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[pinkykitten]

By your side

The Greatest Showman

P.T. Barnum x female! reader

Warning: reader having a panic attack

Specifics: romance, one-shot, race neutral reader

People: P.T. Barnum, you, driver (oc, mentioned), group of people (oc, mentioned)

Words: 1,058

Requested: By anonymously Hey, I absolutely adore your writing! Could you do a P.T. x reader where the reader has bad anxiety and gets a panic attack about going on stage and P.T. comforts them? Only if you’re feeling up to it tho💕

Authors Note: thank u anon ur so sweet! srry this took so long and im srry this doesnt have more words but i kinda had writers block in the middle. i havent written a pt fic in a while lol i kinda miss it! i hope i wrote about a panic attack correctly if i havent pls message me or just tell me how i can write it better and more appropriate. thnx for the request guys and i luv to hear what u guys think. 

Your palms were sweating, your knees buckling against each other, your eyes in a trance in a day dream. 

Nervous was an understatement, you were terrified at the most. You were a singer in P.T. Barnum’s circus. You sang only in front of Phineas and some of your friends but you have never sang in front of a numerous amount of people. This was your first concert. 

You almost collapsed when Phineas told you about the news of you singing. The truth was you have had a history with panic attacks. You wanted to tell Phineas but you could tell in his eyes and the way he smiled that he was just so excited for you to sing. You didn’t want to burn that fire within him. 

You practiced your song many times out loud and in your head. 

Nodding to yourself while staring out the window of the carriage you sang quietly the lyrics. Phineas sat beside you and seeing that you were nervous, clutched your hand. 

Your head whipped to both yours and Phineas’s hands together. 

“Don’t be nervous y/n. You’re gonna do great out there.” Phineas reassured you, rubbing your hand with his gloved one. 

You chuckled, “that’s laughable Mr. Barnum, usually when someone tells you not to be nervous it just makes them more anxious.”

Phineas took his hand away from yours quickly, leaving you a bit saddened. You placed your tiny hand compared to his on your lap, clutching your skirt. You stared out the window again, seeing the white snowflakes dance across the sky. 

You smiled and touched Phineas on his shirt, “look Mr. Barnum. Isn’t it the most beautiful thing you have ever seen?”

Phineas nodded, “its beautiful but not the most beautiful.” He then looked at you and whispered, “you are.”

You turned your attention to him with a startled face. “Did you say something?”

Phineas shook his head, “nothing just...remember to hold your head up high when you sing.”

Your looked down to your hands again. Suddenly the carriage came to a halt. 

“We are here Mr. Barnum.” The driver announced. 

Barnum thanked the driver while you got help getting out. 

You waited for Phineas to come around and you wrapped your arm around his. 

“May I just say y/n, your dress is stunning on you. You look like a queen.” Phineas whispered to you. 

You looked away bashful at his words but thanked him. 

Your shoulders peaked out just enough to call your dress risky, but you liked it that way. You wore a coat on top as you were outside. 

Walking up to the place your name in a poster was hanged up as big as can be. “Queen of music, Y/n.” You chuckled. “I love it Mr. Barnum. I think it really catches your sarcastic attitude.”

As you entered the building there were many folks there. Wanting your signature or maybe a photograph with you. You clutched onto Phineas’s arm the whole time. Your nerves igniting again. 

You shrugged your coat off and everyone gasped in the room at your beauty. You thought you could even hear Phineas gasp a little. 

As you walked closer to the stage your heart started to pound faster and faster. 

“Phineas I don’t think I can do this.” You desperately said, your eyes begging Phineas to let you go. 

Phineas’s expression though was of shock. 

“What is wrong?”

Phineas giggled, “No its just, you have never called me by my first name before.”

You stood still for a moment remembering the moments prior to this one and you looked up into Phineas’s eyes shocked. 

“You’re right. Oh, please do forgive me Mr. Barnum, its just the nerves and everything.”

“Y/n, I’m not mad. Actually far from it. From now on I would greatly appreciate you calling me by my first name. It sounds like a melody coming from your lips.”

You were very bashful in this moment. 

“Y/n you’re on in less than an hour. Get ready.”

You looked at Phineas and then you peaked through the curtains. The amount of people was astonishing. 

“I don’t, Phineas, I don’t. I think, I’m gonna.” You were trying to find the words, your heart was beating so quickly. You felt scared and you felt you were being suffocated. Your whole entire environment felt like a blur like a movie. All their voices and words didn’t come to you, it was as if they were speaking gibberish. 

“C’mon y/n, you can’t do this. Not here not now.” You told yourself in your head. 

Your breathing became erratic, you tried breathing through your nose and then out your mouth but it was not working. 

Phineas saw this and quickly kneeled down to you, since he was so much taller than you. 

“Y/n, sweetheart please look at me. Can you look at me?”

You shook your head and clutched your chest. You were having a panic attack. 

