#im thinking this is her verse where she takes billy with her but it can be the other one if u want lmao

[strcngergirls]

@othersiders​ asked: “did you go to the authorities?” Eddie & Dorothy

She shakes her head, blonde curls bouncing as she adorns a sad smile. Dorothy wanted to say ‘yes,’ wanted to admit that she had been brave enough to tell anyone of the things that were happening to her and her son. She wished she could have confessed to someone and the two of them be saved, and escape to live happily ever after, but she hadn’t. She hadn’t told anyone, she had simply packed up her things and left. “No. I’m not sure they would’ve believed me, anyway. It was safer this way.”

[mrsnancywheeler]

Hi hi hi ok ok so like, ive been obsessed eoth Phoebe Bridgers recently while writing my own song and stuff since i get to write a report on like a bunch of different artists for college and im including her in it.

But what i cane to say is that Billy and muse FULLY remind me of Moon Song.

More specifically the lines

"You couldn't have. You Couldn't have. Stuck your tongue down the throat of somebody. Who loves you more. So i'll wait for the next time you want me. Like a dog with a bird in its mouth"

Like i dont know of it makes sense?? But like it just reminds me of them because of the fact that like this part of the song is practically talking about the denial of the idea of someone wanting another. Like, the relationship is unsteady and theres always that chance that someone else will come along (in this case other groupies) who would take away that attention or love or what ever it is. And then the dog analogy too?? Because the verse ends with a 'mm' to replicate the sound of a dogs whimper and begging to just get loved by another. Like the dog is a sign of trying to stay loyal, trying to stay devoted even going as far as bringing back a token to win what was had before back into their life (the bird).

AND AND THEN THERES THE LINES OF

"But now I am dreaming. And your singing at my birthday. And ive never seen you smile so big"

Like she's litterally trying to imagine things where better than they are. But in relation to Billy and muse, i fully interpret this line as muse's naivety at the very VERY beginning of it all and before that cycle starts back up. Like she's imagining things will be okay, things will work out and that it was 'just this once' or something like that.

But then theres also the line:

"But you're holding me like water in your hands"

Basically aluding to the fact that every time Bully has betrayed muses trust, it causes that break to happen and for her to fall apart all over again, just like water would when someone tries to hold it, it falls through the cracks and pours out of the palms.

Im probably like thinking wayyy too much into this but like I just wanted to share my thoughts haha. Also love your writing, like i cant express how many nights ive soent just re reading and re reading because my god it is so good. Anyways bye byeee

YES THIS IS SO REAL (again I'm humbly asking for forgiveness for taking so long 🥺)

muse knows very quickly that there will always be other girls, groupies, that he'll use to make him feel like he's not tied down, that he hasn't shared his feelings with someone, his love. and she's desperate for him not too, to put it behind her when he shows any morsel of wanting him. and whenever things have been good and she can slowly see him falling into old habits after saying something he feels is to revealing, too commiting, she's desperate for him not too. she gets clingier, tries to praise him more, offer him more sexual favors, anything to try and stop him. but one, her trying so hard shows she cares which reminds billy why he loves her and he doesn't want to think about that, two she's not letting him detach easily which makes it an annoyance, and three it's easier to snap than to admit wrongdoing. muse really does remind me of a puppy dog, coming around with big puppy dog eyes, snuggling up begging to be pet, whimpering for attention, any bone thrown she'll fetch and bring back.

muse totally convinces herself the first few times that it was just once, well a couple missteps, but it'll be alright. there's a whole future of good things, right? and he feeds enough into the illusion that the picture is almost complete before he starts to tear the photo up.

yes, yes, yes, eventually the water will slip through every crack possible, leaving only droplets also searching for escape, it might not happen quickly, but he provides the cracks and even if she's desperate to stay, each meltdown brings her closer to emptying his hands.

i love it when y'all think into it, it's so beautiful to have a community to overanalyze things with the silly little characters I've created in these universes, and I love it 💋 thank you so much for sharing, and that's literally the highest compliment. stuff like that keeps me writing because I'm so glad you can find enjoyment in it and re read and re read, I'm glad to share my thoughts and for them not to just be mine. bye!! ❤️

[jenkinstheartis]

Noname Sundial

August 11, 2023 | 11 songs ; 32 minutes

so lovely, makes me feel black, pink and pretty. album cover looks ai generated? why?

she’s honing her sound now, perfecting it might i say!

