#it makes me legitimately nauseous. if she actually does it im done

[ouroboobos]

my mother keeps talking about how shes gonna write about about her craaazy life and all the terrible things she went through. if she does it i might actually kms

[rosymiel]

1-100.. bitch

oh FUCK you (im jk.. i love you..)

The meaning behind my url: i love french, and so i wanted to spice up my url and have it not be sims related from the get-go (my previous url was ughplumb). at first i wanted my url to be “cherry wine” in french because my favorite song of all time is cherry wine by hozier, however the url was already taken. i settled for rosy honey, hence rosymiel

A picture of me: honestly just look at my tag “kyla has a face”! i don’t have any new selfies of myself aside from what i’ve posted.

How many tattoos i have and what they are: i only have one, and it’s right in between my shoulder blades on my back. it’s of my family’s crest, which says “miseris succurrere disco”, which basically means to help people in need.

Last time i cried and why: last night because i was watching queer eye

Piercings i have: i used to have my ears pierced, but i hated keeping track of my earrings so i just let them close up. i wish i never let them close up, and now i also want to get my nose pierced 

Favorite band: i don’t really listen to any bands, just artists!

Biggest turn offs: burping and chewing sounds. chewing sounds legitimately anger me so much, i don’t know why

Top 5 songs: Cherry Wine (Hozier), Rain On Me (Joji), IDFC (Blackbear), I Love You (Billie Eilish), The Night We Met (Lord Huron)

Tattoos I want: OHHHHH MY GOD i want so many!!!! i just honestly want my body to be covered in flower tattoos to the point that i’m just a walking garden!! i really want to get a pair of watercolor roses or lilies right under my collarbones!!

Biggest turn ons: good cologne. i don’t know why, but cologne makes me go insane, i love it so much

Age: 18 going on 19!

Ideas of a perfect date: relaxing at home and cuddling with my boyfriend while watching our favorite show

Life goal: oh god this is super deep and i’ve sat on this question for a fat minute and all i can think about is how much i want to be content with myself, so i guess that’s my goal

Piercings i want: nose and ear piercings, babie!!!

Relationship status: happily taken!

Favorite movie: oh god, probably across the universe. i’ve loved it ever since i was a kid

A fact about my life: i’ve been in choir almost all my life

Phobia: the dark. when i was a kid i used to see faces on my walls when my room was dark

Middle name: marie

Height: 5′5.5 (basically just 5′6)

Are you a virgin?: yessirree 

What’s your shoe size?: 7

What’s your sexual orientation?: i’m pretty straight, but i think i’m heteroflexible. i’d definitely get down and nasty with a girl, but i’ve never felt any romantic attraction towards females

Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?: no, my parents smoked cigarettes for most of my life, and my dad regularly smokes weed. the smell of weed makes my head hurt and makes me feel nauseous, so no thanks.

Someone you miss: my boyfriend. he’s been on a family trip to cuba, and he hasn’t contacted anyone (including me) in almost 10 days. i miss him so much that it genuinely hurts.

What’s one thing you regret?: not learning to love myself sooner and finding comfort in feeling depressed because it’s something familiar

First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: zendaya 

Favorite ice cream?: i don’t eat a whole lot of ice cream, so i guess cookies and cream

One insecurity: my teeth. my two teeth next to my front teeth are pointed, and i used to get called a vampire when i was young. i was always bullied for it, and for most of my life i would cover my mouth with my hand whenever i laughed or smiled. a recent incident that comes to mind was sophomore year in high school in my english class. i sat next to my friend mooney (i called her by her last name because we met in gym), and one day she was talking to the guy infront of her about how pretty she thought i was, and how she thought that i could’ve been a model. the guy who sat in front of me, who’s name was tristan and was also in my choir the previous year, said that i’d be pretty with me if my teeth weren’t so fucked up. 

What my last text message says: “god this fan feels so nice”

Have you ever taken a picture naked?: :)

Have you ever painted your room?: no, but i’ve tried painting the bathroom with my mom

Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?: nope

Have you ever slept naked?: yeah?????????

Have you ever danced in front of your mirror?: i can’t dance, so absolutely not

Have you ever had a crush?: yeah??!??!?!!? ofc. i had a major crush on my current boyfriend, and he had a crush on me first before we started dating. it’s actually a really cute story

Have you ever been dumped?: yeah, twice. my last one was really brutal, but not because of how he dumped me.

Have you ever stole money from a friend?: nope

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?: nope

Have you ever been in a fist fight?: nope

Have you ever snuck out of your house?: nah, i’m a goody-two-shoes

Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?: oh HELL yeah

Have you ever been arrested?: nope, and not planning on it!

