silencedrage · 1 year ago
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TAISSA TURNER ( @perfectionreached ) wanted [ AWAKE ]:     the sender, unable to sleep, gets up to go for a walk, and finds that the receiver is also unable to sleep.
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She is trembling still, partially from the adrenaline and partially from the cold. Her knuckles alternate from aching so sharply that they burn, to going numb from the bitter wind that sweeps around her. Although the worst of the storm that had trapped them has passed, the night is clear, which only makes it colder where they are. She could walk to where she buried her son, she thinks suddenly. She could stay with him, to make sure he wasn't afraid. Even in the dark, she can picture the road back to him, like a tether guiding her back and she moves for the first time in what is probably an hour at least. Or.. she tries to. Her muscles are locked in place and Shauna lurches into the snow with a hiss as her bloody knuckles sink into the cold once more.
It takes a few minutes for the feeling to return to her legs, for her body to remember how to activate and fire each ligament until she is staggering to her feet, leaning against the edge of the porch heavily. She can't hear anything from inside and Shauna thinks maybe she's been out here longer than she thought, maybe the others have gone to sleep so she wouldn't have to look at their accusatory eyes, but the idea of going back in doesn't cross her mind, even though she knows the logical conclusion of her staying out all night.
Shauna takes half a step away from the house when the door opens, and she can see Taissa's curls dimly backlit from the fire inside. She swallows hard and looks at her friend, shoulders rounded in, a complete shift from the beast she'd become earlier. She had exhausted her pain on Lottie's battered body, at least for tonight, and her fingers fidgeted at her makeshift gloves to pull them down her raw, scraped knuckles, like a child about to be scolded. Or worse, maybe she would be ignored entirely, cast out like Jackie even though she would actually deserve that. "Tai?"
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scendant · 4 years ago
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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.
fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.
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tagged by: @zhrets​ aka THE stinky boy, Thank 4 teh Tag-desu uwu *glomps* tagging: @foxcharmed​ / @heroeth​ / @garuvusu​ (do it twice i dare you gabby) / @icarise​
My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated
Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO / KINDA
Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO
Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO
Are they underrated?  YES / NO
Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO.
Were they relevant for the main character?  YES / NO
Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.
How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL.
How strictly do you follow canon?  / I follow canon as much as I can, but it’s important for me to note that Elesis has many versions of herself depending on exactly which time I write her. For the most part, for panfandom interactions, I go for a more general approach incorporating canon into her story (as she did travel solo across dimensions for a hyper-extended period of time), but making it so that it wouldn’t have a tremendous effect on the actual canon of the story (by making her forget every world where she’d traveled, which gives opportunity for plots to revolve around that). I try to follow canon but, the game was a 2008 KMMORPG that was a patchwork mess and character identity is left highly to fandom and individual interpretation. My Elesis is nearly an original character at this point. I’ve thought about what made sense for her for a long time. She is a childhood character that had a significant impact on why I decided to rp, the kind of person I am today, and liking her and maining her in the original game inspire a lot of my love for similar characters.
SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  / Elesis Sieghart provides a lot of introspection. She is interesting because she is multifaceted. She is a leader---a Savior, going by the way canon sees her. But she’s not. Several times in canon, namely in her background and in an implied alternate dimension, she leans towards revenge over justice. Her goal has been, and always has been, to enact revenge on the villainess who took her father away from her. Her reaction to seeing her father die in front of her is anger, and then a desire for vengeance. In the alternate universe mentioned, she is so overtaken with rage that she transforms into a shell of herself consisting of her determination and her desire to kill----something that isn’t common among characters like her. Likewise, all throughout canon, she forced her way into a leadership position that, gradually, she begins to doubt and resent. She was brash, had an ugly personality, trampled over others’ opinions and yet---she cares about them so much. She’s a leader because she treats everyone she meets as equals, but she isn’t a leader-type because she’d rather seek anger in her friends’ name rather than protecting them in the present. Elesis always, always, looks towards the past for her actions rather than the present and she is fundamentally flawed as a protagonist. Not to mention, she is selfish and she takes her enjoyment of battle to extremes. Rather than being a forgiving and kind protagonist, she is ruthless and nearly totalitarian in her desire to fight over doing the right thing. She would rather die than retreat for the safety of her friends. She is angry, but it’s kept inside. She is lustful for violence, but she has to keep up the image of a good leader. She’s constantly on a breaking point one way or another, and I love that about her and I hope my interactions can spark some of that curiosity to go beyond what she is on the outside.
