#im also on the fence bc. on the one hand a controlled environment away from everything sounds nice but on the other hand

[dovesnest]

hey i've been in a psych ward in southeast europe. it was necessary, and it fucking sucked. genuinely, no one mistreated me, it's just that the doctors have very little time for each individual patient and i was truly at rock bottom. and overall. it still saved my life. it was a safe unchanging environment with a routine and people who knew what i was going through. it was weird being the youngest there at 21, it was weird getting the pills from the nurses in tiny paper envelopes one at a time, it was weird and sucky and uncomfortable as fuck. if it came to that again, tho, i would do it again bc my alternatives were all so much worse. i wish you so so so much luck and wellbeing, stay strong, mwahmwah from another mentally ill girlie.

this is v v helpful information thank u so much!!

[bloojayoolie]

Children, Click, and Dogs: The most handsome huggable guy. Crash is an active young boy who LOVES toys (and is always happy to share), he is an affectionate snuggler, sweet kisser and a wonderful friend to other pups in playgroup, too 2 yrs old crash lb# 53962 Walting on Love Manhattan AC TO BE KILLED 9/21/18 Playful, Affectionate and Dog-Friendly Crash is looking for an active Family to be part of :) Please share! A volunteer writes: Crash! Boom! Bang! That's the sound of you falling head-over-heels for Crash, the most handsome, huggable guy you never knew your life was missing! I like my dogs big, boisterous and a little bossy, and Crash is all those things, but he's also an affectionate snuggler, a sweet kisser and a wonderful friend to other pups in playgroup, too. At the top of his list of not-so-secret joys are toys and balls of all kinds, and he'll sit politely (for a moment at least) to wait for my throw, then dash off, gently scoop up his prize and jog back for another round, smiling all the while. Crash never grabs or guards and is always happy to share if it means the fun and games will continue, and he's so soft and easy to handle, lightly munching away from my hand as I hold a toy for him or quietly settling across my lap for an extended back massage and chew session. He seems very house trained, but his enthusiasm for exploration and meeting new friends does result in some hard pulling on leash. A harness and a little training could teach this smart cookie how to slow his roll, or if you prefer, you can learn to jog! Crash is a lotta dog to love and he's got so much love to give to an active, experienced family. Ask to meet him at our Manhattan Care Center and get ready to fall in love. VIDEO: In Playgroup with Charleston Chew and Nyla https://youtu.be/2If5TkuCiRc Crash ID# 38962 Manhattan Animal Care Center 2 yrs old, XX lbs BROWN BRINDLE / WHITE MALE Large Mixed Breed Cross SHELTER ASSESSMENT: EXPERIENCED HOME My health has been checked. My vaccinations are up to date. My worming is up to date. I came into the shelter as a returns on 07-Sep-2018. Behavior Assessment Date of intake:: 9/7/2018 Spay/Neuter status:: No Means of surrender (length of time in previous home):: Owner Surrender (In home for one week) Bite history:: Yes, Crash bit a person and a dog while he was being walked. He lunged towards a child and the owner's girlfriend got in between the Crash and the child and she was bitten on the hand, breaking skin. He bit a dog that he was meeting while on leash, breaking skin on the dog. Date of assessment:: 8/22/2018 Look:: 2. Dog pulls out of Assessor's hands each time without settling during three repetitions. Sensitivity:: 1. Dog leans into the Assessor, eyes soft or squinty, soft and loose body, open mouth. Tag:: 2. Dog is not fearful, but is unresponsive when touched. Approaches the Assessor when the game ends (may need coaxing to approach). Dog is focused on stimuli other than the Assessor. Paw squeeze 1:: 2. Dog gently places open mouth over the Assessor's hand without applying pressure. Paw squeeze 2:: 2. Dog gently places open mouth over the Assessor's hand without applying pressure. Flank squeeze 1:: Item not conducted Flank squeeze 2:: Item not conducted Toy:: 1. Dog settles close, keeps a firm grip and is loose and wiggly. Dog does not place his/her body between you and the toy. Summary:: Crash quickly approached the assessor with a soft body and jumped up in a social manner. He jumped up several times during the assessment and was a bit mouthy, applying light pressure. He allowed all handling. Summary:: Crash may succeed best with slow introductions to other playful dogs. Summary (1):: 8/22: When introduced off leash to the female greeter dog, Crash greets politely, initially is weary of play. Once more acclimated, Crash engages in bouts of play. Summary (2):: 8/23: Crash engages in bouts of running play with a female dog. Summary (3):: 8/24-8/27: Crash engages in running, bouncy play with male and female dogs. ENERGY LEVEL:: We have no history on Crash so we cannot be certain of his behavior in a home environment. However, he is a young, enthusiastic, social dog who will need daily mental and physical activity to keep him engaged and exercised. We recommend long-lasting chews, food puzzles, and hide-and-seek games, in additional to physical exercise, to positively direct his energy and enthusiasm. IN SHELTER OBSERVATIONS:: In the care center Crash displays on leash reactivity, pulling towards dogs and people he sees on walks. Prior to his adoption he had not displayed concerning levels of reactivity (hard barking, lunging etc.) but this was reported in the home environment. Since returning he has displayed high levels of reactivity in kennel as well (hard barking, jumping on the fence etc.). One on one with handlers outside Crash is highly social, seeking attention and engaging in play with toy items. He is a high energy dog and benefits from one on one time off leash in the yard with toys and humans. