#im freaking out ok i need to relax.

[hearteyedpup]

OUGH TED LASSO IS KILLING ME SLOWLY

[ironmanstan]

one of these days my dad is gonna realize what my school schedule is in the meantime he will continue to exist adjacently to me and never in the same space

[marvelfanfn2187a113]

Hexed?

Dean Winchester & daughter!reader, Sam Winchester & niece!reader

Requested by anonymous (x2)

Synopsis: you get your period for the first time, and Sam and Dean help you through it

Warnings: blood, period, crying, fluff

You awoke in the middle of the night, unsure at first what had woken you up. Then a sudden, stabbing pain in the pit of your gut had a pained gasp escaping your lips.

“What…” you mumbled as you pulled your blankets aside and clicked on your lamp. Another gasp, this time one of shock, came out as you saw blood covering your sheets and blankets. The gasp was followed by a whimper as another wave of pain washed over you.

You didn’t understand; you hadn’t been injured anywhere recently, and certainly not down there…

The only thing you could think of was a witch—Rowena had been around lately, and though she seemed to be on your side, could you really be sure? She could have left a hex bag in your room, something that would make you bleed to death! You checked your mouth, your nose, your ears—anywhere else that you could be bleeding from—but nothing; it was just between your legs. Your chest was tight, your throat constricted, as panicked gasps left you. You tried to take deep breaths—you needed to keep calm—but it wasn’t very effective.

You wanted to go and get your dad and Uncle Sam, but first you decided to do a quick sweep of the room; you didn’t find any hex bags.

You made your way awkwardly towards your fathers room, very aware of the blood running down your right leg. Your hands were shaking as you reached out to knock on his door, and when you looked down you realized that all of you was shaking.

Dean opened the door, rubbing his face and looking half asleep.

“N/N? What are you doing up?”

“I-I-I…” you swallowed hard and tried again to speak past your tears. “I think I got hexed.”

Dean was suddenly alert, his eyes fully open and his stance straight.

“What? What do you mean?”

“Im ble-bleeding and it won’t stop,” you sobbed.

“Bleeding? Where?” It was too dark for Dean to see the growing stain on your pajama pants.

“Um…my-my…” you were suddenly shy, struck with how awkward it felt to talk about this with your father. You clammed up, alarming Dean.

“Commere,” he said, opening his room for further and gesturing you in. He clicked on his bedroom lamp and looked you up and down. It took him mere seconds to see the blood on your pants, and to your surprise he relaxed completely. “Oh kiddo…”

His lips began to twitch ever-so-slightly, and now it looked like he was having an internal battle. Was he…

“Are you smiling?!” You demanded. “Dad, I could be dying!”

A single second of laughter escaped him before he schooled his features, noting how scared you were.

“Honey, you’re not dying, I swear. This is totally normal.”

“Normal? How could this be normal, I’m bleeding!” Dean’s nonchalance just made you more frustrated, which just made more tears fall.

“Hey, hey ok,” Dean’s voice was gentle and understanding. “Just take a seat and I’m gonna go get Sam. He can get you what you need for this and while he’s gone I’ll explain it.”

“Do-do we have to tell Uncle Sam?” You mumbled, still embarrassed, but less panicked.

“Trust me, Uncle Sam knows what this is too. It’s not gonna bother him a bit.”

“Ok.” You nodded your assent. “But-but I can’t sit on your bed, I’ll get blood all over your sheets.”

“Just sit, I’ll wash them later, ok?” Only after you’d hesitantly sat on your dad’s bed did he leave to get Sam.

…

Dean was just wrapping up his explanation when Sam returned with a Walmart bag and a gentle smile.

“Hey there,” he greeted. “How are we doing?”

“Um—ok,” you mumbled. Now that you understood you weren’t dying, you were more embarrassed than anything. “Sorry for freaking out.”

“Don’t apologize,” Dean insisted. “I should’ve told you earlier, I just…I thought I’d have another year or two.” Dean ruffled your hair. “You’re growing up fast, kiddo.”

Your lips twitched up—only a little—and Dean grinned before turning to take the bag from Sam.

“Ok, what do we have here?”

“Uh—“ Sam scratched the back of his neck. “Well I asked this lady that was buying some of this stuff herself, just to make sure I got everything. I got pads and tampons, because she said that Y/N should get to pick. Then I got a heating pad—that’s supposed to help with cramps. I got this one that you can plug in, it looks easy to use, but then I got this one shaped like a teddy bear that you can put in the microwave.” Sam reached into the bag as he spoke, pulling out each item in turn. Sure enough, he pulled out a little brown bear, and you smiled. “And then I got a lot of chocolate, and some, uh…” Sam pulled out a bottle. “I don’t really know what they are, but it’s supposed to be better for cramps and stuff than Advil, so…”

Looking at all the stuff on the table, you felt incredible overwhelmed. You needed all this stuff?

“Ok.” Dean clapped his hands together. “I guess you should start with these.” He held out the box of pads and the box of tampons. You took them both, reading the instructions on the back carefully before taking both boxes with you to the bathroom. You returned a few minutes later to both men busy at work—Dean taking the sheets off his bed while Sam was returning from your room with clean clothes.

You took the clothes from Sam and retreated back into the bathroom, and after a quick shower to clean yourself off, you emerged again in clean pajamas. Dean was just returning to the room with the teddy bear fresh from the microwave, and Sam had gotten you a water bottle.

“Do you want us to take this stuff to your room?” Dean asked, and you saw his question for the open invitation that it was.

“Could I stay in here?” You asked, and Dean smiled.

“Of course, sweetheart. I’m gonna go get some clean sheets, and then we can go back to bed, ok?”

Not ten minutes later, Sam had returned to his room and you and Dean were getting comfortable in his bed.

“Just let me know how you’re feeling in the morning, and we’ll go from there ok?” Dean said.

“Ok,” you mumbled sleepily, burrowing into Dean’s side. “Hey dad?”

“Hm?”

“Thanks.”

“My pleasure, kiddo.”

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[simping4-2manyppl]

hiii !

So I had this request : 2008!bill kaulitz x singer!reader (the reader is like reallyyyy famous). Could you make a story abt their most iconic scandal please ? (I know my request doesn't have many details and isn't very clear but I have too many ideas, ily 💋)

Bill Kaulitz 🎤

Stalker

Ok so i didn’t understand this request too much but i had such an amazing person help me so 🤭 here it is 😜! @nyxwritesshit (the amazing helper!!)

For a few weeks you’ve been getting weird things getting sent to you, it had started when you went to collect your fan mail and as you were going through the stack you found a special letter that caught your eye.

You were a bit weirded out by it since the letter showed old pictures of you or just unflattering pictures of you. It would also consist of a piece of paper in the letter explaining in deep detail of all the terrible things that would be done to you, and saying things about bill. Obviously most fans werent happy about your relationship but you didnt care, you were happy with him. But the letters obviously scared you a bit, so you called your boyfriend and asked him if he wouldn’t mind staying over.

He didnt. So when he went over to your place he asked if everything was alright, as a good bf does, you showed him the letter with the pictures and the writing.

“Oh my god.. i dont even have those pictures of you!” He said, trying to lighten up the mood. You laughed and hit his shoulder, “im serious! This really freaks me out!” You said, sighing.

“I know, if you want ill stay over and be with you as much as i can.” He said putting the letter down and giving you a hug.

You hugged him back and smiled at him, “thank you.” You said, looking up at him. He leaned down and gave you a quick peck on your lips.

“You’re welcome pretty girl.” He said, smiling back at you.

It was now a couple days since you had told bill about the letter and hes been with you every second of every day, trying to make you feel safe.

You were grateful, of course, but the letters didnt stop. You were scared to go out but bill assured you that everything would be fine, and that he would be with you the entire time.

You smiled and nodded, “thank you my love, i appreciate you so much!” You said, giving him a big hug.

He smiled and hugged you back, “anything for you mein schatz.” He says giving you a small peck on your cheek.

“Alright lets go yeah?” he said, holding your hand as you walked out of your apartment building. Bills bodyguards behind you, causing you to relax a bit more, knowing you were safe.

Usually youd have fans surround your building so you were used to it but as you were walking you noticed someone jump at you, screaming your name.

You turned to look at them and saw them approaching you, with a scary look on their face.

