#i'm rambling again AAAAH

[coffeebanana]

i have such a weird difficulty balancing real life productivity and creative productivity. like when if i'm having a day where i'm getting lots of things done irl, even if i block out 30m to write and i have the time, i'll be too tired or uninspired to get myself to do it. i'm basically overwhelmed by the concept of doing Real Life Things and Writing Things in one day i almost need to carve out entire days for writing if i want to really get any done. and kjfdnkj that then keeps me from getting life things done because i get into a writing cycle and i can't get myself to stop neglecting real life until i finish the chapter/oneshot/draft/etc... i'm working on. which can take days. and then it's harder to motivate myself to get back to the Real Life Things

[kutiee]

The teaser 😳

[reinabeestudio]

She's asking her if ze wants to join the church /j

Anyway I heard like a small snippet of that mid-fight masses vs yomiel (and aime) cover, blacked out, and then this spawned into existence /j /lh

Seriously speaking, I just missed those sillies from the mod and was pleasantly surprised to see you cover the songs from it 🥹 HEUAJEHAJDHA

So a neapolitan ice cream and a marshmallow walk into a church /j

Anyway, clears throat: ASKJDFNKDSNFJKDSDSDKLGMKLDFSMGKLDFKLJKDSJKFJKDFJKDFGJKDFIOKLFG!!!!!!

SDKLFDKLSFNLKDS THIS LOOKS SO CUTE AOUGHG.... SARVENTE IS SO （＾∀＾）ﾉｼ HIIIII WANNA JOIN OUR CHURCH and then you got my sona like 🧍‍♂️👑 Hello (<- 'I am Confusion' /ref). She's finally as tall as someone, it really is a holy miracle/jjjjjj.

And some small trivia is that I actually started those covers back in May (all of them had my sona back then, since Aime is more recent☝). Sad I couldn't check the mod by myself, but it's nice learning about the classics.

[vasyandii]

I'm kicking my feet I love your oc Vernon! Let me pry though: have Vernon and AM ever kissed, or will they ever kiss? Also does AM enjoy the sensation of Vernon close to him or when she touches him, like in your art of her using him as an AC LOL

AAAAH Howdy howdy!! I'm so glad you like Vernon as I've worked real hard on her! Thank you so much for the ask! 💞💞 I will be answering these in reverse order!

VernonAM 🏺🖥️

Does AM enjoy the sensation of Vernon close to him/when she touches him?

I like to believe AM's come a long way with being touched. When he first transferred his consciousness over to his body, it was sensory overload. The WORST kind.

Everything was too loud, too quiet, he could smell EVERYTHING, everything was too hot, too cold, not hot enough, his mouth felt dry even with the saliva he had, how much it hurt feeling the air in his lungs, HE COULD FEEL HIS EYEBALLS IN HIS SKULL. It was like being born, it was awful. Like Nietzsche said; "To live is to suffer."

Vernon sat him down, trying to calm him since this is technically the first "human" she's seen after 109 years.

AM could feel every fold of his clothing rubbing against his skin, every microscopic fibre stabbing his skin. The residual warmth from Vernon touching him to sit him down so he wouldn't collapse caused AM to start screaming, sobbing.

Because he had no mouth (roll credits) prior to this, he didn't know how to use it to form words. He couldn't articulate what was wrong in his fit of screaming and tears.

And so his body went limp not 10 minutes after. He got out of there, telling Vernon that it's the closest thing he could compare to the torture he put on the other five. Vernon had to convince him to come back again or she'd tear the damn body apart and eat it.

It took months, baby steps of getting him adjusted in being a man. They spent weeks on smell, touch, and heat before they would even consider movement. It was tough on Vernon's end, smart as she is, she's a terrible teacher, asking AM to leave her alone for a few hours or days, lashing out when he's in such a vulnerable state.

But Vernon persisted, and finally AM got to hold her comfortably. Fast forward to now, AM has grown quite fond of the sensation of touch and touching things just for the sake of it. They could be sitting and he'd have it so their shoulders are touching.

AM is fond of Vernon's touch, that's the only time she's gentle (despite her words) with anything that might have the possibility of breaking. He enjoys her softness and warmth; How protective she is of him. AM can't articulate genuine care since his hatred for humanity is still there, but he's grateful, even despite his taunts.

Have AM and Vernon ever kissed? Will they ever kiss?

They kiss often, those two degenerates. It almost makes me jealous how often they kiss (D1 hater over here).

Vernon's technically kissed him before, just to get him comfortable, but it's never on the lips or near his face, usually his wrists and knuckles. Exposure therapy along with affection, basically. He didn't try to kiss her back until he was fully prepared to.

After fully adjusting to his new body, AM was finally able to kiss Vernon. He wasn't very good at it his first attempt. It was more similar to AM headbutting Vernon than an actual kiss.

Having a body gave way to a new emotion; embarrassment. Since he's now technically on the same level as her (in height as well, he's a lil dude) he was embarrassed that his first attempt didn't go as planned. When he didn't have a body, there was nothing to be judged, but now he does.

After brushing it off as him being curious and just feeling like headbutting her, AM didn't attempt to kiss her on the lips until he was sure he was ready.

Their proper first kiss was quite nice.

If you made it this far, thank you for reading my mad man words! I tend to ramble a ton, so if there's anything you'd like for me to clarify, feel free to tell me!

[the-evil-lovable-simp]

Caine x programmed villain

(Also I think (y/n) in this would do this dance ⬆️ in their own time)

Part 2

Jax grabbed the cane Caine had dropped and started twirling it,

"Heh," he said to himself.

