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tow-bees · 2 years

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Here’s an old drawing lol. tag yourself.

#I'm guy who writes poems about his cat #I drew this awhile ago so my art style has changed a bit #I don't remember what any of the songs were #all I remember was I think bar guy was a fallout boy song and the snow queen lady was not let it go #I was mostly trying to experiment with drawing lots of different faces #two of them look the same because I couldn't decide which version I liked better so I made them bffs #tag yourself #idk why they all look so miserable #lol #2DP art

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heartorbit · 3 months

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just how can i protect your smile?

#you guys like yaoi? can i get you some yaoi #pjsk #prsk #project sekai #proseka #tsukasa tenma #rui kamishiro #ruikasa #AUUUUUGH.#this is what finally makes me actually draw riks. vocaloid autism #putting the link in the caption because NOBODY FUCKIGN TLAKS ABOUT SCISSORHANDS EVER WHERES THE HYPE I NEED HER. SONG OF THE DECADE(2009)#this song makes me incredibly normal. my bad. i saw the miume choreography when i was like 11 and my brain shifted #i wanted their outfits to look like mikus in the mv so bad. Fuck my life for that btw stupid fuckign frill trim. why did she have to slay #tried to think of smth other than butterflies for kasa but i have no brain and tbh i hope his life is miserable so its fine #me posting this only to tmblr and not twt because i fucking hate twt #im drawing more song covers that live in my mind palace so i'll pist them there all together. and maybe here all together. who give a shit.#emnn skeleton orchestra next and it will fix me #Good lord. sorry. Im so caught up posting this for no reason. Get me out of here #im supposed to have a lecture in 3 hours but post covid symptoms say otherwise. im so fucked #i have a cyberpunk dead boy wip with them but idk i dont like posting wips on here its like an archive. n i want to actually finish it #but dear lord rendering it with their stupid outfits. clutches my chest falls to the floor. AUUUUGH #wxs killing me killing me taking damage augh auugh aughg

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solcarow · 25 days

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seafood trio portraits !

+ some alts. with spoilers !

#this is how they look after the 3yr jump 👍#pretty proud that i managed to capture how i usually imagine them :0 ! been in an art slump so this was a pleasant surprise #idk if ill b able to draw them consistently tho . so these designs r for my brain only #might try to color these but i havent eaten lunch yet so thats a problem for another day #solar-drawss #my art #han sooyoung #kim dokja #yoo joonghyuk #yhk #yoohankim #orv #orv spoilers #omniscient reader's viewpoint #omnicient reader's view point #cackling at how miserable sp and 63hsy look compared to kdj in the middle #her whimsy … shes living her best life rn #……i lied i think i just gave him My face straight up jfc . get that off of u asshole #anyways if u didnt already notice ! yoohan have matching eyebrow scars 🫶#kdj has one on his nose in that first one #the second kdj has cracks all over her which i forgot to add is inspired by hehearse’s works !!#the reason why they dont show up in the first one is bc aileen covered it up before he went to 1863 #like . hoseki no kuni style ✌️#fun fact i sketched that hsy the night before her birthday skfjsjf had to give up bc it was too late tho #so now im repurposing it for this #NO WAIT I SHOULD JUST GO BACK AND GIVE HSY A CLEFT LIP …. dam lost opportunity. well whoevers reading this just kno she has one now

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silenthillbunni · 6 days

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🐰🌧️

#so on my way home..#i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :)#you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :)#you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!!#you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u!#whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️#god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it.#or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!!#not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭#my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

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boxwinebaddie · 2 months

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omg, so re: a sad sweet anon in my box who was worried that i divorced the boys forever; they're FINE, baby!!!! i promise </3333 it was just a really bad, fucked up month and they're Fine after that (unless i create some other problems, but for now i will spare you)

BUT THEY ARE FINE, MY LOVE!!! SWEARSIES!!!!

