#im just bitchin fr

[motherfricker]

i am possibly just a hater

[touyaspeach]

Well it's finally happened, and I've been turned over to collections for being unable to pay the sum of my emergency visit. The American Healthcare system is horrid and I do not know how I'm going to pay this 2k charge when I don't even have 200 in my account.

I have one more commission to take care of, and then I'm taking a few days off, then I'll see about opening more, I guess.

Best part about the whole thing, they didn't even fix the issue. I still have pain almost daily from the large cyst on my ovary and I owe 2k for them to tell me. "Yes that's a cyst on your ovary. It's about the size of an orange. Here's some Hydros, Merry Christmas."

Fucks sake I feel so dejected haha

[that-bitch-kat3]

kats initial ttpd thoughts

fortnight:

stand out lines: i took the miracle move on drug, the effects were temporary

i like this one. i don’t think it’s my favorite (or i hope it won’t be) but i think the production does do it for me. i was honestly hoping that “i love you it’s ruining my life” would have been in a… better (?) song. this will undoubtedly grow on me but not a great start.

ttpd:

standout lyric: “i’ve seen this episode and still loved the show”

okay “who uses typewriters anyways” is objectively a really funny line. “i’ve seen this episode and still loved the show” im screaming crying and throwing up how dare you put that lyric in a song i have to listen to.

on a different note who tf are dylan thomas and patti smith? am i meant to know these people?

oh my god. the way charlie puth is about to have his career explode. this poor man. i hope he was warned.

CYCLONE!! CONEY ISLAND!!!

oh i like this bridge. also lucy as in lucy dacus?

i’m trying not to be a hater but taylor “now you hang from my lips like the gardens of babylon” couldn’t have come up with a more poetic way to say you put my ring on the finger where people put wedding rings? fr? is this about marty healy? i hope to god it’s not.

mbobhft:

stand out lyrics: “once i fix me he’s gonna miss me” and “there was forever in the heat of my touch, he say forever so he smashed it up”

i was ready to not like this one but im kinda into it. the line “i’ll tell you that he runs because he loves me” is… not something i am ready to unpack. this is a really good song and i will probs have it on repeat for a while but i stg if i don’t hear a song about joe soon im gonna be pissed

down bad:

standout lyric: jury’s still out

this song was not written by a 33 year old. jesus christ. taylor please. STAND UP. THIS IS BAD FOR THE BRAND!! however as a 19 year old: real af.

you loved his indecent exposures? interesting.

this is once again giving situationship. which is insane because JOE WAS HERE FOR 6 YEARS?!? WE DONT GET TO HEAR ABOUT THAT?!? i mean like she is entitled to her privacy but never in my life did i want to hear this much about marty healy

so long london:

stand out lyric: “i didn’t opt in to be your odd man out. i founded the club she’s heard great things about” “you sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days”

not the production i was expecting from a track 5 but ill keep and open mind.

fairy lights mentioned!! ttpd bingo moment

i like this bridge tbh. it kinda fucks. “you swore that you loved me but where were the clues” taylor wtf?

two graves one gun?!? oh wow! very melodramatic and i love it

this song is good. very sad so great job! killed it! i’m not crying yet tho

but daddy i love him:

stand out lyrics: Growing up precocious sometimes means not growing up at all

HEYY RELIGOUS TRAUMA VIBES?!? FUCK YEAH!! FINALLY SOME GOOD RELATEBLE CONTENT!!

this is so champagne problems vibes

“im having his baby! no im not but you should see your face” BAHHAHA taylor wtf

i was hoping for more religious trauma energy than what i got. i had high hopes with that first verse

OMG WHAT?!? MAAM?!? “ID RATHER BURN MY WHOLE LIFE DOWN THAN LISTEN TO ONE MORE SECOND OF ALL THIS BITCHIN AND MOANIN” GIRLY YOUR “BABY” IS ANTISEMEIC?