Ragatha snatched it from him, thinking that was quite rude, they started to argue as Gangle cried over her broken mask, Pomni ran away to find another way out of here, Zooble put themself back together and Kinger just stared blankly at the cave.

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Caine was being dragged deeper into the cave, for once in his artificial life, he was actually worried about what was going to happen to himself, he wasn't in control of this. He looked back to see where he was heading and saw you crouched with a knife in your teeth, this sent him over the edge, he wriggled out of your grip, but suddenly one long arm twirled around his body stopping him in mid-air, your limb squeezed tightly around his body, and he was slowly brought down, face to teeth. He looked directly into your eyes, his pupils shrunk once more seeing you take the knife out of your mouth. You stroked it across his gums, he felt how cold it was and shivered. You watched this and giggled, quickly throwing it behind yourself and hitting a picture on your wall that he thought looked like Jax. You detached your arm that was holding Caine and threw it in the corner, the arm getting a bit tighter around his body.

You then grew a new arm, moving it around, Caine could hear bones cracking, he grimaced. You left the room, he thought this was the perfect time to escape, no use the arm had a firm grip. You suddenly came in with a guitar, startling him.

"I'm Bad!" you sang.

"As bad can be!" he watched you play the instrument in amazement, if only you were part of the circus entertainment.

"So bad!" you caught him staring and pulled a knife out of nowhere and threw it at him while still playing, it skimmed the top of his hat as he flinched.

"That it's hard to believe!" You threw three more knives at the Jax picture without looking, god you can play music, sing and do knife tricks, he really wished you could be part of the circus. He started vibrating in excitement.

"Oh, what they say abou-" This really distracted you and the knife you had just thrown landed in your forehead and black blood started to trickle down your face.

"AaAAh!" caine cried as he watched this happen.

"ugh," you groaned as you left the room to fix yourself up. Caine sat there, looking around the room, until you came back your forehead looking like nothing had happened, but then he noticed your very angry expression. Your arm disappeared and the arm that was around him reattached to you again. You really squeezed, Caine grunted in pain.

"What was that!?" you pulled him towards you, you swear you saw him blush but you ignored it, you squeezed again. He clenched his teeth shut and then opened them up again.

"I um," he paused this sounded quite silly now that he was about to say it out loud.

"Well!" you shook him a bit.

"I thought what you were doing was amazing," he said quickly.

Your expression changed from angry to shocked, you could feel your cheeks heat up, your eyebrows lowered and you looked to the right.

"That's um..." you muttered, what was happening you're supposed to be the bad guy.

"It was an outstanding performance, you should join my circus!" he said cheerfully.

"You really think so," you said thinking about the possibilities. You looked back at him, and he started rambling on about his 'amazing' circus, you chuckled, he stopped and looked at you.

"You're cuter than they said you were," you said sadistically as you pressed a knife to his gums again, he blushed.

"Also I might take you up on that offer-" You got cut off as the group of six bursts in, and they brought in a makeshift canon slingshot thing and flung a boulder at you. You flew across the room and completely flattened against the wall, your arm unravelling around Caine, he fell to the floor and Kinger grabbed him.

"Is that a picture of me?!" Jax shouted. As you recovered you saw them all running away with Caine being carried off.

Oh

You see how it was

He was just distracting you

Killing time

He didn't actually think any of those things

No one makes a fool out of (Y/n)

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Idk, this is probably bad

I think I might write another part to this idk know…

[tadbitsketch]

I haven't done one of these in forever but welcome back to Sketch Rambles About MCSM Stuff at an Unreasonable Hour of the Night 🎉🎉🎉

Tonight, I'm gonna discuss one of my favorite songs from the Minecraft: Story Mode OST, "Redstone Baby," and the potential lore that it holds. And why that's very Sorengaard related.

Disclaimer: this is me interpreting silly block people. Unless otherwise stated (or in the game), it ain't actually canon. Also, I am a teenage girl. I am not versed very well in the specifics of how music theory works and how it's used in media. Also also, I wrote most of this like two months ago and completely forgot about it.

(In case you needed a reminder of how it sounds)

This song appears twice in the season 1 episode 3: when you arrive in Soren's lab area, and again in the end credits. It can also be heard through the closed secret entrance wall in the Wool World™, and it gradually becomes clearer as you approach the door to Soren's lab, where a music disc is playing the song inside.

The instrumentation of "Redstone Baby" consists of guitar, piano, and violin. It feels comforting and cozy, whilst also giving a sad, longing sort of vibe. According to a comment written 6 years ago by Antimo on the linked video, they were going for a sorta "Fallout: New Vegas" vibe when they wrote it. The song holds an air of nostalgia, of better times. An idealized dream of how the world could be.

To get to the point: it's cute, it's cozy, and it's a love song in a game where they weren't allowed to explicitly write any canon ships (if I'm remembering correctly). Also one of the few songs in this game to be given lyrics. So, of course, we're gonna talk about this. Or rather I'm gonna write about it and you're gonna read it.

The lyrics go as follows:

In a marshmallow world, you're my sweetheart.

In a marshmallow world, you're my sweetheart.

You're the bed to my rock,

The flint to my steel.

My redstone baby doll...

My redstone baby doll.

(music)

In a marshmallow world, you're my sweetheart.

In a marshmallow world, you're my sweetheart.

My sugar baby...

aaaah ladada, awoah...

The lyrics are pretty strange, right? It seems nonsensical at first, but I (and many others) believe that it has more meaning than meets the eye.

