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bare1ythere · 1 year

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I need to hang out with someone in person or I think i might go insane

#shut up me #AND IM GOING TO. SOON.#I just. AUGHHHH #I wish there was another presence in my dorm room that i could just coexist around #yknow at home I like being able to pop out of my room regularly n talk to my family/pet my dog then go back up #here im just. in my room by myself #dark cause im keeping the heat out #go to class where i dont talk to anyone for 3 hours and try my best #go back to my dorm where i sit by myself #its depressing as hell #im sitting here too unmotivated to talk to people on discord #its so beautiful outside and I love how [CITY REDACTED] looks in the summer #but its an exhausting feeling to feel like im doing it all by myself #I need to parallel play with someone NOW #Checked if the anime club was doing artist meet ups like they do during the year #and they are. over discord. which makes sense #but if i was gonna do that Id just draw with people on my danganronpa v3 discord server #because I know them WAY better than i do the people at my local anime club #sigh #at least im hanging out with friends on friday and saturday #stave off the brain worms

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corpsentry · 2 months

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a glass sun 1/2

#my art #my stuff #this is really fucking long so im gonna have to break it up into multiple reblogs #(howling) WAUGHHHHHHH #i love aishang by xiaoshiguniang #i love to implicate my alma mater in my art about being gay in the shittiest most conservative corner of singaporean society #by some terrible trick of fate i ended up in the conservative chinese christian cishet circuit from primary school to end of hs #obviously i am not most of these things but there i was. Depressed #and there i was after that at Liberal Arts College. the 4 years i spent there were a clusterfuck #but like a good and outrageous and lively clusterfuck #and i graduated in may this year and when i came back it was for the first time in 10 months. it was like. what da hell #like i love being here in specific ways but there is also the pain of being seen as something you're not constantly #can i blame them? i ask myself this every day. for most of my ex classmates and relatives i Am the only not cis person they know #idk my lottery number was bad this corner of society really is that bad #and so its like. idk dawg anyway i aint offering solutions but u get it like it fucks with your head to be misgendered either which way 24/#but to leave them behind would be to leave the only people who knew me for the first 19 years behind. and thats a lot of my life #i am 23!!!!!! ough #anyway. whatever. if u liked it i have a ko-fi #reblogos appreciated

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strawbie-doodle · 6 months

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havent drawn all of them in a WHILE ✸

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sunlit-mess · 4 months

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sick(?)

#messyr #doodle #vent art #?? well not really! just skl #coping through drawing bc its what keeps me from rotting in bed #my body cant keep up fjdshzhl and i just feel worse every time i try to 'function' even as basic tasks it makes me want to throw up AAAAH #this artist does not KNOW how to take care of themselves help help help help fsdjxhf #how am i supposed to fkin tell my dad nor my relatives im just so- PHYSICALLY- and MENTALLY TIRED without it perceived as lazy or an excuse #same goes to my professors bc ive been missing out ALOT in school lately and my classmates are also probably wondering where the hell I am #( group activities etc etc i want to km s - I've failed TWO MAJOR SUBJECTS BC OF HOW IVE BEEN DOING-AAAAAAAAAH)#if not physically then its my noisy ass brain that spirals me into depressive episodes where I literally cant do jackshit about

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3-aem · 7 months

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fem suguru tiddies. do we want them or nah

#badonkers are on my bucket list #but i only know jjk #i only watched and read this series #thats a lie i read part of oyasumi punpun it depressed the hell out of me and i stopped #and then forgot to cancel my viz sub so they earned a whole 2.99 off of me #thats also a lie i also read demon slayer in its entirety before even reading the shibuya arc in jjk #i technically know more about what happened in that series than i do my home turf #im the type of person that in a dish saves the meat till the very end #and will fill up on side dishes first

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fluoresensitive · 4 months

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Black kids who got beat as children and were told it wasn't that bad because their own parents were beat worse ... How's therapy going? Does the weed help? We gonna go out and drink tonight, or just listen to Solange?

#im laughing but its depressing as hell

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eyestrain-addict · 3 months

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Every time I start thinking about how we don't know who louis truly is because he doesn't even know who he truly is, I go a little more insane.

#staring at my own artwork (the shattered mirror one) just thinking #iwtv is the longest most drawn out commentary on the long term effects of parentification if you think about it #i was gonna write a meta about how armand and louis are a match made in hell in terms of what they need á la control in a relationship #but i realized i atleast know what armand wants even if it is contradictory- but i have no idea what louis wants #the only thint i know for certain is that louis wants kids. he wants a family. and armand def aint giving him that #leaving him to suffer thru postpartum depression on his own... youre a scoundrel armand.#i still hold fast that louis loved that lestat protected him. that lestat had such violent retribution for those who wronged him #armand... doesnt seem to have that. maybe its him thinking louis needs control over his own life... but its probably not that #louis and armand relationship confounds me #iwtv #insane ramblings #interview with the vampire #ldpdl #loumand relationship complexities are just something im gonna have to take the autistic L on cause i dont get them #louis de pointe du lac

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wackydoggs · 10 months

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season 2 of clone high might have killed joanfk and spat on its corpse but i still love this ship with all of my heart, even if the show does not LOL

#clone high #clone high art #clone high fanart #jfk clone high #clone high jfk #joan clone high #joan of arc clone high #clone high joan #clone high joan of arc #my art #i have missed them so so so much #i even started working on one of my old clone high fanfics from 2020 that i lowkey abandoned LOL #honestly might post abt that fanfic once the new chapters done #but anyway #i adore them so much and i will never get over how poorly the show did them #i hate getting depressed over a ship of clones of historical figures bc its weird BUT I CANT HELP IT I MISS SEASON ONES POTENTIAL FOR THEM #i liked season 2 but im also lying if i said i do not slightly resent it LOL #in my head there are like two versions of the clone high canon #one where season two never happened and joanfks potential as a good ship stays cemented forever #and one where season two does happen (in which case i ship the hell out of some jfk/abe and jfk/confucious LOL)#but yeah basically joanfk is my roman empire and shipping them is my canon event

