#idk it always made sense to me 🤷🏻

[iscariotapologist]

my hot take is that the trinity is not that hard to understand. it's a clover/egg/water/mystery/etc like we've been over this

[rivangel]

Random question

Other than his looks, what made you fall for Levi?

-♡

first, i can’t give you a detailed recount because i forgor😔in late 2020 i had just escaped a long insanely emotionally abusive co-dependent relationship, i was starting college, escaped my home life, and i heard that aot was FINALLY getting a season 4 so i rewatched it on a whim (i was very much a fan in 2016 but i wasn’t a manga reader, and after wit whimped out on animating after s3, i fell out of interest🤷🏻). idk why levi didn’t catch my attention at that time..

but in a perfect storm of irl variables, i became obsessed❤️honestly levi ackerman made me realize i was on the asexual spectrum. (so levi ackerman was an influence in me breaking up with my casual boyfriend at the time also.) then i went through some Traumatic Stuff and with no exaggeration if it wasn’t for levi i wouldn’t have made this blog or be here today

(so as more of an aside, my sexuality makes me feel like the attraction is even more real in a way?)

but what about HIM made me fall for him??

- well first of all i have a type🤷🏻emotionally unavailable, strong aloof fictional man with a heart of gold

- also he was extremely relatable. i could see so much of myself in him which was particularly nice when i was working through stuff i hadn’t even been aware was trauma before. rly made me feel less alone

- fictional man has unwavering sense of loyalty who knows what it feels like to be chronically abandoned so he would never do that

- independent fictional man that wouldn’t smother me in affection, and doesn’t feel any need or desire to be, idk upfront about it?—because it’s felt and shown in his actions plenty. this was a massive factor for me

- he always has his shit together. i mean he’s in total control of himself at all times and that kind of stability attracted me

- back to being relatable, i have the same outlook about life and feel i have a lot of the same personality traits🙂

- no nonsense. doesn’t mince words or lie to make someone else feel better. not a dominant guy. kind of course, selfless and empathetic but also morally grey with a darkness in him. more humble but not in an insecure way that requires me to be constant emotional support. lacks charisma in a very very very cute way. levi is so shy yk??? while also being a tough badass🤷🏻

- he’s short and small. i didn’t think about this until later but i love it😭😭short guys for me>>>

- if this makes sense, he isn’t sexual? even though he has plenty of sexual appeal (DUH). shows no interest in romantic relationships or sexual encounters while also being the most loyal, doting, and thoughtful partner if he was in a romantic relationship.

- this isn’t canon necessarily (although i remember this being a fan rumor), but he’s more docile and submissive in a relationship. that isn’t to say he can’t be dominant, but he’s mostly the former and that’s a major attraction to me

ok i’m getting into headcanon territory so i’ll stop😅but those are the major things :)

[the-teddy-bear-butch]

Stupid fanfic asks part 2/3 @candle-lion “all divisible by 3”

36: do you base your characters of real people or not? If so, tell us about one.

Nope, all brain children with inspiration from random other characters and shows. No real people tho

39: are you an avid reader?

Yes and no. I LOVE to read, and when I do get around to it, I’ll read a LOT. I’ve consumed entire novels in one sitting before. However, college and my job kick my ass and I haven���t had the mental capacity to read an actual BÔÖK in months

42: describe the aesthetic of a story in 5 words.

cyberpunk au: let Nancy Wheeler be violent

road trip: repressed trauma and it’s gay

45: name three of your favorite fanfic writers.

I don’t like just doing three because I feel bad not tagging everyone and there are too many good writers :( I’m going on a tagging spree, fuck your three writer limit, @ yourself obviously, @sapphicriley , @lavenderlevetan , @suwunnysideup , @ronancebuckley , @ronanception , and @dufrau to name a few

48: do you reread your own stories?

Yes but more in an “oh god I haven’t touched that in weeks, where did I leave off” kind of way. I might be more likely to read my finished long stuff when I get there

51: share the synopsis of a story you work on that you haven’t published yet

Oh dear, let me look at my massive WIP list. It’s been mentioned like once, but I have one I’m hoping to get worked on soon called “say you’re gonna come back”, based on the song Sports Car by Valley. It’s about Robin and Nancy coming back to town years after the canon events of the show, probably for the Jopper wedding, and falling in love years later

54: what’s a common writing tip that you almost always follow?

Don’t edit as you go. I will get so caught up on two sentences if I do that. Drop a question mark or whatever and MOVE ON. Come back later with a clear head and I swear it will suddenly make sense and be an easy fix

57: what is the last thing that a fic made you google when you were reading it?

