#ihouse

[looosey]

Lucy's Side Quest #2: A Room of My Own

For those who don't know this already, I have a private instagram account, and I use it as my space to grow: test ideas, track progress, and perceive myself.

One of the posts I uploaded last semester was made the day after I had the best day of the semester solo tripping down Boston Mass Ave. I bleached my eyebrows with @tumblasha. And then I posted this photo like so.

And then I became more myself.

My changes these last two semesters were substantially guided by the private spaces I own. The instagram account is one, and my room is the other. I can trace my influences for this idea to a book I read during my gap year by Virginia Woolf: "A Room of One's Own."

“A woman must have money and a room of her own if she is to write fiction." - Virginia Woolf

But not just fiction, I apply it to creative expression in general. To have a place separate from the perception of others, with distance from those who have this pre-conceived notion of who you are and what you can do, has been so critical for me. To possess, to curate, to arrange, the things around me for just myself, has been a luxury and blessing as well.

I took photos of it to commemorate it. As I leave for an independent living group next year. And to remember how much it has done for me in the past year.

Haha. I'm so glad now that @anas-bizarre-adventure wanted a single instead of rooming with me this year. If I know anything now, it's that Ana knows everything I know but a semester or two ahead of me.

Okay, now to study and pack!

[notesoncrocs]

sad sad sad post about fleabag

fleabag and the priest tell each other "i love you" at a bus stop, he vows to never see her again, says the line that kills me ("it'll pass"), leaves the bus stop, and then fleabag herself gets up and abandons the camera — abandons us — at the stop and walks away, ugly statue in hand (the act of stealing it again for the nth time a last "fuck you" to her stepmother, or a symbol of how tightly she clings on to this toxic relationship with her father and stepmother in her life because it's the only consistent one she has, or something).

"it'll pass" hurts so much and i'm trying to figure out why. back in high school my friend would say it every time after she talked about her depressive episodes, which made it seem worse in my mind. "it'll pass," spoken with such resigned certainty, implies experience, faith that this has happened a lot before and will happen again.

i don't know why, and this is really dumb, but that line also made me think of a text exchange i had with a friend that day. i was giving him shit for going to multiple joji concerts, said something like "i wanna love someone the way you love joji" and he responded "how about urself?" which killed me. LMAO. i guess these days i've been trying to figure that out too, be okay with exploring a city and being by myself and liking it. and so i was thinking about "it'll pass," and how to deal with loving someone and also yourself, and sometimes having to choose, and how that works.

"it'll pass" reminds me of the wong kar-wai film in the mood for love (花樣年華), which also made me lose my shit when i watched it. the relationship is toxic from the beginning, and eventually they separate for years and years. maybe decades. he comes back to her apartment building and asks about her, receives the answer that a woman and son are living there now, and leaves. doesn't even realize that the woman could be her after all this time. later, he goes to a temple in cambodia and whispers a secret into a hollow in the wall before plugging it with mud.

"it'll pass" is so horrible because it does pass. your past self, who no longer exists, loves someone else, who also no longer exists. it's amazing how easy it is to adapt. you wake up every day in some room for a couple weeks and it starts feeling like home. you move through life without someone and after a while it's as easy as breathing. you forget. when you miss them, you are also missing the you that actually knew them. you'll love again, and that will pass too. you experience the full breadth of time, the brutality of it.

“时间就这样过下去。” — my dad <3

[yourebasicbecause]

don’t get mad

i found a new show on netflix i think u guys will like bc i think everyone liked heartbreak high! it’s called get even its british and is like heartbreak high mixed w elite i think but i never saw elite.

if u like girls coming together for justice, you’ll like this

[tumblasha]

pre-summer stats 🥰🫶☀️

current hairstyle: undyed dark brown slightly overgrown undercut

number of diplomas: 1

comfort items

class of 2023 water bottle

polcam

digicam

heart-shaped sunglasses

medium black-and-white nylon crescent baggu bag

crocs sandals

navy blue wh-1000xm4 sony headphones

black jbl clip 4 speaker

summer bucket list

get at least 5 new whatsapp contacts in the summer

go to a new restaurant every week

healthy duolingo streak

listen to 5 new musicians in non-english languages

go to a caboverdian live music event

try chinese-capeverdian food

[milletmonarchy]