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION:: NEW HOPE ONLY Behavior Asilomar: TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations:: No children (under 13),Place with a New Hope partner Recommendations comments:: No children: Due to the reactivity Crash showed on leash towards a child, we recommend an adult only home. Place with a New Hope partner: Due to Crash's bite history, the behavior department recommends Crash be placed with a New Hope placement partner who is able to provide an experienced adult-only foster home. A period of decompression is recommended to allow Crash to acclimate comfortably to his new environment; force-free, reward based training only is advised when introducing Crash to new and unfamiliar situations. Consultation with a professional trainer/behaviorist is highly recommended for guidance to safely manage/modify any behavior Crash presents with outside of the care centers. Potential challenges: : Basic manners/poor impulse control,Mouthiness/poor bite inhibition,On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Potential challenges comments:: Basic manners/poor impulse control: Crash jumps up on people a lot in a social manner. It is recommended that default behaviors such as "Leave it", "Sit/Stay", "Down" are reinforced to substitute any frustration and teach him to control his impulses instead of simply reacting; proper management is also advised. Force-free, reward based training only is recommended. Mouthiness/poor bite inhibition: Crash has shown some mouthiness in the care center. Little pressure is applied, but this is a behavior that should be extinguished through training alternate behaviors and lack of reward (ex. walking away whenever Crash's teeth make contact with skin). On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: Crash has been reported to react to people on leash, having lunged at a child, resulting in the owner getting bitten when she got in between. Crash may need positive reinforcement, reward based training to teach him to look at you rather than other dogs. We recommend a front clip harness or head halter to help manage this behavior. We also recommend conditioning Crash to wearing a basket muzzle so he can wear a muzzle when out in public. My medical notes are... Weight: 58 lbs L V T Notes Vet Notes Medical Assistant 27/08/2018 Estimated age: 1 years Microchip noted on Intake? none Microchip Number (If Applicable):placed 985113002148580 Evidence of Cruelty seen - none Evidence of Trauma seen - none BCS 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears clean, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: clean white teeth ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities SURGERY: Okay for surgery 31/08/2018 Administered 0.53mls of Butorphanol 10mg/ml, 0.60mls Dexdomitor 0.5mg/ml IV for 3-view CXR @ 12:35pm. Rads reviewed by Rounds DVM. Administered 2.65mls Enrofloxacin 100mg/ml IM, 500mls of LRS SQ. Submitted K9 PCR to IDEXX. Patient was reversed with 0.60mls of Antisedan 5mg/ml @ 1:10pm. Patient recovered without incident and was returned to housing. *** TO FOSTER OR ADOPT *** HOW TO RESERVE A “TO BE KILLED” DOG ONLINE (only for those who can get to the shelter IN PERSON to complete the adoption process, and only for the dogs on the list NOT marked New Hope Rescue Only). Follow our Step by Step directions below! *PLEASE NOTE – YOU MUST USE A PC OR TABLET – PHONE RESERVES WILL NOT WORK! ** STEP 1: CLICK ON THIS RESERVE LINK: https://ift.tt/2ynocEZ Step 2: Go to the red menu button on the top right corner, click register and fill in your info. Step 3: Go to your email and verify account Step 4: Go back to the website, click the menu button and view available dogs Step 5: Scroll to the animal you are interested and click reserve STEP 6 ( MOST IMPORTANT STEP ): GO TO THE MENU AGAIN AND VIEW YOUR CART. THE ANIMAL SHOULD NOW BE IN YOUR CART! Step 7: Fill in your credit card info and complete transaction HOW TO FOSTER OR ADOPT IF YOU *CANNOT* GET TO THE SHELTER IN PERSON, OR IF THE DOG IS NEW HOPE RESCUE ONLY! You must live within 3 – 4 hours of NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Norther VA. Please PM our page for assistance. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a dog on the To Be Killed list, including those labelled Rescue Only. Hurry please, time is short, and the Rescues need time to process the applications.