Betaing LSFTG chapter 8, I had to look up a word. Quavering, because I’ve heard wavering and quivering but never quavering

60: where is the most dangerous place that you’ve written fic?

Uh, work I guess? I have a desk job where I work alone, nobody will see me or care 🤷🏻

63: what’s the best insult you’ve read in a fic?

Oh god, idk. Hang on. This entire bit from make my menace into someone you’d adore by moonflowery / @ronancebuckley

66: when have you felt the most confident in your writing? 

Book club 🥺 screaming at each other and betaing has been one of the biggest confidence boosters in the world for me, so thank you and Eve both for that <33 (You in particular are probably the only reason I’m continuing fucking,,, run away)

[plague-of-insomnia]

I feel you with Spy X Family, and maybe its partly the bleed through that the lead creator doesn't really care about it? (From what i hear Spy X Family was made mostly so he can just get money for stuff he really wants to work on)

Spy X Family is most peoples brain popcorn. The characters are cute enough, no high stakes, The Assassin lady is pretty, it brain popcorn

And i happen to like it cause i like the character designs, and sometimes its nice to have brain popcorn then something like Madoka magica where you wait for shit to get fucked up, yknow?

Everybody got their tastes :3 your ambivalence or dislike is okie dokie ✨

That’s interesting. That makes a lot of sense then why it’s so meh. The creator doesn’t care so he’s just phoning it in. I mean it does feel like he wanted to do something else (domestic fluff found family) but was pressured into the whole spy/assassin/mind reader thing by his publisher, bc ultimately that whole concept is almost forgotten while they just… have a school manga/anime that’s boring as can be.

I mean I tend to not like 99% of popular things. Like I can enjoy it enough to watch once or whatever but that’s it I’m done no need to ever think about it ever again.

Like I still can’t get why people went sooo apeshit over Good Omens. It was an entertaining watch but definitely did nothing for me. (But as much as I respect Gaiman and admire his success, I tend to feel that way about most of his work, so it could be me.)

🤷🏻

I’ve always been like this. It’s not even a snob thing, like I don’t think there’s anything wrong with liking something that’s popular at all. I just…. Usually don’t.

Like I need characters that really speak to me, that I can see develop, otherwise I get bored really fast. Action scenes bore me to tears if there’s too many or that’s all there is. I want characters. I want emotions. I want to see them struggle and learn and grow and develop.

On the surface I get why people might like Spy x Family, but there’s just nothing compelling there to me. The characters are all paper thin and so is the plot. There’s literally nothing to come back for?

Meanwhile, only two episodes of Buddy Daddies and I already felt connected to the three main characters. Hell, one episode hooked me. There’s been so much more character development there (and not just with the main 3) in only 7 episodes than Spy x F did with 24. By an order of magnitude.

Like it’s fine if you like Spy x F, but idk why anyone would want to do more than just watch it once or twice to pass the time…. I just…. Do not. Like the more of Buddy Daddies I watch the more and more I realize how disappointed I was with spy x f as a whole.

Idec if that’s an unpopular opinion. If I watch season 2 when it comes out, it’ll be to pass the time and I have nothing else to watch, but honestly idk if I will bother as I’m pretty done with it. I think if I hadn’t been so desperate for something that was dubbed to watch I wouldn’t have even finished it.

So yeah. 🤷🏻

[ausilotus-battle-cats]

Reading The Fourth Apprentice rn and. I will not stand for this Squirrelflight and Leafpool slander 😭