i promise you that that on the night jerseykyle gets in that nasty bar fight defending ravenstan's honor (in his absence) against a band of idiot incel transphobes and shows up on their old apartment door step all broken and bloodied before he gets reluctantly tended to and patched up by punk rock nurse ravenstan via several hello kitty bandids...at the end of that exchange, they get back together. c':

kyle also says i love you. <3333

it's kind of a lot for me to speed run entire scenes because they take so long, but just for you, petal, i'm gonna try and get you the sparknotes on the ravesey reunion asap. and please know that as emotional compensation, in lieu of the jersey can't say i love you ask that i was never able to finish/threw into other answers...

i will instead be writing you...

the jersey CAN say i love you ask!!!!! eeee!!!

it's very cute; i'm excited about it.

tldr; ravesey is fine, i'm sorry for scaring you. :'c i promise!!!! i am a hurt comfort writer even though no one believes me!!!! i'm just so much better at the hurt part than the comfort, but i'll comfort you!!

so please hold darlings, and rest easy knowing that.

-mean nasty evil sea witch neen

#nina speaks #oh my god i promise i didnt permanently break them up #i kno its hard to tell bc of all the hurt but IF I HURT THE BOYS ILLL ALWAYS FIX THEM THERES ALWAYS A HAPPY ENDING #like i will never leave them broken or sad or miserable #i know i ended pep like that bc i couldnt finish writing it but it ends very happy and the boys start dating i promise #i am going to start spoiling it to you via voice message soon #i'm sorry for hurting them so often i just like...i am not good at fluff im a crazy dramatic bisexual girlie its too mundane for me #i need action and drama and hell like thats where i like to live which i'm so sorry if yall are sick to death of me #its just the most fun for me to write im sorry ill fix em #also ravenstans hair post them back together is pink bc the red slowly starts washing out and he looks SOOOO CUTE #I LOVE YOU PINK HAIR RAVEN LITERALLY SO CUTE JERSEY CALLED HIM PEPTO ABYSMAL BUT #HES BEING A HATER HE THINKS ITS CUTE #kuromi emo boy king #but guys guys guys i would never leave the boys broken i would neve rleave you with no hope never ever EVER #there is always a light at the end of the tunnel for as much as you hurt i will always heal you im sorry ily ily ily #i got asked to post the drama post makeout mv fight dialogue but i dont want to stress yall out anymore so ill wait #idk why this genuinely created concern for me but i want yall to know that i am like not torturing the boys endlessly and write hurt/comfor #its just hard to task manage all my asks and...anyways ill try to answer some nice asks so we can breathe easy

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concoulor · 7 months

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& very surprised at how queerness is looked at in this book because on one hand I do think it’s flirting with it for sebastian and charles to make fun of the rich but on the other anthony blanche is presented as this spark of lightning that draws in regular men and for a while makes them shine before they return to mediocrity when they lose contact with him

#brideshead revisited #but so far it isn’t 100% making fun of the rich critiquing them yes but it’s not all look at these stupid out of touch people because #it does make you feel bad for sebastian and his wealth and status is part of why he’s so miserable so idk

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ghosts-of-love · 8 months

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yo anyone wanna come to a national trust place with me today? 🍁🍂

#in spirit that is #idk ive been in this town for a year and i have work friends and i have the people i live with but i want to try to make more friends #that i can casually hang out with #i also feel like i should get better at doing stuff alone too without feeling bad that i didnt ask my friends/housemates to come #there's like two people who i can think to ask but they are both probably busy and also it would mean i have to commit to actually going #to this national trust place #which j found out is only a 15 minute drive #i should just go #sorry feeling weird about friendships #i think i tend to love a few people very deeply and so then im not good at having friends where j can be like hey wanna hit up this abbey #idk things are weird with my housemates at the moment #new person moved in . the other two are allegedly going to break up any second now but also keep banging loudly in the room next to mine #its weird and im kind of miserable in the house but happy in all other aspects of my life #like work is hesitantly going good im reading again im crocheting my hair looks nice #this turnef into a whole thing now sorry #props to you if you kept reading this long #anyway this is why i desperately want to get out of the house