They grabbed your free arm and pulled you, making you scream out as they dug their nails into your skin, “THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR STEALING MY BOYFRIEND!” They said, punching you. You punched them back and pushed them off of you.

Before you knew it, you saw bill jumping onto the person, catching them off guard, making them land onto the floor.

Bill pinning them down as the body guards pulled bill off them, then grabbing the person.

Your jaw dropped, not expecting any of this to happen. “Oh my god, bill are you okay?” You said immediately running to him and making sure he wasnt hurt.

“Im fine, are you?” He said with a worried look on his face, “im fine, you didnt have to do that for me..” you said placing your hand on his cheek, “Of course i did, i wasnt going to let them hurt you.” He said frowning.

“Its all over, lets call the police and get this over with.” You said hugging him. “Yeah..” he said.

After the police got there and took the person away you went back with bill, thanking him non stop, which he just laughed at and said your welcome.

“Wow, i really need to get some bodyguards.” You said, letting out a small laugh, “yeah you do.” He said, also letting out a chuckle.

You smiled and hugged him, “you’re my hero, you know that?” You said, wrapping your arms around his neck.

He laughed and nodded, “just had to protect my beautiful girlfriend.” He said, smiling. You smiled back and leaned in, placing a small kiss on his lips.

“Ill forever be grateful for you meine liebe.” You said, giving him another soft kiss on the lips. He smirked and picked you up spinning you around, licking his teeth (how he does it in the gif!!) placing his lips onto yours.

Later on you found out the news got ahold of the situation, making it a big deal, and totally taking it out of context, but they usually did that, and you knew for future interviews they would ask what really happened so you knew you could speak out about it and explain what REALLY happened. But right now you were comfortable, cuddling with your bf, his head on your chest and you couldnt wish for anything better.

HEYY SO I HOPED MY POOKIES LIKED THIS, IDK THID REQUEST WAS A BIT CONFUSING BUT I TRIED MY BEST 💗💗 I HOPE U GUYS ENJOYED THIS ILY ALL SM 🤭🫶🏼

[graciegoeskrazy]

i’ve got a woman now

pairings: Matty Healy x Teen!Daughter!reader (ft. The 1975)

a/n: GUYS. i really like this one lol. im so sorry to the wonderful anon who requested this! it took forever to complete because i loved it so much and kept adding and shit. but here it is and i hope u enjoy!

warnings: blood, periods, giving ‘the talk’, talk of absent mother, matty is the best dad, lil bit of panicking, a lil crying

Your life quite literally flashed before your eyes when a line of blood started running down your legs. You ran to the bathroom and sat down as quickly as possible. Your bottoms were coated with blood. You were immensely scared and did the first thing that came to your mind - calling out to the person you trusted most.

“Dad!”

Matty sat up and ran upstairs as soon as he heard you shout, never hesitating. He heard the panic cries coming from the bathroom. When he walked in he saw you sitting in the loo with a towel covering yourself. He kneeled in front of you.

“Woah, woah. Hey.”

You were scared shitless. Matty could tell by your panicked breathing.

“Breathe, baby.”

He led you through some exercises and after a moment he calmed down. “Is it under there?”

You frantically nodded.

“Good. Now let me see.”

He was pretty sure he knew what was happening but needed to make sure. “What happened?” He asked.

“I don’t know! You just sat down and I was peeing- and there was blood everywhere!”

“Okay, Okay, breathe darling.” His worst fear was confirmed. “It’s gonna be okay-”

“Daddy, what’s happening?”

He grabbed your shoulders and looked you right in the eyes with a smile. “You got your period, love.”

“Huh?” His casual tone threw you off.

“I’ll be right back.” After a moment or two Matty came back with a pair of underwear with a pad already attached, new shorts, and another roll of toilet paper. “Ok. You’re gonna clean yourself up, put this on, change your bottoms, and come meet me in my room. Okay?”

You nodded but continued crying. He kneeled again. “What’s wrong, darling?”

“Am I in trouble?”

“No, love! Of course not! Why would you be?”

You sniffled. “I made a mess and stuff,”

“No, you didn’t, love. This is all normal-”

“What do you mean normal?! Dad, I’m scared.”

“Just change, then come find me. Okay?”

“Okay.”

You were so fucking confused

—---------

Although Matty tried to stay calm for the sake of his kid, on the inside he was a panicking mess. So, he called the person who usually always knows the right thing to say, and usually ends up fixing his problems. Your uncle Adam.

He mentioned that he, his wife Carly, your uncle George, and uncle Ross were all going out to lunch for the day, and would be back at the house you and all of them shared after. He facetimed him and he thankfully answered immediately.

“We’ve got a serious fucking problem.”

“What’s happened?” Adam asked.

“Y/n got her period.”

Everyone at the table went silent.

“So…?”

“She got her period mate. I have to fucking give her the TALK now!”

He could hear the others laughing in the background. Adam just smiled a bit. “You’ve never given her the talk?”

“No! I raised her alone! I’ve been trying to avoid that topic for as long as possible!” Your father was freaking out.

George spoke up from the back. “Did she even know what a period is?”

“I don’t think so. She called me to the bathroom- I think she thought she was gonna die.”

“Oh my god,” Ross said laughing.

“Does she need supplies?” Carley said, taking the phone.

“No, I had some stashed since 2 years ago for when this happened.”

“Awe! He cares!” She said, teasingly.

“Give Hann the phone back.” He replied with a blank face.

One Hann’s face was on the screen again, he continued. “Mate, What the fuck do I do?”

“First, you’re going to chill the fuck out.”

Matty took a breath. “Get her relaxed, it’ll do you both no good if she’s an anxious mess which I know she is.”

“Yeah.”

“Then you are going to simply explain that what happened is called a period. And because she got a period, she is now capable of making babies. But she cannot and will not make a baby until she is at least 30. She will bleed down there every month, and stick some cotton in her underwear to help. she might get terrible mood swings or cramps, or like her auntie Carly, she will want to stab her significant other's eyes out,”

“Hey!” Carly yelled.

“But it will all be fine, because her dad is here to help, and will be there every step of the way.”

“That was pretty good,” Ross said.

“Thanks!”

“I can’t believe my baby girl is becoming a woman,” Matty said.

“It was inevitable mate,” Adam said.

“I’ve been dreading this exact moment since I found out she didn’t have a penis.”

“You're a good dad, mate. Go.”

Your dad smiled a little bit before saying, “I’ll see you later.”

Carly chimed in before Adam had the chance to hang up. “Remind her that she now has an excuse to stay out of P.E!”

—

Your dad was lying in bed, scrolling on his phone after sending a text to George that read ‘pray for me’, when he heard the door creak open slightly. “Hop In,” he said, pulling back the covers.

“I can’t.” You shyly looked down, basically caving in on yourself.

“Why?” He asked.

“I’m gonna mess up the sheets again.” You slowly looked up to him.

“If you do then we’ll wash them. It’s not a big deal, c’mon.” he patted the spot next to him. You walked over to the bed and snuggled under the covers, immediately hiding in your dad’s chest. He ran his fingers through your hair for a moment, thinking about how to start the conversation. However, you did it for him. “Am I dying?”

He chuckled. “No. You’re not dying.”

You mumbled in his shirt. “So what’s happening then?”

He sighed. Here we go, “When girls get older…and start becoming women…they get their period every month-”

“Every month?! I’m gonna bleed out of my but every month?” You said sitting up.

“It’s not out of your but, it’s out of your vagina-”

“Doesn’t matter! I’m gonna have blood coming out of me every month?!”

He looked at you with a tight lip before replying. “...Yes.”

You showed a look of confusion. “Why?”

“Now, time for the fun part.”

Your brows furrowed. “What fun part?”

“The part where I tell you how babies are made-”

“NO. NOPE! I’M GOOD. No need for that.”

“So you’re telling me you didn’t know what a period was but you know everything about having sex.”

“I don’t know everything about sex, and I don’t wanna know everything about sex!”

“You have to, love.”

“I just learned im gonna lose gallons of blood every month out of my butt and you're telling me you wanna have the freaking birds and the bees talk NOW?”

“It’s not gallons…I think. And, it’s all connected, y/n. You need to have a period to get pregnant.”

“I can get pregnant?!?!?!”

“...technically, yes.”

“Oh my god, my life is over.”