★ = faves

one.black mirror: 8 out 10

so smooth, such a smooth way to pull me in. speaks to me in riddles. even smoother on the way out! sweet lil introduction, i always feel like she’s introducing herself to us at the beginning of her albums.

"am i supposed to feel this different? / like my rent's paid? / the devil's dead"

two.hold me down: 8.7 out of 10

(feat. Jimetta Rose & Voices of Creation)

nothing could compare to a black choir. her voice and alliteration, she kinda bragging on her skills, she's just too good sometimes.

"we too can cause harm, we should really link arms / they already take arms, a factory, fake farms / they killers, why we help them kills us?"

★ three.balloons: 9 out of 10

(feat. Jay Electronica & Eryn Allen Kane)

wanna listen to this while wearing leather and those skinny red sunglasses. and i wanna sit across from you with a cup of tea and over-analyze this song to you. her voice is something real iykyk.

"casual white fans / who invented the voyeur? / fascinated with mourning, they hope her trauma destroy her "

four.boomboom: 6 out of 10

(feat. ayoni)

im not a real fan of her earlier attempts at this genre (montego bae) but i do like this the more I listen to it so it’s an ever growing 6.

"i’m black, i’ve been black, fuck what you thought"

★ five.potentially the interlude: 9 out 10

y’all know jon bap? him and her, just like this <3. the flow of this is strong n slight. i love words and potential is threatening here, my potential is threatening to myself in this mindset. (this song feels slanted, don’t ask)

"if you were just a little bit more pretty / wrote a bit like kenny / you would have a life worth livin"

★ six.namesake: 10 out of 10

futuristic jazz spoken word. dread but encouraging. (jon bap born into this) reminds me of the 20s when they had those short lil bumped bobs and those planes flying over they heads with the smoke and perfectly tailored dresses.

"watch the fighter jet fly high / war machine gets glamorized / we play the game to pass the time / go noname go"

seven.beauty supply: 7 out of 10

great song, one of those that make me go “why do yt people listen to noname” (i know why I’m not stupid). makes me think of all the shitting that was done on the natural hair movement and how we went no where fr. bc it was taken over by yt folks

"cosplay a new identity, same enemy, / me / when I believe i’m prettier with my weave / when i could see the forest behind the trees / i’ll be free"

eight.toxic: 8 out of 10

triumph, healing, prosperity, and noname. what do all these things have in common? this song! this brings me back to window (my fave noname song fr)

"Never again in my new, new life, I treat me well"

nine.afro futurism: 7.5 out of 10

short but sweet. "how can you be getting it and innocent at the same time?" a little ode to the work she does outside of music and why she does it.

"this a dog eat dog world / she got family to hunt"

ten.gospel?: 4 out of 10

(feat. $ilkMoney, billy woods & STOUT)

love that she asked! The answer is no! i mean like her verse eats but the rest isn't for me. it can grow on me but i can't make it pass her verse and if i do i skip the last one. not for me but not everything is!

"wherever black people sleep, pray for them / pray for me, pray for me, pray for me"

★ twelve.oblivion: 10 out of 10

(feat common & ayoni)

okay common! great way to end the album. i love the word oblivion, no one’s around: oblivion, no one’s listening: oblivion. ayoni's voice is also amazing, she has a new fan and we can all thank noname.

"when the world blows up, that’s it / muthafucker I don’t care imma talk my shit / into oblivion."

Final (Serious) Thoughts noname brings attention to the commercial consumption of black people, explicitly black woman at times, in the media and how it feeds into capitalism. she calls out all the musicians in the spotlight profiting off black woe and black sorrow while living lavish, far away from it. she brings light to the destruction of consumerism that's happening within the black community. noname's enemy is capitalism and she's telling us, begging us to make it ours too. overall, this is a very well put together album and was so worth the wait.

lyrics from azlyrics and apple music.