Have you ever made out with a stranger?: nope!! 

Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?: not in a sexual or romantic way, no

Have you ever left your house without telling your parents?: nah

Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor?: i don’t think so??

Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun?: i ditched my nesika (which was like homeroom, but only two days of the week rather than daily) to go to a coffee stand with a friend

Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?: not in a sexual or romantic way

Have you ever seen someone die?: no, and i really don’t want to :^(

Have you ever been on a plane?: yup!! i love it

Have you ever kissed a picture?: maybe…………… :’^)

Have you ever slept in until 3?: oh my GOD no. i fall asleep relatively early and wake up early, even on my days off.

Have you ever loved someone or miss someone right now?: yeah??? lowkey this question is phrased in a weird way

Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?: oh my god yes, it’s so relaxing

Have you ever made a snow angel?: yup!!!!

Have you ever played dress up?: oh HELL yes i have!!!

Have you ever cheated while playing a game?: okay does anyone remember doing the stock market game in freshmen year/middle school in history class? my friend and i looked up the answers online and cheated. we were rich that day in that class.

Have you ever been lonely?: i’m lonely right now

Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school?: maybe for 10 seconds, but no

Have you ever been to a club?: nope!

Have you ever felt an earthquake?: i don’t think so, no

Have you ever touched a snake?: SDKJGBSD NO!!!!!

Have you ever ran a red light?: nope!

Have you ever been suspended from school?: nope!!!!

Have you ever had detention?: i had lunch detention for saying “stfu” to a guy who was bugging me in 5th grade. i thought i was the shit for that.

Have you ever been in a car accident?: nope!

Have you ever hated the way you look?: 100%. i’ve always had huge insecurities surrounding my body or how i look.

Have you ever witnessed a crime?: bruh i literally stole a pack of gum from a store when i was 4. i COMMITTED a crime. in my defense, i stole it for my mom to make her happy. i got yelled at

Have you ever pole danced?: nope, but i would love to! it looks like a really good workout!

Have you ever been lost?: i got lost just last week

Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?: nope!!! i don’t travel much

Have you ever felt like dying?: yes. i used to be suicidal

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?: hell yeah babie!

Have you ever sang karaoke?: i sing karaoke on youtube almost every single day. not only that, but on the first day of practicing for my high school graduation i stopped by my choir class before it began (seniors got out earlier than everyone else), and i sang karaoke with them.

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?: 100%

Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?: NO?!?!?!?!?!?!?

Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?: no

Have you ever kissed in the rain?: how can u kiss the rain. bruh.

Have you ever sang in the shower?: i sang in the shower earlier today

Have you ever made out in a park?: nope!

Have you ever dream that you married someone?: yep!!!!

Have you ever glued your hand to something?: i don’t think so????

Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?: no, but i got my tongue stuck to one of those metal low monkey bar things.

Have you ever gone to school partially naked?: no?????

Have you ever been a cheerleader?: no, but my childhood friend and i wanted to be cheerleaders in high school before i moved to a different state

Have you ever sat on a roof top?: nope

Have you ever brushed your teeth?: who are you, my mom?

Have you ever been too scared to watch scary movies alone?: oh my GOD yes

Have you ever played chicken?: nope!! im a pussy

Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: nope!

Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?: not that i’m hot, but i’ve gotten many compliments from strangers

Have you ever broken a bone?: nope!

Have you ever been easily amused?: i used to be one of those kids that would laugh before they could finish a joke

Have you ever laughed so hard you cried?: i’ve laughed so hard that i’ve pissed myself. so yes.

Have you ever mooned/flashed someone?: i mean????

Have you ever cheated on a test?: i cheated on a 2nd grade spelling test. who knew that i would end up actually being great at spelling shit

Have you ever forgotten someone’s name?: oh my god i have the worst memory and i’m terrible with names

Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?: my boyfriend :’’’’^)

Give us one thing about you that no one knows: a couple friends know, but when i’m too lazy to throw on shoes or socks to walk around the house i just pull my sweatpants legs a bit over my feet and just wrap it around my feet. it’s weird

[fuck-customers]

Tl;dr at the bottom, this is long sorry ^^;

Straight up fuck my old store manager (and a few other coworkers). I used to work for the Orange Home Improvement store. I’ve submitted plenty of posts before now about this horrible store (apparently it was just my particular store and store manager…) anyway, let me step back. I had decided to take a break from college to try and get myself a good, stable job. In the mean time, I needed a job that would pay for my needs and wants, so I applied to a bunch of places and got hired on the spot at this home improvement place. I thought it was going to be fantastic, and it was! By the end of the first month, I had decided that I REALLY liked it there and genuinely would not mind STAYING there for a long time. Sure I had bad customers, especially since I worked the customer service desk, but my supervisor and most of the managers always backed me the fuck up so it was nbd.