okay this song is now just funny to me. deeply i would’ve kept this one in the vault but it’ll grow on me

fresh out the slammer:

stand out lyric: n/a

we are starting with the lowest of standards for the record. i do not have a good vibe from this song

its fine. liek it’s not revolutionary to me. like its okay but… why does this beat change like that and did the long prison metaphor help? i think not.

however yeah bring up that he didn’t propose again. love that for you

florida!!!

stand out lyric: well me and my ghost we had a hell of a time

!! what!! “they said i was a cheat so i guess i must be” ARENT YOU THE ONE WHO WRITE IVY AND HIGH INFEDELITY?!? WHAT?!? i am giggling so hard. taylor what are you saying?!?

this song reminded how much i love florence! i mean that woman can really sing

nbnc reference! that was not on my bingo card!

texas mentioned!! slay!!

i love this song. like i fr really like this one. the drums are a bit much but i love how their voices work together! delicious

guilty as sin?

standout lyric: “there no such thing as bad thoughts. only your actions talk” “i keep recalling things we never did”

i like how this one sounds

this song is really good! and bestie i get it! yikes!

this song is really for the girlies who make up fake scenarios to hurt their own feelings and i feel seen

false god references(?)

well terrible job everyone that was a bit too relatable! thanks! i’m going to throw up! or scream! or cry!

who’s afraid of little old me?

standout lyric: “you don’t get to tell me about sad” “is it a wonder i broke let’s hear one more joke” “you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me”

yay!! she’s doing witchcraft again!! thank god!! levitate queen!!

you should be afraid of little old me was not what i was expecting from this song! but i like it! also i am enjoying this production

“so tell me everything isnt about me but what if it is?” HAHAHH TAYLOR WHAT IS THIS?!?

no taylro they say that you’ll sue them they prublish public information about your plane! so close tho!

jokes aside i like this! this one’s gonna be in my tops i think! it reminds me of tlgad which is one love

i can fix him (no really i can)

standout lyric: “he had a halo of the highest grade, he just hasn’t met me yet”

texas mentioned again!! a win is a win

another song about matty healy?!? must we?!? are we sure? this is proof that any relationship pain is overshadowed by a 3 month situationship

loml: “better safe than starry eyed”

mmm im liking this one!

damn marriage is brought up a lot in the album for someone who wrote lavendar haze

i like that there is the love of my life to loss of my life switch! i was worried she abrievated that for no reason

still alive, killing time at the cemetery is a great line!!

!!! oh!! i wish i could unrecall how we almost had it all! i didn’t think i would like that lyric!! i in fact do.

icdiwabh:

standout lyric: “babe you gotta fake it till you make it and you did”

THIS SONG IS SO GOOD!! OH SHIT

okay now this is my shit. i like how she’s taking about her success and shit

i cry a lot but i am so productive it’s an art is so real

“try and come for my job” yikes.

the smallest man who every lived

standout lyric: “i would’ve died for your sins but i died inside”

this one isn’t doing it for me so far. i’m sure it’ll grow on me but idk it’s not killing it for me.

DID SHE JUST CALL HIS DICK SMALL?!? HELLO?!? good lord i hope that’s what that meant

“you kicked out the stage lights but your still preforming?!?” GOOD LORD TAYLOR! it’s so jover

The alchemy:

standout lyric: “he jokes that it’s heroin but this time with an E”

i had to listen to this song twice cause i could just not lay attention

AYO ITS TRAVIS!! god the next album is gonna have so many football metaphors that i will not understand

this is really cute! i’m on team trayvis

clara bow:

standout lyric: promise to be dazzling

cool! now i’m sad!

as a girl who tries to be something exciting but feels like she never gets there this is very yikes! greta job gang

DID SHE JUST SAY HER OWN NAME?!? SHE NEVER DONE THAT

OH MY GOD

YOUVE GOT EDGE SHE NEVER DID

WHAT

WHAT

WHAT

the black dog:

standout lyric:

i am scared!

oh shit! who cheated on taylor?!?

oh wait. maybe that’s not true

i love old habits die screaming! tahts a funky line. i know we already had it but im a fan

!! hoax reference!!