“Your life is not over. We’re gonna have this conversation, I’m gonna answer all questions you have, and then you will continue living your life.”

You were silent. Staring at your hands.

“If you don’t hear it from me, your father who loves you, you’re gonna hear it from stupid kids around you who either tell you false information or try and get in your pants.” After a moment, you answered.

I can’t believe this.”

“Well…you’re aunt Carly says you can use it as an excuse to get out of gym!”

Your eyes widened. “You told Aunt Carly?!”

“Yeah…I called Adam and the boys and she answered.”

You sat up. “THE BOYS KNOW?!?!”

“Relax, love. It will all be okay.” He patted your knee and you fell back down, hiding your face in the pillows.

“Everyone’s gonna look at me differently now.” Your sound was muffled by the pillows.

“Honey, that’s already happened.” You didn't move. Your dad readjusted to fave you and your hidden state.

“Do you know how many times you’ve made your Uncle George cry simply because you’re growing up? And I think Ross had a panic attack when he found out you started wearing real bras.”

“Dad…” You said looking up

“The point is, you have people in every corner who want nothing more than to support you because to them you’ll always be our baby girl.”

—

After about an hour, a couple of Google searches, and a phone call to Carly and Charli to get a second and third confirmation that there are indeed 3 holes, you and your dad had covered everything. Yet, some dots still weren’t connecting.

“Why do some babies get put up for adoption? People still have sex even if they don’t want to have a baby?”

Matty could get over your confused face it was adorable.

“Yeah, sure. People use condoms or there are pills women take. It’s different for everyone.”

He could still see the wheels turning in your mind and continued. “They don’t always work though. Your mom was on the pill when we were together, but she still got pregnant.”

Your mother.

For a while now you had been perfectly content with the fact your mother wasn’t in your life. Your dad always said your family was perfect the way it is, but all these discoveries had you questioning your existence a little bit. Some of those dots started connecting in your head, and that confused expression turned to fear.

“You guys didn't mean to have me?”

Marty’s heart shattered. How in the world was he supposed to deal with this one? There isn’t exactly a guidebook on telling your pre-teen daughter about sex when you’re a single dad to a baby who has never had a mother in her life and was raised around nothing but dirty disgusting men who are also in a band that leads her to have a not so normal life?

“Not technically…no?” He said.

You nodded and looked down- finally understanding. “Is that why she left?”

Oh shit. Now THIS was the talk Matty wanted to avoid even MORE than the birds and the bees. He knew it needed to happen eventually and now seemed good enough.

“Your mother left for a multitude of reasons, but newborn you was not one of them.”

“Then why did she leave?” You asked.

“It’s…complicated.”

You rolled your eyes. “You always say that-”

“Because it is, y/n.”

You looked up at your father. He had a look of pity written all over his face. He sighed and wrapped his arm around you, pulling you closer.

“The truth is, you were unexpected. You were a surprise to everyone. And your mother wasn’t ready for such a big wonderful surprise.”

“So she bounced.”

“Yep.” He replied, popping the ‘p’

“But you stayed.” You replied smiling at him.

“I did.”

“Thanks for not putting me up for adoption.” You said, leaning into him.

“Thanks for being a great kid.”

“Thanks for playing mom and dad.”

He kissed the top of your head before replying with, “My pleasure.”

[crushculture03]

Heyyy, I love your writing!!

Can I request matty at the birth of baba 😆😆

Be My Baby

Summary : You go into labor with your and mattys first child.

Pairing : Matty Healy x afab!reader

Warnings : Cursing, Pregnancy, giving birth, anxiety, pain.

Notes: Loved this idea that was requested! also since i’ve never had a child the way she gives labor may be inaccurate, im going off of just the basics lol!

"Matty where are you" you groan into the phone as another contraction hits you."Hey baby! I'm at the studio, is everything ok?" he asks, "My water broke while i was making lunch" you yell into the phone as you brace yourself for another contraction. Mattys eyes go wide as he hears the news, "Holy shit, okay baby I'll be right there" he says and quickly grabs all his things, before rushing out the door. "Hurry" you shout before hanging up the phone.

Matty swears he's never driven faster, he was surprised no cops had pulled him over during his race home. He quickly parks the car and runs into the house, "Y/N" he shouts, "In here" you yell from the living room. He runs into the room to find you curled up, as much as possible, on the couch. "Hey baby, it's ok, lets get you up and to the hospital ok?" matty says, trying to remain calm for your sake, even though he's internally freaking out.

He helps you carefully sit up from the couch, and guides you to the car, making sure to grab your hospital bag before locking up the house. "I can't believe she's gonna be here soon" you say, as you place your hands on your swollen belly. "I know it's crazy!" matty responds, trying his best to focus on the road.

When you two finally arrive at the hospital, Matty helps you into the reception area and up to the front desk. "Hello, My wife is in labor" he says to the nurse, "Let me go get a wheel chair for her and I'll take you guys up to labor and delivery" the nurse says, quickly hurrying off to get the wheel chair. You squeeze mattys hand tight as you feel another contraction coming on, "Breathe baby its ok" he whispers, trying to soothe you. As soon as the contraction started, it ends and the nurse appears with the wheel chair. Matty helps you sit down, before taking the handles from the nurse and following her as she leads you  to your room.

"I'll give you these to change into, and then a labor and delivery nurse will be right in to set everything up!" the nurse said, as she handed you a hospital gown. "Thank you" you say as you grab the item from her, "Of course! Congratulations you two!" she says, before closing the door behind her. "Do you need any help changing?" Matty offers, "I should be fine, but thank you baby" you say.

After getting changed and being hooked up to about a million different machines, you were finally able to relax a bit, but not too much, as your contractions had been getting worse and worse. "Matty" you whimper, he quickly rushes up to you "Hey baby" he whispers, gently brushing some of your hair from your forehead. "I'm scared" you confess, the idea you were about to push another human out of your body terrified you beyond belief, you weren't sure if you would be able to do it. Mattys face fell when he heard that, "Oh baby" he says, before gently taking your shaking hand in his. "You are the strongest women I've ever met, if anyone can do this its you, and I'll be here the whole time. I can't even imagine what you're going through right now, but just know when everythings done our daughter is going to be here" he says. You tear up at his kind words "I love you matty" you say, "I love you too honey" he responds back, and places a gentle kiss to your forehead.

After about an hour of watching T.V and cuddling with Matty, the doctor told you it was time to push. Your heart sped up as you saw all the nurses walk into the room; it was quite an overwhelming amount of people to have around just for one baby you thought.

"Baby it'll be ok" matty said, trying to calm you down, "How do you know that Matthew? You're not the one pushing a child out of your body!" you snap, the nerves and hormones getting to you. "Ok Y/N you ready?" the doctor said from between your legs. You look between her and Matty, before nodding your head. "Ok on the count of three you're going to push ok?" she said, "1,2,3 PUSH" the doctor yelled. You used every ounce of strength you had in your body to push. "Good just like that, ready to do it again?" the doctor says, once again you push and push and after what feels like hours theres still no baby.

Your eyes well up with tears, utterly exhausted from pushing, you look up at matty "I-i can't do it matty I'm not strong enough " you say as you loosen the grip on his hand. "Baby don't say that, you are incredibly strong, you're so close, she's almost here, remember 5 more minutes of pain for a lifetime of happiness" he says, before placing a kiss on your now sweaty forehead.

You take a deep breathe before signalling to the doctor that you're ready to push again. "Ok Y/N two more pushes then she should be here" your doctor says, before counting down. You use your last remaining energy to push once more, "I see her head, you can do it just one last push" the doctor says. You push again and a few seconds later the loud cries of a baby fill the hospital room. "Baby you did it!" Matty says, as he looks over at you in awe. "Congratulations Mum and Dad you have a beautiful baby girl" the doctor says.

After Matty cuts the embicoal cord and the nurses clean and check the baby, you finally get to do the one thing you've wanted to do for the past 9 months, you get to hold her.

The nurse gently places your blanket wrapped daughter into your arms. You look down at the tiny baby and tears of joy begin to spill from your eyes. "Hey baby" you coo before placing a gentle kiss to her forehead. You look up at your husband, who also has tears streaming down his face, and pat the spot next to you telling him to sit down. He carefully lays next to you in the hospital bed, one arm around your shoulders while the other is around your arm that's holding the baby.

