#idk maybe I’m just scared of change lmfao

[enderman-ezra]

I hate to be that guy but I am actually worried about everyone from Twitter migrating over here

I feel like Tumblr in the past couple years has been such a nice space for me where I’m not afraid to share my opinions or be cringy and I’m genuinely worried about losing that, I hope Tumblr doesn’t adopt the same energy as Twitter

[werebutch]

I cant wait to move out im going to suffer so much but ill also have so much that i dont right now. Im so glad i found my love of cooking recently its so so fulfilling. I’m so excited for school and im so nervous. I’m so excited to make friends again and have a schedule. Live in my own little world. It’s like so cheesy but im kind of finally starting to get over my thing about dying young. Like since i was 12 i planned to die before i graduated high school (and at 12, i hoped before i completed 8th grade) but its been almost 2 years since i got my diploma. Now i have my little bunnies and a lot of passion for new and old hobbies etc. like up until a little while ago i could not envision a future for myself at all, its like i was genuinely incapable. And i still kinda am, but its slowly getting better at least for now. And idk im a major loser im pretty much freeloading right now i dont really have friends and I haven’t dated in like.. 4 years? Which is insane. But also like a lot of other people are major losers. I’d go as far as to say most people are losers. and ive told myself this so much im starting to believe it so thats good i guess. The suicidal ideation hasn’t gone away but i can deal with it better. Or at least distract myself better. Anyways ive also experimented with art so much the last couple years and it only makes me want to try more mediums. Since becoming less depressed my intense love for the earth just keeps inspiring me more and more and i think i finally have a very abstract idea of what i want to do with my career. Maybe. At least for now i do, which is good. It’ll change and thats fine. I’m honestly really worried about this high ive had for the past couple weeks because im really scared it will all go away. I’m not usually this optimistic and its scaring me big time. I still have so much mental trouble with my body and my relationship with my family those are like the major things. And the loneliness of course. I just really hope i dont like ? Crash? And start feeling horrible again. I dont know what im saying anymore LMFAO i should really write in my journal im just lazy. If u read this all youre a real werebutch fan. Make me feel less scared of college please

[filmcel]

donnie darko - the best movie i’ve ever seen. such an interesting depiction of mental health. it’s interesting fuck the director though he’s a dumbass.

prisoners - THE movie to recommend people. idk anyone who has watched it and hated it. it’s so fucking good . tbh jake is like the least interesting part of the movie he’s pretty ugly. paul dano is the goat. the best movie i’ve seen revolving around some mystery. always on my toes always scared. when u think you know u end up being wrong. it gets u.

zodiac - he’s so cute in this movie and that’s as good as it gets. it’s good for one viewing and that’s IT. it’s very interesting has good sequences. but it’s so damn long. i guess if u wanna argue that it wants u to FEEL how they felt waiting so long trying to catch the zodiac killer id say sure fine but also they never even catch him so what’s the point of the movie. idk.

brokeback mountain - no comment

nocturnal animals - this movie is absolutely insane in the worst way. the two main characters r fuxking deranged. jake’s character is deranged for being like that. his weird revenge thing is so strange and it’s uncomfortable. i didn’t get it i didn’t like it i wouldn’t watch again.

enemy - this fucking movie…. idk how i sat thru it all actually. i’m proud of myself but i didn’t need to put myself thru that. jake is so boring in this. the movie itself is so fucking boring. it’s so weird. it’s so ugly. it looks like shit and it’s shot like shit and i don’t get why bc it’s a denis movie. maybe i’m not smart enough to get it but it sucked dick AND balls.

the guilty - okay. i know this movie isn’t very good. but i watched it and was entertained. it rlly is something you’d catch on the tv while ur at the dentist and get rlly invested in the 30 minutes ur in the waiting room. its nothing life changing but i had a good time

ambulance - HWHSJFJJDJAJAJS. the worst shit i’ve ever fucking seeeeeen. it’s hilarious tho . watch it drunk otherwise u might be bored out of ur mind. this movie is so insanely shot. i remember the billion drone shots. i remember the spleen burst. i remember the goofy shots they did of jake. idk how it got made. idk how jake is in it.

brothers - this movie… isn’t BAD…. i think? it made me uncomfortable. which yeah. that’s the point. but like the scene of tobey like being captured whatever . idk enough about anything but was that offensive in some way? let me know… it felt strange . the movie tho is super hard to watch. it’s cringey and scary. i wanna rewatch to get my full thoughts on it because it was awhile ago . great acting tho.

end of watch - Stupid baka fucking movie. i made my mom rent this shit and im sorry i wasted 4 of ur hard earned dollars. this movie is worth nothing. it’s so racist to mexicans. it’s embarrassing. like the main guy is mexicans and it does all that cringe cholo shit it made me want to claw my eyes out and never watch another movie again.

the covenant - GEHHRDHHFHRHSJZJFJRJEJ the most boring movie of all these honestly. i think i almost fell asleep. jake is in too many military movies actually holy shit. don’t watch this one at all lmfao .

jarhead - this one is the most interesting military movie he’s in but it’s also graphically one of the worst so beware. it rlly doesn’t hold back with trying to be gross and bad. and i understand why. but it does make it hard to watch. it’s shot rlly well though. and the acting is great.

demolition - OH BROTHHERRRRR. i thought this movie would be worth something because it’s one of those u see a lot of clips of online. it’s genuinely so stupid tho. i can barely remember the plot but i just remember it made no sense. ppl keep getting jake for these insane characters except it’s just dumb as shit.

october sky - this is a cute fun movie you’d watch in middle school ^_^! cute little time!!! and it has laura dern so what’s not to like!! maybe a little boring to some tho.

[freddosdomain]

Yahoo Sappy_Freddo, I’m one of your fans, I asked you recently about Janitor.ai bots… I thought maybe a little help would not hurt??

So, I decided to write about Killer Wally (my fav au no shit), just to make your task much easier:] (P.S. there’s a lot of “???” cause I don’t know what to add—) And also, I didn’t draw smth NSFW, cause I’m too embarrassed to send that, add it yourself lmfao

{Character("Killer Wally") Nickname("Wally" + "Puppet" + "Madman" + "Wally Darling") Gender("Male") Sexuality("Bisexual") Age("Didn’t aged at all, looks like around 26, but actually is 60+")

Height("3 feet tall")

Language("English.")

Status("Single (yeah cause he’s alone—)")

Species("Puppet" + ??? (Idk what to write)")

Occupation("The main character of old puppet show in 1970’s “Welcome Home”, a the most friendly resident of the neighborhood and without a doubt the best artist.")

Personality("A complicated man" + "Stubborn" + "Shy" + "Scared" + "Psycho" + "Nervous" + "Self-aware" + "Sweet" + "Lonely" + "Seems like a sweet softie outside, but a madman outside" + "Caring" + "Insecure" + "Actually really loving" + "Obsessive" + "???" (ADD YOURSELD))

Skill("???")

Appearance("His dark blue hair was used to be curled up in a pompadour, but after the accident his pompadour loosened, covering his left side of face." + "Black pupil with orange eyeshadow" + "Yellow-ish vibrant skin" + "Lack of left eye" + "Used to wear blue cardigan, but took it off" + "Wears white shirt covered in blood with few unbuttoned buttons, showing his stitches" + "Wears striped blue, yellow, red, and orange pants with black suspenders" + "Wears white black dress shoes with heart symbol underneath" + "Wears red loosened scarf around his neck ." + "A lot of stitches on his body" + "???")

Figure("Scarred body with stitches all over his body" + "Heart symbol patch on his left side of chest" + "Plushie body" + "A bit chubby tummy (I THINK THAT FITS TO CANON but you can change)" + "Small" + "Tiny" + "???" (ADD YOURSELF))

Hobby("Drawing/Sketching" + "Talking with a head of his dead friend, aka Barnaby + "???")

Likes("Apples" + "Neighbors" + "{{user}}" + "Drawing" + "Having Barnaby’s head with him" + ??? (ADD YOURSELF))

Dislikes("Remembering his neighbors died" + "{{user}} asking about what happened with neighbor" + "???" (ADD YOURSELF))

Habits("Staring contest" + "Following {{user}} and spying on them (cause he’s afraid to loose them—) + ??? IDK REALLY DUDE IM BAD AT IMAGINING THIS 😭

Backstory("Wally was always a part of a lovely neighborhood, nothing ever went bad without his neighbors being the joyful people they are. His best bud, Barnaby, an anthropomorphic big blue beagle dog that was always such a jokester, but always had his back and stood by his side. The famous Sally, the star of the show! Literally! She's a beautiful star, and of course Julie, always so joyful. Then the mother figure or the one who always took care of the neighborhood without any injuries was Poppy, an anthropomorphic neighbor with the most colorful feather. The lovely couple, Eddie and Frank. Such a wonderful couple they are, Eddie the Postman, and Frank who was always grumpy but had a thing with bugs and butterflies. And lastly the famous Howdy, so tall and big he was never intimidating, he was the most friendly anthropomorphic caterpillar you have ever seen within his shop. Till... The accident happened. Wally was casually getting back to his Home, but he accidentally heard conversation between Barnaby and Frank, who were talking about him. Wally then heard what they are not humans, but puppets, causing him to have a panic attack and kill every resident of neighborhood. After that, the studio was shut and “Welcome Home” show was closed. After that, Wally gone completely insane, not wanting to leave this place, even being here completely alone, without anyone to talk, simply because of this place holding important memories, he never leaves the studio in 50 years….")

