#isnt this a joy? either way uhh.

[tooies]

this is still literally my favourite picture ive ever taken. i dont inow what it is about it but it just feels so good to look at. so calm. so peaceful. hope and joy on planet poison sucklet

id: a photograph of a poison sucklet, a purple, vaguely star-shaped fluffy creature with two white dots for eyes and a third below as a centeal orifice, sits on a mossy and lichen-covered tree branch in the corner of the photo. the tree extends further outwards into the rest of the frame. the tree's branches are covered in moss, lichen, pale green leaves, and white flowers. the light from the sun, diffused by the overcast bright white sky, filters through the leaves, casting a soft ambient glow on the photo.

[callmepippin]

ok so i was tagged by the lovely @lexiklecksi for the 11/11/11 tag, the rules are: answer the 11 questions she asked me, make up my own 11 questions and then tag 11 ppl to answer those (so if you want you can skip to the questions at the bottom lmao). however as a fair warning: this got Way too long probably bc im rambly today. i tried to limit the stream of consciousness but….

1. current musical obsession: Frank Ocean and related sort of neo-r&b stuff - while writing this im also discovering Childish Gambino’s “Awaken, My Love!” (and also the song Golden Brown, but not bc im listening to it but bc im learning it on both guitar and piano)

2. 3 things i always take with me:

- wallet (or at least my id)

- phone (&earphones)

- cigarettes&lighter

3. what (or who) i miss most in lockdown: i dont rly remember? im so used to the situation by now that i kind of forget to miss what i did when things were “normal”... but i guess going to bars w/ friends, and just being able to go shopping when i need smth

4. pick: either only read 1 book or only read books picked by someone else: i wouldn’t be able to only read one book for the rest of my life! so definitely the second option (esp if i can pick the person who picks the books)

5. why i found your blog/followed you and if i intend to stay: uhh you followed me and when i checked your blog i liked the vibe i guess? also you were v nice in the tags of my music stuff! also ya i like it here, so im staying for a while

6. when and why did i last cry: i genuinely dont know for sure.. the last time i specifically remember crying was my granddad’s funeral, which is three yrs ago this month, but i do know ive cried once or twice since then, i just dont remember for sure when and why.

wait i do remember, i think the last time was when i saw Richard Says Goodbye (live music and movies or books are basically the only reason i rly cry, im not an emotional crier, dont know why).

7. who holds the key to my heart: my partner of five (and a bit) years, whom i love Very Much! (although ofc my heart is not locked, i have so much love to give, just romantically i am very much taken)

8, pick one: star wars/star trek, dobby/gollum, white/black magic, flying/teleportation, time travel: past/future?

- Star Wars

- Gollum (even though i have read hp but still havent read lotr, ive read the hobbit like 4 times tho)

- i think the hard dichotomy btwn white/black magic or like light/dark and good/bad in most fiction is often v flawed bc thats not how the world works, everything is grey areas (e.g. the Jedi are not better than the Sith, both have deeply flawed philosophies). the Force (or any magic for that matter) is not inherently good or evil, it just is. nature isnt abt good or evil, isnt abt opposites but abt balance.

and especially if you work with the occult and magical, i think thats all abt walking the edge between light and dark, life and death, night and day, good and bad etc…

so to answer the question: grey magic lmao, its all abt balance

- teleportation i think, bc while flying is very cool, i think teleportation has more practical uses (although also has danger involved, such as what happens if you teleport into a space that is already occupied by a person or an object? but for the sake of argument, prolly teleportation)

- do not even get me started on time travel.. the implications of time travel to the past are…… complicated to say the least (it only works if you believe in hard determinism, which i wholly do not). so in a practical sense, def to the future (although that is also Problematic within the constraints of our four-dimensional universe/experience).

in a philosophical sense though, ignoring all the paradoxes and laws of time and space, id still pick the future (or maybe no time travel at all), bc i think the past is the past for a reason. we remember it, we learn from it, but ultimately we must leave it behind.

my philosophical problem with traveling to the future is more that you cant just. skip life. so if you travel to the future, it has to be way beyond your own life and direct influence, or youll interfere with yourself and your own future, and thats scientifically, psychologically /and/ philosophically a v bad idea all round, i think.

