#idek wat to tag man

[zxcantdrawmen]

c'mon lad, pose for ane-san ~

hmphh

yes, thats supposed to b chuuya inna dress if u cant tell

uhh hav sth i did. Definitely gonna continue it, totally opened medibang to draw this [100%, definitely not procrastinating on coloring stuff]

f.t. golden demon w a camera, Dazai lying in a pool of blood n Chuuya PoSinG?!! [below] more expressions if u keep reading?? whAtt

extrass~

dayumm my first time drawing the absolute kWeeN that is kouyou

hav i watched s4? totally not, idek y i'm procrastinating atp :v

ah yea translation for the chn : 救命 == help

[alukaforyou]

and ALSO sry to post bs on main im mostly just talking to myself in my personal tag half the time so yolo, no need to respond to this or reassure me or whatever but these days i licherally question how much of my - sry to sound like a broken record - bs is dépression or just my shité mentality, like i rly was not designed to last, huh? physically or mentally? lol. like who gets motion sickness on swings lmao anyways. i think i give up too easily. theres a bunch of reasons y but i dont feel like saying. its a different thing to kind of kno something, and to admit / speak it (confront it). i could psychoanalyze myself all day and tell u exactly why some things are the way they are but its too unpleasant to neatly state stuff like that u kno?? like... *i kno* but im not gonna say i kno. anywho, i digress. so i give up easily and kind of have a defeatist mentality too, its so exhausting lool. actually its weird cuz duality of man, i'll be rly determined / stubborn abt doing some stuff and not care abt fear of failure with certain things but when it comes to My Life / My Future i just think i cant rly do anything? i mean that literally like i got no skillz *laugh crying emoji* not particularly good at anything, and art - the only thing im maybe arguably ok at - i dont wanna do as a career, that is art therapy for me i dont feel like commercializing it. not interested in working in my major, maybe things wouldve been different if i went to culinary or cosmetology school?? that sounds fun. or if i majored in bio cuz i was so good at that, or even if i majored in japanese language or literature or idk. but no regrets tho cuz i learned a lot abt drawing in art school which i can use for myself. and hmm i like staying home and not rly going out of my way to meet new ppl so connections what? i h8 hearing how most opportunities come through the ppl u kno cuz its true and ik like 10 ppl tops so hm very sexi of me :^) i just feel like im p much f*cked and it rly doesnt help that i have no functional dreams, goals, or aspirations nor the confidence and drive to work towards anything so ah ok cool. u kno suga's songs "the last" and "so far away" ? that p much sums up my feels minus the part abt having to deal w fame obviously LOL. its so easy being a student (for me at least) but being a good student isnt really worth a whole lot in the """""real world""""" and the current education system doesnt even rly prepare u for reality or w.e like Deep Sigh also the political climate rly lookin like shité out there like hmmmmm do i even wanna try so hard to be here anymore tho??? also going back to the self confidence thing, ya idk her LOOOOL like it doesnt very much bother me tho? i really, honest to god have no idea what my redeeming qualities even are. being nice? and my mindset re - tolerance and compassion for others, etc, ya im rly proud of that actually but besides that i mean like what can i Do tho like hm im not particularly good at anything also im hideous like uglee but thats ok too like none of this Bothers me, thats just literally how i Am so ok fine, but i feel like it makes it hard for me to exist in the world i happen to be in??? and i realize im speaking with a huge bias here cuz my brain is totally out of whack im p sure if some1 saw me / read this they would lit be like um u literally do not have it hard girl, which is fair ur kinda right actually from an objective pov, probably? its amazing how um. hard? of a time my brain is having given my relatively ok circumstances but thats just how it is ig. and if i may quote shakespeare - o full of scorpions is my mind. and its weird cuz duality of man - i actually have a lot of good times w friends and whatever i have a lot of fun, im not even very Sad or in Agony its all very a mild? sensation? but that might be because my plan b is to simply *** so nothing rly fazes me anymore lool.