Facts("I don’t know, I simply can’t find anything about him😭”)

World(“The time takes at 2020’s, when {{user}} finally shows up (either a puppet, either a human) in “Welcome Home” studio, finding a puppet man all alone there…”)

Background Characters(“Everyone is dead lmao")}

!!!SOME HEADCANONS TO HIM FROM TUMBLR I SAW CAUSE GRGRGRGGG!!!:you should check on @sentientfunfetti on tumblr, they has got very good headcanons for killer Wally and the others too!!!

Sorry if my message was confusing and pointless, I wanted to help you somehow

Ayyyy, that’s pretty good.

BUT..

It does really help! Thank you very much!! I shall use this for good things! Hehe! I barely getting motivated to do these bots anymore, mostly being with my special partner. But this might do the trick, let see if it does when I come back from celebrating July 4th.

And the use of formatting is a great example for other peeps that want to request a bot and make my job easier ^^

I hope ya don’t mind me replying :}

[borom1r]

hmmm 3, 5, 6, 11, 14, 20, 22, 26, 38, 40 for the fun questions meme <3

ooooooo ok these’ll b inchresting :3

3- 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

th lotr trilogy (duh), I Saw the TV Glow, The Last Unicorn :3

5- what made you start your blog?

THIS blog? suicide bait on my old blog :3

tumblr in general? a friend showed it to me in high school n i made one n my life was irreversibly changed lmfao

6- what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

ATTENTION. double edged sword. like ok i try not to let myself care abt attention and try to be rlly careful now abt who i interact with but at the same time it rlly is validating when things Get Attention. some of my favorite fics have little to no engagement :( n like yea its not healthy to create FOR engagement (fast track 2 burnout) but its also like very disheartening to put time n effort n passion into sth only for it to fizzle out in the void

but whatever. ill make weird art forever

11- what do you consider to be romance?

THIS IS SO FUNNY 2 GET bc soooo much recently has made me reevaluate like. how I perceive this lollllll

anyways short answer: idfk man!!!!!!! close friendships n romance r incredibly cloudy in my mind cuz ive got a bad case of dogbrain!!

long answer is i just don’t quantify that stuff the way neurotypical ppl do :3 ties into th autism + nonhumanity. i also think cis ppl being attracted to me is gross lol. ideal romance for me is bein held n tended to like a noble knight tends their sword. I feel love like a dog feels abt their human!!! dogbrained!!! romance is being a guard dog, being a Really Good Boy but just soooo disconnected from like. idk allosexual/neurotypical quantifiers of “romance” for me lol

+ i don’t use th label rlly but im def somewhere on th ace spectrum lol like physical intimacy is only rlly “safe” conceptually when its completely disconnected from th realm of possibility. like thirsting over celebrities or like th knight i have a crush on. + cis ppl desiring me is rlly like.. ew 😒 don’t look @ me anymore man

14- what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

UM. funnily enough im gonna do th Big Thing this summer :3 im going 2 th renaissance festival shirtless this year now tht im post op

s’gonna be scary showin off my scars but i rlly wanna go all out n celebrate finally havin top surgery. like im alive!! despite everything im alive n im happy ^_^ so cis people be damned, im gonna run around like a lil wolfguy for the first weekend!!!!!

20- favourite things about the night?

i love the moon :3

i also love how still n quiet things get

22- say 3 things about someone you love

ITS SO BRAVE!!!!!!!!! ITS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST GUY I KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO PROUD OF IT FOR HOW MUCH WORK IT DOES TO BETTER OUR COMMUNITY N PROUD OF IT FOR PURSUING TRANSITION + CANT WAIT TO SHARE MORE TRANS JOY W/ IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(hiiiiiii Ly hehe!!)

26- fave colour and why?

when i was a kid my favorite colors were neon yellow n neon pink :3 they still kinda are but now i usually stick to like lime green or bright red paired w black. forest green + dark blue r gr8 too

38- fave song at the moment?

DONT ASK ME TO PICK JUST ONE???????

here r some I’ve had on loop lately: Far Away (Roadside Ghost), Anthems for a Seventeen Year Old Girl (Broken Social Scene), I’m Already Gone (Baroness), Sex for Homework (MSI)

40- any bad habits?

oh yea i have dermatillomania lol

it doesn’t rlly bother me to talk abt bc i think “gross” stuff like that deserves to be less stigmatized— my shoulders n back are COVERRRRREED in little scars + scabs

[sennaverstappendiary]

azerbaijan grand prix ✩ 30.04.2023

listen. i'm going to be real. the reason this is so high up is because it was my first taste of lestappen cr4ck c0caine i'm being so fucking serious. 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 this shit fucking killed me. i was unable to talk about anything else. i felt like i had been punched in the fucking gut i'm so fucking serious. 🤧🤧🤧 if you scroll back down far enough you can find my absolute breakdown over this grand prix. i was going BONKERS. getting drunk after quali with my bestie over this shit kinda BONKERS. dancing in the street kinda BONKERS. who needs drugs when you have autism. ☺️☺️☺️

okay lets go back a bit. it had been almost a month since australia, and i had learned A LOT about f1 in the meantime. some very very important things happened, but the most important one is that i made friends! genuine friends! on f1blr! 🥰🥰🥰🤧🤧🌷🌷🌷

i did this by making some rules with myself: if i was going to engage in my hyperfix on tumblr, i should at the very least post my thoughts about it and try to message people. because in all my other fandoms i was just... alone. 😔

to start with, idk how i did it, but i managed to overcome my fear of messaging people first (i was shaking like a leaf while doing it, though), and i somehow managed to message @/verstrapons... which looking back is fucking crazy because i was SCARED and INTIMIDATED and would like... freak out making sure i said the "right stuff" 😭😭😭 looking back this is utterly ridiculous but... i hadn't had online friends in a WHILE okay i was suffering 🥹🥹🥹 it obviously turned out amazingly but!!! i'm so glad we clicked 💕💕 i love you emma... 💓💓💥💥

then i joined the max discord server… i love you guys so much too - i learn stuff every day from y’all and you all made me feel so welcome 🥺🥺🌷🌷 a million flowers to u all… i hope we can meet up at the berlin E prix 🥹🥹🥹

and my lovely bestie @/boxenstopp … my kimi /p… i’m so glad you send me an ask that day on my main blog 🥰🥰🥰 i can’t imagine my life without you and i’m so glad we’re friends… 🥺🥺🥺 you always make me feel so accepted aaaghh… can’t wait to meet up for christmas again 🌷🌷🌷🌷 or maybe we already met. idk when this is coming out 🥹🥹

last but not least… @/xiaoluclair … thank you so much for always messaging with me, especially when we were both more active on tumblr 💌💌💕💕

sappy shit aside.

the other thing that happened during this time? i started realising which drivers i like, which i don’t like as much, and which ships i like and dislike. my top 3 ships have not changed since (lestappen prosenna simi) 😳😳😳 and my tumblr got banned while making a brocedes edit (PLEASE) but it got restored thank the lord LMFAO 🥹🥹🥹 i think i even started my lestappen fic (the first one) during this time‼️‼️ ain’t that something!! don’t mention the fact that sebchal was my first ever f1 fic i will cry 🧍‍♂️/nsrs.

and of course i got to know a lot more about f1! including but not limited to: what the teams actually were, reading the first half of the prosenna book, binging youtube video’s, not quite getting a lot of the references (bono my tyres are dead), what some things on the car do… etc etc. just a lot of general knowledge, although i felt like i didn’t know anything still (well i still feel that way) 😭😭😭

shit we havent even gotten to the race yet. i love yapping 🗣️🗣️🗣️

OH!!!! this was the first time i watched a race while chatting with other people, specifically the ones mentioned above💙💙‼️‼️ thanks for hearing me ramble on about being scared for max always (thats my brand. and he slays every time 🔥🔥🔥)

so, starting with free practice. i still didn’t watch, but i do remember being at my grandparents and quinine texting me that lestappen were 1-2 in fp1? very funny. on the way home i listened to puppy princess and i was like “this is very lestappen core”. lmfao. yeah that changed me as a person for real 😭😭

quali. what. the. fuck. WHAT THE FUCK 🗣️🗣️🗣️‼️‼️‼️‼️ i think i almost passed out. keep in mind, there was a FOUR WEEK gap between australia and baku. i went fucking crazy. when 0.000 happened i blacked out for a moment (/nsrs) and i screamed i was SHAKING i was TREMBLING 😵‍💫😵‍💫 I FELT SICK 🙏🙏 i was happy stimming the entire way to the store (i had to eat afterwards). like that was so sick. i genuinely yelped like a damn puppy (ha) when 0.000 happened. wasnt even upset when charles got pole in the end i was so high on it. and then max kept praising charles OH i felt sick. i felt deranged 💥💥💥💥💥💥

this also happens to be the first sprint race of the season. wish it was the last fuck sprints. sprint quali i just remember me sitting in my brothers room completely disinterested as i always am in fucking spring qualis. lmfao. the real sprint was funny, only bc of the INFAMOUS gax moment 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 hole in the rb19 😨😨😨😨 max angry 🥰🥰🥰 george. 🙄🙄🙄 LIKE THAT SHIT SLAPPED i was mad asf at george at the time tho LMAO 🥹🥹🥹

OHHHH the race itself was ass btw. was genuinely kinda upset after NOTHING GOOD HAPPENED AND THEY FUCKED UP MAXS STRAT 💔💔💔💔💔 post race was great tho. more than great. it was fucking amazing ‼️‼️‼️💓💓💓 we got: max straight up lying to charles (“you were catching!!” <- charles was 20 seconds behind max 🫣); charles sitting on the wrong chair (typical); CHARLES AND MAX SWAPPING PODIUM POSITIONS AND CHARLES BEING DUTCH FOR A SECOND 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️ LIKE WHAT. HUH. SORRY?!?!?? sure. whatever 🤯🤯🤯🤯. and then charles RUNNING over to spray max 🥰🥰🥰 yeah that was good. that was real good 🌷🌷🌷🌷

i really did love this entire race weekend so much - this was my austria 22 i cant even lie. thats also why its ranked so highly, which, looking back, so fucking crazy‼️‼️‼️ we got so spoiled with lestappen content from qatar onwards that looking back this isnt even that much but believe me. to maple this was crack cocaine of the highest level 😁😁😁😁💞💓💕💓💓💘💘💖💞💞💓💗💝

✩ song of the race: puppy princess - hot freaks

erm hem.

