#ive already made it through like 16 albums in about two days though

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i finally got to see the national live!!

so after 6 years of falling in love with the national, i finally got to see them live yesterday!! this is gonna be super long lmao

since the national never come to my home country during tour, when they announced their tour i booked the tickets without even knowing whether i was returning to manchester or even the uk. so when i got my offer to return i was relieved af lmao. a once in a lifetime opportunity was worth the risk and anxious waiting LOL

anyway

seeing them live was like a whole new world for me. when bryce came out to perform with the opening act (who were very good!) i was so overwhelmed. this guy, part of the band i love so much, was right in front of my face!

(like literally, cause i ran in after getting my merch and managed to snag a place right at the barrier!)

ive watched tonnes of their live performances on video, but nothing prepared me for how great they were. since bryce was right in front of me i ended up paying most attention to him.. but then when hed play the piano aaron took his place and id end up paying attention to aaron... sorry matt, scott and bryan!!!!

of course matt is such a character that hed command your attention some way or another. i did make myself look at scott and bryan at points in time bc i love all of them! i found it super cute how scott and bryan (and at one point bryce) would hold like a shaker instrument and use it when theyre not playing their own instrument. its like theyre always gonna be involved somehow lmao.

at the beginning it felt a little detached compared to the bastille show i went to last year. but i dont blame them or think its bad, cause at bastille’s dan would stand close to the stage while matt prefers to hang about with the band. its just two different performers. it kind of made me think that i was watching the national perform in their own world.. until matt stopped midway through empire line and asked security to help someone.

at that point it kind of hit me that wow, actually we're in the same space! like im not actually watching them in their own world, like im there too! and theyre not in their own space either, theyre watching us too! and of course, how nice of matt to stop because someone wasnt okay 😭 he started all over again once he made sure they were okay. by the end he said "just some problems with dehydration. stay cool!"

and he threw a plastic pint across the theatre and i got some white wine on me. LOL. at another point he threw a red solo cup so hard i think it hit the opposite wall cause there was a super loud sound. then he went on to say "...one day..." during the last song he brought out a bottle of white wine or prosecco on stage but said he said couldn’t open it because it was corked and it was hard to open those on stage with his teeth(!!!) he asked for another bottle and smashed the corked one on the ground. i love drunk matt so much.

bryce is so interesting to watch tbh. he keeps changing guitars lmao. i got so excited every time he brought out the blue one, bc i had a super clear view of his bow hanging from his mic stand and i was like "vanderlyle?????"

in the end they didnt play it, but no matter! they played so many good songs that i cant complain. my jaw hit the floor when they played hard to find cause i wasnt expecting that at all! i kept saying "oh my god" when i heard the chords lmao. it was so beautiful. i remembered the interview where one of the twins said they think hard to find is one of the most beautiful songs theyve ever written. i felt so honoured that i could listen to it live! they also played this is the last time - my favourite off twfm! i think a lot of people in the theatre love that song too! we were all shouting “it takes a lot of pain to pick me up” together. 

of course they played standard classics too. it felt so good to sing along to bloodbuzz and i need my girl. i kind of expected they were gonna play england since it was their first show in england for this tour so when aaron started playing the chords i was super happy. mr november was the best in terms of crowd involvement, you could hear everyone shouting I WONT FUCK US OVER together. conversation 16, too.. everyone screaming "CAUSE IIIIMM EEEVILLLL" was so much fun. slow show and apartment story were so great live as well. singing “SO WORRY NOT ALL THINGS ARE WELL” was so wonderful. during fake empire the twins did the guitar thing as they always do. i was so happy! 

tbh when i was there i mostly felt out of place since most of the people there were white hipsters and they came with their friends/partners so i barely talked to anyone, but singing all the classics live made me forget all of that awkwardness.

the new album was good live too. carin at the liquor store is my fave off the album and it sounded so beautiful live. matt went one octave higher during turtleneck and he sounded so clear. i was actually so surprised at how clear and almost rasp-free he sounded! we shouted “great uncle valentine jester” during day i die, it was so great!  they dedicated apartment story and born to beg to a lady who took care of them while they were in manchester. the opening act luluc came out and sang with them during born to beg. it was beautiful and perfect! ive been falling in love more and more with born to beg with each listen, and the live performance really sealed the deal with how much i love it.

