest strength and most formidable foe.)

the way lyney protects is through self-sacrifice, granting peace in exchange for destruction of the self.

since the very beginning, lyney has grown used to seeing the world through the lens of a protector.

he recalls the old times where he and lynette loitered the streets in ragged clothes and the only refuge he could provide her with was his hand. it mattered not if he was freezing cold from the rain. . . as long as his little sister was protected, comforted by whatever warmth he had left - it's alright. to do that wasn't an option then, it was a necessity.

to sacrifice himself is a habit. it's easy to adopt but not at all easy to discard.

in lyney's eyes, burdens often seem as if they would be lighter upon his shoulders than they are on another's - but this is only wishful thinking. only meant to convince himself that pain shall eventually lose its harsh bite the more he bears it. “well, has it?” if asked, he cannot give an answer. regardless, that alone is enough of a justification for him because he can't bear the thought of doing anything else; to stand idly by, to be utterly useless.

if he has the means to protect others, why wouldn't he do so? even if he wears himself down to the bone, he’d do it again. akin to a bright flame lit in a hearth, lyney envelopes those near him in a blanket of warmth - and if the blaze threatens to flicker, he'd simply ignite a piece of himself to prevent it from diminishing into futile cinders. he won't let it happen.

(but little does he know that even cinders still serve a purpose. they exist as proof, a sign that his sacrifice has never been in vain.)

in return, lyney feels protected by simply knowing that you're happy (and your acknowledgement of his efforts).

let's call it an innate principle that belongs to a magician; he wants to see smiles on the faces of others. “a smile weighs much lighter for your face to carry compared to a frown, no?” he joked to you once, tapping gently on the corner of his lips with a grin. it was said with a light heart, but you knew he meant it deep down.

(he always does so much, only to ask for so little in return.)

you were not so cruel that you couldn't even grant him that, so you smiled. genuine and grateful. “. . .thank you, lyney,” you said. he fell quiet then. had the wind been knocked out of his lungs or had the world stopped spinning? he thought he saw stars in your eyes, but that couldn't possibly be true. the sun glaring down at him from behind the clouds above remained unmoved.

not like it mattered, anyway. his poor heart was far too occupied with you to care about the answer. “o-oh? you're welcome. . .” lyney blinked, multiple times, dazedly.

gratitude is not a foreign concept to him; he often receives it from an audience member, a lonely elder he briefly chatted with, a fellow member from the house of the hearth — so, just what makes it different now? perhaps, it's because he knows that you've beared witness to his heart that lies deeper within.

that you see right through him, that you're thanking him for who he truly is, although he no longer has a definite image of “self” from the countless white lies piling at his feet like a tower. yet he finds comfort in it, in the way you hold his sullied hands so kindly. he isn't wearing gloves this time. strange, lyney had never imagined transparency to be a feeling so benevolent and cathartic.

no matter what thoughts are buzzing in his head or what ache tugs on his body, they can pester him as much as they'd like - with one swift recall of your smile, lyney feels as if he can banish them even if momentarily. they'll come back sooner or later, he knows, but is it cowardly of him to find solace in that brief respite?

when lynette taps on his cheek to wake him up in the morning, when freminet knocks on his door to deliver something, when other siblings flock around him to welcome him home, or when you come to visit him after a long day — those worries disappear — but even if he already knows that they will make their inevitable return. . . perhaps, everything will be okay.

(it has to be, he tells himself.)

“did something happen yesterday?”

your lunch with a certain feline girl in front of hotel bouffes d'ete kickstarts with a simple question. but the abruptness of it all wipes away the content look on your face and replaces it with a frown.

the tea in your cup reflects your reflection as much as it does your perplexity. lynette lifts her own teacup to her lips, composed while you're lost in thought, confused.

“lyney went home with a wide smile on his face yesterday,” she elaborates, humming either at the tea or at the current matter she's recalling. perhaps, even both but you aren't sure yet. “while this wouldn't be an odd occurrence, i thought there must've been a special occasion to warrant a smile that wide.”

ah. the realization dawns on you in gentle waves. he said something that prompted a smile out of you yesterday — the exchange of a kind “thank you” from your side and a flustered “you're welcome” from his — not that smiling is a rarity around him, hardly, the one thing magicians do best is attract smiles.

your gaze drifts down to stare at nothing in particular. fond memories filled with the face of a familiar magician swims before your eyes. “hm. . . it must've meant a lot more to him than i expected,” you mumble to yourself. in your eyes, you'd think the look on your face represents the paradigm of nostalgia but in lynette's eyes, you look like a madman smiling to yourself so intensely.

“not you too,” she lets out a resigned sigh, placing down her teacup. “smiling to yourself like that. . .” she shakes her head in a disappointed manner, “you and lyney must've been rubbing off on each other these days.”

“maybe a bit too much,” lynette adds, but there is a ghost of a smile on her face this time around.

you can only smile sheepishly.

— thank you for reading! reblogs with comments are most appreciated.

[aesthetic-gem]

the intense narrative foiling between the death of q!tubbo and the death of q!badboyhalo.

q!tubbo’s death felt like it happened so suddenly. many of those around him didn’t even believe it was real. one second he was playing around and then for a brief instant he begged for his life and then he was gone.

q!bbh’s death felt very slow. that he himself was stretching it out for as long as possible. there was time for him to prepare and for others to realize. to have the terrible feeling of grieving someone while they’re still alive.

and that’s not to say that q!tubbo’s death was random and out of nowhere because it wasn’t. similar to q!bbh, you could see his slow path to self destruction for months. but once again, those two were foils to one another.

q!tubbo was not one to hide it. the way he would say that he wouldn’t shower or change his clothes for brief periods of time. that he would willingly let himself get hurt without a care in the world. the thought that no one would take him seriously about things and he had said that thought out loud before. he spent his last moments gambling his own life away.

q!bbh would always try to hide it. although the evidence was clearly on his face and back, he would deny deny deny until those last final days. and even then it was only to those he trusted. he let himself get hurt by the soul vultures in his own home away from everyone else. he spent his last moments alone, panicking over old memories that still hurt him.

in the end, their commonality lays in that the kids were always the first ones to realize something was wrong. that they could see that the decline was slow but meaningful to them. the two soulhunters, bound together by fighting so fiercely to protect those who were not even their own, although it led to their deaths. the realm of the living waits for their returns and misses them in the shape of eggs

[cozymoko]

hello:)) could you maybe do a yandere kaname kuran with another pure blood girl? the girl could be a pretty inexperienced vampire, maybe she was kept as a human for safety kinda like yuki.. change around as you like!! thank you☺️☺️

if possible maybe even a little spicy 😏😏

YANDERE! KANAME W/ A PUREBLOOD READER — 🩸

Pairing: Yandere! Kaname Kuran x new pureblood! reader

Note: Yesss, ofc!

