#idk maybe im wrong but i just dont agree with that

[caffeinatedopossum]

I actually find it really bizarre and counter intuitive that clinically speaking, you cannot legally be diagnosed with a personality disorder until you're at least 18. The reason given for this is because "the personality has not fully developed before this age" like ???

Ah yes, my favorite strategy. Not diagnosing the problem until it's already been virtually cemented into your brain for life! Wouldn't it be easier (and more painless) to address the problem before it's fully developed?

[ganondoodle]

rough draft for chapter 2 of my zelda comic has finally been COMPLETED! current page count is 68, but that can change as im going through, cutting and redoing panels and all

i will start (trying) to render the first pages soon (its been so long ...)

[socksandbuttons]

Anyway

Todays episodes

Idk

I dont know what the future one was trying to tell me

But poor puppet trying to get info and everyones like WTF

like an alternate future that dosnt help at all

[darkartistyt]

how tf have i seen more arguments handled like civil debates on fucking reddit than tumblr??? WHAT

[strangersynth]

reducing mike and el's love for each other to something that'll make their relationship stumble and fall if not evaporate when they break up will never not be like emptying a room and then walking in and wondering why its empty.

[piplupod]

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i think one of my main issues at the moment is that i dont have anybody on my side IRL to talk to about anything, everything is almost always a fight if i bring up any concerns or upsetting situations i'd been in, no matter which way i turn i cannot seem to find anyone who will support me and tell me i'm not crazy or overly sensitive, i am just... really tired. i feel so overwhelmed constantly bc i am just being a fucking lone ranger out here and i cannot keep doing this shit. everyone thinks im crazy and neurotic and dramatic and too "woke" and i'm like. jesus fucking christ im actually so chill about most things, but i have my values and morals that i personally stick to, i am never pushing it on anyone else, i sit through people being transphobic and homophobic every goddamn day because i know if i try to say anything i'll get in trouble for "disturbing the peace". like i am REALLY chill about things and let people get away with almost anything just because I do not have the energy or safety to confront it. but somehow people still get angry or irritated with me for hesitantly expressing a personal opinion once in a blue moon. i am genuinely so careful about the way i do it because i KNOW how people get, so i do it in the way that i figure will be safe, i'm not completely socially oblivious, i just... i guess i have to just shut up completely forever because i do not seem to be safe anywhere

but then i wonder maybe i AM being irritating and too much of a "sjw" and neurotic and whatnot. idk !!! i simply do not know !!! i feel like i must be crazy !!!

[dyketubbo]

(psst prev anon here, sorry for going on a rant in your inbox but i have genuinely been scared to post that and have been thinking about it for months. no pressure to respond at all, it just sorta spilled out when i wanted to express support. i hope you have a good day!)

(i did read the og ask, just dont have much of a structured response) no worries! i appreciate it a lot haha, hope you have a good day too ^^ and yeah i get being scared its. a scary fucking world in this fandom sometimes

[gstring-theorist]

hey im not sure if anyone else has noticed but i have a couple of popular tags blocked like star wars and the owl house as a matter of personal preference and ive seen that, every so often, donation posts for gaza will get tag spammed with semi-popular tags? so ill see something tagged as the owl house and then its a donations post. has anyone else seen this happen? just looked through the tags on one to see if it was bots and i dont even think it is??? its just people tag spamming. for some reason the margot robbie and michael cera tags were frequently included. i hate spam on principle but also feel like people should spread awareness whenever they can but it just seems out of place? idk maybe im an asshole for feeling like this. come share yalls opinions maybe cause im not sure how to feel

[skyburger]

congrats 2 this person for worst comment on a post i just saw

needless to say there were three replies (directly below this! one after the other!) immediately crucifying that commenter

[ravegore]

Ok now that my rage is mostly past i am in more lalaland. Glad to put my energy towards being happy and improving my life with my friends that i love and trust

[gibbearish]

hm ive been thinking about it and i dont feel like that post is actually falling in the division being sown because like. theres no part of me that feels like these beliefs and behaviors are inherent to transfems, and in both that post and the long baeddel one from before i focused entirely on the ops and their specific actions/motivations. and i feel like if there /is/ a way to discuss things like this without falling into the trap, that has to be it. there has to be a way to address the actual issues without it just being about fighting and i can't think of a better way but. idk i do still worry it does more harm than good

[caruliaa]

consuming media your mutuals like is so scary bc what if im a misunderstander what if my mutuals think all my takes r wrong and cringe and im not even an understander of the media and im wrong about it thats so scary. what if im wrong abt man from the podcast . even worse what if being worried abt being wrong about man from the podcast means i dont let myself enjoy it and talk with people about it and ruins the whole thing for me bc thats what im more scared abt tbh . agh .

[infizero]

to me the fun of the curse stuff and like life series fandom in general comes from there being a balance between "fate" (whatever that means) and free will. i love stuff where its like characters fighting against their own destiny. like end of 3rd life. per the rules of the game one of them HAS to die but neither of them want to kill the other. they are unable to escape that fate at the end of the day BUT they do it on their own terms. things like that, or all the many many coincidences over the seasons that CANT be chalked up to what the players are doing, like (sorry for another desertduo example but) how scar and grian somehow keep running into the only patches of desert on the map. that doesnt have anything to do with their choices, and THATS the kind of thing i like to chalk up to fate or the watchers or whatever you want to assign it to. but there HAS to be a balance.

