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biouxp · 1 year
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(I looked through all your fairystuck stuff some time ago and thought it was adorable, but I didn't freshen up on my knowledge before writing this, so sorry if these are questions with already-given answers.)
anyways, other than relationship and emotional stuff, is there anything that karkat gains from dave's presence in his life? like does he help in the kitchen, do chores, garden, or do anything? or is he just a little sneaky stealer there to leech off of his goods :,) is dave just a parasite? </3
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(also !! i did a wonky fairy dave doodle. karkat got the dry erase marker out and everything </3 I said it already but im gonna say it again— your AU is SO cute)
Omg omg omg I love it! Dave is put in jail for being a sneaky thief when he can just ask for things and Karkat will share with him lol
Dave initially is being a little moocher to begin with and sneaks into Karkat’s house during the day, since most trolls sleep during the day, but he finds out that Karkat is still awake because of his insomnia. Karkat catches him and scolds him but let’s him go. Dave comes back because he kind of likes being caught by the grumpy troll and eventually Karkat stops telling him to leave and let’s Dave keep him company during his bouts of insomnia.
I do think that Karkat just wants to protect Dave and enjoys his company (despite denying it). Also he can get things that fall behind/under the couch lol
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i8jisoo · 4 years
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𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘 𝐊𝐈𝐃𝐒 ⇉ skz with pregnant!reader
seungmin x reader | part seven of dad!skz
↬ genre; fluff & angst
↬ warnings; obviously pregnancy, talk of sex/condoms, talk of morning sickness, cursing, child-birth
↬ notes; i feel like my mental health is getting worse and it has been really hard to be positive but i finished this awhile ago, never posted it! just thought to post it today since i just reached 500 followers,, tysm everyone for the support on my posts and following me for content,, i’m waiting for enhypen debut rnnn, it’s really one of the only things keeping me happy n ready. my bias is jungwon :) he’s so adorable n cute i can’t wait + i hope to start writing for enhypen soon when i feel better,, ty guys <3
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the night was a one night stand
seungmin had no plans to see you after, you already gone by the morning so it made no different what he wanted afterwards
so with his number in your phone, you decided that texting him would be the best
you texted him your address, asking him to meet with you after u addressed who you were
the best maybe after twelve, seeing as how from nine to eleven you would be occupied with the toilet bowl, the morning sickness really weighing on you
hes there, ready to talk, looking great
ur just there in a t-shirt and sweatpants with slightly messy hair
you seat him on ur couch, pacing in the kitchen before actually beginning to talk
“it broke, or maybe you forgot. i don’t know but you, you got me pregnant.”
i honestly see seungmin being really innocent in this and he’s just made a bad decision which resulted in a baby
“wh-what? no, i used.. i..”
it dawns on him that he can’t remember slipping on a condom before
he’s turned white as a sheet, probably feeling more ill than you
he does the math, figuring you’re around two months, you’re not that far along obviously
“we don’t have to do this, you hardly know me.”
hes shaking his head quickly, “nono, i wanna.. i may never get this chance again. i might not ever meet someone again, so, if it’s with you? i’m fine with that.”
seungmin was there for the next appointment, fully supportive and stepping up
hes scared but so excited
he also moves out of the dorms, raising flags, but he keeps assuring everyone that he was just getting a change of scenery
he claims he got a dog but uh, there isn’t one
he actually moves in with u, an apartment that wasn’t too far away from the dorms and he will time to time spend the night if they need him to
ur actually really understanding of his career and u admire his adjustment
late night with him where u two go to a twenty-four hour convenience store and buy every junk food possible
u also acquired strange cravings such a pineapple and cream cheese or kimchi and chocolate sauce
that night however u rly had a craving for cheese and cheese only
it doesn’t last however, from three to five you are in the bathroom hunched over
he?? isnt?? actually?? the worst partner to get pregnant from a one stand with?????????????????????????????????????????
he’s pretty much a sweetheart
bless everyones heart though when they find out about you
“this is my friend, we are.. having a uh, baby!”
haha surprise...
u swore that jisung’s breath was lost when he said that
chan is fucken freaking out about this
“we’re gonna be uncles!”
everybody screaming and cheering which was a good sign
ur days are average and u guys just act like friends
friends having a baby lmfao
it’s a fine line between dating and not dating
seungmin reaaalllyy likes you but he has this bit of guilt in him for getting you pregnant
ur the one who uprooted your life and ur gonna have a kid for the rest of ur life with him and he’s still living his and doing what he loves
seungmin heart eyes motherfucker when u come to a concert, just there to see him n see what he does for a living
u guys get this cute ass picture of everyone lmfao i just imagine the boys and seungmin standing around and posing with ur small bump
he doesn’t get to go to every single appointment, so his first appointment he went to was when you were around six and a half months
he’s super excited and just super nervous
so many expecting moms its crazy
when your name is called and you two go back, he’s jumping out of his seat and going back with you
the doctor applies the gel on your stomach, the rounded bump sticking out prominently
his hand clasps around yours, fingers laced with yours and he gives you a warm smile
the screen flickers on and theres your baby
it’s the cutest thing he’s ever seen
he can clearly see the legs and arms, theres the head!!! he can make out the toes and fingers
then u guys get to hear the heartbeat together
it’s so strong and he just,, wow.. this is real 😣
ur bearing his child, your guys’ baby,, he can hardly believe it
then the doctor asks if u two want to know the gender
“yeah.” 🥺🥺🥺
ofc u could’ve known before but u didn’t know if seungmin wanted to find out or wait n u just would feel guilty if u went ahead
he was rly trying to be as involved as possible, he had a busy schedule and u two weren’t even dating and this whole thing was happening secretly
they turn the monitor for you two to look at, pointing around
“there they are, we have a baby boy.”
seungmin is so taken aback, this all is so .. unreal for him
he’s ready to get the disc with ur ultrasound footage n the heartbeat but also the ultrasound photos 🥺 he’s so in love with your baby boy
u two are just sitting in the office after, ur wiping off ur belly n he’s just like
“i’m in love with you. you and our son — i know, we agreed to co-parenting and no feelings but,” his voice is so strained n he’s just so fragile n so utterly raw, “i couldn’t help it.”
ur fact at first is just frozen and slightly shocked
then ur like 😮🥺😣
“no, cause i was thinking the same exact thing.”
that seals the deal for u two pretty much, ur both emotional wrecks in the exam room
theres the boyfriend and girlfriend dynamic now — seungmin and you sleeping cuddled together
it wasn’t like you two didn’t cuddle before,, but it would usually end up with seungmin silently creeping out of bed or you softly removing his arm or you leaving him gently
u rely on him more, the final trimester hard on you and ur so exhausted and hurting
u two getting the nursery ready together which actually consists of u sitting down rather than actually doing anything
though u will have to teach this boy how to put away bibs and fold baby clothes
u two are young and u both have a lot of explaining to do to your own families, but they are supportive
they r more than happy to teach u two about children and giving tips on these things
blue nursery with lil teddy bears around and its just the cutest, props to room designer seungmin 🤓
baby boy is so stubborn, you’re past your due date and you both want him out
you two try a shit ton of things
name it all: pineapple, spicy foods, raspberry tea, daily walks around the block, literally everything
everything except for the obvious that had been recommended by your obgyn
sex.
both of you two hadn’t really explored in the topic of sex or anything of the sort, it was slightly awkward
you’re five days overdue now, which now you couldn’t even care
“please..! they said it works, even our ob said so!”
he is so cautious about this, but begrudgingly decides to proceed with this idea
he’s so sweet 🥺 but maybe a little too sweet because next thing you know is that two short hours later ur water breaks and u are in labor!!!!
both of you are vv nervous
his hyungs are right there to calm him down, asking you if ur okay and if u need anything
they rly adore their lil minnies baby mama & their lil nephew
seungmin is big daddy deffo
he’s so attached to u 🥺 it hurts to see u in so much pain and he can’t do much to take it away, but he will kiss ur forehead and wipe ur tears away
he personally finds u so angelic as u are quite literally coated in sweat and nearly breaking his hand
it’s finally over, you and seungmin both turning to the tiny baby that just came into the world, both of u crying while laughing at the beet red baby
theres your little baby boy in your arms, squirming at the new coldness and trying to move around in the blanket
all of the boys come in, excited to meet the baby
in amazement you made this adorable, small baby after one night
this experience was everything and more to you both, so glad you weren’t as careful one night and now had the greatest gift given to you: your small son who slept soundly in your arms
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latte-fairytaekwoon · 4 years
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𝑀𝑎𝑓𝑖𝑎! 𝐴𝑡𝑒𝑒𝑧: 𝑇ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝐷𝑎𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑆𝑡𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠 𝐷𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔
Disclaimer: In no way am I condoning, supporting, justifying or encouraging mafia activities or lifestyle. This is all fictional and not meant to represent real life scenarios.
꧁𝓚𝓲𝓶 𝓗𝓸𝓷𝓰𝓳𝓸𝓸𝓷𝓰꧂
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"Mom! Dad's being annoying again!"
You walked into the office only to see your daughter huffing with arms crossed as your husband sat in his chair, busy writing something down.
"What is it this time?" You mentally prepared yourself to hear some silly thing.
"It's nothing dear. I already told her I'm considering allowing her classmate to take her to the school's dance." Hongjoong responded as if he wasn't guilty of anything.
"See? He usually says no. So what's the problem?" You asked your daughter.
"He's making an 'application to date my daughter' to give to my date!" Your daughter exclaimed.
"What?" You walked over to Hongjoong and snatched the paper away from him and began quoting some of it:
"Thank you for your interest? Please allow 4 to 6 years for processing? If you've been rejected, you will be notified by 2 men carrying violin cases? Any false information may result in punishment by dismemberment, crucifixion, Chinese water torture?!"
"Kim Hongjoong!" You threw the paper back at him.
"What?! I'm only trying to look out for my baby! I only want the best for her." He defended himself.
"At this point, you might as well send me to a convent!" Your daughter furiously marched away to go lock herself in her room.
"Are you happy now?" You raised an eyebrow at Hongjoong.
"Not yet. But once I finish these last details on the application, I will be." He smiled as he resumed his task.
You threw your hands up in anger. "You're unbelievable!"
Hongjoong looked back at you and stuck his tongue out.
"If you were me, you'd do the same!"
꧁𝓟𝓪𝓻𝓴 𝓢𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓰𝓱𝔀𝓪꧂
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Seonghwa kept pacing back and forth in the living room, unable to calm down.
"Would you please stop it?" You finally told him, annoyed by his fidgeting.
"Stop what?" He asked rather confused.
"That! Stop being so dramatic about this. You knew this would happen sooner or later." You reminded him.
"And I sincerely hoped it'd be a lot later. Waaay later." Seonghwa sighed.
"It's just a first date. It's not like sending one of your rookies out on their first mission." You joked to lighten the mood.
"There's a huge difference... this is my daughter we're talking about! My daughter! My beacon of light in this dark world." He pouted.
"Speaking of which, here she comes!" You pointed to your daughter, who is happily skipping over to you two.
"Look mom! What do you think?! Do you think he'll like it?!" She asked as she twirled around in a sparkly red dress.
"You look gorgeous honey. Of course he'll like it! Right Seonghwa?"
You turned to Seonghwa, who just stood there awkwardly, his eye was visibly twitching.
"Does.....does it have to be that short?" He asked.
He let out a yelp of pain when you elbowed him on his side. He looked over at you and you silently warned him to behave.
Sighing, he smiled at your daughter. "You're absolutely beautiful darling."
She beamed with happiness and hugged you both before running out the door once she heard a car beeping. Seonghwa just watched her as she left.
"See? That wasn't so bad right? The overprotective dad mode isn't necessary."
Seonghwa laughed awkwardly at that.
"Haha....yeah right."
As soon as you were out of sight, he took out his phone and dialed a number.
"All units on sector 3 better report to me any sign of physical contact that happens between them. Over."
꧁𝓙𝓮𝓸𝓷𝓰 𝓨𝓾𝓷𝓱𝓸꧂
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"It's already 2:31, she's late." Yunho blurted out.
"What are you talking about?" You asked him.
"I mean school is over at 2, it's only a 30 minute drive from here to there and vice versa. They're late, we gotta make sure they're all right."
You grabbed his arm when he sprinted from the couch.
"Yunho, it's only been 1 minute-"
"2 minutes now actually." He corrected you.
You sighed, praying for patience.
"Point is, it's her first day of school, maybe there was a lot of traffic and you're overreacting. She'll be here soon." You tried to calm him down.
Yunho sat back down and huffed. "I still say we should have just home schooled her."
"Public school isn't going to kill her!" You argued.
"I got the best tutors and professors on speed dial. They're more than willing to give my daughter the best education money can buy!" Yunho repeated what he's been saying for months.
"She needs to learn to interact with people, develop social skills. You're making a fuss over nothing. It's only the first day, and see? Where's the danger? What's the problem so far?" You tried reasoning with him.
"Problem is..... she's not here!" He exclaimed.
Right at that moment, your 6 year old daughter came running in, straight to her father's arms.
"She's here now, and in one piece." You told him.
"Hi sweetheart. Did you have fun today?" He asked as he bounced your daughter in his lap.
"Very! We got to paint, and play around, and at recess, a boy asked me to be his girlfriend and I said sure!" She babbled happily.
Yunho's smile dropped when he heard that last part. He looked over at you, and you were just on the verge of laughing at his reaction.
"See?! Now we got a problem! Some boy is already trying to take my daughter away and corrupt her!" He whined.
"Oh relax Yunho! They're 6 years old! The worst that can happen right now is he gets her sick or something." You shook your head at him.
Yunho held your daughter and looked at her seriously.
"Honey, listen to me. Stay away from boys, they have cooties and they're evil vicious villains who'll just hurt you. Ok? Can you do that for daddy?" He made puppy dog eyes at her.
You face palmed at him.
꧁𝓚𝓪𝓷𝓰 𝓨𝓮𝓸𝓼𝓪𝓷𝓰꧂
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"You know Yeosang, you've been having a lot more drinks than usual...." San pointed it out to him.
"I wanna drink tonight to forget and pretend like today didn't just happen." Yeosang said as he downed another shot.
"Yeosang, we've all been there like you were tonight. Trust me, you'll get over it." Wooyoung reminded him.
"Not me! I was the most supportive out of all of you! I was the perfect dad." San smiled, his cute dimples on full display.
"Hey! I was supportive as well!..... sort of. ." Yeosang replied sheepishly.
"Oh yeah? What happened then? Do tell us." Mingi rested his face in his hand, ready to hear Yeosang's story.
Yeosang began reminiscing about what happened a few hours before:
He stood there awkwardly, the young lad that was taking his daughter to prom right in front of him, trying his best to make a great impression of him. But Yeosang wasn't making it easy with his cold icy stare. He just couldn't believe someone was daring to come between him and his daughter.
"I'm ready!"
They both turned and looked over at you and your daughter, all dressed to perfection. The boy's breath was taken away and he was almost drooling. Meanwhile, Yeosang was clenching his fist so much it almost drew blood. After taking so many pictures, she hugged you both goodbye. The boy went to shake Yeosang's hand, but Yeosang instead pulled him in for a caring and ,somewhat suspicious, hug.
"Well then?" Hongjoong asked, snapping him back to reality.
Yeosang gulped.
"Ok. So I may or may not have threatened to cut off his balls if he tried anything...."
꧁𝓒𝓱𝓸𝓲 𝓢𝓪𝓷꧂
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Even though San was extremely close to your daughter and yes he was protective of her, he was also overjoyed and very supportive when she asked for permission to go on a date. He immediately stood up and began bombarding her with questions:
"Who was the boy? Where did you meet? How long have you two known each other? Where do you guys wanna go? How much will you need? Want me to set you guys up at an expensive restaurant? Are you two in love?"
On the day of the actual date, he seemed more excited than your own daughter. He actually hired a photographer to capture every single moment.
"Ok honey I think that's enough photos, the kids might lose their reservation." You tried to make sure they actually made it to the date.
San gasped. "Oh right right! Well you kids have fun and don't worry about paying! I rented the whole thing out for you two!"
He pulled your daughter in for a tight and squishy hug, reminding her how much he loved her and to take care. He also gave the boy a firm pat on the back before watching them get in the limousine and drive away. Even after a few minutes, he stood there silently.
He sighed happily.
"They grow up so fast.....it feels like it was only yesterday when I held her in my arms for the first time....."
You watched San and could tell he was getting emotional.
"Are you going to cry?" You asked him.
"Me? Cry? Pssht! I'm Choi San, the manliest man of all mafia leaders and I do not cry!" He declared bravely.
He then stood there awkwardly before turning back to you. Sighing, you opened your arms.
"Come here. Let it all out." You assured him.
Instantly, San held onto you, crying his eyes out, his heart full of so many emotions.
"Oh my god my babygirl is all grown and soon she'll be leaving me, and I'm sad but I'm so happy at the same way cause I love her so much, and I love you so much and I just miss my baby already even though she's still here!"
You only patted his back and nodded at his sobbing. At least he wasn't putting a tracking device on her.
꧁𝓢𝓸𝓷𝓰 𝓜𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓲꧂
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You knew it was all bullshit when Mingi said he was desperately needed at the headquarters with the boys. And Seonghwa even confirmed it when you called him and he said that everything was fine, no one called a meeting. You thanked him and hung up. Grabbing your car keys, you sped to your daughter's location, hoping to get there before something embarrassing happened.
You looked around the place, trying your best so your daughter wouldn't see you. She didn't, however you spotted a very familiar shade of red hair hiding behind some bushes. Discreetly, you crept up behind him and smacked his head.
"Ow! What was that for?!" He cried out.
"Song Mingi! You ought to be ashamed of yourself! Spying on your own daughter on her first date!" You yelled at him.
"It's my right as a father to make sure my daughter is safe!" He protested.
"Well you can do that....from a distance!"
Without warning, you grabbed his ear and pulled him back to your car to take him home.
"Ok! Can you let go?! I'll go back home with you!" He gave up and walked back with you.
"Good. Honestly, what were you thinking? Oh wait! You weren't." You huffed as you got in the driver's seat.
"There's nothing wrong with wanting your daughter to be safe and make sure her date treats her decently." He pouted like a little baby.
"Well like I said, you could do that from a distance. There's no need to be stalking her out like one of your snipers." You told him as you started the car.
"Yeah.....you're right...." Mingi sighed.
You smiled, proud that he was willing to accept his mistake. That was until he opened his mouth again.
"I mean, why put a tracking device on her phone and not use it?" He stated nonchalantly as he took out his phone
"Song fucking Mingi! I swear to God, if you did that I will make you roll out of the car!"
꧁𝓙𝓾𝓷𝓰 𝓦𝓸𝓸𝔂𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓰꧂
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"For the last time....No!"
Wooyoung was stubborn. No matter how many times your daughter begged him to let her go to the school dance, he stood his ground and refused. She tried every single approach: she behaved like an angel, tried bargaining and even rebelled like a teenager but to no avail.
"Give me one good reason why I can't go!" Your daughter pouted.
"I'll give you three reasons: One, boys. Two, boys. And three, which is actually the most important one... boys!" Wooyoung was practically dramatic at this point, as if he wasn't already.
"You're going to have to let me date someday!" Your daughter retaliated.
"Absolutely....when I'm cold in my coffin or when hell freezes over. Whichever comes first." Wooyoung said.
Your daughter ended up locking herself in her room, refusing to see her father. It hurt him to have her rejection, but he only did it because he loved her. Unbeknownst to him though, you gave her permission and even arranged for her to be picked up by your friend so she could go to her dance. You hoped Wooyoung didn't notice.
"Where is she?" Wooyoung asked you, crossing his arms over his chest, his foot tapping on the floor.
You sighed in defeat. "She went to the dance. I gave her permission."
Wooyoung began screaming at the top of his lungs, getting agitated.
"Oh relax you drama queen! Her date isn't a bad boy! In fact, he's the sweetest boy ever! You know him, it's San's son!"
As soon as he heard that, Wooyoung felt like he was going to get a heart attack.
"Of all people, she chose San's kid?! Is she insane?!"
Wooyoung took out his phone and furiously tapped on the screen.
"San you little piece of shit! Why are you letting your devil of a son seduce my little angel? Hmm?..... Oh don't give me that! He's just like you! Behind that innocent dimple smile lies a demon, waiting to prey on the innocent and pure so they can corrupt them!! Curse you and your cute dimple genes! I will get you back for this!"
꧁𝓒𝓱𝓸𝓲 𝓙𝓸𝓷𝓰𝓱𝓸꧂
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"So....what are your intentions?" Jongho asked the boy sitting in front of him.
"Excuse me s-sir?" The boy didn't quite understand.
"What are your intentions with my daughter?" Jongho repeated as he reached for one of the apples that were on the table.
"Well I... I....I'm not sure. I guess-"
"Oh? Not sure?" Jongho locked eyes with him as he effortlessly split the apple in half with his bare hands.
The boy noticeably gulped and stared at the crushed fruit.
"I I mean! It's only a dance! It's nothing serious-"
"Are you saying my daughter's a joke? Are her feelings nothing to you?"Jongho reached for another apple and split it apart just like the other one.
"I didn't say that!" The boy exclaimed.
Jongho nodded and reached for yet a third apple.
