#im clinically insane atp

[lovelyhan]

17:12 — JOSHUA

inspired by this clip of shua at the airport today. special mention to @duhnova i've never been the same since she sent it to me <3

"s-shua."

"hm?"

"why're you being so..."

"so what, baby?"

you flash your boyfriend a little pout that makes him laugh. joshua's large hands massage your thighs as he leans forward to press his lips to yours. you nearly melt into him again when he licks into your mouth only for joshua pull away the moment you let your guard down—earning himself another whine in protest.

"you're such a tease," you complain, lightly punching his chest for good measure. "i thought you said you missed me."

he laughs again, that sinful tongue swiping along the plump curve of his bottom lip. you know he doesn't miss the way your eyes catch the movement and it only makes that stupid smirk grow wider.

"i did miss you, sweetheart," he coos and if he thinks he can distract you with the way his hands grip your thighs with just a tinge of possessiveness, he's not wrong. "it just so happens that i also miss the way you react whenever i tease. why? does my baby hate it so much when i do?"

you want to say that yes, you do hate it when he strings you along like this. but part of you is well aware of joshua's penchant for building up your arousal and anticipation. he likes the chase. likes holding the prize over your head to see how desperate you're willing to get just to get his hands on you.

well, in this case: his tongue.

"just want your tongue in me, shua," you mumble, the muscles of your aching cunt clenching around nothing as your boyfriend gazes up at you with a lazy, hooded gaze. "gets me so hot whenever you kiss me like that... please, please, baby. i've been good for you, right? you'll give it to me, right?"

a low laugh reverberates in joshua's chest as he reaches a hand up to tuck your hair behind your ear. when you beg so prettily like that, how can he ever refuse you?

that's how he finds his face smothered between the plush give of your thighs as he slurps at your pussy like he's been dreaming of the entire week. your fingers are tangled in his hair, eyes screwed shut. every breathless moan that slips from your lips rushes straight to his cock, but joshua doesn't have any plans on relieving himself until you've coated his face with release.

"fuck, joshua," you breathe sharply—air whistling down your throat when he slides two fingers inside you. coupled with the sensation of his hot tongue alternating between flicking across your clit and licking long stripes across your soaked folds, you're completely at the mercy of your merciless boyfriend. "s-so good..."

he laughs again—those deep-seated vibrations humming across every nerve ending between your legs. it doesn't help that your boyfriend knows exactly how to drive you insane at any given moment, curling his long fingers as he flattens his tongue across your slit.

your spine immediately straightens at the stimulation and joshua's hands migrate from your legs to twine them with yours—making it much easier for you to rock your hips into his face as he brings you to the apex of pleasure.

"shua," you nearly sob, loving how your fingers fit in the spaces between his, loving how he makes you lose your mind every time, loving him. "'m close."

he parts from your sopping cunt for just a moment to breathe out, "i know, baby. i know," before he dives back into you—tonguing at your entrance until all that's coming out of you are high-pitched keens of his name.

you come undone on your boyfriend's tongue when he squeezes your fingers with his. like a wordless confirmation that he's allowing you to come and the authority he has over you magnifies the sensation a few hundred notches.

joshua helps you ride it out the entire time—peppering your inner thighs with butterfly kisses as he goads you on. my beautiful baby, you look so fucking sexy when you come all over my face. that's it, pretty. let yourself feel it. i promise i'll make you feel even better in a minute.

[29121996]

painting s fob clock to deal with female hysteria

[ecxz]

i am clinically insane about blueberror and ask error PLEAAAAAASE make more blueberror content im practically starving atp,,,, </3

[kuromi-hoemie]

List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who reblogged or liked something from you

easy, I'm tired and going to go back to sleep after this so I'm just gonna fire them off the top of my head boss 🫡

pussy

making out and cuddling, biting them etc

playing with someone's hair

doing my silly little arts n crafts

seeing the animals i get to feed every day, and the trust and comfort they have in me to keep coming and bringing their kids n friends

weed

getting better at throwing my knives and spikes

all the beautiful and sweet people i get to talk with in person when i go out, esp the ones i keep going back for if we vibe right (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) ♡⁠ my favorite are these 2 specific budtenders at 2 different stores and i got to hold one when we met and i hold hands w the other and i want to kiss them both ૮₍ ˃ ⤙ ˂ ₎ა

on that note I'm happy I'm not as withdrawn as i used to be when i got isolated 🙇🏾‍♀️ i am such a social butterfly these days