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daz4i · 3 months

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my life plan is very simple. first i gotta somehow be good at making music. then i need to somehow make connections in the industry. then i need to find an audience in my country despite me not having a clear genre, but any genre i'm interested in isn't really popular here anyway so most people have to go abroad to start a career. through all that i need to make enough money so i can one day move to another country - probably the us, specifically new york, bc that's likely the only place with enough people that'll be into what i might make - and somehow have a big break there in order to make a living off it. literally so easy. extremely doable

#either that or do all that but with acting #tho in that case i'll need to somehow work on my accent when i speak english 🥲#and i'm already not very hireable as is ngl...... like looks wise n all. not like I'll be able to get a lot of roles 🥲#(also i mean i'm not that great at camera acting but stage acting is so much more taxing and idk if my chronic pain will allow it)#so overall i have sooooo many opportunities i'm gonna do so great. i have such a great shot at having a future i could want /s #why do i have a brain that is literally so miserable unless it's being creative and on a stage #i can't exactly hold a regular job if it'll make me wanna kms even more 😭 genuinely if i had to work retail i'd rather risk it all lol #i'm sooooo good at that living thing. can you tell

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robynrileyart · 1 year

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im too sick to draw today but im also excited about my cute kagakise wips soooo here is a sneak peek of the sketch layers! maybe final layers, who knows!

#kagakise #knb #wip #kagami in the top one #are you all looking at that SJHDJSDHJSDH who DREW THAT (it was me) and why did i do such a good JOB #this is over 3 or 4 days and bc of my ~health condition~ i have to draw in super short bursts #bro. miserable.#anyway!#kagakise to cheer me up i guess!!!!!!!!!!!!#i am looking forward to cleaning them up and making them not. well........... idk #not messy #can i say something as a funny haha moment #kagami's arm in the top one made me so MAD i stopped drawing for the day had a tantrum and went to bed #bro. can i calm down please #in kagakise we trust

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#thats me in the corner. thats me in thr spotlight. rocking from side to side and not contributing to the conversation #which is to say. i made it to thr lab get together with an old lab mate. i really truely did not think i would #i was like 20min late bc of the crying and hyperventilating over a 6min drive down the road #i sorta freaked out while driving too. and almost turned around. its just that i kno i havent been sleeping enough and got overwhelmed #but i made it there. and i dont think i looked like id been crying but i probably looked a bit blank faced and miserable #as i rocked from side to side for like 2hrs listening to ppl talk. i enjoyed it exactly as much as i expected. it was good to see the guy #again but i just dont connect in group gatherings idk. im glad its done. also fucking we were sitting there and a group comes in and whos #in that group?? someone i have avoided seeing for like a loooong time. the guy who tried to be in a relationship with me back when i 1st #started as a grad student. i say relationship. i was explaining to him why i couldnt do any sort of romantic e tanglement and he was very #firm abt not wanting a relationship. and im like bro im explaining u why no romanticly adjacent thing is gonna work. u literally asked me #to physically hold ur hand thru this. u r somehow more emotionally invested in this than me and also are telling me that u just wanna fuck #me. so like u r not slick. whatever. it was so fucking stressful at the time. which i feel bad abt bc it wasn't really his fault #i was just less self aware so i didnt kno i have bad awareness in the moment. like i dont kno a lines been crossed until a week later when #im laying on thr floor falling apart. so like i wish him the best. didnt kno he was still around. hopefully this doesnt trigger stress #dreams. all this to say i was very fucking tense. and when i got back in my car i was like shaky and panting lol #idk looking back its just such a weird situation with that dude. if i was anyone else it woudlnt have been a big deal but #my brain just doesn't process physical touch right. so now ive got these horrible touch memories that like on paper r literally nothing #but for me they were so unfathomablly awful when i 1st aquired them. i literally could not deal with any romantic stuff for like a month #bc it would like trigger me. now thst its been like 3 years its not bad tho. just like gives me thr ick but i dont get #stuck in the memories too much. its so dumb. whatever. point is im all sore now from sitting all tense haha #unrelated

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brainscrewz · 8 months

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im in my greaseball barfly era