terrible love was the last song off the setlist and it’s my first favourite song from the national so listening to it live was like coming full circle of some sort. during that song (and mr. november) matt went out and leaned over the barriers so that people could reach out and hug him. during terrible love he was super close to me, but i was too scared to touch him cause so many people were clinging onto him already but he was literally right there! he also stood at the edge pretending to fall from the other side. a member of the audience hugged his knees to stop him from falling!

bryce kind of smiled at my general direction at one point when he was setting up his guitar. the girl next to me blew kisses at him, i wish i did or said something too, but honestly i just stood there and melted into a puddle. during fake empire bryce went to play the piano so aaron was on my side of the stage and he waved at my general direction when they finished. a double whammy! matt came over to our side of the stage during turtleneck and screamed the chorus at us. it was so surreal. waiting for two hours outside in the cold and rain was definitely worth the place right in the front.

of course i have a soft spot for the twins, so seeing them live was the best part of my night. bryce (and at some points aaron) being in front of me was a dream come true. it’s no doubt that bryce is fantastic at guitar, but hearing him live and actually picking up the way he plays with my own ears was really something else. not only his playing, but also how he was using all the different guitars and using the mics on them and all the different pedals - it was all like a work of genius. i didn’t really get to see aaron’s artistry since his stuff was on the opposite side of the stage and he played more piano (which was on his side of the stage) but i could clearly see him playing when matt stepped back and let the twins perform guitar together. i caught him smirking at bryce on multiple occasions. i ascended each time. 

it was obvious that bryce was the more shimmery, flashy player when it came to guitar, so i tried to distinguish their styles of piano too! maybe it’s just me, but i think aaron has a deeper sound and bryce has a sharper sound! maybe that’s why they take turns for specific songs. regardless, they were so great, playing together and separately. i admire them greatly since they have so many projects and interests and even though their musical interests differ, they end up intertwining. seeing them live really showed that tbh!

it was the best night of my life. i wish i could be going to today’s show as well, but unfortunately i don’t have the money for that! anyway, everything ive always dreamed of already came true when i managed to stand right in the front and watch the national in all their glory perform live. i never expected to be right in the front - literally at the barrier - but i was! and it was worth the two hour wait in the cold without any food (this was my fault for forgetting to eat before coming, but it was worth it tbh!). hopefully i’ll be able to go for another concert if possible because that was probably the best experience ive ever had.

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ASK MEE RIDICULOUSLY PERSONAL THINGSSSSSSSSSSSS YEEEEEEEEEEEE i love this shit

thanks for the ask anon, at this point im sure yall already know everything about me but hey whats a couple more questions c:

1.) what’s a song you depict with your childhood?

YIKES tough right off the bat huh? it would have to be the opening to digimon frontier ayyyyyyyyyy i still listen to that shit every fucking month. its that or disney’s hercules i can go the distance that shit was just MMMMMMM good shit2.) did you have a memorable childhood pet?

yep a blue and white love bird my family called quick silver we taught it to do adorable little tricks like pick up our pencils when we do homework and it rolls away3.) have you ever been drunk?

hehe yeah fun times4.) have you ever tried drugs?

yup! curious about trying more hard drugs but also i dont wanna get addicted or like idk die/get arrested5.) have you ever completely regretted what you’ve said?

ALL THE FUCKING TIME. infact at work i told a customer we didnt have a thing and the customer was like whats that right behind u, and it was the thing they were looking for i felt so stupid lmao6.) have you ever made someone cry?

yeah.7.) has someone ever made you cry?

yeah.8.) have you ever been in love? if so, describe the moment you knew it.

honestly idk if i ever have been in love. I would think that i have but yknow you never know what the future holds so looking back something in the past could pale in comparison to something in the future9.) which came first the chicken or the egg?

the chicken, evolved from some other bird10.) are you part of the lgbtq+ community? do you support them?

dunno if im part of the community by status but i wholeheartedly approve and support them. speaking just for myself though I just think I’m me and nothing else. whether im non binary or male or female or something else doesn’t matter to me. im attracted to who im attracted to, feel what i feel, and do what i want with a hint of salt. If plants can have like 10 000 genders or whatever, then anyone can be whatever they want unless its something fucked up like age fluid lmao if youre 60 youre 60 even if you have the “mind of a 14 year old”11.) how many siblings do you have?

