#im sad that he isnt real

[skitskatdacat63]

Roleswap anyone??

Tell me Fernando wouldn't make a fantastic general/emperor, and that Napoleon wouldn't make a fanastic driver/tp!!

[ace-apple]

so when qcellbit comes back home and realizes that the people from his past he killed in a self-destructive fit of misery werent hallucinations and were real what then.

imagine thinking your brain is mocking you so you lash out at it. and then you learn that the blood and flesh and fear were real and it was your fault. what then. WHAT THEN.

[wawawawawawawawawawawawawa]

honestly, looking at izaya's life from a third person pov, it's just... sad? like.

here's this guy who touts himself as something akin to a god and a master manipulator and someone to be feared, and he IS very good at what he does, except... when you take a look at the rest of his life, you see a mid-20s man who has no friends, nobody who really likes him- his clients fear him, his secretary isn't fond of him, and the one friend he DOES have is honestly kind of a garbage friend. and when people draw attention to this, izaya goes on this spiel about how this friendship is so intricrate it can't possibly be understood by an outsider, but what's REALLY happening is that shinra routinely doesn't care for izaya on a personal level via ignoring and ostracizing him, and izaya kind of just. takes it up the ass

he sees everyone around him as an object and the sad thing is everyone, in turn, sees HIM as an object- less an actual living being and more an abstract concept, or at least something that only exists for others to gain something from. it's this vicious cycle of izaya keeping everyone at arm's length and denying his own humanity, which in turn leads to people also denying his humanity, unknowingly feeding into this fucked up cycle of self depracation that most likely started when he was a child- his parents didnt see him as a person, just a mouth to feed and later, a way to have the life they wanted while still appearing respectable- they had kids, just like society said they should, but theyre not obligated to care for them.

and the one person who DOES notice there is something unhealthy going on can't be assed to do anything about it- in volume 9, shinra explicitly says that he doubts izaya expects to live long enough to die of old age- celty actually agrees with him! celty not being assed about it i'd expect, she already hates izaya and doesn't actually know all that much about him, but shinra at least should realize that there's something off about the whole situation. wether thats out of apathy or he just genuinley doesnt believe izaya is being unhealthy, i don't know.

but as it stands, here's a man who insists he can't be manipulated and that he's in control, who's... routinely mistreated by his only friend whom he still talks to and expects some sort of closeness from, and who ultimatley not only loses control, but loses it so spectacularly that he ends up disabled, possibly permanently. i KNOW the spinoff novels said he couldve walked if he went to physical therapy, but "ability to walk" does NOT equal "not disabled anymore."

like... it's just. a sad life! it's a horribly sad existence of a perpetual misery cycle that izaya not only doesn't pull himself out from but actively perpetuates via constantly giving in to his worst impulses and keeping everyone away from him via said impulses, ensuring nobody will notice anything wrong, and that people who DO notice and DO realize its unhealthy, won't give enough of a shit about him to help

[zaynes-left-chesticle]

Okay I just read Zayne's "Still in Dark" anecdote, and now I'm crying and also my jaW IS ON THE GROUND, WHAT IN THE FUC-

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enjoy the tags, I just needed to vent....

And I'm scared 🤣

[skyburger]