"She's perfect" you whisper, still in awe that your daughter was finally in your arms, "She is" he says. You finally break your gaze away from your daughter, and look up at your husband, "I love you" you say. Matty looks up at you and smiles "I love you too, you're amazing y/n I hope you know that" he says before placing a kiss on your temple.

The baby stirs in your arms and slowly opens her eyes, "Hey baby, its us Mommy and daddy" you coo, as you stroke her small cheek, "We love you so much little one" Matty says, and for a split second you think you see her smile before she closes her eyes once more.

"We never decided on a name" you say, of course you and matty had thought about names but never settled on one. "How about Emma?" he suggests, you look at him then to the baby in your arms, "I like that" you say. "Welcome to the world Emma Healy" you say, before looking back up at your husband. You lean your head against his as both of you silently admire the sleeping baby in your arms.

[fandxmslxt69]

CLEM!!!

Happy birthday, lovely! I hope you're happy and healthy! So sorry I didn't see your post earlier, I've been having a very hectic year with studying, working and just generalized stuff! BUT BUT I couldn't send you a inbox!

So like a said: HAPPY BIRTHDAY! you are one of the sweetest mutuals ever! And to celebrate that a gotta ask

What is your latest read?

And I want to know your all time favorite Jason fics, please with links and all!

LOVE OF MY LIFE HELLO!!!

OMG PLS DONT APOLOGISE I KNOW HOW HECTIC LIFE CAN GET!! i hope you are taking good care of yourself, resting and relax outside of studies and work!!! remember that none of it matters if you aren't feeling good <33

MY LATEST READ OKAY

um truth be told my love i have been in SUCH a slump lately,,,, its been tough out here.

i only read like 3 books very recently (last month or so)

I did read All The Little Raindrops by Mia Sheridan my QUEEN. its like a mystery thriller with a side of romance!!! Sheridan's books are ALWAYS a hit (she's very popular for her booktok famous Archer's Voice? And Travis !!) I've read like. most of her books at this point. I have never devoted myself to an author so much. She got me into the whole thriller genre and I LOVE her. so much. ITS SO GOOD AAAA. its not for the faint of heart and on more than once i find myself with the need to throw up with how HORRIFYING and messed up some of this stuff is (most of her thriller books are not for the faint of heart. lots of horrific stuff that is all too real and it makes it 10x more disturbing). Anyway i loved it i think i gave it a 4/5 stars it was so so good

2. i ALSO started Ana Huang's If Love series. I literally never shut up about Ana Huang like. EVER and i had been wanting to read this for a while and IM SO GLAD I GOT IT STARTED !!! Its a LOT less popular than hr Twisted and Kings of Sin series; she wrote it well before she got popular/published but its so good. its def not Twisted/Kings of Sin series but it makes it sooo clear how much she's grown in her writing, character development and general story telling!!! I read the first 2 books and UGHGUGHUFGHUFGHG yeah. new comfort series fr fr fr fr.

I also got digging through Lynn Painter's works (Love Wager, Mr Wrong Number, Better Than The Movies, etc) 10/10 her rom coms are sacred to me. this was a while ago though like. months ago lmao but i think abt her books always!!!

OH OH OMG I READ BIRTHDAY GIRL BY PENELOPE DOUGLAS !!!! SOME TIME AGO!!! yeah it changed my brain chemistry. i dont remember if i told you or not. but it changed my life. i think about it always.

edit: omg shut up i forgot i read some banger books months ago that i did not mention. i ate up Liz Tomforde's sports romance series (Windy City series) it was SO FREAKING GOOD. she had hockey romance, she had basketball romance she had BASEBALL ROMANCE. 10/10 amazing vibes

I ate through the latest of Lauren Asher's (Love Redesigned) IT WAS ALSO HELLA GOOD!! Ana Huang's King of Greed was also a vibe. not my fav but it was good. I ALSO delved into hockey romance SOOO DEEP. Fav series is probably Becka Mack's Playing For Keeps. It's the silliest stupidest fluffy no plot head empty series ever. the first book is 90% porn. its just for the giggles. the second is a bit better but the third is def the best in terms of actual plot & character development for example but the vibes are astronomical and i live for them

i ALSO started reading Sarah Adam's small town romance series (very very good). All fluffy fall vibes. CHLOE GONG HAD COME OUT WITH A NEW BOOK IN THE SUMMER AND I GOT TO IT AROUND THE NEW YEAR AND IT WAS SOOO GOOOD. Immortal Longings mm......she destroyed me once again.

OKAY ALL TIME FAV JASON FICS ok i dont have links (is lazy to go find links) but i will tell you two blogs im like religiously stalking:

@in-som-niyah has AMAZING THOUGHTS on Jason 10/10 i love getting all my jason content from her GOD BLESS THE HARDWORKING PEOPLE OF TUMBLR DOT COM

@fcthots also has some kick ass Jason stuff....like....from smutty to fluffy and domestic its....yeah. oooghgubjgubgn yeah yeah.

anyway i've probably forgotten to mention a bunch of books but thats all i can remember that was actually good. HOW HAVE YOU BEEN WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN READING !!!

[verxca]

Reiner Braun X Fem!Reader

Hands Up Pt. 2 ⋆⭒˚｡⋆

Summary: An evening in the town changed into something different when someone spots you ₊ ⊹

Warnings: None! ₊ ⊹

Spending time alone, outside, was always something you cherished. Being able to just enjoy nature without having to worry about anything else was rare for you. Even though you did love to observe the scenery; going on strolls in the forest, swims in the lake, etc; Today you had decided to wander in the market.

You walked through the streets of Trost, smiling at mothers and kids when they walked by, smelling the delicious foods and goods merchants were selling. You looked up at the sky; admiring the orange coloured clouds as your mind wondered with thought.

You couldn’t help but keep thinking back to your old mission, to Reiner. It was scary, of course, but you were still mad at yourself that you didn’t retrieve the files. Though you knew it would’ve been hard to without putting up a damn good fight. Even from that short time you saw him, you knew Reiner could easily overpower you.

You kept imagining different ways it could have played out, different methods you could have used to trick him. You came to the conclusion that it was just unfortunate… all of it. That you happened to come a little later. That you happened to not bring a weapon. You sighed. It was still such a bummer, you needed that money. It wasn’t for drugs or fancy clothes, rather just to support your family.

Suddenly, you got a tap on your shoulder.

You instinctively flinched a bit, not predicting anyone would have come up to talk to you. You quickly turned around and saw him; Reiner. Your face immediately dropped in shock, eyes widened and brows furrowed.

“Reiner…”

You didn’t know what to say or do. You couldn’t quite read the expression on his face, either. You knew he was a scout because of his uniform, so then was this it? Was he going to arrest you? Did you need to run? With everything on your mind, conflicted thoughts and an indecisive brain caused you to take a couple steps back.

“Hey, easy, easy. I’m not here to get you in trouble, or anything.”

Your shoulders immediately relaxed and you took another step forward, closing the distance.

“Oh- Sorry, you scared me”

You nervously chuckle, still unsure of how this was all going to play out.

“I was just heading back, but then spotted you. Figured I’d come say hello”

You relax even more as his gentle words soothe your anxiety. Even though you hadn’t met on the best terms; you prayed to god that you two could become closer.

In full honesty; You liked Reiner. He was just a sweet dude, his charming attitude couldn’t help but make you feel at ease, even in the most dire of situations. You smiled.

“That’s nice… How are you doing?” You asked him innocently.

He was relieved, happy to have not freaked you out too much.

“Good, you? Holding up ok after that? Hopefully I didn’t scare you too much.”

You playfully chuckled back as you and Reiner begun to walk side by side.

“Oh- No, Im all good. You were just doing your duty, after all.”

He smiles, looking down at you.

“Sooo, what are you doing out here?”

You look back up, thinking for a moment. It felt nice to talk to him like this normally. You didn’t have too many friends, didn’t know too many people that would strike up a conversation like this.

“Just came on a walk, nothing special. I was planning on heading back too-”

He looked away, contemplating wether or not to say it. A blush so faint it wasn’t noticeable appeared on his cheeks.

“Care if I walk you home?”

Reiner says so sweetly, so casually that you couldn’t tell if he was flirting, or just being a gentleman like always.

“Sure… I’d love that.”

You continued to walk for another couple seconds in silence.