This is a love song addressed to a someone proficient with redstone. Funnily enough, Soren's old friend group did have one of those. A brilliant Redstone Engineer: Ellegaard. And quite interestingly, these two were pretty close, as is said multiple times in canon. I think Magnus mentions their little "Nerd Club," in episode 3 at some point. Another fact to back me up on this: Soren calls the song "Symphony in E" in-game on the little radio-disk-program-thing.

And for whatever reason, Soren and Ellegaard didn't stay close or end up together. There's not really a way to know for certain what went down between them. All we do know is that Soren wishes it was different.

The "marshmallow world" that is talked about in the song is Soren's perfect world. It's safe, sweet, and fluffy. I am of the opinion that it could possibly be an indirect reference to the wool world that Soren built. It's bright. It's safe. No monsters can get him there. He can just build things and be happy. In a perfect, marshmallow world, Ellegaard is with Soren.

The metaphors Soren uses here, "the bed to my rock, the flint to my steel," they're both iconic, inseparable duos: bedrock, and flint and steel. In Minecraft, bedrock is the unbreakable foundation beneath all else in the Overworld. Flint and steel is used to set things on fire, and is most often used to light Nether portals, which is way less symbolic (unless someone can find something? maybe the whole flaming heart being a metaphor for love thing?) but still iconic and the phrase has a very nice rhythm to it.

When we first hear the song, it feels like normal wishful thinking. It's more just fluff and poetry than full-on wants and desires.

But when we hear it in the end credits of episode 3... We just saw someone die after sacrificing their safety for Jesse's. The monster that they died to help kill isn't even dead. Someone we thought was dead is actually alive and doesn't remember anything. It's loud, dark, and burning. A sickening storm of death and destruction. Anything but the marshmallow world.

Without considering which of the two died, this song is already quite jarring in comparison to what was just witnessed. This "marshmallow world" that seemed somewhat close just a moment ago now feels implausible, and thus it'd be worth so much more if it were real.

I will never not love when something in a piece of media is treated as a good sign or motif or something and then it gets recontextualized and hurts ya right in the feels.

And with Redstone Baby combined with Ellegaard dying, it's just that extra brutal.

Because now it's not just, "in a perfect world, we'd be together." It's "in a perfect world, you wouldn't be dead, and we'd be together."

If only Soren wasn't so much of a coward. How differently things could've gone.

[moonshine-nightlight]

Hi, hi! I've been reading some of your work and when I saw you had a tumblr I just had to come pay your inbox a visit.

I just wanna say, I really love how you write! It's so, so easy to get immersed in your stories, to the point where something kind of funny happened in my case actually XD

So there I was at midnight, browsing the monster romance side of AO3 when I came across Finally Woken. I was looking something on the shorter word count side, but the summary had me very interested. So I go, hmmm I think I'll just read the first chapter to see how it is and if I like it I'll come back to it tomorrow. I definitely liked it, but wanted just a bit more, so I clicked on the second chapter. Then the third. And fourth. And so on until oops, I binged it and it was 4 am hdjsgaca

And then the next day, I was once again browsing. And came across Don't shoot the messenger. And I go, well last night was a success but tonight I definitely only read the first chapter and then if I like it finish tomorrow. Aaaah the lies we tell ourselves. Did not even notice it was the same author until I was halfway through it. This one I managed to finish before 4 am at least XD

And then! The next day! Once again browsing in bed! I come across Sacrifice! Once again didn't look at the author until later! Take a guess at what happened next, surely you will never expect the outcome! (The outcome was exactly the same. I could not stop reading. My self restraint is in shambles.)

So yeah! I just wanted to one, come and thank you for such wonderful stories, and two, compliment the heck out of your writing skills because your pacing, and atmosphere and descriptions are top notch. Like the sense of anticipation before Satrasi knew what that captain had done was chef kiss, or the sense of dread building up to the ritual and then calm once Tai finds the reader. Or the sense of domesticity as time passes with Heshi.

All reader characters and monsters feel unique as well! My personal favorite story so far is Don't shoot the messenger, Satrasi has me swooning fdhdgzh But honestly I loved all of them so much and they're going to my favorite monster romances stash. Oh also, I'm 100% going to go back and reread, kudos and comment more thoroughly on each story, but I was on another account like a fool the first time I read them all gahdgdh So hopefully you'll see me in AO3 soon as well!

Alright I've been rambling enough already haha, so yeah! Tldr, You're a great author, I am weak and procrastinated going to bed because I wanted to read your stuff, love what you do, take care! :D

@roaring-letters

thank you so much! this was such a good message to get and i've been hoarding it for lik 2 months lol because work has been so busy which is why it was even better to get such a nice ask - it really cheered me up!

i'd say i;m sorry for the accidental repeated trapping and keeping you up until 4 am but its kinda the greatest compliment ever lol so i guess i'm not sorry

i'm so happy you enjoyed the stories and the characters and the atmosphere of the stories! my writing means so much to me and i'm always worried that i'm not getting whats in my head down onto paper right so comments/asks like these are so so heartwarming because it makes me feel lik i am in fact getting it right :D

thanks again!!!!

[moonjxsung]

I am CRYING

Its 1:52am and I am legit bawling my fucking eyes out.

My random tag scrolling has brought me to your When The Storm Looms fic which When I saw bartender lee know I just HAD to read part 1.

Idk what it is but the concept of lee know as a bartender lately has been rotting my brain and these fics just fueled my delusion even more.

Before I detail this is hands down my FAVOURITE fic ever! There's another bartender lee know fic that WAS my favourite but this was just wow. You write so perfectly.

These fics touched on subjects and topics that are so real and true for me it was so beautiful to read. It's very rare to find fics (especially kpop fics) that are so relatable to an individual reader AND their bias and you've done that for me.