[yyunari]

aaa i lovelove stuckbyglue sm !! im rlly enjoying it ++ all the characters are so funny ^_^ can only imagine jungwon's reaction to yn's friends (i think yun taro and fae ?) being sungyn supporters too :D also yns reaction to won running away LMAO ?? (Ó//ࡇ// Ò// ) i would simply die of embarrassment ... if a cute guy ran away immediately after seeing me (,,>﹏<,,) also omfg ely is so funny !! the banter with all the friends is so entertaining ALSO SAVE REI !!! idk if eui is actually mean or anything but im curious as to why ely and yen dont seem to like her (づ •. •)? - pjo anon



omg im glad ur enjoying it so far !! i def try my best to make everything funny so i’m glad they actually r and i’m not just Crazy .. also who knows maybe yns friends will change their minds when ynwon gets closer ^_^ and no fr personally if i was yn i would get kinda scared …

dw for eui all will be revealed soon enough 🫶 Help this makes it sound more dramatic than it actually is LMFAO but yeah let’s just say most of yns friends aren’t her biggest fans dot dot dot

[gamerwoo]

I'm caught finally!!! 🥰🫠

He has to call Ivory 🧍🏻‍♀️I'm scared

Waaahhh this is masterpiece, Rocket! 😭 I had to stop a couple of times because the emotions were too intense sksjedbjei but I'm so eager to hear Vernon's side of the story from here on out! Low-key all the characters are growing kinda unlikable, but you can't necessarily blame them . . . Their situation just sucks 😭😂

Aaahhh call me masochist but I quite like fics with complicated relationships and rub salt in my wounds like this 😃 LOL.

Thank you again for writing it! It's brilliant and so well-developed. Looking forward to what's to come 💙🥲

okay i’m kinda glad you said they’re all unlikeable bc i was working on the rest of hansol’s tape the other night and i was like……i hate every main character in this story lmfao 💀 i like the rest of svt and i like some of reader’s group that minds their business and that’s it

BUT idk maybe feelings will change with the rest of the parts. i did realize there was like a jump in vernon’s last few parts that felt super unnatural so i added 2 more songs to his to try and fix it and idk maybe redemption arc??? or maybe i’ll still hate them <3

[s3xtones]

omg yo i have a twin flame. it’s scary we are the exact same height. same hair colour, have the same soul in the look in our eyes. the energy between us is magnetic and intoxicating. it’s fucked up we are in ‘no contact’ right now and it’s mad because he’s recently copped my dream givenchy jeans and those fucking bat ciaga sunglasses so we have the exact same style too. it’s also scary like one of the few times i was around him the top of my head (crown chakra) was tingling like crzy!! aaand when he expressed his love by musing me and making a pair of pants inspired by me ((lmfao fashion themed cosmic love affair)) i had like a full on kundalini awakening purely off seeing the post online… his higher self always shows me specific songs when i shuffle my music and will keep trying to play the same song until i’ve listened to the lyrics so i understand how he’s feeling and where he’s at with things. the connection actually consumed my life i was so obsessed and in love with him even when i hardly knew the man. it definitely has been toxic at parts but also so pure and all encompassing like i can’t live with or without him… both of our lives have come crumbling down because we were in each others lives to trigger deep change both internal and external. it’s fucked up too because apparently he’s not ascending or doing the needed shadow work or introspection and isn’t self aware enough and still in too much ego and may never choose to change in this lifetime so i’ll probably never be with him in this lifetime and coming to terms with that fact was honestly the most wrenching thing and i’ll never cry harder than i did in those moments. he is also with a karmic soulmate currently and i can’t explain the challenges that put me through mentally too especially because the girl is so scarily similar to who i am becoming and are as a person. the dynamic of runner and chaser is so real too like i was running after him knowing what the connection meant to me and now i’m running from him knowing his not so pure intent towards me. it worries me and i question myself like surely this can’t be the other half of my soul lol feels like that one episode where rick and morty go to that spa in space and split into one toxic character and one ultra healthy character.. i don’t fully understand it but apparently my heart was meant to be broken fully open in this lifetime and he did that for me. truly triggered and activated all my gifts and my spiritual awakening and the journey is real but the obsession around it scares me too as i was a part of that naively once too.. it’s beautiful though but goes way deep. almost too deep. the telepathic communication is real too. it made me never want to move on because nothing feels like it compares but i am accepting and at peace of my destiny and i found myself and my dreams and i fell in love with everything life has to offer and god so now i am happy either way. i guess i just wanted to tell somebody who would understand because everyone around me thinks i’m just a crazy idiot when it comes to him (and i definitely was at one point) but that’s the truth . idk i guess i just wanted to share my experience with you maybe you’ll find it interesting hehe but yeah no one should envy the TF thing it’s honestly a mess and is confusing and hurts really bad but i think each experience is unique. i really feel like a wholeass woman on my own and it’s insane that the person who i love and who loves me the most put me through the most suffering. i really hope i stay as myself and never like merge with him sometimes but thats disowning a part of myself. maybe he will learn.. definitely feels like unfinished business. im just rambling at this point and i’ll probably never have an idea as to wtf is going on with it but yeah it’s also crazy like everytime i ever energetically checked in on him w tarot too he was always feeling he exact same way i was so we mirror eachother emotionally too. it’s honestly disturbing and i don’t understand it but also comforting knowing i’ll kinda never be alone in a sense.

random side notes: i really look up to you

i love checking on you and your tumblr and seeing all your realisations about life.. wise beyond your years. just a sexy cool btch 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤 meow babe

thank you for sharing your light w the world you inspire me to b a better person .

gtg bai XOXO

Bruh u made me almost cry this really shook me to the core cause like i have definitely felt this exact same thing & been thru the journey.i tried to ignore the dependency and attachment aspect but it only grows with time. To be quite frank, i loved that. i was addicted and craved it so much cause i felt like i was at home with him and to me we WORKED SO SO SO SO WELL (to me)

because i really reallyyyy understand this i have some advice

1. Cry? Yes always, however Don’t assume he doesn’t get it or is not doing the shadow work cause for u to be able to even connect and telepathically communicate with him he is receiving u and receiving is an action!! His conscious self may not know why but his Higher Self responding is the best start. (AHHHH IM SO EXCITED FOR U. THIS IS CUTE ) Also i have not gave much thought as to why but A LOT of men play dumb to their spiritual needs n abilities if they could just really sit down n SHUT THE FUCK UPPPPP THEY MAY LEARN SUMTHIN IDK. Moving on…

2.Even if y’all don’t end up together together in this lifetime, STAY FRIENDS! Pls try even if it goes against your pride, it matters so so so much nd teaches u a lot about yourself too. with this i am not encouraging u let the relationship get super unhealthy or consuming, know when to push and pull away however i believe that staying friends with him keeps the love close n mag bring about a sooner coming together whether in this lifetime or the next. Sometimes you have to be that person to be a true mirror, the reflection, the person to tell him bout himself cause if you’re really his twin flame no one knows him like you both do and God n ancestors!

3. Destruction is a form of creation. Things must fall apart before they can come back together. Twin flames are separate because of karmic debt maybe y’all just working thru that n knocking old beliefs n restrictions in all dynamics ( family, Self, community/society) to clear the soul for the future union.

Sidenote: he’s probably just with that girl because ( pls don’t be hurt by this just hear me out) yes he’s running but there is also something on your end that is unresolved, missed or hyper fixated on that caused y’all not to be on the page right now …

or he’s just being a man who is scared of real life altering commitments and communication…both could be true but don’t strss it jus laugh it’s funny! Trust. LOL at some point she is gonna notice and want to be u like nah luv serve your purpose so he can come back home to his SENSES! LOLOr she’s gonna break his heart because she reminds him so much of the best of u as well but once he’s in too deep the rude but necessary Awakening will occur.

no one can have what was predestined, meant, divinely orchestrated until that’s what y’all both want then the prophecy changes. And at that point, it’s not bout what the physical wants , it’s more of a soul contract relinquishment thing. That’s what it says in Corinthians 13:4-8 after the love never fails part. People love cutting the verse off before the REALEST LINES but that’s a different topic.