“So what’d you end up buying? Anything fancy?”

He asks, genuinely curious. One part of him wanting to know more about you, one part just wanting to hear that pretty voice of your’s once more.

“Well- I didn’t get anything, actually…”

You admit, aware you sound disappointing.

“Oh, really? Are you hungry? I could buy us food if you’d like.”

Oh god. You were staring to fall for him, you could feel it. You looked down and fiddled with your thumbs nervously.

“Well… sure, if it isn’t too much of a hassle”

He smiles once more and looks at you.

“Hey, don’t sweat it, s’my treat.”

You started to scan around the street. Since it was getting late, some people were starting to close, the lights in bars shutting off. Though, some merchants remained.

You now scouted out one to buy, not just to observe like earlier. Reiner also looked around, trying to figure out what little treat to buy the both of you.

“Here.”

He says bluntly, almost sternly as he walks over to one of the stalls. Without an ounce of hesitation, you follow him.

The merchant before your eyes was selling freshly picked fruit. Your mouth watered just looking at it, craving the array of neat sweets right in front of you. The merchant spotted you; a middle aged man with a kind smile.

“Oh, what can I get this lovely couple?”

Your face immediately turned red; starting to realize that this really did look like you two were on a date. Your mind flashed images of Reiner, picturing him as you boyfriend.

You were brought back to reality when Reiner looked down at you with an open jaw, like he was unable to speak as well. You could actually see the blush on his face this time, just causing the butterflies in your own stomach to flutter even more.

You could hear Reiner say something, but it just came out as an incoherent murmur for you. You were overwhelmed at just the slightest of situations. It was more funny than anything, really. You had committed numerous crimes before, of course guilt followed, but you never actually felt like this.

This was a new feeling… not of embarrassment, but of ecstasy.

You looked back around and realized Reiner had already payed, and was handing you a ripe, red apple. You could already feel how it tasted on your tongue, grabbing it quickly as he leads you back away.

Even though the interaction was short, it was sweet; The slightest compliment from a stranger could change your perception. You eagerly took a bite of the apple, instantly tasting its sweet juice.

“Good?”

You looked back up at him, apple in hand. Reiner had already taken a bite, and was silently chewing his slice.

“Wow… Thank You, yes, it’s good-”

You were so preoccupied with feelings that the words just splurged out into a panicked drabble. Reiner found your nervousness cute, noticing the blush on your face.

“So, how far do you live from here, by the way? I don’t mind walking, really”

He said, again like such a gentleman; His mother must have raised him so well, you thought. You had also forgotten why you were with him in the first place, it was just an escort, really. You checked around your surroundings once more; the streets were beginning to empty out.

“Oh- It’s not too far from here, not at all. Just around that corner.”

You said with a hint of relief in your voice, pointing with your free hand to the direction you were indicating.

“Goch’a”

Reiner said with a sly smile. As you walked side by side once more, you couldn’t help but take a step back from everything.

What was this, really? Just a kind act, or blatent flirting? Either way… He was a scout. Even being friends with someone affiliated with the military could be risky for you. After all; Crime was the life you had to resort too.

A wave of sadness hit you, knowing this could never work out.

“I dont live too far from here, either. Surprised I haven’t seen you around.”

He hums, almost trying to be oblivious to this whole thing. You looked up at him, taking another bite of the apple.

“Well… I’m around.”

You smile; leaving a vague tone in your voice. Reiner smirked once more.

“Hey, you’re with the scouts, right?”

You ask innocently, feeling comfortable yet nervous. You hadn’t even thought it over, if saying that was a good idea. After all, you had no idea if Reiner had ever reported the incident to his superiors. You eyed the ground anxiously as you awaited his reply.

“You’ve got a keen eye, pretty”

Your cheeks flush up with a bit more red; He was definitely trying to start something with you. You averted your gaze back to him, noticing the definite non-threatening expression that his face conveyed.

“Well… I had just recognized your uniform”

Reiner observed you intently, remarking your flushed cheeks and red ears. Again, he knew what he was doing, and knew that it was working. Simple words and nicknames with sensual undertones clearly got you worked up in some way.

You eventually realized it was your stop. You gradually started to slow your walking pace, Reiner looking up to see where you lived. It was an old, battered apartment complex. He couldn’t help but feel a bit sad for you, starting to catch onto your situation.

“Thank you for the walk, Reiner”

He blushed a bit as you adresses him by his name. You begun to walk backwards, smiling at him still as you kept eye contact.

“No problem, Y/N. Have a good night, I’ll see you around.”

He jokes, referring to your past conversation. You let out a little chuckle before waving goodbye, opening the door.

He stared at your figure, admiring your expressions and bodily language. He truly hoped that you would be the one he could call his one day.

[plainemmanem]

feel like steve hates eye stuff. like he cant watch you put mascara on or put your contacts in because he's a giant sensitive baby like ew ew ew how can you do that?? you're literally touching your eyeball - im gonna be sick

BAHHA LOVE totally agree, but only when you’re the one doing it

in my mind he wears contacts as well bc he needs glasses because he’s just a touch near-sighted in his left eye, so he puts in contacts and everything. but when he sees you putting on mascara or putting your own contacts in he legit freaks out. he’s like “oh god, please be careful it looks like you’re gonna blind yourself…” and you’re like “steven you literally put in contacts every day. you know i’m not gonna blind myself.” and he’s like “yea- here lemme just do it, ok?” and he wants to try and put them in for you, holding your neck to keep you still and tilting your head back, but it goes so badly because you can’t relax enough with his fingers so close to your eye BAHAH he definitely watches over you when you do mascara and eyeliner too like, “how are you not poking yourself in the eye aren’t you scared” and one day you let him try bc you trust him not to hurt you, and he so so careful bc he’s so easily freaked out by eyes and eyeballs and hurting you, and he’s like “don’t move please, if you move i might freak out”

[craacked-splatters]

OKOKOK I JUST FINISHED DHMIS AND IM GOING INSANE HOLY SHIT

tumblr is the only place where my hyperfixations and ramblings won't make me seem like I've been trapped in a basement never seeing the light of day as I piece together a century long conspiracy. Apologies 4 the person I'm about 2 become . I'm gonna full theorist mode but I only have time to point out the puzzle pieces in d first ep for now cuz I got work in like 6 hrs :(( ill come bak n do rhe rest ltr feel free 2 add if u want

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Ok so i was rewatching the eps again on my phone & collecting screenshots for my conspiracy board when I found this symbol in the intro 2 d first ep

And I was like wait a min that kinda looks like d ones from the book so i went to see if was true and yep

I don't know if there's anymore symbols scattered around in the other eps or if it was just forshadowing either way its making my brain vibrate. Has anyone else noticed this before? It's so cool

The other things in d intro that seemed a bit weird 2 me was the pics n letters on the fridge, the fact that our 3 guys r coming out of a clock house, and fuking roy looking into d house thru a hole in the wall. The symbolism and metaphors r there guys. I know it but Im putting a pin on unraveling that for ltr cuz I don't have time rn :((

I kept my eyes peeled 4 anything else n then I saw the similarities between the breifcase n his older bro and yellowguy and his imaginary older bro

Both of them were like stuck in the shadow of their younger sibs u know kinda left behind, like the smol suitcase felt inferior n could only watch as his younger was running around being bigger n better, the yellows fake bro was always stuck in the background while yellow took the spotlight,

and they both like lost their shit and injured themselves. The suitcase bro punched a wall n the fake bro literally comitted suicide. Maybe I'm looking to much into this but that kinda intrigued me a bit. Again I'll dissect to that ltr cuz I don't have d time 😔

So the 1st EP was about work & jobs right?

Noticed how like each guy had the same positions in each job?

Duck: (The judge, cryptocurrency, General, astronaut)

At 1st duck's jobs are more centered on power,on bieng a higher authority figure, someone who is respected, admired and successful. He views himself above the rest, he said one needed aggression to get ahead in workplace, (u know w/ the attention freaks part lmao),he narssistic, hes selfish, and is always strivings for better positions, better everything (the vending machine, wanting a better job etc)

He doesn't like this job, he failed at his work tasks, and no one is taking him seriously.

When the screen lady starts singing about stress n shit I was like hold up

First we see, him on the beach with a crab offering him pills. Relaxation=drugs?? An escape from reality perhaps 🤨

Then him walking on a tightrope with a bunch of red things under him (portraying his struggles with his inner demons maybe?? Showing that he is or was barely keeping himself from falling to them??)

