#it’s been over a year

[bearforceone3]

starfire, because i haven’t drawn her in ages

[shortbreadly]

SHE’S COMING HOME

[wait-this-isnt-lemonade]

I need you in my mouth. I’ll let you decide what that means.

[abowlofpetuniasandawhale]

If you ever feel like you’re clumsy, one time i overbalanced badly while doing yoga without a mat on inclined concrete (i am not smart) and managed to catch myself by basically punching the ground under me. I’m genuinely surprised my hand didn’t break, but it did bruise so bad it looked like i lost a fight with a car door so of course no one believed the whole “fell during yoga” story because girl what? on your fist??? (I am not smart!!) and i had to stop going to my dentist because the hygienist kept trying to talk to me about domestic violence which was very sweet objectively but so so off base. I can’t leave him honey him is my vestibular system

[cynicalmusings]

YAYAYAYAYAYYYY HEIZOU HELLO OH MY GOD

[grungyhimonoonna]

I almost smoked a cigarette last night but Zane said no and scared the lady away lol

[godlikewrath]

i’ve returned

[sullengirly]

crying in the bathtub wishing i never met him lol

[strokes-of-everything]

Everyone is game to jump on the “supporting trauma survivors” ship until they’re actively experiencing the symptoms of PTSD and can’t help themselves in the moment.

Everyone spews therapy speak on pretty Instagram posts until you’re flooded, and disassociated, and in absolute panic mode saying something at an intensity you’d never rationally speak. But your nervous system doesn’t care for logic, and it’s coming out anyway.

“You clearly think we’re stupid,” they say. The people who claimed they’d be there through anything.

“I never said anything about you or a specific person,” you say. “Those words came from my fingers, but they were not of me. I felt the pressure of a thousands wounds being ripped open at once without any warning, and found myself shaking, screaming into the void.”

You know me, you think. After all these years, you’d think the worst of me? When I simply had nowhere else to turn and was fully bursting? When I had no clue what else to do?

You explain. You admit it wasn’t a healthy way to approach the issue. But you didn’t even have the option to make a choice in the moment.

You drudge up that you’ve been seeking professional help to calm the flood. To move the triggers to their rightful place in neurological history rather than the volatile surface of your emotional mind.

“You didn’t do anything wrong. There’s no need to apologize. But we should talk about it. We’re still friends.”

You try to talk. The texts aren’t returned. Neither are the phone calls. All at once, a severing occurs. Because of your darkest moments.

Best(?) friends move on without you. Despite time passing, you feel every life update like a searing pain in your soul, every trip like a dagger to your chest.

And you add it to the list to reprocess. Or at least, to try.

And you wonder if you can ever trust someone again. If friendship can fully be found. Or if you are simply better off alone, doing your best to keep the storm of suffering inside lest it hurt someone or leak out again.

[marezabel]

It’s my birthday next weekend (July 3) and I’d like for last year’s Emmys team to release a picture of Kate Winslet and Evan Peters because I know in my heart they must have one somewhere.

If that’s not an option, then I request Brad Inglesby releases the rest of the MOE scripts (especially episode 5) because I need to read those asap.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

[oswalish]

i cannot ever truly explain the absolute grip the song gfdi dave by broadway karkat had on me. and to this day i could still explain to you how it portrays karkats character and fears especially quadrant-related better than anything else i’ve ever seen.

the first time i hung out with my girlfriend i made them sit and watch me reenact the whole song as a script. i then sat down and explained how good the song was, and how well it portrays karkat. not sure what happened after that but i remember grabbing a pair of cat ears and putting them on only for her to stare blankly at me

[softbobamilktae]

When the person who tried to drive you and your best friend apart comes back 🤢

[fondcrimes]

I found my gouache paints and some watercolor paper which means I should try to paint something but I’m honestly nervous

[letteriwillneversend]

i wonder if i’ll ever miss him any less

i wonder if i want to

[hinamie]

surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024

[sad-lime]

I MISS MY ILD JOB AND MY OLD COWORKERS I WILL NEVER KNOW HAPPINESS AGAIN