songs? my fav song lately is Love You Better by GOT7, I think would make a great love scenario. also iu "can't love you anymore" would make such a great angst!!!! maybe something with sana?? 👀
‘Can’t Love You Anymore (Twice: Sana)
genre: angst,(slightly suggestive)
requested: yes :) - word count: 817
There is this thing about love. The thing you won’t usually see in the movies, or laid out in song, nor do people like to speak on it.
Love was all about admiring, adoring, touching, excitement. That was what you thought going into it.
Now you wonder if you would have been saved from this feeling if you knew that love could simply fade the way it did.
Would you have cherished every kiss with her? Held her tighter against your chest in bed? Looked into her eyes longer or more? If you knew it would end this way, would you even try at all?
It started beautiful as ever, an innocent fairy tale filled with whispers of sweet nothings, tentative hand holding, goosebumps and butterflies. It all felt significant then, but somehow it only seems like puppy love now. Maybe that’s all you felt for her…or that’s all she felt for you?
You both had told the story of when you first met hundreds of times. So often that you could finish each other’s sentences. You saw her, your Sana, for the first time in the high school hallways. You met each others eyes and the rest was history. It was a story that others admired, envied even. You and her were perfect to each other. Perfect for each other.
Years later you had made yourselves a home. The place where you both found your comfort, snuggling up to each other after a long day of whatever. The place where you both could rest. Where you both could just be together.
But life moves fast and time sometimes vanishes like sand in between your fingers if you don’t pay well enough attention.
Your home, where your hearts would usually meet, slowly turned into a place where you only saw each other on the others way out. Life quickly transformed from you both jumping into each others arms after a long day to giving one another a quick peck goodbye when one of you just came home and the other was just leaving. Texting and joking around with each other while at your seperate jobs was replaced by singular texts of one asking the other to pick up some milk on the way home.
When did it get like this?
In the few moments that you could spent together, you would sometimes give her a look from across the kitchen table - one she skilfully avoided. Her cutlery hitting her plate would be the only sound in the otherwise quiet room, but in your heart you hoped that if you thought it loud enough she would hear you. I don’t feel our love anymore.
Maybe she did. If anything still stayed the same from the past, then she could read you like an open book anyway - but if so, she said nothing.
Only in one of those rare moments in which you both craved intimacy, you’d find any sort of connection to each other. You try to speak, but kissing each other is easier. You try to feel by touch alone.
You would hold Sana down, kissing her and touching her in places that would once make her weak in the knees, just so you could hear those three words from her again in that way, a real way.
Anything would beat the routine “love you, bye.” at the end of a call.
But no matter what you did, those words didn’t come, and you couldn’t blame her. You understood her and understood what was happening between you.
After, you’d go back to your “normal” again. Trying to ignore it, you both went back to a peck for goodbye, a peck for goodnight, silent car rides and quiet dinners. This was all your story had become reduced to.
Whenever she didn’t avoid your eyes, you would see the past in them. You would see yourself, way back then, happier with her or just happy in general. You were confronted with memories that reminded you; you don’t like what this is anymore, you don’t like the person you are anymore…not like this anyway.
You sighed away the thought every time though. It might get better tomorrow, you’d think. We might talk it out in the morning.
Who knows how long you could have kept your downfall going? Maybe a day, a week, a year, or into eternity. But when she finally called you and shakily spoke the words, “I don’t think we’re in love anymore.” You couldn’t help but agree, no tears left to cry anymore.
So there it was. Your favourite person, the light of your life, turned back into a stranger. The woman who was once your crush, your muse and your true love felt a million miles away, even when she slept in your bed.
Therefore the next time, when someone asks you about love, you’ll give them the decency to at least be honest about all of it.
Love fades. Slowly, and then all at once.