This whole thing. The line segments with the relaxing never being an easy straight line,(gotta go thru hell 1st b4 ur happy type of thinking??) And also the colors on the diagram. It's our 3 main guys. Red duck and yellow. (I'll dissect this ltr too no time rn😔)

And this. The coins, (cryptocurrency?? financial issues??) The screw(shitty work jobs maybe) the crab(drugs) the red snake(inner demons?) And the green thing...idk what that is it has scissors n looks like its shushing(untold secrets/issues?) Maybe ita part of himself he doesn't like or harms him

Duck is forced to like his job. He tries to go along with this whole bs, but he can't and snaps causing the hand accident. Is that what happened from before he was dead? Did he cause the death of someone? We know they all died at the same time different places.Then we see ltr that his jobs aren't as powerful as before, he is a mailman, hes a struggling artist, those jobs usually arent seen as impressive as say a CEO. Is this lore👀 could it be a bit of backstory for duck👀

Next we have Red: (Doctor, Barber, boss 2 whole company, horseshoe maker) His jobs are more concentrated on responsibility and expectations. A lot of ppl rely on doctors to help them out, a lot of pressure is laid on their shoulders especially with serious situations. With barbers you want them to give you exactly what u asked for, or at least something acceptable if u cant think of anything. Bosses are bosses. They're literally in charge of a shit ton of things. They keep everything running smoothly cuz 1 wrong move and everything starts going haywire. And horses need shoes to walk I guess

Notice how red is kinda... negligent? I wouldn't say lazy hes not. But remember how he would always want to do something else besides what they were doing? Or be anywhere else besides in the now? He didn't want to do anything at all in the 1st ep deciding to just chill. He didn't want to acknowledge yellows sadness in the Death EP, I guess he didn't want to deal with it? He wanted to meet a real fam, saying that the 3 of them weren't it. The whole road trip breakdown and "Im not going back to that house"?? Very interesting 👀

Yellow: (lumberjack, icecream man, fisherman, assembly worker, therapy patient??)

Yellows jobs r more centered on labor. They're average jobs regular ppl like u and me could get whenever. They usually don't ask for degrees or sumthn just experience perhaps. They might be easy, but there is a form of danger to them Lumberjack? You chop up wood dude, you could easily lose a limb or die. Ice cream man? Well you could always run over someone and uh, stranger danger? Fisherman? Fall out and drown or get lost at sea Assembly line worker? You saw what happened the same as the lumberjack (Trust me I work at a GE and ppl r always getting hurt)I got nothing 4 patient 😔

Besides the assembly one(I'm not counting it it was a lesson), the other jobs could be viewed as experiences.

Lumberjack- helping build the shack with his dad (Roy was there)

Icecream man- its icecream. lot of us go after that car. Especially children.

Fisherman- going fishing for fun, could be a bonding experience idk

Therapy patient- c'mon

There's a lot of shit I didn't cover but it's fine. Everything is so cool and fascinating I'm losing sleep to this whole thing. I'll talk more about it later I'm tired n it's 5am I've got 2 hrs to sleep.

Edit: yo I'm literally at work rn but I realized something. Yellows jobs are repetitive too. A cycle of things that are done a sort of loop. Lumber jacks, assembly line workers, etc etc usually focus on doing one task only, over and over whether it's screwing in bolts, chopping wood, serving food doesn't matter. It's repetitive, meaning you don't have to worry about changes bcuz there aren't supposed to be. You become accustomed to it, it's reliable.

This might've been a bit forshadowing about the way our 3 characters have to start the same routine in the same house again and again, a seemingly endless loop.

Did y'all notice how yellow was extremely against the road trip idea? And the death episode? He didn't want the routine to change. he didn't like it was confusing to him. And just when he's getting used to a change it all collapses on him. Man :(( this show is so cool fr I'll continue dissecting ltr gotta go now

[bonniebird]

Leah x Reader

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Leah had hurried back from the woods. Shifted and changed as she rushed toward Emily and Sam’s house. One of the others had seen you walking down towards the house. Through a flurry of thoughts and judgement, she’d made out the image of you. 

You’d looked determined in the glimpse that she’d seen. Raincoat on, hiking boots laced up and a stern look on your face as you made your way down the path. Leah had managed to arrive before you did. She could hear you a long way up the road still making your way towards the house.

“What do you think they’re going to say?” Emily asked Leah who shrugged.

“How should I know? (Y/N) saw me explode into a giant wolf and then ran away. It’s been a month.” Leah snapped out as an answer. Emily didn’t say anything else as she went into the kitchen and started pottering around. 

Leah stepped out into the light rain as you got closer and hesitated on the porch. You hadn’t seen her since you’d watched her and Paul argue. She hadn’t heard you coming up the road and Paul had pushed her too far. She’d tried to approach you, to comfort you. But in her wolf form, she was larger than you could have ever imagined something being. Leah had watched you turn and run. 

Leah wasn’t sure what had been worse. Paul’s mind showed her his perspective or the other wolves echoing back every time they looked at her. There had been a panic for a while as the pack remained in fear that you would expose them. But a month had passed and they hadn’t heard from you. Apart from Embry who had bumped into you at a store in La Push with a friend of yours. You had hurried off before he could say hello.

“Leah?” You said as you approached the house. She was still frozen on the porch steps. Slowly, she managed to find her courage and stepped down towards you.

“I didn’t think I’d see you any time soon.” She said. Internally she cringed. Her tone was harsher than she had meant it to be and you started to look nervous. “I thought you’d choose to turn me in… to someone.” 

“I’d always choose you.” You said quietly.

“You would?” She said quietly and smiled.

“Of course. I’ve just been struggling to deal with the idea that you’re a giant…” You muttered and trailed off.

“Wolf?” She offered. You nodded and stepped closer.

“I. I’m still a little freaked out. But I wanted to come by and tell you I think things are still ok?” You said as if you weren’t sure.

“Ok?” Leah said in the same tone.

“Yes. I just. Need some time too. Think. But maybe we could have lunch on Saturday? If that’s ok.” You smiled as you spoke, almost shy.

“I’d like that.” She said softly and you both seemed to relax. There was an awkward silence before you nodded, satisfied and hurried away, glancing back to give her a little wave.

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[hurrakka]

Hey its me again (how are ya in this lovely friday hehehe) I had an little scene in my head and I wanted to share it, if its ok?

Leon mutated, he is lost and the damn tears ("pain from the mutation, side effect or because of this whole situation?") don't stop since he encountered other humans and slaughtered them without a reason. He dosen't want to be seen, just want to disapear and maybe this f@#king nightmare is over. After hours and heavy raining, he finds an abandoned building and decides to take refusee in there.

The agent is in the cournor, and after hours, he started to relax enough to get some rest ("does monsters need rest?" he thought bitterly), however he hear someone - or something - approching by the door, making three distincts silhoutes (only one appears more "humanoid" amd the other two has more hunched pose). He feels something is not right, he isn't crying so it could means that its another B.O.W.

