#if u write a fic i will cry real tears/pos

[ashtraythief]

Hey! So ive been a long time reader of ur underneath verse (since like.. 2018? Maybe even 2017?) and i just wanted to drop by and tell u how much im enjoying rereading ur writing! Like in general i think this is one of my fav fics series just bc its so extensive and well done and thought out and fleshed out so well it works so well? Like seeing all the different angles and the way u choose to frame things is really fun for me and kinda inspires my own writing in some aspects.

Ive never read the whole thing all in one go before so ive decided to do that right now and im just about done with the pied pipers song - more specifically willys chapter. And i kinda needed to let u know that ur series really stands out to me just bc of how many glimpses into other characters and all these different povs of the same thing like on it stands out on a technical level but then ur actual writing of these things is so good and compelling and like as an outsider pov bitch it hits the spot for me so well? Like ur writing is never stale and its always interesting.

I specifically wanted to take this time to mention that i really love willy and winstons characters and how u went about it. Like im ngl the way u wrote them kinda makes me want to cry tears of happiness for them bc they have found ppl who appreciate them and they have connections with other ppl but then the bittersweet tang of jensen and willy is kinda fucking me up rn /pos djjdjdjd like in general u really do the bittersweet jensen is stuck undercover angle really well and it HURTS so good

But yes i dont really have a good concise message or comment to leave beyond the fact that i keep stopping every few sentences to get up and jump bc im so excited about what im reading i need to get rid of that excess energy lol so sorry if this is all over the place and a really messy message! I just really wanted to let u know how much im enjoying reading it all rn. Thank you so much for sharing ur writing with us and for continuing to write for this series its so fun!

omg nonnie, I'm kinda speechless here (this is the second wonderful message in two days so I'm kinda overwhelmed. is it send wonderful messages week somewhere??)

I just am so grateful and this message made me so happy. never apologize for maybe not having a five point outline lol, this is amazing.

The underneath verse has always been my fandom baby, so praise for it is already amazing, but the pied piper fic and Winston and Willy epsecially, it just makes my heart so full. Ten years ago, they definitely started out as stock characters of mob drivers, because I didn't think this fic would get so big, but then it did, and Willy especially became a real character. a) because I knew he'd fall in love with Jensen too, as anyone does really and b) because I looooove the bittersweet undercover Jensen shtick where I write from other character's POV and the reader knows how wrong they're getting it but they don't *mu har har* (yeah I'm a little mean sometime. sorry?)

but in all seriousness, the Willy chapter, I'ev been working on that for months. And I kept adding things and rewriting things and trying to get it perfect even though I know that most people who read the story mostly care about Jared and Jensen (which is totally fair and understandable), but I care about him and there are a few people out there who do too (and I love you for it, so much), but with Willy, I just wante to do this /right/. I've come to love him so much, and he's come to be so important to Jensen, it felt like he and Winston really deserve their own story told even though that's kind of ridiculous because they're not real, but they're a little real to me now. All this to say, nonnie, this comment and your appreciation of Willy means so fucking much to me. And my poor alpha reader who read like four drafts of this (seriously, M. is a saint) and my beta readers who then had to beta four iterations of this. To know that this effort is appreciated this much honestly make me cry a little (I am not having the greatest time right now, so I cry easily but the point still stands. Thank you.)

This message was actually such an energy boost I'm currently trying to fix the next timestamp, lol so I'll have something to post next month. You're a true treasure, nonnie <3

[bonesandthebees]

HELLOOOO HELLOOO IM FINALLY HEREEEE IT IS POURING SHITBALLS OUTSIDE BUT I HAVE FINALLY GOTTEN ON THE BUS, NICE AMD COZY ^-^

I debated waiting till I was home but i feel like I'm gonna get distracted the minute I walk through the door HDJFKG and I finally have a period of time where I'm Not doing anything SO

Hi

I am terrifed holyshit

Niki??? 👀👀👀👀👀

Ohkygodimsosvaredohmygodhdkahddkkfd

He's already so different OHMYGODDDFOSHWOFHDKFHDJDJ AAAAAAA

YEAHHHH TATTOO TIME I WAS WONDERING THOUGH LIKE LIKE . IF SCHLATT FINDS OUT ABOUT THE TAT. THATS RISKY OHKYGODDD AAAAAA

Crimeboys:((( ohmyfuckingogd I missed glass!crimeboys so much they're so precious ohkygod I'm going to cry bee. I'm going to CRYYYY