[carrotpiss]

An attempt to get some thoughts feelings out of my system re the failed date

[sludgeguzzler]

huh. why are people such haters

[thecherrygod]

Do you ever wake up from a dream and you know you're gonna have a day™

i feel like ive had a similar dream to this one a few times ago but also i feel like i have deja vus in dreams sometimes so im unsure. either deja vus or a moment of lucid dreaming that doesnt last enough, but i also tend to have recurring dreams so who knows, also if i think i know why something is happening in the dream i will put my opinion lmao anyways.

so. i was waiting for a bus, apparently the 125 (which is a mix of the two buses i usually took from my house, before we moved, to go to a few places) with the first friend i made in elementary school, who happens to be in three dreams ive had this month, also there were my first crush and some other guy. in theory we were going each to our houses, but instead i got on an appartment

in theory from what i think is another dream, i could just go to this woman for therapy whenever i felt it necessary, like just walk in and thats it. also if i couldnt pay her in money i could pay her in yogurt for some reason. so im just there, going as if i own the place, walking stairs in a white beige sterile looking building, and then entering the office, with a voice in the back of my head going 'you should have knocked' but i was already halfway through the door (ive been going through it kinda and thinking i should get therapy so i believe thatswhy i dream of going to therapy dhsdghdsgd)

at that moment im not me anymore, im some blonde woman with long hair, theres noise in there, the therapist talking to someone, and sounds like a baby. apparently she had a child not that long ago and it was there but in another room in the office thing. and so the blonde kind of. sits on the floor. lays there, talking to the therapist and apparently she therapist was gonna 'check their fortune' or future or something, in my brain what made sense is that the blonde was pregnant and the therapist was gonna tell her about her future child. also there was a tv in the room and it had a movie or something that was starring the blonde. apparently the movie was called something similar to 'degberaux' or something. im sure it ended in beraux but it started with a b and had a g in there too but... its unclear.

after that im me again and im in some sort of classroom thats empty except for someone who we used to be friends and it ended up badly and while its bc both of us i do feel very guilty about it. i sorta try to both ignore and aknoweledge her, first i sit on the complete opposite side of her, we have a hesitant small talk, in which i sit closer to her but from an angle i cant really see her face, and we talk a bit more but nothing else. more people start filling the room, a girl that went to school with me that i promised i was gonna invite her to my house to play videogames but i never did good on that promise (more guilt it seems lmao) and i talk more with her. i notice shes drawing some sort of comic with neat line art and i ask her about it, if its her own story and stuff. she says yes, shows me the pages which are mostly trees and plants and a single panel with a guy, and while im looking she says that shes been doing them like this bc her computer broke down and couldnt work on it digitally and was worried she forgot completely how that worked (something that literally happened to me last year so i know where that comes from)

then i am just. back at the therapists office, this time im me again, but now completely distraught, very stressed and at the verge of tears partially just bc paying therapy in yogurt is making me feel that even if that was the therapists idea. theres a kitchen table in the office, it has like.. holes in it but under the wholes its like theres sand under the table so you can still let things on the table with no risk of them actually falling to the floor. so i am attempting to pay my therapy session. with yogurt. its a 6 pack of creamy vanilla yogurt specifically from a brand from here which is common but relatively good quality, and i look at it from the outside, the. bowl or whatever now kinda transparent. and i begin panicking more, its barely there inside, and it looks brownish, kinda rotten, as if it was consuming itself, and i begin opening them and my therapist doesnt complain about that shes just kinda confused but like 'ah its fine ill eat them all together' and im like 'no. you wont. look at them. its. bad' so she looks over my shoulder and goes '... oh. the yogurt died' (i think this is because ive been spiralling the last few days bc of mayo for a few reasons tbh)

so yeah. the yogurt died. i was paying therapy in yogurt and the yogurt. died. so i just broke down. i started properly crying. at first she didnt know if she should aproach me but i guess she felt bad and did give me a hug which also sorta helped me calm down but i was also calming down bc irl i dont cry more than like 5 tears except i reach a specific point of breakdown also about the hug. i believe it to be unproffesional afaik but in the dream it was sort of comforting and also i think that whenever i get hugged in dreams i just do cry a lot which. man i think thats its own situation lmao) after that my phone was a bit stuck on one of the holes in the table and shes laughing a bit like 'im not so sure how youre gonna take it off there haha.. good luck' and i just put my hand in there and take it out almost like a puzzle piece with just a bit of force but nothing too difficult.

after that im now in a dining table surrounded by guys that have been classmates at different points in my life. just sorta talking. at this point is where i know that i have therapy whenever i want it/need it bc one of the guys that went to highschool with me (and got himself into an alcohol indused coma during out graduation party) had killed multiple people and im not sure if dream me had actually seen it happening with my own eyes or not but i got the image of blood splatters there as a memory so maybe)

after that we are leaving. its night, everything is dark, also the atmosphere is tense and a bit.. scary? maybe just bc its night. i am leaving with a girl. idk who, its almost like she could have been any of the three friends that i had seen before, or maybe all of them in one, im not really sure. and i think 'fuck i didnt say goodbye to my therapist properly' and i get a bit anxious but also full of guilt so i ask the girl to wait for me, ill go do that real quick.

i find my therapist, shes just there in a room that feels like a greenhouse mixed with an attic, kinda dark but since its made of glass you can see bc of outside lights. i get close like 'ma'am i am so sorry i didnt properly say goodbye to you and i also wanted to thank you' but she seems distant, cold, and maybe a bit angry. i still go back in for a hug and i am in fact tearing up again. she pats me in the back like when someone just gives you the quickest hug so it doesnt last a lot but you still know its sorta okay even tho maybe not fully okay. after that she breaks the hug and says 'if you are acting like this it means i am doing a good job' and she just. leaves. i try to follow her bc well im unwell i dont think i should be alone and it felt like she was abandoning me

so i get close to her, she looks at me how youd look at an animal, a pet, thats just following you everywhere, but also a bit.. disappointed at my behavior? and then when im about to fully reach her i woke up