9. which thoughts keep me awake at night: almost never specific thoughts, but quite often anxiety abt the near future. but theres no like, lingering issues that keep me awake.

10. what id do with you if we were locked up together for 24hrs: i think i’d really like to write with you! make poetry, song lyrics, make art! bc we could rly learn from each other i think and also we could just rly pick each others brain abt mundane, important and transcendental stuff ya know?

11. ask anything: do you have concrete, long term plans for the future, maybe even backup plans? a clear vision of how the rest of your life is going to go? or are you more the type to do what makes you happy now and figure it out as you go along?

my own questions (large variation in vibes and weight, i know):

describe your favourite colour using other senses (like what sound, smell, feeling or w/e do you associate with it)

what’s the best thing that happened to you in the last week, last month and last year?

what’s the one thing/what are the things that help(s) you get up in the moring and keep putting one foot in front of the other?

are you a leftie? (warning: there is a correct answer)

do you play/have you ever played a musical instrument? (and for the sake of completeness, yes i am counting singing as well)

do you have one thing (e.g. a song, movie, book or smth else) that never fails to bring you joy?

do you have one (or more) person(s) you feel you could still hit up after ten yrs of radio silence and you’d still vibe?

what’s your favourite song lyric/line from a poem/quote? and why?

who was your first celebrity crush? (if you’ve ever had one obvsly)

what’s smth you’re looking forward to? could be specific, could be a general thing like a driver’s licence or your own apartment or w/e

this one is specifically to feed my curiosity, indulge me: why did you follow me?

congrats, you’ve managed to reach the end! again, very sorry for the rambles, thanks for sticking around. im tagging @alt-heidi, @terdiscussie, @a-soul-to-cling-to, @ontvreemd, @sarahhnghae and i guess whoever fuckin feels like it? i literally can’t think of 11 ppl on this hell site, so if i forgot you its not personal. if we’re mutuals you’re especially tagged.

[choihaiyun]

hello!! hope you’re having an okay day! could i kindly ask for a ship request for enhypen, stray kidz, and txt please? thank youuu 🥺

well i’m now 19 years old, i think i’m 5’2 or 5’3 im not so sure anymore and im an infp!! i wouldn’t necessarily call it a hobby but i like singing a lot and i tend to have random cover sessions every now and thenn, i used to play the ukulele but slowly grew less fond of it bc idk whyy zzz i really like food and i tend to watch a lot of mukbangs or cooking videos on tiktok (which i eventually try because i want to taste what i see) and i may not be an expert in the kitchen, its somewhat decent! uhh my approach in life would be live for myself and do everything i do with my whole heart on it? like dont do anything half-assed just bc you want it done or whatever i guess anddd that i should appreciate and embrace my bad days because i wouldnt be loving my good days. i know my mbti says im introverted and i’d like to think that i am but when i am comfortable with a person, i tend to step out of my comfort zone and become more talkative i guess?? honestly speaking, when it comes to first impressions, i really try to make a good one so im nervous and an overthinker bc i really wanna leave a good impression and im a people’s pleaser sooo 🥴

okay so as transparent as i can be, i dream more than i put it into action. i always tell myself that i’ll do better tomorrow but it’s always harder for me to put it to life? but to be frank, i am also really impulsive so if i think of an action that is careless and could either harm me in the future, i’d immediately do it without hesitation(?) i guess i find it hard to commit to what could benefit me in the long run because im so used to taking the easy way out that i seem to give up easily(?) andddd my type... honestly i dont have one? as long as you’re a decent human being with strong values (that are at least the same as mine) i think you and i will get along great. i identify myself as bisexual and im a female, i do want to get married someday but the idea of tying the knot still kind of scares me bc i dont have much commitment issues (other than improving myself bc thats gonna take a lot of time and effort) i easily get attached to people but the thought of getting attached but slowly losing the person you grew attached to is what scares me,,, soooo yea

