#im utterly ruined

[anxsity]

oh huh yeah thats a poignant ending-

"i was so lucky to be your dad"

[todayisafridaynight]

sometimes i get nishiki i really do

[nickbutnodick]

i just want this to be over already

[itsbrucey]

Thought a little too hard about the Teens and felt the despair sink in. Oh God I'm So Sad ONLY 3 EPISODES ........ONLY 3........ THEY'RE JUST KIDS. EVERYTHING THATS HAPPENED. HERMIE DIED TERRY JR. DIED SPARROW IS MISSING ALL THE TRAUMA AND VIOLENCE. OH WOW.

[bookishfeylin]

Me when I remember ACOSF exists, where Feysand lock up Nesta like Tamlin locked up Feyre, Rhysand keeps information from Feyre that causes her to almost die in childbirth, the Inner Circle chooses Rhysand over Feyre, all of which show they never really were Feyre's 'found family' and undermining everything that waste of a book called ACOMAF tried to claim:

[possiblytracker]

coughs loudly. scheduling this post for slightly later today so i have time to get lunch and not chicken out before it goes up

firstly i gotta apologise for dropping off the face of the earth. in hindsight it was creeping up on me for a long time I just didn't think anything of it/had enough stuff going on to ignore it for a while, but ive been wrestling with pretty abysmal mental health that just kinda hit me like a truck back in august. i wont get too much into it but things just ground to a halt and in the span of a week or so it legitimately felt like i stopped being a Person- i just stagnated, felt like i lost the ability and will to do anything or enjoy things or create like i used to, all my energy went into keeping it together in front of my family, and it made me way too anxious and ashamed and guilty to want to show my face. like who would want to put up with my stupid bullshit, right (wrong! that idea just made me unbelievably worse and i regret it extremely, but my anxiety was going extremely unchecked at this time). i don't think i've ever been that depressed before and i didn't at all know how to handle it or begin to claw my way out

fortunately, a combination of getting exercise + touching grass regularly and new enrichment/hyperfixations to latch onto like an orphaned duckling are very recently kicking some life back into me so to speak. who wouldve thought. and now where i used to still feel stomach-turning dread and paranoia thinking about getting back on tumblr and discord a week or two ago, it finally feels like i can handle dipping my toes back in. i'm making this post first bc i know most of my friends will see it, and that feels less taxing than explaining myself a bunch of different times over and over and dragging it out, but ofc i will try and get back into conversation when and as i can (askbox and discord is still best to reach me if you wanted). i'm just really sorry, and I hope you can forgive me, for making you worry or otherwise

i'm not sure what to do from here (i'm considering maybe moving main blogs to a clean slate eventually? this one will still be here i couldnt bear to get rid of it, i've just had it since i was 16 there's Baggage attached) but i'll be trying to ease my way back into relative normalcy before doing anything big ofc. in the meantime i will be vaguely floating around here again. see you around and thank you for your time..

[bobzora]

it's always funny to me when people misunderstand akechi's main/only motivation/plan to be like. just killing his father because dude if that Was his plan everyone would be in a much better position. like everyone would be way better off. Instead,

[elvenchain]

OK yea I really really want to write a Master/Sword fic w Ghirahim and Link and I am gunna. Replay botw and totk. So I can get the lore Right

[widevibratobitch]

fucking yikes! also as of today im officially a border woman 🤟

[sevenyeargap]

.

[hussyknee]

TIL that my little sister, who I have been no contact with since the second time she physically assaulted me and was on some terfy shit before that, has now been swallowed up by a woo-woo scam that's certified her a Transformative Life Coach. She's now calling herself the "world's first anger coach for women" and trying to charge through the nose for courses on how to "Uncover Your Shadow Lioness" and "manifest the relationship of your dreams". Full on Divine Feminine batshit.

Who the fuck is this person? Where did my little sister go?

[thebleedingeffect]

Thought about John Ward I'm just gonna explode now

[spaceself]

not okay over the echoes of dawn in the old city event i'm not okay at all

[todayisafridaynight]

girl help bestie mentioned the ending of Y7 and now im frothing at the mouth

[gloriousmonsters]

A bunch of characterisation notes changed between Pathologic Classic and its sequel. Best character change between the games? Also *worst* character change between the games (but you only get to pick The Worst one)? And this is asking about your personal tastes, I don't want object, detached answers :p

lol, alright! thanks for the permission to be petty

best: Completely overhauling Var. Var in Classic is just. so awkward as a 'creepy hunchback' character, and the WORST to be around. spent my whole playthrough as Artemy selling as few organs to him as possible. Var in Pathologic 2? The hottest guy in town. Eye scarring! Mysterious origins! A refreshing lack of being a creep about an adopted daughter! he has it all. A+ character change

worst: there's some. steep competition for me, but I'm gonna say making Artemy a reluctant outsider who's not jazzed about tradition and his role instead of a guy who loved his town and people and was so eager for his role in his community that he walked back to town over the goddamn steppe because the train was late, after only spending ten years away because his father ordered him to. It's a major component of my dislike of Patho 2 (compared to how much I love Classic).

Artemy in Classic is so defined by his determination to assume the role of the Haruspex, and for me that's refreshing because I've waaay more commonly seen the character of 'ugh i don't really want to assume duties and responsibility, tradition is a bit cringe'... and that's the exact character type they change him to in Patho 2, slijsijfdf. Give me grumpy traditional Artemy who shames guardsmen for not remembering how to properly act as a member of the Kin and will chug poison if an elder tells him it's necessary for a ritual, despite his issues with authority.

[yukeet]

every few months when im bored i check the twitter of my ex friend and every time it shocks me how she manages to become a worse person like girlie get some helpppppp