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squeakadeeks · 1 month

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theres an irony to drawing the transient characters in my physics class since i intend transient to be an infotainment/a physics education series....so in a meta way they are serving their purpose

#ive always thought of transient like cyberchase but with advanced physics and gay people in their 30's with manic depression #my art #ive been chuffed since all this week ive been off my art game #i know its because im stressed and exhausted as HELL but still

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blueggrass · 2 months

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(hey there, post-rant-clarity me here, this is super spoilers if you haven't gotten to the end of tem book 4 look away)

HELLO? HELLO I JUST FINISHED EMPIRE OF IVORY AND NO ONE WAS GOING TO TELL ME???? HELLO!??!??? IM- im.

the way Bonaparte was like "hey man :\ you're kind of our hero and i don't mind harboring u and your platonic soulmate dragon that we would otherwise do anything for to have in the war effort, do u want a house?" and Laurence is like "no i would like to go back to England to be hanged, thank you sir." LAURENCE WHEN I CATCH YOU- WHEN I CATCH YOU LAURENCE- WHEN I-

#i miss granby bring him home pls #he would NOT let this fly #and tharkay #i know we're not done with that bitch yet where the hell is he #NAOMI NOVIK IM IN YOUR WALLS #temeraire #william laurence #UPDATE:#i've started book 5 and i'm so... so depressed #i understand the people when they talk about how fucked up Laurence is now #he's fighting his demons and his demons are british loyalty #something something - temeriare's unwavering loyalty to Laurence and Laurence's destructive loyalty to the crown - something #praying-🙏PRAYING. that his crew come back together eventually...#guys🥹its gonna be okay right?

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frunbuns · 1 month

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I think one of the saddest things about this season is that during the final episode I just wanted it to end so I could get it over with

#season so bad I wanted to put it out of its misery 😭😭😭#couldn’t even bring myself to be sad at the ending bc I was so overcome w the felling of 'what the hell was that'#the umbrella academy #tua #tua season 4 #tua s4 #tua spoilers #umbrella academy #mine #the good stuff couldn’t outweigh all the rest for me by the end and that is just really depressing for me ):#i should've been devastated that this was the last time I'd see these characters #that there'd be nothing new after that #i should've not wanted it to end

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mukuberry · 6 months

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Haven't seen this posted here yet- someone made a milgram fan song for Nervous!

#its really cute sounding :) the lyrics r depressing as hell but thats to be expected with this girl;;#itd be so nice if we got more milgram fan songs... anyone in milgramblr know how to make music 😁?#milgram #milgram novel #nervous milgram #naki kawai #vocasong #Youtube

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synthshenanigans · 1 year

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the fact there's a parallel universe out there where he actually named the channel "sneeb" instead of "chonny jash" terrifies me.

#like “man did you see sneebs upload today?” “aw yea it was good as hell i love sneebs voice”#“man sneebs song really hit me today it got me rlly emotional”#“damn sneeb rlly knows how to make a good melody”#“did you know sneebs album is a metaphor for depression?” like i do not want to live in that world that name is so unserious #like no one would EVER take you seriously #a joke name off of johnny cash is one thing but like....*sneeb*#i don't wanna be the me that talks about some guy named sneeb all day #i dont want on cover duty like your name was fuckin sneeb in my song man #i cant #also i almost typed sneeb snogs instead of sneeb songs #the evil chonny jash is sneeb #sneebs shitty sophisticated syllabus #its like 3am bro idk what im saying #chonny jash

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bl00dalchemist · 1 year

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Ah, love~

#il dottore #scaramouche #dottoscara #genshin impact #genshin impact fanart #fanart #doodles #they are so good for my brain #they live rent free in my head #anyway im gonna think about a modern au where they are in a fucking office just bc i think its funny as hell #if anyone got ideas throw them at me am bored and depressed

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ra-vio · 11 months

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im supposed to be studying

#resident evil #resident evil 4 #ada wong #I ACCIDENTALLY MADE THIS CANVAS SO SMALL SO I HAD TO RESIZE AND NOW ITS BLURRY AHHHHHHHH #its fine but ITS NOT FINE IT BOTHERS ME SO MUCH LOL #i had to switch mice for this. the other one was so slippery. i dunno if its because its wireless or whatever. that boy go NYOOM #changing the settings didnt help.#anyway. last week i finished the mercenaries and got leons rpd outfit. it was hell. it wasnt but i was in a rush so it was #i think after everything my favorite is still ada cause that grapple gun is everything. the hardest for me was krauser #krauser should have been the easiest cause you just knife everything but i kept slashing dynamite and had to redo the village like 10 times #it was absolute ass. he's the most broken character why would they do that to me #and then immediately after i started on my separate ways professional S+#its funny someone said the S+ was harder than base game. base game's pro S+ burnt me out so bad #i didnt touch the game for months afterward. separate ways S+ was a cake walk after. you dont even have to fight krauser ovo)b #the most difficult parts are probably the double garradors and the countdown to get to leon at the end #immediately after i got all my achievements I was plunged into a depression like no other. plus i had a discrete math midterm on friday #i am SO SAD. WHO WAS I BEFORE SEPARATE WAYS #i did the same silly thing i did when i drew Link. the shine in her hair says 'Ada' because i have to derive joy from somewhere

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lemongogo · 9 months

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can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me.#as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists.#and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh......#i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it.#i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

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