#goeshard

[aur0ras-a]

apprehensive , pacing back and forth against wooden floor. the only contact she had held with her husband was short phone calls , letters exchanged. the last time chrissy had seen @goeshard , had been months ago. opening those van doors , a vivid image that still plays in nightmares. but billy was better now. chrissy believed in him, like she always had. for billy dunne , she held an infinite amount of love. graham had volunteered to go get him , making it easier. less of a struggle to get marlee out of the house. chrissy unsure , if that was the way she wanted him to meet their daughter. she was tiny , but already so perfect and beautiful. words would never admit it , but a broken heart still mending was in her chest. she had been through most of it alone , but missing billy missing her birth? the hurt still stung like an open wound. she had spent all morning , anxiously cleaning the small 'home' they had moved into behind the main house. furniture from thrift stores , tightly packed into the one room place. marlene had helped make it a place they could be happy. unable to put into words , how grateful chrissy was for her time spent here on the west coast. helping her adjust to motherhood. there would be no holding back marlene and the choice words she held for her son the moment he was home.

screen door opens , and he's there. everything about them had always come so easy. but all of this , feels different. as if they're navigating a battlefield , waiting for bombs to explode. is it too much to run to him, arms thrown round tight? despite everything , chrissy could never give up on him. she could never learn to unlove him. she makes the choice to stay in floor with their daughter instead. her voice is soft , smile offered. she's careful , like handling a wounded animal. ❛ look who's home baby , wanna say hi? ❜ scooping up marlee , she holds her to see billy. ❛ that's daddy , he's back home with us. ❜

[silly-asterisk]

sry i havent posted in a while

[2that-pizza-guy]

Loki vibes

Every day, the devil comes to me, whispering his lies. He tells me to kneel, or he will reduce me to nothing. And every day as he holds a blade to my throat, I tell him of his day of reckoning, reveling in the knowledge that his reign ended long ago, and he has yet to realize it.

[shesa1nt]

𝗐𝗈𝗎𝗅𝖽 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝗅𝗂𝗄𝖾 𝗌𝗈𝗆𝖾 𝖻𝗋𝖾𝖺𝗄𝖿𝖺𝗌𝗍?

living room couch of the dunne's , had become like a second home to chrissy. sun pouring in bright , comforter pulled over head. last night mostly a blur. except when cheeks flush red , embarrassment of realizing what a mess she had been. the sharp words of her mother already linger. chrissy not making it home in time to appear as perfectly family in church front row. would it hurt then, to just stay a little longer?

the sounds of someone alive in the kitchen startles her. cabinets being opened , pots and pans with metallic clangs. slowly standing up , finding weight of her legs beneath her for support. her job had always been the responsible one. but last night had been a drink too many , at her own expense. and maybe at the expense of marlene's passenger floorboard too. the dunne brothers had managed to land a gig , their first. so , chrissy had celebrated right along with the rest of the boys. excited for them , enamored with watching them on stage. even if it wasn't a perfect first go. it was a start in the right direction.

quilt still wrapped around her, dragged against kitchen tile. it isn't who she expects standing there. blue hues wide as @goeshard greets her. ❝ i'm really, really sorry about last night. ❞ eyes stay focused on worn tile of the floor , white color giving away to something more yellow. its bits and pieces , being helped to the car by him , ruining his shoes. god , he must think she's the biggest loser. not that billy dunne's opinion mattered to chrissy cunningham. not one tiny bit.

[dunnewithyou-arch]

letters from julia

dad, (@goeshard)

i love you, i love you, i love you. i know you have a lot of regrets regarding the time i was born, you won't stop apologizing practically every day , but i started forgiving you a long time ago. thank you for agreeing to delve deep into the history of the six, i knew there was a reason you never really mentioned it as i was growing up even though mom kept all the records and daisy stayed in the news for a long time. maria got your guitar talent and i'm a little jealous of that, but everyone has said without your time spent writing i wouldn't have been able to work on the book so thanks for that. things feel more relaxed now that everything is out in the open. i know we all still miss mom, and i've been listening to aurora a lot lately to remember her. she told me that even if you hadn't written it for her, she still would've loved it. i know your relationship wasn't perfect, especially with the six, but you still loved each other and set an example for me and my sisters. thank you again, and i love you so much.

sincerely,

julia

[selfruinarchive]

This weekend has been one of the most incredible ones of my life. between getting to meet @netherill, seeing noah kahan, @goeshard and I getting some much needed time away? I’ll never forget it and always be thankful for everything that happened.

