#emotionally exhausted

[themindofmine]

I feel like I’m already dead but I have to keep on living

[noname-404s-blog]

Stupid me 😮‍💨😮‍💨

[family-trauma]

[otakubimbo]

Hey! Can I request for an angst romance with the very first sentence prompt with Satoru? They break up but Satoru refuses to believe that it actually happened and that it was only a joke. Like, he is in denial about it.

Hi anon! You're my first official request so thank you! I hope I did this prompt justice for you. My heart hurts.

angsty romance prompt. "tell me it was a lie, tell me you're playing with me right now "

Warnings: None really, just angst and no happy ending, which yes is so unlike me but we ball! I didn't proof read cause it made me sad writing it.

“Tell me it was a lie. Tell me you’re playing with me right now!” Satoru’s voice was at a higher level than it should being at this café. The people around pretending not to be easy dropping on the conversation that you and the man across form you were having.

“Lower your voice, people are staring.” The hushed tone of your voice, attempting to not betray the facade you were putting on.  This wasn’t easy for you, breaking up with Satoru Gojo, if anything you were breaking your own heart.

“How do you expect me to react when my girlfriend brought me out to lunch to break up with me?!” His tone is harsh, in a way you have never heard before. You flinch at his abrasiveness, making him shrink back into his chair.

Satoru’s anger and disbelief confuse you. It was as if everyone saw the signs of this impending breakup but him. The relationship had been going downhill for some time now, how could he not see that? How could he not see what he was doing? How couldn’t he see what it was doing to you?

After a year and a half of dating, you told him, you told him you loved him and you meant it with every fiber of your soul. It had been six more months since then and he never said it back. You were understanding at first when he didn’t say it back, albeit hurt a little but you knew at least a little of his past and what he has gone through. You could understand that it may be hard for him to tell you he loved you, you knew he loved you because of the way he cared for you and that was enough.

Well, you thought it was enough. After your confession, Satoru didn’t immediately become distant, but it started with small things. He stopped texting you good morning and would only say good night. The small touches, the holding hands, and the comforting hugs became few and far between. Any time you brought it up, he would play it off like nothing was wrong, everything was fine. Then it became as if the two of you were barely even friends, it seemed he was always busy as if he never had time for you anymore. And it hurt, it hurt like hell and even then you kept pushing it off just hoping he would tell you what was going on behind those piercing blue eyes of his but he never did.

That’s what lead to today, the day of your 2 year anniversary. Truthfully, you hadn’t even planned on breaking up with him today but when you sat across from him in the same café that you had your first date at, his eyes never met yours. He didn’t hold your hand across the table, he didn’t kiss your forehead on his arrival, he wasn’t your Satoru.

You could feel the tears threatening to spill as you looked up at him, “Do you know what today is? Or why I asked you here”

His jaw tightened, “It’s Tuesday and I don’t know maybe because I’m your boyfriend and we go to this café a lot.”

Is this all a joke to you? Was he just a joke to you? He knows he hasn’t been the best boyfriend lately and that he’s been a bit distant but that wouldn’t make you break up with him. Would it? You were too kind, too patient, too pure for that, right?

“This is the café that we went to on our first date, two years ago.” You aren’t even facing him anymore when you say that, just reminiscing on a time when it felt as if you were just two kids in love. Satoru froze, not even realizing that he had forgotten. He had been trying so hard to keep you at an arm’s length after your confession that he had seemed to just push you away.  He didn’t even say anything as you turned to him, tears threatening to spill down your beautiful face at any single moment. What had he done?

“Do you even love me, Satoru?”

The question hung in the air, making his mouth go dry. He did, he loved you more than he should and that was the problem. His love for you scared him, you scared him. You didn’t know the power that you held over him; you made him weak. You were his weakness. But he was the strongest, he couldn’t afford a weakness, but he wasn’t strong enough to let you go either. Now here he was, unable to speak the words that have been written into his heart from the moment he saw you.

With a sad smile, you take his silence as your answer gathering your things and leaving you there. His heart shattered as he watched you leave out of the door, fading from his vision. Satoru’s worst fear came true, the strongest was defeated, the strongest was broken by you and it was all his own fault.

[sunlit-mess]

Can't catch a break, but even if I did- I don't think I'll be able to either.

[klutzykelzy]

nothing i do or take fills the hole inside me :(

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[letteriwillneversend]

having parents that are nothing more than unfriendly strangers wearing familiar voices that say familiar things makes you wonder if there was ever any such thing as home.

it makes you wonder what it might be like to have a bad day and have someone you can call or talk to. what it might be like to have someone you can to for advice or comfort. what it might be like to have a shoulder or lap you can finally rest your head on. what it might be like to have a bowl of cut fruit that spells out unconditional love.

some days i find myself looking for home even when i don’t know what to look for.

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

I'm lost, I'm sad, I'm angry, I'm mad, I'm tired.

[darasnotesapp]

[wonderingwhisper]

Silence:

If you wonder why I’m quiet,

I don’t feel the need to openly speak,

When I try and express my self,

I’m met with hostility, made to feel weak.

-whisper

[themindofmine]

I feel sick. Sick of myself, my life and my feelings.

[noname-404s-blog]

[bold-tachycardic-baby]

I’m not even physically tired right now, but I’m so emotionally and mentally exhausted that I’m lying in bed crying. I’m so tired of being sick. I’m tired of the way I’m stared at in public. I’m tired of the societal expectations to function normally despite my disability. Please for the love of everything dear in this world, can we normalize accommodations? I’m tired of existing like this.

[family-trauma]

They really are very hard to deal with. Just imagine living all your life in a dysfunctional emotionally abusive family environment, then suddenly you become aware that everything you thought was normal was actually toxic. It's rough.

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I've been a bit mia as I've been sick. The one time I decided to take time off from work and rest even though I am a full time caregiver, I got sick. Now I'm on PTO while fully sick and still caregiving while also being emotionally abused. Can I just say F it all and to everyone, just walk out and never return? Is that still called running away from home as an adult?

[cannibalgh0st]

Has anyone else been extremely exhausted lately????

[vixensofdeath]

I can’t sleep. I’m exhausted all day with no energy or will or desire, but at night I just can’t sleep. my eye bags feel like bricks and my body is heavy and tired. I’m just so fucking exhausted.