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Learning Languages With Hotel Del Luna
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안영하세요, I've been on hiatus a bit because I'm been ill. But I'm back now and I'm really happy because I've basically found a way to hack my language learning to the point I can actually use it to not only maintain but also improve my Mandarin level (the language I really don't want to lose)
你们好! 我没有写那么多因为我生病了。但是,我会过,和我很喜欢因为我发现能侵截我的语言学习的办法。这让我不但保持我的中文水平,而且提高我的普通话能力,因为我非常不想失去这个语。
Ok, so Hotel Del Luna is a bit old at this point but I wanted to use something where I didn't feel any time pressure because I'm using it to learn languages.
对,现在,满月路管比较老,但是,我想过我没有感觉任何时间压力的事,因为我用它学语言。
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Conveniently, netflix has the option to add simplified chinese subtitles. As I already know mandarin, this means I can watch in Korean and follow along in simplified chinese. I'm semi fluent but it is still pretty hard at this point, so I'm also watching at a reduced speed. Just not so slow that it looks weird or is impossible to watch.
随手,netflix 有加普通话字幕的机会。因为我已经学到足够普通话,这让我看到这个电视剧在韩语,同时,蹑踪(niezong)用普通话。我一半流利,但是,还艰难在这个时点; 所以我也用更慢的速度。就是不太慢,否则看一下比较怪,不能看到。
The process is when I come across mandarin vocab I don't know, I look it up and note it down, creating a vocab list. At my current mandarin level, I'm roughly able to figure out the meanings of words based off the radicals in the characters, so I don't need so many repetitions to remember the vocab.
当我发现不知道的普通话词汇时候,我的办法包括看一看在词典和写到,创造词汇目录用普通话。我现代汉语的水平让我弄懂(nongdong)词汇的意思用汉子的偏旁,所以,我不需要爱那么多重复记得这个词汇。
This vocab is then serving as a list I can look up in Japanese and Korean (my two target languages!) These ones are a completely different story as they're totally new to me.
这次会然后为我能在韩语,日本语(我两个目标语言)检索的目录。这都是很不一样的故事,因为她们对我完全新的。
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Along with Vietnam, Korea and Japan are part of what has been known historically as the sinosphere, a geoup of countries which have been influenced by china. But this doesn't mean the languages are similar at all!
跟越南,韩国,日本,都是中国领过国的一部分,也被中国影响。但是,他们的语言非常不一样。
By combining them here, I've tried to use the show as a theme for my studies and for compiling vocab, not due to any similarities between the languages. However it seems to be working, because I'm genuinely feeling motivated to study for the first time in a while.
为了结合他们这里,我尝试用电视剧为学习题目,汇集词汇,但是这不由于任何期间语言的相思。然而,看来工作的很好,因为我第一个时间感觉激励学习。
☆ THE VOCAB LIST ☆
한국어 🇰🇷
나무 - tree
닫다 - to shut
잊다 - to forget
즐겁게 하다 - to entertain
특별한 - special
운명 - fate
빈둥거리다 - to loiter
정영 - passion (as in enthusiasm or excitement)
열망 - passion (as in sexual desire or romantic attraction)
강렬한 - intense
日本語 🇯🇵
術 、 しゅ - tree
閉じる、とじる - to shut
忘れる、わすれる - to forget
楽しむ、たのしむ - to entertain
特別な、とくべつな - special
運命、うんめい - fate
彷徨う、さまよう - to loiter
情熱、じょうねつ - passion (enthusiasm, enjoyment)
欲望、よくぼ - passion (romantic or sexual desire)
激しい、はげしい - intense
普通话 🇨🇳 🇭🇰
树 - shu - tree
闭上嘴 - bi shang zui - shut your mouth
遗忘 - yi wang - forget
戴 - dai - to entertain
殊 - shu- special
缘分 - yuan fen - fate
徘徊 - pai huai - to loiter
痴情 - chi qing - passion (romantic or sexual with connotations of foolishness coming from the first character, meaning 'stupid')
强烈 - qiang lie - intense
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