!!daylight reference!!

oh joe. that poor man. they’re gonna kill him.

this is putting a sad spin on some of my fav songs so that’s cool

imgonnagetyouback:

standout lyric: “pick your poison babe, i’m poison either way”

did we need to do this in one word

OH MY GOD

SHE MAKING THE SAME THING AS GET HIM BACK BY OLIVIA RODRGIO

now i personally would’ve rewritten this one or picked a different song but this is a choice

this is a worse versions of get him back! imo

eras fading to gray is a crazy line!

the albatross:

standout lyric: “the devil you know now looks more like and angel”

this is kinda giving cowboy like me vibes but with more unnecessary vocal effects but that does in fact mean that i like it

peace reference?!

idk im into this one i think

chloe or sam or sophia or marcus:

standout lyric: all of them <3

my god this is a long title

oh my god. did she just out joe alywn? what? that can’t be what just happened

“you needed me but you needed drugs more” IM THROWING UP HOW DARE YOU

nobody touch me

“if you want to break my cold cold heart, just say i loved you. the way that you were” okay so now i am crying! hey! tahts cool! in other news put me on watch

this is one of my tops

you can tell cause i’m depressed now

maroon reference!!

okay so i will never recover congrats everyone!

how did it end?

standout lyric: “we learned the right steps to different dances”

i feel invasive listening to this. i didn’t want to hear about matty anymore but this is a lot.

this song is good but sweet lord. this is really sad. which i should’ve guessed but this is not what i was expecting

“D-Y-I-N-G” that was not how i thought that line was gonna end

so high school:

standout lyric: idk man they’re all cute

is this another one about travis?!? yay!!

awww she want to marry him! that’s so exciting!! and also maybe kill him but we do what we can

this is really cute

i’m glad she got this back! cause this is giving very fearless vibes which is perfect! i love that! i love that she’s having the sweet love again! and i’m so glad im not listening about matty! cause that man if the gift that won’t stop giving. no matter what i do. he just won’t.

i hate it here:

standout lyric: “No mid-sized city hopes and small-town fears” “when they found a better planet only the gentle survive”

second time bringing up being a precocious child! not something i thought we would get twice!

this song feels like it’s right off folklore

GIRL WHAT!?! “I'd say the 1830s but without all the racists and getting married off for the highest bid” this is why no one wanted to play with you as a little kid

oh yikes now i’m relating

“i get lost on purpose. this place made me feel worthless” crying in the club once again

she really had to fight not to call him a finance bro

thank you aimee

stand out lyric: “Everyone knows that my mother is a saintly woman but she used to say she wished that you were dead”

go to jail just for the capitalization

i feel like im missing something

is amiee real? is she a metaphor? is it someone from the rep era? i’m lost

if this is 15 year old beef that is amazing.

“there wouldn’t be this if there hadn’t been you” oh lol that’s so funny.

thank god taylor changed the name! cause otherwise they would kill her!

“and one day your kid comes home singing a song that only us two is gonna know so about you” oh that’s so good. you see i like taylor better when she’s being petty over decade old shit. it makes her more relatable

i look in peoples windows

stand out lyric: “i’m afflicted by the not knowing” “im addicted to the if only”

i love this.

is this the new shortest song in her discography? it’s gotta be. it’s like 2 minutes long

anyways. relatable. killin it

the prophecy:

stand out lyric: “Don't want money just someone who wants my company”

finally a song i can relate to! you know cause im psychic?

“I guess a lesser woman would've lost hope a greater woman wouldn't beg” yikes

oh no. i’m gonna cry. you see now im reminded of why i feel like im never enough. so cool 🤙

witchcraft again!! yay!!

what is gray-ge? gray/beige? was that already a word?

cassandra:

standout lyric: “what does kill you makes you aware. what happens if it becomes who you are”

bffr taylor does not patch cracks in her house

sorry i know tahts a metaphor, allow me to start by being less of a hater

oh i love a call back to the 2016 era. yikes

“BLOODS THICK BUT NOTHING LIKE A PAYROLL” HOLY FUCK WHAT?!?