[aur0ras-a]

SPOTIFY WRAPPED STARTER.

middle of night is quiet , a rare for them now. balcony door is open , breeze light. one of her favorite things about their new home. it had been a new start , still in the canyon. boxes still remain half unpacked , @goeshard freshly home from second attempt at sobriety. there had never been any lack of faith that he could do it , the same as first time. sheets are tanged around her bare skin , head rested on his chest. the study thump of his heart , always a comfort. the silence that's placed it's self between them holds no tension , though broken once voice thick with sleep finds words. ❛ you don't have to be sorry. ❜

they are words that come seemingly out of nowhere , but they belong. chrissy has always seen him , in the ways that she doesn't understand , but she's sees him. the way he carries guilt like atlas. fingers trace idly along his skin before she shifts , propping self up on elbows. ❛ you've been living life like i haven't forgiven you. i see it. in the way you look at me , in your smile. you don't have to keep tearing yourself apart billy. ❜ hues take him in , hand reaching out to hold face in her hand. ❛ i made mistakes too. i put you up on a pedestal. like you couldn't make mistakes. i made our love some perfect fantasy and i'm sorry billy. ❜ her apology is long overdue , owning to the mistakes she made for a long time. the inability to give him room for perfection , holding him to those standards of romance novels she had read as a child. ❛ i don't want you to feel that way anymore. i don't want you to feel like i'm pressuring you to be someone you're not. ❜ smile that doesn't reach all the way , her own guilt heavy like an anchor. ❛ it's a new start for us both. i love you , and nothing is ever going to change that. ❜

[calisources]

BLOG COMMISSION FINISHED. header, pinpost, three dash icons, three panel promo, divider, pinpost detail and psd used is city of the dead. blog revamp for @goeshard.

[kindscrooge]

character study: demeanor & mannerism guide.

EYES. avoids eye contact when nervous, maintains eye contact when nervous. | avoids eye contact due to being neurodivergent, enjoys eye contact as a means to read and convey emotion. | looks down when emotional, looks up when emotional. | cries openly, wipes tears quickly, suppresses tears. | wandering gaze when lost in thought, holds gaze while thinking. | seeks out eye contact for reassurance, seeks out eye contact to gauge enthusiasm during conversations, eyes move constantly during conversation. | expressive eyes, emotions only evident through eyes, uses eye contact to intimidate. | looks up while thinking, looks down while thinking.

HANDS. clasps behind back, rests in lap, fidgets with clothes. | twiddles thumbs, chews at nails/skin, pushes back cuticles, draws patterns on table/counter surfaces. | animated gestures while speaking, only gestures to emphasize, utilizes sign language, speaks only through sign. | callouses, scars, smooth, wrinkled, worn, soft, delicate, boney, slender, thick, veiny. | touches others while speaking, reaches out while laughing, reaches out to comfort others, reaches out to seek comfort. | places face in hands when exasperated, places face in hands when exhausted, places palms over eyes to hide when overwhelmed, rests chin in hands. | taps fingers when impatient, taps fingers when nervous, taps fingers while thinking. | scratches scalp, strokes chin, rubs back of head, toys with objects around them, runs fingers over surfaces while walking by.

MOUTH. chews lip, chews at inside of cheek, licks lips, bites tongue, chews on straws. | resting frown, resting smile, neutral resting expression, resting pout. | grinds teeth, flexes jaw. | covers mouth when laughing, covers mouth when shocked, covers mouth when concerned, hands to lips while thinking, covers mouth when chewing, chews with mouth closed, chews with mouth open. | smirks, grins, subtle smiles, wide smiles, sad smiles, intimidating smiles, menacing grins. | openly smiles, tries to suppress smiles, bares teeth when angry, lips quiver when emotional. | stutters, speaks quickly, speaks slowly, good pronunciation, poor pronunciation, moderate pronunciation. | purses lips, sucks in lips, holds mouth open when shocked or confused.

LEGS. bounces leg when nervous. | draws knees to chest when sitting, draws knees to chest as a means of comfort, sits on knees, sits with legs crisscrossed, sits with legs spread open in chairs, crosses legs when sitting in chairs, sits with one leg folded under the other. | places feet on furniture, never places feet on furniture, sits on counters, sits on desks, sits on tables, sits on edge of seat, sits hunched over with forearms on knees, arches one knee up, sits on the arm of chairs/couches, feet on dashboard, swings legs back and forth when sitting somewhere elevated. | wiggles toes when nervous, wiggles toes as a general tick. | shuffles feet, kicks foot into ground, stomps feet. | loud footsteps, quiet footsteps, silent footsteps.