412.) have you ever been in love with someone you couldn’t love?

yeah in fact just recently13.) are you a good cook?

fuck no. i fucking wish tho, not even a good cook i just wanna be able to copy recipes on tasty’s facebook page hahaha14.) what is your favorite tv show?

right now i dont have one and i definitely dont watch tv shows often unless you count anime then haikyuu!! or My hero Academia15.) what is the last movie you cried during?

i think it was a tyler perry movie something about a funeral and a family reunion honestly i cry when any movie has a really strong family sorta bonding specially if the family was broken at first and they all healed together and became closer as a result16.) what are songs you’ve cried to when you first heard them? (if any)

none, i did cry whe i was listening to wild wild love by GRL and pitbull for some reason? 17.) do you have a middle name?

nope i do have a nickname given to me by distant relatives18.) have you been out of your country?

yeah thankfully ive been out of canada multiple times19.) are you a chocolate fan or not?

love chocolate in fact im drinking hot chocolate right now, little cold going on so i need it20.) how many people have you kissed?

lips? less than 15, in general no matter where? couldnt count21.) what is your favorite album?

the only album i loved in its entirety has been marianas trench master piece theatre22.) what is your dream car?

2003 dodge viper23.) what is your lucky/favorite number?

i always wanted to be ironic and say 13 but i’ve kinda been leaning towards 10 like hinata’s jersey number24.) what is your favorite flower?

lilacs cuz the color25.) books or movies, why?

movies, less thinking for me26.) have you ever been on a blind date?

nope but i’d love to try it27.) has one of your friends ever backstabbed you?

yep28.) have you ever backstabbed one of your friends?

i dont think i have? not consciously.29.) what thing do you symbolize love with?

an act of self sacrifice or something handmade or personally tailored to the individual receiving30.) do you have neat handwriting?

i adore neat handwriting! its like a breath of fresh air, simple and precise to read, and it feels like you can read faster when it is31.) do you have a friend with benefits?

nope but i’d love to have one!32.) do you want a friend with benefits?

just said but yeah i’d love one!33.) if you could be anything in the world, what would you be?

A hero.34.) have you ever been blackout drunk?

nope but my body refuses to drink any more alcohol once i get to my good buzz point. like all alcohol makes me wanna throw up the second i get past the point its almost like my mind and body are two seperate beings lmao35.) have you ever met someone famous?

i think i have? one time when i went bowling with some relatives, there was a crowd gathering around this blonde dude who was playing house of the dead and this one guy in the crowd approached me saying “ do you know who he is? hes famous?” and then i blanked out after that because i just wanted to watch someone play and mentally check out for an hour36.) how many concerts have you been to?

3 concerts! all which were very fun !37.) which concerts have you been to?

one was an ed sheeran concert for his divide album, another was a marianas trench concert in klondike days edmonton, and the last was a country concert im not sure who it was my sister wanted me to go with her38.) do you have a hidden talent?

i can match any generation 1 pokemon just from their cries some generation 2 but beyond that only a handful from each other generation39.) what do you do when you’re stressed?

masturbate. honestly its the only sure fire thing i’ve done that clears my head for the longest time and relaxes me lmao40.) do you think money can buy love?

of course! just depends how you use it! like if youre just throwing money at random people like “hey love me” itll be fake, but if you say, pay off a struggling student’s loans in full and give em a good fresh start im sure theyll be grateful to you for years to come. or if you pay for someone to get super super expensive surgery so they can die from old age rather than a disease or something then yeah they’d love you forever41.) how old would you date?

honestly not sure, i havent really tried dating anyone a lot older than me i usually date within 4-5 years older or younger? though i dont think i’d see a problem dating someone 10 years older than me42.) have you ever done something illegal?

hehe. ye.43.) what is your biggest fear?

death. too long to elaborate44.) what is an unusual fear you have?

fear of what happens after death45.) can you drive?

nope but i plan to learn how to and take my exam within the next 2 ish months46.) do you believe in supernatural creatures?

of course! as many evolutions that were made common place theres bound to be evolutions that somehow spurred legends and mysteries47.) do you believe in karma?

of course! 100% of the time i expect some stranger to just walk up to me and start slapping me or punching me or throwing water or soda in my face for something i did, though i also prepare myself to say” okay i probably deserved that but can i ask why?”48.) what is one quality you need in your partner?

need to love physical affection, if not i dont think i can last with them, physical affection is so important to me its just as important as saying i love you, it like reassures me that theyre there with me in that moment and that theyre happy and just. physical stuff tells me a lot ok49.) do looks matter?

on first impression? oh hell yeah. keep in mind strictly first impression. im not gonna cut off a potential friendship or relationship because someones not my type or whatever i cut people off if they do something fucked up and horrible50.) does size matter?

to some people im not one of them51.) who is the last person you forgave?