“when its burn the bitch they’re shrieking, when the truth comes out they’re quiet” lol relatable

peter:

standout lyric: “we both did the best we could do underneath the name moon in different galaxies”

who is peter? very excting!

oh it’s peter pan! that’s cute!

is this about joe? i’m confused? i have no idea who this is about

i liek the piano! i like this more stripped back version

great bridge!

“cause love's never lost when perspective is earned” HEY BRO WHAT

the bolter: “she was leaving it felt like breathing”

standout lyric:

omg hey she wrote a song about me! jk it just started idk what this is

oh no

i cant do this right now

okay so no comment but yeah very relatable! cool! (except i’m not really a bolter now that i think about it. i just think i am. i’m actually not a quitter. im a stick with it person even when maybe i should bolt.)

robin:

stand out lyric: “you have no room in your head for regrets”

i like these a lot better than the first part of this album. i actually can’t tell if it’s a double release or not but i just like these more emotional songs more.

is she singing to her child self?!? is that what happening?!?

crying again.

the manuscript:

stand out lyric: looking backward might be the only way to move forward

my god this is a lot of songs! not complaining but i’m tired

okay i like the piano

“He said that if the sex was half as good as the conversation was soon they’d be pushing strollers” FUCKING HELLo?!? well now i’m in pain slay

this was not what i was expecting at all but let it be known i am crying and im not okay

this song really fucked me up guys

[faeflowerz]

So idk if im just biased bc I played the bad fairy in my hs play of sleeping beauty (my peak tbh) but Mal's OB is up there with Vil. Which is poetic since EQ and Malle are probably rivals in the disney IP.

Anyways heres my ranking (worst to best)

7. Idia. And its a little disappointing since his mask is pretty bitchin. I think the armor is where im not feeling it. Its cool and sleek but idk, the ortho's blot monster is kinda the cooler design (not by much).

6. Riddle. All his other fits slap. And Chap 1 is my top 3 favorite chapters. But his OB is kind of not as personal as I want. Like, the detailing in the fit that reflects who Riddle is. The bodice is pretty bitchin but it just becomes roses n cards. Which, i guess is all that the QOH is known for since the source is simplistic. Idk there's some parts I think could have been changed with the lower half.

5. Jamil. The shoes, really. Idk what happened there. But its still kind of unique so it beat out Riddle by a smidgen. Im not sure about the mermaid cut dress tho. The off the shoulder bit is nice and the snakes are cute. I like that.

4. Azul. There's not much u can do with a mermaid but I think he is lacking something that would put him in the top 3. Maybe some more decorations like a shawl or torn seaweed? Hm. He looks sick by way of being in his rare mer form but it also leaves little to imagine his regular mer form, ykno? A simple sprite edit and u got his regular body.

3. Leona. As much as I shit on him, i like his fit. The fabric choice is interesting, especially the larger tattered piece which im wondering if its animal skin?! 😱 His face and hair are also well done and he looks kinda emo? Lol also the fur piece pulls it together along with the jewelry.

2. Malleus. Hear me out. It needs more green. We've been associating Dia with green (cause of the dorm and fire) but its mostly black and purple, which I think does it a bit of a disservice. Now, if he inexplicably gets a second OB form (bc hes the final boss), i will change the judgment. For now, he's second but not without his props for showing his forehead. His horns are fuckin wicked. And his faceup is very pretty/scary.

1. Vil. Idk if its bc i get virgin mary vibes from his fit or what but everything about it fits with one another. I know cohesion isnt really necessary for an OB outfit but its got that grandiose opulence that I feel should be included. This is like a villain song for these characters, the moment when they are merciless and over powered. You should be able to look at them and go "Shit. Am I gonna die???" Come lay your sins to rest my child and catch this mother fucking fade. Also his skirt is the coolest with the ripped pages. Fuck off, thats cool. Uhh. Yeah no complaints here.