Format: Headcanons; 2nd person

WARNING(S): yandere themes, slightly suggestive (bad)

THE COLLAPSE OF many pureblood families had unfortunately not been uncommon. Yours, my dear, happened to be the unfortunate choice. And with their destruction went your title. You had been forced to live as a human, without a memory to your name. All for the sake of your being, a new bloodline. It felt surreal, like a dream. A dream you had no choice but to come to terms with.

Luckily (or not) for you, a certain Kuran was determined to revive your former self. The real one he had come to adore. Hah, it's safe to say you have a very extensive past with each other.

Though he admits, your parents did quite an extraordinary job at hiding your whereabouts. Not even your average pure blood was guaranteed success in their searches for you. However, Kaname is no ordinary pure blood; oh heavens no! He is the Kaname Kuran, a rather selfish and greedy man when it comes to those he holds dear to him.

You happen to be one of the few. How lovely~!

Kaname reaches out and cups your cheeks in his palms. He savored the warmth of your skin, for it was the last time he would feel it. The gentle flushing of your cheeks had gnawed away at his last ounce of composure. Truthfully, it wasn't in his best interest to ravish you, though it was tempting. It would simply have to wait.

He almost felt guilty for snatching it all away from you. The subtle beauty of being a human, living your life as anything bus immortal, passing on with those you held close. Ahem — almost.

“[Name],” The man cooed. “Do you trust me?” You blinked, resisting the urge to squirm under his watchful gaze. He was a patient man, though not when it came to you.

Even having you beneath him for hours on end had not been enough to quench his thirst. Even now, he awaited your answer like a loyal dog, itching for your affections.

“Y...yes.”

Your hesitancy didn't go unnoticed, not that it mattered anyways. Your skin went soft against the chill of his lips, it was definitely something you had to get used to. Kaname slowly nipped at your skin, lavishing it in wet, hot kisses.

He held your hand tight in one hand, fingers interlocked into one; whilst the other tucked loose strands from your sight. Gently stripping you of the silks that concealed your skin, allowing your blood to bleed through its sheer fabric.

“Let me know if it hurts, [Name].”

HE WAS QUICK to wed you after your transformation.

However, he’ll keep it a secret if you happen to attend the academy. There's no doubt that you’ll be transferred to the night class to live alongside him and the others. Though he tries so hard to hide it, he’s a possessive man at heart. Kaname in no way views you as an object, and yet he wishes to own your entire being.

Under no circumstances will you take blood from another man - or anyone for that matter. If you do, he’s quick to wipe them from your sight. You should never have to rely on someone who isn't him. Just the thought drives him insane.

Isolated and subjected to hours of needles, torturous thoughts of the world around you. The world you had once embraced in your mortal body. It's a shame what love does to a person. It's laughable, truly. You just happened to be one of the lucky ones to get to finally understand what hell feels like...

Im intrigued; wont you tell me a little, dear~?

Soft tears spilled from your puffy eyes for what seemed to be endless. They were warm, something your skin no longer was. You had tried not to let your sorrows consume you, but today, they’d bested you. Hugging your knees to your chest, you peer out one of the many windows that stretched along the Kuran manor. Well, your manor. And yet it provided you little comfort. “What’s bothering you so much, dear?”

Instinctively, you reach out, allowing the man to scoop you into his lean arms. You were a fool, your mother would scold you. How could you ever allow a Kuran to woo you so; to take away the mortal life you were gifted? But you couldn’t help it, he was all you had. Kaname was the only one who kept you warm at night.

Kaname was the only reminder of your old life.

Kaname was the only one you could trust.

Kaname —

“I’m sorry…” Kaname murmurs, pressing a chaste kiss to the crown of your head. “I truly am {Name}. Please, dry your tears.”

Sorry? Yes, that he was. Although not for the reasons you’re thinking dearest. He’s a Kuran after all; the man is bound to be selfish! Kaname is so, oh so very sorry. He hates seeing you cry…but, he hates the thought of losing you much more.

[jester089]

If it’s ok, can you indulge my love for The Amazing Digital Circus?

I was just thinking of the gang with an s/o who’s seen as the rock of the group that is always strong willed, happy go luck, helpful and supportive. But they stumble upon their s/o just having an episode where they’re crying in frustration and punching a wall to calm down before going back to pretending like nothing happened?

I have a thing for strong willed characters hiding their perceived weakness from others.

Be strong for them

Thanks for the request! I feel for this type of character a lot. Now you didn't specify if you wanted the whole crew and you being the s/o of one. Or individual. So I'll do individual so that whoever your fav is their'll be something for them. Except Bubble though cause I just can't come up with stuff for them, sry.

Caine

Despite being an AI who doesn't really understand humans I feel he would notice your inner turmoil. He kind of has too! Cause he has to watch for and know if someone is going to abstract. Moving on he appreciates you being strong willed and a joy to be around seeing as how it makes others stick around longer. You can't have a circus without performers after all. Caine being how he is he would most likely just appear in your room while your having a breakdown multiple times because he wants something from you not even noticing you having trouble mentally. Only time he would really notice is if you were at the apex of that breakdown when he showed up. I can 100% see him just floating a few feet away from you one eyebrow raised for a minute with worried eyes before he asked if you were ok. If you said yes, despite what he think's he'll believe you. First few times. If you say no and seem to be looking for some comfort he'll do his best but he isn't exactly good at that kind of thing. More likely then not he wont really touch you but he'll give some words of encouragement and probably ask if their is anything you want (except a way out of the digital realm.) And whatever you ask for you'll have in an instant. But their is a limit. He can't be spoiling you now. He still needs your input on things and giving gifts wont be special anymore if you get whatever you want whenever you want. And after doing the bare minimum and seeing you bounce back and be how you always are he'll assume that what he did worked perfectly and your fine now. He's a little dense I'll be honest. 2.5/10 comfort

Gangle

Now Gangle isn't exactly good with emotions. She has tons sure. But handling them is another story. But you being there and always seemingly in a good mood nothing really affecting you will help her keep calm. I mean just having an anchor can make stuff you usually can't deal with seem small. (Especially if you stick up to Jax for her. Or better yet get her confident enough to do it herself.) When she walked in on you having a breakdown first thing her mind would go to is that your on the verge abstracting which causes her to panic and make the whole thing worse. She doesn't try to it's just a lot all at once. Especially considering how you don't usually show this kind of stuff. Now once the initial shock has worn off and at least she has calmed down some she'll be pretty good at helping you calm down. I mean she's a cinnamon roll. Even if her ways of comfort don't work well just knowing she's trying will definitely help. Now if you cope with more self destructive ways she'll be more worried but try her best to trust you. Though that doesn't mean she'll just let you punch things, especially things that could hurt you (I've punched a few walls in my time and I can safely say it hurts.) Now when you just snap back to how you usually are nothing expect the red eyes and dried tear streams on your face will cause a whole load of more worry in her. How long has this been going on?! Are you ok?! Can she do anything?! DO YOU STILL LOVE HER!?! If you don't accept her help she'll probably start to spiral and take that as you don't trust her enough or you don't think she can help you. So for her sake, and yours let her help. Cause if you do that'll lead to a whole lot of trust and make a very sturdy base for your relationship. It'll also help her get better with emotions as a whole. She wishes she could do more for you but she can and will do what she can with what she has. 8/10 comfort