She’s a character that has a lot of potential for relationships. She has so many experiences that have changed her over and over again that she cherishes and is referred back to often. She’s a lot of contradictions in one woman, and to weasel your way into that takes a lot of effort and it’s rewarding. That’s how I want to portray her.
Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  Elesis isn’t digestible. She’s kind of basic looking and her words are far and few in between. I think she’s a very difficult character to love----she’s an easy character to gloss over because she’s not bombastic like a lot of others are. Speaking not so much from a fandom perspective (because she is very loved in the fandom, namely GC’s Korean fandom, where she’s one of the most popular characters) but from the perspective of roleplaying and seeing the kinds of characters people tend to prefer----Elesis is just not it. She’s not that consumable, and threading with her (and me in general) takes a ton of time and back and forth before she gives way to cuter threads or in-depth things. She’s not really defined by anything outright. It can easily be said that she isn’t anything. Her character doesn’t seem consistent----she’s a lot of things at once, rather than being “a good girl” or “an evil woman” or “a villain” or “sweet and candy-like” or “a sultry femme fatale”----she’s none of the easily definable. She’s a lot of everything, but she isn’t any one of those descriptions. She’s a protagonist but she doesn’t act like one. She’s a warrior but she longs for something more normal, something more regular. She’s a knight but she has never been knighted. She’s not easy to take in and it can seem very pretentious, to make one character absolutely nothing. It’s off-putting and it turns people off. Also, I don’t tend to talk about her until prompted to, nor do I talk on the dash a lot about her, nor do I have many followers in the first place. All of those things make her a character that people might just not want to write with, and that’s 100% okay.
What inspired you to rp your muse?  / She’s important to me. After leaving tumblr for 2-ish years following a lack of interest and seeing how toxic the dashboard was and how toxic the rpc twitter community was, I left and I didn’t look back until now. In the end, though, I want to write. Writing makes me happy. rping Elesis makes me insanely happy. I never brought her to tumblr because I didn’t want her to be ruined for me, and I’ve reached a point in my life where I’m confident enough in my own identity and my love for this character that I’ve been thinking of in silence for years to put it out in public and start writing with old friends again.
What keeps your inspiration going?  / I love one (1) beautiful titty redhead sword woman. 8+ years in my lil’ brain still going strong 3:
Some more personal questions for the mun.
Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.
Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO
Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO (though I want to)
Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES (all of my replies tend to be drabbles 3:>) / NO
Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO
Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO
Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO
Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO
Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal? / Truthfully---no. Not about Elesis. About any other character, or rather---about every other character besides Elesis, I will accept criticism. But I’ve thought about Elesis for way too long and for way too many years of my life, changing her as I go, so much so that it’ll feel too personal to me to accept criticism. But if it were any other character, I’d readily accept it.
Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  / Absolutely please please please please---it’s so hard to talk to people one-on-one about her as is, as it is for everyone about their own muses. I love questions. I love answering them.
If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why? / I’d be curious, truthfully. But it’s not bad. Anyone can disagree and if that’s the case, but ultimately, my headcanons for Elesis are my own and that’s not going to change even if someone else told me it was “wrong” or “bad”.
If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it? / I don’t really care. I’ve thought about this stupid meathead woman for far to long to feel offended at someone else’s disagreement of how I write her. Plus, Elesis Sieghart, as well as every single character of the Grand Chase, can have many, many interpretations due to how vague and up in the air their canon information is. It’s just how it is...
If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  / The only situation where I’d feel upset would be if it were a close friend telling me this after a while of talking about her---and it’s happened before. But overall, it made me sad for a minute and then it was “whatever”. They love her now, and things are good and right in the world. Someone else’s dislike of Elesis doesn’t really effect me outside of close friendships.
Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  / Absolutely! If something is off, please tell me or correct it in the reply <3
Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   / I’d hope so. I don’t view rp as my life or as a main hobby, so I don’t tend to be here often and I write as I feel like it. As a mun I kind of just write here as I please because I know the people who are interested will continue to be interested and those who aren’t, I’ll know with time. In terms of friendships and rp, I do like to be talked to if I share my discord because I don’t share it often. I want to be able to develop and write and do all of those fun things I never got to do in the past due to the fact that when I used to rp as a main hobby, I was a minor---shipping back then was difficult for me, as a minor. 3: But now that I’m a lot older and, well, Legal, I can do a lot more things and explore more dynamics that I felt like I just wasn’t mature enough to do in the past. I guess, in that case, I’m a bit more higher maintenance. I hope I come off as easygoing, but I do get very intense about writing, I like it so much.
