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i hate this town so much i want to explode
#i need to get out of here because the weight of being here is literally going to make me break down#i dont want to be here i dont want to be here i dont want to be here#it is actively driving me insane#im so tired of being scared and exhausted and stir crazy because there is nothing to do!!!!#i cant even walk anywhere because of this stupid fucking suburb!!!#i hate it here more than i can put into words!!#i want out so bad but i need to figure out how because it is crushing me and im only one person#idk what to do anymore
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the funniest (tragic) thing is multiple times and in different canons bruce HAS tried healthier coping methods and life choices than being 'just' batman. he journals and its stolen and hes blackmailed with it and alfred is put at risk because of it. he skips patrol for a date and people are killed. hes goes to therapists and they either try to kill him or end up getting killed, leading bruce to blame himself and not attempt it again. he rests while being sick and wakes up exhausted and in pain and feeling guilty because he thinks of how many aren't waking up because of his need to sleep.
but when hes paranoid, hes more likely to benefit for it. from contingency plans to obsessive training to get through a fight or a dangerous situation. from excessive research to solve crimes and help people to pushing his body constantly because his weakness can be what gets someone killed. hes keeping people at arms length the best he can lest they hurt him and what hes fighting for or end up being killed because tragedy follows him like a hungry dog waiting for its next meal.
sure, his obsessiveness blows up in his face sometimes. hes scolded for it, people feel betrayed from it, hes isolate because of it. but if people get away, dont they usually end up better? he'll rather care from afar and know theyre safe but hate him then chance them being killed or used as a weapon because he wasn't prepared.
hes caught always feeling selfish for his love, something thats always fueled him and his choices, because he knows what it brings. hes caught feeling guilty in his attempts of normality and wanting a real life because then who will take care of gotham and who is he to say his happiness is worth more than the strangers on the street lives? hes always punished if he attempts happiness and hes punished when he attempts to always be prepared—the only difference is the later usually doesn't have as many people being killed. so without fail, every single time, bruce is going to sacrifice his own life and his own happiness so others can have it instead. and usually, its the 'right' choice, all other options leading to something terrible.
#i love run on sentence <3#doomed to always bear the burden of sisyphus because hes in a comic book.... bleeding heart bruce wayne you drive me insane !#like canon usually rewards him for it or says he has a reaosn to be paranoid. even if misdirected he ALWAYS has a reason to be suspicious#and that everytime he even attempts basic self care (eating a fucking meal!) he deems it as selfish and above what he deserves#is satisfying his hunger worth the minutes hes distracted? the lives that are actively at risk? is getting rest worth more than them?#and hes going to find the answer isalways no. it isnt worth more. and the canon is always going to agree with it.#ransom note#batman#bruce wayne
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Please for the love of fuck I want to stop seeing whitewashed Kakuzu in my feed y’all better start tagging that shit
#kakuzu#fandom annoyances#this drives me insane#and then I feel even crazier seeing how many people still interact with it???#this is the hill I die on though#rant#whitewashed Kakuzu is real whitewashed Kakuzu is actively hurting me get that dude out of my face please
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was just thinking abt how noah and eva are probably amazing babysitters atp purely through keeping izzy and (to a lesser extent) owen from getting themselves put in hospital or prison so naturally this thought expanded into thinking abt how they'd absolutely run a babysitting monopoly if they lived in the same area, like they'd have that shit on LOCK
anyway, my vision is that original go-to babysitters alejandro and courtney are Not Happy abt the new kids in town taking their business, esp cause they're so good with the more difficult/rowdy kids that alejandro and courtney always struggled with, and this rivalry develops into an all-out babysitting turf war
like they're developing special deals for parents, trying to come up with the best low-cost trips to take the kids on, noah and courtney get their driver's licences and suddenly there's day trips out of town being brought up
meanwhile the town's parents are just cheering cause there's now four babysitters in town that give great deals and are generally amazing with their kids
#alenoah rivals to lovers for funsies lmao#this au is so stupid 😭😭😭#the further into the turf war we get it slowly develops into alejandro and noah making heart eyes at each other#meanwhile eva and courtney are actively trying not get into a fist fight w each other#babysitter turf war au#i think this cold i've got is driving me insane cause wtf is this 😭😭#alenoah
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I FEEL SO ABSOLUTELY CHEATED I WISH WE GOT TO EITHER BREAK KRISTOPH'S LOCKS OR MOOD MATRIX HIM!
