#it wouldnt change anything but it feels relieving to feel like im being taken seriously and i think she would have needed that

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I saw a tweet and got reminded I have diagnosed depression. I need to go back in time to tell 12yo me who was weirdly interested in reading and researching about depression that she was so right.

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My truemate pt10

Catch up here ONE TWO THREE FOUR FIVE SIX SEVEN EIGHT NINE

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Word Count: 2,515

“Its nice to meet you Dean, Y/n you know its ok I can find a ride to pick me up. I can call my brother, you dont need to drop me off” he says stepping away from you and you go stand beside Sam.

“You know thats how exactly you look like when you saw Sarah at the sewing shop” you whisper to him as the both of you look at Dean who is just struggling to form anything together.

“Are you sure? I have no problems with driving you home” you say to Castiel while he is dialing his brothers number on his cell phone.

“Michael, would it be alright if you came to pick me up at 174 Poughkeepsie Road?” Castiel goes silent for a moment for his brother to answer his question.

“I work with y/n, she hired me today” he goes silent again.

“Ok I will wait here then” he hangs up the phone with his brother.

“Is he going to pick you up?” Sam asks breaking the silence that has been lurking in the office.

“Yeah he said he is going to be by in a minute, he said he was doing a delivery near by and said wouldnt be a problem” he says getting his jacket from the couch.

“I could walk you to the door and wait with you outside” you say moving to the door.

“I could” Dean finally says after so long.

“NO!! Sam stay with Dean while I go wait with Castiel” you growl to Dean and Sam does what he is being told.

Castiel who looks on and has a smile on his face while walking out of the office with you.

“Well seems as though I found my mate” he says as you both walk out of the house and sit on the porch steps to wait for his brother to drive up the long drive way to pick up Castiel.

“Well so much for us adopting” you say while looking away from Castiel almost sounding hurt at the rejection and he looks to you with a wide smile and gives out a slight chuckle.

“Sorry about that” Castiel says while he sits on the front porch steps waiting for his brother.

“What does he smell like to you?” you ask out of curiosity and wanted to make sure he will treat Dean right just like you hope your brother would do the same.

“His scent smells like wood shavings, a very pleasant musk, and if I concentrate enough I can smell a rain forest. His scent tells me he is a hard working man who provides for his family, protects whats his and someone who is kind. It even also smells like mine” he says while closing his eyes to memorize the scent Dean gave off back in the office.

As soon as he finishes and opens his eyes is when Michael pulls into the drive way and parks in front of the house. He steps out of his truck and immediately you can smell his scent and all you wanted to do was attack him until his knot swelled up inside you.

“Y/n? You are beginning to smell like slick, you having your heat?” Castiel asks as he gets up from the step to go into the truck.

“What? No. I will see you tomorrow ok. Bye Castiel” you say as you rush into the house before Michael could catch your scent that Castiel as has picked up once you got up from the steps.

“That was rather abrupt, I didnt get the chance to introduce you to her” he says coming down the stairs and stands beside his brother.

“Its alright Castiel, I already met her” Michael says opening the door for his younger brother.

“Oh you have? When?” he asks getting into the passenger side.

“The first day they got here, they came by Connor's diner. Dick of course was being a Dick towards Y/n and yeah Im pretty sure you know how that goes” he says putting the truck in reverse.

“You were there when all that happened?” he asks looking to his older brother.

“Yeah I was there. Anna was away on business and I didnt feel like cooking so thats where I went” he says looking away from the road to look at his brother for a quick second.

“Yeah I wouldnt want to eat your cooking either so good call on going to the diner” he says smiling to his brother and getting a chuckle out of Michael.

“Hey watch it little brother, I could just toss you out and make you walk home” he says while he gently hits his arm they both laugh at the retort.

“How did you get the job with Y/n?” Michael asks as he focuses on the road.

“I think mom told her and today she called and asked if I could come in. I agreed but we are going to do a week trial to see how things go between me and the work along with her and I” Castiel says looking to his brother.

“Well Im happy for you, keep your mind off things” Michael says quietly as he looks away from Castiel.

“Castiel, I know its been tough and still is. I just want to tell you I am very happy, relieved, grateful, and thankful you are still here because I dont know what I would do if I lost you. Or how mom and dad would feel. What Lucifer did and how he passed is a way of showing how much he sacrificed himself to have you here. The loss of Lucifer still affects us all today but when we look at you, its a feeling you have no idea on how we feel because we love you so very much for you to be here never forget that. I know you carry around this feeling of guilt but I just want you to hear it from me that its not your fault, you are living proof that Lucifer died a hero and living proof that there could be goodness in the world.” Michael says as he pulls the truck over to move closer to his brother, places a hand on his shoulder while he tells him.

Michael didnt realize how teary eyed he got when tears started to fall and land on his leg. Castiel sits there speechless about what his brother is telling him and how incredibly relieved he feels for hearing that for the first time, he didnt think that his brother would feel this way.

“Thank you Michael really. Dad has told me this before and I know how much it hurts you along with our parents to see me this way. I just miss him so much” Castiel says quietly as they pull into town and getting near the house.

“I miss him as well. Even though we had our differences that doesnt change one bit on how much I love him. I miss him dearly.” Michael says as he keeps driving.  

“There is another thing that I want to tell you before I drop you off” he says driving by their parents house and turning unto another street to turn around to drive towards Connor's diner.