Flash forward another month and I was discussing my life plans with another coworker. One of those plans involved me purchasing a car within the year and a house within the next 4 years. There’s no reason for that to not be a possibility for me, but because I’m young, baby-boomers have made it a point to try and shoot me down strictly because of my age and pretend like they know how much money I have in savings and like they know what my credit score is. My baby-boomer store manager, who I had worked around and seen for a collective 10 minutes (not even that long) in the 2 months I had worked there, eavesdropped on the conversation and told me that wasn’t possible to do. I know she said this because, at the time, I was only 20 years old and that was reason enough for her to believe I wouldn’t manage to be successful. I ignored her and kept talking to my coworker. SM decided to join us at our table and join in the convo. She kept saying things to passive aggressively turn me down (comparing me to her failures basically), yadda-yadda. Basically being a straight up bitch for no reason.

Flash forward one more month (3 months working there now) and I get a customer complaint. I think this was my first one, actually. Keep in mind I have 100’s across the board and have kept 100’s since my first day regarding my customer service scores. I think I had like one 99, but that was it. If I was a cashier, I would have wiped the floor with the other cashiers and been cashier of the month every month. A contractor came in on a Saturday (this was before the company decided to keep the contractor desk open on the weekends) and they wanted an install on their account to be edited. They were already pissed because the contractor desk was closed and they were “running late” like these types of customers always tend to be. I politely informed them that the contractor desk is always closed on weekends, always has been, and that I had never been trained on how to edit installs. Our store system is fairly complicated, so it would be hard for me to make guesses without risking screwing something up so I told them I’d call a manager up. I called the only manager on duty, but he was busy. I told the contractor that and said I’d take a look to see if this particular thing happened to be straight forward because some of these process were straight forward, others were as complicated as they could get. Anyway, they could see my computer screen, so they could see what I was doing and that I was trying to fix this for them. After about 5 minutes, I called the manager back. He had run into a bigger problem and would be even longer now. I told the contractor and said “Let me see if I can get a hold of someone from that department, maybe they know how to edit installs” to at least try and dump these assholes on someone else. I called that department several times and paged several times and received no answer. I also called the head cashier to see if she had any idea how to do this (she didn’t). I apologized, said the manager was extremely busy but he’d be up here a.s.a.p., and said “Let me take another look at your order to see if I missed something”. I kept my cool on the outside. Anyway, you know how this ends. I tried my damndest to help, but it wasn’t enough because they were “in a hurry” and don’t know how to manage their time and that’s obviously my fault too. It’s also my fault that it took the manager 15 minutes to get to us. When they complained to corporate they even lied and said I just stood there and did nothing. Another customer a few days later decided that me standing at the counter late at night after finishing all my closing duties just prior to the store closing was me “Being bored and not wanting my job”, so THEY complained too, saying “I just don’t feel like she wants her job” like ????? Fuck off???? Store manager pulled me in her office and put me on final warning over those two things. I received no warning beforehand, I was basically put on the chopping block. All that would have needed to happen to get me fired was an old lady coming in and complaining about me not selling her a cookie even though we are a hardware store and don’t sell cookies. Part of her decision to put me on final warning was also because “Every time I’ve worked with you, you just seem off or upset or like you don’t enjoy your job”. Every time she worked with me, which was a whopping total of about 15 minutes in a 3 month period, I basically just acted casual. I’m an unfortunate sufferer of R.B.F., so I guess that’s my bad for assuming my manager would know that I’m a-okay and just dropping my fake af customer service persona and know that I’m not actually pissed off or bored or upset or whatever someone feels like reading my relaxed expression as that day, that’s just what my face looks like when I’m relaxed. One of those times she was with me, I was suffering from side effects from my medication and was feeling VERY nauseous and I had told her what was going on, but whatever. I’m supposed to be a robot, incapable of needing medicine or getting sick, so that’s my fault.