Zooble

Oof. This probably isn't going to end well. It's basically like a angsty teen trying to comfort someone they care about. Zooble probably acts like she hates how happy and upbeat you are. But she doesn't. When she's laying in bed not wanting to get up the thought of going on an adventure and watching you be dumb on purpose makes her smile and get up. Sure every day is the same in the circus, but with you there it's a nice version of repetitiveness. Now Zooble has a lot of problems. Everyone in the circus does. But if she walked in on your having a breakdown I feel like she would honestly just turn around and leave. Not because she doesn't care. But because she feels she'll make it worse if she stays. Every 5 minutes or so she'll poke her head back in your room to see how your doing. Probably accompanied with a quiet "You uhhh. You doing ok?" if your still crying. Now if she peaked her head in and you were back to normal she might honestly think she hallucinated you crying like that. But their are some things you can't hide. Like puffy eyes or how your voice is a little wavy from crying. So knowing even less what to do now she'll just join you in your room and sit on your bed hoping that just her being around will be enough. Now if you break down again and start venting about what is worrying you she'll sit there and listen intently. If not she'll think that your still not doing ok but she doesn't really know how to bring that out. Or help with it. Overall her comfort is a little lacking but she's trying her best. 4.5/10 comfort

Kinger

Now I headcannon that Kinger is really, really, REALLY good at comfort. I mean did you see the impenetrable fortresses door, and how it was being held up. I don't think a single person ever who is good at making pillow forts is bad at comfort. I feel like overall he would be pretty indifferent to you being all happy though he would appreciate the supportive vibe you bring. He's crazy, I'll just be honest about that. But he seems to be surprisingly resilient as he never gets worse, or better. He just is. When he walks in on you freaking out he doesn't flinch or is surprised. He's been in the digital circus a long time. And he's lost many. He understands why. So he just calmly walks in gives you a light hug No idea how. He doesn't have arms. and a quick forehead kiss. He sits you two down on the floor and makes a little pillow wall around you two. Then he (in a surprisingly calm voice) asks what's troubling you. Now you don't exactly have a choice of if you do or don't tell him. He's lost to many to just leave you on your own in this. So he'll sit there a hand resting on your knee while you mentally prepare yourself. Out of everyone he's the most likely to genuinely and long term help you calm down. He's seen many things, been through many things. No matter what it is that's worrying you it wont surprise him and he can probably help. 10/10 comfort

Ragatha

Well aren't you two just the perfect duo Ragtha is pretty mentally drained having the always be the one that everyone rely on. She was the only anchor for this place the only one keeping everyone spirits high. Then you showed up and made the work 50/50. That's what initially made you catch her eye. You two have enough infection happiness and good vibes to make just about anyone have a good day. Though their are diminishing returns the digital circus wouldn't be the same without you two. When she walks in on your falling apart she reacts two ways. One she also starts freaking out (Just instinct at this point. I mean you saw her in the pilot, every time Pomni started breaking down she interrupted it.) And two a whole lot of understanding on where your coming from. She sits down with you and lets your get it all out before speaking. She asks if your ok, if she can do anything, and what caused it. Once you explain that it's just all so much. The circus, having to be strong for everyone else. It puts so much pressure on you. On hearing that Ragatha breaks into tears flipping the comfort giver and receiver. Once she has gotten most of it out and can make comprehensible sentences again she explains how she's going through the same. On hearing that you feel really bad. You've only been here what a year and your already breaking down over it. But you've always had Ragatha there to lighten the load. But she's been here so much longer doing the exact same but without anyone else to help her. So you make it a kind of personal mission from then on to not make your problems hers and help her out when and wherever you can. -3/10 Comfort. She just had a lot of stuff bottled up and ended up making you worry about even more.

Jax

Jax's first thought would probably be "Oh great, another Ragatha to deal with." But something about you isn't as annoying to him as Ragatha. He actually enjoys and appreciates all that you do for him. And the others too I guess. Now be warned Jax deals with a lot of stuff with humor. And his sense of humor is putting others through anguish mental, emotional, and physical. So when he first finds you crying will most likely make a joke about you being a cry baby or "So you finally broke huh? I always wondered how long it would take" making you feel much worse about it. When if he notices that he'll feel bad and stop maybe. He'll more likely then not just exist in your room, leaning against a wall or grabbing random items off of shelves/your desk to fiddle with. Now when you snap back to how you usually are I really feel like he'll just be like "Oh cool. You fine. Well I'm gonna go get some food." then leave you alone with your thoughts. (I'm sorry to all you Jax fans it's just I don't go for looks like most do. I'm entirely attracted to personality. And Jax's isn't great. I mean Gooseworx confirmed that he isn't like nice deep down. He's just an a$&hole. So if Jax is your fav my Tumblr ain't for you.) 0/10

Pomni

You and Ragatha keep Pomni in one piece. (I mean if Ragatha wasn't in the pilot I feel like Pomni would already be abstracted.) So she kind of clings to you. Not physically but she would fall apart pretty quickly without you there. So when you asked her to grab something for you she did without a second thought. But she wasn't expecting to come back to hearing crying followed by a loud thump in your room. She sprints over and throws the door open only for you to be completely ok and sitting at your desk. You thank her for grabbing it for you then go back to what you were doing making her think she's gone of the deep end and is hearing things. But then it happens again, and again. Leading her to believe your just hiding something from her. So next time it happens she sneaks up to your door and carefully peaks inside only to see your tugging at your hair tears streaming down your face. You punch the wall making her jump and make some noise. Your eyes lock onto the small crack in between the door and the frame you two locking eyes. She blushes heavily then slowly opens the door basically admitting to eavesdropping. She was just worried is all. You quickly clean yourself up and apologize for having her see you like that only causing her to worry more. She doesn't push it knowing from experience how that feels but from that day on she tries to not put as much pressure on you. And makes an effort to return the favor when she can. 4.5/10 comfort (I sincerely enjoyed writing this. Cause I am also a sucker for that kind of character. Hope you enjoyed it!)

xoxo, Jester

[mysterycitrus]

All of your Bruce takes are so real and so true. It must break your back having to carry the weight of being the most correct batman account on this website. 🙏🏻 I love your thoughts about Bruce and Dick in particular and I was wondering if you had any thoughts about Bruce and Damian? Something about them is just… oh boy.