"Listen very carefully to me boy. I love my daughter so much. There's nothing I wouldn't do for her. I only want her to be happy."
He split the apple and set it down on the table.
"So let me make this clear: break my daughter's heart and I will break you. You know like what?" Jongho tilted his head at him.
"Like.....those apples?" The boy hesitantly pointed at the murdered fruit in front of him.
"Hmm? Oh no. Not like those apples."
Jongho smiled and pulled out a watermelon from one of the cushions.
"I'll break you like this watermelon."
Jongho's fist slammed down on the watermelon, effortlessly breaking it in half. The poor boy was now pale, fearing for his life.
"Daddy! I'm ready! Is the driver ready- what's with all the split fruit?" Your daughter asked when you and her walked into the living room.
"Oh! Nothing sweetheart. I was just splitting these for our guest. Gotta have a little snack before. Right?"
Jongho held out a parted apple to the boy, his eyes silently warning him not to say anything of what really happened. The boy simply nodded and took the apple.
"Y-yeah. Your father is really n-nice."
You frowned at Jongho when your eyes met. You knew what really happened. But he simply smiled innocently at you, like nothing happened.
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daredevilexchange · 3 years
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What do you like in particular about this fandom? I’ve never been part of another fandom, so I may be a little biased here, but the talent in this fandom is astounding. The writers are so good it’s a crime they don’t get the fame (and millions) they deserve. The artists draw things that shouldn’t be humanly possible, not without a printer attached to their foreheads to print the pretty images they have in their heads. But I think the best part is the support. Perfect strangers that are willing to say a kind word and give you that nudge you need to trudge on. Perfect strangers that are there for you, when they don’t need to be. Kindness costs nothing, but most people make you pay for it. Not here. It’s nice to feel part of something when the world has shut its doors and the universe has been confined to four little walls.
Do you like participating in fan events? YESSSSS. I’m fairly (very) new here, so I’ve only just managed to participate in your most recent DD Exchange (DDE: tag here!), but already can’t wait to sign up for more! I love how prompts push you out of your comfort zone and make you interact with people you would never have otherwise stumbled upon. 
What about your creating process? Music is an absolute must. But it has to be the right mix of songs. I’ll have to stop what I’m doing to sort it out otherwise. It might sound weird, but I’m better at it (writing especially) when I’m sad/tired. Needs to be on laptop, preferably in the evenings/late at night, and being alone would be a perk (since I never told anyone in my family/partner/friends that I write, it helps not to have to make up excuses as to why I’m typing so much every few minutes). I actually do most of my writing during work hours on work laptop while I should really be doing work - the forbidden edge to it is addictive, what can I say. I do go back and read my favorite fic authors when I feel like I’m writing like a robot. Art is easier - a good fic, a good picture, and TIME to create. I wish I could be covered in cats or even better, dogs (def a dog person, do not bash me!), but I’m renting and am not allowed pets. And finally, seems a global pandemic and ensuing never-ending lockdown created me. Ask me next year if that’s an essential part of my creative process. Who knows!
Do you interact a lot with other fans?  I try. Tumblr opened a whole new world, started collaborations and made me interact with lots more wonderful people. I now try to comment more on fics I enjoyed, or create art for other people. Return the favor when they make me smile, really. It can be intimidating though. Some authors are so good, and are no so responsive when you comment. Maybe they left the fandom? Maybe they are just overwhelmed? Maybe they are used to being slobbered on? Who knows. I try to pester them anyways, and hope I’m not being a nuisance. And reblog! Reblogs are a must for artists. It’s sad when great art disappears from lack of reblogs.
Is there any particular piece you’d like to showcase for this post?  Can I showcase two? Is it cheating? First is the DD exchange piece, you can find it here (https://wawaluxthings.tumblr.com/post/639115034073710592/my-daredevilexchange-piece-based-on-the). I didn’t know what to make for so long, then had the idea in the morning and had it done by end of day. I think I even surprised myself. The second one is my baby, living proof that stupid ideas you have at 2 AM while half-asleep are actually the best ones. I’ve roped the most brilliant (and just so lovely) @notawriterjustalurker​ to help me out, and together we are creating a hilarious daredevil (and friends) calendar. I’ll be honest, I don’t even care what comes out of this by the end of the year, because I’m laughing too hard discussing ideas with notawriterjustalurker. But let’s face it, anything she touches turns into a masterpiece. So don’t miss out on it :) See here for banner (https://wawaluxthings.tumblr.com/post/638752908346851328/caribmermaid84-ladymaigrey) and here for Jan (https://wawaluxthings.tumblr.com/post/639128224740392960/as-promised-to-all-of-you-lovelies-here-is-the)
Do you have other fandoms you’d like to talk about?  NOPE. I am 100% Daredevil bred and proud.
Is there anything else you want to tell us about yourself? I can’t stand reading my own writing, but the art I stare at for a couple of days after I’ve finished it. They say to write for yourself, and I absolutely do not. But drawing? Yes, I think I draw for myself first.
Where can your fanworks be found?  Art will be here, lost among the daredevil overload: https://wawaluxthings.tumblr.com/tagged/my-art  For fics, use this: https://archiveofourown.org/users/wawalux
Thank you, @wawaluxthings!
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Survey #373
“warm me up in a nova’s glow  /  and drop me down to the dream below”
Have you ever kissed someone that you thought you’d never kiss? Welp, never thought I'd kiss a girl for most of my life. When was the last time you ate take-out and what was it that you ate? Mom bought us breakfast at Bojangle's the morning after my sleep study. I got a sausage, egg, and cheese biscuit. Do you enjoy when guys hit on/flirt with you or does it normally make you uncomfortable or annoyed? When was the last time more than one guy was flirting with you at a time? It makes me uncomfortable, especially if it's very obvious and pushy. Like some respectful flirting is fine and can be flattering if I'm single, but you better respect my boundaries and not act like a dog. I don't think two guys have both been openly interested in me since Juan and Jason in high school. Can you name five things you enjoy looking at pictures of? Animals, flowers, waterfalls, expressions of love between people, and boudoir. Would you rather have an eternal winter or an eternal summer? Both sound pretty sucky, but an eternal summer sounds worse. Do you know much about the Greek gods? Not anymore. I did in high school, as mythology was an elective I took. Are there a lot of stray cats and dogs near where you live? Not in this neighborhood. How would you cope with living in isolation away from society? How long do you think you could cope before you went mad? Oh god, I couldn't cope. I'd lose my shit so fast. Have you ever found any hidden treasure? No. Would you ever want to hibernate through the winter? No, I enjoy winter. Which holiday do you prefer, Halloween or Christmas? I like the Halloween vibe more, but I enjoy Christmas more as a holiday. Do you prefer hot or cold drinks overall? Cold. What’s the smallest thing you’ve ended a relationship over? I don't believe I've broken up with anyone over something small. Have you or a member of your family been diagnosed with COVID yet? My older sister got it. It was hell. What’s the dominant color in the room you’re in at the moment? An off-white. Do you know who your mom’s favorite singer is? James Hetfield of Metallica. Easy. What room in your house is the messiest? The spare room. Have you ever used a “puppy face” to get your way? Ha, yeeeaaah... If you could change any law that exists in your current country, what would it be and why? Here comes free healthcare. For obvious reasons. What were the last toppings you had on a pizza? Pepperoni. Would you rather spend an hour walking a dog or riding a horse? Riding a horse. Do you freak out when you need to visit the doctor or the dentist? Nah. Do you prefer The Lord of the Rings or The Hobbit movies, if you like any of them? I haven't watched either. Which Harry Potter film was your favourite? What about your least favourite? I haven't watched those, either. What do you think about nose piercings? I like them. Nostril studs especially are really cute imo. How many floors does your house have? One. What’s your favorite flavor of Kool-Aid? I don't really like Kool-Aid anymore. Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Yeah, a cyst. Do you enjoy sappy love songs? Unabashedly. Do you wear a one-piece or a two-piece when you go swimming? One-piece. What would be your biggest pet peeve in a relationship? Not communicating your feelings straight-up. Be straightforward and honest with what you're going through with your partner, for the love of God. Have you ever had a teacher hit on you? Have you ever hit on a teacher? No to both. Do you tend to eat more on Halloween, Thanksgiving, or Christmas? Christmas, because of chocolate stocking stuffers and boxes from Dad, haha. Do you know what an "AMV" is? Yeah, I used to make them. Do you think you have a sad life? In some ways, yeah. What’s one award show you have to watch every year? None. Who do you like more: the Batman or the Joker? The Joker, particularly Heath Ledger's. Do you like Rammstein? Love 'em. What is your favorite small dog breed? Aesthetically, I think pugs, but I've said before and I'll say it a thousand more times: I don't support breeding them. What was the first comic book you ever had an obsession over? I've never been obsessed with a comic book. Do you like kids pop-up books? Those were my absolute favorite kind AS a kid. What is your mother's mother's maiden name? Ummm I'm pretty sure Collins. Have you ever pet a monkey? No. What’s your favorite Owl City song… besides "Fireflies?" I actually really like "Hot Air Balloon." What’s your fave Miley Cyrus song? I don't know many, but I do know "The Climb" is absolutely gorgeous. Fave Rascal Flatts song? Probably "My Wish." But I also really like "Why" and "What Hurts the Most." Fave Justin Bieber song? None. Miley Cyrus, Demi Lavato, or Selena Gomez? Jesus, you really like bands that I don't, haha. I don't know any Demi or Selena songs, so idk. Fave Eminem song? Oh man, I do like a lot of Eminem. I know it's so cliche, but I genuinely adore "Love The Way You Lie." It gives me goosebumps. Do you think you could survive a month of solitary confinement? NO. Absolutely not. I would lose my motherfucking mind. What is something that you find utterly boring? Sports, save for dance, are incredibly blah to me. What noise/sound can put you to sleep? Gentle, steady rain tapping on the window. When you are upset, do you tend to shut others out? YYYYYYYYYYYEP. When was the last time you felt abandoned by someone? bleh Does the sight of blood gross you out? No. Do you like red roses, or do you prefer another color? I love red ones, but I really, really like the ones with a pink-peach gradient. Have you ever gone through a red light? I think I MIGHT have accidentally because I was zoned out, but I don't THINK so. Do you fail to stop for stop signs, sometimes? I can't recall if I ever have. What is one of your major turn-offs? Misogyny. The moment you act like you exceed my worth just because you have a dick, byyyyyeeee~ During which year of your life were you the most unhappy? 2016 was hell on Earth for me. Have you ever seen a blue jay in person? I have. Do you like leaves better in the summer/spring, or in the fall? I'd like to meet someone that actually chooses anything besides fall, lol. Do you like the appearance of green eyes? YES! Do you typically like green-colored candies? Yessss. It's not rare for them to be my favorite flavor of whatever the thing is. Who is the most energetic and happy person you know of? My nephew, omg. Have you ever encountered a black widow? I actually have seen at least one to my memory. They're native here. Has an animal ever peed on you? Yes. Do you prefer green or purple/red grapes? I enjoy both, but I prefer green IF they're actually firm. What color is your birthstone? Purple. Why did you leave your house last? To go to the TMS office. I have to go there every day (but the weekends) for two months for treatment now. Is anything on your body sore? Well, inevitably my upper right arm, where my tattoo is. It looks so fucking beautiful redone though, it's all worth it. :') Have you ever eaten a cookie cake before? If so, was it good? Hell yeah man, cookie cakes are great. Do you lose interest in someone easily? I'm quite the opposite. Who was the last person you flirted with? Sara. Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for? No. Who’s the last person that slept over your house? My sister and her husband. Have you ever regretted kissing someone? Yes. Are you currently sad about anything? I mean, I always am about something. How would you feel if your last ex fell in love with someone else? I would be super happy for her. Who was the last person who left your life and hurt you? Colleen. Do you know anyone who died of breast cancer? I might know of somebody, but all I know personally are survivors. Do you miss any of your old friends? Well of course. Have you ever been used before? I don't know. Ever taken a picture kissing someone? Yes. What’s the last thing you and your sibling laughed about? I Don't know. I haven't seen either in some time. What’s the last thing you took a picture of? A meme to send Sara, haha. Do you listen to classical music? No. Do you tell your parents who you like? Why or why not? I mean, I don't just randomly bring it up because just being like "hey I like this person _____ now" seems weird. Now if I was asked or mentioning it is somehow relevant, then I will. Who’s the most annoying person in your neighborhood? The damn dog next door who never shuts up. Name one of your psycho exes? None. I was the "psycho ex," and it's embarrassing as shit. Do you make your own clothes and/or add designs to them on your own? No. Do you ever feel guilty eating meat? It's not something I always actively think about, but subconsciously, I absolutely always do. Especially knowing my family doesn't buy from "ethical" markets, but instead big ones. "Ethical" in quotations because there is no moral way to slaughter an animal for food, but at least there are smaller farmers who can give their livestock a better, cleaner, happier life. What are you listening to at the moment? I'm semi-watching Gab play Bioshock. I'd never seen the game before, so just kinda vicariously checking it out. Seems all right. Does anything hurt right now? My tattoo is definitely in the sore phase. It'll start scabbing soon. I literally can't stop looking at it, I love it so much. How many years have you lived at the house you’re living in right now? Around 1 1/2. Have you ever lived in a different country that the one you’re living in? No. Which of your parents will you see next? I live with my mom and rarely see my dad, so. Do you like Chinese food? Only pork fried rice and egg rolls, really. What sort of music were you brought up on? When all of us kids were very little, Mom would usually play her rock channels on the radio, sometimes a (clean) CD. She also would ensure to play kids' cassettes sometimes, too, like Raffy or whoever it was. Once Ashley reached a certain age, she would always ask for a pop channel to be put on, so most of my childhood was that and some country music, too.
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1-100 >:DDDD REVENGE!!!
FELIXXXXXXXXXXXX >:(( 1. Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora?  -spotify  2. is your room messy or clean? -it’s pretty messy i guess  3. what color are your eyes? -blue and grey
4. do you like your name? why? -yeah it’s fine 5. what is your relationship status? -single 6. describe your personality in 3 words or less -certified intrusive thot 7. what color hair do you have? -brown and rn it’s red 8. what kind of car do you drive? color? -i dont have a car 9. where do you shop? -hot topic, goodwill, target 10. how would you describe your style? -comfy emo 11. favorite social media account -of mine, probably discord or youtube 12. what size bed do you have? -twin >:(( 13. any siblings? -i have 1.5 brothers  14. if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? -probably vancouver, idk canada seems lit 15. favorite snapchat filter? -i like the one with devil horns and a tail but its cute 16. favorite makeup brand(s) -i dont wear makeup 17. how many times a week do you shower? -i used to shower every day, but i dont do anything that gets me dirty so like maybe 3 times but if i leave the house then i shower 18. favorite tv show? -stranger things 19. shoe size?  -8 or 9 20. how tall are you? -5′6 with shoes >:(( 21. sandals or sneakers? -sneakers wtf 22. do you go to the gym? -lol no 23. describe your dream date -making some pie or something together and then eating the pie and then sitting on some rooftop looking at stars 24. how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? -quite a bit actually but i’m saving up for a phone lol so soon it will be like maybe 10 dollars lmao 25. what color socks are you wearing? -not wearing socks but the ones i had earlier were white (ankle length) 26. how many pillows do you sleep with? -just one but it sucks 27. do you have a job? what do you do? -NO BUT IM TRYING TO GET A JOB BUT THE FUCKIN PEOPLE THERE ARE GHOSTING ME AND WONT REPLY TO MY EMAILS SO LIKE SBJHBJS 28. how many friends do you have? -like 4 lmao 29. whats the worst thing you have ever done? -idk nothing super bad but i do a lot of small shit that makes me feel guilty when i realize what i did 30. whats your favorite candle scent? -juniper rosewood 31. 3 favorite boy names -leo, clay, charlie 32. 3 favorite girl names -ivy, uh... idk thats all ive got 33. favorite actor? -no clue 34. favorite actress? -no clue 35. who is your celebrity crush? -not a celeb but i’d smash danny phantom 36. favorite movie? -nightmare before christmas or edward scissorhands 37. do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? -no, but my fav book is probably the prince and the pauper? idk 38. money or brains? -CASH MONEYYYY jk probably brains but if your entire personality is being “smart” like fuck off lmao   39. do you have a nickname? what is it? - a bunch of people call me son (see #49, #100), some call me rat, dumdum, goth boy
40.how many times have you been to the hospital? -just once i think when i was birthed. i also went once with my brother cause he kicked some scissors i left out on the floor and it sliced his toe the fuck open and he needed stitches and i watched him get the stitches and almost passed out :/ 41. top 10 favorite songs -please dont make me do this i dont have it in me 42. do you take any medications daily? -yea i take 20mg of vyvanse but i need to get it raised to 30 cause 20 is Not Enough 43. what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) -i got some dry fuckin skin yall dont even know 44. what is your biggest fear?  -it depends. the dark is a pretty constant one though 45. how many kids do you want? -like 2 or 3 eventually 46. whats your go to hair style? -in my face, looking stupid 47. what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc)  -it’s pretty small 48. who is your role model? -i dont fuckin know lmao  49. what was the last compliment you received? - “i belive in you, my son, you’re an amazing human being“ (same friend mentioned in #100, not actually a parent of mine) 50. what was the last text you sent? -”no it’s a raccoon“ YOU GET NO CONTEXT LMAO 51. how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? -i dont think i ever hardcore believed in him, maybe i did though i remember sleeping under the tree one christmas eve waiting for him but i was like “oh yeah that makes sense“ i guess 52. what is your dream car?  -i honestly dont give a shit as long as it actually fucking works 53. opinion on smoking? -cigarettes? fuck no that’s nastyyy. weed? that’s fine i guess but wait till you’re like 18.  54. do you go to college? -no. am sophomore n highschool 55. what is your dream job?  -musician/palentologist 56. would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs?  -fuck the suburbs lmao, but also im tired of rural, so like.. semi urban?? 57. do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels?  -no but i take the little soaps >:)) 58. do you have freckles?  -yes 59. do you smile for pictures? -awkwardly, yes 60. how many pictures do you have on your phone?  -dont have a phone but i have like 12 on my computer currently. 4 are of me, the rest are of my cat or random shit 61. have you ever peed in the woods?  -yes 62. do you still watch cartoons?  -cartoons these days kinda suck but like if they were good fuck yeah i would like gravity falls can come hang yknow? 63. do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? -i had nuggets from mcdonalds today so i guess them? i dont really care 64. Favorite dipping sauce?  -i got sweet and sour but i dont like it that much. that schezuan sauce was great 65. what do you wear to bed?  -wouldnt you like to know? ;))  66. have you ever won a spelling bee?  -NO ive only been in two. the first one i misspelled the word “turmoil“ cause i had never heard it before and the second one i spelled the word “owed“ as “ode“ cause i was thinking like ode to joy and then i felt like a big Fool afterwards :(( 67. what are your hobbies? -lol what hobbies 68. can you draw?  -i am physically able to draw, but not well, no 69 (haha). do you play an instrument? -yeah i play a few 70. what was the last concert you saw?  -i saw Chicago in either georgia or tennessee i cant remember in like 2016 71. tea or coffee? -hot coffee, iced tea. NOT the other way around. (i love both though) 72. Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? -starbucks 73. do you want to get married? -sure why not 74. what is your crush’s first and last initial? -dont have a crush 75. are you going to change your last name when you get married?  -idk maybe 76. what color looks best on you?  -i dont know but i wear black a lot and that’s pretty dope 77. do you miss anyone right now? -yeah  78. do you sleep with your door open or closed? -closed 79. do you believe in ghosts? -on the fence. not 100% “oh my god look at these gHoSt oRbS i need to sage my house!!!“ but i accept that there’s some things i wont understand about the world and that i have no answers to. i wouldnt be surprised if there are, and i wouldnt be surprised if there aren’t. 80. what is your biggest pet peeve? -whatever my adhd decides i viscerally hate with a firey passion right at that moment  81. last person you called -my brother (the 1 of the 1.5 from #13 and the one who sliced his toe in #40) 82. favorite ice cream flavor?  -chocolate is dope 83. regular oreos or golden oreos?  -regular double stuff. if you say golden, mint, peppermint, or thin oreos i’m gonna have to euthanize you, i dont make the rules.  84. chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? -rainbow cause it’s prettier  85. what shirt are you wearing?  -queen shirt from hot topic 86. what is your phone background? -i didnt get a phone between question 60 and now but my computer one is some mountains with the moon in the background 87. are you outgoing or shy? -really depends on who i’m around 88. do you like it when people play with your hair? -YES FUCK AAAAAAA (this girl played with my hair literally once in middle school and i was like oh shit and i had a crush on her until the end of middle school true story,,, so ashley if you’re out there-) 89. do you like your neighbors? -to the left they’re fine and their dog is nice but idk what happened to the horses so that’s sus but that’s where our cat came from so they can hang  guess, behind me they’re fine but their boys are loud, to the right they’re fine, and even further to the right are the dope neighbors and waaaaaaaaaay far to the right is a llama and he’s dope as hell 90. do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? -whenever the fuck i remember to/have the energy 91. have you ever been high?  -i dont think so but i wouldnt put it past myself 92. have you ever been drunk?  -not that i can remember, no 93. last thing you ate?  -sloppy joe from a can 94. favorite lyrics right now -”not gonna waste my life, cause i’ve been fucked up“ 95. summer or winter?  -fall. fuck you 96. day or night?  -night but i like it when it’s actually night and it doesnt get dark at like 4 fucking pm cause that makes me depressed 97. dark, milk, or white chocolate? -dark is good, milk is fine, white is only suitable for fancy stripes on chocolate covered strawberries 98. favorite month?  -i vibe with september 99. what is your zodiac sign -sagittarius (was almost a scorpio but i was holding out >:))) 100. who was the last person you cried in front of?  -in person, my mom like 6 months ago, on a discord call, my friend (i love you by the way, you’re the best,,, i dont think he has tumblr but im just putting it out there) like a month or so ago. i hate crying in front of people, i turn into such a hyperventilating snot monster which is not suitable for human gaze and thats the real tea :/
felix this took like 2 hours of my life i will never get back i hate you and i hope you’re happy with what you’ve done <3 <3
also anyone who wants to stalk me, enjoy this information that im handing to you on a silver platter :)) <3
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peeterparkr · 5 years
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Clear|t.h.