#kristoph gavin#hes such a creature i need to lovingly examine i cant believe#capcom why oh why do we have like 0% gavin brothers lore this is driving me insane#so much wasted potential with his character :( but i love him all the same#i can fix him#i can make him worse#i have an active imagination anyways lets make up some lore
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Request charity
p.s. correct answer goes to whoever can put these bastards in an alignment chart for kicks
#So sick of tagging a dozen different things just to make my posts accessible. I want people to find my content no matter what they search#But what are they even searching/following it drives me insane#So please offer insight I could look at the most popular tags among them but I don’t know how that really reflects on the active fandom#And that won’t get me an alignment chart#Anyway#silmarillion#silm#the silmarillion#the silm fandom#the silm#tolkien#silm fandom#jrr tolkien#tolkien legendarium#silmarillion fandom#Oh my god#Silm polls
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I keep thinking about how sad and unfair Ice King/Simon's relationship with Fionna and Cake was in the main Adventure Time series. We all made fun of him for writing gender bent fanfiction of Finn and Jake. Characters cringed at how obsessive Ice King got about his fantasies, the lengths he went to so they could be real. He believed so fiercely in those ideas that he acted out in ways that were extreme even for him.
Typical Adventure Time to take a gag and make it into something serious.
Because Fionna and Cake WERE real. Prismo created them and their world and then dropped it into Ice King's head. Yes, he had permission but did IK know the reason? The risks? What even was happening? Or did Prismo take advantage of the fact that Simon was a prisoner in his own mind with little agency to force more confusion into his scattered and incoherent brain. How much of his actions was the result of a godlike being knowing that Ice King's resultant behavior would be written off and dismissed.
In addition to the loss of sanity and identity Simon had to deal with over his years as Ice King, he also had the burden on an entire universe of living people living in his head adding to his delusions. How devastating that must have been for someone who could barely tell what was real on a good day.
#adventure time#fionna and cake#i cant keep this in anymore ive been thinking about it since i finished my F&C rewatch#like NO WONDER simon was so bitchy to prismo in the time room#dude admits to committing full on elder abuse#Im a nurse and watching IK is like watching one of my dementia patients#he needs structure and support and instead is burdoned with something he didnt ask for nor understand#and the resulting delerium is just brushed aside as usual ice king craziness#but it actively caused him harm as he became lost in the VERY REAL world in his head#I feel like this should've been adressed a bit more#of Prismo acknowledging the hurt he caused#and Simon should be more vocal to Oooians that fionna and cake are real and he was merely a conduit of their world#idk man no matter how you look at Ice King his whole thing is so sad#it makes me sad drives me insane
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I’m so sad I can’t partake in art fight stuff due to the really bad timing on my end bc it’s the busiest season at work, as well as I haven’t been able to finish any art for myself for ages now and I’m trying to catch up on it bc it keeps getting pushed back (basically I wish I had more time to draw 😔 I’m also slow af so I’m triple cursed, ugh)
(Granted I’ve never done any kind of art fight before, but even then… maybe next year…? Lol. Tho I so wish it wasn’t in July bc it’s such a cursed time for me /sobs. I’ve always watched it happen as a spectator but I’ve only ever been a lurker).
#blabbering#it just looks like so much fun and I keep missing fun things and events and stuff and it bums me out#but I really do wanna get lore art done bc it’s driving me insane bc I wanna do it so badly#but I wanna do stuff like this too#ugh there is no winning for me lmao#idk maybe I’m just not cut out for it either. that’s always a possibility (depressing as it may be)#idk I think I’m just depressed about the amount of events and fun activities I keep missing due to timing and life stuff#also just for the social aspect as well#after dealing with customer service shit and capitalism bs all the time it gets lonely in my world bc i'm on my own#and I crave whatever socializing i can get bc it's ALL I can get and I have to constantly fight my social anxieties despite that#the struggle of being hella introverted and under socialized while craving connections
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listen to me,, listen to me
*grips you by the shoulders trembling breathing heavily eyes wide and clearly feral*
the Unwitness Protection Program was a patrol name in William's boy scout troop that they just clung to after the next troop election, and i will stand by that-
#im 95% sure im the only boy scout in the active fanbase and its driving me insane#dragons chatting#william wisp#jrwi#just roll with it#jrwi prime defenders#jrwi pd#jrwi william wisp#just roll with it prime defenders
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the slow dancing in the bar comes frrom FLOWERS FOR CHARLIE?