that’s very sweet but untrue, anon 🫰

i love damian and bruce's relationship, but it's hard to talk about without mentioning two other crucial people - talia and dick. for my own sanity i only accept damian's conception as a consensual act, so in this context talia is a fundamentally well-meaning person who attempted to protect her son from a violent life, and hid his existance from bruce until she felt he could be safe. damian loves and respects his mother. this is important.

dick, on the other hand, is really the foundation for their relationship. bruce spent like two weeks with this kid before he went on his timestream roadtrip and left everything behind for dick to juggle. contrary to popular opinion, i think it's a real disservice to act like dick taught damian to "be a good person" or like basic etiquette - a more realistic interpretation would be that dick taught damian that he didn't have to prove himself to be worth something.

the robin mantle from the time it was taken from dick has always been about proving yourself to bruce, to justify your role as his partner. always unfairly, mind (think how tim is treated vs. steph, for example), but damian is the first robin's robin. dick isn't a wayne, he's a grayson. there's an interesting point of comparison being that dick is the only robin who had a clear trajectory for his life prior to his parents dying - he was a core member of the worlds greatest acrobatic troupe - but he then left that path to become something else. damian is destined for the bat, but becomes robin instead, serving beside someone who achieved greatness by his own skill and kindness. damian has been told about his father, and here he is with someone who knows bruce better than anyone but also understands what robin means, better than anyone. i cannot emphasise how important i think dick being damian's first batman is for their own development. it's so so crucial to combat damian's perspective on family and blood. it's so important that he has that foundational knowledge of what robin means.

by the time bruce returns, damian has made tangible human connections in gotham. he's not the prickly, reactive kid that bruce first met. he's allowed himself to trust that the people around him have his best interests in mind. he knows that he isn't cared for because he's bruce's son - he's cared for because he's worth loving. his siblings aren't competition for affection or honour. he no longer sees bruce as an omnipotent force, and rather as a man he could learn to love. i think seeing bruce through both talia and dick's persepectives really helps with that.

bruce i think is confronted by the fact that for the first time in his life he can't try and hide behind the "im not really xyz's father" excuse. not that his adopted kids aren't his kids, obviously, but i do think he sometimes tries to lean on that as a crutch so he doesn't get attached (way too late for that lol). he loves damian, and there's a lot of fear about damian reflecting his worst habits, his most self-destructive behaviours back at him. maybe there's some fear about damian's history of killing, and how close bruce himself always feels to that edge. maybe there's misery about missing one of his kids growing up, again, like he's always a second too late to the important moments. bruce and damian are so similar, but this is bruce's second chance to be there. he is thomas wayne, emerging from the alley alive. do u think damian looks like his grandparents?

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be direct; expose your true desires in order to gain. you are a shark this new year, so make sure you aren't lurking in the depths. something needs exposing in your life - something that has been causing a lot of tension for you; now is the time to face it head on so you can have a better year than you did previously. be honest, be yourself, and say what you want most from the people and the world around you. when you are in your zone this year, you will feel captivating and mysterious. being destructive or sneaky are likely to hold you back, so be honest and upfront to continue to gain this year.

shufflemancy: "stuntman" by tyler, the creator

pile two

you are someone who is funny - whether it is wit or sarcasm, it is hard to tell. you have a lot of dreams that you previously had you at a standstill. now is not the time to use humor to hide your disappointment and hurt. stop joking and masking this year - i want you to think about what would happen if you were to take your goals/dreams seriously. when you are in your zone you will be charming, witty, and fun to be around. being scrappy, petty, and suspicious like a hyena will only set you back, so sober yourself to the world around so you can have better luck this year in making your dreams into reality.

shufflemancy: "happier than ever" by billie eilish

pile three

you are someone who is grounded and trusting - you are at home in yourself, much like a turtle. this is a good year to learn even more about yourself and the world around you. travel and try new things - gain new experiences. you are likely someone who is naturally good at story telling, so make should you are using a journal this year so that your memories might be read by generations to come - you have a wealth of experience and wisdom to share with others so do so. when you are in your zone you will feel adventurous and productive. being stagnant will hold you back, so make sure you are moving about and seeing the world.

shufflemancy: "red light green light" by dababy

[inoreuct]

How do unsupervised children react to Zoro's tiger form, and how does Zoro react in turn? 👀

weretiger zoro hcs part 3

lesgo.

i think sanji is very very aware of how dangerous zoro is and that just emphasises how careful zoro is with him,,, when they roughhouse with him in tiger form the most he does is roll around and bat at sanji with his paws and tail and at first sanji was like “do you think i’m that weak marimo tf??” until he saw tiger!zoro wreaking havoc and destruction across the battlefield and he was like oh. yeah ok that’s fine

the first time chopper meets zoro, the swordsman’s in his tiger form and chopper’s honestly terrified bcs predator?? huge predator?? zoro stalks towards him and he squeaks and tries not to move but then zoro just appraises him, gives him the Lick of Approval and ambles off to do who knows what. probably nap again.

and on that note, zoro’s tiger form is huge. absolutely fucking massive. he is longer than sanji is tall. he comes up to nearly above waist height. he could hide chopper inside of his closed mouth.

but somehow kids aren’t scared of him at all. it bewilders him to no end; sanji always gets a good laugh out of his expression when he stands there, slightly taken aback, tail flicking against the ground. zoro doesn’t know if it’s because they’re so young that they just don’t have a sense of self-preservation yet or something but in every damn town they go to, literally every town he steps into in his tiger form, there will be a child that gasps “kitty!!” all delighted and runs up to him completely unafraid. it’s… refreshing, if he’s being honest.

unlike their children, the parents have shown a variety of reactions, ranging from borderline hysterical fits of screaming and crying and trying to cart their child away (zoro just stood there raising an eyebrow in tiger form) to pulling out a loaded shotgun and holding it ready behind their back. and then the kid stops short in front of him, and zoro mentally sighs as he prepares for sticky little fingers in his scruff.

not that they don’t ask; even the most naive child would hesitate before touching a creature with fangs as long as their forearm. sanji always takes that chance to kneel down beside him with a hand on his back, voice kind as he explains to the kid that this is mr. tiger, no, he won’t eat you if you ask before touching him, will you, mr. tiger? and the damn kid turns to him with hopeful eyes.

he always acquiesces. always pretends to topple over and plays dead when they try and tackle him into the dirt. plays tag and chases the kid around in circles until they’re so tuckered out that they drape themselves right over zoro’s back, hugging his neck and giggling weakly. he goes back to the ship with his fur all ruffled and his ears combed within an inch of their lives and the memory of tiny hands waving, soft laughter as the kid calls “goodbye, mr. tiger!” from their doorstep and. it’s nice. to have someone other than his crew who isn’t scared of him.

of course, he has his bad nights. where he thinks about how if those parents knew the things he’d done they would never let their children within an island’s distance of him. sanji has an uncanny knack for telling when he’s gotten stuck in his head and on those nights the cook takes special care to tuck himself tight to zoro’s chest. it’s a blatant display of trust; showing his back, baring his throat to something with too-sharp claws and so many teeth is something zoro would never do. he worries sometimes that sanji is a fool for loving him. but when they’re wrapped in the quiet of one of their bunks, too many limbs in too little space, he can’t help but relax because sanji stays. sanji never takes anything lying down, gives back as good as he gets, calls zoro out on his bullshit when he’s being an ass and he stays. he is warm and soft and strong and beautiful and zoro trusts him implicitly, almost more than he trusts himself.