I can’t really remember, i forgive people for small stuff all the time but with big personal mistakes i usually hold grudges52.) what is your favorite ice cream flavor?

French Vanilla53.) what languages can you speak besides english?

none but i plan to learn sign language eventually that and visaya54.) ever been on a plane?

yep! i’ve been out of the country so that definitely means by plane i dont know anyone who goes on roadtrips long enough to get out of the country55.) ever been on a boat?

yeah! i thought i’d be seasick but turns out i enjoy being on the water its kinda calming56.) is there anyone you’ve lost touch with that you wish you hadn’t?

yeah my childhood friend ralph, cool dude but our friend groups and interests just kinda diverged57.) are there any friendships you regret?

yeah..58.) are there any friendships you wish you could make?

oh hell yeah! there was this one girl who always ate at the same cafeteria as me and my friend group and i regret not inviting her over and being her friend59.) have you ever stayed awake for 24 (+) hours?

yeah! specially during summer it really sucks and i only do that when my mental state is at a record low self punishment i spose60.) have you ever walked outside after 12 am?

hell to the yeah! its the best! like a music video or adventure but it really just helps me clear my mind. oh wait i guess that kinda counts for the calms me down thing so late night walks and masturbating bahahaha61.) have you ever seen a sunrise completely through?

yep! one time with an ex girlfriend! we stayed from 2 am till 10 am i think singing songs and talking and cuddling on those big swings with a bowl at the bottom62.) are you scared of rollercoasters?

NO !!! I LOVE ROLLERCOASTERS!!!! im kind of an adrenaline junkie!63.) on a scale of 1-10 how stressed are you usually?

i personally feel like a 3 but thats probably because im already used to a 7 because of old issues i need sorted out that i’ve just kinda grown to live with the stress64.) do you have any plans this weekend?

considering its sunday? no, next weekend? im working65.) do you miss anyone right now?

yeah. i miss em a lot.66.) who do you wish you were talking to right now?

K,Z, and C i miss em67.) if you could have any superpower, what would it be?

the power to fly or have wings that can make me fly. I associate flying with true freedom. 68.) who is your favorite superhero?

All Might69.) are you dirty minded?

ridiculously70.) what is your favorite song from every decade starting at that 80’s?

im too lazy for that shit bro…71.) how many kids, if any, do you want?

2 preferably? 72.) who is your biggest OTP?

im not super into shipping just cause it can get pretty toxic but asami and korra73.) what is your favorite food?

aw man im too much of a carnivore to pick just one thing man. uhh fried chicken or this one pork dish my mom makes thats super easy to make its like canned beans with this orange sweet kinda sauce and pork belly slices and potato chunks omggggg i eat so much of that. the last time my mom made that i actually ate the whole thing and i had to make more for everyone else lmao74.) do you want to be married one day?

yeah. it’d be nice not to have to worry about being alone for the rest of my life75.) dogs or cats?

dogs are great and so are cats though i have more patience for cats than i do for dogs. dogs to me are like energetic little kids and thats fine as long as im not dealing with them for an extended period amount of time i get drained pretty easy. cats are like roommates show you love and attention when they want but arent opposed to keeping you company the whole day76.) do you drink enough water daily?

i have no fukcing clue i literally just drink water whenever i have an excuse to drink.77.) have you ever seen a shooting star?

not that i know of? like theres a few times i think i did but i wanna see one thats like unmistakably a shooting star or comet thatd be neat too78.) if you had the opportunity to go to the moon, would you?

not long term? yeah id love to, just to feel what zero g feels like and the view of earth

79.) how many best friends do you have?

3 ish……..80.) when was the last time you cried?

a few nights ago when they stopped talking to me i cried like a little baby lmao ahhhhhhhhhh yikes81.) have you ever laughed so hard you peed yourself?

nope82.) have you ever made anyone laugh so hard they peed?

i think? there was this one dude who literally thought everything i said was genuinely funny though to this day i have no idea if he was serious or not. i also have not seen that dude ever since83.) if you could travel any where in the world, where would you go?

Venice Italy.84.) what are 3 words you would use to describe yourself?

Lonely, Filth, dependant85.) do you consider yourself a loyal person?

no, if my loyalty gets in the way of what i think is the right thing to do then i disregard the loyalty86.) what is your favorite season and why?