“Breathe y/n, you have to breathe. Breathe for me. In and out.”

You tried but you just felt alone, you felt lost. 

“I got you y/n. I am here.”

You breathed in and out, while Phineas held your hand. 

In and out. 

After a few moments your heart was beating normally and your breathing was slow and appropriate. 

“Y/n are you okay?”

You looked at Phineas’s face into his eyes. “Phineas I am scared. I should of told you, but I have had panic attacks in the past. I’m sorry.”

Phineas caressed your face and shook his head. “Y/n why are you sorry. I’m sorry for wanting you to do this and not caring about you being nervous. You are really important to me. I am right here for you y/n.”

You smiled and leaned your forehead against his. “Thank you.”

“You don’t have to sing if you are not comfortable with it.”

No you needed to do this. You promised every one and you were not going to let your anxiety get the best of you. You stood proud and tall. 

“I told everyone I was going to sing, then that is what I am going to do. I am going to sing my best.”

Phineas grinned the biggest grinned and kissed your hand, standing tall as well. “If that is the decision that you have choose then I will be by your side through it all.”

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1. coke or pepsi: i can’t tell the difference for shammmeee

2. disney or dreamworks: Disney 3. coffee or tea: Tea and coffee are both great it just depends on the mood. im in england right now, so tea usually. 4. books or movies: Books NA MOVIES i love the cinema and i’m bad at decision-making. 5. windows or mac: Windows 6. dc or marvel: Marvel tho i’m liking dc a  lot too -- thnx Supergirl and also my boyfriend 7. x-box or playstation: Playstation??? i dont have either but when i was growingup my cousin miller had a ps2 and i played TF outta ittttt 8. dragon age or mass effect: UM UM UM >??? I DONT KNOW DRAGON AGE 

9. night owl or early riser: if it’s possible t be both i am both 10. cards or chess: Cards if i have to honestly i don’t play card games much b/c i cheat and people can tell. i am a bad cheater. 11. chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but vanilla scents!!!!!!!!!!! 12. vans or converse: converse!!!! i need to get some slip ons for summer....

13. Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash, or Adaar: ? wut  15. beach or forest: Beach AND FOREST bc i love BOTH SO MUCH 16. dogs or cats: dogs, tho cats have their charmsss 17. clear skies or rain: clear skies bc im in england and i’ve had #ENOUGHRAIN 18. cooking or eating out: eating OUT are u kiddingmme someone makes my food and i give them meaningless PAPER (lol im so poor)  19. spicy food or mild food: Mild omg mild mild  20. halloween/samhain or solstice/yule/christmas: CHRISTMAS OMG  21. would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot: A little too cold same  22. if you could have a superpower, what would it be: FLIGHT/ TELEPORTATION 23. animation or live action: Animation ??? it depends tholike some movies CANT be live action honestly 24. paragon or renegade: sorry buddy idk 25. baths or showers: Showers, but if the bath is big enough and i have time, baths  26. team cap or team ironman: dsggssdgskjbs team cap i guess? i never saw cicil war 27. fantasy or sci-fi: Bothhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

28. do you have three or four favourite quotes, if so what are they: 

“where you invest your love, you invest your life” -- mumford and sons 

“if you can dream it you can do it”  -- w. disney 

“fuuuck its too early” - me 

“kindess is free” - me to my uncle after he’d gone on and on and on for my whole life saying that ‘nothing is free’ and i finally just looked him in the eye and said ‘kindness’ ‘what?’ ‘kindness is free, rob’ i swear his life changed right then and there

29. youtube or netflix: Netflix! tho i do like youtube i have a gaming channel kinda here w my boyfriend and his brother who is great  pls check it out 30. harry potter or percy jackson: Harry Potter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 31. when you feel accomplished: When someone tells me they like my writing and send me asssskkkkssss so i feel like im not just posting for fun. interact w me. like my stupid posts i’ll love you foreverrrrrrrrr

33. paperback books or hardback books: just books honestly  34. horror or rom-com: both  35. tv shows or movies: Movies and tv shows are great i can’t make decisions  36. Pink or yellow lemonade: yellow :) 37: wolves or tigers: wolves omg 38. 2D or 3D animated films/shorts/shows: um both but like ??????? it depends. like if the show is god i’ll watch it no matter what anmation it is. avatar is the best. 39. cake, pie, or cookies: cookies and pieeeee ( nt apple pie i don’t like it ) 40. Star Trek or Star Wars: Star Wars but the star trek movies are fun ( i havent seen them all but i know i love them anyway ) 41. Bold, pastel, or neutral colors? Pastel bright and shinyyy 42. Dub or sub? i dontttt really watch too much to have an opinonnsoinsoinfn 43. Rock or punk rock? i just like music i don’t know genres really im the worst. probably punk rock? or...damn idk my friend. 44. ummmm what would be the first thing you’d do if you won the lottery? :

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