Chapter 1: Feeling blue
pairing: surfer!tom x reader
word count: 3.8k
warnings: exposition, swearing, death mention, alcohol mention
summary: Feeling blue has a totally different meaning when you’re at the beach. 
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a/n: ready for a Hawaiian roller coaster ride? haha no, I’m kidding, it won't be in Hawaii, but I was... get it? haha, what I’m trynna say is sorry, this will be a rollercoaster. 
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Y/N used to love road trips, they meant having fun, listening to music, singing her heart out, and new adventures. Her sister, Joanne, used to love it even more; she loved how y/n was always cheerful and happy. 
Y/n was always coming up with a joke to crack Joanne up, she’d come up with games to keep the trip fun. Joanne used to love the different stages of their road trips with the different songs for each and every single mood. It would always start with “Somewhere Over the Rainbow”, the version by Israel Kamakawiwo'ole. It was a song which made y/n happy, she would say that it’d get her in the mood for road trips, especially when they went to the beach, it was her “happy place” song. Joanne remembered how she’d lousily and lazily hum along to the notes and pretend like she was playing the ukulele whilst making silly faces to the mirror so Joanne would see. Y/n’s voice was definitely never on key, but she enjoyed it. Then it’d change from her relaxed vibes to the latest songs by the biggest pop sensation at the time, to Queen, to the Beatles, to songs that usually were sung by drunk people at bars, and it’d finish with some Backstreet Boys just because, sometimes it was Britney. Their mother would always bring up how silly they were but, without a doubt, would always join them.
They’d go nearly every summer to the town where their mother had grown up and they’d visit and spend the whole summer with their grandparents when they were younger. As they grew up though,  they started to go less and less; they hadn’t gone since their grandmother had passed away. And since y/n’s incident. At least not together, y/n had refused to come, and Joanne had only gone a few days to visit grandpa.
But they were back on the road to visit their grandpa who was just really excited to see them; however, the three of them were cold and didn’t show the same enthusiasm. Joanne didn’t want that, it wasn’t her grandpa’s fault.
This road trip was different, it was quiet, and it had been like that from the start. Y/n hadn’t played “Somewhere Over The Rainbow” and, instead, she was just staring blankly outside the window. Joanne didn’t blame her, but she had expected this trip to go better. Their mother had made sure that this trip would help y/n to clear her mind, get her mind off everything. Their mother just wanted to see her smile again. They all did. Joanne did, especially.
Joanne missed y/n and her light, her charm, her quirky comments, her sarcasm, her silly jokes, her paintings, her ideas, and her stupid and annoying laugh. She missed her. She missed her because whoever was on the front of the car with her earphones plugged in wasn’t her sister, she looked like her, but it wasn’t y/n. She even missed fighting with her, not because she wanted to actually fight, but she just wanted any part of the old y/n she could get, even if it meant arguing.  At this point, anything would work for Joanne. She hoped her mother was right, she needed her sister to smile right away. However she knew she had to give her time, and she had to help with it.
“Do you guys want anything?” Were the only words her mother had pronounced on the trip when she had stopped for gas. Both y/n and Joanne had declined the offer.
And they were off to the quiet road again. Joanne enjoyed her music and watched the pretty view. She wished for her sister to have a new adventure.
Y/n had gone through the roughest years. Her high school boyfriend had proposed to her shortly after they graduated high school, she was happy and even brighter than usual, sure they were young, really, really young, and all of y/n’s family were hesitant on approving, but they wanted to marry before they could even finish college. They said they were meant to be. They had never been a perfect match, but y/n was happy, so Joanne had stayed quiet.
However, Matt passed away shortly after he had proposed, and there was clearly nothing much y/n could do, she would say, but to blame herself and never try to love again. The love of her life was gone, and she blamed herself, and she kept blaming herself, it was her fault. They had just had a fight, a big fight. It didn’t even matter why they had fought now. She said it had been something stupid, something silly. However, Joanne knew that it hadn’t been a silly argument, it was far from silly; it had all come around to the last summer they had gone to the beach. After their fight, Matt decided to go out for some drinks and decided to text y/n horrible, terrible stuff. While he sent the horrible texts he was driving, he wasn’t good at making any responsible decisions, clearly. He crashed. To this day, y/n still felt guilty.
The years had gone by now, but y/n hadn’t been bright since then, she had never smiled for more than a few seconds, and she had barely got out. She was clearly off.
Y/N had stopped painting, that’s when both Joanne and her mother realized she had touched bottom.
After a few months later, she had sheltered herself in movies, she’d watch a new one every week, she said it helped her. A while later, and after many friends trying to set her up, she tried to date. But she would always find lame excuses as to why she didn’t like the guy, or as to why they weren’t a match, or how she hadn’t like the restaurant, or the movie he had chosen, or his clothes, or his eyes, or his watch, or his glasses. She began to classify people as characters she had seen in movies, and explained to Joanne why she couldn’t date them, because they would probably break her heart, or because they were probably not into her because they weren’t the type of people to fall for someone like her or Joanne’s favourite: “he probably committed a crime”. Her excuses started to become amusing, which was a clear sign that y/n was probably healing. Until summers, summers were blue.
Joanne knew that y/n didn’t believe in all that bullshit and that it was just another clever attempt to avoid any type of joy. Y/n never failed to come up with different ways to avoid what she wanted, but Joanne was sure y/n would someday fail.
Joanne understood it could be hard, but at the same time, she couldn’t believe her sister was still not over her high school sweetheart. She understood the pain, but she didn’t want y/n to be as closed off as she was, she needed to move on. Y/n was now a firm believer that love wasn’t worth it.
They arrived at their grandpa’s house that conveniently had a way to the beach, so it was the perfect destination. He was out there to greet them with a bright smile and a warm hug. Joanne hugged him first, then it was her mother and finally y/n. Y/n had turned to look at the water and Joanne swore she saw a smile across her face. Her thoughts were confirmed as y/n  turned to her grandpa. She gave him a small smile. It was a smile, that was a start.
They talked with their grandpa for a while until Joanne asked y/n to go walk by the beach and see the carnival. Y/n agreed and they changed into their swimsuits and put on some shorts, t-shirts, sunglasses and they both put some sunscreen on. When they were ready, Joanne made sure to promise her mother she’d make her smile.
Y/n was quiet, but Joanne was trying to make conversation about what she wanted to do for her birthday. Joanne was finally turning 21.
“It’s not that big of a deal, really,” the 22-year-old said as they approached the crowds on the beach.  “I like the beach better back at grandpa’s, it’s quieter, ‘specially at sunset. It’s prettier.” Y/n was looking around, and they approached the usual crowds that were watching a volleyball game, or buying drinks or ice cream. The blue waves were calming, even if there were people splashing and surfing here and there. But it looked pretty and made y/n smile as she enjoyed the blue sky that perfectly combined with the water. She loved the colour blue, maybe that was why she constantly felt that way. Blue.
There was the usual summer carnival at the beach and y/n and Joanne used to love it, however, it wasn’t as exciting on that day. It brought back some memories, though. There were a lot of stands, people selling clothes, food, girls taking pictures, guys drinking, and a lot of children yelling. It was the peak of the summer, busy day. There was a Ferris wheel that seemed fun, and some other carnival rides, which went ride after ride, with the buzzing screams and laughs coming from them.
“Uh, we should stay here until the sun goes down, it always gets better,” Joanne said. “I like the lights.”
“Sure.” It was a nice Sunday, after all. The sea was gorgeous and blue. “I love the sea, but I can’t help but be terrified by it.”
Joanne didn’t understand how her sister was always so into her world, so immersed in her own sad reality that it even made the sun fade out.
“Same,” Joanne admitted as they were watching it from the carnival. “Have there always been so many surfers?”
“It’s hot,” y/n pointed out, completely ignoring Joanne’s question. Joanne wasn’t sure if she was being serious or merely sarcastic.
“Uh-huh,” Joanne agreed.“We should go ride the bumper cars.”
“Bumper cars?” y/n chuckled.
“We used to love them,” Joanne said.
“Ah, don’t pull the nostalgia card just now, it’s the first day, give me a break. Besides, I’ll get dizzy, also... I’m hungry,” she said as she pointed to a stand of hot dogs. “So, let’s dig in.”  
They ate quietly as y/n watched everyone, she didn’t exactly look angry, but she didn’t look happy either. Joanne guessed it brought back the wrong kind of memories.
“Want some ice cream?” Joanne offered as they walked back to the beach.
“Sure.”
Sure had become y/n ’s favourite word lately, the less she spoke, the better.
They both walked over to a stand as Joanne watched some guys approach them. They had all surfboards and were dripping water, they were the guys Joanne had been staring at before. They were all really really attractive, Joanne thought.
“Oh, this suddenly got interesting,” Joanne smirked as she nudged her sister in an attempt of trying to make her smile.
Y/n turned around to see them and just raised her eyebrow and shrugged. “Meh.”
“Seriously?” Joanne frowned.
“Not my-“
“Not your type,” Joanne finished her sister’s sentence.
“I mean, they’re all trying to clearly show off,” y/n said and Joanne had to agree. “Get rid the surfboard and they’re not that attractive.”
“Huh, you think?” Joanne laughed. “That blond one really caught my eye.”
“Eh, I guess he’s cute, but, c’mon Jo, please, the bigger the surfboard...” y/n conceited mischievously and Joanne faked ignorance. “I’m just saying, they probably are compensating for something,” y/n smirked and winked at Joanne causing her to laugh.
Joanne watched them, it wasn’t particularly true. The three guys were attractive, really attractive. There was blond one with beautiful blue eyes, a black-haired one with green eyes and a curly brown haired one. They were laughing loudly, and Joanne saw she wasn’t the only one staring, they had everybody’s attention. They smiled at Joanne, causing her to blush. Y/n rolled her eyes.
Y/n turned to the ice cream stand and ordered the two ice creams. She noticed the boys in line behind her. The one with brown hair started laughing loudly, trying to get her attention, they reminded her of some animals she’d seen at the zoo.  He kept on laughing until one of his friends pushed him and he tripped. He almost fell into Joanne but he overcompensated and accidentally swung his board into y/n’s ice cream, sending it straight into her chest.
“Shit.” The guy dropped his board as he brought his hands to his mouth.
Y/n closed her eyes as she lift up her arms, she had to bit her tongue to stop from cursing.  She flicked her hands, cleaning off the remaining cone as she finally looked up at the three surfers, the blond and black haired boys were holding back some giggles.
“Oh my gosh, I’m sorry, I’m sorry,” The brown haired guy apologized as he reached over for some napkins, he clumsily tried to clean but y/n was quick to back up and push away his hands. “I- sorry, here, uh,” He gave the napkins over to her.
She picked them and started to clean herself up.
“You know, sweetheart, the wet t-shirt contest hasn’t started, but hey, you’re already winning,” The black-haired boy said.
“I sorry, uh, want me to buy you another one? Sorry, Oh my god, I didn’t mean to… The surfboard-” The brown haired guy glared at his friend and turned to the angry y/n.
“Yes, the surfboards,” y/n said as she frowned. “Shoot.” Y/n rolled her eyes as she took her t-shirt off to reveal her swimsuit.
“Oh, now we’re talking,” the black haired guy continued.
“I… can I buy you another ice cream, please, I’m sorry,” He continued. “I… I…” He blushed and then cleared his throat. “I’m Tom.”
“And I didn’t ask,” y/n snapped. Joanne squeezed her eyes shut, as she shook her head.
“She’s y/n and I’m Joanne,” Joanne said with a grin, y/n frowned and opened her mouth in disapproval. “So you’re Tom,” Joanne recalled and then her eyes were set on the blond guy. “And I didn’t catch your name?”
“He didn’t throw it,” y/n hissed, Tom chuckled.
“I’m Harrison, and this is Jared,” The blond guy said as he introduced himself and his friend. “So you guys are new?”
“Yes, we are!”
“No, we are not,” y/n glared at her sister. Tom was suppressing a laugh but he was still embarrassed.
“I mean--  shut up, y/n,” she murmured on her sister’s ear, making y/n cross her arms. “Technically, we’re just here on vacation, we’ll be here the whole summer.“
“I’m glad, so I’ll get to see your pretty face,” Jared smirked.
Joanne blushed.
“Okay, may I leave? Flirt all you want with these show-offs, but I need to… Ugh,” Y/n frowned.
“I mean, you can thank me, your shirt wasn’t as sweet,” Tom commented, trying to make a joke but y/n just raised her eyebrows.
“And we’re the show-offs? You’re the one who took off your shirt,” Harrison added.
Y/n glared at him.
Tom chuckled but then turned back to y/n, clearing his throat. “No, but seriously, if you want me to, I’ll buy you another cone, or a shirt if you want-.”
“Don’t worry about the ice cream!” Joanne blurted.
“Don’t worry about the ice cream?” Y/n gawked in surprise as she frowned. “Oh my god, Jo, please don’t, look, gentlemen, I’m going to leave with the little dignity I have.”
As y/n was walking away, Joanne realized she had screwed up.
“Look, I’ll… we’ll see you guys later, right?” Joanne asked as she was supposed to follow her sister, she stayed instead. Her mission to cheer up her sister had already been crushed.
“Sure, we’ll show you all the parties,” Harrison said. “And that sounded lame, but you got the deal.”
Joanne smiled.
“Wait… uh, seriously, I’ll buy her another shirt or, something to help?” Tom insisted.
“No, don’t worry, we’d need to buy another personality,” Joanne mumbled to herself.
“Wait, I’ll… y/n,” Tom followed her, as he stopped her. “C’mon, it was an accident. I’m sorry.”  
“Yeah, it’s okay,” y/n said looking down at her messed up t-shirt.
“Well, then… can I buy you ice cream? A drink?” Tom grinned. “Or a shirt, really there are some nice t-shirts back in the carnival, I saw one with Superman, I liked that one, it looked cool.”
“I’m more of a Spiderman girl, but  I’m fine.”
“Maybe I could get some more ice cream and dirt the back so it can match,” Tom offered with a chuckle.
“You’re trynna be funny, I see.”
“Witty actually, but sure,” Tom gave in. “So, a drink?”
“Don’t get me wrong,” y/n stared him up, “But I’m not exactly looking forward to a guy like you buying me a drink when I have my shirt off.”
Tom cackled. “Please, you’ve got your bikini,” Tom shrugged. “It’s the beach, everyone is half naked... let me, just, look, I’ll take my shirt off.”
Y/n glared at him as she started to walk away. “I’ll pass, have a nice day.”
Tom didn’t hesitate and took his shirt off just to realize the girl was gone and he ran after her.
“Oh c’mon, please, now we’re even,” Tom said.
“Even?” Y/n laughed sarcastically as she continued walking. “Look, you said you’re sorry, that’s fine, I don’t need any more apologies.”
“Yeah, but I feel bad, I feel guilty,” Tom pouted.
“Too bad.”
“Oh, god, you hate me, don’t you?” Tom joked. “C’mon, maybe I can say some awful jokes? I know some surfing puns, can I interest you in one?”
Y/n stopped as she crossed her arms and smiled. “Fine,” she shrugged. “Go ahead.”
“Oh,” Tom grinned and then frowned. “Oh shoot, I may not know any, no, no, don’t walk away, uh, the… the first time I tried to surf the web I… ended up breaking my surfboard.”
Y/n stared at him blankly.
“Okay, tough crowd,” Tom chuckled. “Uh, how do surfers say hello to each other?”
“They wave?”
“Oh damn, now I feel stupid, shorely this is awful.”
Funnily enough, that made her smile.
“Oh, that? Really? That one? That one made you smile?” Tom chuckled.
“You’re very persistent, huh?” Y/n looked over, as Tom chuckled. “Of course,” she said as a realization hit her. “Of course, you’re one of them.”
“If by “them” you mean someone who’s trying to be nice, then yes.” Tom chuckled.
“You’re a surfer, which is basically, the equivalent of the dumb football captain,” Y/n snapped her fingers, laughing to herself. “Should’ve known.”
“A dumb football player,” Tom repeated, incredulous.
“What I mean is I should stay away from you,” y/n explained.
“Ah, c’mon, I’m fun, friendly, I’m the whole package.”
“Oh, no, please, Tom, right? Right, look, Tom, you don’t wanna be around me, I’m not the kind of friend you want.”
“Fine, then enemies we shall be,” Tom offered her his hand and she quickly stared at it before shaking it.
“Have a terrible day,” Y/n smiled at him, as Tom shrugged.
“You too, but trust me, I’ll bet that by the end of the summer, you’ll be either  in love with me or so tired of me that you’ll eventually give in to my charm.”
“Lack of it, really,” Y/n pointed out.  
“Rude, but call me whenever you need more ice cream on any other clothes,” Tom grinned.  Y/n rolled her eyes.
And with that, they went separate ways.
Joanne had kept talking to Harrison when she noticed Tom coming back.
“She’s a tough one, but got a smile, I can live with that,” Tom chuckled. “I really do feel bad.”
“You made her smile?” Joanne grinned.
“He took off his shirt, of course he made her smile,” Haz laughed.
Joanne shook her head with a smile as she then excused herself and left the three guys. She tried to look up for her sister.  
“They were pretty,” Haz commented.
“Yeah, dibs on both,” Jared said.
Tom rolled his eyes, as he was ordering something to drink. He was exhausted, he had been surfing all day and he had barely slept the day before, so clearly, he wasn’t in the best mood. However, Y/n had made his day, in a way.
The three friends continued having fun, it was his free day, after all. They played some volleyball, kept riding the waves and relaxing.
His friends kept playing volleyball, or flirting with some girls, or maybe they had gone to drink, he didn’t care. He just sat by the shore, staring at the blue water as the waves foamed near his feet. He breathed in to capture the sunset in its best picture. He could never get tired of it.
“Tommy!” A voice startled him, he squeezed his eyes shut as he heard the footsteps approaching him.
“Tom!” The brunette yelled again as he had just rested his head on the sand. He covered his face.
“Lex.” Was the only word that he muffled.
“Hey, baby,” she greeted him.
“Don’t call me that, we’re not together, remember?” Tom reminded her as he sat up. “You made that clear.”
“Ah, we’re getting technical now, are we?” She sat beside him, as Tom just side-eyed her. She was all covered in sand, and her green bikini was slightly revealing.
“You broke up with me,” Tom snapped. “And I’m good with that, and I’m sure you are, too.”
“Oh, Tommy, always so serious,” Alexa said as she placed a kiss on his neck making her way up and then back down to his chest, she sucked on his skin, Tom closed his eyes. “We could always get back for a night.”
“So that’s what this is about,” Tom rolled his eyes as he laughed.
“Beach house?” Her eyes were flirty, as her fingers walked across her chest.
“Beach house.”
Not too far from them, Y/n was sitting on the porch of her Grandpa’s house, with a sketchbook resting on her lap and a pencil on her hand. She was quietly enjoying the music the sea was providing her, waiting to get back the long inspiration she had once lost in that exact same place.
She gave up, eventually, but decided to keep on listening to the melody. She was feeling blue, but not in her usual blue.
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trufield · 6 years
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Trufield Fluff Alphabet!
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the meme no one asked me to fill out but here it is just for the hell of it
(thanks to @superkamiokande for the pic
A = Attractive. What do they find attractive about the other?
Harry is most attracted to Albert’s kindness (and gentleness) but once a relationship is established he pays closer attention to Albert’s physical features (his eyes, his ass, his ears... everything)
Albert is attracted to Harry’s physical everything (if the clothes aren’t in the picture). His hair, his jaw, his soft eyes and quiet focus...
      (... and his dick)
B = Baby. Do they want a family? Why/Why not?
Harry had always imagined having a family but he doesn’t mind not having one. He likes spending time with Frank’s kids and he doesn’t think he would be in the best position to have one anyway
Albert: absolutely not
C = Cuddle. How do they cuddle?
Any way they can. Albert is always the little spoon in bed
D = Dates. What are dates with them like?
 Albert takes Harry to a fancy restaurant. Harry gets flustered. (They don’t really date though...)