Winter. for some reason growing up i always felt like winter was unappreciated and i had this train of thought like “ even the cold needs to be loved” that and most of my wardrobe is just winter stuff. plus midnight walks feel so much nicer since its so cold out you know for a fact no one else would be walking around because whos gonna wait in a dark alley at -30 to mug, rape or kidnap someone.87.) have you ever told anyone you loved them, and didn’t mean it?

nope. if i ever said it i meant it.88.) do you know how to play any instruments?

not reliably. like i know some songs on guitar from youtube tutorials but i can’t play the guitar in all circumstances yknow like i learned the song without mastering the basics89.) do like like falling asleep to music or not?

nope. i need like silence to sleep but ambient noise is preferred. music gives my brain something to focus on and thus stay awake90.) what are you allergic to?

pet fur or feathers and stuff. my eyes get puffy, my nose clogs up and my skin itches91.) have you ever wanted to be someone else for a day just so you could see what there life is like?

a sad, extremely rich person and a happy, extremely poor person. to show me what to be grateful for92.) if you could be any character from your favorite tv show would you, and if so, who would you be?

huh, thats tough… if its haikyuu i’d love to be daichi, if its my hero academia its hawks or deku93.) if you could be best friends with any celebrity who would it be and why

Gal Gadot, I feel like she’d be such a positive influence on my life and that thing she does to people who are shorter than her where she cups their face in her hands omg i’d melt everytime. i just kinda wanna be like a little brother to her lol

94.) are you outgoing?

i would say i am?95.) have you ever wanted to kiss someone, but weren’t brave enough to?

oh fuck yeah im fucking gutless96.) are you a good flirt?

nope. awkward and weird af97.) have you ever been turned down, or have you ever turned anyone down?

yup all the time. part of life98.) which planet is your favorite?

never really thought about planets much but i do stan pluto as a planet99.) are you superstitious?

to an extent100.) are you a good listener?

i’d like to think i am101.) are you a good kisser

also like to think i am probs not102.) would you kiss any of your friends?

all of them honestly well not all of them. mostly cuz yknow theyre taken or theyd probably hate me if i did some of them are super defensive about physical intimacy

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Oh what in oblivion? Here we go: 

1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? - I don’t understand my feelings towards people.

2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? - Not really.

3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? - I tend to not get along with potheads? Not because I hate them or something, it’s simply that way. So that isn’t really a problem for me. But I think deep inside, I’d care if my s/o did.

4: Do you find it easy to trust others? - Depends on how much alcohol I drank

5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? - Was probably playing Hearts of Iron IV

6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? - @promethism is with me. The whole month of july will be that way with him haha.

7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? - I’d probably go really depressive. And also break up.

8: Are you close with your dad? - Kind of? I wish we were closer?

9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? - AHAHAHAHAHA lol nope EDIT: WAIT NO I DID YOU JUST GO ON AND READ THROUGH ahaha

10: What are you listening to? - The new Hundredth album. It’s great!

11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? - Sangria

12: Do you like hickeys? - YESJHFIAUHEFIUAHE

13: What time do you go to bed? - Around midnight atm

14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? - Nah, I usually dump such people.

15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? - I only text with one hand?

16: Do you always answer your texts? - Nope :/

17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for? - Nope, I wish I could though.

18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? - Today?

19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? - @promethism @iwa-chans-bara-arms @pizzajer @insomniacpoetssociety @littlefecker @exxtramental @schmerzenundliebe and many others that don’t have tumblr or that I forgot

20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? - Was watching my fav youtuber so probably that

21: Is anyone else in the room with you? - Nope

22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? - Nope

23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? - Not even closely. Though it could be better rn too

24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? - Yes, but I’m not able to.

25: In the past week, have you cried? - Nope

26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? - White

27: Do people ever call you by your last name? - Sometimes

28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? - Yes

29: Do you have a best friend? - I do

30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? - Nope. It was a friend of mine I kissed out of platonic affection.

31: Who was your last call/text message from? - My last text message was from @schmerzenundliebe

32: Are you mad at anyone? - I probably am

33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - To be honest, I don’t think so

34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? - 19

35: How many more days until your birthday? - 87 days

36: Do you have any summer plans yet? - I’m flying to Romania with @promethism

37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? - I do

38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? - I think not, atm.

39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? - I’m not really a secretive person, so I guess not

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - Nope

41: Do you think age matters in relationships? - It’s kind of strange when there’s a really huge age gap.

42: Are you available? - Like single? Yeh.

43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? - HIGH SCHOOL ENDED TODAY so like 1?

