#ik ame can't eat bread that's why this is for them

[ministarfruit]

day 24: “got into your nerd activity because I love you” ♡

(prompt list for femslashfeb)

[dinosaursmatelarry28]

A DAY IN THE LIFE OF A COLLEGE GAL IN CLASS:

*Ik that this isn't in colour order but idc*

Apparently my childcare class need to care that some girl in my class couldn't find the key to the stock cupboard at work. Or that the only boy in our class needs a girlfriend but he doesn't even know how to be polite to the girls that are already in his class. Or that some girl drinks redbull for her breakfast. Or that the same girl who couldn't find the keys doesn't like to eat breakfast or that she had to read 3 books to her little sister last night and sing jingle bells. Who actually asked or cares?Ssssssslllllllllllaaaaaayyyyyyy iiiiiiiiiiiigggggggg

UPDATE:

The girl who couldn't find the keys has told like 20 people and is now singing Skyfall with her earphones in as the only boy in my class slow dances with a container of fried chicken. 😑

UPDATE 2:

Turns out the chicken is actually bacon, and I am in shock. He dropped it on the floor and someone just came in and slipped on it. The boy (let's call him Konan) keeps flirting with the girl who lost the keys (let's call her Helen).

I asked Helen if she liked Konan and she said no, but she definitely does. Now they're arguing about periods (he's scared of them) and about how in spain you can get a week off from work if you're on your period. Helen is now flexing about how the girl with the emu coat (iykyk) has leaked, why is she telling us this?!

UPDATE 3:

WE ARE STILL TALKING ABOUT PERIODS.

😭😭😭😭

I think it's finally over now, thank god, THE DRAMA IS TOO MUCHHHH

UPDATE 4:

Now we're debating about if it's 'Breakfast, dinner and tea' (which it definitely is) or 'Breakfast, lunch and dinner'.

What do you think?

UPDATE 5:

Now we're talking about if bread and butter is nice or not. It definitely, definitely is btdubs...

🍞&🧈

UPDATE 6:

Now we are talking about different types of bread. I bet you can't guess what course I'm doing at college.

UPDATE 7:

Kodak (or whatever I called him) is flirting with Helen and it's actually so funny tbf. She was flirting with me on the first day and because i rejected her, she told the whole class that I was ace. 😑

UPDATE 8:

Konan says he wants to recreate the 'Lady and The Tramp spaghetti scene' with Helen irl. 😭✋️He wants to 'Netflix and sit down and have some pringles, mate' with her aswell. 😭😭😭

UPDATE 9:

Is it weird to wear your prom dress to be a bridesmaid? Yes. Definitely is.

UPDATE 10:

Helen apparently doesn't have social media but I feel like she has tumblr. Imagine if she saw this, she'd report me and cry about it.

UPDATE 11:

Kodak loves isbians (spelling intentional).

UPDATE 12:

Some old, crusty teacher keeps walking in our room and going, "Ohhh, I'm in the wrong room *giggle*". Like actually piss off, she's done it three times now.

UPDATE 13:

They're playing 'This is my fight song' as Helen was singing it really, REALLY, REEEAAAALLLLLLLLYYYY loudly on the bus.

UPDATE 14:

We've got a true Sidemen fan in our midst, all she ever wears is XIX hoodies and she has a water bottle too sksksks ✨️✨️

UPDATE 15:

Stupid fucking Helen has left me with no room on this pissing table.

UPDATE 16:

Konan is staring at people as they walk out the class and he just jiggled his arse for no reason 😭✋️

UPDATE 17:

Helen is listening to the loudest music I've ever heard.

UPDATE 18:

Konan and Helen have just had a lovers tiff, but it's all good now...

Just made some #Honan fanart

UPDATE 19:

Helen actually stinks like piss and weed, not an attractive combo at all. Just needed to state that, also I just need to state that although this may seem mean, she is rude and annoying so idrc tbh. 🍃👃

Here's a virtual joint to help you get through the hell that is this 'DAY IN THE LIFE OF A COLLEGE GAL IN CLASS'. Enjoy!

[dorsey-m]

[Things I've Heard in Theater/School as Said by the Cast of Newsies]

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Race, about Spot: "He's just so good at being a dick"

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Crutchie: "FUCK ME I've been jinxed like five times today"

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Elmer, almost crying: "Can I finish my bread?"

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Specs: "Albert put down the scissors"

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Jack: "After the super sad ending can we play Benny Hill during bows?"

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- Sniper and Smalls (playing the reporter's) started violently dabbing in synch -

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-Race: "I wanna be Tracer"

--Spot: "I'm gonna hurt you"

---Race: "Bold of you to assume I wouldn't want that.

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Romeo: "Listen here Diane, I am the peepee gender."