#believe it or not i had a fucking blast #idk why i look so miserable #it was goth night and i like to go even when i have nothing to wear and just stand as close to the speakers as possible #it's like. stim time. i love it #i sat outside on the curb in the rain drunk as fuck listening to tears for fears blasting over the street and got my ass all wet #did my duolingo lesson sitting at the bar #i <3 going outside #buggy muggy

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slashuz · 1 year

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cant stop thinking about the teenager cosplaying chiaki that nearly collapsed chasing after me and 1loer as we were leaving con bc she wanted to take a picture with 1loer (who was cosplaying nagito) but was too shy to come up to us/kept losing us the whole day TTTT SHE WAS SO CUUUUUTE WE WERE LIKE OMG ITS OKAY CATCH YOUR BREATHE WE'LL WAIT DONT WORRY GIRL JDSFH !!!

#i am so protective over con teens #the demographic was very young at the con we were at #the ones that were in dgrpa cosplay anyway #not all of them ofc but a lot of them #my big sister instincts kicked in #like you let me know if ANYONE in this building causes you any problems and i will EVISCERATE them #omfg the ppl watching the cosplay parade were so miserable too sorry #crowd was dead #there was an ibuki cosplayer who did a cute little dance in a homemade closet cosplay that clearly a lot of love went into #and the crowd was almost silent #NOT ME AND 1LOER THOUGH DONT WORRY WE WERE SCREAAAAAMING LOL #NO cosplayer was going home without an applause we made sure of it #so uptight lol like loosen up babes we are all dressed like clowns in this building its not that deep #ew oh my god there was also a stall there selling literally h3ntai shit #like graphic shit #in a con that was NOT 18+#like there was literal actual children walking around w their parents #so fucking disgusting lol i gave the foulest look to the gross dudes running it #like idk why that was even cleared for the con space like honestly

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cutemeat · 2 years

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i rlly truly hate feeling so useless. i just. am. but i dont want to accept it.

#i need to. i mean look. dennis couldnt accept it n it made him miserable #i hav no energy even 4 sunny this is. bad jknfdkjgntr #i am having . a rough week #i keep overcompensating n trying to sound smart cuz i know im not. i could not graduate from public HS. i know im not smart.#i could never get into college. would not even pass a class. i just. am not. smart. but i wish i was. i try to sound like a smart person.#but its all cuz i know im not #i cannot. do anything. but ppl look at me n they say 'ok u are capable :)' n then i still cannot do much. but i LOOK like i can.#it doesnt matter how many times i prove im a failure. they still say well u just are not trying hard enough. keep going.#but its never enough. n i dont know how to be enough. idk what i am good for.#i just dont 'apply myself' . i feel so fucking awful. i hate it i cannot do this shit. but i have to. i am so tired i want to go home.#how do u apply yrself when there is nothing to apply #but theres not anything wrong with me. so its just me. n i cant . i . feel like a robot every day. nothing in me. nothing.#but ppl look at me n know i must serve some function or purpose right? so just keep going. keep going #i feel Plateau lately #i try to apply myself but it never works. tell me why it never works. tell me why. am i rlly just a lazy piece of shit. i guess so.#n i cant be pleasant abt it when ppl try to help i only make it worse #cuz no one seems to be able to find an explanation otherwise. in 20 yrs if there was one they wouldve found it by now right

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im-traumatised · 2 years

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Fuck the depressions getting really bad. Can't even find the effort to go to the grocery store. It's literally the only thing that gets me out the house and now I just can't be fucked with even that. But also I mean who cares? I've kinda stopped giving a shit about my health.

#it's not good tbh #my psyc will come back from leave soon and she's probably gonna be concerned lmao #but also who really caresM #not like im gonna need to drag myself out to meet with friends lmao #not like family are gonna wanna swing by my house and chill #not like I'm gonna have an event or a party or an outing or a get together #nobodys gonna notice nobody will care and I csnt be fucked caring any more #every time i look forward or hope or dream in my life its fucked me over in the end lmao #so im done imma just let myself slowly evaporate away in my stupid apartment #nobody will notice unless I tell them lmao #i dont have any reason to get out of bed or leave the house or take care of myself so why bother honestly #im really wondering why i should bother djjdj #gonna have to really talk to my psycologist about it all i guess #but im not really a fan of her idea to find a group to engage in the community like finding friends is something i want yes #but i just hate those kinds of things idk #almost our of psychologist appointments too probably only have a few left #im tired i got my freedom but im miserable because of jt lmao #is this what I get for getting away from my family? i mean its for sure whaf happens when you grow up isolated without the chance to #make long term friends lmao #i dont even know what im saying any more i think im having a bit of a break down hffhf so im gonna shut myself up now #AceofDragons #vent