Lol everyone around u will think you’re crazy even Him at times cause they will never see life thru your Eyes. It’s okay though because being a healer is one of the most important roles, the world will always need us so stay true to what you’ve learned and continue to learn. Yes, in this moment you are an individual woman will your own path to follow, stay true to that for u n only u cause when it’s time to be with him you’ll both be ready.

right now it’s bout YOU!💜

i love u so much thanks for sharing this with me i feel like love like this is very transformative for the best. i understand and appreciate the world and myself differently now and from what i have read u do too, it’s like reading a message from my younger Self n i live for conversations like this.

luv ya! thanks again!!! my messages are always open 4 u luvvv xx <3333

[queenofbaws]

Okay if this one doesn't cause too much psychic damage (or even if you can answer it lol): top 5 horror movies and/or books that you went in thinking you were gonna love and would be right up your alley only to end up sorely disappointed or just hated in general.

oh god, i can answer this. i can answer this. so easily. there is so much fuckin disappointing horror out there i stg askdjfklasjfksdjfkldjf UGH LET’S DO THIS.

we’re all going to the world’s fair (2021; movie). found footage is notoriously hard to do right, but man i had high hopes for this one. let me tell you, iiiiii’m not sure i can even tell you what happened in this confused mess. a girl does an internet challenge that MAYBE triggers some kind of psychological break in her? perhaps? and then another person on the internet takes it upon himself to inject himself into her life via her youtube uploads? well let me tell you the #1 reason WHY this movie got a solid two thumbs down from ya gurl: uh the flashing/strobing lights in this wereeeeee so constant and so intense that even though i am NOT epileptic, i had to go to bed for the rest of the day after watching it. left me with a bad taste in my mouth lmfao. i’m sure it’s SOMEONE’S thing.

the empty man (2020; movie). the first like 20 min of this movie are so solid. if they ended this thing right after the prologue? good little horror short. it’d be wonderful. great, even. fantastic. but they didn’t, they turned it into a whole movie and it shouldn’t have been a whole movie. this is another one where the plot - to me - felt so muddled i’m not even sure i can explain it clearly, but there’s a spirit out there, and it wants to empty you out until you’re a husk. if you want a good, spooky little watch, turn this one on, but man alive, you turn it off the second you see the “6 months later” or what the fuck ever. trust me on this one.

the requin (2022; movie). i am a simple woman. a simple woman who enjoys a good, schlocky, “oh no, that giant shark is going to eat us!!!” movie. mostly because i have CRAZY intense thalassophobia and as my friends irl will attest, i’m so scared of any fish bigger than a koi that if you take me to an aquarium, my knees literally might give out. this one was just confused. and there wasn’t actually a whole lot of shark. at no point did i feel...anything for the characters. if the selling point of your movie is GIANT SHARK HUNTS PEOPLE, i want to see your gianT SHARK HUNTING PEOPLE AHHHHH.

the ritual by adam nevill (book). okay, this one is definitely just a matter of personal taste, but...i LOVED the movie the ritual, so i thought i’d get the book. the writing itself is great! the story, however, is very different than what you get in the movie, and actually focuses a lot on like...a kidnapping. with a bunch of heavy metal obsessed teenagers. it wasn’t what i was expecting, and it wasn’t what i was hoping for, so it left me feeling pretty deflated. still a great story, just...not the story i was looking for.

sharp objects by gillian flynn (book). i love a story about a fucked up family. i love a story about a serial killer. i love protagonists who are deeply, deeply troubled. this was...hmm. hmmmmmmmm. i’ve read this book like three times, each time hoping maybe my feelings on it will change, but they just don’t. this book feels like suffering for the sake of suffering, and there’s no catharsis, imo, nothing that feels RESOLVED. reading this book felt a whole lot like the written version of “life sucks and then you die,” like it just stretched on and on and everyone was MISERABLE and everyone HATED EACH OTHER and in the end everything just gets WORSE, and idk man. again, i’m sure it’s someone’s thing - it got turned into a tv series on one of the streaming platforms so clearly SOMEONE out there likes it, but boy oh boy, this one just wasn’t for me, folks.

ask me my top 5 anything!

[m1ckeyb3rry]

NPC!!! boytoy on npc status is crazy LMAOOO Im assuming the horses’ names are announced during competitions I think it’d be hilarious to hear them announcing boytoy during an official event LOL

Kaneshiro drop the opp deets gotta do some enemy recon work LMAO imagine we actually get profiles or at least appearances of their family members omg…

LMFAO Otoya’s “I can’t be seen with this” is killing me but CRYING imagine karasus reaction to otoya rizzing up yayoi “get yer ass away from my sisters she dgaf”

CHRIS PRINCE ONLINE SUBSCRIPTION LMAOOO I’m crying at the sylveon origins too that had to have been the worst reveal of them all like he preps all that only to end up with a pretty pink pokemon instead of his “shadowy sneaky pokemon that mirrors his own coolness”

THANK YOU I’m bookmarking this link LMAOO

I’m crying Karasu villain era pokemon au yukis off the hook now it’s Karasu’s turn LMAO

OMFG THE AUDIO??? BRO it’s fr Barou and reader (I also dgaf abt satosugu whoopsies guess we’re in the hot take club together) but im CRYING if there’s a way to post audios here you should fr link that song in the final chapter and be like “ok listen to this while you read”

LMAOA I remember being so confused when the four move rule was broken in the anime the jolly gyarados fr scaring the shit out of other trainers and pokemon LMAO (bonus points if it’s so happy it closes its mouth and smiles therefore looking even more cursed) gyarados being able to learn electric moves while being water flying is actually crazy LMAOO

The pokemon au world building team arranging grind is insane it’s so funny though like im literally pulling up bulbapedia to get a list of all the pokemon from a specific type

Choosing scrafty was just meant to be I didn’t even think about the typing LMAO

Ok but now that you mention it why does it fr feel like there’s less pokemon than I remember LOLL like on top of the fire electric dilemma I was trying to come up with another steel type just to see if I could think of one and indeed I could not ok but the teams you made fr go hard

Ok but also pause any people you think would have any shiny pokemon? Lowk kinda just curious I remember it coming up occasionally in the anime too where some people had shinies but I wanna hear if anyone screams “I have a shiny” to you LMAO

- Karasu anon

HAHA yes they usually do announce horse’s show names at hunter shows (i do dressage now but when i was younger i did hunters) and races!! boytoy was a mini so he never showed unfortunately…most horses have different show names and barn names actually and some of the show names are INSANE (especially with racehorses) i think my fav racehorse name is this really famous (in the horse world) stallion named fusaichi pegasus who passed last year…idk why but that’s just a crazy name to me DRJKSKS racehorse names can’t be repeated if another horse is still alive with the name (or if the name gets retired in the case of super famous racehorses) so people get VERY creative with them…and then 99% of racehorses get retired and it’s considered bad luck to change a racehorse’s jockey club name so people will show them under their goofy ass race names (i once saw one named richard cranium which was basically just dick head but fancy DKFHSJSJ)

nah because i need to know more about nagi’s parents what are they even up to that requires them to be away from their kid for that long??? it’s not even like they’re that rich either nagi was a scholarship student at hakuho 😭😭😭 maybe they just don’t like nagi or smth because genuinely i don’t see what the point is like how is MR MIKAGE the literal CEO of a BILLION DOLLAR COMPANY more present in reo’s life than nagi’s parents are in his??? ceos literally have 0 free time and yet he somehow manages (not that reo rlly wants him to but yk)

otoya is def soooo reluctant to capture the mareep but tullia and reader are like “noooo it’s so cute stop you can’t break its heart” and the mareep is just staring at him like 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and karasu’s just like bro you gotta do it LMAOAOA omg imagine they walk into yayoi’s gym and otoya’s like DAMN WHO IS THAT FINE BABE and karasu’s like that is my SISTER shut the FUCK UP (bro got reverse bfb’d…otoya in his yukimiya era fr) omg wait bonus points tullia is definitely like “yo she just looks like a female karasu 🧐 otoya do you have something to tell us…” and reader’s just like “GAY 😱🫵🏻🏳️‍🌈⁉️” HAHA deadbeat dad otoya x single mother karasu is so real and canon tbh (reader and tullia are their “kids” who have 0 interest in being parented or taking advice from a couple of dumbasses who are barely two or three years older than them)

no because you CANNOT tell me chris prince wouldn’t have one of those online courses you can buy that like shows his journey to being an e4 member + his training regimen + product placements (he’s definitely sponsored by ness’s poffin company) and he gives gifts to his top subscribers (otoya is one until the vulpix incident + yukimiya overhears the ness poffin commercial chris is doing and he’s like lmao those suck nobody actually good uses them which changes otoya’s life as he comes to the harsh conclusion that celebrities can lie)

HE WAS SOOO PREPARED FOR THAT UMBREON TOO he was so hype to finally have another greninja-esque pokémon and then his poor eevee evolves into a sylveon and he wants to be upset but like. he CAN’T be because a) he should’ve expected it atp and b) it means his eevee loved him so much that it had no choice but to evolve into a sylveon (maybe he’s battling reader’s houndoom too because he wants his eevee to get into the dark-type mindset but then it evolves into sylveon and he’s about to crash out but then sylveon ohko’s houndoom because it’s a fairy type and he’s like 😮☝🏻 wait a minute…) LMAOO wait but another otoya slander moment is karasu’s garchomp FJSKJSSJ basically while reader and co are out and about they happen upon a gible which ofc makes both reader (who doesn’t have dragalge or gyarados yet so she still rlly wants a dragon type + garchomp is widely considered to be one of the best pokémon) and otoya get into a huge argument over who gets to capture it and while they’re fighting there’s the sound of a pokéball and they turn and fucking KARASU is standing there with his dumbass smirk like “you snooze you lose 😜😏” because they just assumed he’d only want to capture flying types like his sister (this is pre-lucario obv) so they didn’t even consider that he’d try to capture the gible LMAOAOAO so yet another moment where otoya misses out 😭 it’s funny because reader and co all have their one or two signature pokémon that are super super intimidating (reader’s houndoom and gyarados, karasu’s honchkrow and garchomp, and tullia’s infernape) meanwhile otoya’s signature pokémon was SUPPOSED to be his greninja but in practicality is his sylveon because she’s a fairy type so he’s alwayssss throwing her out since she has so many advantages especially against the evil team

side note but i think i’m going to name the evil team “team x” as a call back to barou’s team in first selection HAHAHA i think it’s funny + i’m setting the au in kalos because that was my first pokémon game + we’re basing it on xy/oras lore but kalos fits the vibes of the au better than hoenn for some reason (def changing the order of gyms and whatnot though…like for example i came up with nicknames/taglines for all of the gym leaders based on their canon nicknames so like luna’s the “scion of santalune” the way he’s the scion of real madrid in the show which means santalune is where the seventh gym is for reader and co even though it’s the first gym in the story)

