#it's 1 a.m. as i'm queueing this up

[lordcaptains]

so much of heinrix's guilt around romance and relationships comes from his desire for more than his duty allows him.

during the conversation after kiava gamma, on the devil path, heinrix doesn't demur when asked about his past relationships - 'fleeting dalliances', he calls them, and he seems to be enjoying himself as he narrows his eyes at the rogue trader, anticipating their response. it's only if the rogue trader says they meant more than that, more than just those 'fleeting dalliances', that he closes himself off again.

the same thing comes up during the conversation after the magnae accessio. "my duty comes first, even before myself," he says. "in our position, i can allow myself very little. and for you it is no different, really."

as an agent of the holy ordos, as a servant of the golden throne, any relationship that cannot be set aside for his responsibilities, any relationship that might take time or attention or devotion away from his work - anything more - isn't something he can allow himself. especially with the rogue trader, who he has been tasked with surveilling by the inquisition.

and his desire for more is what shames him. he was allowed to live by the imperium, anathema though he is - how could he want anything more than to serve it?

that's what he confesses, frozen nearly to death in the rogue trader's quarters.

heinrix believes he has a duty to the inquisition, to the imperium, to humanity and the god-emperor of mankind. he let himself think that maybe, just maybe, he could have what he wanted and be with the rogue trader, too.

[crunchwrapsnoopy]

Don't Call, Don't Text [Tomura Shigaraki x Reader]

↻ ◁ ˚₊ Do I Wanna Know ₊˚ ▷ ↺

"Have you no idea that you're in deep? I dreamt about you nearly every night this week"

drunk msging ur ex on discord >>>> (no use of y/n btw!)

Toxic!Tomura Shigaraki x GN Reader

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WC: 1183

It was late, the only light in your room was the one beating on your face from your monitor. You were just about to shut down your computer for the night to get some much needed rest, when you got a Discord ping out of nowhere, a message lighting up your screen. You froze in your gaming chair upon seeing the name, Shiggy. It had been months since you two had broken up. You’d tried moving on after you moved to a new city, you tried pretending that his chaotic, unsettling presence hadn’t left a somewhat sinister mark on your life. You thought about him sometimes, like when you heard his laugh in a random memory or when you played video games that you used to queue together. You also thought about the tears that streamed down your face often, the nights where he'd ignore you for hours. But that was all in the past. At least, that’s what you’d told yourself. You clicked on his message with a small sigh, and there it was: 

Shiggy (1:09 A.M.) Ever thought of calling when you’ve had a few? Cause I always do.

You didn’t know whether to laugh or scream. You ran your fingers through your hair, the hair that Tomura makes you want to rip from your scalp, trying to process the words, wondering if you were dreaming or if the alcohol had just given him the courage to send this. Your finger hovered over the keyboard, unsure whether you should respond at all. You hadn’t really heard from him since your messy breakup, the closest you've been to contact has been through his friends, who occasionally send you updates on him. And now here he was, seemingly drunk, sending song lyrics on discord of all places. It was almost laughable. But nonetheless strange. A mix of emotions stirred up inside you—anger, confusion, and, yes, maybe a bit of longing. You remembered when things had been different, when it was all fine. But who wouldn't miss a relationship that lasted for two years, no matter how bad it was? There's always a missing piece now, even if the piece was a jerk from time to time. You took a deep breath and typed a response, still unsure if you should do this to yourself this late at night.

You (1:13 A.M.) Drunk messaging me Arctic Monkeys lyrics on Discord? That's a new one.

Shiggy (1:13 A.M.) They’re your favorite, after all.

You (1:15 A.M.) Oh, so now you remember that?

Your fingers hovered over the keys again as you stared at the screen, feeling a strange pull to his words. He had always been unpredictable—sometimes affectionate, sometimes distant, but always a little bit unpredictable in the way he expressed things. You’d never really understood him fully, and maybe that’s why you were still here, still entertaining the idea of responding to him.

Shiggy (1:17 A.M.) I don’t forget shit like that.

Your pulse quickened, but you forced yourself to stay calm. You hadn’t heard from him in so long. You were not about to let a pathetic drunk text pull you back into whatever you two were. But the strange feeling that lingered in your chest was hard to ignore.

You (1:19 A.M.) If you say so.

Shiggy (1:20 A.M.) I do.

The silence that followed felt heavy, like something was hanging between you two, something unspoken, yet palpable. Your eyes flicked over his message again, the way he seemed so sure of himself, you couldn't physically hear him, but you could definitely make out the raspy, cocky tone that he was trying to convey in his messages.