HAIR. runs fingers through hair, tugs at hair, picks at scalp, chews on hair, twists locks of hair while thinking or nervous, smooths out locks of hair while thinking or nervous. | prefers hair out of face, prefers long hair, prefers short hair. | wears hair back, keeps hair down, smooths back hair. | plays with other��s hair while talking, plays with own hair while talking, strokes hair to comfort others, likes having hair stroked for their own comfort, braids others’ hair while talking, braids own hair while talking. | flips hair out of face, pushes hair out of face, leaves hair alone even when falling into face.

borrowed from : @frightes tagging: @misterfezziwig, @goeshard, @aur0ras, @slautertm, @scarednotscary, @crisisbabe, @dorkustm, you!

[goeshard]

𝙣𝙤 𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙚𝙧𝙫𝙚𝙨 𝙖 𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚 . . . [ goeshard ] an independent &&. private billy dunne of daisy jones &&. the six. influences from both the novel &&. mini series. written by kc , she / they / he , twenty - four , &&. cst. triggering content and mature themes present , follow at your own risk. . . . 𝙗𝙪𝙩 𝙝𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙮 𝙞 𝙠𝙚𝙚𝙥 𝙜𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙢.

𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙝𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙞𝙨𝙮 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙣 , 𝙢𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙢𝙚 𝙗𝙪𝙧𝙣. everything i loved about the world , @selfruin loved about the world. everything i struggled with , daisy struggled with. we were two halves. we were the same. 𝙞𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙖𝙡𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙖𝙣𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚.

𝙖 𝙨𝙩𝙪𝙙𝙮 𝙞𝙣 . . . it's lonely at the top , the art of self sabotage , wanting what you can't have , self - hatred , self - torture , finding out who you really are , found family , chasing your dreams , &&. 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙢𝙪𝙘𝙝 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚 . . .

𝙖𝙛𝙛𝙞𝙡𝙞𝙖𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 . . . @selfruin , @aur0ras &&. @dialdruhnk

🞛 carrd. 🞛 pinterest. 🞛 spotify.

[salamic]

Fuckin. tag this with aurora spoilers if you mind bc Cooks and Alex aren't caught up but jfhldasf its a fantasy comic about this guy (Kendal) who's soul randomly appeared in a gods (Vash) body after that god was murdered, a purple elf (Alinua) with magical life powers who's solution to every problem is to grow a tree about it, a guy (Erin) who walked to close the center of a magical storm and got possessed by the ancient primordial evil Void Dragon like a NERD, some angsty catboy they found in the woods (Falst), a lady who is made of metal and punches dragons for a living and some guy who can explode.

It's about them trying to save Vash from a sorta soul prison his murderer put him in and stop the Void Dragon from eating the planet. It's got a lot like found family 2000's Shonen ensemble cast vibes except it's less misogynistic and also every single character is queer and fdkjhfkdjshk I think it is very neat (it has been consuming my brain space for nearly a year and will continue to do so for the foreseeable future). Have the best panel from todays page

oh shit sounds like it goeshard im assuming its on webtoon? ill put it in my read list 😼😼

[goeshardmoved]

on july 12th , 1977 daisy jones & the six performed to a sold out crowd at soldier field in chicago, illinois. they were one of the biggest bands in the world at the time. fresh off their award-winning, multi-platinum selling album aurora. it would be their final performance.

goeshard. an independent and private roleplay blog for billy dunne of daisy jones & the six. written based upon personal interpretation with influences from both the book and mini-series. written by catie. she / they, twenty four, cst. guidelines are under the cut !

everything that made daisy burn, made me burn. we were two halves.

triggering themes will be present on this blog including drug use , alcoholism , and others ! please follow at your own discretion.

001, activity. i recently just moved in with my partner and our four children. this is a big change, and quite frankly, i'm still adjusting to parenthood, settling into my new home, in a very committed relationship, and very family oriented. roleplay doesn't always fall on my priority list, and when it does, it's usually quite low on it. my partner and my children are my top priority. i will be here as much as i can be / want to be, please do not harass me about my activity.

002, selectivity. this blog is private and selective, meaning i only write with mutuals, and even then, i may be selective in doing so. If i follow you it means i enjoy your character and your portrayal of said character, and most likely want to write with you. my ims are always open to plotting, please reach out if interested i probably am too!

003, out of character. interactions out of character are a surefire way to ensure that our threads remain interesting to me and boosts my desire to write them. this isn't me playing favorites i'm just more comfortable with people i know outside of our characters.