Now keep in mind this is just my thots n prayers. If you think the order isn't right, then you're wrong and need to look closer at the OBs. 😌

Fr tho im excited to see what chap 7 brings, especially since it may be a long one like chap 6.

[scrollypoly]

tysm for answering my ask about BEN!! Honestly it feels so good to talk to people who actually know their shit and read the ARG and don’t just believe stuff from random sources!! And ur so right I want more Rosa omg :( I rlly want people to talk about Sarah more too!! I’m also so sorry you’ve been called stuff like just for?? Following canon?? Like calling someone a pedo is such a huge insult and people use it left and right just because they’re misinformed and it rubs me the wrong way fr :/ AND U PARTICIPATED IN THE THIRD ACT?? THAT IS SO COOL HELLO???

Lol yeah hi! :D Awakening was crazy!! Im still in the WH server that opened up after it ended, i mostly just lurk :3

But yeah i totally get it, i love filling people in on the arg cuz its sooo good and so painfully underrated and under used. Though i do also like that crp as a fandom has kind of become this messy mish-mash of headcanons and stories and ideas and everyone has their own thing. I think it would just generally be a lot better if people accepted that the canon for a lot of these characters is like. 90% suggestion and 10% an actual canon to follow. Cuz so many people, myself included, have rewritten so many of these characters in fascinating ways.

And yes the girls! The gorls!! 😫😫🙌🙌

All the girls in these fandoms are so under appreciated but especially the arg girls!! I love rosa so much and i still have to figure oit sarah and how shes gonna be in my canon but shes so!! Heckin awesome in awakening!! Absolute badass gamer girl, ive seen so many interps of her that are so bitchin, i rly need to figure her out 😩

Like if i had the desire to sit and draw more god i would but man. Life is oof, and now im back in school, but i rly should draw my moon children more, i still got shit to figure out with some of them.

Fr tho i am always down to chat, you can always send asks or you can dm me here or on discord. Im usually available unless im at work, but i love chattering, especially about ben stuff lolol

[rabbithaver]

say hello to Phobos, the newest addition to the list of Apparel Projects I Cannot Afford

his dad is Ganymede, and his mom is Dione

also, as an aside: if anyone has any of the Black Currant Plumed apparel they’d be willing to sell to me at a discount, shoot me a PM on FR!

[kiki-inthehoodie]

I am SICK and I DID NOT FUCKING ASK FOR THIS

I am now SICK AND MAD

SOMEONE SEND NYQUIL AND MENTHOL SHIT PLZ THNK U

[thismasterpieceofmine]

me: i’m not vibing with this story anymore might just leave it discontinued. after all only like three people know of it’s existance and i’ve barely done much to it compared to my other wips

also me: okay but what if we added to it?? what if created lore for it and made a scene where the MC says they’re ace bc if this does ever get finished and people read it you want others who are ace to connect with a character?

me: fuck.

[kinktae]

Okay. Im just here reading all those ask. Haha. Im so excited to this bitchin' 5 and all the upcoming rewind series!! Even your asnwers to those ask makes me badly wants it now >< I really love you work! and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! 😚💕 sorry fr my bad eng 😅✌

Ur English is awesome bb!!! AND IM EXCITED TO GET PART FIVE OUT TO U GUYS!!!! TF!!!