As for my crying? I don't have the words to explain it. This story is so much more than the sex. Heck I couldn't even care for the sex at how well this was written. The theme of it being soul searching for part 2 aaaah I'm really not good at explaining thing my vocabulary sucks but it just unlocked something inside me. BEAUTIFUL.

I don't wanna ramble too much longer but thank you. Thank you for writing such a beautiful piece. Thank you for the intimacy shared between mc and Lee know. Thank you for writing him so beautifully as he is and as the man I imagine he would be. Thank you for writing a part 2 so perfectly and so deep in detail of soul searching.

Thank you for this absolute masterpiece.💖💖💖

WOW, there’s so much to unpack with this kind message 🥹 First off, thank you so much for reading and taking the time to leave such lovely words in my inbox! I’m so glad you resonated so heavily with the characters and that I was able to craft a story that carried meaning over into your own personal life as well. Fun fact, I originally wanted to make this story just a short drabble about bar sex with bartender Minho but somehow I felt so compelled to Minho as a bartender because I feel like he inhabits so many traits of a mysterious and complex bartender, but simultaneously a softie who just wants to find his purpose. This is the one fic I’ve written where I felt closest to the characters and I’m so glad to see readers feel it too! Minho isn’t even my bias but I must say I get hands down the most writing inspiration from him so I’m really glad I was able to do your bias justice and provide something meaningful to his name. I’m so glad to hear you loved it and I hope you know there will always be a special place for you in this fic whenever you return to it, bartender Minho will always welcome you home to the little dive bar with open arms (and Diet Coke 🫂) hope all’s well and again thank you for these very kind words, anon 🥹💞🫶💕♥️💖 take care of yourself (and new writing coming very soon!) grateful to have you here 👼🌙⭐️

[igbylicious]

Glad you like the rambling because this has become a trend of me never being able to fit in the replies anymore T_T

aaaah I AM SO EXCITED!!! bound was already so so good (you're getting a separate ask all about it later). May your creative juices always be flowing and your brain kind enough to help you along <3 I wonder if you were ever inspired by the ateez lore itself to write for it. I feel like it's such a shame not more people do because it seems so interesting, but then again, it's complicated enough that it might seem like too much ig?

Thank you for digging that up. icb I MISSED IT T_T tumblr we have notifications on for a reason come onnnn but omg woosang babies <3 that's so woo, honestly.

Love that drunk san singing his heart out is canon in the whiway universe as well tbh. Jongho seems like such a fun drinking partner I can just see it (*ᴗ͈ ֊ ᴗ͈)ꕤ°❀⋆.ೃ࿔*:･

ALSO PLS TELL ME WE'RE GETTING SMTH WITH THE SYUNGI THREESOME (this is not about snail yungi) I will take anything—a separate drabble, a bulletpoint thingie, or even just a light teasing just in an upcoming chapter ozr.

Aww yuyu I will keep you in my prayers. *is an athiest*

I feel like only hongjoong got neglected now and that makes my ot8 heart sad so is he living the dream? is he getting woosan regular updates? also is it weird that I lowkey headcanon him as ace in whiway don't know why but my brain just decided on that randomly.

I'm glad the hiatus helped! I really admire you taking time for yourself when you're not feeling your best.

AW I’M GLAD YOU LIKED BOUND ASKJDASDKJ i look forward to hearing your thoughts!!! (♡°▽°♡)

ooohhhhhhhhh yeah no i don’t have anything inspired by the lore. which is weird tbh bc esp the whole Halateez deal should be right up my alley lol. meeting yourself from the future/a different dimension/whatever the heck is going on in their lore? hell yeah 👀 idk maybe one day i’ll come up w/ smth that’s inspired by specific elements, but not meant to be set in the canonical lore hehe. to take that on is a lil too daunting, yeah ^^;;

lol no you didn’t miss it! this wasn’t tumblr’s fault for once; it was a convo in the replies! there are a bunch of whiway tidbits scattered all over the place asdkjadsjk maybe after the main series is done i’ll see if i can gather it all up in one neat place ^^ (and the threesome is on my list of ‘things i might write after the fic is done’ ( ⓛ ω ⓛ *) )

aw ace HJ they’d be aro/ace besties :’) i do have it in my head that she and Joong have casually fucked out of boredom — but that can actually still track? 🤔 i know some asexuals have that type of ‘it’s just a fun way to pass the time’ relationship to sex (or you can ignore this info if you prefer to think of him as sex averse ♡(>ᴗ•) i don’t expect it to come up in the last two chapters, and anything i blabber outside the story is basically a glorified headcanon lol)

(as for Hongjoong neglect; there’s a lil moment in the upcoming chapter you might enjoy hehe (´꒳`)♡ )

hope you are doing well! (◕‿◕)♡

[the-therapist-is-ace]

Do you have any theories on Kokichi? Like his psych stuff and how he gets on with others (like Gonta)

Hello hello, thank you for the ask x)

I admit I didn't even remembered where he said to be psychic at first lmao.

But personally I think it was a lie. He's just really, really good at reading people and analyzing behaviors.

And how he gets along with the others... Yikes do you have the time? xD

I think I'll just talk about Kaede, Kaito and Gonta here. Though maybe I'll do Maki and Shuichi on another post.

(Reminder that all of this is MY interpretation of things... Also I'm rambling a lot. I might get off topic lmao)

First, Kaede!

I think he have a split opinion on her. On one hand, he knows how badly she wants to help, and he can appreciate and encourage that.

But on the other, OH MY GOD she's a bad leader.