its usually a v confusing emotion, im either feeling happy, or if not that, very ???? im literally that duwang quote get a feeling so complicated its just "ajdjsjsja" idk its not overly repulsive and upsetting im like :s LOL u kno wat at this point idek what im even saying anymore but its good that im writing whatever cuz im gonna need to look back on this later and organize my thoughts for presentation cuz remember i have a s.o now???? i wanna let them kno so we r on the same page, and i dont feel like im tricking them, i thought it over more and there are like 4? major cards i wanna lay out on the table early on and they are 1. im not that close w my family emotionally so do not seek their approval or expect to deal with them much. 2. personal ideology / political views like im bi lmao and pro lgbt if that wasnt obvious also i dont rly wanna be around racists / terfs etc and if ur right wing or not on that respect women juice uhhh bye.. 3. my weak ass mentality how i might Maybe *** in the future like no promise but errrr theres one more but its a little more negotiable and also too early to discuss so i wont mention it but i already got the first two outta the way so ya. theres the most troublesome of all, #3. the last thing i wanna do is traumatize someone that loves me (and i love back) with that kinda thing, its too late for my dear friends whom i love, sorry i didnt kno i was gonna be like this LOL yall already got attached but its a little different with my s.o cuz i feel like its not too late to uh.... stop getting as attached LMAO like dam i've known my girls for almost 10 years whereas i've only known my s.o for like a month.

and this is totally not gonna come across right but if my s.o very understandably desides to dump me id be SO RELIEVED LIKE WOOOO ok cool cuz like essentially what i'd be saying is you are getting attached to someone who's future is not as stable as other people, including u. *huge exhale* from the bottom of my heart, my bad lol. and then i probs wont ever get involved w. a s.o again, sorry to reference snk in 2020 but remember how e*win smith is single cuz he doesnt kno when he will ***? big mood. i have never acted out on my interests before but i was like ok for once lets go off the shits and do smth ooc, i uh... didnt expect for it to actually go anywhere tho so now im like ???? i shouldve thought it through more tho, like i felt low key irresponsible af and selfish and dumb for getting involved w. someone even tho i Know how I Am like...... Also i just lov being single and staying home and chilling alone lmao like i seriously...... never get loney....

ok so what was i talking abt? how the passage of time makes me nervous cuz idk how i can manage to keep up w it??? how i feel like i cant do jack shit???? that life is hard???? and maybe a bih just wants to rest? permanently?????? i think the most irritating part of all for me, like what i am most mad about at myself is that i have no dream. yikes. naruto, do u think thats sad? well yoongi said its okay, and what counts is just being happy, so i will console myself and forgive her and idk just try my best for the time being??

[notthelasttime]

mmmmtagged by @flykiwiflyaway

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 10 people

# following: around 250

# of followers: 70ish here, 300ish on my main blog

Average hours of sleep: really really depends tbh. been trying to get a solid 7-8 hours bc i’ve felt pretty garbage lately but sometimes shit happens and i’ll get like. 4 or 5.

Lucky number: 8 and 13

Instruments: haven’t picked it up in a considerable amount of time but I can still play (badly) the viola and violin

What are you wearing: sweat pants that are too big on me and an old tshirt that’s been washed too many times and is starting to fall apart. it says ‘dissent is patriotic’ on it, bought during my young edgy teen punk™ days

Dream job: GOD anything self employed at this point, either art or writing, but my production is so up and down i.. don’t know if i’ll ever actually be able to make it happen. you can’t finish one thing every 6 months and hope to support yourself on it so

Dream trip: I have romantic ideas about paris that i know would realistically only lead to disappointment. otherwise i’d probably give my left tit to see ankor wat irl

Significant other: nnnnnah son

Birthday: october 5th

Height: 5′6ish, maybe a little taller

Gender/pronouns: female, she/her

Other blogs: main blog, art blog, a shared writing blog for short stories i have with a friend that we keep forgetting about then trying to revive, that blog i kept while working at a sex shop to save ridiculous stories but is now defunct and i just don’t have the heart to delete it, a blog for my/my best friends youtube channel which has turned into nothing but bad video game memes

Nicknames: jess is already a nickname. sometimes my dad calls me jezebell or just bell. a last-name related nickname that would make no sense out of context

Star Sign: libra. why i’m so full of Justice and can never make up my mind, apparently

Time: 8:59pm

Favorite Bands: thee michelle gun elephant

Favorite artists: ummmmmmmm idk that i can settle on one favorite but i went through a pretty hardcore ivan albright phase for a while lmao. and i strive for my linework to be as intense as junji ito

Favorite tumblr artist: UH well not a tumblr artist so to speak, more like an artist that happens to be on tumblr - daisuke ichiba. i've also been very in to apollonia saintclair but BIG nsfw warning on her tumblr

Song stuck in your head: my very uncool answer is that the bridge combat music from hellblade has been stuck in my head for like a solid week

Last movie you watched: jiro dreams of sushi but idk how much it counts bc i just had it on as background noise

Last show you watched: started watching one punch man recently

Why did you make your blog: this blog in particular was made to keep my fanfic bullshit separate from my regular bullshit.