E = Everything. You are my ____ (e.g. my life, my world…)
Harry might say Albert was his everything. Albert wouldn’t descend into this level of sappiness (doesn’t stop him thinking those things though. w/e Albert you’re already a sap)
F = Feelings. When did they know they were falling in love?
Albert: When Harry trusted him, needed him, relied on his help to get him through his alcohol addiction (although he was attracted to him at the start but it wasn’t LOVE, not like this)
Harry: When Albert is helping him for a week or so and Harry takes him to see the rainbow at White Tail Falls, remembers the legend about finding your forever love there and thinks ‘oh no it’s definitely Love’
G = Gentle. Are they gentle? If so, how?
YESS. They’ve had too much suffering and also Harry has never really been treated gently by a romantic partner before (it was always him being the caregiver) so it’s new and different and SAFE and he likes it very much. He will be gentle with Albert too because he never wants to hurt him (and feels guilty that he has done in the past)
H = Holding Hands. How do they like to hold hands?
YES. They are dorks. At first Albert is sigh, eyeroll, I only do it because Harry likes this kind of thing but w/e Albert. They hold hands to reassure, when being intimate and just any damn time they feel like it. When they’re old they walk the dogs and hold hands.
I = Impression. First impression/s?
Albert thinks Harry is superficially attractive and it’s a shame he’s so ‘dense’ and that it looks like he frequents thriftstore dumpsters
Harry thinks Albert is arrogant and rude
J = Joker. Are they into pulling pranks?
Not really, sometimes Harry is playful and Albert has to learn how to respond to that but they’re too much about trust to be pranking each other. (Harry lets Diane copy some of Albert’s photos one time for her to put at his desk but does regret doing so)
K = Kiss. How do they kiss?
Soft chaste kisses, forehead kisses, kissing any damn part of the body they like, hungry/desperate kisses, deep and slow kisses... all kinds of kisses
L = Love. Who says ‘I love you’ first?
Albert. Harry has had too many bad experiences and is too afraid to say it to his face for awhile. Albert does so to reassure him and show it’s serious
M = Memory. What’s their favourite memory together?
Impossible to have just one after a lifetime together! Obviously the happiest ones are best, their first time situations, proposals, weddings, but all the small things too: being out in the snow together, unremarkable domestic times that are fixed in the memory for no special reason, just the mood and atmosphere
N = Nickel. Do they spoil? Do they buy the person they love everything?
Albert spoils Harry absolutely. He has more money than he knows what to do with and here is finally a use but Harry is too polite and well mannered to be comfortable being spoilt excessively. Albert will buy him fine food, a nice suit to go out in, any bedroom-related stuff that he has an interest in, pays part of his phone bill. When they’re old and retire he goes all-out and buys Harry’s dream home (+animals) because he deserves it ;3;
O = Orange. What colour reminds them of their other half?
Earthy colours remind Albert of Harry - Greens and browns. Rich blues make Harry think of Albert
P = Petnames. What petnames do they use?
Albert shoots down the notion of petnames but Harry might call him ‘darlin’ occasionally and Albert will let it slide. When Harry asks Albert to teach him some basic Spanish phrases before meeting Albert’s parents, Albert calls him ‘mi pollito’ (and will do so occasionally when he’s being particularly soft)
Q = Quaint. What is their favourite non-modern thing?
Albert: RECORDS. Jazz Records. Also soothed by the soft fuzz of the needle when it’s over
Harry: probably more appropriate to ask what modern thing he likes haha. Harry prefers to do everything by hand. He likes a good traditional fireplace and chopping wood for it
R = Rainy Day. What do they like to do on a rainy day?
‘Warm each other up’ *waggles eyebrows*. But also curling up on the couch together, Albert getting Harry to watch a movie he likes or Harry watching TV and Albert reading
S = Sad. How do they cheer themselves/others up?
When Harry is depressed Albert will get him to lie his head on Albert’s chest and Albert will stroke his hair. Harry gives firm, grounding hugs
T = Talking. What do they like to talk about?
Albert likes to complain. But seriously, Albert likes talking about innovations in his field, science and big ideas. He’ll talk forever about music. Harry prefers asking Albert questions and listening but does like talking about animals and educating Albert on nature
U = Unencumbered. What helps them relax?
Each other! A firm embrace, a soft kiss. A nice warm bath or a cozy bed. If they don’t have each other: Harry - an amble in the woods, listening to the birds. Albert - Laying in the dark, eyes closed, listening to his records
V = Vaunt. What do they like to show off? What are they proud of?
Of course Albert likes to show off. He takes pride in his own talents (professional and otherwise) and knowledge. Harry will show off others - his cute pets or the talents of other people. He will perform his own special talents for Albert (singing, playing the guitar, and when he’s comfortable enough - stripteases) and may show off a little given Albert’s reactions
W = Wedding. When, how, where do they propose?
Albert decides to propose before Harry moves in with him to start off on a positive footing and so Harry’s not too sad about leaving his home. He does so at Harry’s home after impatiently waiting for him to return from work. He does what he’s supposed to, gets down on one knee with a ring. Technically it’s a ‘Reciprocal Beneficiary Relationship’ and only symbolic, but they sign the papers. They decide Harry will organise a ceremony on his leaving day so he leaves with good memories
There’s a second proposal, after Harry is recovering from chemo. Now it’s possible for them to be properly married, Harry proposes (with some assistance from Tammy and Coop). While Albert is out flower petals are scattered over the floor. Albert comes in annoyed about the mess and Harry proposes to him with a donut that has ‘Marry Me’ iced on it
X = Xylophone. What’s their song?
Nobody Does It Better - Carly Simon
Y = You. You are the ___ to my ___ (e.g. the cookies to my milk, the macaroni to my cheese)
Harry would probably say all kinds of food related variants and Albert would roll his eyes
Z = Zebra. If they wanted a pet, what would they get?
By the time they get their own proper home they already have many pets, but if Albert said he could have another he’d probably get some chickens...
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emmelfish · 6 years
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‘After woohoo, I like to celebrate with a long hike to ponder the fact that my wife being pregnant means it’ll be a while before we can have more babies.’
Pfft, keep dreaming John. Like that want about playing for tips, nice try – you have zero creativity points. Stick to wanting to praise Tabby, becoming besties with Lucy, and befriending Darren. Also if it’s so hot maybe you should take off your outerwear when you get inside?
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FACK
John: What’s the best thing about gardening? Getting down and dirty with your hoes!
Jen: These interactions ALWAYS result in one of us walking away with minus points, why would you think this one would be any different? Anyway, come look at this, you’ll like this.
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Jen: LOOK! He’s watching sports on TV like he’s people!
John: Oh that’s adorable! Hey speaking of sports, how is woohoo like a game of bridge?
Jen: *screams internally*
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Finally, Jen gets to hang out with some intelligent lifeforms.
Jen: Alright. ‘Examine the lives of the best and the most fruitful sim and sims and ask yourself whether a tree which is supposed to grow to a proud height could do without bad weather and storms: whether misfortune and external resistance, whether any kinds of hatred, jealousy, stubbornness, mistrust, hardness, greed and violence do not belong to the favorable conditions without which any great growth even of virtue is scarcely possible?’
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Tabby: Screw this.
Jen: ‘The poison from which the weaker nature perishes strengthens the strong sim – and he does not call it poison.’
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John: My wife! I am so proud of you for reading to our child and furchildren and yet-to-be-born children AND getting a golden ticket to My Muse from the spiky-haired man because of your musical talent.
(Hey it’s Justin Kim again! Wonder if he’s come searching for his Hot Tub Time Machine mom.) 
Justin: I’m a child and even I know that if you jump on her like that it’s not good for your yet-to-be-born children.
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Pop
Jen: The hell is this?
John: You said you wanted new clothes. 
Jen: But blue is so not my color.
John: But darling, now you match my shorts! 🎵Off to tend to my peppers I shall go...
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Glitches
John: 🎵 With a broken arm, yes oh-ee-oh
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Another day, another dollar simoleon...
Jen: TUCKER II! You lucrative little furball, thank you so much for pulling your weight while Mommy is carrying so much of it and thus can’t work herself, all thanks to that great big tit I’m married to.
John: What’s that?
Jen: I said is that the Greater Blue-Tit you’ve spotted there dear?
John: I think it is!
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Jen: YAY I am so proud of you!
John: Me too!
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John: Unff
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I’m sorry, I can’t suspend my disbelief with this game any longer because Lucy IS the classmate that saw the rated R movie, and would be the one describing boobies and butts and bloody violence to the innocent child this chance card was actually meant for. So I picked Ignore, because a) no, and b) chance cards are bullshit, they have a 99.999999999999% chance of undoing all your good work in any scenario.
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Oh looky who it is! Everyone’s favorite Desiderata resident. And, three nanoseconds of a chat with Jen results in Jen’s crumpled face of confusion and Natasha’s hatred thought bubble. Shame, really.
I’ve noticed the community tends to call her Nat, but all the Natashas I’ve known in my life (all two of them) go for Tash or Tasha. I’m torn. I’ll tell you what I’m NOT torn on. Her exquisite grilled cheese dress by the exquisite @strangetomato, amirite? 🧀
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GO TABS!
Good: Tabby promoted Good: Smart investing Bad: Justin falling out with Lucy, probably because he was the kid the chance card was meant for and she was traumatizing him with talk of blood and boobies. I’m not gonna lose sleep over it, he’s all the way out in Viper Canyon so it wasn’t like they were gonna be besties in childhood. Maybe at college or something.
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This family, I swear. They’re like the sim embodiment of Bender’s ‘impression of life at big Bri’s house’ in The Breakfast Club.
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That’s if, uh, Bri’s parents constantly make sexually-charged advances toward one another. 
Meanwhile, dat text doe! Brandi Broke Hair Hour is upon us.
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Jen: Sweetie I’ve found myself wearing something I wouldn’t choose even if it were the last garment on the planet and I’m scared.
Lucy: It’s okay Mom, if I’ve lost all respect for you it’s primarily because I’m on the precipice of puberty and that’s what’s supposed to happen.
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John: The heck is this? I’m the Family sim here. You can’t have it both ways.
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John: THAT’S more like it. Hai little bestie!
Lucy: Hai Dad! Why are all these people in our house?
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John: Oh, well Brandi Broke was on a walkby so I wanted to paint a picture of what your hair will look like tomorrow so that you’re prepared. And I got one of those annoying messages about whether I’d been abducted by aliens from Darren even though I spoke to him yesterday, so I felt guilty.
Meanwhile, Jennifer stares longingly at her guitar and gets all introspective about this five-minute lack of romance in her life, exacerbated by Brandi heartfarting at Darren. That Family/Knowledge attraction, it never fails. And yet, somehow I can’t see Dustin and Dirk as stepbrothers, but we need to find Brandi someone soon as she needs to up her brood to six for that stupid LTW about marrying off multiple kids. WHAT IF UNBORN BABYBROKE ISN’T THE MARRYING KIND, Brandi, ever think of that?!
(Makes mental note to create drahmz by making Unborn Babybroke a Romance sim who constantly disappoints its mother)
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Jen: Oh that DOES it. You lot might be able to sit around waiting for these babies to fall out of me but I have to DO something.
Brandi you utter utter terrible stupid moron you are PENNILESS WHY are you tipping Jen all those simoleons 😱
Lucy meanwhile stares at her father and tries to picture Brandi’s hair on his face in a vain attempt to glimpse into her near future.
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And yet... are these two meant to be though? The synchronized terrible dancing and constant thoughts of one another may be a sign. That said, Dina Caliente does that with Darren too and, much as I love Darren and Dina as individuals, the thought of that is so godawfully wrong that I always have to direct sims to speak with each of them separately in an attempt to stop them autonomously eating one another’s faces whenever they always show up in the same GD welcome wagon. #StopDinarren #SaveTheDreamers #ACRYouMonster
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Lucy manages to alienate yet another boy from districts afar (like does her schoolbus refuel in Viper Canyon or something?) by saying things about art or theater that offend Gallagher Newson so deeply, he launches a tirade of vitriolic mansplaining at her while she checks her nails, unfazed. Atta girl. 
Brandi: I wish we could all get along like we used to in middle school... I wish I could bake a cake filled with rainbows and smiles and everyone would eat and be happy...
Best not look outside then Bran.
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Tabby: Huh? Yeah? You want some o’ this? Come at me bro!
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Tabby: Oh you think I can’t take you? Think again assclown, I’m a stunt double now, I eat fear FOR BREAKFAST.
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And so the thrill ride begins. Lucy’s face is that unique mixture of anxiety and resignation that plainly says, ‘Well, my reign is at an end. It’s been real, friends.’
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I love Tucker II, but the fact that he chooses THIS moment to act out for the first time in his life and start destroying the furniture is far from cool. Clearly he too is worried about upcoming changes in the pack hierarchy.
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Stone cold Tabs meanwhile favors staying outside in the rain and having no part in any of this.
Tabby: 🎵 Hello darkness my old friend...
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Urgh
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IS NOOBOO TIME!
Spoiler alert: this nooboo actually ends up with blue eyes because I quit without saving to roll the pacifier a couple times, which is sad because neither nooboo has black hair now. But we’ll survive. Somehow. I just liked this snap.
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When both your dog and your seconds-old nooboo are thinking about Brandi, it’s probably time for her to leave the house. But she won’t, because she’s a Family sim who subscribes to the stereotype of only caring about other people’s children. And pets.
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3 days off? Pahaha. I don’t even have any hacks installed to share parental leave (I really should), and Jen was somehow still back at work the next day.
Poor Babygirl Burb (not her permanent name) isn’t getting a great start in life considering everybody’s just yelling about Babyboy Burb and not even acknowledging her. Well, except Jen, who hasn’t yet put her down. See that, Family sims?! That’s how to do it.
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Case in point.
Brandi: Congrats!
John: Oh yeah, the nooboos? Great aren’t they. I’m sure I dropped The Boy around here somewhere.
The Boy: And my suffering beginneth...
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John: The Boy! Ah, The Boy. There you are. The Boy.
(If you can’t already tell, John will be saying ‘The Boy’ in the same relieved and happy voice as the dad from 8 Simple Rules for the rest of his natural life, primarily because both of his daughters are genetically engineered to make his hair grey.)
Hey Brandi, ever feel like you’re intruding on an intimate family moment?
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Brandi: Nup!
Lucy: I just can’t picture it ON me...
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Brandi: Kid, what is it with you and my hair?
John: I’VE LOST THE BOY AGAIN
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Lucy: Haha, my parents can be so incompetent sometimes.
Lucy: Actually... where are my parents?
Well Lucy, get ready to upscale that judgment of incompetence because...
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ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME. John’s face. John’s face right there. Is the most smackable face I’ve ever seen.
Not only did Jennifer Burb give birth TO TWINS less than five minutes ago...
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... but they unceremoniously dumped both twins in the Bouncinators, and they’re now screaming.
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To which, their creators remain oblivious. There are some pretty terrible parents out there in the Sims universe BUT THESE TWO ARE HOT ON THEIR HEELS right now.
Hey, while these poor minutes-old creatures are stuck screaming in their Bouncinators while John presumably tries to create more problems for the family with his testicles, why don’t we meet them?
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This is not at all named solely to give Alexander Goth a younger wife one day Cecilia! You can’t see them here because they’re squeezed shut in agony and anguish, but her eyes are deep blue, presumably from her grandfather Jeff Pleasant. Perhaps upon looking at her, her uncle Daniel will be overcome with the guilt referenced in his bio and try to send her to Mars.
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And here’s Patrick! With his skintone plus the brown eyes and brown hair, he’s probably destined to be a John / Lucy clone, but we shall see. Let’s get one thing straight though (or should I say curly), when these anklebiters transition they are both leaping right into Jennifer Burb tousled waves territory.
Lucy: WHAT DO I DO
Don’t worry Lucy, we’ll pause this one here as it’s already been far too long a round and no doubt everyone involved is tired as hell.
Until next time!
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nctmoonstarsun · 6 years
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11 question tag
I was tagged by @g-te  for the 11 questions game where you answer 11 questions then write 11 new questions! (Thank youu! ^^)
how are you? / Meh lmao
sad ballads or happy upbeat songs? / Depends on my mood really, but right now, happy upbeat songs
fave anime movie? I haven’t watched any haha
dogs or cats? / Cats!!
do you keep stuffed animals in your room? / no ^^
someone you miss? / Honestly everyone is there for me, so no one
describe your phone case? / A black, professional-looking case 
favorite lore/myths? /  Ooo i dont know..
earbuds or headphones? / earbuds
can I steal your heart? / um you can try..?
favorite thing about your ult bias? / How he is always really cheerful and positive, such a little fluffball honestly ^^
cloud’s q’s
Do you know a ksong by heart? (bc I don’t :x I can hum a trillion tho) / A few (I do karaoke a lot sooo)
When it comes to friendships, are you low or high maintenance? (As in your friends gotta talk everyday with you or you’ll feel like the friendship is dying OR if you can spend days without talking to them yet you still remain close) I can spend days without talking to them yet I still remain close
Do you have a secret that you will take to the grave? (Ofc I’m not asking you to reveal it) / No XD
Recommend me 5 songs (not necessarily kpop songs) / DRAMARAMA (MonstaX), Limitless (NCT), See You Again (Wiz Khalifa ft. Charlie Puth), Red Flavor, Russian Roulette (Red Velvet)
What do you prefer?: first, second or third gen kpop songs? / I listen more often to third generation kpop songs
What’s the cheeeeeeeeeesiest thing you’ve done? (one time a former friend of mine was telling me about a problem she had and at the end of our convo I kissed her in the forehead bYE) / Um… honestly I have the worst memory so I can’t actually remember
If you were asked to participate in a variety show, which one of the following would you pick and why? (Pick two!): problematic men, master key, hello counselor, weekly idol, one fine day, law of the jungle / WEEKLY IDOL, Hello Counselor (honestly I love these shows so much)
Your top 10 kpop songs of 2017? / DNA, Mic Drop, Cherry Bomb, Red Flavor, Likey, Really Really, Dramarama, Russian Roulette, Limitless, Rookie
Would you rather live in a huge mansion or a compact studio house? Compact studio house 
Tell me a fun childhood story (I’ll start! One time an aunt gave me money to buy ‘papas’ (potatoes) at the grocery store so bc I’m obedient af I went and asked the counter lady how many of em could I buy with the money I had so she went ‘uhh, not many tbh’ so i ended up getting like two and when I returned to my aunt’s house she laughed her ass off and said: I meant ‘papas fritas’ (potato chips) Not those! - and uh yeah this is funnier in Spanish but it proves that I’m such an innocent angel I mean wow) /  Well not much happened in my childhood but I remember how before I moved to England (I used to live in India), me and my friends (we were 7 year olds) would practice talking in English because ‘I needed to get used to it’, and now I talk to them about that and we just laugh at it lmao trust me it’s funnier than it sounds if you’ve experienced it.
If you were offered to start a band, would you accept? / HELL YES (even tho I have no talent I still love singing does that count?)
kiki’s q’s
Link your favourite playlist here if you can and if you can’t write out the first 10 songs on it! (Not a question but shh) / I don’t really have a playlist I literally just go onto the group and then pick the song on spotify ahaha
Is your current ult bias your first ult bias? If not who was your first? / No… My first ult bias was Jungkook ^^
Who is your ult bias? / Jung Jaehyunnnnn <3
Who is more likely to hog the aux cord, you or your ult? / Hmmm I feel like neither of us would hog it, more like just take turns or something I guess
Who is more likely to forget an important date, you or your ult? / Ummm… guilty as charged (basically me)
Who is more likely to ask the other to pick them up after work, you or your ult? / Me, just cos I love the idea of him picking me up after work lmao
Who is more likely to write the other a hand written note expressing themselves rather than just saying it, you or your ult? / That will be me… I’m not that good at expressing my feelings in general, but if I really want to, I’ll sit down and write a long heartfelt note
Who is more likely to cry when a dog dies in a movie, you or your ult? / I don’t cry at movies, but I feel like he’ll be upset and then I’d start crying because he’s upset
Who is more likely to almost burn the house down while cooking, you or your ult? / I can cook, but so can he..? So I don’t know
Who is more likely to start a pillow fight, you or your ult? / Probably me, I have a habit of throwing pillows at people if they tease me 
Who is more likely to ask the other to come over to cuddle with them so that they can fall asleep better, you or your ult? / Me probably haha
Mir’s q’s :D
If you could travel anywhere, but were completely by yourself, where would you go? / I honestly don’t know because I hate going places on my own
What inspires you? / Stories of successful people who got where they are now by hard work and dedication (esp. those with the same aspirations as me)
How many pets would you have in your ideal future? Any specific names or types in mind? / Just one small puppy
What are you opinions on fedoras / Um, not really the biggest fan of them
how many spoons can you balance on your face at once (picture or video proof preferred (i’m trying to get someone to do it pls anyone)) / They’re all the way downstairs and I’m in bed right now I can’t be asked to move
What is your favorite type of tree? / Willow tree
If you could convince one person to like kpop who would you convert? / My dad, cos if he’s convinced, my mum will automatically be converted too XD
What are three things you are normally associated with and/or what are three things you want to be associated with? / Well, I guess making people happy, but that’s pretty much it
If you were in a kpop group what position would you hold (ie. leader, main vocal, moodmaker, etc) feel free to tag your mutuals and who they would be! / I think I’d be vocal, leader and the 4D member haha ^^ @g-te would be rapper/moodmaker and @thatbubblecat would be the lead dancer and visual 
If you could have any wild animal as a tame pet what would it be?? (i’m ocelot loyal all the way) / Probably a lion
What is your opinion on mint chocolate chip ice cream? (for maj) / LOVE IT!!