Ohmygodddd BEEEE BEEEEE YOU CANT DO THIS TO ME BEEEEE IM GOING TO CRY AAAAA I CANT BELIEVE WE'RE AT THE END OF THE FIC OHMYGOODNESSGSOAJDKF:(((((

THIS IS SO SCARY ASAHDPMASJFLLSJDKDKSD

OHHH SNAPSJFKKFF TOMMY FINALLY FINDS OUT HOW MUCH WILBURS BRANCHED OUT FROM HIM OIGUGOGIFIGOGIGOFK

THIS IS SO AWEKEARD DAWGFKGLFLG

Ohmygodddhfjdkfkfd schlatt u motherrrrfucker oguhofugogigosjdkd

OHKYFODUFIFISHDKFKF IM GONNA BAWLEIFFOIFJEJF FUCKFUCKFUCOGHISHDOFGSJDKF I CANT DO THSI OHKGUDPDHSODHDLF

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I LITERALLY HAVE TEARS IN MY EYES I AM ON THE PUBLIC BUS ANS IM ABOUT TO BURST INTO TEARS !!!!!!!!! /POS

Your descriptions are gorgeous man I am obsessed I love your writing sm [explodes]

Describing the palace as a monster I am OBSESSED!!!!

NOOOO

NONONONMO DONT REMOVE THE SCARS ISTG PLSPSPLDPDLFPHOHMYGOD IF THE SCARS GET REMOVED IM GOING TO BREAK INTO A MILLION PIECES

Ohkygoddd this is so terrible this is all of wilburs trauma coming back to haunt him ohkygofddd I can't do this ohkygodhdlajdkfld

Owwww owwowowowww octopusduo owww (Niki and Tommy) ow ow owwwww

LETS GOOO NO LONGER EMPTY WILBUR!!!!!!!!! I'm so proud of how far he's come [sobs]

CRIMEBOYSTDYSWJKEDJ:(((((

OGUGODUSJSHDKFKJSJFF WE'RE GETTING THE TATTOO MEANING REVEAL AAAAAAA SJDOSUDODHLFGKFJDKFKKFD

I KNEW IT [EXPLODES] OHMYFUCJINGOGDFFJJ AAAAAAAAAAA

I'm about to bawl my eyes out ohmyfuckingogd

I love Tommy so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭

THIS BUILD UP IS SO FUCKING COOL OHKYGODDD

IM GOIGNN TO CRYRYIIAOAOSIDODJDJFKD CRIMEBOYSSS :(((( AAAAA RHEY MEAN SO MUCH TO MEEEEFJOSSJFKKFF

GOGUFOAYDOGASOHDDKDJDJJSKDJJDJDCJDJCJDJXHCJSJFJSKDHFKDJDJDJJDHDJFJFHDZHSJDJZKCJDKSHFKHDFJJFJFJFJDJDJFJFJFJFJFJDJFJFJDJJDDJDDJJDFJDJFJFJFJFHFJDJFJDJFJGKFKSGSJDHSJFNKDBDKDBFKDBDKDBFKDJDHFKJF

BROTHERSSSSSSS :(((((

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

OHHH SHITT LETS FUCKING GOOO HYPEHYPEHYPEEEE

Oh I adore crimeboys :(

OHMYGODDD RHE PARALLELSLSSSS YOU DID NOTTTT OGKFUSPSHFKDJDKFJFJDJSKD IM GOING RO CRYYYSHSOAHDKFKSLDKFKFKF

(Back from finishing both chapters now, THE FORMATTING WAS SUPER COOL!!! duuuudeee it worked perfectly the juxtaposition was sooo ohugogig yesss yesss yessss)

you sent these asks ages ago whoopsies oh well hi icy. it's finally started raining here!! I'm hoping it cools down for real after this week. I want the cozy vibes to last aaaaa

anyway. ch 26 reaction lets go

yeahhhh there's definitely a risk with wilbur getting the tattoo before going back to the palace but he needed it to remind himself of everything. it was a risk worth taking :)

glass!crimeboys are so special to me aaa

LMAO yeah uh. the bit with tommy realizing niki knew wilbur's name was so awkward like all of them just side eyeing each other for a moment 😭

aaaaa thank you I definitely tried so hard on the descriptions in this chapter

niki and tommy are such a good duo it's so unfortunate things turned out this way :(