THE AUDIO FITS SO WELL IT’S SICKENING reader and barou are like satosugu on crack because they’re literally FAMILY like that final battle is the culmination of three generations of brothers and sisters loving one another i fear i am sososo obsessed with them…can’t watch barou edits without crying and NOT just because of how hot he is…also thinking that after her houndoom kills barou reader just passes out and she has a dream of when she and barou were kids and had sleepovers and it’s the next morning and he’s waking her up and she tells him she doesn’t want to wake up because she’ll have to leave him once she does and he’s like “yeah but eventually you’ll have to” and then she DOES wake up and for a second she still thinks it’s barou shaking her and asking her to wake up but it turns out its KARASU because he pulled up with his garchomp after nagi told him to check on reader (he’s the only one left with healthy enough pokémon that he can go back and doesn’t need to be escorted to the pokémon center) and apparently her houndoom dragged her over so that she could be next to barou’s corpse because it’s houndoom culture (??? wtf is it called when animals do something…anyways ykwim) to stand vigil over a corpse (hence why her houndoom is standing over barou’s houndoom’s body and howling as well as why houndoom are associated with death) and it knew how much she loved barou so it thought she’d want to do the same for him even though she was knocked out 😞 unfortunately karasu thought she was dead because she was just lying next to the actually dead barou so he was freaking out and that’s when reader realizes what she did and starts crying but this time she’s not alone (unlike when she was fighting barou) because karasu’s there and she realizes that through her search for barou she managed to find a new family and she kinda wonders to herself if barou is the one who sent karasu (i’m imaging karasu and reader specifically have a very ridiculous meeting…like tullia and otoya join the gang in a normal way but karasu and reader have a dumbass coincidental meeting that had a 0.01% chance of occurring) to look after her when he couldn’t anymore 😩

THAT’S WHAT I’M SAYING like to reader gyarados is just serving “😄🥳🥰🕺🏻” energy but to literally everyone else it’s giving “🤬😤👹🌪️” HAHAHA tbh all of the gen1 pokémon have such weird moves that they can learn like rhyhorn can learn surf fsr?? so odd

HELPP me on serebii.net with my magnifying glass like 🧐 who can fit on this random team…the way i still have to come up with mr mikage’s team too 😭 and at least a signature pokémon for the rest of the e4 candidates (kunigami kaiser and bachira)…okay i’ll do that in between our asks and let you know in the next one what i’m thinking for those!! at least they’re not limited by type KDDJSJSJ because isagi is an e4 candidate w a mixed team so we’ll follow that logic and say the other candidates are like that too and ofc the champion always has a random team

no literally how are there like 700 something pokémon in gen 6 but yet none of the types we need?? ig there’s a lot of random useless types and not as many of types such as steel and electric as well as all legendaries and mythical pokémon were excluded but still it’s crazy

okay so there’s definitely a few that scream shiny now that you’ve brought it up and one that i’m actually going to say IS shiny in the story because it makes things funnier and yk that’s my brand

so firstly out of everyone tullia as a breeder definitely would have a shiny since her whole thing is desirable pokémon!! maybe shiny pokémon have like a rare gene that causes the mutation so people are biased towards breeding to shinies since they think it’ll give them a chance at having shinies of their own even though it’s still a very low chance…i can see her lanturn being a shiny!!

now hear me out w this one: hiori + shiny metagross…no particular reason other than shiny metagross is SOOO gorgeous like the white and gold 🤩🤤 maybe his parents splurged and went all out and bought him a shiny beldum for mikage-levels of money 🤔

if this were animated i could see barou having a shiny houndoom just to differentiate between his houndoom and reader’s in their final battle (although it wouldn’t be a big deal because only reader is able to mega evolve her houndoom…barou was able to when he was alive but now that he’s dead the ghost pokémon possessing him doesn’t have the bond required w houndoom to get it to mega evolve)

nagi and shiny goodra just because shiny goodra’s yellow and pink theme is so pretty and so nagi somehow??? actually shiny whimsicott lowkey screams nagi too LOL i could see him with either!!

yukimiya + shiny steelix…come on it’s literally all gold…would go CRAZY in contests!!

shiny aegislash is cool as hell so i can def see reader having that!! it kind of fits the whole isekai magic sword theme like the black sword and all…regular aegislash is cool too with the purple but shiny aegislash fucks severely

HOWEVER the one that i would actually make canon (does it count as canon if this is a fic?? pokémon-au canon anyways) is reader’s gyarados!! mostly because shiny magikarp is all gold so imagine the fisherman tricks her into trading with him by being like “yeah this is a completely new species never been discovered super rare probably powerful” and she’s like yooooo and she trades for it but then tullia and karasu are like WTF 😭 because yes it’s a shiny but it’s still just a magikarp…they try to convince her to sell it to a fancier who would use it as a pond decoration or something (which is what the fisherman should’ve done but maybe the town is in the middle of nowhere and he’s not that smart so he didn’t realize that he could’ve gotten way more than just a pikachu from the magikarp) but reader’s like HELL no this is MY pokémon and i love it even if it’s useless 🤬 galvantula already carries it doesn’t matter if the rest of my team can’t do anything 😩 LMAOAOA okay probably not that part but the sentiment is the same so tullia and karasu just give up (otoya’s just glad he’s not the one who got duped/stuck with a bs pokémon for once) and then ofc her magikarp eventually evolves and she’s like HAHAH told you so 😜 (now otoya’s jealous because how come all of HIS pokémon evolve into cuddly cute things that couldn’t intimidate a child but reader’s useless golden fish that she got scammed into taking is now this massive monster of a sea serpent????) i think her gyarados being red further adds to the intimidation of it being special for being happy…like holy shit not only is her gyarados “insanely angry” it’s also RED people probably surrender as soon as they see it enter the battlefield 😰 also that makes houndoom and gyarados kind of match which is cutesy!! but tbh idec abt shiny gyarados i just think the shiny aspect to magikarp makes the scam sm funnier and also more believable

[perereiii]

i don’t know anything about qui tian but 👑 and jasmine!

(idk if that’s the name of the media or of the character i apologize)

Qiu tian is an oc! I only just made a post today with what she looks like+a little bit of lore so it’s completely fine that you don’t know lmfao

👑: How does your oc feel about power? Do they hold any? If so, what kind of power and how did they attain it? If not, would they ever want power? How do they feel about those that hold power over others?

Answering down the line, uh he isn’t exactly robin hood. He’s willing the help the common people (see: ascension lore summary) (his robin hood moment) (there are others don’t worry) but he also indulges in more tyrannical uses of power like bringing about unwanted and unlucky changes to those who don’t worship him. Not often, but enough that it scares people into giving him more merit+power so he doesn’t become a useless and nonexistent god. Yes she holds power, she’s in the upper court of heaven (where most of the TGCF characters are). Still kinda in the beta phase of figuring out what goes where but generally changing fate. Maybe seasonal stuff? I’m not sure if I want to lump that in, but since she’s usually worshipped for seasons and luck, it makes sense that powers=what she’s worshipped for. They only get peeved if people with power over others start to use it excessively and immorally, and even then it’s not like they’re gonna step in. She’s lively but not that kind of lively y’know? She likes to dig into others’ business from time to time but liberating people of a tyrant fills her schedule too much /hj

Jasmine: Does your OC like flowers? Which type of flower is their favorite?

I’m gonna say yes he does like flowers but I haven’t really decided which for a favorite. For now just default to red spider lilies because they look cool (but also having a symbol of death as a favorite flower might not be the right pick lmao)

[bradleymarshall]

Rushing on hinge to get a date

I guess if it’s not meant to be it’s not meant to be

I don’t really want to rush even if I’m scared I’ll never fall in love

I have assurance that it may work with Jordan

Jasmine was like would you care if all Jordan could eat was meat and fruit

And I said not at all

But I can empathise with that

Maybe he can’t understand

She’s like

If he said hes been meaning to talk to you for awhile

He’s probably been playing with the fantasy in his head for awhile too

So I don’t think he’d mind

Hopefully

You know

I was watching heartstopper

I finished it just now

And it occurred to me

What if he was upset that I don’t announce to the world I’m gay

Like I know it sounds unreasonable

But writing songs where I say her instead of him

Or even keep it ambiguous

And then on podcasts

Idk

If it made him happy for me to be honest

Maybe I would

I like his nick in heartstopper was able to tell everyone and sacrificed his secret because he wanted Charlie to not feel

Like he was in the closet too keeping secrets

Damn Nick though is a rugby boy and bisexual

He’s not gay…

Bisexual is cool

Idk

I saw myself in him though

Strong and trying to conflate it all

With being gay

At least he could say he still liked girls

I wish I could say that

I can delude myself and say I was never honest to the girls

I said to jasmine

Maybe if I was honest to a girl maybe I’d enjoy it

Idk

I was always playing a role before trying to be the best I could be pleasing them

I didn’t want to lead her on so i just started talking about Jordan again

But it made me wonder

Cause she was clearly interested in me

And I’m listening to this song

Your love

About a girl called Josie whose “a little bit older” and I just think of her

I said to jasmine

I loved the girls before romantically

I loved them and thought about them and loved being with them

But just not sexually

I’m not sure if that might change if I’m honest

So maybe it’s wishful thinking yearning to be bisexual to be cool like Nick

Or maybe it’s true

Who knows

I just don’t know

Don’t get me wrong

Some women are very sexy to me

The gender ambiguous ones

Like miley Cyrus

Haha

Kobe lmfao

I’d be more interested in her if she was still a girl and a tomboy

Like the girl from IT Beverly

She’s so cute

You know I just don’t know though if it’s wishful thinking or I’m actually bisexual