to start off i love sushi and mint choco ice cream aaaa like they bring so much joy to my life anddd i really enjoy chocolate milk oh and cheese!! i loveeee cheese hehe 🤩 i love dogs (and cats but im kinda scared of them) and ive always wanted a dog as a pet but my mom is TERRIFIED of them so when i got to visit dog cafes just to cry with the dogs bc i wanted one so bad was a ✨great✨ experience. i used to dislike my curly hair but after having it rebonded for 3-4 consecutive years, i finally learned to love my curls bc i am pretty just the way i am and no one can tell me otherwise 🥰 i dislike rude people like REALLY REALLY rude people like i dont get it how someone can be raised with no manners like its my BIGGEST PET PEEVE especially when it comes to people who treat servers/waiters/cashiers poorly like??? they’re doing their job and their job isnt tolerating your awful personality!!! such a turn off i swear 🤢 uhh the first thing i would notice in a person is their body language and how they talk about themselves? idk its just that i can feel it if the person genuinely wants to get to know me or they’re just there for the sake of it i guess, ive always read people and observed them before fulling getting to know them so their body language kinda speaks loudly sometimes??? idk if that made sense but yea hdidbdidj lastlyy idk how to answer that but i guess people would describe me as someone who is ill tempered (i only show that side to people REALLY REALLY close to me) and i may somewhat come off as bitchy or demanding but i do it with good intentions (solely bc only those who really know me know how much of a crybaby i am and that i literally cry over every single thing...) i used to be a bad listener but lately i guess i listen to others more and somehow it helps me get to understand things in another perspective? so before i get overly emotional over a dilemma, i think about the other person or other people involved and try to understand where they’re coming from and try to understand why they’re acting the way they are anddd yea, that’s me?? i guess aaa hope it helped and hope you didnt get a headache while reading this, i hope you’ll get enough rest and stay safe and hydrated!! -🌞

HIIII, well so from Enhypen I ship you with Jake!

I think your differences in personalities would blend so greatly and he would be able to bring out the best in you. He’s quite dominant as a person and is good at being ”pushy”, which I think would suit you. He could be able to help you when you’re shy and he drinks his respect people juice every day SO HE WOULD NEVER JUDGE YOU.

From Stray Kids I pair you with Hyunjin. I think the similarities would fit you two and he’s very good at understanding people so he would definitely try his best to meet your standards. And while he can seem all cuddly and cute bleugh blah, he’s dominant and can lead the way if needed. Although he isn’t one to want to lead a whole group he can if needed, he doesn’t have a problem with that AND I THINK THAT’S WHAT YOU MIGHT NEED. Someone who’s not afraid to be themselves regardless of where or who they are with.

From TXT I pair you with Taehyun! Okay I just gotta say, TXT is the most polite group I’ve ever seen. Have you seen To Do, for example? They never hesitate to clean up after themselves and- WELL YOU GET WHAT I MEAN. ANYWAYS, Taehyun is good at mostly everything. To me he doesn’t seem like the type to get attached easily but I believe if he finds the right one he would do anything to keep the love alive. I think his cold demeanour could be rubbed away by you and you’d be like a power couple (sounds cheesy but yeah) who bicker-fight and compete a lot (you can’t tell me Taehyun isn’t competitive, ight?).

Thanks for requesting!

Wait ok this is nsfw but WHEN I WAS LOOKING AT GIFS THIS POPPED UP?

AND LIKE- IMAGINE YOU AND HYUNJIN AFTER A FIGHT. HE COMES TO APOLOGIZE BY DOING THIs- BYE MY HEAD IS RUNNING AWAY.

[omglr]

totally a pro-life young asian woman in ohio, not a guy.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

You both like abortion, and feminism.

Stranger: hi

You: hi

Stranger: are you pro choice or pro life?

You: choice

You: you?

Stranger: life

Stranger: and no i am not an old white man i am a young asian female

You: uhh.... ok

You: doubtful but ok

Stranger: yea just to get that out of the way

Stranger: 50 percent of women are pro life and 50 percent of men are pro life

You: yeah, i doubt that is an accurate stat

Stranger: oh really?

Stranger: roughly**

Stranger: roughly 50 percent

You: yeah, where would it come from?

You: world wide?

Stranger: in the US

Stranger: im only concerned with the US at the moment when it comes to abortion

You: what state do yo live in?