By reflexs, he tries to get the gun out but his new "fingers" makes tears in his clothes, and he feels the concrete walls hitting his back when an "rope" ("wait is that… a freaking tounge?") restrains him, leaving an open wound in his head. Two of this sillhouttes appears snarling, and it didn't take an second to recognize as Lickers. But the third one, the humanoid one with that is holding in the floor with the tounge, is the one that makes Leon get more paler because HE RECOGNIZE IT. The "stranger"approches, looks at the mutated agent and says with venom and slavic accent in the voice:

"Looks like we are now the same, american soldier…"

(Sorry for any mistakes, english isn't my first language but I wanted to share this little drabble that was hunting my brain ^^;)

HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT YOU ARE COOKING THIS IS A FINE COOKED MEAL I AM SCREAMING I AM POGGING OUT OF MY MIND Y E S YESSS I APPROVE 1000%

Your brain huge I wanna kiss u on the forehead but I cant bc Im sick Im clutching my chest rn like Sasha's down w the plagas

[menalez]

You don't have to answer this obviously, its embarrassing but I feel like I don't know where else to ask - NSFW

I've always found penetration difficult. I feel like I'm broken as a woman because it feels like everyone around me is able to do it and enjoys it and I don't. I don't want to be graphic but I don't know what to do. I'm scared to go to a doctor in case they diagnose me with vaginismus. I don't know if I should even try to make it better or just leave it. I feel like I can't experience my body fully because I cant do this one thing. I know thats stupid but its what I think in my head. I can't use tampons, and sexual penetration is terrible. I can use my hand, but I can't feel anything. It just doesn't feel pleasurable and I can't go in very far. If I use a dildo, it hurts. Not every second, I go slow etc but I can't get much in. It feels painful at the side of my labia. No matter what direction or position it just hurts. I can almost feel a bone blocking it or something. I feel like I'm broken and a freak and I don't know what to do. I cant talk to my friends because they all talk about how they love penetration and I feel too ashamed of my situation. I'm scared I'll never be able to satisfy a partner even though I'm a lesbian because I see women on here and tiktok talking about strapons etc and I know it would hurt and be impossible to have sex like that. Even when I relax and am definitely ready to try penetration, it doesn't work. No matter what I do it always feels uncomfortable in some way. If it doesn't hurt, it feels like nothing. I'm afraid I do have vaginismus or something is really wrong with me. I've never allowed a partner to try. I've not had a long term relationship and I worry women will be really put off if penetration is something I can't partake in. Ive not had loads of dating experience so idk if this is even a reasonable worry to have. im so sorry this is all over the place. I totally understand if you cant answer. Ive tried googling stuff but i cant really find much.

sorry for taking a while to respond. first of all i dont see whats embarrassing about this?! you have not said anything here that i think is embarrassing.

i don't particularly enjoy penetration and ive come across MANYYYYY women who don't. particularly many lesbians. its ok if you don't enjoy penetration. it doesn't have to mean you have vaginismus either, although what you described might be that (potentially on top of you already naturally not being keen on penetration). that said, there is no shame in being diagnosed with vaginismus either. receiving such a diagnosis can help you understand your body better and if you do think you could potentially enjoy penetration then maybe a diagnosis would help open that door for you somehow. it might also end up that you don't have vaginismus. either way, there is no must or need in enjoying penetration. there's probably even straight women who don't like it! just because there's many women who do, does not mean there's something wrong with you for not enjoying it.

i don't use tampons either! im 26 and first time i tried to, i was 24 and ever since then ive used it maybe a grand total of 2-3 times? it feels uncomfortable and painful for me too. its ok, many women do not use tampons so you're really not missing out there. it isn't a requirement in female adulthood.

also penetration alone does not feel pleasureable to an even larger group of women! so once again, there is nothing abnormal about not feeling much when trying it on yourself and its not abnormal to not find it pleasurable. and i don't know how experienced you are sexually, but the other stuff you mentioned could also be because you're dealing with shame & fear & aren't aroused enough while trying penetration on yourself. and if your friends were to judge you for not enjoying penetration, then frankly they're the ones that are weird, not you!

and from my experience at least, women have not been put off by me saying i don't like certain things (like penetration) and prefer other acts. if you're not sexually compatible with a woman then that is fine, but no one can expect you to enjoy a particular sex act and then judge you when you don't.

i think before worrying yourself this much, you should first find a woman you are comfortable with and attracted to. you could tell her about your fears & insecurities before having sex-- it can help if you're going to engage with her sexually bc it takes off anxiety from you while also making her aware of how she should be mindful & gentle! if you end up trying things with penetration with her and it becomes clear to you that you simply do not like it or like it with certain limits & restrictions or love it or whatever else-- all of that is normal. but don't worry yourself this much over something so small & a normal preference like not liking penetration, its really not abnormal to not enjoy it. if you're sexually inexperienced and have barely even dated then i get why you're worrying yourself so much but i promise when you're sexually active then normal people do not care about that the way you might think they do. penetration isnt for everyone, it doesn't have to be something you want or enjoy either

[sharksa-shivers]

Sharksty progression/Eras ig, idk how else to title lol

Here's a couple things with Kristy and Sharky that shows kind of how they slowly develop relationship wise over time (Cuz i wanna lol) ------------------ Beginning era; Kristy is terrified and untrustworthy of Sharky and Sharky's running out of patience at this point... (They both are lost in a wooded area so yeahhhhhh...) Kristy:(staring sus)…..Yeah, i dunno if i trust you with that…

Sharky:(tiredly staring, bored, blinks slowly, his face just reading he's insanely over everything)………Yknow what? Ok, fine, not my problem then. I'm adapted to survive in the wild, i know a good amount of shit. But if you wanna be an ass and keep treating me like dirt, then fine. See how well you can do on your own…(walking away)

(Kristy stands a moment as Sharky leaves her eyesight, Kristy just thinking as she sits there…And she slowly begins to freak out a bit as she's alone by herself in the wilderness, we see her start to get scared…)

Kristy:(getting scared, looking around, calling out to Sharky)…..Ok ok, i…Im really sorry, please don't leave me alone out here!!! Im gonna die on my own, i don't know shit!!!!

(She suddenly hears movement behind her as Sharky annoyedly moves out from behind a tree.)

Sharky:(moving over, towering over her, annoyed, muttering under his breath)……Ughhh, you're lucky I'm way too nice to actually ditch you… --------------------- Friendship era; They both warming up to each other lol (This one is probably earlier friendship honestly with how Sharky's being lol) (We see Sharky and Kristy waiting on Max while waiting on a bench in a train station of sorts. We see Kristy has a few little snack cakes she's bought and is casually eating while Sharky's just chilling and minding his own business. We see them both just chilling whenever…-)

Sharky:(completely in his own world, he's ripped out of it whenever his stomach gurgles loudly, getting Kristy's attention as well. He looks over and Kristy looks at him, Sharky getting a bit anxious)

Kristy:(a bit stunned by how loud that was)…Was that your stomach?

Sharky:(sighs, leaning back and pressing a hand to his lower body)Yeah, sorry…Guess i'm kinda hungry heh…Haven't had breakfast and haven't had lunch so…

Kristy:(she looks down at the few snack cakes she has…And decides to be generous, picking one up and handing it to him)Do you…Maybe want this?

Sharky:(looks over at the small snack cake Kristy's shoving at him)…Maybe but…I don't really wanna take your stuff yknow, i-

Kristy:(snickers a bit, smiles)Dude, it's fine…I don't want you being hungry and miserable. I'd rather ya eat a little something, take care of yourself. I know these aren't alot but…Hey, better then nothing right?

Sharky:(Smiles lightly back and decides to take the snack cake)Thanks, i appreciate it. (We see Sharky unwrap a bit of the snack cake and then proceed to take a bite out of it, him smiling a bit while eating)Yeah, this helps a bit…

Kristy:(still munching on her own, smiling)No problem, that's what friendos are for right? ------------ Romance era; Yeppppppp...Started from the bottom now we here lol...Some Sharksty comfort stuff but it's Kristy being comforted... (Basic context you need is that Kristy's had an absolutely hard and anxietyfilled, garbage bad day, like that's it. Kristy is outside on the main cabin steps, just trying to relax a bit whenever Sharky comes out, trying to make her feel a bit better…)

Sharky:(moving over quitely to not really disturb her, he moves over with a orange smoothie in hand, sitting down next to her to be eye level, gentle as he speaks, trying to be considerate with Kristy's space)Hey i…I know you're still wiped out from all the magic stuff earlier and i know it's not alot but…I made you a smoothie…Just…Like a little something for right now…

Kristy:(she looks over as Sharky talks and she looks over at the smoothie, grabbing it gently…We see Kristy hold it for a moment, just staring at it before we see her hands clench tightly around the drink and her face scrunch up some, tears starting to run down her face, quitely)…….Thank you…

Sharky:(noticing the tears, worried, gently holds her head in his hand)Whoa, you okay?

