#its hard to explain and i Wont

[t4t-apexeclipse]

i wanna write fanfiction but there are Reasons im struggling to do so :(

[creativesparkz]

i think, therefore i am.

[crunchy-rocc]

three of them

@anon-lemon

[schizospec-culture-is]

schizospec culture is having disorganized thinking without a [consistent] speech component (according to others around you), but because your thinking is disorganized you can never actually tell if your speech is making sense. you always get nervous making long essays and posts talking about things because you always feel like it's incomprehensible, but then people reblog it saying it was the most easy to understand thing they'd seen on the topic, and you're so so surprised. but then when you do experience disorganized speech, everyone is put off and concerned by how you're talking, which is annoying because the disorganization isn't new, it's just that it's showing outwardly for once. constantly feeling like you're not making sense because your thinking doesn't make sense, being surprised when people say your speech makes sense to them, and being annoyed when people say it's not making sense or it's stilted or confusing as though it's new because it Isn't, it's just easier for you to see for once.

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[puppyeared]

whenever someone asks me for help or advice i want to beam all my lived experience and advice that helped me through it directly into their mind to try and spare them as much pain and stress as possible, but because i cant actually do that what ends up happening is i dump everything i know related to that topic hoping something helps them like

[fraternum-momentum]

apartment hunting lead me to a job interview tomorrow, wish me luck 🙏😭

[starrysharks]

don't hop aboard that scheme of hers; wouldn't you prefer... a lie-ridden side, full of dark secrets to hide - and yet, revealing them is our talent and pride!

[rapidhighway]

Hey being aroace is already so hard to describe and explain

[jewishdainix]

Most of the i/p related posts ive reblogged are very much aimed at international audiences (which unfortunately means its mostly usa centered. Like half of the posts I see israel are talking about the us. For some reason) but despite being considered by some a Nich Internet Microcelebrity me just posting stuff on tumblr isnt doing much so I am starting to look into activist groups within here because after everything that have happened I can not imagine my future not at least somewhat involving taking part of activism

[carpthecarp]

Sorry but I will not hear you out if you hate on Dick Grayson for hard choices he had to make while under extreme pressure and then turn around and say that Jason Todd did no wrong and was an innocent baby.

(I am saying this as someone who adores Jason)

[kaurwreck]

for the ask game: LILAC CHARCOAL AND RASPBERRY

anon this is so sweet 😭

[ask game provided below for reference; if you'd like to play, please reblog from OP here:]

[moodr1ng]

ive been binging julia seranos online essays before bed and its definitely v good stuff thats bringing up a lot of new thoughts and connecting some dots in ways that i think i kinda had an understanding of but not rly a concrete and clear framework of, which is cool, but i think its also giving me weird ass dreams

[g0thsoojin]

📓🦇

[tinylittlebab]

ill be skinny. it will happen. ive been trying for so long now. once it was just trying to eat less and be smaller but not much real focus on my physical appearance. now its all about that. 11 years of my ed and 7 years of wanting what i want now. i dont live with my parents anymore. i have more control. i will achieve it.

there was a time where id eat 300-700 consistently. ill get that back. i will.

[cringelordofchaos]

I HAVE FOUND MY ANSWERS. FINALLY. HOW DID I NOT THINK OF THIS EARLIER. WOOOOOOOOOO

[gideongrovel]

so the dream I just had,,,, my subconscious thoughts are a butthead,,, like you're telling me I can have a dream where my OP s/i is hanging out with 2 other moots OP inserts INCLUDING BOTH THEIR F/OS BUT MY OWN DAMN F/OS CANT BE BOTHERED TO SHOW UP?!?!? lmaoooooo I swear my subconscious hates me I never ever have dreams with my f/os but at this point it is just ridiculous,,, like I have 4 characters I ship with from the series and not a single one could pop up?! 😂😂😂😂 my buddies f/os get to show up, and a moment even happened in the dream where I'm waiting for my moots to meet up in the location the dream is taking place at,, and I'm like cockblocking the mutuals f/os from talking to the other canon character since it's a popular ship to some in the fandom 🙄 some how my subconscious knew that was something we don't want lol but like my insert was just like vibing and we're having fun,,,, I'm just hanging out as a fifth wheel to my mutuals and their f/os on this group pizza date 😂

like it was still a fun dream since I love my mutuals ships, but damn that's wild to have dreams of others f/o and s/i together but not my own 💀