“Ok but where are we going?” he asks looking at the house they are driving away from.

“We are going to the diner because I dont want mother eaves dropping on our conversation. I know how she is going to react about what I am about to tell you.” he says getting onto the street where the diner in located.

“Is Anna pregnant?” he asks whipping his head to his brother.

“No, she isnt. Its a health problem if she is pregnant, you should know that” he answers his brother and turning into the parking lot of the diner.

“Yeah but with safety precautions it can be possible” he says looking around the parking lot to see if the evening rush has busied the diner.

Its a health risk if a Beta becomes pregnant knowing that their bodies arent equipped the same way as an Omega who can birth pups very easily the way they are suppose to. Its a toss between the Beta dying during pup birth or having a miscarriage early in the pregnancy.

With safety precautions from the Doctor and taken very seriously will ease the Beta into a risk free delivery and the pup will be as healthy. If these instructions werent taken seriously then there would be a risk of miscarriage and that happens mostly if it werent taken seriously by the Doctor.

Both brothers get out of the truck to walk in the direction of the main entrance, Michael opens the door for Castiel to walk in first.

They seat themselves at a two person table in the middle of the diner and a waitress comes to take their drink order.

“Well its the Cuthbert boys, glad to see you Castiel” Dorothy says.

“Well its good to see you to Dorothy” he says looking to her with a smile on his face.

“What can I get ya?” she asks taking out a note pad from her apron pocket.

“I'll have coffee and water.” Michael answers looking up to Dorothy.

“Ok, how about you Castiel?” she asks nodding in agreement with Michaels drink order.

“I will have a tea and water” he answers her.

“Alright I will be right out, just let me know if either of you want something to eat” she says and walks away from the table to get the coffee for Michael and tea for Castiel.

“What did you want to talk to me about?” he looks to his older brother.

“Its about y/n” is all Michael says looking to his younger brother.

“What about her?” he asks almost sounding like he doesnt want him to answer that question but is curious to what he will say.

“She is my mate, my true mate” he says with a smile forming at the corners of his mouth.

“What? What about Anna?” he asks.

“I havent told her yet and Im working up to it” he says looking away from him and looks to Dorothy who brings out their drinks.

“Michael you better tell her. If y/n truly is your mate then what does she smell like?” he asks leaning in closer to him.

“Her scent smells like freshly grinded coffee, with the smell of banana's and a sweet smell of caramel” he says with a smile on his face and looking to his brother.

“What does that tell you?” he asks giving his older brother a questioning look.

“Hard working, vibrant, nurturing, and mine” he says.

“I have always wanted a mate who is as hard working as I am and not just an Omega whose only job is to give birth to my pups or only serves me just because society has told them to. I just want an equal and she is my equal. I still have to talk to Anna about this. There was a time when she said she would let me go if my true mate ever came along” he says taking a sip from his coffee.

“And what about now? You think she is going to do that?” Castiel asks unsure if Anna will give up that easily knowing how in love she is with Michael.

“I dont know but I do hope that she understands, I have always said I wanted to settle with my true mate. I know how this sounds so unfair but cant seem to take y/n off my mind” Michael says to his brother.

“Yeah it does sound unfair. You want to know what I think though?” he asks his older brother.

“Please enlighten me from the guilt I am having right now because I have someone who is Anna when my true mate lives in the same town as us” he sighs in defeat.

“I think you should end things with Anna and explain yourself. I know she will understand when there is a true mate involved, dont get me wrong I like Anna but you deserve a true mate and thats y/n. I want to see you truly happy Michael I mean really happy” he says to his older brother in hopes he would do the right thing in talking to Anna.

They both finish of their coffee and Tea to pay for their drinks and head on home.

After you rush inside the house and lean against the door to wait for the slick to settle but that doesnt happen. You didnt feel uncomfortable well other than whats dripping from you and went rushing down the stairs to go into the room that was made specifically for your heats. Dean and Sam are still in your office and you heard them call for you.

“Not right now guys” you say while closing the room door behind you to lock it.

You go through the closet to look for the box of toys that were placed in there during the time while moving into the house.

“Your heat coming on?” Dean asks faintly on the other side of the closed door.

“Dean please not right now” you yell back and finally looking for the box, you opened it to find what exactly you were looking for.

You strip off your clothes as fast as you could when you stumbled on top of the bed to get your jeans off.

After several minutes to your self well pleasing yourself, you dress slowly to get out of the room and up the stairs to the main bathroom to shower.

“Y/n what was that all about?” Dean asks as soon as you enter the kitchen.

“Really? You want me to answer that?” you ask while turning beet red out of embarrassment.

“How many times have I told you not to be ashamed of your heats, especially when telling me because I dont want anything happening to you during those times. You know what happens when your heat comes along, you get severely dehydrated and thats what always scares me the most.” he says looking at you with fear all over him and you can even smell it off of him, you get up from your chair to embrace him with a hug.

“I know, calm down. It wasnt my heat, Michael came by to pick up Castiel and um” you pull away from Dean at the mentions of Michael's name and look away from him.

“Ohh” is all that he could say and continue on what he was doing which is cooking.

“The mate thing really hit ya hard huh” he says while he makes a pot of coffee.

Dean has always worried about you when your heats came along, the first time you presented as Omega is when you got severely dehydrated and passed out in bed. He came into the room and placed you in the bathroom to let the cool water run and placed you in the tub to cool you off.

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