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neproxrezi · 11 months

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messing around ripping a few textures from silent hill three and there are some delightful typos in here

gotta have my Bullet of Handgan and Bullet of Shotgan

then heal up with a Fitst Aid Kit, which i think might be made by TSUCHINOKO pharmaceutical incorporated company?? tsuchinoko real...

AND OF COURSE MINMO HOW COULD I FORGET MINMO

#dibi #silent hill #every time i try dump texture data my game crashes instantly #idk if that's my fault or someone else's #if you want me to try rip a texture from sh3 let mek now caus this is actually relatively shrimple to do #i just have to have a save file in that part of the game

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skunkes · 5 months

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#talkys #delete later #(this is a meme redraw)#ruined my life is a strong word. and of course theres lots of self blame and obvs ive probably wronged lots of people before #and i dont deserve unending torture for it. right. like part of me doesnt even actually feel ill will toward the other party #because whatever! normal human experience!#the other part is like ohhh okay you lied to and kinda used me + treated me badly then lied again to the point where i found out the truth #from another party so you didnt even have to fess up yourself and now you're back to being happy as if nothing happened #i was just a stepping stone i was just a distraction. ok!#like for real actually ok ^_^ it literally happens to ppl all the time...#<- he keeps experiencing waves of horrific sense of self worth that already wasnt Too Great as a result #ugh. and thats nobody's fault but my own right.... but idk. i cant believe it...! i cant believe someone treated me dis way #and i let it happen... and i would have let it keep happening if an end hadnt been put to it by someone else....#but still. at the end of the day i was the only one left with these thoughts. ykwim. other party has forgotten. got happy ending.#doesnt deserve ''consequences'' but still feels horrific to see and think about. you know?#i literally got all the bad. throughout and after.

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icannotgetoverbirds · 4 months

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Share to save a dandruff-haver's sanity

i am making this post because all my life i have been told my dandruff was my fault for not washing my hair correctly and shamed for having "poor hygiene" as a result - this is probably where the bfrbs started tbh.

SO. There are two main types of dandruff!

Dry scalp flakes: these are white and itty bitty! you can probably solve this with a good hair and skincare routine. HOWEVER unless they are bothering you it is absolutely not necessary for any kind of health reason (afaik! disclaimer! i am not a doctor! this is not actionable medical advice nor should you take me anywhere near as seriously as a dermatologist). IS NOT CAUSED BY POOR HYGIENE.

Fungal dandruff: Bigger, yellowish, possibly oily/greasy flakes! Caused by your genetics going Oops All Yeast! Generally requires a prescription antifungal treatment from a dermatologist! ALSO NOT CAUSED BY POOR HYGIENE.

Either way, if you have dandruff, a dermatologist is the one you want to consult if it's bothering you! and frankly, even if it was a hygiene issue, nobody deserves to be shamed for that!!!!! especially considering that there are plenty of people who struggle to shower regularly due to circumstances beyond their control!

AND FOR CHRIST'S SAKE STOP SHAMING PEOPLE WITH DANDRUFF!!!!

#dandruff #byrd chirps #byrd's business #i am Big Mad about this #because ALL of my parents blamed me for my dandruff #and no matter what they tried it wouldn't go away #but they never thought to take me to a dermatologist for this SKIN issue #just assumed that we were doing something wrong #and i got called gross for having dandruff #and tbf it is kinda gross! but you don't call a literal child gross and say its their own fault #idk maybe my parents were just That Shitty and nobody else has this issue #but regardless. on the off chance that someone went through what i did:#i see u. you've done nothing wrong. you didn't fuck up in some way that makes you deserve to have dandruff #and by no means do you deserve to be shamed for it #certainly not to a degree where you feel like you have to cause yourself pain with scrubbing and picking and chemicals that don't even work #(which is what I've been doing)#dandruff havers ily and i am giving you a lil forehead kissie #dandruff shamers i am going to killing you with hammers