Another thing that got to me was one day when it was SUPER hot and humid outside, the HR manager asked the front end people (she asked all of us, but it ended up being only me doing all the work) to get some big displays ready for a set up. I’m talking like, big pieces of lumber, heavy sheets of plywood, all moved, painted, and generally set up. This all fell on me because tbh our one cashier that day was kind of prissy, but that’s fine. If construction isn’t your thing, that’s fine. Keep your nails and makeup pretty, I’ll do the dirty work. Just hand me something I need every now and then when I ask (and she did, she was one of my favorite coworkers). I love construction type work and I’m very good at it (minus the heavy lifting, I’m 5’4” and 120 pounds, there’s only so much weight I can lift). So on top of being on the side of the store with the only non-functioning a/c unit, it being over 100 farenheit outside, and the humidity being ridiculous because it’s Tennessee, I had to do all of this work. It didn’t help that our box fans had been taken away by the store manager, I guess because some customer complained. Needless to say I didn’t smell like flowers after I was done. HR manager decided to pull me into her office about 2 hours later and said “People are complaining about your…how do I put this gently…smell…” like no shit bitch, I know I smell bad, you don’t have to fucking sugar coat it. This is a home improvement store during a Tennessee summer, the contractors alone are enough to make you want to break your nose so it won’t smell anymore, but I get it because they are out working and they don’t have much of an option, short of getting in trouble and not getting paid. She just kinda put this dumb face on when I responded with “Well, I was the only person working on that display that we’re trying to set up and you do know that the a/c unit over that part of the store does not work. It’s also really hot outside and our box fans are missing (can’t accuse the managers of taking our fans even though we know that’s what happened, that’s a no no). There’s only so much my deodorant and perfume can do, I’m really sorry. But I got the display done for you!” Like, tell it to someone who cares. Either do this shit yourself or leave me alone when I break a sweat because our new cashier doesn’t want to break her nails or get a splinter and you haven’t gotten someone out to fix the a/c yet. (We got our fans back the next day btw.)

Needless to say, I fucking hated this place at this point in time. I loved most of the coworkers and would have loved staying, but I would not be able to survive or manage with such a shitty store manager and, hell I don’t even have a word for the HR manager. She’s just majored in idiocy I guess. I started applying everywhere I could and, 2 months later, landed a job working for my state government (which is where I still work over a year later and I LOVE it so much). I noped the hell out of the hardware store, gave them a notice, left in good terms, etc (the HR manager tried to guilt me into staying, but I straight up shot her down. I had been trying to change departments since I got put on final warning and I coincidentally did not receive a legitimate offer to swap until I turned in my 2 weeks notice ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ )

Anyway, it’s been barely over a year since I left that hell-hole and not only do I love my job and have a really nice, new car now, but I’m buying a house at the age of 21. We close on January 10th (for those unfamiliar with housing terms, Closing means that we sign the final paperwork, pay our realtors, and I get the keys to my house and I get to move in the next day). It’s not even like I had to get a hovel of a house. Im going into this purchase with $30k in equity (this house was appraised $30k higher than what I’m paying), this house is younger than me, has 3 bed rooms and 2 full baths, is in a SUPER nice neighborhood, is within walking distance to so much stuff, and the worst thing about it is that it’s a little bit of a commute and it’s just a bit outdated on the inside, so I will definitely have to do some renovations. Guess who has a new, super fuel efficient car and loves construction work, though :)

Fun little tid-bit, the store manager and HR manager both fill in as paint mixers when the other guys aren’t there and they aren’t there a lot. I’m 100% planning on being a petty asshole and going out of my way to that store just so they can mix my paint for me. I’ve got nothing against the store, they still get my business for sure. I just want to be a bitch and let the store and HR managers know just how much better off I am now, to the point that I’m willing to go out of my way to go to this particular store. I’ve already talked up and down about how nice my new car is (I went from a ’99 chevy tahoe to a 2014 chevy spark, so it was a pretty awesome change for me. My car is actually me-sized now)

TL;DR : I took a break from college to get a good job, landed one at the orange home improvement place, ended up loving it and wanting to stay there. The store manager eavesdropped on my convo with a coworker and told me that my plans to buy a new car within the year and a house within 4 years were horse shit (most likely only on the basis that I am young), treated me like shit while I worked there, tried to fire me because of some REALLY horse shit reasons (typical customer hearsay vs my word) despite the fact that I was the best performing front end person, even better than the head cashiers. The HR manager didn’t make it any better, so I got a new job that I still currently love and work at over a year later and now I have a really nice, new car and I’m about to close on a really nice house…All within a 2 year span. Now I’m going to be a petty jerk and make those two mix the paint for my walls and listen to me relentlessly talk about how excited I am to own my own house and renovate my own place because I’m still pissed.