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famewolf · 1 year

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got back from the lake last night

it was a ton of fun and we spent most of it zooted out of our minds. but it also really hit me how much has changed in the last 8+ years. seeing a bunch of people that I hadnt seen since my teens or early 20s. it strangely put a lot of things into perspective for me, especially considering I feel like I lost time due to the pandemic.

all in all, a lot of relaxing and chatting and eating good food!

#[static]#realizing 'hey your closest friend leaving at 22 did impact you a lot' as a 29 year old put stuff into perspective for me #i usually just push through harder events and dont give myself time to process them fully since i spent the first 25 years of my life #in survival mode ... so didnt always get a chance to process things fully #in the last year or two i feel like ive finally gotten a chance to start processing Events in my life #but realizing 'oh we were Young and it wasn't just three years ago when you left' and almost a whole decade has gone by #ive done a lot in that decade but it definitely hit me How long it's been since things were back in the Before times #and me realizing that i consider my friend's departure from the country the end of an era #like i use it as a bookmark - as a big event - that marks the turning of a chapter or the passage of time #i think everyone does this with big life events but i never really let myself process how sad i was when they left because ive mostly #just been happy for them since it's opened up so many incredible life experiences and such for them!#anyways its never too late to process events LMAO #but all in all it was a super fun time and being high for an entire weekend gave me a chance to relax and unpack some mental shit

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