#Mac being FULL WELL AND READY to lean in is driving me insane#not even ready like he actively takes those steps forward and leans in#im going insane#MacDennis
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Flabbergasted that my friend group are actively pursuing a friendship with another group in our year whose entire dynamic consists of ableist slurs, Hitler and pedo jokes, AI generated orangutan images, and racist jabs at Arabs through constant 9/11 “gags”. Are we fucking 12 years old. We’re at fucking university grow up bitch
#how does it feel to be the unfunniest group of men alive#how tf do I even approach this with them#like my friends have actively started using more ableist and classist slurs#I say more because one of them has been echoing whatever her rich parents say#and it was already driving me fucking insane#and now they’re all saying the same things now
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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#hi i have not been around much because my internet died#not that it was cut off. the modem literally died.#so pleased id finished and scheduled my ray set on monday lol#i will likely miss my self imposed monday deadline of ep10 sets because i can't get shit fixed til wednesday#anyway life fell apart for a bit and then took an abrupt left turn#i'm currently living in a romcom and the plot twist is i think i'm the love interest#so that's new and i'm spending a lot of time completely baffled by it atm#i used valuable data to watch peaceful property and i'll still kill for new/home btw he's actively killing me every week#anyway back to living like a caveman bc mobile drives me insane#i love you all thank u for existing#so it is decreed
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I think it was a leisure day and it was the first time they went out for the whole day as a family
#ts3#ts3 gameplay#strange lepacy#strange 1#it was driving me insane as a player tbh#the fact that there's not much you can do with babies and toddlers outside and so they either stay home with a nanny or you grab them along#to do v limited activities#cant wait for finley to grow up
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I should stfu abt it but truly my sister's fiance is such an immature bad person and she should break up w him in my humble opinion like I Want her to get married and be happy but he's a walking talking red flag literally astonishing how bad he is under the guise of introverted shy nerd uwu
#puts insane expectations on her such as: looking flawless but also never making any effort to look good because that's so 'shallow'#studying 24/7 for literally no logical reason like she has a full time job she's gonna start a masters in October why the fuck would she#study now???#points out any 'flaw' in her and then tells her she's disappointing his expectations#wants to talk to her 24/7 and lashes out whenever she doesnt#is broke so she's paying much more than she should tbh .#but also makes her feel guilty abt it because he's insecure???#criticises her whenever she has any body hair because he's a fucking CHILD .#idfk what she sees in him it's driving me crazy#he literally made her a shell of her former self because of how draining and overwhelming and demanding he is#and she KNOWS but she's actively ignoring it#whatever the fuckkkkk
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going to think about how NMJ died before he turned 30 the same way his father died (at probably older than thirty but we don't actually know that) and then about how NHS at the temple was older than NMJ ever got to be and oh boy! time to lie down and cry again because why not!!!
After nearly/possibly half his life spent trying to get some sort of justice for his father's death (while people routinely pretended things were fine) and the Sunshot Campaign (which was a war that gave lots of other people trauma and ptsd) he spent the last year or more of his life going insane (caused by external sources) and then died.
do I have anything coherent to say about this? no! no I don't! I just scream into the void about the Nie bros forever!
#da-ge posting hours again#this is a nie brothers stan blog in case you couldn't tell#nie mingjue#nie huaisang#this isn't even meta this is just me screaming into the void#thinking about how NMJ spent his teens 1) raising NHS and 2) having to go to work parties with his father's murderer#and not cause an incident about it#and then his twenties either 1) fighting in sunshot or 2) actively dying post sunshot#does it ever drive anyone else insane to think about this
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