Stranger: ohio

You: i live in canada

Stranger: isnt canada pro choice

Stranger: all stages of pregnancy?

You: yeah, for the most part

Stranger: isnt it a law

You: i think only in emergencies for third trimester

You: and one province doesn't have any services for it, but its a small one

Stranger: well yea you had six months

You: yeah

You: i think it works well

Stranger: okay

Stranger: are you for abortion during all stages of pregnancy?

You: ehhhh, i think third trimester is pushing it, but i've never had to make that decision

Stranger: so why do you think abortion is okay during the other trimesters?

You: cause the fetus isn't developed enough to have thoughts or feelings, its more like a tumor than a newborn

Stranger: sure it doesnt have a heartbeat, but what about people with a pacemaker?

Stranger: during the second trimester the fetus can feel everything

You: what about the mother's though, they are the ones who have to carry the baby to term, that sucks for them if they don't want it

You: i don't care about the feelings of an unborn baby vs the feeling of someone i can talk to

Stranger: if they were being reckless, it is their fault. over 80 percent of abortions are done for convenience due to irresponsibility

You: yeah, well, women are punished for dudes recklessness too

You: which isn't fair

Stranger: less than one percent of abortions are done due to rape and incest

You: yeah, but 100% are due to men fucking women

Stranger: how do you know that? of course its due to women and men having sex! if two women fuck each other they cant get pregnant

You: yeah, but men aren't acting responsibly either and they don't get stigmatized like women

Stranger: still, why should we punish the fetus?

You: they should be getting vasectomies until they are ready for fatherhood

You: bringing a life into a world where it isn't wanted is far more cruel

Stranger: so you think it'd be better off dead?

Stranger: you cant take back a vasectomy

You: yeah, they are reversable

You: takes some microsurgery, but you can always freeze some sperm too

Stranger: why not just use a bloody condom for gods sake

You: yeah, condoms break

Stranger: when you have sex you have to accept the responsibility of the fact that you can get pregnant. it is still on them. they chose to have sex

You: mmmm well people could also use some better sex education in schools

Stranger: yea that too

Stranger: everyone needs to be educated on how to have safe sex

You: yeah, and their could be better programs to house people and feed them and help them raise a child

Stranger: yea and thats a good abortion alternative

You: but like, if a woman needs an abortion to keep her life on track i'll take her word for it

You: its real easy to get crushed by poverty

Stranger: and it would be their fault if they were being reckless...

You: meh, sex is like one of the few joys people can get though

Stranger: there are so many other joys aside from intercourse

You: and if the world was less cruel and the rich weren't hording wealth the sex folks have wouldn't be considered reckless

Stranger: what does that have to do with abortion???

You: its "reckless" cause they are super poor and can't afford children

You: but its not their fault they are super poor

Stranger: then dont have sex

Stranger: dont have sex

You: but why?

Stranger: why do you have to have sex?

You: cause it feels good? and it builds a bond with a partner, and its good exercise, and its good for your mental health

You: and its free

Stranger: there are other non-sexual, bond-building, loving things to do with your partner.

You: and orgasms are a gift from god

Stranger: if you dont have any form of birth control, dont have sex

You: yeah, but again, a lot of people don't have access to education or birth control and a lot of rich people are happy about that

You: its a rigged system

Stranger: they probably dont have access to education due to the irresponsibility of their parents

You: who were also poor

You: which is not a failure

Stranger: theyre probably poor because of their poor life choices

You: its a systematic problem

Stranger: how so?

You: because poor people can't just become rich

You: its incredibly hard to do that

Stranger: yea but theyre probably poor because of what theyve done to themselves

You: that's very ignorant

Stranger: capitalism exists and has lifted so many americans out of poverty

You: lol, capitalism thrives on poverty

You: its strips the wealth from the laborers and pulls it upwards to the exploiter class

Stranger: nearly 1 billion people have been lifted out of poverty thanks to capitalism

You: g2g

Stranger: and the free market

You have disconnected.

my girlfriend needed help so i had to go, but lol, i call bullshit on this "asian girl" only boring dudes drop the line "Free market"