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needylittlegirl · 14 hours

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crying is so stupid sometimes like pull yourself together whore

#like im just crying cause i need a break from being a person #and being a person would be okay if i was doing it with someone else #but im just a person. all by myself All the time #thats fucking exhausting #tbd #idk #my brain feels like a bowl of cotton balls #but in a bad way #i just need to go to bed but theres too much anxiety in my body!!!!#i feel it in my hands so much #like my fingertips feel like they could just start sparking cause theres so much anxiety in there #i sound a little (a lot) crazy #but i dont know its like #it sounds like im just upset about being alone #its not quite that . its that but a little to the left #like nobody Really knows how my day went today #nobody saw me come home and just sit on the floor for a few minutes #nobody Sees me #other than immediate family and like coworkers im not that close with anybody in real life #which yeah thats my fault but #it just makes me feel so isolated #nobody Sees me or HEARS me #to everyone around me im not. an individual person im just apart of their day im somebody they brushed past or something #there isnt anybody that is a person with me just because they can be #i feel like i could scream at the top of my lungs and nobody would bat an eye #im just tired of not having anyone around me #i dont know i just seem crazy and self centered or something #i just need to go to bed

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todayisafridaynight · 2 months

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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chipjrwibignaturals · 11 months

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diversity loss! local autistic forced to deal with plans being suddenly changed

#I am going. to kill someone #like I get the cause of this was something out of anyone’s hands. it’s not my sisters fault things changed.#but we went from ‘I’ll come down Monday + Tuesday to help you move then drive to the lake for the rest of the week’#to ‘actually we’re moving tomorrow can you make it a day trip and then leave Saturday for the lake w everyone else’#and like. sure. arguably this is a ‘better’ set up but. I fucking HATE change like this #especially bc it’s so late like. okay then guess I’ll fuck myself.#I need to go unpack all my shit (bc I was being GOOD and doing shit EARLY for once!) and repack for the new plans #and like. fucking emotionally prepare for this new change bc I wasn’t THINKING this was gonna happen. im not READY yknow?#idk. fucking. slams autistic diagnostic ‘inflexible adherence to routines’#my ROUTINE has been CHANGED (on top of ALREADY being disturbed by this whole trip) and it’s causing DISTRESS #< like. dw I’m fine i just need to be a bitch about it for a bit

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iknowwhereyousleepatnight · 6 months

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i managed to forgor that my paper is a research paper. hm. i may need more citations

#research paper aka my worst enemy aka no original thought needed just recap other people's works aka >:[#let me speak!! this isn't something highly documented but its obvious!! you can look and see it!!! not my fault no-one's mentioned it!!!#i think i'm just gonna fuck around tho and do some extra credit just in case #though i suppose the appeal of research papers is that you can pick and choose sections of material to reference and make it abt #what you want by making logical statements with support on things that don't really matter #this is an exaggeration btw i just don't care for restating other people's things a lot #i get to do my own stuff but i need proof from someone else or i die or smth idk

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shirkers2018dirsanditan · 10 months