NO LONGER EMPTY WILBUR YEAHHHHHH

i was pretty sure most people would be able to figure out the vine tattoo meaning it was something I decided tommy got like, right after wilbur tried to kill him. i knew he was always going to get a tattoo from it and that wilbur wouldn't find out about the tattoo until wayyyy later so it was really fun to finally write that bit

brothers <33

thank you sm I'm so glad you enjoyed the format!! I had so much fun with it in this chapter and I'm so happy with how it turned out. I think it really worked for what the chapter needed to be

[97-liners]

KDKQKFK as u can prbly tell by my activity last night i was so unhinged /pos reading your fics...... your fwb jihoon fic had me reeling for a good 24 hours btw i am Still reeling 😭😭 your writing is just So Good like i deep dived into your masterlist last night and every fic i read hit with a tremendous impact :"") fwb jihoon changed my brain chemistry one hexagon at a time and your mingyu wedding planner fic made me want to ravage him even further HWJDKWKRK AND UR DOKYEOM FIC... TEARS . (also as a side note i Love Love Love how in your fics with an education-focused!yn you put so much detail into the material she's studying like i don't know what half those words mean but i can tell You Do and that is just so cool to me!!!) but yes anyway enough of me rambling nonsense sorry for being absolutely deranged in your activity HWJDKD i just wanted to pop into your inbox and tell you personally just how much i love your writing! it just always feel So personal and immersive and Real .... anw i hope u have a wonderful day/night and know that i am now one of your biggest fans :")

- @/wuahae ♡ (SORRY FOR THE LONG ASK 😭)

p.s. the svt as cats & dogs post had me crying laughing HWJDKEK the accuracy was so....♥️♥️♥️♥️

@wuahae omg thank you sooo much !!!!! i’m soooo so so happy and flattered that you thought my writing was so good, you went on a deep dive of my masterlist??? thank you for trusting in my abilities enough to read my stuff just bc i wrote it lmao

also same about that fwb fic changing your brain chemistry because that fic turned me into a woozidan 💀 i started writing it because i had a plot and he was the one who fit it the best, but by the time i published, i was a full blown woozi stan

[bonesandthebees]

omg OMG dont even get me STARTED on honey and tangerines

i've genuinely been meaning to reread it this summer, THAT FIC IS ONE OF MY FAV THINGS IN THE WORLD... THE VIBES-

like okay yes almost all of ur fics are my fav in the world, but honey and tangerines hits DIFF man

i started that fic thinking the main conflict was going to be crimeboys, and then angelduo came in with a sledge hammer holy shit

dude. that convo in chapter eight SMACK CAMMED ME SO HARD

like

i remember reading the summary and being like "ooo!! skateboarding", i didnt even clock how the part with phil could be ominous man like-

oooh boi

[takes a deep breath]

im getting emotional thinking about it rn, i havent read this in so long ohmgyod i miss this fic:(

side note before i get into my full mental breakdown over the ConvoTM, i never wanted to learn how to skateboard till i read this fic lmfaoooo

idek why, i was just... never interested, even my bf was like YOO ITS SO COOL and i was like Eh

and then i read this chapter and i was like "... maybe it Can be cool"

brooo BROOO

okay yeah that convo...

i think it's the hardest i've cried reading any of ur fics, normally i tear up and yknow do my whole Pterodactyl screech, but i dont often full blown cry, but holy shit man. Honey and tangerines? I'm pretty sure I bawled.