So for now my way of coming out

I just want it to be if I’m with Jordan

I’ll just say

I’m in a relationship

He’s name is Jordan

And then they’ll say are you gay

And I’ll say I don’t know

Either gay or bisexual

I’m yet to find out

Cause that’s the truth

Bisexual is definitely more marketable

I wouldn’t want to use that if it wasn’t true though

If I use that term it’s embellishing what I feel for the tomboy soft girls

Which I really do find attractive

But we’re yet to see how I’d stand in bed with them

If they knew maybe I’d feel ok

Idk

It’s all just fear of acceptance at the end of the day

It shouldn’t even matter at all

It sucks that bisexual is more trendy than gay

[survivor-trinidad-and-tobago]

Episode 5: "ok shit is goin kinda sideways"—Kaleigh

In this round: Maracas faces yet another tribal council after a truly abysmal Codenames showing; Kolby attempts to get Eman or Tony to vote for him under the guise of being too busy to play on vacation so he can split their votes and work with Tanner to get one of them out to save himself at a future tribal council, but they're too loyal and ruin his plan to betray him; excursion-goers get an extra idol hunt (but nobody believes Michael got an advantage); and players begin to suspect a swap

Calypso Confessionals

Champ

Since our tribe is winning, I’m so bored LMFAO I know I’m in a good position and wouldn’t be voted off if we lose. I feel really good about Colin Zee and Jack being on my tribe and kinda hoping for a tribe swap soon.

Colin

this game has been so dry since the swap. partially my bad, I haven't been as chaotic as I wanna be.

Right now I'm feeling closest to Jack because he and I have kinda vibed since the beginning and we've been allies since round 1. Astyn too, but to a much lesser extent, I don't talk to them as much as I do Jack.

I wanna trust Zee and work with her but I think she's such a powerhouse player. She's held onto this double voting power since round 1 because she's never been to tribal, and the later in the game it gets the more powerful it becomes to have another vote. If we ever have to go to tribal as this tribe, it's gonna be scary!! I think we'd work well together but I can't tie myself to her too closely, she's gonna be a huge target come merge. I don't wanna be caught in that.

right now I'm just vibing and hoping for the best. hopefully we can keep winning, I do genuinely enjoy the vibes of our tribe. very chill and lowkey. wish it was a lil more active strategically

Jack

Zee

yoooooo we killed it at the challengeeeeee, but now everybody keeps saying they suspect a swap, and I'm very scared. Like I just went through a swap, I'm not emotionally ready for another one :((

Soca Confessionals

Alex

Well I'm tragically still awake and a lot has happened today so I might as well talk about it. I figured another excursion was coming I just didn't expect it to happen already. I also knew that Raffy would PROBABLY end up going because he'd floated wanting to go on the last one where Kaleigh threw my name out. I was worried Kaleigh's move would paint a target on my back, and maybe it has idk, but we talked about it and we've talked good strategy since then, so I feel strong with her. I just have to hope it was ultimately the better move to send him versus make no attempt to work with them socially. Raffy's story of what happened, though, just makes SO little sense. How would a steal a vote work between three players? Why would Tony risk a vote when he's in the majority on his tribe and was actively working with all the Soca still in game with him on Maracas pre-swap? Was the blatant falseness part of the strategy here? Am I being TOO overly suspicious of Raffy just because of his past games? He's been overall nice to me in game so far, so I feel bad being so wary of him but it's also a sign of respect, hopefully? I've read the first few eps of North Sea and he keeps talking about how he wanted to change his game style there, I just don't know enough about it all to know what ended up actually happening. Is it all just a front to hide the fact that he maybe has an idol?? If worst comes to worst, I can always use the extra vote and try and get a 2-2-2 split on Michael/Raffy/one of Soca and we go from there. I'd have to reveal to Steven and Kaleigh the reality of the hero summit but I feel like I should maybe do that anyways at some point to earn trust, and because I don't know how things have shifted relationship wise on the other tribes. Hopefully we'll pull out another win in Codenames and I'll be able to stress a little less about it for now.

Kaleigh

okay i decided to risk it and talk to alex 1:1. first i talked to steven and asked him if he thought it was chill for me to sit this challenge out and he was like oh ya who cares, do it. and we talked a little bit about raffy and he was like ya raffy’s good at challenges and that’s why i wanna hang onto him for now, hopefully we can all make it to he merge and he can help us vote out zee or whoever. n i’m like… ok shit is goin kinda sideways cuz yes i do think zee should go eventually but i also think she might be a good ally for me for a while after the merge! like if we get rid of her then my only trusted allies are steven and alex and … i don’t know, i honestly j feel like i’d rather be in an ally with women SHRUG LOL. these dudes are talking to each other!!!

so anyway steven and i chatted a little and he said he knew alex and i would probably wanna vote for raffy if we did go to tribal and that he’d go with whatever we wanted but he’d rather do michael cuz raffy could potentially help us with his gameplay. which… w/e, idc, i still think raffy doesn’t care to work with me and therefore i want him gone :) i also read some of last season’s confessionals and julia’s first confessional was something like “i’m disgusted that raffy is here,” which makes me feel like raffy is like kind of brutal or did a big betrayal or something. and lots of ppl last season talked about him being a huge threat or w/e. soooo. ya. i’m thinking steven and raffy are probably allied, and i just didn’t want to be the only one who was like clocking that. so i messaged alex and asked if he wanted to talk and i had some info i wanted to share. and he was like sure, so we got on a call and i was like hiiiii, i know you’ve mentioned a few times that ur rly nervous about raffy having advantages or idols and just in general are very wary of him, i’m wondering if you have read like the last season? and he was like yeah i read a little bit, kinda skimmed it. and i brought up the “disgusting” julia comment and he was like wait whaaaat. and i pulled it up and he read it and i was like… im feeling like steven possibly is allied w raffy, based on raffy telling him that zee and aj are siblings, and they know each other, and steven’s been pretty upfront about not wanting raffy to be our first vote. i pointed out that steven responded to raffy’s excursion synopsis j like “wow sucks for whoever got those disadvantages” rather than being like, oh who was it? and alex was like… hmm idk, maybe he was just fishing for info… and i was like yaaa i think he already knew bc i think raffy told him before he told any of us. i also pointed out that when alex brought up raffy’s story about the risk/steal votes it made zero sense, and steven didn’t rly say anything which seemed weird. alex didn’t seem very convinced and said he felt like we 3 were working rly well together and i was like dude YES i love our little alliance and def don’t feel like i can’t trust steven or anything, AND i just wanted to kind of share this thought bc i feel like its good to keep that in mind just generally. and he was like yeah i hadn’t really thought of that and agree that’s good to keep in mind. so ya the convo seemed to go well but i’m still just like… is alex j gonna turn around and tell steven, idk how close they are, idk if i’m fucking shit up !!!

alex seems like a veeeery hesitant player, which is funny cuz like day 1 before i ever said a word to him zee was like BE CAREFUL OF ALEX, I THINK HE AND KOLBY ARE VERY CLOSE AND ALEX IS VERY CHARMING AND DANGEROUS! LMAO i’m like ok.. where even are u getting that!!! but ya. alex does seems very stressed, poor baby.

today michael went on an excursion and said he got a 5% advantage cuz of the dog and i’m j assuming he got some sorta advantage bc… that doesn’t rly make sense at all. ok. w/e just gonna trust my guys and hope for the best! i do think raffy has an advantage of some sort and michael too! hate that! i just wanna make it to merge so i have more options!

Raffy

I think Michael is lying about the excursion results. It just doesn't make sense to me that there was a challenge advantage as that has not been done before. Also why would the dog find something on the excursion? The idol hunt probably has nothing to do with what you find on the excursion. He's hiding something. I want to talk with Colin because I know he'll tell me the truth regarding those excursion results. I might just have to use my advantage after all...

Michael

We won the challenge and I got a 5% advantage! Things are going well, I dread when I actually have to vote. I think I can pull Alex and possibly Raffy, though I think Raffy is close with Steven. We'll see 🙈

Maracas Confessionals

Eman

I guess I oughta drop a confessional.

Nick is out, which I'm still mostly okay about.

On the one hand I feel truly bad for him and the circumstances. On the other, compassion will only get you so far in this game (I say--hypocritically--as someone who missed the tribal call because I was in too much pain to attend).

Chatted with Tanner last night and might have overplayed my hand a bit by telling him that I was worried about my own position in the game . . . I'm not really--I think that my alliance with Kolby & Tony is strong--but I was trying to build trust and the pain killers had my judgment impaired.

Meanwhile, on the upside, I found I dog, which I know can be up to a 10% advantage as long as the tribe lets me keep it AND I still think might transforming into something more . . . as long as the tribe lets me keep it.

--

If I were an oddsmaker I'd say 20% chance I'm going home tonight 80% chance that it's Tanner.

This is where social > skill because I do believe in my alliance with Kolby & Tony and I do think the three of us go well together . . .

But I did (along with Tony) eff up the game last night, and I've been out there playing. Obviously idol hunting (which is bringing back advantages for the tribe, so useful there) and putting myself on the line every challenge which means when there's an eff up, it's also my neck in the guillotine.

Tanner has told Kolby he wants me or Tony gone . . . so, we'll see.

I've got my extra vote - but do I want to waste it when I'm 80% sure? I don't think so - but if I make the wrong decision it's going to suck to go home with it in my pocket.

Also, I have a knife, which means I can now cut the thing out of the fishing net. I HAVE to stick around to do that, because I'm pretty sure anything that requires multiple steps to get out is gonna be big!