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arolesbianism · 26 days

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Thinking abt how much I love oni's writing again... In particular, "a seed is planted" continues to be one of if not my favorite logs because despite the troubling details and implications that come with it, it's the one thing in the entirety of the decaying corpse of gravitas that genuinely leaves us with a grain of hope (a seed if you will) and makes oni as a whole a lot more bitter sweet as while earth may not have survived, the dupes did, and after their horrible origins and the shit that many of them went through, in due time they'll finally get to just live, they're free now, and even if Olivia's sleep is end of a tragedy, the world will keep moving forward with or without those who've been lost

#rat rambles #oni posting #like I guess I just rly love that oni both manages to commit to being a tragedy while also leaving a world still in motion #like Im glad that olivia didnt get a bittersweet ending and instead got a fucking miserable one #while at the same time the dupes are still left there to keep moving forward #well ok more so I like how the narrative shifts into smth quite beautiful when seen from the dupes perspectives #which is also why I like that the dupes are rarely talked abt directly in the lore logs #idk I just feel like a seed is planted wouldnt hit as hard to me if the dupes were talked abt more #its the same sort of incedental storytelling that I like abt the rest of oni's writing ig #also I just think them being a major part of the lore logs would rly take away from the greater horrors and tragedies of gravitas #like idk I think it would have been a lot more boring if a third of the logs were just jackie going so yeah I tortured dupes some more #it makes the pre end of the world world feel so much bigger while still mostly remaining within gravitas itself #enhances the feeling of glimpsing into a past world #like every now and then I think abt what oni story could have looked like and am filled with joy at what it is now #I fucking love being into fiction thats good god it feels so good to like shit thats just like actually good #it honestly makes me almost wish there wouldnt be new lore but I do think theres room for more #as in theres plenty of room to make shit up and also we need to see more of the scientists pls #as for actual quote unquote plot stuff idk just give me like one jackie and olivia college year video transcript or smth and we're good #theres other stuff that make me lose my mind but for narrative consistency I think itd be best to not touch those two too much #especially olivia I rly think she doesnt need almost any new content the only stuff Id want with her is if it expanded upon jackie #because rly jackie is the only character I think would super heavily benefit from elaboration even if I stand by her not needing much #as Ive said a billion times just smth small to show us her in a more casual setting and we're golden I think #show me that woman being genuinely happy so I can fill in the blanks as she slowly gets crushed by the consequences of her actions #shes a part of this tragedy too and god damnit I want to see the life she ruined along the way of ruining many others #I want to see a woman whos eyes once shined and then when the lights have dulled I want her to say it was worth it with no conviction #metaphorically ofc I dont actually want to see most of it because thatd go against the narrative philosophy already established #rly all this means is I wanna see jackie and olivia doing laundry together or smth #oh also I hope they specifically give otto a whole other log just to clear up my pronoun woes #idc what its abt just have them talk abt their gender offhand or smth #just mi-ma being like how do you do young man and otto is like they and mi-ma is like ah yes young they

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dokyeomini · 1 month

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today i did the brave thing and took over the salad bar partly bc i didn't want to talk to customers and partly to spite my coworker who works there every day

#but also bc i usually avoid it it's my least fave part of the job #maybe why im so miserable and tired rn #but my coworker also made some comments like it looked like i was struggling #i was actually fine #maybe sweating but it is a workout after all #idk it kinda felt like she wants me to not feel confident #i truly do not trust her anymore #and im afraid it's affecting our work.....#it fucked me up a lot more than i initially thought #my heart aches. literally #i actually thought we were friends

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