AND. sanji isn’t the only member of the Zoro Comfort Club. if the crew notices? good luck to him lmao he isn’t allowed to mope anymore. he’s been dragged yowling through the hallways more than once, gently but insistently corralled into the galley and made to lay down so that the rest of them can pile on top of him. it helps. his nakama are idiots, and he loves them.

zoro’s size does come in handy, though; one time when they’re in the middle of a fight, they get separated from luffy and the others and sanji’s hurt pretty badly. there are more enemies looking for them, and despite how much sanji complains about hygiene and stuff zoro actually really takes pride in keeping his coat clean. still, he rolls around in the dirt on the street and squashes the cook flat to the ground; he’s big enough to hide sanji completely and it just so happens that their enemies are looking for a blond and a green-haired swordsman, not a vaguely bedraggled-looking muddy dusty cat thing. they get away undetected and sanji uses up all the hot water getting them both squeaky clean.

his tail is his tell (guess you could call it… a tell-tail sign… i’m sorry i’ll stop). it’s big and fluffy like a feather boa and it has an annoying habit of wrapping around things he likes when he’s not paying attention; he sunbathes by luffy’s side on the deck and it snakes around his captain’s ankle. nami sits on the floor with her maps while zoro’s on the bed and it settles across her shoulders. sanji curls up next to him and it twines around his waist, and he doesn’t notice until he sees his crew smiling at him. most of the times he immediately pulls it away with an embarrassed chuff, but if whoever he’s with is having a tough day he’ll just… leave it. according to the kids, it’s mighty nice to hug.

that’s all,,, for now >:3 shoutout to @redgitanako for enabling my deranged ramblings over dms, you’re golden 😽🫶🏼

part 1 | part 2

[rascheln]

The thing I find both hilarious and infuriating about Oshi no Ko is actually the adults and how they know Aqua is scheming and using and manipulating the girls and all they do is essentially just stand by and watch and simply tell him "you know that's wrong" without actually doing anything about it at best or helping him at worst.

Miyako seems to have made it pretty clear that while she thinks of Ruby as her daughter, the same can't be said for Aqua. She acts like his legal guardian first and foremost, but apart from telling him off for manipulating the girls, she doesn't do any actual parenting. Maybe that's because she thinks Aqua needs to make his own mistakes or that she can't control him anyways, but it still makes her an onlooker to his actions. (Though to be fair, due to her lack of involvement with him she also misses a lot of the shit he pulls and probably thinks he's still relatively harmless. It also doesn't help that he acts much more like an adult and has done his best to hide his trauma, which makes him sort of invisible as a 'problem child.')

Mem-cho in a way tries to subtly get involved when she realizes both Akane and Kana have feelings for Aqua and that he's using both of them. Her conflict is over the feelings of her friends, though, and so she tries to slightly counteract Aqua by helping both girls... But that means she spreads herself too thin. She can't have it both ways, for one girl to be happy the other is going to be miserable and she doesn't have enough of a close relationship and access to Aqua to influence him in a meaningful way.

At the same time, she hides a lot of this drama from both Kana and Akane. She can't tell either of them what she knows about the other, least of all what she's observed about Aqua, without hurting their feelings. She's an outside observer who doesn't have the courage to speak up.

And then there's the director, with the most insight into Aqua's mental state, who could overlook Aqua trying to keep Ruby from becoming an idol because he knows how much that scares Aqua. He knows probably most of the background shit Aqua has been pulling and the connections he's made over time and instead of recognizing Aqua's plans as self destructive, he enables him.

Maybe he does this because just like Miyako he doesn't think he could stop Aqua. Or because he wants revenge, too. But ultimately I find him helping Aqua the most egregious, because what Aqua is doing is reckless, is destroying his still existing personal relationships and is leading him directly towards someone who is clearly very dangerous.

(There's also something to be said about Akane withholding her insights into Ai's murder/Aqua's father multiple times to "protect" Aqua, which technically would have been the right choice in order to keep him from spiraling further but was an incredibly naive thing to do since it was impossible to keep those secrets for long. So it just had the opposite effect of delaying a much worse emotional reaction and heightening Aqua's desperation to get his revenge and making it clear to Akane that while he never trusted her anyways, he now especially doesn't have any reason to confide in her.)

[midnight-glasses]

| Diabolik Lovers characters that I speculate are virgins!

Hey everyone! I just wanted to clarify that everything I mentioned earlier about the characters in Diabolik Lovers being virgins is purely a headcanon. In other words: it's just personal theories and ideas that I came up with, and there's no concrete evidence in the official materials to support it. The truth is that the personal lives and sexual experiences of the characters aren't extensively detailed in the original story, leaving room for individual interpretations.

So, please don't take my words as facts; I simply shared my own ideas and perceptions. If you have different opinions or would like to share your own, feel free to do so, thank you!

This was certainly motivated by Miss @afra-blueraz analysis, check out the original post.

— Carla Tsukinami:

1. Carla's focus on power and control may have led him to prioritize his ambitions over emotional connections. He views relationships as a means to an end rather than something driven by desire or passion. His composed exterior might also be a facade to hide his insecurities and lack of experience in romantic matters. While he may have engaged in relationships, but he has never truly opened up to someone on a deeper level.

2. Carla's composed and manipulative personality might lead to the speculation that he hasn't had any genuine emotional or physical connections with others.

3. Also, being portrayed as the mature and composed brother, it's possible to imagine that Carla is a virgin, either due to his devotion to fulfilling his duties as the head of the family or a lack of interest in pursuing physical relationships, as I said before.

— Reiji Sakamaki:

1. Reiji's perfectionist and controlling personality might suggest that he's never found someone who meets his exacting standards. He could be a virgin possibly by his own choice due to his desire for control over every aspect of his life, including his romantic relationships.

2. That might suggest that he has been too selective when it comes to romantic partners. He may have high standards for potential relationships and is cautious about forming attachments. As such, he could be a virgin, having never found someone who meets his strict criteria.