I'm happy I'm moving in a few months and am very excited for this next chapter of my life

I'm happy i get to see my friend later today, I'm getting us gyro fries and making us drinks and we're having a lil ghibli movie marathon

I'm happy my coworkers n most people at work are so nicey to me 👉🏾👈🏾 i love that other queer n trans ppl work at my job. there's this one intern who's insanely beautiful and i really love getting to talk to her 😵‍💫 the top she was wearing last time was so cute!! very artsy and i loved the colors ʕ⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴥ⁠ꈍ⁠ʔ i wonder what her sign is

i love the nurses at my clinic where i go for transition related healthcare, they are SO fun in every way. it doesn't matter who i get; sometimes they're really flirty and hot, sometimes they're really silly, sometimes they're just sweet n friendly conversation but no matter what everyone is so fun and good to me there ♡⁠

i love how much I've changed the past year and a half. i embraced polyamory and it fundamentally shifted the way i view all of my relationships‚ found out im ace, the most outgoing and confident I've ever been, gotten pretty good at navigating The Public enough that i actually don't think i ever wanna touch a dating app for finding friends or lovers anymore because irl is sm easier for me atp. ╰(￣ω￣ｏ) there's lots of other little stuff too but overall getting to truly be and find myself as a trans woman feels like peace🧘🏾‍♀️ now i just need to be surrounded by a bunch of friends and a couple partners when i move and I'm good

honorary spring mention bc god do i love flowers (⁠〒⁠﹏⁠〒⁠) ♡⁠ it's sm more than that to me .. i don't feel like going on a rant rn but i love spring 🤌🏾✨ i truly love too watch the seasons go by and i love to be a part of it. just a girl caught up in the tides of change 💆🏾‍♀️ i love when yang grows in the yin and becomes apparent in both subtle and very conspicuous ways 🙇🏾‍♀️

c-can i rant about space..? is there time? 👉🏾👈🏾 no.. i shan't

i love life, i love existing, i love mysterious and complicated aspects of reality*

*:truly am holding back like 4 different rants rn so i am stopping 🙇🏾‍♀️

i am overwhelmed by love, curiosity and wonder i feel, and am full of sm of it that it pours out of me and into a majority of my interactions w others. I'm having a blast these days and i can't believe it gets even better!!! (⁠✿ ‚‚⌒‿⌒‚‚)

[moonrisecoeur]

BABY trust me i get uuu

i literally cry in frustration at times bc im not Perfect at Thing after 1 attempt. its legit so frustrating to deal with i want to be the best but its not possible and it gets to you so muchh 🥲 people pleaser moment

also nah man i could not be within 10 yards of leon id literally be on top of him nonstop he couldnt do ANYTHING !! i couldnt survive as any of his friends or partners from the series like itd be over for me. he wouldnt even have to save me, fuck OR smile, just look in my direction and baby im gonna be a leech suckin all over him !!!!

-🐕

if i am not Perfect at Thing on the first attempt then what’s the fuckin point of anything FR

i am clinically insane about leon like if you look in the dsm 5 i am in there under the section titled ‘not even a mental disorder atp you’re just fucking crazy girl’ i would do terrible… terrible things… to that man… but i also just wanna be sweet to him and treat him right and buy him cute little christmas gifts and and and

[lainteamo]

my charactour results but im spiraling into madness

[quantumized-insanity]

So I was watching john oliver(the show last week tonight)

     And im watching the episode he did on alex jones. And the I see the words “dna force” sold as a supplement to do god knows what, and i say fuck it, and look at the ingredients list to this nut jobs manifestation of insanity and did some research on the ingredients list and even at a glance(mind you ive deleted all the flavortext( itl be under the “keep reading” line since this post is already an eternity long. also all this does nothing for dna and costs 150 dollars which there are tons of ways to get most of this stuff and there are probably other cheapr supplements and also just dont buy this from his store because it suppots HIM and thats not something we want to do. so yeah. also ill get to the flavortxt tmrw but yeah