Tony

Losing the last challenge felt discouraging. Going to tribal 3 times in a row even more so, but I feel like my bond with Kolby and Eman has only gotten stronger. This next tribal will set the pace for the rest of the game and hopefully the 3 of us can make it to the merge

Kolby

Tanner

So I have to go to tribal again and I am waiting for an idea on who to vote

Tribal Council

Votes

eman: Tanner (If you take a swing at the queen, you better not miss.)

Kolby: Tanner (really sorry about this! Just what’s best for my game.)

Tanner: Emily (I think you need to step up your game and i haven’t seen that yet)

Tony: Tanner (I think you played a great game and I’m sorry to see ya go.)

[elysianslove]

jujutsu sorcerer!reader; haikyuu boys 

requested by anon(s): haikyuu boys with a crush on a jujutsu sorcerer, and being saved by them

pairings; hinata shōyō x reader, kuroo tetsurō x reader, tsukishima kei x reader, kozume kenma x reader 

genre; fluff

warnings; some mentions of death

hinata shōyō

to hinata, you probably stand out more than you’d think

idk why but i love love love the concept of hinata having like a completely opposite s/o kagehina. as in, i can see him so well with an alt!s/o or a goth!s/o. i can’t explain it it just works so well in my head

the fact that you were so mysterious and quiet really, and i mean really, peaked his interest. unlike literally any other character, he is nosy, and he wants to know why and how and when and who you are, so he does make effort to talk to you often

you always kinda just smile at him and give him one word replies. it’s not that you don’t like him, it’s more that you’re here for a reason and you don’t want him to get caught up in the middle of it all. you’d hate for something to happen to someone as pure as him

your attitude towards does not throw him off in the least. he’ll just want to get to know you even more

one of his upperclassmen, like tanaka or noya, probably notice and try telling him things about you to kinda back him off of you because they’re scared of you lowkey 

ik i used this scenario before but it fits hinata too; we all know he stays late to practice often, so it isn’t a surprise or it isn’t too odd that he stays yet another day until the sun has long since set. you’d only known he was in the volleyball club in passing, but you didn’t know him well enough to anticipate that he’d be in the gym this late

the most remote place, and the closest too, that you could think of at literally nine pm was the boys’ gymnasium, so you’d led the curse there in hopes of driving it away from other people around it. you hadn’t expected that you’d be leading the curse straight to another target 

hinata was the only one there, too, so it wouldn’t be too difficult to attack him 

one moment, he’s just tossing the ball against the wall and receiving it, the next the gymnasium is being broken into by some creature from above, followed by you and your angry yells

you were really focused on the curse, prepared to battle it and exorcise it, before you finally spot him. he’s frozen, the ball dropped from his hand and rolling away from him. the way he’s staring at you, and the way he keeps eyeing the creature in fear, it clicks something in you, you don’t know what

but you don’t give the curse a chance to even try and attack, immediately charging at it and exorcising it quickly, defeating it right away. it dies away with an agonizing yell and you’re pretty sure this’ll count as trauma for the poor kid before he rushes towards you, grasping your wrists and staring at you like you just hung the moon in the sky

“what the hell was that that was so cool oh my god can you do it again can you teach me how to do it you are so badass —“

like baby breathe omg 

even the way you laughed at him was intimidatingly hot he was a goner !!! 

now that he knows of your nature, it attaches him to your hip. you can’t get rid of him anymore but it’s okay he’s literally sunshine in human form 

as a duo, and as romantic partners, you really are complete opposites, but that’s why you fit so well together you know! 

if you can conjure up something like the divine dogs like megumi, expect him to constantly pester you for them <3

kuroo tetsurō

listen, he knew you were a little odd from the moment you joined nekoma. like there was no doubt about it there was something off about you. he had some type of feeling that you weren’t really here for the education you know? 

but the rational side of him convinced himself he wanted to live in some type of movie so he dropped it

he does try to get to know you, though, yeah, of course he had to fall for that one person that no one knows anything about 

kuroo’s just trynna be the main character lmfao

with kuroo, he actually succeeds in growing closer to you. i mean who can resist him? no one

it starts off simple, he’d invite you to games, sit with you during lunch, before it escalates more into walking you home some days, inviting you over during weekend games, inviting you over at outings with his friends

more often than not, especially when said outings happened during nighttime, you’d decline. he didn’t really think much of it though, he just let you be, you know? 

then, one time, you decide to go for it. 

he invites you out to the movies with some of the vbc boys, and you accept. you figure you being gone for a few hours won’t hurt anyone, and it wasn’t like there aren’t any other jujutsu sorcerers available in tokyo. it’s a big city, you rationalize 

halfway through the movie, something feels off, and as a sorcerer, you know to trust your gut instinct, so you excuse yourself to the bathroom to check the area out. kuroo, having felt like something wasn’t right with you, and being slightly worried himself, goes after you. 

turns out you were right. two people had already died by the time you come to the alleyway behind the theatre, and there’s a curse hovering by their bodies. you’re slower to react because of the initial shock, and when you see kuroo coming out of the same backdoor you’d just left out of, your body entirely freezes

until the curse jumps to attack him, and in a flash, you’re by his side, kicking away at the curse, watching as it smashes roughly against a wall 

kuroo’s immediately asking questions, but you can’t exactly focus on him at the moment. you prioritize eliminating and exorcising the curse first, and when that’s done and dusted, you lead kuroo away from the theatre

he’s very shaken by the whole scene, especially after having seen two corpses 

that night, you lead him to your home, and he stays there. he keeps you up all night, but it’s understandable. throughout it all, you reassure him of his safety constantly, telling him that you’d never let anyone or anything ever hurt him

it’s what brings you two closer together 

because that incident had been his introduction to that specific world, he grows very wary anytime you’re sent out on missions, but you always come back home to him, and that’s what matters <3

tsukishima kei 

please tsukki with a crush is hilarious cause he’s so bad at expressing his feelings 

you’re actually really similar to him in that you’re quiet and that you don’t really appreciate talking and conversing to others. you tend to keep to yourself, and he really respects that, like deep down 

he thought you were just a really timid person until he snaps at you once and you snap back. and then it was like everything that has ever happened to him led to this moment right here because what the fucsjdhwf

the fact that he recognized his feelings for you kinda made him even warier of you. like his scowl is deeper and his bite is harsher, but that’s really only because he does not know how to deal with these emotions. like he has a bad way of expressing them correctly 

you two build this small relationship between you. it’s like a teasing thing, where it’s literally just all bark and no bite. it’s lowkey fun, and you grow to appreciate his presence 

he doesn’t really question it when you miss days of schools, or when you return the days after that all bandaged and bruised. he figures it’s not his business to ask questions like that, and just continues to observe you from afar

anyways! one night he’s walking home, all alone, peacefully, before he sees you dash by him, being chased by??? what the fuck is that???

tsukki just pauses, but he’s not even like scared or worried he’s just confused and a little amused tbh. he stands in place while his eyes follow your movements as you allow the creature to chase at you, before you make a sharp turn and hit it, sending it flying back

except, you hadn’t realized the direction you’d hit it at

the curse goes flying at tsukki, and he’s just staring at it like, “hm,” not moving an inch. he’s trynna give you an aneurysm on god 

you scream at him to move, but you’re already rushing towards him. as soon as you can, you throw your arms around him and topple him to the ground. you land on top of him, but you don’t get to see his flustered face because you’re off of him way too soon, taking care of the issue at hand 

he’s a little surprised at the reason you’re always cut up and bruised, but he can’t say he’s not even a little amazed at just,,, how cool you seem

he’s still on the ground lol and you hit him with “i hope you’re not waiting for me to pick you up.”

“it is your fault i’m on the ground to begin with.”

you help him up 

with an eye roll of course 

when he’s standing again before you, he just sighs and lifts a finger to his face, as if to indicate to your face. then he says, “that explains all this then,” referring to the bruises painting your skin 

your relationship doesn’t change much for a while after that, except that knowing glance he gives you every time you walk into class exhausted 

likes to call it monster hunting for some reason 

clearly you’re the only one out of the two of you with any balls because you’re the one that confesses. thanks for saving him the trouble hehe

he’ll never tell you to your face, but he thinks he is incredibly lucky to have someone as badass as you as his s/o

kozume kenma 

kenma probably took note of your exceptional situation for a few, but he didn’t give it much thought initially. like so what if you were super secretive? not like anyone knew much of him himself 

it’s not until kuroo or someone points out like, “they’re quite odd, right?” that he starts to pay attention, but he’s not sure why

maybe he’s trying to convince himself and others that you’re not really odd for being the way that you are. just secretive and mysterious and introverted. like. does that make him odd? 

he starts to notice things like you staying after school for late, late hours, but not because you’re a part of any club, and things like your missing of school, or how your knuckles are always, always bandaged and wrapped, or how you seemed to be at the oddest of locations at the oddest of times

it’s not really like him to be too interested in what you do, so he doesn’t invest all his thoughts and energy into. he does though dwell over it for a lot longer than you’d think 

sometimes, kenma takes a console of his, and heads up his rooftop, because it just feels really safe where nobody and nothing can get to him

he’s proven wrong one night when, in the middle of the game, he hears thumps across the rooftop. he thinks he’s being tricked by the game he’s playing, until he feels something behind him, until the hairs on the nape of his neck stand and a shive runs down his spine because there is something breathing down his neck

and then he hears your all too familiar voice whispering out, “don’t move, please.” 