3. Reiji's aloof and distant behavior may make one wonder if he has ever been involved in a romantic or sexual relationship.

There is also the possibility of:

4. His personality have hindered him from forming close romantic connections with others, as he might have focused more on his studies and family duties rather than pursuing relationships.

— Shin Tsukinami:

1. Shin has never been in a romantic or sexual relationship due to his distrust in others and fear of betrayal.

2. Shin has serious issues trusting people, especially after the events that caused him to lose his eye, as a result of those experiences betrayal and deception have shaped his perception of relationships, making him hesitant to confide his emotions in others. Consequently, he has built walls around himself, preventing him from forming intimate connections with other people. This solitary demeanor has often been misunderstood as aloofness, but it is actually a defense mechanism he developed to shield himself from further emotional harm.

— Subaru Sakamaki:

1. Subaru is a virgin due to his fear of losing control and hurting others.

2. Subaru's aggressive and self-destructive tendencies are a result of his internal struggle with his traumas. He fears getting physically close to someone out of concern that he might lose control and harm them, especially with his strength. As a result, he has avoided intimate relationships to protect others and himself. His aggressive behavior serves as a defense mechanism to keep others away.

All my written content is original, however, I do not claim ownership of the characters depicted. ©2023-Present.

[deepmochi]

Understanding the 8th house in Astrology (Synastry and Natal)

Take what resonates. I don't own these images.

Let's talk about the eighth house and its meaning in astrology. Only the meaning, description. I will try to do another post with the signs.

⇢ Many people love to idealize the "good" sides of the 8th like "steamy relationship" or "an alluring person". However, traumas shouldn't be glamorize; they should be healed. The 8th house is like a closet, and inside of that closet we find fears, doubts, traumas, vulnerability, and so much more.

⇢For instance, the energy of the eighth house represents how obsessive you are, and which are your obsessions? What are your secrets? Can you keep secrets? How you view intimacy? How you approach sex? How you view a sexual partner? How you view sexuality? What turns you on or off? What is your sexual orientation? How you perceive death? What are your fears? What is your generational heritage or traumas? What you inheritance? How mysterious you are? In what areas you hide things? How you investigate, your inner detective? How good you lie? What are your inner goals?

Following with death, it is not exactly physical death; it explains about your transformations. How you process your own "death" in order to advance to the next stage, how you grieve or mourn. Continuing, the 8th house is opposite of the 2nd house, so how you share your possessions or inner fears? How we emerge with others? What is your relationship with taxes and gambling? How you lend or owe money, even pros and cons? What are your partner's resources? What you offers to others (partners) ? Why others give you money? How you share money resources with your partner? Do you have limits or you should draw new limits, too? What are you hiding? Your shadow self face.

The sign, aspect and planets in your 8th houses can reveal of this info. In some chart, some themes are more prominent than others. Next time, reevaluate your 8th house closely, it will reveal a lot of you that's hidden.

In natal

Depending on the planet, this closet (your 8th house) can have a password, or even be blocked by a chair or a desk (another planet or more). The sign will try to be the digits/ words you use to decode the password, and you can try to guess it. No matter the planet, the impact of the house is monumental. It's hard to describe the confuse energy, especially because the 8th is extreme, all or nothing.

The native may use it for its benefit after knowing the painful side. Transformations are a journey and not so pretty or easy.

Someone with this placement knows that they are changing constantly, so they either take responsibility or blame others.

If they blame others, they will never advance truly from the turmoil. This lead to vengeance, resentment or anger issues as result self-destruction: addictions. Nonetheless, they should trust the process, but trust is not simple after many betrayals and letdowns, even from themselves. This native needs to learn that they can't control everything; you just need to learn the lesson and keep moving like the eagle and reborn like a Phoenix. The biggest recommendation for every person with a 8th placement is let your pain talk. What are you shutting down your emotions? What are you afraid? It's time to be vulnerable. It's time love and accept that part that everyone hurts.

In synastry

This house is not only about hot sex or an enigmatic couple only. It's about remembering to open yourself and let the other do the same. Are you ready? Perhaps, nobody is ready for it. Sharing your inner fears to someone else,it is a difficult task.

The 8th house energy is scorpionic, have you seen Scorpions in love?? I don't think so. I think, the less dramatic representation of Scorpio is the eagle, yet they are usually alone or typically known for that, don't they?! To love someone with the 8th house energy means to learn that you cannot control them, and still love them. The obsessive energy of this house makes things steamy and creates mysterious, even an addictive effect. Being addicted is not good, though.

In synastry, the challenge for the 8th person is acknowledge how their partner is a person, not a possession. Change should come without other's imposition. Each person has their own demons and fears. For this reason, this house synastry can be difficult. Obssesion over someone is not love. If the individual' love perspective is rooted in pain; they will add more pain to others, stinking their venom like a true Scorpion. Love in the 8th should be transformative not destructive, where both are fine with changing and emerging together.

Overall, this house is not easy. if you have any planet or a stellium in the 8th house, I understand your confusion and anger. People ignore how hard is to be transforming yourself constantly. Because these changes are constant, Scorpio energy is always renewing itself. Any placement with Scorpionic energy proves it. You aren't the same person you were yesterday.

This is a reminder to take things slowly, bb, you are doing well. Take care, mochis.

©️ deepmochi, 2022

[entropymoths]

Sharp Edges: Questions for the Muse TW: Angst, Introspection, Dark themes, Depression

What was the last thing you catastrophically fucked up?

Do you wish you had more friends?

How do you feel about the friends you have?

What don't you trust yourself with?

What do you still want to learn? Will you?

What traits have you inherited from others? How do you feel about them?

Do you play with your phone during one-on-one social situations?

How susceptible are you to external validation/judgment/criticism?

When were you last intentionally provocative?

Are you waiting to be saved?

How do you feel about your current job or state of unemployment?

Do you remind yourself to step back and think objectively?

What are you afraid of losing?

Do you avoid raising hurt feelings for fear of rejection?

How do you process anger?

Do you justify occasional asshole behaviour by being unobjectionable for the majority of the time?

What have you done unto others that would upset you if it were done unto you?

Do you rant? Have you asked your sounding board/s how they feel about that?

Are you lonely?

Describe an idyllic afternoon you haven't experienced.

How do you feel about birthdays?

Have you settled for survival?

What responsibilities have you run away from?

Are you letting someone down? If yes, what will it take for that to change?

What are your coping methods?

What are your least apparent dysfunctional behaviours?

How do you feel about the place you live?

Do you lie about your political beliefs?

Is saying 'No' to someone in earnest need something you can do?

Describe your rock bottom.

What are some of the things you wish people would do for you?

Are you pretending any aspects of your personality?

How do you react to conflict? How do you feel about that?

What was the last thing you lost sleep over?

What are you taking for granted?