[aur0ras-a]

🎵

YOUR SONG , okay listen. specifically the moulin rouge one. this is the perfect song for chrissy and billy. i think about it in regards to him asking chrissy to come to california with him. he's broke and he's taking a chance on giving up everything to go to california. he can't promise her a life of easy things, he can't give her much. but he can give her music. SHAKE THE FROST , it's us. how can we have a ship where we don't use this? it's billy seeing his mistakes and regretting them. it's him begging chrissy to stay. it's him wanting a second chance at things. JACKIE AND WILSON , this one is so good for them too. it's about wanting a life with chrissy , wanting children. it's about billy finding his way back from being lost.

TOLERATE IT , we're taking a turn with this one and doing a little big of angst. it's one of my favorite songs for chrissy in this verse. it's about the way that she did idolize billy and put him on a pedestal. because let's be honest about it, chrissy leaves in a dream world and we know that. she sees billy's struggle, but she also feels the change that comes with that. she watches him with daisy , she thinks that it's something more then what it is. she feels like she's no longer his muse, no matter how hard she tries. she believes that he's only in their marriage now out of obligation because of the children. IM ON FIRE , another one that's like how could we not use it for our ships? i think it's one that captures younger them so perfectly. especially when she's still with jason. when she's hurt and struggling with that relationship and billy starts realizing that the feelings he has for chrissy goes beyond friendship.

IN MY ROOM, we know how important this song is to them. it's the song they danced to in prom. it's the song he sings to not only her at night , but the kids too. it's just my favorite one for them because it's such a staple piece in their relationship and so important. it's the one they dance to in the living room at 3 am. it's the one that always makes chrissy realize billy's love for her.

NEW YEARS DAY , it's a song about them being committed to each other when things settle down. that through everything, chrissy wants to spend time with billy forever. she doesn't ever want him to become a stranger. she wants all the good, the bad, and everything in between.

YOU ARE IN LOVE , it's the slow realization of chrissy being in love. she's always known that she's had feelings for billy. but then it's the things that he does , the way he looks at her , the way he treats her. it's love , and she wants him to see her the same way. BLUE HEALER , another one of those ones that how could we not use it as a ship. but it's the way that billy sees himself as a broken mess and chrissy slowly creeps up on him. he never expected to love her, much less her teaching him that he is good.

AURORA , this is mainly because i wanted to have an equal number of songs lmao. but we know how much aurora means to both of them as a song. it's billy's apology and confession , and it's the song chrissy loves the most. it's the song that's hers.

[troublewheeler]

here’s a dumb break down of why i love madwheeler n my take on how/why mike likes max! it’s very disorganized bc im lazy but like also im just in my feels man. probably makes no sense to anyone but me.

okay so. the thing with mike in verses where he has a crush on max.... he’s ALWAYS had a crush on max and i think maybe that’s why he’s so insistent that he doesn’t. because in these verses he’s been “ew” about girls up until max. (because in these verses he never fell for eleven).

from the moment he realized she was mad max, this AMAZING gamer, he liked her. he saw her skateboard and thought HOW AWESOME. but he insisted she was just a girl, nothing special. “awesome? you haven’t even spoken a word to her!” he said this at dustin & lucas, but he was trying to convince himself there was no real reason to like her.

he reads her message to the boys “stop spying on me, creeps” and actually GRINS. because she’s sassy! and funny! oh, there’s more to her!

and then she tries to join the party. what? no! how is he supposed to pretend to not like her IF SHE’S ALWAYS WITH THEM? plus, he’s nervous about acting nervous. so, instead he’s just mean to her. it’s how he’s always been to girls. it’s a dumb boy thing. that sort of... playground crush mentality. you know, u chase them n throw sand at them bc u don’t know what else to do.

then while looking for dart he’s comes face to face with her... ALONE. and he panics. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?”/”THIS IS THE BOYS’ ROOM” he’s.... like aaa bc. alone with mad max. yikes! so he acts like an ass and storms off cuz he really can’t cope with being a lone with a girl let alone one he likes.

“why do you hate me so much?” “i don’t hate you” because he doesn’t....far from it. “how can i hate you i don’t even know you” alternatively, how can he like her SO MUCH... when he doesn’t even know her.