She's an amazing motivator, don't get me wrong. But actually leading, it's not her talent and for a good reason. A leader is not only someone that encourage people. It's SO MUCH MORE than that.

She doesn't know how to make people acknowledge the tensions in the group (see: the aftermath of the Death Road of Despair, it was Kokichi who forced everyone to talk about it.) She doesn't know when to stop, which ends with her encouragements turning into forcing people to continue even when they're all exhausted. She doesn't know how to step up to end a conflict between the group (again, see the direct aftermath of the Death Road of Despair...)

And I think as a result, Kokichi is both understanding of her wish to help, but also extremely frustrated with her poor attempts at leading. I think he would bash his head against a wall if she survived more than one trial lmao.

Second Kaito. Oh my god.

I think out of everyone, he's the one that gets on Kokichi's nerves the most. (And a lot of people would agree with me on it I think)

He's the one talking about trust. IN A KILLING GAME.

(Just to be clear I don't think Kokichi is paranoid. He's just reasonably doubtful of people in a life or death situation. Trust is very dangerous in that setting.)

Also, the whole sidekicks/hero thing. I get wanting to help Shuichi by taking responsability of what he'll say in the trials, but there's other way to do that. (Say, isn't that also a leader's responsability to encourage the group?)

And don't get me started with the whole deal with Maki. If anything, I think that's one of the thing that drives Oma crazy the most.

Trying to make Maki understand she's more than an assassin? Good idea! -Even though monitoring her movements would have been ideal- Insisting that she's harmless and a good person to everyone in the meantime? No! You don't know her that well yet, and trusting blindly a professional killer is stupid.

But the worst thing -in Kokichi's opinion- is probably Kaito's impulsivity.

Trying to go against the Exisal the morning when the First Blood Perk is introduce? Stupid, and dangerous! Trying to convince everyone to riot against Monokuma at Kaede's trial? That's endangering everyone!

Trying to gather everyone to fight Monokuma and end the game? DO YOU HAVE A DEATH WISH?!

Kaito's insistence to trust everyone and his impulsivity is a threat to the group in Kokichi's eyes, and I can't blame him for it. Him calling himself a hero is just the annoying cherry on top of it all.

And last but not least, Gonta.

Aaaah Gonta. The translation did you and Kokichi SO dirty.

First and foremost: GONTA IS NOT FUCKING STUPID!

He's naive, yes. Innocent too, absolutely. But he's NOT stupid!

He's a scientist for fuck's sake, it means something. He is not stupid.

And as someone that is both intelligent and also... well kind of naive, Kokichi saw him as a potential ally. Hence why he turned to him for both the Insect Meet and Greet plan, and the Killing Game Busters plans.

Oma is also one of -if not the only one- that sees Gonta as more than just "nice giant". He see him as someone with a brain, but also too much naivete, which in a killing game is not good. So that might be why he took him under his wing so to speak. Gokuhara is also the only one that tried to see more than just Oma's first layer if I remember correctly.

And we're gonna talk about Chapter 4! Wou-ouh let's go.

Gonta was desesperate to end the game. And Oma knew it. Gonta was ALREADY considering doing something drastic to end the game. And Kokichi took advantage of that.

(Now that was probably not done happily. Remember that he was probably still shaken up by the "truth" of the outside world.)

...Or did he?

Oma told -and showed- to Gokuhara what he saw. What he believed himself was true. And the fact that it was false didn't change the fact that they BOTH got manipulated with false informations.

I do truly believe that those two were good friends. Chapter 4 was the tragedy that ended it, but it doesn't mean the friendship wasn't there.

So... Yeah.

TL;DR: I think he appreciated Kaede's wishes to help, but was really exasperated of how bad at leading she was. I think Kaito's behavior irked him -like 90% of the fans lmao- because of how dangerous he saw it to be. And I think he saw Gonta as a friend, and CLEVER enough to make plans with him.

Thank you for asking!

[the-cat-and-the-birdie]

AHHHHH I LOVE MOCHE AND THE CONCEPT OF HER AND HER UNIVERSE IT'S SO CREATIVE AAAAH

also EIGHT BABIES??? MULTIPLE SETS OF TWINS + TRIPLETS YOU GO GIRL much tougher than I am

anyway I love her so much and I love ur mild miguel concept because THAT'S WHAT IVE BEEN SAYING

anyway that's my ramble luv ur blog

-🍋

THANK YOU SO MUCHHHHHHHH ahhhhHHHHHHHHH

Writing Moche scratches my history itch SO BADLY, and it makes me so happy to share my culture with other people. Because the Incas were DOPE

It makes me really really want to make a victorian era Spider-woman just so I can go history diving again (and model her after Bernadette Banner or something)

And I LOVE the idea of Miguel with a big family.

Context about me:

As an afro-latino, I grew up with a HUGE family in the same apartment. Growing up, I live in an apartment with my parents, my nana, an aunt, and two of my uncles. So, seven people. And this was not a big ass apartment it was three bedrooms. My grand-aunt and great grandmother also lived in the apartment above, so I was raised very communally. As was by dad and my nana. And I think it's SO enriching to have a community of adults to watch, teach, or listen to me. Plus it takes a lot of weight off the parents. I was raised alongside my cousin - and he didn't live with us but he was always there because it's free daycare. Just leave us with my nana or my aunt or my uncle or WHOEVER home. (When we moved out when I was 7 it was genuinely weird to me having only 2 other people around but now I'm use to it.)

I know Miguel doesn't have a good history family-wise, so I was like... 'I can't fix him but I can do something really wholesome'.

