#idek how i feel atp

[shortcakelils]

I really admire you <3 💙

[remusawoooo]

Hey?!I crave telugu james potter but the world is not ready for it z so please please do telugu james potter hcs

AHHHHH you have no idea how happy i was to see this?? i was pleasantly surprised when i first saw that there was a popular hc in the fandom that james was indian?? its fun but sometimes its just very superficial - he celebrates diwali and throws in one or two hindi words, lol.

my hc:

Honestly the strongest point i have is that he is from telangana lol (warangal bidda if you will)

he listens to telugu music (only knows what his dad listens to tho). it was hard to connect to the telugu popculture (hogwarts doesnt have technology and he's in the U.K. anyway)

James would probably be a chiranjeevi fan (he was very campy and talented!) if he cared. He would crush on sridevi, it's just natural.

He didn't care for cultural festivals, and his parents are Christian, but he devoured Ugadi pachadi. (laddoos and kaja for Christmas?? anyone?? Sirius would be so fascinated with putharekulu and remus' sweet tooth would be happy with all the sweets-his fav is peda!)

I tried to be period friendly (even looked up media in the 70s lmao), but if it's just any era: James would be a hoe for 2000s films. probably loves okkadu if I'm being real.

his cousins in the mainland definitely gave him shit for his accent, and he doesn't care enough to code switch.

if he was a muggle in India, definitely would go to hps for school (very self-indulgent, lmao)

he uses dad and amma. (Nanna feels a little awkward, okay!!!)

saying "abbaaaaa" when things don't go his way, (any chance for an ABBA telugu pun shouldn't be left out, btw) and "cheeee" when disgusted.

he used to tease his parents for their 4 p.m. chai habits and call it unhealthy but would pick it up during the first war. just a reminder of normality in the chaos and would give a moment with loved ones. he finally understood why his parents always had their chai and biscuits out in the garden, at 4 p.m.

his mum would insist on oiling his hair (to somehow manage the messy mop on his head) during holidays. he'd fight back hard but give in when she threatened to do it with magic. (he'd be super relaxed cause of the massaging but will never admit). he misses that later and cries hard into lily's shoulder one day, when she casually rubs his scalp in a way it reminds him of his mother (and how she'd never oil his head now!)

feel free to add on (or dismiss anything you don't like hahahaha)

[lesbeana]

chat how do u make friends as an adult!!!!

[dam-blue-ribbon]

Since no one is there to listen to me I'll rant here😃😃

[kavehater]

Nahida <3

[achillvs]

autism spectrum diagnosis conundrum 

i closed my spectrum diagnosis results today, done by polish public healthcare - saying i’m not autistic. which would be fine, if the diagnosis didn’t sound like the classic “spectrum but we arent gonna call it spectrum” diagnosis and now i dont know what to do about it. i’m gonna bring this up with my therapist this week but if anyone that’s familiar with the subject is interested in pitching in, the diagnosis is as follows:

they gave me “adjustments/adaptive disorder” but not as what it says in the definitions (the definition says it’s a prolonged period of disordered behaviour after a big change like moving, new job etc.) - they say i clearly have a nervous system that’s more sensitive than others’ and because of that i have trouble adapting to everything. that i am solitary because it’s tiring for me to exist otherwise and because i was always solitary i didn’t adapt to socialising and have trouble with it. also that i am solitary because i was brought up by mostly absent adults. that because i never adapted to the “outside world” it’s harder for me to exist in it now. they said i got very good at curating a safe environment for myself with blocking off overwhelming stimuli, with talking only to people who have similar interests and mostly online, with existing only with a small group of people for a little time in safe places irl (i don’t remember exactly what they said but that kind of sounded like “you're good at masking and not getting overwhelmed”). they said my IQ is too high and i have a “big empathy potential” judging by how close i am with my younger sister, to be on the spectrum - only asperger’s was considered because you know, “high functioning” and outdated polish healthcare, etc. so, because i have this “potential”, it’s not a matter of an "inborn condition”, that with therapy i can learn to adjust better (i know i can because i already have) and that’s that. also the fact that i am transgender was a point they seemed to hover over for a while, because in poland if i had a spectrum diagnosis i wouldn’t be able to transition. i already legally transitioned between my last visit and now but i wander if that’s a factor in it all being a mess.

so, i don’t know. i was prepared for a yes or no answer, and to me it seems like “yes but don’t call it that”. do i just have it all wrong? 

[loverboybrightsideghost]

oh fuck good omens s2 comes out in two days

[sleepymrshmllow]

it's suddenly 2010 again wth

[blessedhypocrite]

okay yeah I need to get my thoughts out about all this

[deprivedofbraincellsandsleep]

idk how this happened but atp I'm just afraid to speak to friends

[common-pipistrelle]

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[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

also yesterday i lied ^_^ today played more omori route n looked around everywhere vaguely to see any differences. hero got money. omori took n elevator n looked at a doll. then we all went n beat the fuck outta a depressed guy . wait was it yesterday i lied. it mightve been the day b4. yesterday was weird it didnt . exist. to me. BUT ALSO WTF WERE THOSE ANGELS ON SNOWGLOBE MOUNTAIN WTF THAT WAS ACUALLY FUCKING ??? never seen that shit b4. damn.

[meat-huge-pain-endless]

yeah yeah yeah i know that i need to do the good thing even if its the hard thing but god dammit sometimes it’s rlly fucking hard!!!!

[kavehater]

how to kys without krilling yourself ;-;

[avid-idiot]

when i'm expected to grieve openly but suicide is too hush-hush to bring up 😐

[eepyjay]

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