You (1:22 A.M.) You have some nerve Tomura. It's been months, do you really think I'm gonna come crawling back to you because of some lame messages on Discord?

Shiggy (1:24 A.M.) Look at the guts on you. I don’t think anything. But yeah, I remember what we were. Maybe you do too, deep down.

Your heart gave a sharp thud at his words, and the old ache returned—bittersweet and raw. You remembered it too. The fights, the stolen moments of tenderness. The good and the bad. You weren’t sure if it was worth revisiting, though. Not after everything.

You (1:26 A.M.) I do remember but it’s not that simple. You know that.

Shiggy (1:27 A.M.) Never said it was.

The honesty in his response caught you off guard, and for a moment, you were quiet, staring at the screen. You hated how he always seemed to have a way of cutting through your defenses.

You (1:30 A.M.) What do you want, Tomura?

Shiggy (1:32 A.M.) What do you think I want?

The implication hung there between the words, and for a moment, you couldn’t help but let your mind wander to all the things you knew he was capable of. He had a way of doing things, a way of manipulating your emotions, he could destroy everything and still somehow leave you with a strange sense of wanting more.

You (1:34 A.M.) You can’t just show up like this. I'm not gonna be just some drunk text to you.

Shiggy (1:36 A.M.) I’m not asking you to be. And you know damn well you're more than a drunk text. I'm just… trying to talk ig.

The simplicity of his message was almost disarming, and you couldn’t quite tell if he was being genuine or just trying to string you along, mess with your head. But there was that lingering part of you, the one that still missed him, the one that longed for the connection, even if it was fleeting.

You (1:38 A.M.) Why now?

Shiggy (1:39 A.M.) Why not? I miss you.

Your fingers trembled as you typed your next response, unsure whether you wanted to open this door again, but knowing deep down that the curiosity was eating away at you.

You (1:41 A.M.) I don’t know if I can go back to that, Tomura.

Shiggy (1:42 A.M.) I’m not asking you to come back. Just wanted you to know that I miss you.

You didn’t know if he was telling the truth, or if it was just the alcohol talking. But part of you wondered if, deep down, he wanted to fix things, or if he was just trying to have control over something, anything, after all this time. Maybe you could never know the full truth, and maybe that was the most frustrating part of it all.

Your mind was racing now, trying to decide if you should keep this conversation going. Should you close it off, or leave it open, just a crack, to see where it would lead?

You (1:45 A.M.) Maybe it’s better if we just leave things as they are.

Shiggy (1:46 A.M.) Maybe. But you’re not gonna stop thinking about it, are you?

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[turnwashingtonsbaddies]

I think you should use a different tag between the actual poll itself vs the propaganda tbh because trying to find poll results and having to scroll through 2000 asks is kinda painful

You raise a 100% a valid point, and for that reason, I’m taking the opportunity to do a bit of housekeeping here. I am super thrilled by the level of participation this bracket has generated, but it was definitely not expected. I did not plan for people to send in so much stuff, so I think a few new ground rules are in order. 

1. ALL propaganda sent to me will only be tagged #hot bracket propaganda!! and also with the character’s name. If you want me to find propaganda you post yourself, please tag it #hot bracket propaganda!! and I WILL reblog it on this blog

2. I will only be using the #turn hot bracket tag for polls, results posts, and for PSAs such as this one. Obviously, I can’t stop people from posting there if they want to, and I’ll still try to reblog any hot bracket related content I see, but the only way to be assured of a reblog is to make an original post (not a reblog) that I can find under the #hot bracket propaganda!! tag

3. While I cannot overstate how excited I am to see people participating and sending me propaganda, I simply cannot keep up with the sheer amount of inbox notifs I have been bombarded with. For that reason, I am limiting the hours during which I will be accepting time-sensitive propaganda to the first 6 hours of the poll being open, which are 6 p.m. - 12 a.m. Eastern Standard Time. Any propaganda submitted to me after that time window will NOT be posted because I have to sleep and I work an office job during the day and cannot be online. Propaganda submitted within the 6-12 timeframe will all be added to a queue and posted in the order in which they are received up until the poll closes. 

4. This 6-12 pm EST time window ONLY applies to propaganda sent to my ask box. You can post your own propaganda to the tag #hot bracket propaganda!! at any time of day, and I WILL reblog it. I might be delayed it getting to it because ya girl does work a 9-5, but I promise I will reblog everything I see in that tag.