Gitte’s q’s
What is your (clothing) style? like is it casual, street style, sporty, classy… It really depends on my mood, like sometimes I wear casual, and sometimes classy, sometimes girly.
Would you reather be very smart/intelligent but ugly, or dumb but beautiful? Very smart but ugly 
Which languages do you speak/understand? English, Hindi, Malayalam, French
What is your biggest dream? To be a doctor
Do you fold or do you crumple up your toilet paper? (I am curious okay?) Fold XD
Your favourite season? Winter
Do you have a favourite number? If yes, which and why? It’s always been 17, I think it’s my lucky number
Do you prefer, day or night? Night
Do you like bright or dark colours? Both, I usually tend to stick to two colours though; bright red or black
Do you have any habits? Accidently hitting people when laughing (even though I apologise immediately after), covering my mouth accidently with my hand when awkward and mumbling at the same time if I’m talking. 
What’s your ideal type? Oo well he's caring and protective, a pure baby but can be manly. Can sense if I'm upset and quickly tries to make me feel better. Empathetic, down to earth and modest, generally cheerful person who is positive and optimistic. A bit extroverted. In general, similar to me, I guess.
Ae Sook’s qs
      1. What qualities do you like of your ultimate bias? (Say who he/she is too)
      2. What sort of animal would you be if you were to choose one? (your spirit animal)
      3. What is your favourite ice cream flavour?
      4. Do you like kpop? If so, how long has it been since you’ve been into kpop?
     5. What star sign are you? 
     6. List all the groups/bands you listen to regularly (any genre of music).
     7. What is your favourite choreography (kpop)?
     8. How would you describe yourself? (positives and negatives, but put mainly positives)
     9. Sushi; yes or no?
    10. Who is that one idol you can relate to most? (Who do you think you’re most like? - and no, I don’t mean your ultimate bias)
I tag:
@thatbubblecat @taeyongtown @deeimana @g-te (i know you’ve done this, but I want to see what you would put for my question lmao x)
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restingbritishface · 6 years
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whoops all of them
1: My name? 
Adam Gabriel :) I’m not a fan of my last name though... can I have yours?
2: Do I have any nicknames? Not derivatives of my name, but you call me a lot of cute ones 
3: Zodiac sign? Aries/Taurus
4: Video game I play to chill, not to win?Skyrim lol5: Book/series I reread? Rangers Apprentice or Percy Jackson 6: Aliens or ghosts? Ghosts7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write? You 8: Favourite radio station? Whatever actually plays a good song?9: Favourite flavour of anything? Chocolate? Or salty10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great? Awesome or great lol11: Favourite song? Currently I kissed a boy by Jupither12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better? I just sort of ask random questions until we have something in common lol13: Favourite word? FUCK14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them? Forgiving them isn’t beneficial for me and they don’t think they need it, so no.15: Last song I listened to? I kissed a boy - jupither16: TV show I always recommend? Probably Brooklyn 99 lol I haven’t seen it but I’m behind it 100%17: Pirates or ninjas? Ninja pirates!18: Movie I watch when I'm feeling down? Wonder Woman or Moana19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song? My alarm always plays either i kissed a boy or from the dining table 20: Favourite video games? Probably skyrim, I don’t play too many video games21: What am I most afraid of? Losing people I love22: A good quality of mine? I’m good at giving advice23: A bad quality of mine? Probably my pickiness with food lol. That, or the fact that I always feel like I have to earn good things before I can have them24: Cats or dogs? Kitties!25: Actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they're in? Mmmm I don’t really have one26: Favourite season? Autumn!27: Am I in a relationship? Hell yeah!28: Something I miss? Serotonin... best thing from my childhood rip29: My best friend? You!30: Eye colour? Blue?31: Hair colour? currently blondish red32: Someone I love? You!33: Someone I trust? You!34: Someone I always think about? You!35: Am I excited about anything? You!36: My current obsession? Gay shit37: Favourite TV shows as a child? Oooh hmm I liked a lot of Disney Channel shows
38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to? I don’t care enough about people’s genitals to know who the ~opposite sex~ is, plus intersex people exist so39: Am I superstitious? A little? Not really40: What do I think about most? Youuuuu41: Do I have any strange phobias? I have fear foods, does that count42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it? I live for the spotlight43: Favourite hobbies? Dancing! Singing! Getting overwhelmed with crippling depression!44: Last book I read? Simon and the Homo Sapiens Agenda45: Last film I watched? The Greatest Showman46: Do I play any instruments? Piano and guitar47: Favourite animal? Kitties or penguins!48: Top 5 blog on Tumblr that I follow? In no particular order:       @misstheroses        @charmingimmortality          @beaniebaneenie             @hclliish​               @slenderlof
49: Superpower I wish I could have? Flying would be fucking great50: How do I destress? I love to take long baths or talk to you51: Do I like confrontation? No, but I do like to communicate, so I guess that could be seen as confrontation52: When do I feel most at peace? When I feel like I pass and I’m around people who accept me53: What makes me smile? You, kitties, babies, genuine compliments54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off? Off ofc what am I a heathen?55: Play any sports? Dance is a sport so yes
56: What is my song of the week? oooh I like so many...57: Favourite drink? Fresh orange juice probably58: When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody? Earlier this month to youuuu59: Afraid of heights? Nope60: Pet peeve? When people order a drink and don’t tell me the fuckin size like thanks for ordering a three shot 8 pump nonfat vanilla latte with no whip, carol, now tell me what size you want before i charge you for the large
61: What was the last concert I went to see? Oh god it was so long ago i don’t even remember62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian? I’m mostly vegetarian except when my family makes me eat meat63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger? I wanted to be a movie star lol64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy? Yeah haha65: What fictional universe would I like to be a part of? Oooh idk maybe middle earth?
66: Something I worry about? Accidentally pushing people away
67: Scared of the dark? nope
68: Who are my best friends? I consider @misstheroses @charmingimmortality @slenderlof and @beaniebaneenie to be some of my best friends 
69: What do I admire most about others? Their capacity for kindness even in a world that destroys it70: Can I sing? Well enough?71: Something I wish I could do? Move to london right now72: If I won the lottery, what would I do? a shit load of random acts of kindness, pay off my student loans, move to london and buy a flat, then open a queer cafe 73: Have I ever skipped school? I’ve skipped classes, but never an entire school day74: Favourite place on the planet? Wherever you are75: Where do I want to live? London76: Do I have any pets? Three cats and a doggo77: What is my current desktop picture? Wonder woman78: Early bird or night owl? Night owl for sure79: Sunsets or sunrise? Sunsets80: Can I drive? Yep81: Story behind my last kiss? Never been kissed lol82: Earphones or headphones? Earphones83: Have I ever had braces? Yep84: Story behind one of my scars? I scar super easily lol so i have a lot but when I was ~1 or so I got a cyst by my eye removed85: Favourite genre of music? Gay music86: Who is my hero? my boyfriend (it you)87: Favourite comic book character? Oooh Wonder Woman88: What makes me really angry? Assholes who purposefully fuck shit up89: Kindle or real book? I love real books90: Favourite sporty activity? Dancing91: What is one thing that isn’t taught in schools that should be? Non eurocentric history and queer inclusive sex ed92: What was my favourite subject at school? Probably English93: Siblings? I’ve got five94: What was the last thing I bought? Makeup95: How tall am I? 5′796: Can I cook? Yep it’s a lot of fun97: Can I bake? Yes yes yes98: 3 things I love? Babies, binders, and boys99: 3 things I hate? Cisheteronormativity, capitalism, and cunts100: Do I have more girl friends or boy friends? I have friend friends101: Who do I get on with better, girls or boys? Most of my friends don’t identify as only male or female so let’s just say cis boys are hard af to get on with102: Where was I born? In a hospital...?103: Sexual orientation? Gay af 104: Where do I currently live? Too fucking far away from you105: Last person I texted? You 106: Last time I cried? A little while ago? 107: Guilty pleasure? No such thing as guilty pleasures, you shouldn’t feel guilty about self-love108: Favourite Youtuber? I don’t really have one109: A photo of myself. Lmao nah110: Do I like selfies? I guess?111: Favourite game app? I don’t really have one?112: My relationship with my parents? As fucked up as capitalism haha113: Favourite accents? Oh my god I just love british accents they all sound like Tom Hiddleston oh my god so sexy114: A place I have not been but wish to visit? London115: Favourite number? 420 lmao116: Can I juggle? No haha117: Am I religious? nope118: Do I like space? yeah119: Do I like the deep ocean? scary cool120: Am I much of a daredevil? yeah tbh i can be121: Am I allergic to anything? penicillin lol and some other meds122: Can I curl my tongue? yep123: Can I wiggle my ears? no124: Do I like clowns? oh hell no125: The Beatles or Elvis? no thanks126: My current project? i’m working on nothing really currently lol127: Am I a bad loser? I can be tbh128: Do I admit when I wrong? i hate doing it but yeah129: Forest or beach? foresttttttt130: Favourite piece of advice? communicate!131: Am I a good liar? i can be if i have to but i’m terrible at lying to friends132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district? Fairly hufflepuff, dauntless, and idk lol133: Do I talk to myself? not too much?134: Am I very social? if i know everyone i’d be hanging out with, then yes135: Do I like gossip? not really136: Do I keep a journal/diary? nope137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test? i’ve had breakdowns for getting a b on a test so thank fuck no138: Do I believe in second chances? in certain circumstances139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do? probably see if there’s any sort of id in there, but then hang around for a while to see if anyone comes looking for it. if they don’t, then i’d keep it140: Do I believe people are capable of change? to a certain extent141: Have I ever been underweight? lmao142: Am I ticklish? literally do not tickle me ever i will hurt you143: Have I ever been in a submarine? nope i’d die from claustrophobia144: Have I ever been on a plane? yep145: In a film about my life, who would I cast as myself, friends and family? oh i have no idea haha146: Have I ever been overweight? lmao147: Do I have any piercings? yeah but they closed up148: Which fictional character do I wish was real? Wonder woman149: Do I have any tattoos? not yet150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far? dating you151: Do I believe in Karma? sort of yeah152: Do I wear glasses or contacts? yep!153: What was my first car? the one i have now 154: Do I want children? i’d adopt, yeah155: Who is the most intelligent person I know? idek there’s so many types of intelligence156: My most embarrassing memory? omfg i don’t even know157: What makes me nostalgic? the smell of hairspray158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter? yes it was not fun159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty? kindness160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe? dark colours, esp grey and red161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience? i heard a girl singing from inside my sister’s room but no one was in there, so there’s that162: What do I hate most about myself? oh boy where do I start... lol I get really dysphoric 163: What do I love most about myself? my eyes and my optimism164: Do I like adventure? hell yeah!165: Do I believe in fate? not really166: Favourite animal? kitties or penguins167: Have I ever been on radio? yeah actually i was when I was little168: Have I ever been on TV? not yet!169: How old am I? almost 20170: One of my favourite quotes? “You’re stronger than you believe”171: Do I hold grudges? yeah sometimes172: Do I trust easily? i like to think I dont’, but i trust way too easily haha173: Have I learnt from my mistakes? some of them174: Best gift I’ve ever received? love175: Do I dream? yep176: Have I ever had a night terror? yeahhhh177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind? cuddling with my boyfriend in a hotel178: An experience that has made me stronger? i hate to say negative experiences made me stronger tbh i don’t know179: If I were immortal, what would I do? idk haha180: Do I like shopping? yeah but i hate spending money lmao181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do? rob a bank so i can help people182: What does “family” mean to me? people who completely love and accept you and support you183: What is my spirit animal? that’s cultural appropriation of native american culture184: How do I want to be remembered? as a kind person185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose? dance probably186: What is my greatest failure?187: What is my greatest achievement?188: Love or money? love189: Love or career? love190: If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go? i’d probably go to the past sometime191: What makes me the happiest? being myself192: What is “home” to me? wherever you are193: What motivates me?194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be? “go my son, be the biggest slut you can be”195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens? maybe if they’re nice196: A movie that scared me as a child? oooh hmm maybe terminator?197: Something I hated as a child that I like now? the gays lol198: Zombies or vampires? neither199: Live in the city or suburbs? city for sure200: Dragons or wizards? dragons201: A nightmare that has stayed with me? someone very close to me dying202: How do I define love? a deep connection to someone and a desire to support them and accept them 203: Do I judge a book by its cover? yeah i do that a lot204: Have I ever had my heart broken? yeah but i got over it real quick205: Do I like my handwriting? sort of206: Sweet or savoury? both207: Worst job I’ve had? customer service during christmas 208: Do I collect anything? memories209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without? probably my binder210: What is on my bucket list? travel the world, get married, be gay211: How do I handle anger? i don’t handle it well haha 212: Was I named after anyone? my birth name, yes, my real name, no213: Do I use sarcasm a lot? oh hell no I never do that214: What TV character am I most like? idk someone tell me lol215: What is the weirdest talent I have? i’m not sure?216: Favourite fictional character? Wonder Woman and any queer person in any book ever
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Mun Questionnaire!!!! 
PERSONAL DETAILS
Nicknames? Kiki, Ki, Little One, my co-workers mainly call me little one and it’s to the point where they legit have forgotten my actual name
Where do you live? Waterbury, Connecticuttt but I was born in Manhattan, NYC didn’t move to CT till I was ten
What’s your age? Freaking oldd: 25
Hair color? Right now it’s dark brown with like dirty blonde highlights, probably going to dye it all straight black pretty soon. I constantly change between the two tbh
Eye color? Dark Brown
Height? Jusssstttttt make it to exactly five feet
Date of Birth? August 23rd, 1992 :D
What’s your star sign? Virgo, legit on the day Virgo actually starts!! :DD
Element? Earth  
How many siblings? Two half-brothers: Carlos and Alexander from my dad’s side in where I’m the oldest and the only girl :DD and only child from my mom’s side
How many pets? Noneee, they legit all die on me so I do all animals a favor and just don’t get them as pets. They’d have a longer life without me xD
Obsessions? Skullssss, Disney, my hair because it drives me up the wall if it doesn’t look okay!! It’s bad I know, oh oh and SLEEPING!!! I adore sleeping it is my favorite hobby I can sleep my entire day away and be at bliss
Bad habits? Bite the nails, talk too fast, buying books that I never end up reading, buying clothes that still have their tags on it, procrastinationnnn, picky af eater, impatient. 
Phobias? MICE!!!!!!! I can’t even look at a mouse!!!! I promise you I will stay on top of whatever the freak I climbed on for the ENTIRE day if a mouse ran by I will NOT touch the ground. I will cry, scream, and enter a panic attack!!! No no no no no no no no!!!!
ABOUT YOU
What makes you happy? SLEEPING!!!! Skulls, Disney…. should really just direct you to the obsessions question… but also my laptop, my carrr!!!! Make-up!!! Hoodies, lots and lots of hoodies drown me in hoodiesss. Sunny days but also rainy days, Pokemon haha, my job on some dayss, MY BED, the dark, all of my hundreds of Disney pins, and gosh a lot of things make me happy tbh
What really irritates you? Headaches, being nauseas, stomach aches, snoring I really can’t deal with snoring and have no rational reason as to why… and this is awful but cuddling hahaha I’m just not a cuddling person… I kinda push you off after like a minute xD Residents I really can’t fucking stand our residents. I hate them. Oh!! Can’t forget waiting!! I’m impatient it’s bad, working on it though xD
What makes you sad? Tear-jerkers haha I hate those shits. Ummmmm I’m really not much of a sad person?? I mean I can add mice in here because they make me cry, but like they scare the shit outta me sooooo
What makes you angry? Drivers. Cranky rude-ass ungrateful patients!!! Like I don’t want to have to be dealing with that shit for twelve hours. Talking about patients, my job xD. I have a love/hate relationship with my job. People tbh haha xD I sound mean I swear I’m not!!! The cold, I really do not like being cold at all!! 
What makes you scared? MICE!!!!! I don’t even want to hear about them!! Any of my patients starting to crash even my babies. It’s really not a fun feeling!! Bugs, fuck bugs.
Who is your best friend? That would be Marie I have been friends with her since the end of fifth grade!!! She is also my complete opposite and is perfect at fucking annoying me, but I love herrrr. Sara is my bff tooo!! She’s my cousin though, but that’s my little buttercup and she’s like my sister, since I have none of those <3 
Ever broken a bone? Nope.
What was the last CD you bought? Oh damn an actual one??? Uhhh I think it was an Aventura one… their Last Project album I believe. They’re a Spanish band. Downloaded album was Pink’s new album I’m in LOVE with it.
What was the last book you read? The Only Astrology Book You’ll Ever Need by Joanna Martine Woolfolk
Who was the last person you spoke to? The mother
What was the last thing you ate? Soup :(( My stomach has been a little shit the past two days. I think I caught the stomach bug fml. 
What was the last thing you drank? Ginger ale because I can actually keep that down
What’s the best thing you’ve ever bought? Oh goshhh I buy SO MANY THINGGSSS!! Uhhhh MY CAR!!! She’s a beautiful 2016 Honda HR-V, I love her :DD My Kat Von D Shade and Light palette!!! I can’t live without that palette!!! Oh oh and my laptop!! She’s been a bit of a shit lately, but I do adore herrr.
What’s the worst thing you’ve ever bought? Ughh I tend to like everything I buyy
What’s the best thing you’ve ever been given? My Uggs!!! My mom got me them and I LOVE them
What’s the worst thing you’ve ever been given? I don’t think I haven’t liked anything that’s been given to me so far??
What are your future goals? Well it was to become a nurse and I ammmm so there it is and I’m even where I wanted to be :DD Maternity nurse with the babieesss :DD 
Describe your bedroom? A black bed. A big black dresser. Two closets…. I have a lot of clothes. Two mirrors, well three if you count my make-up mirror. I have a make-up dresser that’s black too with like a shit ton of make-up!!! Black curtains. White walls and the wall that my bed is attached too has pictures completely covering it in a checkerboard pattern. I’m pretty proud of it, it’s my favorite thing about my room! Oh and another wall has my car tax bill taped to it so that I remember that I have the next half of that shit to pay in January xD
Who do you consider the most beautiful woman in the world? I think Jessica Lowndes if GORGEOUSS
Who do you consider the most handsome man in the world? Ian Somerhalder is GORGEOUSSSS so is William Levy!!!!!!
Favorite thing to do on a hot summers day? Go to the pool, and lay out under the hot summer sunnn. I absolutely LOVE the heattt 
Favorite thing to do on a snowy winters day? Keep my ass in!!!! Curl under warm blankets and drink yummy hot chocolate
If you were granted 3 wishes, what would they be? Have all my bills/loans paid off for the rest of my liiiffeee, anything my mom would want, and idk probably a nice gorgeous house in the future
If you could go back in time to see or change something, when would it be and what would you do? I’d go back to my high school years and not date the douchebag of my ex
What’s the first thing you think about when you wake up? Can I go back to sleep for another hour?? haha
Do you believe in the after-life? I dooo
Where do you see yourself in 10 years time? I have no fucking cluee. I still see myself in the same profession though because I do love it deep down haha. Hopefully, though I’ll be out of CT and just somewhere different. 
What’s the funniest joke you’ve ever been told? I don’t really tell jokes I don’t think I’m funny at all :((
Any hidden talents? None that I’m aware of??? I mean I can sing?? Does that count??
Dream job? Currently doing it!!! Being a nurse :DD Even though I do have a love/hate relationship with it xD
Who is your hero? My mommmm
Describe yourself in 3 words: Introvert, sweet, sarcastic
FAVORITES
Favorite color? Blackkk I love pink too, but black way moree
Favorite number? 14
Favorite animal? Snow Tiger
Favorite sport (to play)? Umm I only ever cheer leaded soo cheerleading by default
Favorite sport (to watch)? Baseball and Football
Favorite Show(s)? Criminal Minds, Law & Order SVU, NCIS, Grey’s Anatomy and my guilty pleasure issss Keeping up with the Kardashians haha yes I hate myself for loving that show xD
Favorite movies? Titanic, Cinderella, Nightmare Before Christmas, The Corpse Bride, andd The Princess Bride 
Favorite band? Evanescence 
Favorite song? It’s constantly switching 
Favorite room in the house? My bedroom!!!!
Favorite food? Pizza!!!!! 
Favorite drink? Pepsi :DD Should I be drinking any kind of soda? Nope because I get kidney stones pretty often. Do I still drink my Pepsi like all the time?? YEASS
Favorite place? Disney World <3
Favorite cartoon character? That would be between Cinderella and Sally
Favorite day of the week? Monday and Thursday because I neverrrr work on those days!! 
Favorite day of the year? August 23rd!! :DD
Favorite season? Summerr
Favorite Holiday? Christmass 
Favorite girls name? Emily, Aria and I have to say I do love my name too!! Kiara is pretty 
Favorite boys name? Declan and Aiden
Favorite country? Italy
Favorite smell? OoOo I’m a very fruity person but cucumber melon is my absolute favorite!! 