Pilot

jumping on this bc @lvcyklm reminded me how wonderful it is to write and read about your friends and thoughts and the ‘ actual ihouse ‘ community is adorable LOL. this feels weirdly public and weirdly private at the same time. i remember when someone i knew from highschool started writing for the mit blogs / publicizing his own blog and i was so amazed to have the privilege to read really inward, precise, vulnerable reflections of a person i never got to know  well in person. and every time i ran into him on campus i would give him a sheepish smile and we’d talk really surface stuff and maybe i’d tell him i really enjoyed his last piece, but i never could fully convey how much his writing hit, how it had such a distinct conscience of himself that i now had so much curiosity and appreciation for, only stand in awe of the fact that this articulate human who could voice inner conflict so well was right here chilling hahahaha. anyways. i just opened a letter i sent through FutureMe i wrote during high school for receipt post graduation

[jiggolo]

you know my name. go for it.

omg okay. ohouse of 1000 corpses, thouse of 1000 corpses, ihouse of 1000 corpses, shouse of 1000 corpses.......

L - Left-Handed Reaper - Necrosophik Abyss

U - Unfit for Human Consumption - Carcass

K - Kill or Become - Cannibal Corpse

A - Angel With The Scabbed Wings - Marilyn Manson

S - Slaughterhouse Striptease - Polkadot Cadaver

[cpbhomes]

https://www.archdaily.com/998630/mro-shack-ihouse-estudio/

[littleprincejd]

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[looosey]

Movie Review: The Half of It (2020)

Okay @notesoncrocs! I've finally watched it, and got dang!

Synopsis: Chinese American high school senior Ellie Chu lives in suburban seattle, and makes pocket money writing her classmate's english papers. She doesn't know much about love, just literature and music, and has a crush on the only girl who might understand her... but she's also the school's it girl. When a jock Paul asks her to write love letters to this same girl, she says yes to just ONE letter. But one letter becomes two, and messy messy messy friendship, lovers, and love of all kind.

Rating: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5

Movie Review

So I watched this with my mom. So I was simply grateful to see queer asians represented on American film.

Ugh!! Paul and Ellie's friendship, and how they are, in real time, forming their young, naive, understanding of what love is, is so... precious. So coming of age. The two of them are like characters from a YA book you grew up with and never want to let go: flawed, cringy, but already cozy in their place in your heart.

The movie itself was beautiful as well, in terms of color palette and camera placement, and I don't think the art ever got in the way of the story-telling. And the references to literature, movies, and philosophy never got too obnoxious, but was just enough to understand the world of Ellie and the writer. All this to say, the movie was natural and not forced at all.

My Thinklings

I really really liked what the characters had to say about love. Paul and Ellie continuously circle the idea that love is the effort you put into letting the other person know they're loved, as opposed to magically finding your destined other half. This idea seeps through the movie, into the romance and the friendship and family: for example, Ellie and Paul start in a pay-for-play relationship, but do so many small things for each other with no expectation of any return at all.

The same idea must've struck @notesoncrocs because she mentions that last scene of him running by the train tracks, futilely... but for her to know. I just sit here now, wanting more out of my life, especially to DO more personally for others around me. Like if this is not the meaning of life/How can I say I have lived?

I'm basically done, but also a small thinkling I have is about liking white men. In general, Ellie and her dad are the only non-white characters in the movie, which is such a strange choice. Is that just what seattle is, or was this isolation a necessary simplification for the deep-rooted dissociation that goes on in a POC with a crush on a white person in high school. Paul is a straight white jock, i.e. Hollywood's default love interest/America's default high school heart throb. This movie did good for me in terms of "reverse representation"(?): seeing this type of guy be a genuine friend for an Asian gay nerd girl was strange in a good way, and made me think for the first time in a while that white men could be... friends.

The Half of It (2020) is on Netflix. I recommend to iHouse!