5. Also, propaganda for a character whose poll has not yet opened WILL be accepted not matter what time of the day it is sent in. If the poll is not open yet, the time constraints will not apply.

Thank you again everyone for your active participation. This bracket has already been so fun, and i'm looking forward to see how it continues!!! If anyone has any more comments, questions, or concerns LMK!!

[twistedtummies2]

COMMISSIONS UPDATE - January 2025

Ahoy there, everyone! Well, we're almost halfway through January of this year, and I promised I'd be reopening comms in early February. As of now, while typing this, I still plan to reopen on February 5th, a Wednesday, most likely around 10 a.m. Mountain Time.

HOWEVER...before we get things going, I figure it's a good idea to give you all some reminders and updates on how things are going to work. So please sit tight, pay attention, and try not to get lost. XD

1. To aid in crowd control, I'm doing something that I'm frankly shocked I never thought to do in the past: I have created a specific e-mail line JUST for commission purposes. So, starting this February, ALL COMMISSION REQUESTS ARE TO BE SENT IN THROUGH MY BUSINESS E-MAIL LINE. (It will be offered in the description box of my home page, as well as in my Commission Info post.) Notes, comments, shouts, and so on will no longer be counted, unless I have given a person express permission to use those outlets. This, in theory, will allow me to keep a better record of who is sending in requests and when, since all viable requests will be coming to me from the same source, regardless of who is sending them and from what site.

2. When I reopen, I will be reopening for the full year in advance. This means that once I close, I'm closed till 2026. So if you don't get in...sorry, there's nothing I can do for you. As I've said before, I always get backlogged, and that's been a major issue for the past three years at least, probably longer. Since I've determined I can't FIGHT the backlog, I'm instead going to try and work WITH it, having all my comms for the year sorted out at the start, and then moving along accordingly. They will not be separated by months, but instead simply into several rounds: five rounds for the year, six slots in each. Every time I finish a round (and once I have the queue filled and am preparing to start comms officially), I will make an announcement, and name who is coming next, so those people are aware that their stories are on the horizon. Between rounds of commissions, I will work on personal pieces and/or trades.

3. There were a LOT of people on the Waiting List for the past year who never got a commission made, because I just didn't have time and they didn't get rotated in. I have contacted, as of writing this journal, every single person who was on that Waiting List from 2024. My plan to deal with them is to spread out when they get their stories throughout the year, with the remaining slots left open to the public. Not all of them have gotten back to me yet - in fact, most of them have not gotten back to me yet, as of typing this - so I cannot say for sure how many publicly open slots there will be. Once I get them worked out, I will make an announcement accordingly. Since these people have been waiting almost a full year for something, and were officially written down as such, I feel they should be my first priority.

4. There will be a Discount Options list for the year. I will post it most likely either at the end of this month or on the first or second of February; basically a few days before I DO open publicly. It will count for the year in totality, and like last year, multiple people can avail themselves to the use of a character on the list, but their commissions will be separated out in some fashion, so I'm not writing for the same character twice in a row in the same round. I have not determined who will be on the Discount Options list, or how large the list will be, so do not ask. The prices for comms are the same as last year: non-discount-eligible stories are charged at $15 per thousand words; discount-eligible stories are charged at $10 per thousand words.

5. There will be a SMALL Waiting List for the upcoming year, but it will only be a handful of people. Once again, once the year is filled up - counting that small waiting list - that's it.

If you have any further questions, comments, or concerns, please send them to me VIA NOTE, or via other Private Message system, such as Discord or Telegram. I will be leaving my Discord and Telegram handles in my page description after I give the commission e-mail address it's place in the Comm Info tab.

Thank you all for your patience and support, and please stay safe.

[ol-blue]

So I've been thinking

I kind of want to make this a full roleplay account meaning I don't put any personal stuff here (vents and that suff) it's just role-playing as Jon what do y'all think should I?

It's 1:16 a.m. and I'm very tired and I think I'm still sick so sorry if it sounds weird and like a four-year-old wrote it

[sparklycardigan]

hi, ivy here 💕💕from whatever ive heard abt logan, the nate & logan parallels feel very legit. which brings me to THE QUESTION, which is. nate archibald, as rory gilmore's boyfriend; how do you think that would go?? love u!