Favorite sound? Rain falling, tapping of the keyboard, tapping of acrylic nails, a heart beat especially baby heart beats because they go really fast!!
Favorite accent? British
Favorite Ships (in or our of BDRP)? I love all the ships hereee!!!! I love all of my ships tooo ngl xD 
Favorite Fandoms? I don’t think I really have any???
PREFERENCES
Coke or Pepsi? Pepsi!
Pen or Pencil? Pen. I really don’t like pencils at all and won’t use one unless it’s a lead pencil 
Day or Night? Night all the way
Cat or Dog? Dog but I’m sadly very allergic to both :((
Summer or Winter? Summer!
T.V. or Radio? Radio
Brains or Beauty? Brains
Cup or Mug? Mug
Tea or Coffee? Coffeeee, but I’m not a huge fan or either tbh
Gold or Silver? Silver
Brush or Comb? Comb
City or Country? City
Early or Late riser? Late!!!! Look I get up at like 1pm the earliest. 
Blond or Brunette? Brunette
Scary or Romantic movies? Romantic haha Scary movies are too predictable to me I mean so are romantic but whateverr
Board or Computer games? Board gamess
Half full or Half empty? Half full
Happy and poor or Sad and rich? Happy and poor
Glasses or Contacts? Glasses
Flowers or Chocolates? Chocolate!! Please no flowers those die on me tooo
Love or Money? Love
Hugs or Kisses? Tbh hugss I love hugging!!! Just not cuddling though haha
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itsclowreedsfault · 7 years
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Huge Tag Meme Masterpost pt 1
aka I’m finally doing all the tags I was tagged at some from months ago orz
under the cut because this is really really long 
Tagged by @okita-senpai. Thanks Minnie! <3
1) Coke or Pepsi? None 2) Disney or Dreamworks? Disney 3) Coffee or Tea? Tea 4) Books or Movies? Books 5) Windows or Mac? Windows 6) D.C or Marvel? Marvel 7) Xbox or PlayStation? PlayStation 8) Dragon or Mass Effect? Idek what those are haha 9) Night Owl or Early Riser? Night owl! 10) Cards or Chess? Cards 11) Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate 12) Vans or Converse? Hmm, both 13) Lavellan, Trevelyan, Canadash or Adaar? What is this xD 14) Fluff or Angst? Fluff 15) Beach or Forest? Beach (only because there are probably less insects there) 16) Dogs or Cats? Definitely cats :3 17) Clear Skies or Rain? Rain <3 18) Cooking or Eating out? Eating out 19) Spicy or Mild Food? Mild 20) Halloween/Samhain or Solstice/Yule/Christmas? Christmas 21) Would you rather forever be a little too cold or a little too hot? Too cold, get the heat away from me ugh 22) If you could have a superpower what would it be? Mind reading! 23) Animation or Live Action? Both 24) Paragon or Renegade? Don’t know what these are either haha 25) Bath or Shower? Shower 26) Team Cap or Team Iron-Man? Iron-man  27) Fantasy or Sci-Fi? Fantasy 28) Do you have three or four favorite quotes it so what are they?  'Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?' (from HP) /  ‘People are mirrors. If you smile, a smile will be reflected.’ (from AkaYona) / ‘It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.’ (from HP) 29) YouTube or Netflix? Both 30) Harry Potter or Percy Jackson? Harry Potter 31) When do you feel accomplished? Lately it’s whenever I actually do smth tbh xD  32) Star Wars or Star Trek? Star Wars 33) Paperback book or Hardcover book? HARDCOVER <3 <3 <3 34) Fantastic beast or Cursed Child? Fantastic Beast  35) Rock or Pop Music? Pop 36) What is the most important thing in your life? My family, my friends, my boyfriend, my cats <3 37) Mountains or Sea/Ocean? Mountains 38) How do you express yourself? Very poorly usually lol 39) What’s the first book/film that really counted to you? Harry Potter 40) What’s your element (air, water, etc)? I have no idea... air or water I guess? 41) If you could travel anywhere, where would you go? New York or Japan  42) If you could have any job in the world, what would it be? Writer 43) If you were granted three wishes, what would they be? Be able to get by without having to work, have all the books on my wishlist, get rid of my anxiety  44) If you had to eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? I want to say pasta but I’d get fat really fast lol 45) What’s your Spirit Animal/Patronus? Cat 46) Would you kill yourself and save your friends or kill your friends and save yourself? Save my friends 47) If you had to become a mythical creature which would you be? Dragon 48) Your favorite song? Changes all the time xD 49) A4 or A5 notebooks? I don’t really have a preference, I rarely use them haha 50) If you had to give up on someone you love, making this person forget about you, and never see him/her again, to save his/her life, would you do it?  Yes 51) Did you ever wished to become someone else? If yes, then what would you do to make yourself better? Hm, yes, I guess? I always wanted to be someone who isn’t hindered by anxiety or who knows what they want to do with their life. 52) If you had to live with one fictional character of your choice, who would it be? Jae-ha (damn it’s so hard to pick only one!!)
Tagged by @tartan-llama, @yukination, @takasukis, @kaemutsumi and @harashins. Thanks my lovelies <3
RULES: Tell is your favorite character from 10 fictional works (Shows, Movies, Novels, Etc.) & tag 10 people! 
1. Jae-ha from AkaYona / 2. Todoroki Shouto from BNHA / 3. Fai Flourite from TRC / 4. Howl from Howl’s Moving Castle / 5. Osamu Dazai from BSD / 6. Undertaker from Kuroshitsuji / 7. Viktor Nikiforov from YoI / 8. Seven from Mystic Messenger / 9. Nezumi from No. 6 / 10. Mizuki from Kamisama Hajimemashita
Tagged by @kuroosukii. Thanks Mooza! <3
Last Movie I Watched: Princess Mononoke
Last Song I Listened To: Fanatic of Night (by the Sakamaki bros from DiaLovers)
Last Book I Read: Gemina
Last Thing I Ate: Italian bread with cheese and tomato sauce
If I could be anywhere in the world I would be in: NY or Japan
Where would I want to time travel to: The future
Fictional characters I would hang out with for a day: The Happy Hungry Bunch <3
Tagged by @aileenaison, @takasukis and @kaori! Thanks bbs <3
rules: you can only say guilty or innocent. you are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you or asks you.
asked someone to marry you: innocent
kissed one of your friends: guilty
danced on a table in a bar or tavern: innocent
ever told a lie: guilty
had feelings for someone whom you can’t have: guilty
ever kissed someone of the opposite sex: guilty
ever kissed someone of the same sex: innocent
kissed a picture: innocent
slept in until 5pm: innocent
fallen asleep at work or school: guilty
held a snake: innocent
been suspended from school: innocent
stolen something: innocent
done something you regret: guilty
laughed until what you were drinking came out of your nose: innocent
caught a snowflake on your tongue: innocent
sat on a roof top: innocent
sang in the shower: guilty
been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on: guilty
slept naked: guilty
made a boy friend/girl friend cry: guilty
been in a band: innocent
shot a gun: innocent
donated blood: innocent
eaten alligator meat: innocent
eaten cheesecake: guilty
still loved someone you shouldn’t: guilty
have/had a tattoo: innocent
been too honest: guilty
ruined a surprise: innocent
ate in a restaurant and got so bloated you can’t walk after: guilty
erased someone in your friends list: guilty
dressed in a man’s clothes: guilty
dressed in a woman’s clothes: guilty
joined a pageant: innocent
been told you’re beautiful by someone who meant it: guilty
still have communication with your ex: innocent
cheated on someone: innocent
got totally drunk the night before an important exam: innocent
a total stranger treated you by paying your fare: guilty
got so angry that you cried: guilty
tried to stay away from someone for their own good: innocent
actually murdered someone: innocent
thought about mass murder: guilty
actually committed a mass murder: innocent
rode in a stranger’s vehicle: guilty
stalked someone: innocent
had a girlfriend: innocent
had a boyfriend: guilty
totally drunk during a holiday: innocent
Tagged by @kirei-na-jinsei​ and @kaori​. Thanks my lovelies <3
🍓 fave fictional character: how am I supposed to pick only one ok so my most recent fave is my son Todoroki Shouto from BNHA
🍰 fave book: Harry Potter (all seven of them, yes haha)
🎃 fave game: Mystic Messenger? I mean it’s the only one I play so haha
🎈 fave sport: I don’t like sports lol
🎠 last song i listened to: Fanatic of Night
⭐ first language: Portuguese
Tagged by @takasukis and @yurioplisetskies. Thanks dearies! <3
Nickname: Tha Zodiac sign: Aries Height: 1.63m Last Thing You Googled: goodreads Favourite music artist: 100 Monkeys, The Pretty Reckless, Wave & Rome, and others Song stuck in my head: Gaston from the Beauty and the Beast soundtrack Last Movie you watched: Princess Mononoke What are you wearing right now: PJ’s What do you post: Manga, anime, stuff about writing  Why did you choose your URL: because CLAMP ahaha Do you have any other blogs: Yeah, it’s always on queue though @brazilianbookishgirl What Did Your Last Relationship Teach You: idk Religious Or Spiritual: Neither Favorite Color: Blue, purple, black Average Hours Of Sleep: I have no idea, around 5-6 hours maybe? Lucky Number: Don’t have one  Favorite characters: Fai, Jae-ha, Soo-Won, Howl, Todoroki, Bakugou, Viktor, Dazai, Chuuya, Yue, Undertaker, the list goes on forever How Many Blankets Do you Sleep With: 1 Dream Job: Writer
Tagged by @yukination. Thanks Yukina! <3
Name/Nickname: Thais Relationship Status: Taken Favorite Greeting: Hey! Pets: Two cats (and another one we’ll adopt when we move less than two weeks from now <3) Last song I listened to: Fanatic of Night Favorite TV Shows: I don’t watch any anymore First Fandom: Harry Potter Hobbies: Editing, writing, coloring, listening to music Books I’m currently reading: Soundless by Richelle Mead Worst thing to have graced my tastebuds: Fish Favorite place: My room
Tagged by @dazaisosmu. Thanks Dessa! <3
1. favorite anime? AkaYona, BNHA, YoI, BSD, Natsume Yuujinchou, and others
2. your worst anime? Super Lovers
3. do you read the manga that goes along with the anime you watch? If I really like the anime then yes :)
4. most favorite genre? Fantasy, idk maybe action??
5. least favorite genres? Sci-fi
6. favorite character? Fai, Jae-ha, Soo-Won, Howl, Todoroki, Bakugou, Viktor, Dazai, Chuuya, Yue, Undertaker, and others (yes I totally copied the list from above lol)
7. least favorite character? Atm Mineta from BNHA
8. qualities you like in a character? I don’t know xD I like a lot of different type of characters
9. short or long anime? Short, I don’t have the patience to commit to longer ones anymore orz
10. anime or manga? Both
11. how do you choose the anime you watch? Usually by reading the summary and seeing if it interests me
12. skip or listen to intros/outros? Skip unless I really like the song
13. how do you cope if your friends or family don’t like you watching anime? I don’t really care, I’d keep watching anyway :P
14. do you stop an anime midway if you don’t like it? Yes!
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kyluhh21 · 7 years
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Sorry Anon I accidentally deleted your ask.So here it is :)
1: My name?Kyla 2: Do I have any nicknames?Ky,Tank, and Knucklehead 3: Zodiac sign?Sagittarius 4: Video game I play to chill, not to win?Minecraft? 5: Book/series I reread?Percy Jack and the lightning thief. 6: Aliens or ghosts?Ghosts 7: Writer I trust enough to read whatever they write? Idk a fanfic writer I guess.. 8: Favourite radio station?Anything but country 9: Favourite flavour of anything?Chocolate 10: The word that I use all the time to describe something great?Cool or nice. 11: Favourite song?Say you won't let go-James Arthur 12: The question you ask new friends to get to know them better?Whats your name? 13: Favourite word?My dad said I say Seriously a lot and also are you kidding me. 14: The last person who hurt me, did I forgive them?Yes 15: Last song I listened to?Gasoline-Halsey 16: TV show I always recommend?24 17: Pirates or ninjas?Ninjas 18: Movie I watch when I'm feeling down?Titanic 19: Song that I always start my shuffle with/wake-up song/always-on-a-loop song?Idk 20: Favourite video games?I don't have any. 21: What am I most afraid of?Not making my family proud. 22: A good quality of mine?My cheeks! (I messaged all my friends and they answered my cheeks lol) 23: A bad quality of mine?I don't have Patience. 24: Cats or dogs?Dogs 25: Actor/actress you trust enough to watch whatever they're in? Anna Kendrick 26: Favourite season?Summer 27: Am I in a relationship?No ( I could have if I didn't reject the person who ask me out about a week ago.) 28: Something I miss?Filipino food 29: My best friend?Grace and Hollie 30: Eye colour?Dark Brown 31: Hair colour?Black 32: Someone I love?My Mom 33: Someone I trust?My Best friend 34: Someone I always think about? Sage. 35: Am I excited about anything?Im going to Florida in 4 days and also going to the Philippines this summer. 36: My current obsession?Chocolate 37: Favourite TV shows as a child?Dora the Explorer 38: Do I have someone of the opposite sex that I can tell everything to?Yeah Corey. 39: Am I superstitious?No 40: What do I think about most?My future 41: Do I have any strange phobias?No? 42: Do I prefer to be in front of the camera or behind it?Behind it. 43: Favourite hobbies?Playing soccer and watching kids. 44: Last book I read?The Boy in the Striped Pajamas. 45: Last film I watched?Beauty and the Beast. 46: Do I play any instruments?Yes I play the Clarinet. 47: Favourite animal?Penguins and Pandas 48: Top 5 blog on Tumblr that I follow?Woso blogs. 49: Superpower I wish I could have?Able to read people's mind. 50: How do I destress?Listen to music or playing soccer. 51: Do I like confrontation?No 52: When do I feel most at peace?Im playing soccer all by myself. 53: What makes me smile?My family and Friends 54: Do I sleep with the lights on or off?Off 55: Play any sports?Yeah I play soccer,Basketball, and Softball. 56: What is my song of the week?Gasoline-Halsey. 57: Favourite drink?Water 58: When did I last send a handwritten letter to somebody?About 3 weeks ago. 59: Afraid of heights?Yes 60: Pet peeve?When people say they are sorry so many times...ugh it kills me I hate it. 61: What was the last concert I went to see?Adele 62: Am I vegetarian/vegan/pescatarian?No? 63: What occupation did I want to do when I was younger?A singer 64: Have I ever had a friend turn enemy?No 65: What fictional universe would I like to be a part of?None 66: Something I worry about?My grades 67: Scared of the dark?No 68: Who are my best friends?Grace,Hollie,Corey,Hunter,Bailey,and Arrie 69: What do I admire most about others?Their eyes and smile. 70: Can I sing?Yes I can. 71: Something I wish I could do?Teleport to anywhere. 72: If I won the lottery, what would I do?Shopping lol and save it up to buy a house someday. 73: Have I ever skipped school?No 74: Favourite place on the planet?The woods! 75: Where do I want to live?Oregon. 76: Do I have any pets?No 77: What is my current desktop picture?A picture of me and my friends when we went to Boston. 78: Early bird or night owl?Early Bird. 79: Sunsets or sunrise?Sunrise but I don't want to get up so early to see it. 80: Can I drive?No not yet. 81: Story behind my last kiss?Umm it was 8 days ago when my friend and I went to watch a movie.He grabbed my face and we kissed. Which I didn't want to happen at all and now we have been really distant from each other..So yeah. 82: Earphones or headphones?Headphones 83: Have I ever had braces?No 84: Story behind one of my scars?When I was a little kid someone threw a broken glass piece in the side of my face. 85: Favourite genre of music?Pop 86: Who is my hero?My stepfather 😂 87: Favourite comic book character?Clarke 88: What makes me really angry?When people lie 89: Kindle or real book?Real Book. 90: Favourite sporty activity?Soccer 91: What is one thing that isn’t tight in schools that should be?Idk. 92: What was my favourite subject at school?Social Studies and English. 93: Siblings?I have 3 brothers and I'm the oldest :) 94: What was the last thing I bought?Ice Cream 95: How tall am I?5 feet and 3 inches. 96: Can I cook?Yeah but not really well lol. 97: Can I bake?Yeah 98: 3 things I love?My family,friends and God. 99: 3 things I hate?Clowns,Scary movies, and Trevor. 100: Do I have more girl friends or boy friends?Girl friends 101: Who do I get on with better, girls or boys?Girls 102: Where was I born?Ozamiz City, Philippines. 103: Sexual orientation?I don't know I'm still figuring that out. 104: Where do I currently live?America 105: Last person I texted?Grace. 106: Last time I cried?Last week I cried 7 times :/ 107: Guilty pleasure?Chocolate 108: Favourite Youtuber?Shannon Beverage 109: A photo of myself.Nah maybe later 110: Do I like selfies?Heck No. 111: Favourite game app?I don't have any. 112: My relationship with my parents?I love them to death and they love me to death. 113: Favourite accents?Australian and British. 114: A place I have not been but wish to visit? Spain. 115: Favourite number?21. 116: Can I juggle?A soccer ball yes. 117: Am I religious?No 118: Do I like space?Yeah 119: Do I like the deep ocean?No 120: Am I much of a daredevil?No 121: Am I allergic to anything?Im allergic to Pine cones. 122: Can I curl my tongue?Yes 123: Can I wiggle my ears?No 124: Do I like clowns?No 125: The Beatles or Elvis?The Beatles. 126: My current project?Painting my room. 127: Am I a bad loser?Sometimes 128: Do I admit when I wrong?Yes 129: Forest or beach?Forest 130: Favourite piece of advice?Don't let anyone ruin your day :) 131: Am I a good liar?Haha no 132: Hogwarts house / Divergent faction / Hunger Games district?Lol Idk. 133: Do I talk to myself?Sometimes 134: Am I very social?No I'm so quite. 135: Do I like gossip?No 136: Do I keep a journal/diary?Nk 137: Have I ever hopelessly failed a test?No 138: Do I believe in second chances?Yes 139: If I found a wallet full of cash on the ground, what would I do?Find the person who dropped it. 140: Do I believe people are capable of change?Yes 141: Have I ever been underweight?No. 142: Am I ticklish?Yes. 143: Have I ever been in a submarine?No 144: Have I ever been on a plane?Yes a million times 145: In a film about my life, who would I cast as myself, friends and family?Idk 146: Have I ever been overweight?Lol no 147: Do I have any piercings?Only in my ears. 148: Which fictional character do I wish was real?Lexa 149: Do I have any tattoos?No 150: What is the best decision I have made in life so far?Moving to America. 151: Do I believe in Karma?Haha yeah. 152: Do I wear glasses or contacts?None 153: What was my first car?I don't have one I'm only 15 lol. 154: Do I want children?Yes I want two boys. 155: Who is the most intelligent person I know?My oldest brother Pierce. 156: My most embarrassing memory?I thought that Albany was a state for like 2 minutes. 157: What makes me nostalgic?idk 158: Have I ever pulled an all-nighter?Almost. 159: Which do I value more in others, brains or beauty? Probably both. 160: What colour mostly dominates my wardrobe?People at my school said I look good with the Color red. 161: Have I ever had a paranormal experience?No 162: What do I hate most about myself?I get mad easily. 163: What do I love most about myself?I love to make people smile and laugh. 164: Do I like adventure?Yes 165: Do I believe in fate?Not really. 166: Favourite animal?Panda or Penguins. 167: Have I ever been on radio?No 168: Have I ever been on TV?No 169: How old am I?15 years old 170: One of my favourite quotes? "Everything will be ok, if it's not ok then it's not the end". 171: Do I hold grudges?Mhmm. 172: Do I trust easily?No 173: Have I learnt from my mistakes?Yes 174: Best gift I’ve ever received?SmartTv. 175: Do I dream?Yes 176: Have I ever had a night terror?Yes 177: Do I remember my dreams, and what is one that comes to mind? Yes and it was about me and someone I love 👀. 178: An experience that has made me stronger?Idk. 179: If I were immortal, what would I do?Im not sure 180: Do I like shopping?Yes But I don't like shopping with my mom. 181: If I could get away with a crime, what would I choose to do?Id kill myself. 182: What does “family” mean to me?It means that they are always there in your happy days and bad days. Always go to your sport games and cheer you on the sideline. And just being supportive anytime! 183: What is my spirit animal?A monkey. 184: How do I want to be remembered?I want to be remember as a good set of example to other people in my school. 185: If I could master one skill, what would I choose?Juggle for a very long period of time. 186: What is my greatest failure? I don't know. 187: What is my greatest achievement?Making my family proud. 188: Love or money?Love 189: Love or career?Love 190: If I could time travel, where and when would I want to go?I want to be in the Philippines right now. 191: What makes me the happiest?When I'm with my family and friends. 192: What is “home” to me?Be with my family. 193: What motivates me?My family and soccer. 194: If I could choose my last words, what would they be?Deuces! 195: Would I ever want to encounter aliens?Heck no 196: A movie that scared me as a child?Chucky. 197: Something I hated as a child that I like now?Pizza 198: Zombies or vampires?Vampires. 199: Live in the city or suburbs?Suburbs which I don't like. 200: Dragons or wizards?Wizards. 201: A nightmare that has stayed with me?When somebody pointed again at me. 202: How do I define love?I don't...the dictionary does. 203: Do I judge a book by its cover?No never. 204: Have I ever had my heart broken?Yes. 205: Do I like my handwriting?No but a lot of people do they said it's really neat. 206: Sweet or savoury?Sweet. 207: Worst job I’ve had?None 208: Do I collect anything?Soccer balls? 209: Item of clothing or jewellery you’ll never see me without?A chocked. 210: What is on my bucket list?Skydiving before I die. 211: How do I handle anger?I just seriously go to my bedroom and listen to music. 212: Was I named after anyone?I was named after a singer in the Philippines. 213: Do I use sarcasm a lot?No 214: What TV character am I most like? Kimberly Bauer? My brother said. 215: What is the weirdest talent I have?i don't know. 216: Favourite fictional character?Lexa from the 100
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Survey #326
“life by life  /  waste to waste  /  i'm the harbinger: the master of decay”