[bloojayoolie]

Children, Click, and Dogs: The most handsome huggable guy. Crash is an active young boy who LOVES toys (and is always happy to share), he is an affectionate snuggler, sweet kisser and a wonderful friend to other pups in playgroup, too 2 yrs old crash lb# 53962 Walting on Love Manhattan AC TO BE KILLED 9/20/18 Playful, Affectionate and Dog-Friendly Crash is looking for an active Family to be part of :) Please share! A volunteer writes: Crash! Boom! Bang! That's the sound of you falling head-over-heels for Crash, the most handsome, huggable guy you never knew your life was missing! I like my dogs big, boisterous and a little bossy, and Crash is all those things, but he's also an affectionate snuggler, a sweet kisser and a wonderful friend to other pups in playgroup, too. At the top of his list of not-so-secret joys are toys and balls of all kinds, and he'll sit politely (for a moment at least) to wait for my throw, then dash off, gently scoop up his prize and jog back for another round, smiling all the while. Crash never grabs or guards and is always happy to share if it means the fun and games will continue, and he's so soft and easy to handle, lightly munching away from my hand as I hold a toy for him or quietly settling across my lap for an extended back massage and chew session. He seems very house trained, but his enthusiasm for exploration and meeting new friends does result in some hard pulling on leash. A harness and a little training could teach this smart cookie how to slow his roll, or if you prefer, you can learn to jog! Crash is a lotta dog to love and he's got so much love to give to an active, experienced family. Ask to meet him at our Manhattan Care Center and get ready to fall in love. VIDEO: In Playgroup with Charleston Chew and Nyla https://youtu.be/2If5TkuCiRc Crash ID# 38962 Manhattan Animal Care Center 2 yrs old, XX lbs BROWN BRINDLE / WHITE MALE Large Mixed Breed Cross SHELTER ASSESSMENT: EXPERIENCED HOME My health has been checked. My vaccinations are up to date. My worming is up to date. I came into the shelter as a returns on 07-Sep-2018. Behavior Assessment Date of intake:: 9/7/2018 Spay/Neuter status:: No Means of surrender (length of time in previous home):: Owner Surrender (In home for one week) Bite history:: Yes, Crash bit a person and a dog while he was being walked. He lunged towards a child and the owner's girlfriend got in between the Crash and the child and she was bitten on the hand, breaking skin. He bit a dog that he was meeting while on leash, breaking skin on the dog. Date of assessment:: 8/22/2018 Look:: 2. Dog pulls out of Assessor's hands each time without settling during three repetitions. Sensitivity:: 1. Dog leans into the Assessor, eyes soft or squinty, soft and loose body, open mouth. Tag:: 2. Dog is not fearful, but is unresponsive when touched. Approaches the Assessor when the game ends (may need coaxing to approach). Dog is focused on stimuli other than the Assessor. Paw squeeze 1:: 2. Dog gently places open mouth over the Assessor's hand without applying pressure. Paw squeeze 2:: 2. Dog gently places open mouth over the Assessor's hand without applying pressure. Flank squeeze 1:: Item not conducted Flank squeeze 2:: Item not conducted Toy:: 1. Dog settles close, keeps a firm grip and is loose and wiggly. Dog does not place his/her body between you and the toy. Summary:: Crash quickly approached the assessor with a soft body and jumped up in a social manner. He jumped up several times during the assessment and was a bit mouthy, applying light pressure. He allowed all handling. Summary:: Crash may succeed best with slow introductions to other playful dogs. Summary (1):: 8/22: When introduced off leash to the female greeter dog, Crash greets politely, initially is weary of play. Once more acclimated, Crash engages in bouts of play. Summary (2):: 8/23: Crash engages in bouts of running play with a female dog. Summary (3):: 8/24-8/27: Crash engages in running, bouncy play with male and female dogs. ENERGY LEVEL:: We have no history on Crash so we cannot be certain of his behavior in a home environment. However, he is a young, enthusiastic, social dog who will need daily mental and physical activity to keep him engaged and exercised. We recommend long-lasting chews, food puzzles, and hide-and-seek games, in additional to physical exercise, to positively direct his energy and enthusiasm. IN SHELTER OBSERVATIONS:: In the care center Crash displays on leash reactivity, pulling towards dogs and people he sees on walks. Prior to his adoption he had not displayed concerning levels of reactivity (hard barking, lunging etc.) but this was reported in the home environment. Since returning he has displayed high levels of reactivity in kennel as well (hard barking, jumping on the fence etc.). One on one with handlers outside Crash is highly social, seeking attention and engaging in play with toy items. He is a high energy dog and benefits from one on one time off leash in the yard with toys and humans. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION:: NEW HOPE ONLY Behavior Asilomar: TM - Treatable-Manageable Recommendations:: No children (under 13),Place with a New Hope partner Recommendations comments:: No children: Due to the reactivity Crash showed on leash towards a child, we recommend an adult only home. Place with a New Hope partner: Due to Crash's bite history, the behavior department recommends Crash be placed with a New Hope placement partner who is able to provide an experienced adult-only foster home. A period of decompression is recommended to allow Crash to acclimate comfortably to his new environment; force-free, reward based training only is advised when introducing Crash to new and unfamiliar situations. Consultation with a professional trainer/behaviorist is highly recommended for guidance to safely manage/modify any behavior Crash presents with outside of the care centers. Potential challenges: : Basic manners/poor impulse control,Mouthiness/poor bite inhibition,On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration Potential challenges comments:: Basic manners/poor impulse control: Crash jumps up on people a lot in a social manner. It is recommended that default behaviors such as "Leave it", "Sit/Stay", "Down" are reinforced to substitute any frustration and teach him to control his impulses instead of simply reacting; proper management is also advised. Force-free, reward based training only is recommended. Mouthiness/poor bite inhibition: Crash has shown some mouthiness in the care center. Little pressure is applied, but this is a behavior that should be extinguished through training alternate behaviors and lack of reward (ex. walking away whenever Crash's teeth make contact with skin). On-leash reactivity/barrier frustration: Crash has been reported to react to people on leash, having lunged at a child, resulting in the owner getting bitten when she got in between. Crash may need positive reinforcement, reward based training to teach him to look at you rather than other dogs. We recommend a front clip harness or head halter to help manage this behavior. We also recommend conditioning Crash to wearing a basket muzzle so he can wear a muzzle when out in public. My medical notes are... Weight: 58 lbs L V T Notes Vet Notes Medical Assistant 27/08/2018 Estimated age: 1 years Microchip noted on Intake? none Microchip Number (If Applicable):placed 985113002148580 Evidence of Cruelty seen - none Evidence of Trauma seen - none BCS 5/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears clean, no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: clean white teeth ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, no masses noted, healthy hair coat CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities SURGERY: Okay for surgery 31/08/2018 Administered 0.53mls of Butorphanol 10mg/ml, 0.60mls Dexdomitor 0.5mg/ml IV for 3-view CXR @ 12:35pm. Rads reviewed by Rounds DVM. Administered 2.65mls Enrofloxacin 100mg/ml IM, 500mls of LRS SQ. Submitted K9 PCR to IDEXX. Patient was reversed with 0.60mls of Antisedan 5mg/ml @ 1:10pm. Patient recovered without incident and was returned to housing. *** TO FOSTER OR ADOPT *** HOW TO RESERVE A “TO BE KILLED” DOG ONLINE (only for those who can get to the shelter IN PERSON to complete the adoption process, and only for the dogs on the list NOT marked New Hope Rescue Only). Follow our Step by Step directions below! *PLEASE NOTE – YOU MUST USE A PC OR TABLET – PHONE RESERVES WILL NOT WORK! ** STEP 1: CLICK ON THIS RESERVE LINK: https://ift.tt/2ynocEZ Step 2: Go to the red menu button on the top right corner, click register and fill in your info. Step 3: Go to your email and verify account Step 4: Go back to the website, click the menu button and view available dogs Step 5: Scroll to the animal you are interested and click reserve STEP 6 ( MOST IMPORTANT STEP ): GO TO THE MENU AGAIN AND VIEW YOUR CART. THE ANIMAL SHOULD NOW BE IN YOUR CART! Step 7: Fill in your credit card info and complete transaction HOW TO FOSTER OR ADOPT IF YOU *CANNOT* GET TO THE SHELTER IN PERSON, OR IF THE DOG IS NEW HOPE RESCUE ONLY! You must live within 3 – 4 hours of NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Norther VA. Please PM our page for assistance. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a dog on the To Be Killed list, including those labelled Rescue Only. Hurry please, time is short, and the Rescues need time to process the applications.