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-Medda: "I've been working with freshman all day and if I hear one more thing about grapes I'm gonna lose it"

--Sniper: "tHEY DID SURGERY ON A GRAPE?!?"

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Mush: "I dunno. Do I look like I work at Crayola?"

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-Crutchie: "Do I smell like weed"

--Romeo: "Why?"

---Crutchie: "Because I just smoked weed"

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Finch: "You know I was having a good day but then Katherine and Davey started talking about college and now I'm about to have a panic attack"

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-Cue line: "CHARLIE!"

--Crutchie, who had not been paying attention backstage: "oh SHIT"

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Jack: "Your finest chocolate milk, please."

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- *Doorbell sound affect*

--Davey, Crutchie, and Jack: "Hello! My name is Elder Price!"

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Medda: "I know it's Gatorade but it's supposed to be radium so don't drink it"

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-Ike: "Don't get the fake blood on your clothes"

--Mike: :(

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Henry: "If we need a real jaw bone we can just rob the nearest hospital. They support local high school theater, right?"

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- Sarah: "You were supposed to be off book over a month ago"

--Katherine: "I'll get them down by opening night don't worry"

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Romeo: "I should stop dating people I meet at theater camp."

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-Jack: "I had a thrilling conversation with your father today"

--Katherine: "Oh no"

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Davey: "Can someone just fucking mercy kill me already"

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-Medda: "Your props will be here probably"

--Crutchie: "Don't you mean...PROPably?"

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Romeo: "Aw man I fucking love water"

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-Mush (who is gay): "Aw man I love you. I'm not gay tho. So no Homo."

--Blink (his boyfriend): "As the bible said, being a homosexual is gay"

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Crutchie: *does loud Peter Pan rooster noise* "Holy fucking shit i think I just ripped one of my wisdom tooth stitches"

-Crutchie: "I can shove this whole cupcake in my mouth." *A pause* "I can't shove this all in my mouth."

--Medda, sighing in exasperation: "If it's gonna hurt your stitches then eat it normally."

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Medda: "Alright guys don't make me regret feeding you."

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- Specs, @ the freshman: "If we find used mic tape anywhere besides the trash can we're gonna kill all of you."

-- *finds mic tape literally stuck to the SIDE of the trashcan* "fUCK"

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Mush: "What is the largest amount of chicken chicken tenders you're legally allowed to give me?"

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- Katherine: "Michael Buble released an album that's NOT Christmas? Get it out of my fucking face"

--Sarah: "Michael Buble has awoken from his 11 month hibernation to release a Christmas album and then go back to sleep on his bed of money"

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Davey: "I was wearing pants but then my brother took them, so now I'm in shorts" --(It's November)

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-Romeo: "Wait, I'm older than you?"

--Buttons: "Yeah, by 13 days."

---Romeo: "...I don't like that. That's weird. I thought I was younger than you oh god."

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Davey: "Sometimes my intrusive thoughts become reality"

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Romeo: "It's a bonding practice. We'd be bonding over suffering. That's a direct quote from coach."

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- Bill: "You're rebelling against God."

-- Darcy: "Thats a you opinion."

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Romeo, @ Jack: "You have no legal authority over me."

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- Katherine: "What rude name people call Queen Mary?"

-- Spot: "A hoe?"

--- Katherine: "...The VIRGIN Queen."

[madreckdoesrandomstuff]

I'm seriously not fucking eating enough. I just enough where I think I'm satisfied, but then I remember that I can hear my stomach once every few minutes or so & I just—

BOI— I'd make myself something to eat so I couldn't have to eat fucking pizza for once, but I don't wanna do the dishes or clean the fucking counters—

& even if I do end up eating, I'll probably just feel a bit sick after I'm satisfied? Why? IDK! It's not from overeating since I'm practically fucking starving myself each day, which is the exact opposite of what I want.

I'm skinny. I feel like I'm too skinny. I just want to gain weight & not feel a bit sick after my meals or snacks. I don't want to be skinny. I want some meat on my bones.

I wanna be chubby. Chubby enough where I can can be called chubby. Chubby enough where I can actually grab stomach.

I thought gaining weight would be easy, but oppsie! I keep forgetting that I'm often too depressed to fucking eat much & just feel like shit once I actually eat enough food & feel satisfied. Is gaining weight really that difficult?

I hate it. I hate my fucking body. I hate how skinny I am. I hate how I struggle to bring myself to eat a decent meal. I hate how I'm always fucking hungry, despite always having access to food. I hate how shitty I feel. I hate how ik when I'm hungry & yet I still don't get myself some fucking food. I hate how my shitty emotions affects if I eat or not.

I hate it. I hate it so much. I hate it so fucking much.

I'm not a picky eater, most of the time. Hell, I'd probably down 2 bowls of spaghetti or some shit if it's good or depending on how hungry I am. That'd fill me up & I'd probably go back for 3rds about an hr later or so if it isn't too cold or dry.

