#it's not my fault the brainworms made me do it lol

[mattzerella-sticks]

Thinking about one of the core themes of Everything, Everywhere, All At Once and - not to do this but since it's kind of 'my thing' lol - my mind wandered with strings to try and connect it to Supernatural and how the finale truly just - just dropped the ball because -

*SPOILERS AHEAD*

Because the message of "there are an infinite amount of realities so nothing matters which is why everything matters" ties exactly to the struggle Dean was facing in the last season (though in the case of Supernatural there was someone to blame instead of the inherent randomness of the universe) and literally how both Dean and Evelyn spent most of the arc of the narrative fighting but in the end it wasn't fighting that saved the universe but love and kindness (and they were reminded by their loves who they just so happened to end up with due to the randomness of the universe - the thing that Chuck probably hates, it's his everything bagel lol). And the fact that Eveyln got to have that happiness in the ordinary and we’re left with the idea (or at least I was) that things are going to be okay and they’ll work out. Whereas in the finale Dean gets to that point of realization only for the ‘randomness’ of death to come and claim him or whatever in a way that kind of undercuts the journey (which we ALL have discussed to death lol). Like, we know Dean will die someday I think having it end like that, with the showing of it, was just meh. Even if they wanted to end it with a hunt and it’s the brothers sitting on the trunk of the Impala sharing a beer like “yeah we’re back to business even with Chuck gone”, it would have been a better button on the show then... that. Like maybe they will die during a hunt but that’s up to speculation.

And then there's the Cas and Wayden parallels, like the speech Wayden gave Evelyn in the alleyway when she was in the parallel universe where she was a famous movie star is a Cas thesis statement for sure. And also the reason why Cas's endgame should have been becoming human.

And like in Everything, Everywhere, All at Once, it starts with a divorce and ends with a reunion once Evelyn sees past her own stuff and sees Wayden for who and what he truly is and realizes she's been ignoring what's right in front of her, preoccupied with her own 'unhappiness' and 'unfulfillment' and -

I didn't expect this to be an essay but to any SPN fans go watch Everything, Everywhere, All at Once because it is not only a good movie it makes the DeanCas brainworms v v happy

[lloydfrontera]

honestly, it's javier's fault that lloyd pushes himself so hard to solve Every Problem Ever. in the cremo city arc he had a sense of proportion like "giant monster out of my jurisdiction" but after he overcame that it's like "self-preservation who, i'm gonna give it my all to save everyone bc I'm the real protagonist now" lol.

honestly??,,, yeah. yeah,,,

lloyd was so down to not get involved in all of that he was totally realistic about his actual abilities and he was completely ok with leaving the responsibility to others.

that all went out the window when he realized that 1. "oh i have javier with me i'll just throw him at the problem and we'll be fine :D", 2. "oh no, i actually do care a lot about everyone here and i need to help them", 3. "oh shit if i don't solve every single problem that pops out everything i worked for will go down the drain and all my loved ones will die" and 4. "i gotta do it all on my own because if i tell javier he'll die for me and i cannot allow that"

which is a hell of a bicycle ride downhill to make in terms of self-preservation instincts

and like?? i hadn't quite thought about it like that but you're so right??? like up to that point you could maybe argue that javier was still the protagonist of the plot, because despite everything lloyd had already done for the estate, it was still not quite "world's main character, the universe bends to your will" level y'know? but after cremo, when lloyd delivered the final hit to the gigatitan, right after javier failed to kill it by himself?? it was over for them, there wasn't coming back from it. or if there was, lloyd completely missed the exit sign.

and it was thanks to javier being so goddamn stubborn about saving people that lloyd got dragged into the main plot. had it not been for javier refusing to leave without trying to help, lloyd would've probably stuck to his guns and laid low until things calmed down. he was completely convinced that he was just,,, a guy. hardworking yes, but not nearly strong enough to take down a monster like that. but javier insisted on fighting and what was lloyd supposed to do? leave him behind? lose his best asset?? just let him die like that???

so he goes and kills the gigatitan.

and after that their dynamic shifts completely. it's no longer javier running into danger and lloyd following him reluctantly, but lloyd risking his life trying to solve every new problem that comes up and javier asking him not to do it and then following him when he inevitably does it anyway.