“yeah, but you don’t want me in your party” “correct” “why?” “BECAUSE YOU’RE ANNOYING” but she isn’t annoying. max isn’t the problem. it’s his feelings for her that are annoying. these feelings are new and unfamiliar and he has no idea how to express them appropriately, and without feeling humiliated. because he’s just a kid, and he’s never felt a crush like this before. because he’s growing up, and crushes are different when you get older. it’s more than just LIKING someone—it’s wanting to BE with them.

and she tries to show him her skateboarding, and he’s like “no it’s dumb. ur dumb. ur annoying.” but.... she’s cute, n her skateboarding is cool! ruh roh! he’s getting to know her so he smiles a lil bc he can’t help himself :) and because he’s Soft in that moment, he’s quick to help her up when she falls. and asks her if she’s all right, because despite his attempts to pretend like he doesn’t care HE DOES.

but then he’s like well shit i’ve showed too much gotta go back to being a lil bitch. “ just because you know the truth doesn’t mean you’re in our party” “yea i know... i mean... why would you want a stupid zoomer in your party anyway?” n then he looks a lil regretful :( because he would rly love a zoomer in the party at this point but he’s been too much of an ass to backpedal now

but then SHE TAKES ACTION? AND TAKES DOWN A GROWN ASS DUDE? with a NEEDLE? like she just.... SHOVED THAT THING RIGHT IN HIS NECK. NO FUCKS. THEN THREATENED HIM W A GODDAMN NAIL BAT? this... GIRL.

she takes billy’s keys and drives them to the mind flayer’s hive and he says “incredible” because he’s getting to the point where he really can’t deny how truly amazing this girl is

i would go into details about season 3 except most their scenes are arguing about eleven, so they’re kind of .... pointless. 

[poeticmover]

Today. 102720

Today was about the little things.  I sold 5 masks and im so excited for them to rock them. and I’m so blessed to have people trust me and my craft I also finished don and martin’s ashtrays and im so happy with how they turned out visually. and I pray they harden 100% correctly by tomorrow morning.  and by tomorrow morning, I should have more money.  Not having the big amount of EBT really shock our wallets. and having to pay for the battery but the battery was well needed. it lasted a long time without a problem and that’s a blessing on it’s own.  I could have taken a class at culture shock today but I didn’t want to today.  I’m more excited to be back at the Dancehouse... I feel a lil more free there.  but I’m so BLESSED for the 3 free classes that Anthony gave me even though he is still a lil odd. idk i’m still learning about him I couldn’t help Alina how she wanted but I’m glad she kept a verse with her.. it means she was listening even though she was heartbroken.  but it’s not my responsibility to fix her problem. i had to let it go.  It’s almost my 3 years anniversary with Hakeem and wow what a journey. This is about to be both of our longest relationship. I love him so much. sometimes my heart just skips a beat lol. such an odd feeling. It’s also gonna be Billy’s 3rd death anniversary. It no longer feels bittersweet to honor both anniversaries. I’m glad for that. And oooohhh I have a costume/lingerie ready for hakeem and he has no idea lol i hope he likes me in it. lol i know he will, he’s so sweet. and Billy, we miss you always. i cried so hard the other day thinking about you. I never wanna make you feel like i didn’t love you. Your spirit is with me FOREVER. In the way that i decide to show up, the way i dress and the way i talk back. Thank you for being your true beautiful self. I’m still gonna get that tattoo for you. don’t worry. we gotta take things day by day.  Hakeem and I have been sitting in this garage every day for maybe a week and some change now... some days i get really angry. but what humbles me is the fact that we can loose all this in a second. and im so grateful for this space where we can make love privately, do whatever we want, eat, sleep, be together, talk to friends, and share moments together. im grateful for this small garage. imagine us having an apartment or house together. it would be magical. just like how we both envision it.  I never knew Halloween day would be this important in my life. not only that but it’s 10/31... my angel. Angel 131 reminds me to be myself all the time. The 1st time I saw 131 was in high school. in my first entanglement LMAO with jojo. that’s when i was my most raw in love. and 131 only reminds me of how pure i was. my true self. and I allow my true self to be every time i see it. and how special is that my anniversary is on that day and billy passed that day... wow i just realized right now. what a blessing. I love you Hakeem. I love you Billy. I love you Jennifer. Keep being YOU <3