uh oh im crying again rereading this scene BROO ITS JUST SO WJEAFOIAWEOIRJAWEROIAWEROIWAERJAWEOIJRWAOIERKJLWERJOIWEJWEARIJ

ow

im in pain again

anYWAYS

god this fic is actually the greatest fucking thing in the world i love it so much bee u have no idea bro i adore it to my core :(((

i dont know how to describe it but ooohh my goodness

i just :(( idk i love indie vibes a lot

like... one of my favourite movies is Perks of Being a Wallflower. Indie movies are really important to me bc it just :( it makes me feel like My life will be okay, if their life works out. and... slice of life vibes are just the best

and honey and tangerines is the perfect fic to ever indie vibe, the playlist, the little fluff moments, the climax, everything about it is perfect. i can't describe how perfect it is. i adore it sosoosososososososoosososoo much

i also can... oddly relate to tommy in this fic, more than i thought. my mom didn't have mental health issues but I did have to take care of myself more than I was supposed to when I was younger, and there were a lot of parallels in this fic even though the situations were completely different, that it just... hit a lot harder for me than most fics normally do. especially like... i have a half sibling that i have a super complicated relationship with and crimeboys in this fic almost reminded me of it.

i just :(( honey and tangerines is so so important to me, and it's also just beautifully written, content aside. i love the prose in it. the way you describe everything feels so natural and real. i felt truly immersed. i lose sense of what's around me a lot quicker than i normally do when i read fics. it just instantly grabs my attention.

god, it's written so fucking well.

another way it's affected my life is after i read the laundromat chapter, it gave me the courage to ask my bf to dance w me for the first time. as i've always loved dancing but i've always been super shy about it. but reading that scene just filled me with such joy, that i had to ask my bf, and now it's one of our fav things to do :))

idk man like. wf is the fic that first made me obsessed with your writing. stars is one of the most well written and impressive things i've ever read and heyyy sandduo centric babyyy. also the WORLD BUILDING IS SO COOL. what the water gave me is the fic out of all of ur fics that makes me the most emotional /pos. a dusty tomb is my personal fav comfort fic, it's so fucking cute i love it so much (and the clinic prequel is same vibes as well). ur vamp fics are addicting as hell to read.

but honey and tangerines is the fic that's affected my life the most <3

(god sorry for the long rant, this was not meant to be this long LMAO SFDKAJ)

honey and tangerines was such an interesting fic for me to write because it connected to my irl life in so many subtle ways. I put those nods into my life in a lot of my fics, but honey and tangerines was the one most directly based out of my own life although it was mostly just the concept of having ex step-siblings that I pulled from. I also thought the main conflict was going to be crimeboys going into it, although I knew I wanted a focus on angelduo as well. but then as the story progressed I understood tangerines!tommy a lot more as a character, and his relationship with phil just expanded into so much more. I'm so happy with how it all turned out, and I'm sorry for all the tears I made you shed lol

(this response got long oops so I'm gonna put it under a cut)

you totally get my love of coming of age/slice of life indie movies. I've always been a big movie watcher, and nothing hits quite like a really well done coming of age film. ironically though, the perks of being a wallflower was one I originally wasn't a movie I was very impressed with the first time I saw it. it wasn't until I read the book and then rewatched the movie years later that I was like oh. I think for me two coming of age indie-type films that really hit for me were Lady Bird (because the relationship between Lady Bird and her mom hit very close to home in certain spots for me), and this one called Cha Cha Real Smooth. Cha Cha especially hit for me bc it's about a 22 year old who just graduated college and is trying to figure out where to go now, and I watched it only a few months after I'd turned 22 and graduated college and was floundering for what to do next. so yeah, that one helped me in the same way you described with the whole "maybe my life will work out like theirs" sense.

I'm so glad I was able to capture those vibes in the aesthetics of it all. that was half my motivation for writing it ngl. I just really wanted to try and capture that summertime haze with the descriptions and the playlist and all of it.

I'm sorry you could relate to aspects like those in the fic, but I'm also really glad it was able to provide a source of comfort for you <3

that's so sweet that you asked your bf to dance with you after reading the laundromat scene!! and the skateboarding too is so cute. I'm gonna be honest I do not know how to skateboard nor have I ever had a desire to learn, I just liked the aesthetics of that scene lmao. I hope you've been having a really good time dancing and skateboarding with your bf since though :)

icyfox aaa you're so kind though seriously thank you for all of that. one of my favorite parts about having this 'audience' (for fanfic lmao but it's an audience nonetheless) is hearing how the stories I create for my own joy impact your real lives. like, it's just amazing to me the reach my words can have, and I'm so happy you were able to get so much out of this story. ty for this it made me smile a lot