ElevATP® ((Ancient Peat, Apple Extract) ancient peat moss and apple polyphenol extract)) first of all. what the fuck. ancient peat, as in ancient peat moss. what the fuck. and also apple polyphenol. what is polyphenol you ask? “Polyphenols are secondary metabolites of plants and are generally involved in defense against ultraviolet radiation or aggression by pathogens.3 In food, polyphenols may contribute to the bitterness, astringency, color, flavor, odor and oxidative stability. Towards the end of 20th century, epidemiological studies and associated meta-analyses strongly suggested that long term consumption of diets rich in plant polyphenols offered some protection against development of cancers, cardiovascular diseases, diabetes, osteoporosis and neurodegenerative diseases4,5 (Fig. 1). Polyphenols and other food phenolics are the subject of increasing scientific interest because of their possible beneficial effects on human health. This review focuses on the present understanding of the biological effects of dietary polyphenols and their importance in human health and disease.” and also this from the nih so its legit. but also these things are in coffee and chocolate and fruits and red wine. so its just excessive to have a supplement with it(and also it in no way mentions the quantities these things are in.) also link here _

Cordyceps sinensis - this is a mushroom/caterpillar fusion thing that appears in china above a certain altitude in a place called sikkim and actually has decent health benefits all around, but once again we have no idea how much of this is actually in the thing, but is not an adaptogen. which is what it is claimed to be if you read the flavortext(below the keep reading line) link here _ 

Organic Reishi (Ganoderma lucidum) - has decent immune system and tumor fighing effect in animals in in-vitro studies for animals, but theres practically no decently set up human trials and the human trials that have been done are dodgy and contradictory.  _

Coenzyme Q10 (ubiquinone) - its found all over the place and is like meh on all accounts. _

Pyrroloquinoline Quinone (PQQ) - _ does something, but i cant make heads or tales of the article in a meaningful sense, and it might just be a shit article.

Astragalus membranaceus root extract - _ its good generally and has anti-cancerous and antiaging effects, but in higher doses is an immunosuppressant. also the dosing depends on a bunch of stuff and you shouldnt take it if you are pregnant, have any autoimmune disease or if you’re nursing.

R-alpha Lipoic acid -_ antioxidant and is found in broccoli and spinach and potatoes.

Rhodiola rosea root extract -_ limited data but maybe can help “enhance physical performance and ease mental fatigue“ but there are so few studies its inconclusive for the most part 

Trans-resveratrol -  _ good for anticancer stuff but need clinical trials 

Flavortext as on website ElevATP® (Ancient Peat, Apple Extract) - ElevATP® is a patented, one-of-a-kind, clinically studied ingredient that is a combination of ancient peat moss and apple polyphenol extract. This ingredient has been studied on elite athlete performance and ATP energy production. *

Cordyceps sinensis - A potent adaptogen known in traditional Chinese medicine for its potent immunoregulatory abilities and is claimed to be the most powerful adaptogens available. The active ingredient is thought to be free DNA nucleotides. Once found growing out of caterpillars in Chinese fields, this fungus is now grown in cultures without the use of insects. *

Organic Reishi (Ganoderma lucidum) - Reishi is a traditional Chinese medicine that is one of the most potent Chinese medicinal mushrooms available. The polysaccharides are considered the active ingredient that contributes to its adaptogenic properties.  *

Coenzyme Q10 (ubiquinone) - Found in all human cells located mainly in the mitochondria, this compound is not classified as a vitamin yet but is structurally very similar. CoQ10 is required to produce ATP, the energy of our cells. CoQ10 also doubles as a potent free radical scavenger and to help protect mitochondria and DNA! *

Pyrroloquinoline Quinone (PQQ) - Found in certain energy-related enzymes in the body, strangely PQQ is only found elsewhere in kiwi fruit and human breastmilk. PQQ is a recent discovery but is already being extensively studied for its ability to increase cellular energy levels.

Astragalus membranaceus root extract - One of the most powerful adaptogens in Traditional Chinese Medicine. Used traditionally for thousands of years to adapt to stress, travel, and life longevity. For the active polysaccharide compounds we use a water extract which avoids unwanted residual solvents and provides the active compounds. *

R-alpha Lipoic acid - ALA is another antioxidant that strongly resembles the structure of a vitamin. ALA can prevent oxidative damage in cells and has even been found in studies to restore certain levels of vitamins in cells such as Vitamin E and Vitamin C. *

Rhodiola rosea root extract - A well-known adaptogen found in Tibetan mountains. This herb is used in traditional chinese medicine to support energy levels, the immune system, relieve stress, mood, and brain function. *

Trans-resveratrol - One of the most potent and well-known antioxidants. *