Jfc I hate myself so fucking much. I can't bring myself to do even the simplest of fucking tasks & only do them when I'm fucking told to or too fed up with my own bs.

3 slices. 3 slices of pizza. No good. Still hungry, but I'd start to feel sick after a 4th slice.

I'm tired. I'm tired of always hearing my stomach growling. Day & night. No matter what I'm fucking doing, I can always fucking hear it. I'm fucking surprised my lil bro hasn't said anything about it or maybe even some of my classmates whenever I'm at school.

Maybe I should get up earlier on school days so I can get myself something to eat. A slice of bread or Pop Tarts wouldn't hurt if it means I won't have to hear that dreadful growling until the next time I eat.

PLS FOR THE LOVE OF GOD I'M TIRED OF THIS! I HATE THIS! I HATE THIS SO FUCKING MUCH! I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING STARVE MYSELF! I DON'T WANT TO EAT LESS! THEN WHY TF AM I NOT EATING AS MUCH AS I SHOULD?! I FUCKING HATE IT! I HATE IT SO MUCH!

I JUST WANT TO RIP MY STOMACH OUT SO I WON'T HAVE TO FUCKING HEAR IT! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

I HATE MYSELF SO FUCKING MUCH! I HATE HOW I'M NOT EATING AS MUCH AS I SHOULD! I HATE HOW SKINNY I AM!

I HATE THE BODYSHAMING DONE BY MY MOM & STEPDAD! I HATE THE BODYSHAMING I DO TO MYSELF! TELLING ME THAT I'M TOO SKINNY & THAT I SHOULD EAT MORE!

I HATE THE BODYSHAMING I ALWAYS SEE! I HATE HOW PPL BODYSHAME FAT PPL! I HATE HOW PPL BODYSHAME SKINNY PPL! I HATE HOW PPL BODYSHAME DISABLED PPL! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT! I HATE IT!

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY WITH MY BODY! I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY WITH WHAT I EAT! I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY WITH HOW I LOOK! OR FEEL! OR MYSELF!

BUT NO! I CAN'T FUCKING HATE THAT CAN I?!

I HATE MY BODY! I HATE MY EYES! I HATE THE FOOD AROUND ME! I HATE MY FAMILY! HATE MYSELF!

SOMEONE JUST RIP MY FUCKING THROAT OUT ALREADY! YOU'D JUST BE DOING MY A FAVOR BY KILLING ME!

WHY CAN'T I JUST DO WHAT I NEED TO DO & BE FUCKING SATISFIED?! WHY CAN'T I JUST DO WHAT I WANT TO DO & BE FUCKING SATISFIED?!

IF MY STOMACH OR MIND CAN JUST FEEL SATISFIED WITH WHAT I DO FOR MORE THAN JUST 5 MINUTES, THEN MAYBE I MIGHT FEEL HAPPY!

GOD DAMN IT! ALL I NEED TO DO IS EAT & THEN I WON'T HAVE TO HEAR MY STUPID STOMACH!

WHY AM I TYPING THIS OUT INSTEAD OF FUCKING EATING?!

Jfc I feel like crying. So fucking pathetic. Feeling upset over something so fucking simple. It's really not that difficult. So just get over it. It'll be alright. Okay?

It's not. It won't be alright. It won't be okay. I can't get over it. I won't get over it. It's not simple. It really isn't.

Although I'm right about 1 thing & that I'm fucking pathetic. All I've gotta do is eat enough where my stomach can feel satisfied & then I won't feel like shit.

That's it. That's all. That's all that needs to be done. It's simple. An easy task. Simple enough. Should over with quickly. Shouldn't take more than 10 minutes.

Then why aren't you doing it? Why aren't you eating? It's cuz of that damn phone, isn't it? Shut up... Turn it off! It's not the the phone? Yeah, you're right...

You know you won't upset anybody be eating rn. Your parents are asleep. There's plenty of shitty leftover Pizza Hut. Your siblings aren't eating. It should be good, despite you only liking the sausage when the leftover pizza gets cold.

Why are you just drinking your soda? It won't help much. Yes it tastes good, but it won't fill you up like an actual meal. What? You don't want the pizza? Then what about that Hawaiian bread then? Oh? You're thinking about it? That's good. You like that stuff anyway.

Try to calm down. Take deep breathes. Don't be afraid to eat. You won't get in trouble. You won't feel sick this time. I promise. Now pls, eat.

Do it for yourself, but also do it for the others that care about you. They'd hate to see you so upset. They'd get upset because you are, which will only make you more upset. Being upset just makes you hungrier anyway, especially if you feel like crying or really angry.

Now, just get some bread & try to calm down.