i love reading things set in countries that i'm knowledgeable and/or have been to because i can point out really minor errors in fanfiction. i think the average american does not know that in england (and apparently some of asia! which i only just found out) there are switches on power outlets so you can just turn it off instead of unplugging it. like 9 times out of 10 that won't come up but on the off chance it does i'm like ohoho. this clown has never been to england...! my favorite part though is watching americans (specifically americans because i swear to god people who speak english as a second language and/or are from any other country have some idea of what it's like to have an accent / personally know people who have accents? idk) try to write british accents like it is REALLY funny. i literally only lived their for five years and i never picked up a full accent myself (certain words and tones i did but they're mostly gone after living in the states again for a few years) but between living there and having a ridiculous amount of family there & visiting them often (like once a year if im lucky) i like KNOW what british accents sound like. i think some americans genuinely dont even know theres more than one or two english accents i think some people think there's like posh english and chav english and nothing else. maybe scottish accent gets thrown in there if they remember the uk is not in fact just england. i would bet real money they've never heard a welsh accent. anyway my point is it's really funny watching people who don't know as much as i do write this stuff. like i see it and i understand how doctors read this and go Oh that is so medically inaccurate. i get them now. anyway i dont remember what my point here was but please know if you are attempting to write a british accent. reddit and youtube are your best friends if you don't have a british friend you can ask and also rest assured even if you do ONE google search. it will not be the worst attempt ive seen guaranteed

[synthshenanigans]

Wahoo Round 8 :}

-Vote for what you think is more underrated but also what you still like a lot-

Since FMTTM was copyrighted, CJ took down the vid. However it is still in the CiD album video! I assume not many know as it doesn't have a separate vid/track for youtube, soundcloud or spotify.

(Its specifically the moon ass kicking version if anyone's curious)

[RB for more votes if ye'd like]

[local-lover-boy]

I'm so delusional! He isn't real! Still am sad over it tho! Still very much would like to cannibalize him! I feel very empty without him! I made space for someone who can't take it! Even if he was real! He wouldn't love me!!!!

[suzakus-canon-wife]

I really really wanna tell Kabru over and over that his eyes are so beautiful. Cause they are! So bright and blue, they have captivated me. It's a crime people shame him for it and it makes me so sad ;;;; He's so handsome and im gonna tell him everyday ok,,,,

[yuridovewing]

Feel like one of the best ways you can convince someone that no, villains with compelling motives that have sad backstories are not terrible writing compared to straight up born evil villains who just want to kill everyone and be done with it, is to tell them that Warrior Cats writes born evil villains constantly while literally preaching “That’s how evil works, you can’t CHANGE, you’re either touched by demons at birth or you aren’t!” and it blows chunks

[sollucets]

sorry im still lflsposting but again im just thinking about how backwards these two smile sets are from each other. mirrors and reflections and echoes forever !!! bc like i said myungha smiles a Lot -- hes kind of got like a perma halfway smile on his face most conversations and he also does it to defuse questioning about his wellbeing, so its his charm + masking, baybee. but when he becomes more open & vulnerable he actually seems to smile less (like, yeowoon saying he's running for myungha flusters him and makes him all shy, and kyunghoon saying he wants to drink with myungha later on makes him like halfsmile then sort of contemplate it, etc). and yeowoon is just the opposite of course, with his smiles all big n bright once he drops his wall. its very fun i love it

[cyberdragoninfinity]

sometimes i see art of turbo waifish fem anime girl z-one with super long hair and my immediate reaction is "YOURE GOING TO ACTIVATE HIS DYSPHORIA STOPPPPPPP"

[desmondsdestiny]

to this day people still say the stupidest shit ever about connor. like I swear they played the game on mute and w their eyes closed. absolutely zero critical thinking on why this character is like that and why they made these choices. also? not every assassin has to be charming and witty, it would actually just get very tiring, and I'm very glad they never pulled that with connor. he still remains one of the best and I'll die on this hill.

[starboard70]

Actually ill elaborate on my last reblog this brainrot was the strongest I've ever experienced. Like I checked the rouxls kaard tag daily for fanart, started doodling him nonstop, made a ton of headcanons for him, and kept a tab open on my chromebook that was just his wiki page. I was in incredibly deep. I still have one tab open on my phone thats just a fanfic of him that I really enjoy (I should reread that actually, its been a while... called a kaard about towne if you wanna check it out) eventually it faded though! Now I am normal about him until the nest chapters drop

[evening-bat]

If God was real he wouldn't give cats cancer

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[jrueships]

alright.

somebody Please keep this man far. Far away from jaba.