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vroenis · 5 years ago
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FAR: Lone Sails, Hiding In Plain Sight, Tumblr Is Good Actually
I just finished FAR: Lone Sails. It’s really good. It’s a video game. You should buy it at full price instead of waiting for a sale like a cheapskate so the developer has some chance of not going bankrupt.
Here’s a still I stole from somewhere on the internet from it, but it’s from the game that I’m trying to get you to buy so I figure that’s OK. Use your internet skills and go buy it.
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Hiding In Plain Sight refers to some rhetoric I’ve been repeating on the Wire here and there, or was - I can use the past tense, I guess, because I’ve more or less deep-sixed my socials. More rhetoric. Tumblr is where I retreat to when I stop posting everywhere else and it’s of-course been precipitated by completing Kentucky Route Zero, the video game I keep mentioning but won’t talk about other than to say I won’t talk about it. I guess that counts as talking about it. Sure OK - by that you can infer that I think it’s good. Of-course I think it’s good. It’s so good I told J upon starting it again, before I’d finished it, that when I finished it I was going to be At Risk which of-course she knew, but that was always going to be the case. I mentioned to another friend privately on the Wire that a significant portion of my life has been in a holding pattern until Act V and the complete game was released and I wasn’t sure what shape my life would take when I completed my play-thru of the game and I guess here we are, finding out together.
So I’ve effectively suspended my activities on social media other than here, where my particular usage on Tumblr is to post primarily text. This is effective for me as a form of hiding because I note that most people utilise Tumblr as a visual diary and walls of text are immediate deterrents for a significant portion if not an almost absolute portion of visitors. People just don’t read. Who has the time to read? People barely have the time for Twitter at 280 characters altho there’s a propensity to thread and I think breaking up ideas into digestible pieces can assist comprehension. Still, Twitter is unique in its quirks for discussion, humour, memetics in general and general culture as of-course are all social media platforms.
Tumblr as a space for visual diaries tho is an interesting one. Spend a couple of minutes on random accounts and one might be tempted to conclude that Tumblr is a trash fire which sure, a portion of it certainly is. You might be tempted to believe that because I’m verbose, into indie-ish music and like snobby art films (I also love blockbusters and am definitely here for cinema in most forms) that I’d have words to say about the visual nature of Tumblr but I absolute love it. Make no mistake - I’m living for it, for several really good reasons and I probably can’t list them all.
One of the best reasons tho, is that there’s really strong queer representation here, and it’s easy for people to find and follow accounts that create space to feel surrounded by queer culture. Again, sure, you can push out to the fringes as far as you suspect to the boundaries of law and whatever decency you imagine and those are limits I don’t pursue, but a person can still navigate with relative safety a really good sense of celebration and acceptance of LGBTQTI+ life, art and culture in a way that not many other internet social spaces do.
The next thing I like about the visual nature of Tumblr is some of the feeds I’ve gone to who have come and liked an entry of mine simply for tagging in a cultural artefact we have in common, is that so much of what they reblog and post is fantastic. Post after post, image after image is just an endless list of amazing art or humour or calamity or misery or celebration - as much as there is trash on the internet, so too is there stupendous quality. There’s oodles of it - feeds full of it. I’m here for individuals just continually clicking on things, tracking and loosing track of all the things they even vaguely might like in their life - great and tiny celebrations of goodness - tiny little flags to mark something that means anything - something that helped them identify their anger, their pain, their frustration, and it doesn’t matter whether anyone else sees it, or if thousands of other people have already reblogged it and their voice is lost in the swarm of millions of others.
The capitalist view of media, art and attention keeps trying to convince us that everything has to have increasing value and that we have to sell it to someone, that the value isn’t there unless someone else is buying. It tells us we aren’t having experiences, we’re buying events, and we have to re-sell those events to others in order for them to have value.
That isn’t true.
For some reason, whether the Tumblr community or the micro-communities know it or not, oddly I feel like here, there’s more resistance to that paradigm than anywhere else. Either that or I’m projecting it but if I’m happy to. Maybe that’s what I’m here selling. Maybe I’m selling it to myself. It doesn’t really matter, tho.
I’m comforted by the fact that of all the social media platforms, the Tumblr community is still here, posting away, regardless of who sees it or not, and in spite of some truly horrendous shit that may honestly be inclusive of this wall of damn text, there’s still a bunch of people who really are alright.
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weilongguo · 7 years ago
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 http://brooklynrail.org/2017/03/artseen/AK-Burns-Shabby-But-Thriving
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