What do you post: bad opinions, video games, occasionally writing and even less often art

Fandom contributions: initially all promnis fic but now i’m branching out. expanding my horizons. trying my hand at gladnis, sheith and fenhawke. becoming the one woman ignyx show. 

Last thing you googled: john corigliano

Ao3: notthelasttime

Do you ever get asks: i do on occasion. more after i starting live blogging the dragon age experience lmao

How did you get the idea for your url: i wanted something for ao3 that had no connection/similarities to anything else i had online but i have no idea it just sort of popped in my head. i think initially i was thinking like.. won’t be the last time or something similar, but i like the repeating letters in notthelasttime

Favorite food: man idek i couldn’t even narrow it down i don’t know

Last book you read: currently reading Hannibal mostly because clarice can be cool sometimes

Top 3 fictional universes: DA has gotten fantasy on my brain so middle earth absolutely comes to mind. columbia from bioshock strictly from an aesthetic standpoint my... issues with the game itself aside.and there’s a big soft spot in my heart for deepgate from the book scar night but i would definitely not want to live there, also the other books in the series were so... mediocre in comparison. but there’s something about deepgate for sure. 

from my recent notes minus people that have already been tagged: @breotch-iunderstoodthatreference @libertusostiums @lunaloupgarou @the-mad-duchess @muncharoux @cheepx2 but also ZERO pressure if you don’t wanna

[themanwhomadeamonster]

autumn tag game 🍂

Tagged by @sinfonia-antarctica , thanks for the tag!! :’D

The last:

1. drink: water 2. phone call: dad 3. text message: dad 4. song you listened to: Kate Bush - Experiment IV 5. time you cried: last week ay 6. dated someone twice: never 7. kissed someone and regretted it: never 8. been cheated on: never 9. lost someone special: first dog 10. been depressed: all day every day my dude (yesterday) 11. got drunk and thrown up: never; i can’t even drink alcohol man i’m allergic

3 favourite colours

12. red 13. green 14. purple

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yes! made new friends here on tumblr and irl 16. fallen out of love: idk what’s considered love but if you’re talking about crushes then yeah kind of i guess 17. laughed until you cried: yes 18. found out someone was talking about you: i don’t think so, maybe, but i forgot if i did find out so 19. met someone who changed you: yeah 20. found out who your friends are: the postal plebiscite narrowed that down for me lmao :^))))) not bitter at all 21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: idk man 23. do you have any pets: a new puppy 24. do you want to change your name: i kinda want to but i know in practice that wouldn’t go down well for anyone 25. what did you do for your last birthday: nothing special 26. what time did you wake up: 7:26am 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping; this night rn i was drawing bc i’m dumb 28. name something you can’t wait for: ALP to dropkick the liberals out next year 29. when was the last time you saw your mum: she was asleep in her bed 31. what are you listening to right now: Novembre - Venezia Dismal 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes i consider that person to be my friend 33. something that is getting on your nerves: my carpal tunnel (see what i did there) 34. most visited website: either tumblr, fb, or youtube  35. hair colour: black or really dark brown, i’m not sure 36. long or short hair: getting long, it’s a bit past my shoulders 37. do you have a crush on someone: i tell myself no but i get moments of “goddamn it why still” 38. what do you like about yourself: fucken nothing aye 39. piercings: ears 40. blood type: i don’t know 41. nickname: sneeze 42. relationship status: single 43. zodiac: aries 44. pronouns: he/she/they i don’t fuckin know mate just throw any at me 45. favourite tv show: the past is no longer a mystery welcome to ho r rible histor i e s (also pushing daisies) 46. tattoos: none 47. right or left handed: ambidextrous mwahaha

first

48. surgery: nah 49. piercing: i think i got my earrings at like 5?? idk 50. sport: oz tag or aussie handball, can’t remember :P 51. vacation: philippines and i went during hot season tangina 52. pair of trainers: wat idek