When you get married what do you think you’ll put most of your focus and money into? Do you mean like, for the wedding? Probably the venue. Or possibly the photographer. Have you ever had a teacher that also taught your parents? No. What’s something you complain about frequently? My legs. Are you afraid of falling in love? Very. Are you close to any of your aunts/uncles? Not very. Do you hate it when people smoke around you? Very much so. Do you own anything that is special edition? Yeah, things like DVDs. Do you have any funky bookmarks? I have this one meerkat bookmark where the image moves when you tilt it. Did you ever watch Pokemon? Hell yeah I did. Are there more females or males in your family? Females. Does anyone in your family snore loudly? My mom does due to having gerd. Dad did too when I actually lived with him. I wouldn't know nowadays. Do you own a camera tripod? Yes. Did you ever believe in mermaids? No. Have you ever purchased alcohol? Yes. Any essential quirks/interests/other you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner? Similar interests, like being a metal fan and gamer especially, as well as a serious animal lover for sure. Any romantic gestures you really like? Okay if someone did that little bow thing while reaching out for my hand to dance, I'd melt, lol. I also appreciate love interests holding open doors, SHOWING INTEREST IN HOW I FCKN FEEL, asking permission before doing anything in sexual exploration, stuff like that. Any sexual fantasies? Are you daring enough to share one? Yep, not sharing those lmfao. Have you ever been in love? Twice. What is your favorite/least favorite word? My favorite is "serendipity/serendipitous," and my least favorite is "retarded." Have you ever been skinny dipping? No. If I actually had a body I was confident in, I probably would in privacy tho at night lmao. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? Oh yeah. What is your favorite thing to do? Probably RPing with my favorite OCs when I'm in a really creative mood and during a great scene. Did you go to your senior prom? Yeah, I did. Prom's honestly pretty damn overrated, but I did it and his senior prom anyway. It's the picking out a beautiful dress and taking pictures that I loved. What did you do after graduation? I don't remember. We probably went out to eat or something. Favorite home cooked meal growing up? Spaghetti. What item most embarrasses you to purchase? Nothing, really. Do you give cards to people for holidays or events? No. Name the coolest thing about one of your grandparents. Uhhhhh idk. Name two things you put whipped cream on? I hate the texture of whipped cream. Do you ever eat peanut butter straight from the jar? Sometimes if I want a snack but am trying to be healthy-ish, I'll eat just a scoop. What was the last pill you took for? Pain. Do you prefer your clothes loose or close fitting? Loose, 100%. Favorite thing you’ve ever painted? Meerkats grooming. I did it in high school on a large piece of burlap. Are there any songs that remind you of your mother? "Take It Like a Woman" by Alice Cooper, for one. How did your elementary school teachers describe you? Very smart, sweet, friendly, and nice. Game you were best at in PE/gym? Pf, none. Obsession from childhood? Dinosaurs and Pokemon. Best way for someone to bond with you? Let's talk about deep stuff regarding the world or about how awesome animals are. Top 5 favorite Vines? Oh boy. There are just way too many. I'll try to name a few: 1.) the "I can't find my berries" saga guy; 2.) *in drive-thru, asked what he would like to order* "I wanna FUCKIN DIE"; 2.) "i cOUldA DROPpeD my CroISSAnt"; 3.) "it's Wednesday, m'dudes"; 4.) "a d a m"; 5.) "I WON'T HESITATE, BITCH." God, I miss Vine. What is the first meme you remember seeing? Holy cow, I have no idea. Sci-fi, fantasy, or superheroes? Fantasy. Favorite tradition? Dressing up for Halloween, even though I don't do it anymore... Talent you’re proud of having? Writing. Favorite website from your childhood? Webkinz was unbeatable. I was obsessed. Any good luck charms? I don't believe in those. Favorite potato food? French fries. Tell me the color of your eyes, without using the name of a color: Uhhhh a cloudy sky right before rain? Ever been through a goth phase? Goth is my fucking AESTHETIC. I wish I could afford a truly gothic wardrobe, because you bet your sweet ass it's all I'd wear out. Can you remember your first phone? If so, what kind was it? I think so? It was a Blueberry, I believe. Who is your favourite character from Alice in Wonderland? Obviously the Cheshire cat. What is your favorite type of YouTube video to watch? Lately, it's been tarantula and snake channels/pet YouTubers. I still think my overall favorites are let's plays, but right now it's just stepping back a bit. What’s the next project you are excited to start? I have this pretty cool drawing I wanna do of a morbid meerkat doing a big toothy smile, doing a peace sign (but his fingers are syringes) with a crown blinking over his head. Inspired by the "Professional Griefers" lyric of "lab rat king." I just really wanna make it perfect and am procrastinating in fear of failing... Have you ever experienced a miracle? I don't think I believe in miracles. What are your top three names you like for a daughter? Alessandra, Justine, and Chloe, to name a few. Which did you like better: high school or college? High school, at least in most ways. What is the theme of your bedroom? It doesn't have a theme. My interests just kinda threw up everywhere, haha. Have you ever lived in a dorm? No. Were you raised religious? Yes. Do you do your own taxes, or do you hire a professional? I don't have to do taxes yet. What was the very first thing you ever saved up to buy with your own money? Venus was the first big thing, I think. Describe your favorite Christmas ornament: I don't know what that would be, honestly. We have so very many. What jobs did your parents have when you were growing up? Dad's always been a mailman, and he also had a second job as a carpenter for a while. Mom worked with special needs children at my elementary school as a teacher assistant. She also worked at the hospital at one point, doing some computer work. I don't remember her actual position. Are you taller than your mom? We're the same height. Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex? Sure, that's not a big deal to me. Last reason you went to the ER? For myself, a suicide attempt/overdose. What was the last word document you typed? This survey, actually, so I could save progress as I combine them. What’s something you don’t think people take seriously enough? Global warming. Have you ever dated someone who had a child from a previous relationship? No. Is there any drama currently going on with your family? No. What was the last fruit or vegetable you chopped/sliced up? An apple. I wanted apple slices with peanut butter. What is your favorite Hostess/Little Debbie snack? Holy SHIT that is impossible. Maybe the devil cakes, but I really don't know. I love most of them. Do you/your family buy loaf from the bakery or bagged on the shelf? Bagged. White, wheat or other? Mom buys white bread, but my favorite is pumpernickel. What was the last non-fiction book you’ve read? (Not a school textbook!): I ain't got a clue. I don't really read non-fiction. What color are your headphones/earbuds? These are blue. Would you be embarrassed to find out you snored loudly in public? Yep. Thankfully, I don't snore. Do you feel guilty about killing bugs? Yep. How do you feel about coconut? Not a fan. ^ Ever cracked one open? Ha, I've always wanted to. Who did you last worry about and why? My mom. She's getting a CT scan ASAP due to chronic headaches and stomach pain, so I'm worried her cancer might be re-emerging. When was the last time you ate/drank something gross just to be polite? I don't know; I struggle to do this. If I don't like something, my face shows it. I can't help it. When did you last make up a baby’s bottle? Never. Do you have any framed black & white photos in your home? Who are they of? No. What’s the most expensive thing your car needed to get done? N/A If you had a thousand dollars to spend on a pricey brand you like but can’t really afford (until now of course), which ONE brand would you chose? I don't know. Real talk, I find most luxury brands to sell pretty ugly stuff... Do you like candy canes? Yeah. Do you still talk to any of your old teachers? Yes; one is my landlord. What color was the dress you wore to your senior prom? It was black. Ever go to another school’s prom? No. Do you like burning candles or incense? I love incense. Do you ever venture into the woods? What do you normally do in there? When I used to live in the woods, I did every now and then to take pictures. Does your significant other ever make you mix CDs? Single, but that would be so romantic. /swoons How did you dress your freshman year of high school? I was this emo/metalhead/goth creature. What is the best present you have ever received? My dog Teddy. <3 What is the best present you have ever given? I put the most effort into a scrapbook thing of well over a hundred reasons I loved my then-boyfriend Jason. Even though we're done, I honestly hope he still has it, just to remember. What is the best surprise you have ever had? Sara's parents paying for a flight up there to be with Sara for her birthday. Have you ever been robbed? No, thankfully. Ever kiss someone on the first date? No. Ever sleep with someone on the first date? Definitely a nope. Ever give someone a wrong phone number on purpose? No. What’s the strangest thing you have ever witnessed firsthand? I have no idea. It's... very morbid, but possibly dogs twitching after being euthanized. Seeing Teddy do it was such a strange, painful experience. Like there was still life in there... even though I know it was just his nerves doing their final hoorah and he was already dead. Ever seen a psychiatric ward? I've been in a mental hospital five or six times, so I'm uncomfortably familiar with them. What is the last thing you did that you didn’t want to do? Group therapy. I'm really burning out on it. Thankfully, I don't have it on the weekends. What is the last thing you convinced someone else to do? I dunno. If you could live in a different time, would you? When? Nah. Do you prefer to sleep alone or with someone else? Sleeping alone is more comfortably physically, but I usually prefer sleeping with a partner because there's this amazing feeling of safety, love, and companionship. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two. Do you prefer cold air and blankets, or warm air and no blankets? Cold air and blankets by ten miles. I can't sleep if I'm even remotely hot. How often do you dust? Sigh, not as much as I need to. What is the most "extreme" activity you have ever done? I haven't done very much that fits that description... so idk. Dr. Pepper or root beer? Dr. Pepper. I hate root beer. Last room you cleaned? Mine. Last thing you did that made you feel like an adult? Checked into the doctor's office by myself, haha... Talk about sad. What’s your favorite picture of your mom? Dad? It's not my business to actually share those pictures, but I can describe them. I fucking ADORE this candid photograph I took of my mom laughing; I will forever cherish it. It's morbid to think about, but it's absolutely a picture I'll frame of her once she's passed away. I don't have many pictures of Dad, but I do really like this picture we took together at Red Lobster once. Are you subscribed to anything (Magazines, monthly boxes, streaming sites, etc.)? Mom pays an Adobe Creative Cloud photography bundle subscription for me, but that's it. Last TV show series you finished? Fullmetal Alchemist with Sara. It was a rewatch for me, but she'd never seen it. What’s something exciting that’s happened to one of your friends recently? A childhood friend got engaged a few days back. Do you have any board games? If so, where do you keep them? We have a few somewhere. What were the last things you glued together? I don’t recall. What are your friends’ pets’ names? I'll just use Sara here since she's my best friend. She has two family dogs, Buster and Beesly, a cat named Winter, four ball pythons named Martha, Crowley, Little Dot, and Jane Marie, and Doris, a bearded dragon that I personally adore most. :') What all did you do today? I played World of Warcraft early this morning, but not for very long. I've been in a phase of being very uninterested in it lately. I've mostly just done surveys... lots of surveys. I'm just in the mood to. I've also been listening to music and watching John Wolfe play Amnesia: Rebirth periodically. If you live in a house, how many floors does it have? If you live in an apartment building, how many units does it have? It's just one floor. Would you like to live in a world with mythical creatures, even if they turned out to be evil or dangerous? Honestly... I probably would, haha. Are you scared of heights? Yes. When was the last time you lost something of great sentimental value? Did you ever end up finding it again? Never, I think and hope. What food do you find to be the most filling? Is this something you eat a lot of? Eggs or oatmeal. Not really. What do you think of people who purposefully train their dogs to fight or to be aggressive? They're fucking garbage human beings. If you suffer/have suffered with acne, do you squeeze your spots or do your best to just leave them be? Ugh, I was so bad (and still am if something pops up) about picking at it. Does your father have any hobbies? What are they? Sure. He loves sports, fishing, idk if he still plays video games, fantasy football... and I can't forget playing with his grandkids. It's hard for me to know all of them when I don't live with him and see him rarely. What did the last face mask you wore look like? It was just a white cotton one. Is there a specific song that you always request at parties? What is it? I don't go to parties. Would you rather read poetry or write poetry? Write it. Have you ever had any really infected injuries? I've had infected piercings as well as a badly infected pilonidal cyst. Is there any band out there that you like every song by them? No. Are you popular on any websites? No. What was the last song you listened to? Aaaaand now I'm hooked on "NIHIL" by 3TEETH. Are you currently texting anyone right now? No. When was the last time you played jump rope? Yikes, probably not since I was a kid. I used to love it. Who was the last person you offended? I dunno. What’s the earliest you’ve ever had to wake up for work? Not early. Do you know anyone who has changed their first name? I know trans people who have, yes. Do you know anyone who has been on life support and survived? No. At least, I don't believe so. Do your parents have a strong relationship together? They're divorced, and Mom at least can't stand him. Dad doesn't really care. Do you ever feel like you’re sharing too much about yourself online? Oh, I absolutely used to. I still might, idk. I've tried to reel it back some. How many windows are in the room you’re in? Eight, but they're just small, vertical rectangles stacked together, so it's not as revealing as it sounds. What was the last necklace you wore? My spiked choker, I think, for pictures. Or maybe the one I have with a bunch of big silver skulls. Do you think there are more dimensions than what we’re able to perceive? I don't think so, no. Does anyone in your family have schizophrenia? My half-sister on Dad's side that I've never met. Have you ever been in an abandoned house? A shack, yeah. Do you like art? I positively adore it. I could NOT imagine life without it. How about theatre? I don't care for it. Have you ever made breakfast for someone? Yes, for Sara. Do you talk to your crush? If you have one. Yeah, she's my best fren. If yes, what do you usually talk about? Nowadays I ask her almost daily how she's doing in regards to her progress of recovering from both serious physical and mental stressors. I try to always be an available ear if she ever wants to vent. Would you rather read or watch a video about something? Watch a video. In what ways have you fulfilled some of the hopes and dreams you had as a teenager? I've fulfilled none of those. What’s one stressful thing you’ve been trying to deal with lately? How have you been dealing with it? Inexplicable, chronic boredom/serious anhedonia. I've just... put up with it. I get pleasure out of essentially nothing most days, and it sucks big time. I just try to distract myself and force myself to do things I usually love, though I've been bad about actually succeeding in making me do said stuff... Is there a regional chain of store/restaurant/etc. in your area that you feel very loyal to? MOTHERFUCKIN BOJANGLE'S, BITCH. You think YOU have good fries somewhere? Oh hunny, sit down. Oftentimes, people warn us against getting tattoos or body modifications or dying our hair unnatural colors because we could be judged poorly for them. But has a more “alternative” look ever worked out in your favor? Well, I like myself better with my piercings and tattoos, and that's all that really matters to me. Do you have any daily routine/habit of that you’re really proud of keeping up? No. .-. Pick one of the following activities to do in a forest (assume you would be equally good at each one of these): Foraging for mushrooms, identifying trees, searching for specific types of bugs, trying to build something out of fallen branches and logs. Searching for bugs w/ my camera!!! But that all sounds fun. What’s the hardest class you’ve ever taken? My most recent math course that I failed horribly.
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Kate McKinnon Fanfiction. Foldingchairs and the city of dreams. Chapter 8
Hey guys, I’ve decided to post my fanfic about Kate McKinnon on here.You can find it on AO3 as well: http://archiveofourown.org/works/8275334/chapters/18957797
Summary: This fanfiction tells the story of a fan, just like any of us, meeting Kate and everything that happens after that.
It takes off at SNL, later on Nino will be there and Kate is the most amazing person in the world. What could one want more?
Rated M 
Chapter 8 
When there’s no text when I land in Amsterdam I feel slightly disappointed. Although I know it’s around 5 am right now I’m still disappointed. I quickly text Alice letting her know I’m about to get my bags and head for the exit.
How on earth was I’m going to explain what happened last weekend… After the date, I only texted Alice some vague details about dinner and the bar but I hadn’t updated her ever since.
This was going to be hard a conversation filled with screams and to many questions and I didn’t look forward to it.
 I collect my bags and brace myself for the encounter with my best friend.
 I smile when I spot her holding a cardboard sign reading “My favorite Homo” and walk over to be engulfed in a warm hug.
 “Hi weirdo, thanks for the sign” I mumble into her shoulder.
“Hmm yeah whatever…” she mumbles back and takes a step back to take a look at me.
 “What haven’t you been telling me bitch?” She spits out and I laugh.
“Hello to you too Alice…”
“No you don’t get to do that. You go on a date with a celebrity and suddenly the text stop, for all I knew you were kidnapped by some creep or worse…”
“I’m back, right?”
“Shut up!”
“I love you” I coo and blow her kiss in the air. “Now let’s go, I need a shower”
“I hate you so much, and I’m soo not done with you, but I agree, you need a shower.”
“There is my best friend!” I smirk and we make our way out of the airport, glad to have made it out of the conversation for at least another 10 minutes.
 In the car back home I can’t prolong it any longer and tell Alice about everything that happened last weekend.
At some point I had to grab the wheel to prevent us from crashing into the car next to us because Alice freaked out so much.
 “ALICE! Do you need me to drive or what?!”
“Oh shut up, you don’t get to judge after what you just told me.”
“Still, I want to come home, alive preferably…”
 After a silence in which Alice visibly is working through all the information I just gave her she looks at me again.
 “Eyes on the road…”
 “Bitch you didn’t…”
“I did”
“You had sex with KATE MCKINNON?”
“hmmmm”
“I hate you so much…”
“Dude you’re as straight as a stripper pole”
“Still !”
 “And what happens now? You’re just going to live with the fact you slept with her and continue living like it’s nothing…?”
“Dude of course it’s something! You know me...! She was the first one since Julie... It’s not like I’m just going to treat that like it’s nothing… I feel bad enough as it is.”
 “Mykah, you know she wanted you to keep living your life. You don’t have to feel bad for her…”
 “I know, but I still felt bad afterwards… Like I had cheated on her or something… I even told her about Julie. I never talk about her to strangers… But she’s got this thing about her… It’s like, it felt like I had known her all my life…”
Alice grabs my hand over the stick shift and squeezes it. “you got it bad, don’t you?”
I just sigh and nod.
 “Why can’t I just be a regular person who has sex with other people and doesn’t’t develop feelings… just casual, plain, one night stand sex.”
“Because you are you!”
“Yeah but dude I’m just another notch in her belt and she has probably already forgotten about me and I’m on the other side of the world pining over her.”
“I know…, I know.”
 We share the remainder of the car ride in a somewhat uncomfortable silence that I have never experienced with Alice. She probably just didn’t know what to say. She has been pushing to go out and meet new people for half a year now, telling me to start dating again, but that was the whole point. Never in my life had I dated, I met Julie when we were 18 and 4 weeks later we were in a relationship. So much for the lesbian stereotype. But my point being, I had never really been with anyone else than Julie and I had no idea how to go about this dating thing.
But when I had been at the restaurant with Kate making small talk and joking around with her it had felt like that’s what it’s supposed to be like.  
And then when we had shared a couple of beers and talking and being around her had become even easier I had allowed myself to enjoy the feeling she released inside of me.
As much as that feeling had scared me, as it still did, it also cracked open a bold part of myself that I hadn’t seen in quite a while. As I stared into her eyes at her kitchen island that night, she had unlocked a raging desire that scared me to death.
Not for a second when I was with her had I felt guilty towards Julie, but back in my hotel room, scrubbing the remainders of the night and morning away, my stomach turned and my heart ached for the beautiful girl who left this earth and me way too early.
She was the one I was supposed to get old with, she was my best friend who knew me like no one else, the person I wanted to have children with and wanted to marry.
But fate, or some sort of screwed up force, faith or being that I didn’t believe in had other plans.
 My buzzing phone snaps me out of my train of thoughts.
 I push the home button and as the screen lights up, again, so do I. I unlock my phone and read the message carefully, afraid if I read it too fast it will disappear. The familiar flutter in my stomach is back within seconds and a big smile spreads across my face.
Alice notices it right away and grins.
“Is she texting you?”
“hmmmm” I hum, reading the text once more.
 13:20 K: Morning stranger, hope you had a safe flight! :) Let me know when you’re home! Hope to hear from you. XoXo
“You’re lighting up like a Christmas tree, you doofus” Alice laughs and I blush.
“Shut up”
“Oh my god, you’ve got it bad, you sucker.”
I just glare at her and contemplate if I should text her right now or wait until I got home.