[chthonicgodling]

it’s national hug day! :-) [fullview plleeeaz]

♦ alright first of all im a whole dumbass bc just now when grabbin the link to the drawing of Epi & Chal w Ker immediately [see below] before this happened i realized i didnt color match chal’s outfit at ALL so uh. whoops. whatever im not changing it the red is highly symbolic herE

♦ second of all i was just bitchin about how our elysium gods bleeding gold is Highly annoyin sometimes bc it makes my Horrifying Pictures less horrifying BUT UH?? apparently adding glows and overlays helps to. fix it. bc i think this is a good deal........ successful at conveyin whats goin on

♦ AND WHAT IS GOING ON??? here’s the first explanation and heres Photos Taken Moments Before Disaster fr

♦ third of all; absolutely fuck backgrounds this is as good as ur getting from me. highly inaccurate bc maci toppled with chal back into the elysium barrier, however, nicely symbolic of the Insane Chaos that exploded all at once when this happened. whatev whatev. speaking of insane chaos, my sketch for this was fuckin unreal hfjhgjfg SO scribbly. i have a progress gif i’ll put up later!!

welpi guess technically this is an Elysium drama update, tho this happened a lil while ago and the only new drama is the aftermath we’ve been cleanin up :v but enjoy!!!! poor bb

[videostak]

ridge racer 4 seems to have a totally bitchin soundtrack and those beautiful graphics and just being a racer on ps1 makes me want it and i think i should get it whenever but also now that i have a card i rly have to practice actual self discipline fr.. atleast rly hard til i get a job.. cause rn theres that and japanese klonoa i wanna get but i wanna be v careful to not fall into a shopping spree. both those games seem to have a decent amount of dialogue but i wanna get them and just play hoping one day ill kno enough to kno whats goin on lol. and i wanna play og klonoa b4 the remake comes out . but ya i have a text document of lil things i think are intersting and wanna pick up and its just this scary huge list now and im liek o shit... so many beautiful old things i want

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

Lo and Behold

Glynda dumbass just now blocked me on snap, even though im the one who unfriended her 1st.

Yup, just another petty Jay move, just because you got butthurt.

I deleted my account on Tinder right after messaging her "I'm pissed. Wtf we bonded, dude." and then she said "why am i getting bitched out just for asking one question."

And this was after I accused of her of trying to use me as a sex toy and hiding her true intentions with me, when this whole time (it was just 3 days) your'e telling me you and your boyfriend wanted a 3some. And weeeeee was just talking us two having a bonfire, doing some cooking together, and smoking weed (which i dont need to get back on anyway) but yea her intentions was presented that this was just finna be all about me and her getting busy and having fun. And when she tried to gaslight me and acting there's no reason for me to be mad....like dude no. I told you straight up im not feeling dudes rn and you still had the nerve to go ask me that shit out of the blue and on top of that you waited until 2-3 hrs into us bonding, flirting and sexy talk to even say you had a bf, but it was only until after the 1st 30 minutes you was worried about me getting into a relationship with you.

And I said, "No, boo boo, you wanted a threesome. That right there was manipulative. And I cut people off for doing that.

I deserve better. Buh Bye".

Cause who the fuck does that? And I'm too pretty to be stressed about hoe getting her feelings hurt cause she asked me off the wall question that I didn't expect her to ask when I even asked you does he know about us texting and you said yea, he's cool with it. He lets me have my way. She said nothing about a threesome then.

She waited until after we sent some nudes, got all comfortable, and cute on the flirting and shit....and then boom. Wanna ask for a 3some cause you thought I was a lesbian?

Then when I confront yo ass, you got a problem?

Now look who bitchin, who the fuck blocks somebody that unfriended you on snap and from your view deleted you off Tinder?

A sad petty bitch. Look how your feelings hurt, cause you didn't give a fuck about mine.

Sad ass hoe, remind me just like my ex tryna get me in the same scenario again. Cause yo nasty ass wanna have your cake and yo dick at the same time.

Fuck Her. Wayyy more women to meet in my future, and at least im not cuffed to some idiot.

She thought I was just gonna fuck whoever she wanted to bring in the bedroom with her? She trifling and tried to trick my ass.

Im so done with white trash. Sorry, but technically my ex was too.

Disrespectful niggas. Listening to Jelly Roll. We bonded over country music damnnnn and I thought I could trust you???

Damn. We out here fr, by ourselves.