more general

53. eating: nothing 54. drinking: nothing 55. i’m about to: draw more because i hate myself 56. waiting for: ALP to dropkick the liberals out next year 57. want: a decent atar pls 58. get married: uhh maybe idk man (how many of these have i answered with “idk”) 59. career: student

which is better

60. hugs or kisses: hugs! 61. lips or eyes: oh shit dude uhh probably eyes i guess, it’s harder to go wrong with eyes 62. shorter or taller: taller 63. older or younger: idk?? 64. nice arms or nice stomach: arms  65. hook up or relationship: relo 66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant lmao

have you ever

67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: no  69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 70. turned someone down: no 71. sex on the first date: no 72. broken someone’s heart: no 73. had your heart broken: no (i don’t know? i’ve told my crushes except for one, and it’s kinda “disappointed but not surprised”, but nothing burdensome?) 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: yes fucking shit

do you believe in

77. yourself: just enough to get above 80 for an atar hopefully 78. miracles: no 79. love at first sight: maybe for other people it’s legit, but not for me 80. santa claus: no 81. kiss on the first date: idk? never had a date so idk how that would go 82. angels: yeh

other

83. current best friend’s name: there is no class hierarchy in a socialist regime 84. eye colour: brown 85. favourite movie: Ernest and Celestine, The Fall, The Prince of Egypt (that’s three, i’m sorry haha)

I tag: @la-sorciere-cynique , @rnudguts , @savagearchangelforthewin2-0, @sharonn00dles , @musik-lebt-fur--immer , @small-artist , @hoval , @classica-mozartling , @ohwhatamidoingposts ; if anyone else wants to do it i tag you too xD

[harrypotthr]

Tagged by: @artcemis thanks boo 3>

i answered all these like 2 weeks ago but never posted it so answers may be off 

LAST…

[1] drink: water [2] phone call: my mom [3] text message: one of my best friends [4] song you listened to: when we were young by adele [5] time you cried: yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER…

[6] dated someone twice: ha [7] been cheated on: haha [8] kissed someone and regretted it: hahaha [9] lost someone special: no? [10] been depressed: don’t think so [11] gotten drunk and thrown up: lol nuh uh

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS…

[12] lavender

[13] burgundy 

[14] pastel blue

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

[15] made new friends: yeh [16] fallen out of love: wat [17] laughed until you cried: don’t think so [i have no soul lmao] [18] found out someone was talking about you: oui [19] met someone who changed you: sure [20] found out who your true friends are: idek [21] kissed someone on your facebook list: hahahaha

GENERAL…

[22] how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: 99% of them [23] do you have any pets: nope [24] do you want to change your name: sometimes [25] what did you do for your last birthday: i honestly don’t remember lol [26] what time did you wake up: 7:20AM [27] what were you doing at midnight last night: watchin youtube [28] name something you cannot wait for: to get a dog [29] when was the last time you saw your mother: an hour ago [30] what is one thing you wish you could change about your life: 😶 [31] what are you listening to right now: lorde [32] have you ever talked to a person named tom: yes [33] something that is getting on your nerves: people shaking their leg [34] most visited website: tumblr  [35] elementary primary: weir [36] high school secondary: killarney [37] college university: hopefully ubc or sfu [38] hair colour: black

[39] long or short hair: long

[40] do you have a crush on someone: yes [41] what do you like about yourself?: i can somewhat draw? [42] piercings: earrings [43] blood type: noooo idea [44] nickname: viv, vivi, viviano, vinegar, vivisin, voldemort, (i saved the best for last) viviassassin  [45] relationship status: single [46] zodiac sign: scorpio [48] fav tv show: riverdale [49] tattoos: none [50] right or left handed: right

FIRST…

[51] surgery: never [52] piercing: ears [53] best friend: calvin in preschool (never heard from him since cri) [54] sport: badminton [55] vacation: roadtrip to seattle but if you mean a real vacation, i think disney world when I was 9?   [56] pair of trainers: dunno

RIGHT NOW…

[57] eating: nothing [58] drinking: nothing [59] i’m about to: finish drawing my hogwarts thing (rIP IT HAS BEEN LIKE A MONTH SINCE I STARTED AND THAT’S A LIE) [60] listening to: adele [61] waiting for: the day i can get a dog [62] want: to get better at drawing

[63] get married: later [64] career: idk man but i wanna be an artist

WHICH IS BETTER…

[65] hugs or kisses: hugs [66] lips or eyes: eyes [67] shorter or taller: taller [68] older or younger: older? [69] romantic or spontaneous: both [70] nice arms or nice stomach: stomach [71] sensitive or loud: sensitive [72] hook up or relationship: relationship [73] troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant?