Are you emotionally manipulative? Is it conscious?

How do you feel about the lies you've told?

What old damage are you still carrying?

What won't you let go of?

Have you really forgiven the people who wronged you?

Is there anyone in your life you can confidently say understands you?

If you could write an anonymous message on a billboard, what would it say?

What do you pay lip service to?

How difficult is it to perceive yourself fully?

Are you trying to be better? Who for?

What are you ashamed of?

What is your biggest crutch?

What do you hide from others?

What would you start over, if you could?

Just how destructive is your negative self-talk?

What do you fantasize about?

What traits do you detest in others?

When are you most envious?

When are you most resentful?

What do you believe is your biggest failure?

Describe the person you wish you were.

Do you idealise running away?

What are your character faults? Do you enjoy any of them?

Describe a dream you remember.

Describe a nightmare you remember.

What aspirations or pastimes have you given up? Why?

What do you most fear someone saying to you?

Do you talk about people behind their back?

Can you comfortably be alone?

What is something you wish you had said to someone?

What are some of the lies you tell yourself?

What fears are you avoiding?

Have you ever ghosted someone?

What makes you uncomfortable?

What do you want? Is there a reason it can't be yours?

What makes you feel trapped?

What aren't you doing for fear of repercussions?

[black-lake]

Pluto conjunct/opposite ascendant - the invincible child

I did an overall pluto-ascendant in obs. 4 and this is a more in depth observation. pluto-ascendant is strongest in conjunctions and oppositions (up to 10°). It directly influences the native's character and life journey. Whatever the ascendant is, the native may appear or act like a scorpio rising but even more visibly especially if they have scorpio placements elsewhere. These aspects give so much inner strength and stamina, depth of character and unique wisdom. Pluto natives possess a lot of power that may be displayed outwardly even if the native is quiet, or if other placements reduce or balance the intensity, people still intuitively sense that there's more to them. But no information will ever feed their curiosity. They’re smarter than they show, darker, more wicked, wealthy, addicts, royals whatever it may be others think there gotta be something hidden.

In reality, it’s the complexity and different traits that the native mastered or will through hard life lessons. The extreme deaths and rebirths of their character, perspective, and appearance. Whatever you see in their intense eyes and presence is interpreted differently. They may hide parts of themselves that others won't comprehend, but because they lack the capacity to do so, their life journey is much different from theirs. Though they themselves can easily understand others, they see right through you, they understand your pain, and share their secret healing formula with you. Pluto won't allow the native to be narrow-minded or comfortable or will cause destruction. No room for escape or pretendence of change. Those people learned and relearned the darker parts of themselves and others, faced their toxic traits, and faced the hidden and broken in the world. 

They likely been through many changes in life that inevitably built their wisdom, invincibility, and power. They may gain more power through money, status, control, or any other tangible means. In terms of traits, they are intelligent, calculative, obsessive, instinctual, passionate, cunning, humorous, truthful and loyal. These people have a sort of intimidating magnetic aura that can draw or repel others depending on how healed or familiar they are with this energy. 

In the houses

Pluto can be in the 1st, 7th, or 12th house, where natives learn lessons about controlling their conscious and unconscious minds, the thoughts, actions, and memories that they need to let go of and transform to strength, to something of a better value. In the 12th they are dealing with these things alone, feeling trapped and broken, feeling deeply alone. People leaving them in the dark. Their mind isn't letting them have peace, it's uncontrollable. They want to detach from it or possibly throw it off the window, it's a burden. Trapped in a mindset, reflected through their nightmares and fears, their triggers, self image, limitations and doubts. They're discovering the power they have over their subconscious, whatever is controlling them, even the collective consciousness. It shouldn’t hold them back, but fly them to the top. They are leading the way but it's never easy.

In the 1st, they encounter people and places that trigger their shadows and strengths. They have so much resilience and willpower to reach their goals. People see it and want to break them, take their power, and show them a false version of themselves. They may be arrogant and overly protective. In their darkest times they may even feel like they can't tame themselves or actions. It's an aries house so they act immaturely and selfishly but they see it later. As they control their impulses they learn that they don't need to prove anything, to control everything, they are already powerful. They can use it with ease, it's not a fight it's a blessing, no one can take it. They may have trust issues because others have attacked them and betrayed them. They learned to only depend on themselves because everyone seems manipulative. They want and can attract someone as deep, passionate and honest as them who will love them as intensely.

In the 7th the traits they don't see in themselves are reflected to them through others. They are a damn mirror and not a pretty one, one that reflects what others are trying to hide. They seem unbothered, determined and too independent. People are threatened by that so they project their insecurities, some with nasty intentions and weak egos, jealous, and deceitful, wanting to see them fail, trying to gossip, and get a reaction out of them, but they don't. Connections are a nightmare, no one is trustworthy. Others see their power more than they themselves do, hungry to feed off of it. Once they see it and unapologetically fully embrace it, the weak ones can’t reach them and they build better connections with people as confident and genuine. They gain a better perspective, a wisdom to discern who's lying and who's real. A healthy balance of trust and distrust in people. They crave an intense connection like pluto 1st, and they get it but through learning those lessons. 

[yanderes-galore]

Since there's no God of War fic here yet, could you write somwthing for Freya/Frigg (her obssession can start with the 2018 game and gets more intense in Ragnarok when she's an ally to Kratos). Reader helps Kratos on his journey and despises Odin as much as her, which makes her have a conection with them.

(This woman literally made her son immortal and invulnerable to almost everything just to protect him, imagine what she would do for her darling).

-🐻

Honestly, she's also quite an intense yandere. I'd love to! I utilized some of the plot elements you gave me but also just gave my general view of her as a yandere.

Yandere! Freya Concept

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Obsession, Fear of loss, Overprotective behavior, Manipulation, Isolation, Violence, Stalking, Trauma, Forced immortality, Self-destructive behavior, Paranoia, Dubious/Forced relationship.

Honestly, while Kratos is intense because he's brutal...

Freya is intense because she's smothering.

She, like Kratos, has lost many people close to her already.

Both of them have a fear of loss that drives them crazy.

Freya would meet you around the 2018 game.

Despite the distrusting nature of Kratos she sees you are an ally of him and his son.

You probably don't know much about Odin until Ragnarök's events take place.

That is unless you know about her legend and past... even then she may have to tell you about it.

You are right that Freya would go to great lengths to protect you.

She protected Baldur with a spell that made him immortal yet unfeeling, she healed Atreus...

If she cares for someone enough she'll do everything she can to protect them.

Even after Kratos kills her son she wouldn't hate you.

Freya is a motherly yandere who is suffocating with her affection.

She hasn't truly loved anyone as a spouse due to her experiences with Odin.

But she certainly has a connection to children.

When it comes to the one she loves she'll do everything in her power to protect them.