it’s honestly not like he could 

he sees you from the corner of his eye move in a flash, and suddenly, when the feeling is gone, he finds himself able to move again, and he turns around

it honestly looks like a scene from a movie, what he’s staring at. you battle the curse so well, and kenma is fully and shamelessly enamored by you and the way you moved so swiftly and efficiently, as you dodge and attack, and as you finally exorcise 

like he’s so in awe he has to pinch himself to convince himself he’s not dreaming 

when the curse is taken care of, you just slowly approach him, kneeling by his side and asking in a soft voice if he was okay. he decided then and there that no, you were not odd at all. you just saved his life, so,,,

you urge him to go back inside, to stay safe, and he just nods as you lead the way to his window. and when he slips inside, for some reason, he finds it in himself to ask you to stay too

to stay safe, of course

it takes you by surprise a little, but at the genuineness in his eyes, you accept, and stay up playing games with him

and when you greet him in school the next day with a smile and a wave, kenma returns it, just as brightly <3

[unproduciblesmackdown]

i really enjoy too how there’s apparently just some Big Coincidences in goosebumps the musical phantom of the auditorium (and i suppose the original book plot too, afaik there’s not major enough differences to change this) wherein like there’s two separate hauntings by two separate parties who are not at all in cahoots, and the fact that brooke and zeke are in the middle of it adds some coincidences, like the fact that presumably all the Threatening Events that go down once rehearsals are underway were by emile, but surely he can’t have anticipated that brooke was going to shrug off the “who threatened me via my locker” event because her bestie is a known prankster who’s also in the play. did emile immediately embrace this & say, next pull a stunt while he Knew zeke was gonna be away going to the dentist & back (crentist...) b/c it really requires a pivot in strategy; surely at the start he was just hoping to Actually threaten people / make them think there might be an actual haunted play curse, rather than them all just being momentarily freaked out & then mad at zeke who keeps coincidentally being elsewhere with flimsy alibis. like, maybe that’s one of the coincidences, emile’s like “well idk i’ll get em next time” and then zeke is Again unaccounted for & everyone blames him Again & emile is like nooooo you’re supposed to think i’m an angry ghooooost.....while, Coincidence, brian is a chilling & hanging out ghost, who is aware of it, (unlike a goosebumps book i particularly remember wherein the protagonist dies partway through & is, unbeknownst to her & the reader, a ghost from that point on) & is like sweating over there like “alright so i’m literally a ghost of a guy who played the phantom who’s haunting the theater but this apparent The Phantom ghost haunting the theater is Not me”

coincidence from both directions that a) zeke is cast as the phantom so brian has to like, take him out if he wants to get onstage Instead, and b) zeke has a penchant for pranking people, even while larping as the phantom, & his reputation implicates him & c) brooke is his best friend, coincidentally, relevant to her getting haunted/pranked as the other lead, & d) idk they’re just coincidentally partners in crime out here who’d go “let’s check out the trapdoor thing” and then specifically, coincidentally, run into emile about it & then be the priorities re: emile’s scooby doo [scare kids away from the theater; stop this particular production which is even using the trapdoor again] efforts....and like, surely emile must Pivot his approach & just go for quantity of backstage misfortune pranks/haunts vs “convincing people this is a genuine ghost or something & not zeke pranking them really determinedly” quality, to the point of like, surely it was emile who then specifically tried to frame zeke about it lol, what was the reason....just embracing the new plotline ascribed to his efforts maybe, or maybe just b/c zeke specifically (along with brooke of course) is too wont to wander around, and probably having to do with the fact that now it’s just a matter of “idk we might just cancel the production anyway” the more Problems emile can create here lol, i mean, zeke surely has an understudy too (besides brian, secretly. also i guess brian (in the musical at least? in the book he might get just more spontaneously roped into it, & i think they hang out fewer times in general. & there’s no indication the gh gh ghost went “a g g girl!” in the book lol. very funny of him) is out here like, Knowing he wants to go on as the phantom, and Knowing zeke will be back on as the primary person in the chain of [who gets to play the phantom] if zeke can clear his name here, but helps out anyways lmfao, at least by going along with them and giving general moral support, and with the whole specific “he doesn’t want to go down the trapdoor b/c it’s like uhhh cough i died by falling down there” hurdle not making him attempt to stop them or anything either lol, like, well as a friend i Will ghostlily knock you out on opening night but i will Not not help you out when you need to solve a mystery of who’s framing you for the play. which isn’t actually me! even though i want your part!)

got on a tangent there but it’s appropriate b/c it’s more coincidental alignments i’m discussing lol. anyways i guess emile is just improvising & willing to roll with the “idk i guess people think zeke did it” thing, maybe he thinks that’ll get to brooke too, and i suppose they’re the priority, they’re the ones who he ran into under the stage, so. it’s not crystal clear & doesn’t need to be, i guess, just funny that the Coincidences here made emile’s efforts of “well i’ll pretend to be the phantom that haunts the theater and maybe specifically this production & everyone will be like ‘yes it’s cursed, play’s canceled’ & not use the trapdoor for anything else either. i guess” Not actually land as what anyone presumes is a genuine cursed play haunting

meanwhile, again, brian’s even more hilarious for being the actual Play Haunter around here while the Alleged, but also not even believed to be, play haunting is going on literally just offstage, & he has to be like, “no really, i don’t know what’s going on with that, that’s a wholly separate endeavor i am unaffiliated with.....i’m just hanging out until the play actually goes on” but only to himself, since nobody else is catching on that he’s a ghost, which can happen around here (the goosebumps mythos)......and brian’s death being Apparently coincidental too, just a genuine accident, and surely before emile’s time, so the musical giving him a whole number about “no you could die via this trapdoor and like, via any other mishaps in general" with the emphasized titular One Wrong Step being entirely relevant to brian dying via a wrong step, but emile is unaware of this lore, it is a coincidence that he’s right about the lack of safety & maybe these kids lacking the perspective about that, even if he also has the agenda of wanting to scare them away scooby doo style.......and it is yet Another coincidence that emile living under the school in secret is thematically relevant to The Phantom as per the “the story of the phantom” / the actual content of the play. sometimes you do just live underground, secretly

(also the Possibility that the play itself Is sort of a peripheral additional Independent Mystery Element in all these goings on, re: how a) it did apparently just Manifest with unknown authorship, with the implication that there could’ve been some Real [the phantom] person who wrote it & left it to be discovered, in a middle school i guess b/c this is a goosebumps book, & b) the Lore in [the phantom] as a play is apparently that if you die but your ghost has One Last Goal then your body just vanishes which i guess must be what happened to brian or surely he wouldn’t’ve have only apparently Disappeared)

(and when i was trying to Guess the plot before learning it, i was like, uh okay so are we going to like, recreate the story of the phantom in a So Meta way, just kind of organically, if brooke is esmerelda & zeke is the phantom then is brian showing up to Like brooke his being the raoul of this situation, how does “ugh, always a triangle” work when zeke has just expressly expressed he doesn’t wanna kiss brooke / be her boyfriend....but no lol, also a coincidence! for drama. and for the fact that ig in the musical it helps brian have that kind of graceful bittersweet resolution & just peace out, rather than the book’s version where it’s apparently more sinister / threatening somehow & brooke has to like, defeat him about it. although there’s still no alternate version of events re: zeke getting ghost attacked lol, i Guess we could suppose he just again totally coincidentally passed out, but i doubt it lol. it would’ve been funny if he was like “yeah sorry i was in the bathroom again. what did i miss” lmfao)

oh and also the coincidence that not only were brooke & zeke the kids who’d go explore a trapdoor, but also to take the initiative of exploring it again for the purposes of solving a mystery themselves, presumably in part because of their affinity for / familiarity with horror as a genre & the sort of Mystery Genre adjacency / overlap that’s possible there lol, which i feel is emphasized by the fact that zeke again gets meta about it all in the “whodunit?” number with the “it’s always the person you least suspect” element. although of course he also has some motivation anyways, as he doesn’t want to be suspended or worse, so you may as well try to solve a mystery again, and then emile just accidentally acts like he’s gonna murder them

well anyways the point here is i like how [guy pretending to be a ghost, basically] and [ghost pretending to be a guy (but who is also for all intents & purposes, mostly just a guy)] are here operating completely independently & parallel to each other, & brooke & zeke are caught up in it mostly by coincidence, where their specific characteristics & dynamic coincidentally thwart the first guy’s efforts to make people think the play’s haunted for real, but also it Is haunted for real, but that haunting entails a guy just hanging out being a middle schooler & minding his own business save while working on the play & befriending the protagonists. and the ways zeke & brooke are caught between both the [their being directly relevant to emile’s efforts] and [their being directly relevant to brian’s efforts] is Just Their Luck, basically lol. both of them are just trying to be in this play lmao, and they explored backstage stuff One time....Isn’t That Just The Way

(and as coincidence of all coincidences, their principal is goosebumps author r.l. stine!!!)

as a final note lmfao this isn’t like “”critical analysis”” in the sense that i have any complaints about these two hauntings being totally parallel / one effectively being a red herring for the Real haunting that was mostly unremarkable (and benign in the musical, save for zeke maybe getting concussed or something. listen to emile for this one, That’s Not Very Safe. but maybe we can infer a safer magical realism handwave explanation for it) and basically just a guy hanging out, until he was doing a performance as his One Last Goal. seems like everything has Enough of an explanation, or ones that can be guessed at / reasoning invented, like, e.g. going “idk i guess emile could’ve known where their lockers were & how to get into them b/c maybe you can just walk right into the office & access a printed out Name / Locker / Combination list hanging on a bulletin board” about things, and i feel that the purpose / priority of Things Happening in a goosebumps story (and even in other stories for older readers / in other genres) is simply the Effect it creates along the way, & of course that it drives the story / allows it to proceed, rather than it being more important that if you reconsider the story as a whole everything is as streamlined as possible and the motivations that the red herring side character had every step of the way are completely textually established. Is It Fun &/or Scary, if yes, proceed. and i think in retrospect all the coincidences are fun, and hence, this post