004, memes and replies. memes are open to any and all mutuals, and most likely will be treated as starters. starter calls are very unlikely on this blog. all i ask is that if a meme is being continued please do so in a new post.

005, graphic and mature content. due to the nature of billy dunne as a character and his story, and how heavily addiction to alcohol and drugs play into it, i will most likely not be tagging these things. mature themes will be present, seeing as in both mun and muse are 21+. if you need anything tagged, please do not hesitate to ask. i will tag it without hesitation. ( i.e. tw bananas )

006, affiliation and exclusivity. i am heavily affiliated and exclusive with @selfruin. my main verse is plotted with her heavily, and most things will be placed in this verse. I WILL NOT WRITE WITH ANY OTHER DAISYS, but i am open to other ships. if you are interested in exclusivity or affiliation please reach out.

[selfruinarchive]

#SELFRUIN. AN INDEPENDENT AND EXTREMELY PRIVATE WRITING BLOG FOR DAISY JONES OF DAISY JONES AND THE SIX. BASED UPON PERSONAL INTERPRETATION WITH INSPIRATION TAKEN FROM BOTH THE NOVEL & MINI-SERIES. WRITTEN BY EVIE , SHE / THEY , 29. LOW ACTIVITY , MUTUALS ONLY.

EVERYTHING THAT @goeshard LOVED ABOUT THE WORLD , I LOVED ABOUT THE WORLD. WE WERE TWO HALVES , WE WERE THE SAME.

AFFILIATED WITH : @netherill

CARRD. PROMPTS. MULTI.

[aur0ras-a]

29. for sex on a table/counter/desk

it's rare , that they get house alone. a negative in living in a house of six. the band was finally starting to gain traction , a crowd of more then usual bar patrons. coming off that high and excitement , it's a mess of heated kisses that meet his lips and trail along his jaw before they can make it inside. laughter spills from her , cheeks flushed. alcohol warms her , tipsy but still confident enough in her own decisions. it was a running joke between them all that outside of practice , the only place to find billy was in their bed. it was a joke that held a little bit of truth , one that chrissy wouldn't admit to.

she's sat down on kitchen counter , arms wrapped around his neck and fingers tangled in brown strands. there would normally be a moment of protest , but tonight's different. she's desperate for him , needy whimpers of his name in space of silence that was once between them. billy dunne is everything she has ever wanted , and it's in moments like this she's reminded of that.

arms unwrap from around him , reaching for belt buckle ( one of the obnoxious large ones , the kind she always teases him for ). shaking hands tug at it , before reaching for button of jeans. unsure of how long they have before someone comes through screen door , chrissy intends for it to not last long. walls are already too thin and the last thing she wants is for any one of them to have something else she would never hear the end of.

[withthebcnd]

what color character are you?

dark blue character

     Dark Blue characters are kindhearted and responsible, driven to care for others around them. They are good at strategizing in the heat of the moment, but are also quite impulsive and rush into things without a plan when they are fired up. While calm people and patient teachers, they are quite hotheaded and not afraid to stand up for what they believe in. Their sense of morality guides them, both into battle, and into healing. They get along with a wide range of people, but do have a temper that causes them to get into short-lived disagreements. 

They don’t like to be seen as inferior, as much of their strength comes from the softness inside of them. They like being needed and helpful, and want people to agree that they know what’s best for them, although others can get annoyed at what they perceive as nagging. They take turns being the voice of reason and the reason for the voice. They can hold their own, and believe in respecting everyone as long as everyone is respectful in turn. They often had to grow up fast and mature early, which they both take pride in and resent. They are likely to join a just cause on a whim, and do what it takes to develop the skillset they need to best help the cause, although they prefer to be at the center of the action. If they feel no one is doing anything and it needs to be done, they’ll step in. 

They are often close to prodigies, having some sort of incredible skill that they can expertly hone. They are inspirational and have a lot of emotional maturity. They can both maneuver people through their hardships and inspire them to rise up. They can often ignore their own feelings and needs in the process of being a sort of martyr for others, however, and can grow resentful when no one pays attention to them like they do for others. Dark blue characters need people in their lives who will encourage and uplift them in whatever cause they choose to support, as well as give them space to talk out their feelings. They also need others who will recognize when they are taking too much responsibility on, and take some time to give them care and support and affirm their willingness to care.

Tagged by: @selfruin

Tagging: @dunneham, @dunnewithyou, @edhellfire, @goeshard, & YOU