HAVE YOU EVER…

[74] kissed a stranger?: no [75] drank hard liquor?: no [76] lost glasses/contact lenses?: no [77] turned someone down: no [78] sex on first date?: no [79] broken someone’s heart?: i hope not [80] had your own heart broken?: dont think so [81] been arrested?: no [82] cried when someone died?: no [again i have no soul -_-] [83] fallen for a friend: nah

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

[84] yourself? sometimes [85] miracles? sometimes [86] love at first sight? no [87] santa claus? no [88] kiss on the first date? sure [89] angels? non

OTHER…

[90] current best friends name: colleen aka voldemort too [91] eye colour: brown [92] favourite movie: matilda

I tag: @madameolympemaxime @expectopaula @remusluvpin @lunalovey @audrxyweasley @domlnique

[rosepetalsandrain]

Questions things

I was tagged by @garbonzo-lordofthehats LOVE YOUUU 1. name: Emma 2. nickname(s): Yazi, Em, Ems, Fitzy, Snuffles, Little Shit (jk) 3. zodiac sign: idek man 4. height: around five foot something I think ?? 5. orientation: just an innocent (jk I'm far from it lads) bisexual bean 6. fav fruit: Either strawberries, blackberries or peaches 7. fav season: autumn !!! 8. fav book series: (don't make me choose I can't) either Harry Potter or Gregor the Overlander by Suzanne Collins 9. fav flower: omG don't make me choose they're all lovely 10. fav scent: either Velvet Bloom (a perfume from Next) or rain 11. fav colors: mint green, black, any shade of blue that reminds me of the sea, white 12. coffee, tea, or cocoa: cocoa or coffee I'm not really a tea person (though I'm British lmao) 13. average sleep hours: Wat 14. cat or dog: ALL THE DOGE 15. number of blankets: one but two when I'm cold 16. dream trip: Spain probably, or Hawaii 17. blog created: last year I think???? 18. number of followers: 51 yAy :D I'm tagging @madaa-meww, @catwearsblack, @theultimatetrash LOVE YOU ALL

[cinnamon-todd]

Get To Know Me Tag! I was tagged by: @zeonghan Rules: Answer the 20 questions in a new post and tag 20 blogs you would like to get to know better. — Nickname: brit Gender: vag Star Sign: libra pads Height: 5'5 Time right now: 10:34 pm Last thing I googled: how to look pretty lmao Favorite Bands: bigbang p!atd svtn 21 ik wn Favorite Solo Artists: lee hi, lee hyori, cl, nicki minaj when I feel like it Song stuck in your head: glass bead by gf idunno y it just is Last movie I watched: titanic, that’s how I became a Vernon stan Last TV Show I watched: omg idek the news?? Ive stopped watching since 2014 When did you create your blog: like last yr dec?? ive had many blogs What kind of stuff do you post: I just reblog random stuff but if I get an idea for a scenario I post it pn here When did your blog reach its peak: still waitin Do you have any other blogs: I use to own a disney and dc acc but then I deleted lmao Do you get asks regularly?: nahhh Why you chose your URL: bc jisoo of bp and jisoo of svtn Following: people who post quality imagines or reblogs my fav groups Posts: 1,300 o_e Hogwarts House: idekk man I don’t fck w dis shit but I do enjoy a good Hogwarts au Pokémon Team: Pikachu??? 1+1= rideum ta Favorite colors: dark colours or nice light colours that compliment me well  Average hours of sleep: 8 I nap a lot and go to bed early sometimes Lucky Numbers: 15 Favorite Characters: **sweats nervously* umm I like spongebob?? Marie of aristocats cs she knows how to hold up her own paws and slay moana bc she reppin dem tides bubbles of power puff girls that bitch crack up lmaooo lisa from simpsons cause she stands up for wats gud Vernon on smtm bc that was funny What are you wearing right now: dark red box shirt and sum coochie cutters How many blankets do you sleep with: currently one but summer is ending actually it neded yesterday Dream job: rich n famous is all im gonna say Dream trip: Greece, japan, sth korea and las vegas!! Hopefully gonna get half of those dun in the next 5 years lmao