Lionblaze thinking “they deserved it!” When Firestar expressed sympathy for them and said their lives were ruined and now Jayfeather’s angrily like “maybe things would’ve been better if Squirrelflight never came back” when he saw Leafpool’s memory of when she saw Brambleclaw and Squirrelflight off when they went on the journey to see Midnight. Like y’all I get it, you were lied to but like 😭😭😭 SQUIRRELFLIGHT WAS FORCED INTO IT, YOUR LOVELY LITTLE STARCLAN PRESSURED HER INTO IT TO THE POINT OF LYING TO HER JUST SO SHE’D TAKE YALL IN WHEN SHE REALLY DIDNT WANT TO Hhhnngg I know they don’t know that, I know they don’t know how it happened but it hurts to read smh 😔 and the “I was lied to” angst made a lot more sense with Hollyleaf cuz the warrior code was so important to her and she built her life around it. Like that’s great, I love Hollyleaf and I like that it actually made sense with her. But with Lionblaze and Jayfeather they’re just holding grudges cuz it’s just the “I’m adopted and I feel personally attacked because of it” trope that I’m so tired of cuz “real” parents aren’t always biological and I know, yeah, Squirrelflight and Leafpool kept secrets but you know what Jayfeather and Lionblaze are doing rn? Keeping secrets. JAYFEATHER WAS EVEN LIKE “get used to it” TO DOVEPAW WHEN SHE DESPERATELY EXPRESSED THAT SHE DOESNT WANT TO LIE TO HER CLANMATES ITS SO INCONSISTENT LIKE “oh lying is horrible and I hate those two for it but it’s different when I do it” LIKE BITCH- I guess it’s different cuz you’re part of a prophecy but like. Did it never occur to you that maybe. Just maybe. Your lives wasn’t the result of a mistake cuz you’re prophesy cats? Not saying they’re only worth being alive cuz prophecy, but I think that’s how he’d actually see it. Anyway. Did it never occur to you that perhaps StarClan has no problem with y’all being alive? Had actually lmao, let’s not forget that dumbass trial that happened in Squirrelflight’s Hope. I guess they had no problem with it until the prophecy cats were no longer useful 🤷🏻. Anyway, you can’t even bring up the argument that Jayfeather could be stressed about the prophecy cuz HE FLOURISHES IN IT, HE EVEN SNAPPED AT DOVEPAW FOR BEING RIGHTFULLY CONCERNED ABOUT BEING A PROPHECY CAT, HE WAS LIKE “HOW COULD YOU NOT LIKE BEING MORE POWERFUL THAN EVERYONE YOU KNOW”, JUST… the “I’m adopted” angst just isn’t consistent with Jayfeather lol. Maybe with Lionblaze cuz he doesn’t like his weird adrenaline powers and also he has anger issues anyway (speaking as someone who has at least minor anger issues) so a grudge still makes sense with him I guess. I mean, he held a grudge against Heathertail for. Really long lmao. Also, to get more off topic, Jayfeather’s obsession with the prophesy is so fucking funny, he was worried for Lionblaze and Hollyleaf when they were on the mission to look for Sol but like. It’s almost like he only cares cuz they’re part of a prophecy and now the same’s happening here with Lionblaze and Dovepaw when he knows they’re on the mission to see the beavers 😭 cuz he saw that memory of Leafpool’s and was like “I know what you’re trying to tell me, you’re saying you understand my worry but you don’t. Cuz you and Squirrelflight aren’t part of a prophecy” LIKE BRUH, HE’S BASICALLY SAYING HE ONLY CARES FOR THEIR WELL-BEING CUZ THEY’RE PROPHECY CATS AND NOT. IDK. ACTUALLY CARING ABOUT THEM??? LIKE HOW LEAFPOOL CARES ABOUT SQUIRRELFLIGHT??? THIS IS SO FUCKING FUNNY 😭 I love Jayfeather but SMHHHHHHHHHH

Uhhhh TLDR: The Squirrelflight and Leafpool slander hurts me emotionally and deeply smh. And the “we’re adopted” angst only makes sense with Hollyleaf and maybe Lionblaze, but mostly Hollyleaf cuz she built her life around the warrior code. But it really doesn’t work with Jayfeather cuz, no matter how I look at it, it’s just inconsistent with his character imo.

Edit: Ok. Jayfeather thinks if they’ve been truthful, they’d help with the prophecy. And there it is again. His opinions on others is completely based on this prophecy so this continues to be funny. He’s basically like “you’re useful to the prophecy? I like you. You’re not useful to the prophecy? Ew, get away from me.” But still. Hollyleaf was still the best out of the three when it comes to the adopted thing imo. Cuz to her, it was more than that, it was the fact that she’s a medicine cat’s kit and halfclan. And like I said, she built her life around the warrior code, so her feeling betrayed was more interesting in my opinion. I love Hollyleaf. I know I said that I love Squirrelflight and Leafpool and that I wouldn’t stand for the slander and Hollyleaf hated them, she even fantasized ripping Leafpool to shreds. But I just feel her character and her behavior after learning the secret is so interesting imo. I felt bad for her, not cuz I thought her being adopted was so terrible, but because everything she believed in was turned upside down, not just who she thought were her blood relatives, and sent her on a downward spiral. I love her. With Jayfeather it’s just “but prophecy tho” and with Lionblaze it’s just “I got anger issues”. I can’t help but enjoy Jayfeather tho smh. /lh