[notesoncrocs]

saw this tweet that was about hangouts where you sip a drink and watch some music videos and oscillate between cultural criticism, stannery, gossip, psychotherapy and confession and thought of actual ihouse, i think that’s what i’ve been missing all summer

[yourebasicbecause]

being unrecognized

i think before i made the goal of being u recognizable and … it’s working! the ladies at my long time allergist (baddies w chronic idiopathic urticaria RISE UP) didn’t recognize me! but then she saw my name and was like wowww mercy i like ur hair cut 😂 the braids to bald pipeline gags them everytime!

y’all need to get on ur zoom and get like me 🤍

tchauu

[tumblasha]

art review: nomadic seoul by amari (ep)

overall rating: ★★★★★/5

first thoughts: i think it was so cool! i think the concept of writing about your korean-texan background but also acknowledging the feeling of not feeling like you can call a place home? i think that i can relate to that feeling so so much, and i'm really proud of u for making art about it <33

i really hope that more art comes from this artist because then it'd help me fulfill a bucket list item (to listen to five more artists) ((also bc the music is really good))

artistic thoughts: the use of alliteration (ddu ddu machine), of korean and spanish, and explicit references to past and current artists is so cool. i think the beats are also good for active and passive listening, which is my Fav type of music to listen to

tl; dr: i'm proud of u amari. i hope to hear more from u soon <3

[trascapades]

👏🏿#ArtIsAWeapon Good for them!! #HouseMusic originators #LarryHeard (a.k.a. #MrFingers) & @this_is_robert_owens have won their lawsuit against #TraxRecords, according to @guardian. It's a bittersweet victory on #FrankieKnucklesDay, which honors and celebrates another House music legend #FrankieKnuckles. (Excerpts from August 25, 2022 "The Guardian") ‘It gives me peace’: house legends Larry Heard and Robert Owens on winning their Trax legal battle... A successful copyright action against their former label means the celebrated producers can reclaim their back catalogue after decades of struggle... For the past two years, Heard and Owens have been plaintiffs in a civil suit against Trax Records, house’s equivalent to Stax or Motown and their former label. But the fight goes back decades. Heard and Owens are among house’s most celebrated figures – as #songwriters, #DJs, #vocalists and #producers, and collaboratively as Fingers Inc, alongside Ron Wilson. Heard, who started as a jazz-funk drummer, is known as the godfather of deep house, which led to him being sampled by Kanye West and working with Dua Lipa. Owens’ tracks are among house’s most beloved; they include I’ll Be Your Friend and Tears, a collaboration with Frankie Knuckles. In the 2000s, he worked with the UK dance duo Coldcut on Walk a Mile in My Shoes. Sadly, though, their careers have been stunted, and made infamous, by Trax... At its core, the lawsuit argued that despite the label generating “millions of dollars in income stemming from their exploitation of the compositions and recordings”, neither Heard nor Owens had ever been paid a cent – so they sued, for copyright infringement. Read full story: www.theguardian.com/music/2022/aug/25/ihouse-legends-larry-heard-robert-owens-trax-legal-battle-copyright #RobertOwens #HouseMusicIsBlackMusic #Chicago #HouseMusicWasBornInChicago #FKAlways #HouseMusicHistory #HouseHead https://www.instagram.com/p/ChtgtZ3gwwk/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[wingedtimetraveltraveler]

02/08/22 My morning walk

I walked around IITA, seeing more than the usual number of people I would see on a typical day. I suddenly realized they had businesses to do at IITA. I observed that most were students, lecturers, and administrators. I had wondered where the school was, then I realized it was actually on the same land as the iHouse. I was stupefied. IITA, I believe they said, was 1000 hectares of land after all.

With my podcast tuned to Diana Nyad’s ‘I couldn’t have done it a fingernail better on Meditative Story,’ I stumbled around the different departments on the campus, seeing more nature and making more discoveries. I followed the signs to the sports centre, but I did not find a soul at the centre.

Taking the following quote literally:

‘Some beautiful paths cannot be discovered without getting lost. These moments will guide you along roads that will eventually lead you to unexpected, beautiful places.’

I got lost on my way back, and this was when I found the fuel station, the clinic, the path to the forest trail, the weather station, and the sign that led me straight back to breakfast at the iHouse.