ANd I find the whole 'No daughters for you thing' SO FUNNY

Cause people love giving Miguel girls and I'm like...no no no...I'm not making it easy for him.

So like two twin boys. And if he tries again MORE TWIN BOYS. and if he tries again again THREE GIRLS ALL AT ONCE

Like even when Miguel gets what he wants the universe still messes with him

And also the idea of Miguel with like 8 teenagers in the house at once, I just think that's rich dlgjfkgfdklgj

The eight kids was mainly to mess with him. Stressed Dad Miguel

I guess the reason I like soft miguel so much is because he reminds me of my bosses

And I don't mean that in a bad way - I just mean Assistant Directors are stressed and tough as concrete which I LOVE. They're super blunt and orderly but they're the more attentive caring people ever.

BUT ANYWAY THANK YOU SO MUCH

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

Saw your recent post and this is a request for you to ramble about why you enjoy horror movies so much & which are your favourites & why. I love rambles.

Aaaaaaa this might be very long so just a warning in advance!!!

Okay so why I like horror: honestly I've always just loved horror. Like I remember as a kid being very fascinated by urban legends, and ghost stories and those totally-not-fake-totally-real videos and images of ghosts and other supernatural stuff. And over the years I just became obsessed with horror movies especially! But I think what really appeals to me about the genre is that anything can be made scary. Because really there is horror in everything imo. Even the most normal, mundane thing can be captured as the most terrifying thing in the world. And horror can also blend so well with other genres. Horror comedies are obviously very popular. So are dramas that have a lot of horror elements. Horror can be romantic, funny, action-filled, adventurous just as much as it can be scary. It's just such a joy to see all these different genres mixed together and to see how even the same or similar topics can be made in vastly different kinds of horror. Also like people will find the same thing scary for different reasons and in different ways, which is, again, what makes stuff like this so fascinating to see.

And another thing that appeals to me about horror is that horror reflects the society of the time it was made in really interesting ways, and can critique it in such interesting ways. Like nowadays there's quite a few horror movies about trauma and mental illness, and I think that reflects how nowadays those topics are more talked about so they're also portrayed more in horror, and shown how scary it can be to live with that. While in the past mental illness was used more as a way to demonise a character.

That's just the current day example, but every decade has had horror critiquing the way society is and showing the fears reflected at the time. Like, in the US, there was a rise in slasher movies/movies about serial killers after they were everywhere in the news. Or how in the 2000s there was a rise in brutality and gore because of 9/11 and the brutality of real life people kept seeing, which was reflected in the movies (I'm sorry this is more US centric. Unfortunately a lot of the horror movie stuff that is most available to me to read/watch tends to be more US centric). Of course this doesn't mean all horror movies do a good job at social critique, there are unfortunately a lot of horror movies that play into stereotypes. But a lot of them reflect something in society one way or another and I think horror is the most fascinating way to explore all these different themes!

Idk if that made any sense lmao.

Anyway aome of my favourite horror movies and why:

My fav horror film of all time is The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974) I could straight up write a whole separate long post just about why I love this movie so much. But aaaah I've never seen a movie that does horror so well. Like I've seen 554 horror movies and this is still easily the scariest one I've seen. It captures the fear and tension of the whole situation so well. Its an isolated setting. The product design is honestly *chefs kiss*. And like this movie feels like a terrifying fever dream and looks exactly like it. I've only seen one other movie that manages to capture the nightmare fever dream feel to a similar extent, but the movie was literally meant to be a ripoff of Texas Chainsaw Massacre lmao (the movie is the original Toolbox Murders. It's not very good overall but imo that feeling I'd there. Though fun fact: the Toolbox Murders remake was directed by Tobe Hooper, who is the director of the original Texas Chainsaw Massacre. And I think that's hilarious since the original Toolbox Murders was a ripoff of his movie)

Another fav is Saw (2004). I can't even begin to describe why I adore Saw so much, but just look at it! The concept is cool and terrifying. And the movie is just damn impressive. Yeah you can tell it had a small budget and they shot the whole thing in like three weeks, but imo it's such a great and unique example of indie filmmaking. It also does a great job at making you care about the characters and so seeing all that happen to them is even more devastating. Also I would kill for Adam I can't even lie.

Honestly my "favourite horror movies" list has over 60 horror movies in there so I don't think I can ramble about every single one. But I'll ramble about what they're like at least.

A lot of my fav horror movies tend to fall in the slasher subgenre and honestly idk why. I just find slasher movies so fun to watch. They're so campy and ridiculous. But also when they're done super well, they make you abnormal forever btw

But also yeah I love psychological horror/horror with a much deeper meaning. I'd argue that every piece of art has a deeper meaning, even the shitty stuff, but there are movies that put in a bit more effort into it than others. And I do enjoy reading analysis of those movies and trying to think about them myself in that way. It's a really cool way pass time and to grow more insane about horror!!

Idk what else to say rn, but if you want to know more please ask. I love talking about horror literally whenever

[vanadisvalentine]

RWBY Volume 9 Episode 10: Of Solitude and Self

i have thoughts. here are some of those thoughts.

I am going...to try and keep this in chronological order, but it's midnight, and I tend to ramble the longer I've been awake. So bear with me.

First off, okay, so we're definitely going to get details of exactly what happened with Summer later down the line. Presumably, she, Raven, and Qrow ('cause who else would Raven have portaled too yanno), along with maybe some others who knows, went on the offensive vs Mommy Salami and things didn't work out. If that's the case, boy does that color Qrow's character even further. It's no wonder he used to stay far away from the people he cares about. Also wow Raven nice to see you again, been a couple of volumes.