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i did resolve to stop throwing myself so many pity parties and to cultivate a practice of indifference towards my own life so that i could one day truly feel indifferent but i don’t :( and it’s silly and self indulgent but i do want somebody to feel bad for me. i don’t want advice, i don’t want encouragement or positive thinking, i don’t want motivation. i just want someone to take seriously the conclusions i’ve come to even though they may sound ridiculous - i understand they do! trust me i do! they are so ridiculous i don’t fully believe them even though i need to! - and i want someone to take seriously at least how depressed it makes me and i do want them to say and express. poor you. i don’t have a lot that makes me sympathetic or unique, but it hurts enough that i just need a little pity…..and it’s so rude of me to… when people are being nice to me and trying to ensure like, no these conclusions aren’t true! life is long! the future is open! if you want these things you’ll get them. because it’s nice and i feel, genuine. i used to be optimistic like that. and i’m not someone who really suffers, but plenty of people suffered their whole lives and died. plenty of people have been lonely their whole lives and then they just died. plenty of people have been depressed their whole lives and then they just died. and from my vantage point what i can realistically hope for is that my end is sooner rather than later. but this is a depressing thing to say and something no one wants to hear. and certainly no one will be like, i agree and i hope your life is short and your end near. and i’m not saying i want someone to tell me this. but i don’t want to hear about how these things will come and how it’s just a matter of time or if i want something i can have it or how it’s okay to be down sometimes. i don’t believe you. and it’s not a comfort. and i feel bad that it isn’t. but i’ve been delusional and i don’t like it. i don’t like chasing after delusions. i don’t like being hurt. and i know that’s life and blah blah blah but i do feel it should not all be this hard. it’s just not worth it. i feel, narcissistically, that on some level my decision to let go of delusional optimism and try and accept my fate is kind of noble. lol. at the very least it’s very difficult. and some, encouragement is not the word but like. literally just some pity would go so far. like yes. poor me. but i’m coping with it. but that’s too much to ask!

#i hate the idea that life is what you make it and your life is up to you blah fucking whatever #like on a political level i think its shallow #but on a personal level i don’t think it’s fair #life is not fair sometimes for no reason #some animals get lost from the pack and then die of exposure. or whatever #it can all be so very random #i’m sure you could say i haven’t tried enough #but when trying is painful it hurts to keep doing that #you can only take so much rejection…..you can only be disliked by so many people in so many subtle and overt ways before it gets to be #too much #and its easy to see someone unhappy and be like. well they’ve chosen this #and like no well the circumstances chose me idk #i don’t like being unhappy more than anyone else #i’ve been depressed for like two years or something like. i don’t like that at all #i would rather be happy and social #and feel loved and understood #i would rather feel normal #i would rather feel like i belong #but i don’t #and that’s not my fault #and some pity would be nice!#i should have put this in my notes app or something or maybe i need a journal but #this is my blog so everyone will have to witness my breakdown

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lesbianwithchainsaws · 10 months

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Having previous bad habits really sucks for a number of reasons, but one really is that it just doesn't really leave you even when it feels like it should. Lately things have been not so great. Everything feels so bland. I don't enjoy the things I do as much and I'm desperately trying my best to get out of it. I'm trying to go outside and talk with friends, and just trying whatever I can think of. But there's this constant thought in the back of my mind that the empty feeling could very easily be gone, at least for some time, if I just hurt myself. Because that's what I used to do when I felt like this. And I want to avoid doing that, but the thought is still there and there's still times where its something I start considering and have to really try to push myself away from thinking about. Or how I used to purposefully make myself feel worse because I preferred feeling awful to feeling like everything is bland and uninteresting. And like I'm doing that again. I noticed today that I'm doing stuff like that again and I have to try to push myself away from it, but that's way fucking easier said than done. But like I'm better now. My mental health isn't as bad as it used to be. It's not exactly amazing now, but it's not nearly as bad as before. It's better and this shouldnt happen. But yet they do. These habits are still here even though I should be better and I should be okay. I just wish it was okay

#i feel like this is partly my fault bc if i hadnt moved back into my parents house maybe my mental health wouldnt br getting worse again #but i didnt know what else to do and i was scared of doing all this by myself #idk sorry for the vent posts constantly #if someone can please tell me that things will be okay; i could really use that rn #vent post #self harm mention

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earlgreybocchan · 1 month

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Several things about the **** and **** drama is how many people have hopped out to go omg so is the lady we have decided is the only big bad villain responsible for planting all of the hate against insert group/idol here when I watched in real time for all of those examples their own fans jumping on their favorite idols for things that were clearly just scraps of bad rumors they just completely made overblown THEMSELVES under the guise of trying to look 'critical about their faves'