IVY, NATE ARCHIBALD AS RORY GILMORE'S BOYFRIEND WOULD BE SOMETHING INSANELY SIMILAR TO DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (DAN=RORY I don't make the rules 🤷‍♀️) I'm trying to figure out the circumstances of their first encounter now and all I'm coming up with is Dan Dan Dan because it has to be Dan, right? He has to be the initial string connecting them, right? Okay so, Rory and Dan meet while Dan's promoting his book or something (well, we HAVE to fix the mess that is s5 sOmEhoW and if Nate's going to date ;) someone else, Dan has to be with Blair in this au because I can't handle any more of pining!Dan if I tried ), they bond (well duh) and Nate just walks in on their big gifted kid burnout talk(TM) one day in the loft, stands there like 🤔 for a little bit and goes: Sooo, where's the ice cream, there's gotta be some comfort ice cream when this kind of thing happens, right? (this is Nate digging into that Humphrey knowledge pocket and all the tips he learned from Jenny while staying over, he's the pro at these things now). And obviously Rory likes him from the second she hears him utter those words because:

1. She's Dan.

2. That's the most Lorelai way to solve a problem.

The three of them end up playing board games on the floor afterwards (probably getting a bit drunk too because why not?) and Rory and Dan are 💞going through it💞 with the nostalgia and Nate is just sitting there smiling (☀️☀️☀️☀️☀️), picture sweater!Natie (yes, this is me giving Natie the childhood he deserved, who cares if he's in his 20s? Allusion to the birthday party Rory throws for Logan in s7 -> completely intentional because that was epically cute + Logan/Nate parallels)

But like... the relationship relationship would include (these are going to be shamelessly self indulgent headcanons with little to no meta because my brain's incapable of making up layered crossover scenarios rn, adding that to my wip ideas tho):

1. sweater/scarf sharing (Dan knits these for Rory/Nate as gifts Mrs. Weasley style, just... nowhere near that level of skill LMAO, they're all matching for Christmas AND IT'S HORRIBLE but still kinda cute anyways, Dan is an inevitable aspect of this equation obviously, wHat elSe diD yOu thinNk, huh?????🧐)

2. pre-relationship stuff would've mainly consisted of looooong late night talks (to quote ✨Moi✨: "if it's not built on friendship then I'm sorry but I don't want it"), majorly about their privilege and Nate would probably be the first one to mention how guilty he feels about it subtly which would make a couple of light bulbs turn on in Rory's brain which would make her think about it which would lead to her knocking on Nate's door at 2 a.m. begging him to explain it to her because "I didn't realize how much I had because I've never felt like I had too much of anything. And I thought that was the standard. I just... I only ever wanted to be close to people." and he wouldn't get what she's talking about at first (which is Rory accepting all these expensive gifts and embracing certain lifestyles because they came hand in hand with the people that she cared deeply about and... never evaluating the worth and meaning of these events without connecting them to her loved ones) but he would talk about it anyways and she would listen and compare his experiences to her own and realize how different and how similar people are when compared to each other. (which would also help with her "not like the others" complex, Nate isn't someone Rory would willingly hang out with if friendship=love was up to choice.)

3. Widening of perspective my beloved!!!!! Kind of like Natessa just queue in Rory making these crazy colorful charts and diagrams about the history of cinema for Nate and Nate actively studying them (every day for at least ten minutes) while Dan shows Rory how to play basketball back in the loft (one word: disaster) and Blair is all like 😑🤨🙄 in the corner *inserts endless eye rolls* (she wants us to think she hates Rory, in actuality she thinks her knowledge of the bookish world is rather 🎇acceptable🎇 and she loooooves her BFF Paris there's no TV show Gilmore Girls in this version of canon but that was already implied I suppose... I understand this au has a lot of plot holes but for once I don't really care :)

4. Rory. Reading. To. Nate. Before. They. Go. To. Sleep. Just his head on her shoulder while she reads him whatever book she's obsessed with at the moment. (💕🌸💖🌻💕💞💖☀️💕💖☀️💕)

5. Waffles/Pancakes! Friday! (Dan's idea ofc) which is basically Cooking With Dan Humphrey starring Blair, Nate and Rory as the annoyed, the enthusiastic and the confused (but determined nonetheless!) respectively and Dan as the chef par excellence or whatever you want to call it (he has a hat and all). And Milo is a part of this au (circumstances, logic, what what what??????). All of them babysit him (there's a very Rory-resembling schedule on Dan's fridge👀) + Rory and Nate get a labrador (yes, this is just to get Blair kissed by an actual labrador) later on, oh and his name is Newland Archer (the geeky evil energy is insane today 🤭).