I'm glad that Rubes got to have a sort of posthumous pep-talk from her mother, even if it's something as simple as "I love you the way you are". I appreciate that she didn't need to be talk-no-jutsu'd into getting the theme of the volume, but rather it's a conclusion she came to herself. After a whole volume of seeing her all morose and depressed, it put the biggest smile on my face to see her finally accept that she is Ruby Rose, and that's all she's ever needed to be.

On a less profound note

WHOOOO RED LIKE ROSES PART III FUCK YEAH BABY THIS IS WHAT I'VE BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT. Whoever animated that first little sequence of Ruby going ham on the cat with Crescent Rose? I want to kiss you. You deserve the world. Brings me right back to volume 1. (Was it Arryn? I feel like it was Arryn considering how much they love Soul Eater but I can't remember if they've done any combat sequences aaaah)

The Cat got the shit kicked out of them in a great team fight. Doing a whole ass 5 v 1, even with someone as formidable as the CC in the fray, couldn't have been easy to choreograph, so props to the whole team on that one for making it feel sick. The Cat is a bit of a more tragic character in retrospect with the tale the Blacksmith told (also--the Ever After is the primordial world? The Brothers didn't make it? Shit, color me surprised), but at the same time...yeah RIP Bozo.

'Twas curiosity that killed the cat or something like that idk

The fuckin piano reprise of This Will Be the Day oh my GOOOOOD. Chills. The music in this volume has been absolutely phenomenal. Of course there are the vocal tracks, but the score??? Martin Gonzalez you beautiful man. Bless your heart, bless your body, bless your soul.

Neo. Neo Neo Neo. Neopolitan, baby girl...I'm gonna miss you, as I'm sure a lot of people will. Even the people who hate this show like you because you're just so much fun. I remember back in the day when I was a kid and unironically used the word waifu to describe female characters I was fixated on, you were my precious little Ice Cream Wife and I would burn the world for you. It's so weird thinking about your origins as a character (Inspired by a genderbent Torchwick cosplay, Monty threw you in at the last second in order to not have to animate Torchwick escaping...though I'm sure there's more to it than that), to how you've progressed, to where you are now. This is the last we're gonna get of you for now, I'm sure. But at the same time, I can totally see you showing up for the final fight vs Salem or Cinder or whoever to get your licks in. You were a welcome addition this volume, even if you DID drive Ruby to drink the Bad Tea. It's hard to hate you when you're so fucking cute.

I am...not going to pretend to not be a little disappointed that Boomer Jaune was but a temporary thing. When The Blacksmith was talking about Alyx fixing what she'd broken, I was expecting like, idk, his sword to be repaired, but I quickly realized that she wasn't even the one who did that, and then I was like "oh no" and before I knew it, BAM back at it again with the yee-yee ass haircut. At least next volume comes with new designs so we won't have to deal with that any longer. I appreciate the streaks of grey, symbolizing that it's not like he's regressed in any way, but...Jauney Boy, get that wolf's tail back. You rocked that shit.

That's all I can bring myself to write down for now. I'm sure I'll be talking about this episode--and this whole volume--for a WHILE. I'm gonna sit on it for a bit, but I think it might take volume 6's spot for my favorite of the bunch, which is impressive because volume 6 is hella good y'all. Thank you so much to the crew (GOD I hope certain people who worked on this volume return for the next one, I could feel the love they have for the craft and for this show and I've adored getting to see their thoughts on each episode as it aired these past few weeks) and everyone involved in bringing to us. It's been rough lately, that's for sure, but I mean it when I say that RWBY is one of my favorite shows out there, and I wish nothing but the best for its future and the future of everyone who brought it to life.

now I wait probably about a year or so to see Nora/Ren/Sun's reaction to Blake and Yang finally getting together. Until then, I will drown myself in fanfiction.

[hanabeeri]

new week!! my cats are doing good <3 the vet said to keep an eye on my male cat, to track his progress. no pretty decorations on this weeks update either because i feel sick </3 oh and i'm writing this on my phone so the formatting is a bit ugly and spacey 😭

what happened this week? aaaah...

>i visited the vet and he checked both of my cats. lucy is doing good! he said that her wound is healing up just fine and that the swelling is gone. when he checked harry he said he seems to be fine now, and that he can't tell right away what caused his seizure. since in rare seizures can happen once (and then never again) he said he won't do any further testings just yet. but should it happen again, i'll have to give him his emergency meds and take him to his clinic right away. from then on he will initiate testings and i will have to monitor harry's further progress

>i've been feeling really dizzy since yesterday 🥹 someone i knew has once told me that whatever i'm dealing with sounds like POTS. i didn't know what it was to that time, and i don't think i will ask my doctor to look into it for a diagnosis.. but knowing the possible cause for my dizziness, racing heart and feelings of faintness is still a comforting thought. at least i know that it's not necessarily my fault. before that i always felt really frustrated and upset whenever i had a flare up. now i try to be more patient with myself, eat something salty and hope i'll feel better. the only reasons why it's still hard sometimes are either lack of options to rest in public or my very own parents who think i'm being lazy 🥹 they always blame flare ups on anything but you know... a possible disability which, in comparison, is pesky at best 😭 i'm fine most of the time, i just need to rest on some days more than on others.

edit: okay so, i'm not sure if this is funny but i am allowed to laugh because it happened to me. yesterday i felt really dizzy and faint in general. but for some reason i kept forgetting 💀 so everytime i sat or laid down and then got up for whatever reason my body would move but my soul would remain seated 😭 i was close to fainting once AHAHA i'm okay though. i laughed about it yesterday too after the... 3rd time maybe. i heard a cat meowing outside so i jumped up, ready to protect my cat in a fight AHAHAH but my body said 'no <3 hihihihi'

and... that's it. other than that i stayed at home and looked after my cats. i was too worried to do anything else. my previous plans were to accompany my friend to something she was anxious to do alone, and go to a book flea market with my friends. i couldn't go.. but next time for sure! they sent me their book hauls though, so i didn't miss out on anything, haha.

i would like to think that my image descriptions are getting better 🥹 doing my very best haha. im holding myself back from going on rambles and adding extra information; like the fact that we grow vegetables and fruit in our garden or that there's a small spring and a house.