Considering how she's a God, that's a lot of power.

She would feel guilty and bad if her ways of protecting you made you unhappy, but she prefers that over losing you.

Don't be surprised if Freya gives you an immortality spell similar to Baldur's.

She may even try to keep you isolated just to hide you from Odin.

If you also hated Odin it only feeds into her feelings towards you.

Freya has trauma due to Odin.

As a result she views you as someone to cling to, someone to heal her inner pain.

Especially after the death of Baldur, her son.

While she is an ally to Kratos in the 2018 game she isn't as obsessed, she's protective but hasn't fallen for you fully yet.

After the death of Baldur she stalks you along with Kratos.

Freya hates that you still work with Kratos instead of siding with her.

Which only fuels her attempts of killing Kratos.

She means you no harm, yet I suggest not trusting any eagles.

She may just be watching.

Her obsession fully situates when she joins Kratos again.

She no longer wants to kill the man... plus she's a bit envious that he's around you all the time.

You're so much different than Odin... and you hate the man too.

As Ragnarök unfolds, Freya feels she needs you.

To her... you may be the cure for her trauma.

Because of this she begins to pursue you.

Now let me say this, Freya may be even harder to leave than Kratos.

She has many spells and tricks to her advantage.

She can disguise herself, make you immortal, isolate you....

If Freya feels there's a way to protect you she'll pursue it.

Even if you begin to hate her... Freya accepts it.

She loves you too much to just lose you.

She fears your death, she fears you running off...

She'd rather perish than give you up.

Speaking of which, Freya would sacrifice herself to protect you.

She could care less what happened to her at times, just as long as you're alive she's happy.

Freya can't wait until Odin is dead, honestly.

By the end of Ragnarök she's ready to make you her true spouse.

One she wishes to marry out of love... not out of obligation.

Freya can be extremely caring.

Being with her isn't too bad....

But since you most likely have the immortality spell on you, you can't feel much.

In fact... you feel a bit broken and frustrated.

Freya ends up recreating the pain she inflicted on her son with you.

You begin to resent her because she'd rather keep you safe than happy.

No matter how much she says she loves you, no matter how many kisses she gives you...

You feel nothing.

Yet Freya doesn't care in the end... because at least she has you... safe and sound.

[istadris]

Super Mario AU heavily inspired by the Lion King (because drawing it will take me forever and I want to throw that idea in the world).

In this AU, Bowser wasn't king of the Koopas (at least not at first) and most importantly, he and Mario were close friends.

Mario met Bowser when he explored the Darklands for the first time; intimidated at first, he quickly found this strong Koopa to be charming and carefree under his sharp wit, a persona Bowser cultivated carefully. Mario trusted Bowser, believed him to be the coolest guy in the world and did everything to earn his respect and friendship. Bowser was his best friend.

Or so did Mario think.

He didn't realize that Bowser was using him for his plans ; growing closer to someone in the Princess' inner circle (as in this AU, Mario, Luigi and Peach all but grew up together) with the goal of getting rid of him once the time was right. Bowser encouraged Mario into reckless behaviour, suggesting certain places to visit because they would have something the kingdom needed, and wouldn't the Princess appreciate it ?

Mario took the habit of dragging Luigi with him in these adventures, until the day they both almost died to enemies in the Darklands; Mario then tried his best to not involve Luigi into his expeditions anymore to keep him safe.

But it only made him more susceptible to Bowser's manipulations. After all, his best friend wouldn't put him in danger, right ?

Until one day, Bowser manipulates Mario into doing something that causes a great catastrophe; maybe causing the death of Peach's parents, or someone as important to Peach (Toadsworth maybe?). But it wasn't actually his fault; like in TLK, the event covered the moment where Bowser murders with his own hands the victims, and Mario (who was supposed to die as well) doesn't see the crime. All he sees, when he manages to pull himself out of danger, is his friend's dark expression as he takes in the gruesome scene.

"What have you done?"

It doesn't take much convincing from Bowser to send Mario running away, too horrified and consumed by guilt to come back to Peach and Luigi and all of the Mushroom Kingdom.

With Mario, the only witness, out of the way, Bowser makes his move : presenting himself to the castle, claiming to be here to help and swiftly, quietly taking over the crown, under the pretence that Peach is too distraught by her parents' death to rule properly. And it doesn't take long before he brings his followers along : Koopas and Goombas and Shy Guys who were seduced by Bowser's promise for more power in the luxurious Mushroom Kingdom.

Bowser also claims that Mario tragically lost his life as well, and his body washed away or too mangled to be recognized. No one suspects a thing ; Luigi was one of the only ones to know Bowser was friend with Mario and has no reason to suspect any foul play. Bowser still makes sure to keep a close eye on Luigi, ready to eliminate him as well if he ever grows suspicious.

Months pass. Bowser slowly, methodically asserts himself as the new king and removes any sign of resistance. By solving issues and defeating threats the kingdom faces (which he engineers himself from behind the scenes), he gives the impression he's a reliable king, very strict but fair and the only thing between the kingdom and destruction; by the time Peach starts to be concerned and wants to intervene, Bowser is too influential and powerful to challenge.

Mario is hiding away in another land. He doesn't dare to come back : everytime he thinks about it, he fears the reaction of Peach and Luigi if he tells them what (he thinks) happened. And after all this time, his self-exile is a significant proof of his culpability, isn't it ?

I don't want Peach to be the one to look for help and bring back Mario, as she's still officially in charge and would prefer to stay in the kingdom and try to fight for her subjects rather than flee; and Luigi would be too carefully watched by Bowser and his minions to have a chance to leave the kingdom.

Instead I hesitate between Daisy or Toad, although Daisy might have the role of Timon and Pumbaa, greeting Mario in her kingdom and encouraging him to stay and enjoy himself without thinking about his past (in this version of the AU, she doesn't know Peach and her kingdom).

In any case, when Mario is convinced to come back to the Kingdom, the events play similarly than in TLK : only with Luigi in the role of Sarabi, summoned by Bowser in a humiliating display so the Koopa King can take out his anger on an easy victim. Luigi has been cowed until now, unable to fight back; but when Bowser brings Mario into the argument, Luigi dares to stand up and defend his brother -only to be violently struck back.

And that's when Mario shows up.

Bowser is taken aback, unsure of how to react as Mario rushes to his brother's side and makes sure he's okay, before marching towards Bowser, angry at his friend's behaviour...but Bowser catches himself and manages to turn the situation around, using Mario's shame to undermine him, pushing him to admit publicly his role in the disaster.

(Peach going to Mario and saying "It's not true...Tell me it's not true." as he hangs his head down in shame. <3 <3)

Anyway I just want Bowser circling around Mario as he manipulates him and smugly tells him "Ah, so you haven't told them our little secret.Well, now's your chance to tell them."