 “Just text her, or you’re head is going to explode all over my recently cleaned car, and I hear brains are a sucker to get out of the fabric…”
“You watch too much TV, creep” I laugh and shove her lightly in the shoulder
“Your own fault entirely! Now go on, text your lady!”
“Don’t say that…”
“Your booty call then, whichever you prefer…”
I sigh and Alice laughs. I hate her so much sometimes.
 13:26 M: Good afternoon! Not home yet but Alice (my best friend) is driving me back. If I survive I’ll be sure to text you haha. Have a good day! X
 I press send and a nervous jitter settles in the pit of my stomach. This was insane. I feel like a nervous teenager who’s about to get her first kiss.
 13:27 K: You did tell her I’m a very big celebrity with a lot of influencual friends, right? So if she doesn’t get you home safe I’m sure to have a number or two to call…
 13:27 M: Haha talking big are we… never picked you as one of those people who used their famousness to get things done… But I guess that’s not the only thing I was wrong about…
 13:28 K: I guess you don’t know me at all… I use my fame for literally anything. They don’t call me a diva for no reason, I own that title…
 13:29 M: Am I texting with Kate McKinnon or is this Pamela Anderson? Sorry for the mess up, you’re both blonde I guess…
 13:30 K: Asshole…
 13:30 M: No, but seriously, do I have the wrong number?
 13:31 K: Image* I don’t think Pamela Anderson owns an exact copy of the bed you vacated in yesterday… But hey if you’re still not sure be free to stop texting…
 The image shows Kates messed up bed and my cheeks get hot.
 13:32 M: Nice bed you have there but if you were Pamela Anderson why on earth would I stop texting… She has a fortune I might get my hands on with my smooth talk… That’s what I tricked you with anyways…
 13:33 K: Pfft, whatever. But anyways we were talking about getting you home safely… You there yet?
 13:33 M: You texted me 5 minutes ago… The Netherlands is a small country, but not that small…
 13:33 K: How on earth could I know, but I gotta go, work’s calling. Talk to you soon okay?
 13:34 M: Yeh no problem, have a good day at work! I’ll let you know when I’m home ;). Byeee
13:34 K: Good luck with your jetlag! XoXo
 I let my phone drop back into my lap and my smile nearly breaks my face in half. In my texting spree I didn’t notice Alice glancing over at me every other moment and when I look up she’s grinning at me.
 “Dude you got it soo soo bad, it’s embarrassing!”
“Shut up…” I spit out but I know she’s right. I love talking to her, it’s like she awakens some sort of goofiness inside of me that I can’t control. I run my face over my hand and sigh, how on earth was this going to end…
 ------------------ 3 weeks later --------------------
 Kate and I had been texting nonstop. In between figuring out time zones and work schedules we were actually getting to know each other. It became a ritual to text her goodnight and good morning although I knew they didn’t make sense in her time zone.
We talked about nearly anything, my work and hers, things we experienced through the day, our friends and there was an unspoken contest who could sent the most pictures of their pet. I think I have over 150 pictures of Nino now and she’s got a similar amount of Doc, my dog.
I learned a lot about her grueling schedule on SNL and every day my admiration for her hard work grew. Nonetheless her hours, every time we talked for hours and she was always interested in my never-ending stories about work.
Talking to Kate had soon become the highlight of my day, and that didn’t go unnoticed by my friends and co-workers. As much as I tried not to be too obvious about the whole thing they were starting to complain about me being glued to my phone.
Except for Alice. She was also the only one who knew the whole story. She didn’t complain but quite often she rose the question of where this was going, and to be honest I still had no idea. For now, it felt amazing to have someone to talk to and joke around with and sometimes even flirt with. It made me happier than I had been in a long time.
 ------5 weeks later------
 I was having lunch at my job and this was usually when Kate woke up to get ready for work. I impatiently waited for her belated good morning text like everyday but as my lunch time passed and I had eaten all my sandwiches and there still was no text I felt my stomach drop. Maybe she was just sleeping in or no, she probably overslept again and now was flagging down a cab to get to work on time. I slid my phone back into my pocket and got back to my work. Every second I got I quickly checked my phone to see if I got any new messages, but no luck.
After work I decide to text her, maybe something had happened…
 18:32 M: Hey stranger, haven’t heard from you today, everything alright?
 I spend my night with Alice and her boyfriend Josh binge watching anything we could find on Netflix. Although I’m usually really serious about my TV shows but I couldn’t focus on what was happening on the screen. I held my phone tightly in my hand, in case it buzzed, being fed up with why I hadn’t heard anything from Kate today.
After the millionth glance at my phone Alice finally decided to ask what the hell I was doing.
“She didn’t me text today…”
“Oh… Well maybe her phone broke or something, nothing to be worried about, right?”
“Yeah, I guess…”
 “Mykah, stop worrying please and just watch your show, it’s weird watching Orange without your constant scoffing when Ruby Rose comes on the screen. Right Josh?”
 “Hmmm yeah…” He humms as his eyes stay trained on the screen, showing Natasha Lyonne having sex with a random chick.
 I snort and throw my phone on the table. It was probably nothing. She would text tomorrow for sure…
 The next morning I wake up to two messages from Kate. My heart rate speeds up as I fumble to get my phone unlocked as fast as possible.
 03:07 K: Hey you, sorry been busy all day, hope you had a good one.
03:07 K: Oh, and goodnight ;)
 I try to store the disappointment of her short text away as I text her my usual good morning.
 07:14 M: Hey, no problem, just a bit worried! Hopefully you get a good night’s sleep! Hope to talk to you when you wake up! Xxx
 The relief of her text doesn’t last long when at lunch I don’t receive a text, again.
 This continues for a couple of days, with her texting in the middle of the night, telling me she was busy or didn’t have or phone or another excuse of why she didn’t text that day.
After day 6 I wake up to no new messages.
I know she doesn’t owe me anything but it hurts none the less. I had gotten so used to talking to her every day, sharing my day with her.
It’s weird watching a new SNL that weekend without having any idea what Kate’s going to do, or what sketch I have to keep my eye out for some Easter egg or inside joke the cast came up with.
It’s weird not knowing how she spend her days or what Nino had broken in the 5 minutes she went out for groceries.
I found myself more often than not staring at my phone, hoping it would magically lit up and see Kates texts or reading back into the endless string of texts we had shared before.
 But every day without a new text my faith in this magic reappearance faltered.
 -------- 8 weeks later ---------
 More and more as everyday passed it felt like New York never happened. The texts had stopped completely, as did the courage to text her first. Ever since I had came back I had tried to avoid social media, twitter in particular, but couldn't help it last night. I had opened twitter with the excuse to get rid of the annoying notification number at the top of the app, but when I saw my updated timeline my heart stopped.
Of course there was a post lingering on top of the screen with a new picture of a broadly smiling Kate who had her arm linked with some girl I didn't recognize. The tweet read "look at our happy bean! She deserves nothing but love and luck! I hope it works out"
With my finger on the home button and a turning stomach I should have gotten to rid of the picture before I was going to throw up, but I couldn't.
At least now I knew why the texts had stopped...
Fueled by a growing anger, that I knew I wasn't entitled to, I put my finger on the screen and started to scroll down the feed.
I immediately regretted following so many Kate/Holtzmann fan accounts before, as various pictures and quotes passed before my eyes.
I finally ended upon a retweet from someone that read:
@justjared: Kate McKinnon and supposed girlfriend attend premiere of Melissa McCarthy’s new comedy.
It showed the same picture as the tweet before and I dropped the phone on the couch next to me. I had seen enough.  
 -----------12 weeks later------
 Somehow I managed to try and forget about the lady that stole my heart almost 3 months ago in New York. And although at first it had been hard, as the weeks passed it became easier to just go on with my life. Alice advised me to stop watching SNL and apart from cheating on some clips I had avoided Kates sketches pretty well.
As my daily routine, without texting Kate, slowly reappeared again, so did the urge to go out there and meet new people. Alice had set me up for a night of drinking and dancing in a gay bar this weekend and I was actually looking forward to it.
 That Wednesday I have a late lunch and decide to check my phone for the first time today. When it lights up, so do my cheeks. 
After 6 weeks of radio silence, there, right there on my screen was a string of  texts from Kate. 
Most of them too long to read in the notifications so I unlock my screen and take a deep breath. 
I have to scroll up quite a bit to read the beginning of her spree. 
 12:45 K: Hey stranger, good morning! I know it's been a while... Just wanted to check how you're doing! 
 13:02 K: Either you're ignoring me or your work schedule has changed... Which is fine, either way. 
 13:16 K: ... I'm okay btw. 
13:17 K: I know you hate me right now, but please don’t leave me hanging here…
 13:45 K: Danny asked me about you last night... He remembered you after he saw your name on my phone, he told me to say hi, so here you go. 
 13:46 K: okay, this is getting awkward now. Really hope you're just not checking your phone 
 13:47 K: if you're not ignoring me, please text me asap, we need to talk. 
13:47 K: if you are ignoring me text me anyways. 
13:47 K: I am not kidding. 
13:52 K: please
 That last text was half an hour ago. 
Why in the hell would she text me now, out of nowhere... Maybe she and her girlfriend broke up and she needed some attention... Pfft finally I was dealing with the fact that whatever we had was over and now she starts texting again. For fucks sake. I chew on my bottom lip contemplating if I was going to text her back or not.
 I hate myself for not being able to fight the urge to find what she has to say, so I budge and text her back, trying to sound as nonchalant as possible. 
14:25 M: Hey, working rn, we can talk later, I'll be home at 8 (2 pm) 
 I couldn't even lock my phone before she already replied. 
 14:26 K: Jezus christ woman, I thought the youth was practically attached to their phones... no just kidding, thanks for replying. 2 will be fine! Talk to you then! 
 I couldn't help the small smile creeping on my face after reading her text. I quickly stuff away my phone and join Julie outside. Already feeling a 100 times better than the past 6 weeks. 
 The end of the day came closer and closer as we quickly dismantled all the activities and stored them back in the big sea containers at the back of the park.
 After the debrief I couldn't wait to get home, I quickly said my goodbyes and jumped in my car. On the way back I got some groceries and texted Alice the (good?) news. 
Of course she insisted on coming over, so I prepared a meal for two and quickly took my dog out for another round as the food boiled on the stove. 
 As the minutes grew closer to 8, the more nervous I became. What on earth did she have to say after more than a month of silence that was so important that she insisted on talking tonight. 
This was a SNL week so if I remembered correctly her schedule today consisted of writing and a table read with the host. That meant that 2 would be not convenient for her at all. This must be important. 
 When I got back to my apartment, Alice already let herself in and was just serving 2 big plates of mac and veggies. 
 My dog launched at her and I couldn't help but smile at the sight. How much I wished for this to happen every day. Coming home to a person I loved, cooking dinner for us both. If only it wasn't my very straight friend Alice that had been that person ever since my last girlfriend passed away. 
 "Hey you! I just saved this pathetic excuse of a meal before it burned down your house..." 
 "Hello to you too..." I growl back at her and throw myself on the couch. The anxiety of talking to Kate in a few left me exhausted. 
 Alice places our plates on the coffee table in front of us and puts out her hand waiting for me to put my phone in it. 
 "Hug first" I mumble into the pillow and I hear Alice sigh. 
Not in an annoyed way but she knows how this situation is making me feel and she can’t really help me with it.
 She bends down on top of me and despite the awkward position she hugs me the best she can. We stay like that for a while and the physical contact calms me down right away. 
 "Come on homo, let's eat." 
She finally says and pecks me on the cheek "your combination of ingredients I don't know the name of is getting cold" 
 "Hmmf shut it asshole" I growl back and hoist myself into a sitting position. 
 I grab my fork but before I can shovel anything into my mouth Alice holds up her hand once again. 
 "I hate you, you know that right?" I say again and toss my phone into her hands. 
 "I know, love you too." She replies before unlocking my phone and reading the texts. 
 I silently eat my food as I wait for her to finish reading. Alice was right, it was a crappy combination of ingredients, but it was food nonetheless. How I hadn't starved by now was beyond me. I was very thankful for Alice and my mom sometimes stocking my freezer with pre-cooked meals that only needed to be microwaved. 
Cooking was something my girlfriend always did. I royally sucked at it and when she passed away I spent my days crying in bed and eating ordered food, if I ate at all. 
It wasn't until Alice temporarily moved in and forced me to maintain a healthy schedule, cooking for me and dragging my ass to the gym to gain some of my strength back so I could go back to work, it felt like I was alive again. It took me a long ass time to feel like I had something to live for again. So, when Kate happened and I felt happier than in forever it only hurt worse when she decided to ditch whatever we had.
 "Hmmm kay" was all she said when she put the phone down. 
"Right?" 
"Do you have any clue what she wants to talk about?" 
I shake my head and shovel another forkful of my superb creation in my mouth. 
 "What do you want her to talk about?" 
"Uhh maybe about how she managed to ignore my existence for the past 6 weeks..." 
"Fair enough" 
I glance over at the clock and see it's 7:50. 
I slouch back into the couch and sigh. "I hate that she has this power over me..." 
 "I know..." 
 Silence falls over us as we watch the minutes pass by. 
 "Hey you can go if you want, there's no fun in watching someone text" 
 "Don't be silly, it's not like I've anything to do at home, Josh isn't home, so I'm just gonna watch some Netflix on your ridiculous big TV. 
 I snort and shake my head. 
"Fine... but you’re not gonna grab my phone from my hand every second okay?" 
 "I can't promise anything" Alice replies with a big grin on her face and reaches for the remote, turning on my "ridiculous big" TV. 
 Before I can smack her in the head my phone buzzes on the table and both our heads snap up and watch the illuminated screen. 
Reluctantly I reach over for the phone and unlock it. 
 K: Hey! You there yet?
M: Yep, just had dinner with Alice. 
K: I presume Alice cooked since your still alive and all? ;) 
M: ha-ha really funny, I have you know I cooked it myself and it was delicious. 
K: hmmmmmmmm
M: okay it was not, and Alice saved if from burning when I was walking Doc. 
 Okay, how did she manage to plaster a smile on my face within a minute... 
 K: Knew it haha. 
M: yeah yeah whatever. 
K: I still have to cook for you one day...
M: is that so?
 I tried to play this as nonchalant as possible, still not sure where we were going with this. 
 K: you made me promise! And as you know by experience I am big on keeping those.... 
 My face got very hot at the reminder of that particular moment and Alice glanced over with a confused look on her face. I just shrugged and diverted my eyes back to the screen. 
 M: how could I forget...
K: me either... I wouldn't mind cashing in that promise again in the future... 
 My cheeks were burning my now, why was she playing games with me. This wasn't fair to me and I knew it. Despite how much I wanted to take a plane over there right now and pin her down to the closest horizontal surface, I knew it wouldn't be fair. 
This had to stop. 
 M: Kate... 
K: Right. Sorry.  Got a bit carried away there. 
M: You wanted to talk? 
K: Yeah... 
M: So...?
K: Uhm so... 
K: Are you maybe up for calling? It would go a lot faster than texting. 
 My stomach turned and my heart rate sped up... we had never called before. 
 I turn my head to the side and see Alice studying me closely. 
 "You okay?" She carefully asks.
"She wants to call..." 
"Oh"
"Yeah" 
"Maybe you should do it... maybe it'll be easier to let her know how you feel about all of this..." 
"Maybe" 
"Yeah" 
 My phone buzzes in my lap again.
K: if not that's fine...
M: no, hold up. I'm gonna move to my bedroom, Alice is getting on my nerves 
 I lie and glance apologetically at my best friend. 
"I'm gonna call her from my bedroom, kay?" 
I say as I walk to the room, not waiting for an answer. 
"No phone sex in there or I'll never cook you any food again!" 
 "Just don't eavesdrop and you won't find out!" I shout at her before closing the door
 "You know I will" I hear her shout back and I snort. She's too predictable. 
I sit back against the headboard and plug my headphones in. 
 R: You can call now if you want.
K: Okay, hold on. 
 I nervously wait for a couple of seconds before seeing her caller ID pop up on my screen. I slide it to answer the call. 
 "Hey" I croak out, my throat tight from the anticipation. 
"Hey you!" Kate enthusiastically beams and I nearly faint there and then. I hadn't heard her voice live since that morning in New York, sure I had heard it on SNL every weekend, but still it was different. 
Not realizing I had been silent for too long Kate asks: "hey, you still there?" 
"Yeah yeah, it's just good to hear your voice." 
"Good to hear yours as well." She says and I almost hear her smile. 
“So what did you want to talk about, after 6 weeks?” I suddenly spit out, not able to handle the way she messes with my emotions by simply talking.
There’s another silence on her side and my heart starts beating fast, maybe that was a bit too forward…
I hear her clear her throat and slightly sigh.
“I’m sorry Mykah, I’m sorry that I stopped texting… But that’s kind of what I wanted to talk to you about…”
I swallow down the lump in my throat. Hearing Kate down like this makes me want to tell her it’s alright. That it didn’t hurt, and that she shouldn’t apologize. But it did hurt, like hell, when she just stopped replying and left me wondering if I had said something wrong or if she maybe something had happened or if she finally decided I wasn’t entertaining anymore.
“Okay” is all I croak out and my chest feels like exploding, my anxiousness flying through the roof.
I hear Kate shuffling on the other side and just when I am about to ask if she’s alright she takes a deep breath and starts explaining.
 “I met someone. I met someone and uhmm… we uhmm… we dated… we dated for a while and then it became something more than dating and she got jealous. She got so jealous. And she made me promise, and I know I shouldn’t have but I did, and it felt so bad because you did nothing wrong. And I love talking to you but she made me promise, and you know, you know I’m big on promises and I thought she was everything but she thought my career and the red carpets were everything and I was blind…
 Kates ramble makes my brain overflow with new information that I’m still trying to place together when she finishes.
“She was the girl at the movie premier, wasn’t she?” I say as I feel sick to my stomach. I didn’t have any ground to stand on, we had one night together, but I couldn’t help but feel like throwing up finally realizing I had been right when I saw that picture on Twitter. The thought of someone touching her like I had was driving me mad with an angry jealousy that was burning trough my veins right now.
 “Yeah…”
I bite the inside of my lip trying to calm down before saying anything that I was going to regret.
“Good for you” I manage to say without sounding too bitter.
“It’s over”
“Oh”
“Yeah”
“I’m sorry to hear that”
“Don’t be, it wasn’t healthy”
“Still”
“Mykah…”
 The way my names sounds from her lips makes me blush so hard I’m afraid my cheeks are on fire.
 “She made me promise, but every day I thought of texting you… It wasn’t easy not talking to you.”
 Lost for words at her revelation I fiddle with my fingers as I hear her breathe on the other side of the line.
I am crap at expressing feelings, let alone admit them to someone that made my heart beat out of my chest by simply existing.
 Braving the silence, I finally speak out.
 “So what does this mean?”
 “I don’t know honestly”  
 “Yeh, me either…”
 “We could just go back to the way it was before? Or we don’t…”
 “Yeh we could, but what if….”
 “What if?”
 “What if you meet someone again, and you leave me hanging, again…”
 “I won’t”
 “You can’t promise that…”
 “I will, right here and now, that I won’t let that happen again.”
 I chew on my bottom lip as I contemplate letting her back in. Although I know my heart has already made the decision for me, the thought of falling to her mercy once again only to be left heartbroken once she decides some other decision is more important. Why was she so reluctant to get whatever we had back in the first place? It’s not like we were in some kind of relationship. We just happened to fall in bed together exactly 46 days ago, but who was counting right? I had to know.
 “Why?”
 “Why what?”
 “Why are we having this conversation, why do you want to continue texting to some complete stranger, why are you apologizing for living a life, for making promises you have to keep? Why?
 Kate snorts and I feel like throwing up. Why did I put that question out there… As much as I wanted to know, I really didn’t. Because what if it was just because she needed someone to pass the time with in between shoots, writing sessions and shows. Someone that she didn’t have any obligation too but could shamelessly flirt with. Okay, I really didn’t want to know.
But I hear her take in a deep breath and I brace myself for what’s to come.
 “Because, when I wasn’t talking to you, every time something happened or I found about a new TV show or even when Leslie talked about a new dude again I wanted to tell you about it. I love figuring out time zones and work schedules and waking up to a new good morning text from 2 am. I think that’s why”  
 My cheeks get bright red at her confession, but somehow her words fueled an emotion inside me that didn’t surface very often.
 “Then why the hell stop talking with me… You’re a grownup woman who can make her own decisions…”
 “I’m sorry Mykah…”
 “I know……. but right now I’m not sure if that’s enough.”
 Kate is silent. My heart screams to tell her it’s okay, that I forgive her that I want to talk to her every day again like nothing happened but it’s not fair.
 “Just give me some time okay?” I say and I feel sick to my stomach for giving in so fast.
 “Okay…”
 Not knowing how to end this kind of finished conversation I just get it over with and reluctantly say the words that mean the end of hearing her voice.
 “We’ll talk later this week okay? I’m going to go now. Have a good day at work.”
 “Okay, yeah you have a good night Mykay. Thanks for taking the time to hear me out.”
 “Of course…”
 “Bye”
 “Bye”
 I cut the line and release a breath I didn’t know I was holding.
 FUCKKKK
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