[slavicafire]

Dear lover of the sun, may i vent to you about a girl? She is, she is someone i would like to have a crush on - i may have one already, but it is not fully developed yet - or i am crossing the line as i am writing. And she, she is, so pretty and smart and sweet and funny and teasing and her smile is, i am almost blushing, and her eyes sparkle when she smiles and she teased me, and oh i am pretty sure she flirted as well! i know her but not so well, but i want to, and she read aloud to me, close to me, about something i couldn't see very well and i am very sure i want her to read to me again, i'll find any excuses, really. But i haven't dated in over a decade, i'm not very knowledgeable about it. It feels a bit scary and i feel like i'm not put together enough to invite someone in my space like that - that i should come with a warning and a history of my mental health issues - and i think she might have hers, too. I've never been with a woman but i'm not straight so that's not the problem, i don't have much practice with intimacy but that's fine too, i'll feel silly and i'll move on and that's it. It's more about letting someone get close, see you and your ugly parts, and you seeing theirs - it is about showing what you wish could stay hidden, the coping mechanisms you yet have to get ride of and aren't proud of, the issues you haven't resolved yet - your loneliness and its sometimes ugly face, and all of the time you have wasted already, not really living. I don't know, i don't know if you can relate or have an advice but, thank you for reading me - even if she stays a friendly figure and nothing more, even if i can't find a way to let her know, i'll keep the memory of her smile close to me, and the warmth and the way she is - i'll cherish that, in any way love will take.

Dear żmija, may i pester you a little more about the girl with the sparkling eyes? Because tonight i went to see a movie with her! not a date, and i will see another one tomorrow as well, with her and her best friend. But she! Maybe? I don't know, i thought, maybe, maybe she, a little, maybe just tender friendliness but maybe, if i made a move, i feel like, she wouldn't dislike it? But it's been eight years that i'vn't done anything more than vague flirting, i absolutely do not know how to make a move! And it may be all in my head. I'd be grateful for friendship, i don't care, but if she was the person i could open myself to, i would feel safe. And i see her tomorrow, and i don't know if you could call it a date! Aaaah! i don't even know what to wear, i have to do laundry, my room is a mess, and her style is always sooo good and she is so pretty and her smile and her eyes, and i don't know if i should wear something more refined, especially since it isn't supposed to be a date but it could feel like it is, you know ? Like we are dipping our toes in it, shyly, as if nothing was happening. But something is! I don't know what but it is! And i am sorry to ramble but i don't want to speak about it to my friends yet. I don't want the teases ):< most of them haven't seen me be interested in someone openly, and i don't know how to act, to react, how to be vulnerable on the subject with them yet. Sorry again, sorry for the ramble really but i thought, girls, you know? you get it, so i thought i could share and be, understood, on that subject. I think i'll try not to think about until the very last second, but i'll also think about the right clothes to wear for the next hour or so

oh, my dear - what a sweet adventure it was to read this, and to root for you so!

sending all my love - and luck, of course. might this bring you as much thrill as it can.

[moonmothmama]

Fathy Aboelrokab (the smaller guy with the long hair) verses Kamal "Big Kimo" Basira, Feb 18th World Championship Sumo.

both of these guys are Judo black belts.

Fathy had won his first match earlier in the evening (against Kyle Ferriter); i was really impressed with him. honestly, i was rooting for both of these guys. but oh, Big Kimo!

to be very honest i think we (me and @ibelieveinthepowerofstuff) both fell a little bit in love with this guy. there's just something about him. his spirit... like, listen: all of the athletes we saw were incredible. you could tell how dedicated they all were. but this guy is definitely something special. i don't know how else to say it.

now, about the match.

i was both looking forward to this one, and apprehensive of it, because i liked both of these guys a lot, and i wanted to see both of them succeed. i knew it was gonna be rough. one of them was going to lose! but actually, tbvh, i did see them both succeed.

Fathy executed an extremely impressive trip in the first bout after being forced nearly to the edge of the dohyo; ultimately he lost this match, but ohhh man. no way was anyone about to forget that. he has got amazing moves.

Big Kimo won the next bout by forcing Fathy outside the dohyo, meaning the match would be decided by a third bout. excitement! aaaah! and then he kept the momentum, starting out with open hand strikes, then both of them back to grappling, ending up with Fathy outside the ring again.

watch [here]! this match begins one hour and four minutes in.

you can follow Big Kimo on instagram @ big_kimo_sumo

this whole event was absolutely amazing, i'm still so hyped that i actually got to see sumo wrestling in person, and i'm already looking forward to the next one in March! i'm probably going to blab about a few more matches tbh, there were a lot of moments that really struck me. so stay tuned for more of my shitty screenshots and rambling commentary, i guess. do i know what i'm talking about? not really. but that's not gonna shut me up <3 one thing i do know: sumo is cool as hell.

once again, much love to these amazing athletes. i hope to see more of both of them in the future!