Kristy:(her expression shifts a bit to a more happy-ish sad, wiping her eyes with her sleeve, still clutching the drink, moves Sharky's hand and leans against him, tiredly but a sense of comfort being gained from the gesture, trying to word her emotions)I just……..I'm so damn lucky to have you in my life…

Sharky:(he wasn't really expecting that, moreso expecting Kristy to be upset, he blushes a bit before shaking it off and wrapping an arm around Kristy, caring and loving)Same heh…I'm glad i could help some…Even if it's not alot…

Kristy:(tiredly, still clutching the drink, happier but still drained)It's everything to me… -------------------------- Progress!!! It is good lol, character developments and whatnot. It's fun having arcs with characters because then you get like...more sides of them to mess with and whatnot yknow? These 2 mean so much to me, omfg... ;~;

[heartsforsalem]

knktober day four

I rushed off the bus running to my apartment it was dark and late at night and I had a bad feeling as soon as I stepped off the bus. And I was correct as a slightly taller man walks up to me 

“Where are you going at this time of night beautiful” he cooed grabbing me by my shoulders. I tensed up “I’m just going home” I mumbled if it was anyone else I’d probably be snappier but this man was bigger than me and stronger than me who knows what could happen. 

“Why don’t you come with me” he offers I shake my head “no sir I’m ok” the man doesn’t seem drunk or on any type of drugs. Suddenly the man stepped back he looked like he had seen a ghost. I felt a hand on my side pulling me closer to a body “I don’t think she’ll be going anywhere with you” a familiar voice states behind me.

I relaxed hearing Cheryl’s voice. The man ran off screaming I just turned around and hugged Cheryl “thank you oh my god” I say feeling her wrap her arms around me 

Cheryl has been my roommate for almost a year now. I like living with her she’s tidy and clean she just has some strange quirks like she spends most of her days sleeping. Cheryl’s a lot more well of than I am so she doesn’t need to work as much as I do, she works I just don’t know what she does 

And then she stays up till the ungodly hours of the night doing god knows what in that basement we have she hardly eats and it freaks me out. Other than that she’s ok she’s kind to me and I never have any problems with her 

Me and Cheryl go back into the apartment “you were out there without a jacket poor thing you must be cold, I’ll make you some tea” Cheryl said hurrying over to the tea kettle “no I’m ok you don’t have to” I replied “nonsense just relax” that’s something else I like about Cheryl she takes care of me she looks out for me 

I sank into the couch letting a sigh of relief out and after a while Cheryl brought the tea to me. We sat on the couch and talked for a while we talked about our day what we did how it was she played with my hair the whole time I always liked when she did that.

I felt myself start to doze off I’m tired anyway I should probably head to bed “Cheryl I’m about to go and sleep” I say immediately yawning after “ok sleep well T” she seemed unusually exited tonight maybe she was just happy.

I stood up from the couch slowly and dropped down almost instantaneously. 

I woke up my brain felt hazy and even though I opened my eyes it was still pitch black. I could feel I was dangling. My arms were above my head and my feet didn’t touch the ground 

My body hurt a lot more than it should. I pulled against my constraints and jumped when I felt a had on my waist gently holding me still “shhhh relax” the voice said. I immediately recognized the voice as Cheryl’s. She runs her hands over my figure before stopping at my hips and gently giving them a squeeze 

“Cheryl what the fuck is-“ “you don’t know how long I’ve waited to sink my teeth into you” she hissed cutting me off “what?” I said confused

I felt hot breath near my neck making me flinch  . She kissed my neck tenderly making me squirm “Cheryl what are you doing” I asked again fear growing.

She took the blindfold off. Cheryl looked sickly her skin was paler than it usually was and she was shaking she had this look in her eye a look of desperation “im sorry I just can’t do it” she whined 

“Do what?” She showed a toothy grin revealing her fangs. She dragged her tongue against her sharp white blades looking at me hungrily “suck you dry” she said her words came out slowly and precisely she hit every word with precision.

She meant it. I stared down at her surprised but then it clicked she was so odd it made much more sense “your, your going to kill me” I whined struggling more and more feeling my constraints start to slip. She didn’t tie them correctly 

She held me still again “oh baby I won’t kill you I’d never kill you” she said biting her lips “I tried to hold myself back I really tried baby” she said getting a bit whiney “it’s just, you look so good and I bet you taste even better” she said letting out a sigh reminiscent of a moan. It shocked me still 

“Please Toni baby just give me a taste I’ll leave you alone I’ll even move out but I need it just a taste” her grip on me had tightened so hard her knuckles were white and the look in her eyes was nothing short of desperate. I couldn’t answer her “won’t that like turn me into a vampire too” i replied 

“This is real life it doesn’t work like that. I swear I’ll patch you back up I’ll only take a little just please I need it” she said. “Real life” i scoffed under my breath. If  I didn’t say yes it feels like she’d bite me anyway she was basically squirming holding on to me and the table right next to me physically restraining herself from jumping at me

“I’ll even make it fun for you” she pleaded “fun for me?” I replied “I’ll touch you I’ll do anything you ask me too I’ll do anything for it” her words had me dizzy I could feel my arms getting tired and my core heating up

Seeing her all desperate like this. She’ll do anything for it “anything?” “Anything” I tried my best to hide my smirk “what makes me so desirable hm?” I coo “everything the way you walk the way your body moves everything even  the way you say your words god the things I’d do to you I  don’t just want to bite you I want to devour you I want to make you all mines and I don’t think I can take it anymore” she said she was falling over her words and now digging her nails into the table 

“Let me down” I say. She looks at me hesitantly but agrees letting me down slowly and untying me she kept her hands around my wrists though her eyes where obsessively going over my whole body “you can have me, if you promise you’ll stop following me” she looked flabbergasted “you knew!?” 

I giggled “your not sneaky blossom, now do you promise” she looks away embarrassed “it’s to make sure you’re safe” she said defensively “it’s creepy” I responded. She huffed “fine can I-“ “ yes you can”

In an instant she had me pinned to the wall her hand still on my hip. I felt her sharp fangs dig deep into my skin making me wail “I like seeing you in pain” she rasped straight into my ear sending shivers down my spine. I felt as the blood left my body. Cheryl’s moans and my whimpers  filled the room. The sensation ran through my body. Finally she pulled back my dark red blood dripping down from her mouth 

She scooped it up licking every inch of it off “you taste even better than I expected” she said half moaning I stood up trying to catch my breath “fuck you said you’d make that fun for me” her face reddens “sorry I got carried away” 

She covered my bleeding neck and then took her hand off. The wound was clean and healed the only thing that remained were extremely obvious bite marks. “Unbutton your pants for me” I looked at her shocked. I suppose that’s not what I particularly had in mind but I really wasn’t opposed to the idea.

I obliged. “Sit on the table” I scoffed “why can’t you just do it standing up” she just chuckled “fine stay up” she walked over to me attaching her lips to my neck leaving various hickeys in various spots on my neck on my collarbone, near my jawline her hands playing with the hem of my panties.

She removed her hands from below unbuttoning my shirt and unclipping my bra and starting to play with my chest. “God you don’t know how long I’ve waited to see you like this” she cooed 

I looked up at her I couldn’t take my eyes from hers her beautiful brown eyes scanning every part of my body going limb to limb muscle to muscle. It took my breath away. And in the soft lighting of this basement for once she didn’t look threatening she looked magnificent 

Like a queen like a goddess blessed by the beauty of heaven. I pulled her head towards mine and kissed her feeling her fangs brush up against my lips as I pulled her in the kisses got hungrier and she slipped her hands into my pants sticking her fingers into my throbbing heat 

I let out an exhale as I slowly started to grind on her fingers. She curled her finger a little hitting my spot just right causing me to let out a small whimper 

She kept going painfully slow and keeping her lips inches away from mine. Suddenly I guess she changed her mind. She started to kiss down my neck taking off my shirt and bra she pushed me into the wall going all the way to her knees as she was now face to face with my pelvis.

“Open your legs for me” and I did. She let her fangs gently brush  me as she started to eat me out I moaned as her tongue brushed against my clit. She kept this up for a while getting more aggressive as I got closer I held onto the table next to us for stability “fuck Cheryl make me cum” I begged slurring my words 

“keep going my god baby I’m so close” I whined  she started to speed up naturally knowing just where to lick to drive me absolutely crazy. I dug my hands in her hair making her groan.

Suddenly I felt my orgasm coming as I got louder “fuck I’m cumming” I whined feeling my legs start to shake. At this point even if we were in the basement the neighbors probably heard us. She kept going not slowing down or stopping.

I felt my legs becoming weaker by the second as she was working me up to a second orgasm  if The people walking past didn’t know who lived in this house they did now. As I can too my fourth orgasm I collapsed falling into Cheryl’s grasp. “Fuck” I sighed relaxing into her hands “I told you sit down” she teased.