i think there's a lot more factors that helped shift lloyd's perspective in what he can and can't do (along with something that he simply,,, doesn't allow himself to be unable to do. like there's somethings that are just lloyd going "actually i'm gonna do this because it needs to be done. i'm not asking if it's possible i am saying i'm gonna do it" which is,,,, crazy but we'll get to that later) but i don't think i had ever made the connection between cremo and javier and all of this.

fascinating

thank you nonnie for sharing this with me as you can see it completely woke up the brainworms <333

[brw]

002 — ScarletVision (it’s ur brand I HAD to 💖)

When I started shipping them

Honestlyyy I cant remember </3 they just have given me brainworms for the past 5 or so years n I have to deal w/ it <3 I guess I just thot that Vision was cool n they're such an iconic pairing that you sort of have to come across them at some point

My thoughts

ONE of the premier comic book relationships. theyre iconic theyre groundbreaking theyre so special and dramatic and have my whole heart. i can't personally think of a single relationship that has the range they do. theyre ur embarrassing het parents theyre the friendship of a gay man and lesbian they are a t4t lesbian power couple they are having a fight in a car park they are star crossed lovers whos fates are entertwined and the fact that their romance happened goes against all odds. they r so special.

What makes me happy about them

the fact that they STILL love each other they still are very close friends they made a LIFE together and they remember and respect that and love each other for it and even though theyre much different now they still have so much respect for one another i love their constant growth. strangers to being so fragily in love with each other to becoming stronger + standing by one another as they become the best versions of themselves, building a life together away from the avengers, the tragedy that struck them and the fact that they managed to rebuild past that and remain good friends. they r SO. thinking about them daily. they were KIDS IN LOVE they didnt deserve this :(

What makes me sad about them

everything john byrne did </3 set the WORST prescent for them it makes me so enraged that ppl still use it as evidence they shouldn't have been together they were SO in love prior to that vision got violated against their will and thats not their fault!!! n the fact that people can't let them rest.... WEIRD WRITERS R NOT THESE FICTIONAL CHARACTERS RESPONSIBILITY PLEASE STOP ACTING LIKE IT IS! SOBBING.

Things done in fanfic that annoys me

definitely ppl who recontextualise their relationship to be manipulative or abusive on vision's part saw that kind of idea in the 616 SV tag n i was so :/ just. dont use the tag lol. anyway finding anything centered on them that isn't mcu based is ridiculously hard so. that ig. vision with binary pronouns. i struggle a lot if u couldn't tell.

Things I look for in fanfic

genderqueer vision at the TOP of that list but definitely like,,, stuff that has clear references i guess. like i like some continuity i like being able to tell which comic issue it happened during i like being Specific!! uhhhh wanda being explictly jewish in like holiday celebrations is always a plus :0000 and if the avengers r there definitely a non mcu lineup. where r jan and hank.

My wishlist

ngl not sure what this means but assuming it means like, wishes for them, i guess uhhh. polyamory. literally it is 2022 no more ship wars. they r dating everyone. my wish is that they get back together but have an open / poly relationship.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other

DEFINITELY scarletvoodoo & visionmantis. wanda & jericho r SO SO SO soft they are so important scarletvision endgame but i do actually need more content of them so badly. there is so much more to explore how does jericho vibe w/ tommy & billy!! they were moving in together what does their house look like!! what is their morning routine!!! please let me know!!and visionmantis bc they are just also so soft.... autistic nonbinary lesbian 4 autistic nonbinary lesbian. she is green they r red it is a perfect combo. they understand each other on a deeper level, like they understand each other's emotions & outlook more than other ppl n i really want that explored. they only broke up canonically bc vision could not get pregnant!! we can fix that its the future. bring them back to me.

My happily ever after for them

AGAIN polyamory. they have so many hands. getting back together getting remarried but like. explictly as their updated selves. we CANNOT regress we need to look forward it has to be brought out of respect for what their pasts r and what their futures would look like together has to be a writer that actually cares abt them please nothing to do w/ wendyshow i could not handle it. i know it will not happen in a way that i want but i can dream!!

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