44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? - A septum

45: Do you believe exes can be friends? - I do but probably I would be the first person to say “I still have feelings for you”

46: Do you regret anything? - I had a strange girlfriend when I was 14

47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? - THE FACT THAT I STILL HAVE LIKE 60 QUESTIONS TO GO

48: Did you ever lose a best friend? - Yes, but I don’t classify it as a “loss”

49: Was your last kiss a mistake? - Nope

50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? - It just wouldn’t work out anymore

51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? - They probably did

52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? - YE I LIKE KISSED HIM YESTERDAY BECAUSE HE WAS TAKING DONATIONS AND I HAD NO MONEY SO I GAVE HIM A KISS and then we talked today again

53: What was the last thing you ate? - salat

54: Did you get any compliments today? - Yes, I did, due to my outfit.

55: Where are you going on your next vacation? - Romania

56: Do you own anything from other countries? - Probably a lot of thing from Romania, since I am half romanian

57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? - I think it’s balanced

58: Where have you lived most of your life? - In Bucharest until I was 12

59: When was the last time you took a long drive? - When my dad drove me and my ex to Amsterdam

60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? - Who didn’t?

61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? - Nope

62: Who do you text the most? - @pizzajer

63: What was the last movie you saw? - Haven’t been watching any movies as of late, so it’s probably still Suicide Squad

64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? - I HAVE NO S/O :(

65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? - None lol

66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? - Yes

67: Do you curse around your parents? - Yes

68: Are you happy with where you live? - Nope. I hate this place

69: Picture of yourself? - No?

70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? - I’m totally monogamous. I’m the definition of jealousy.

71: Have you ever been dumped? - Yes

72: What do you most like about making out? - The privacy, I guess

73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? - I did.

74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? - Last time it was me.

75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? - I think everybody likes some ass, be it man ass woman ass 8)

76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? - Probably @pizzajer again

77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? - Nope

78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? - Nope

79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? - My wholesome friends

80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? - Nope. I’m not that old yet, though

81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? - I guess my ex girlfriend? Other people too, so yeh.

82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? - Yeh. I shouldn’t

83: Do you miss your last sweetie? - Yeh

84: Last time you slow danced with someone? - Never lol

85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? - How does one date someone without meeting?

86: How can I win your heart? - Make me laugh with bad puns and memes.

87: What is your astrological sign? - JFC I’m to tired to google it right now

88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? - PROBABLY PLAYING HEARTS OF IRON IV

89: Do you cook? - Kinda, I’m bad though.

90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? - I did

91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? - I do

92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? - I fall into monogamous relationships quickly

93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? - Freckles are always nice.

94: Name four things that you wish you had! - A will to live, more serotonin, a better gaming PC (mine’s already two years old :/) and an electric guitar

95: Are you a player? - I’d probably be the worst player ever.

96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? - Probably did

97: Are you a tease? - Nope

98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? - I did. Some I regret to this day

99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? - I am always deeply in love with someone. I know no other state

100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? - There probaly is but you bet your ass I won’t go saying with whom.

101: Hugs or Kisses? - BOTH?!

102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? - I am lol

103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - I think people tend to notice the face first.

104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? - It’s cheesy and kind of cringy

105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? - Nope.

106: Do you flirt a lot? - I tend to

107: Your last kiss? - THAT DUDE I TOLD THE STORY LIKE THREE TIMES ALREADY hooly shit

108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? - I did

109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? - YEH HOW BOUT YO SCROLL UP

110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? - Nah.

111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? - I am a ship adrift at sea, guided only by the mercy of the winds

112: Does someone like you currently? - Who knows? I for sure don’t

113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? - Yes

114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? - Serious relationships

115: Ever made out with just a friend? - I did

116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? - In a relationship

117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it. - Am I a depressed piece of shit? Yes!

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Reviewing Kendrick Lamar- DAMN.

DAMN. Released: April 14, 2017 Label: Top Dawg Entertainment, Aftermath Entertainment and Interscope Records First Week Sales: 603,000 Equivalent Units (353,000 Traditional Sales) Certifications: Platinum Peak Chart Position: 1 (US Billboard 200), 1 (US Top RnB/ Hip Hop Albums)

When Kendrick Lamar pops up, the world pays attention. While being active as a rapper for thirteen years, the Compton M.C. has captivated the masses with two of the most critically acclaimed albums of this decade: good kid, m.A.A.d city and To Pimp a Butterfly. So, when he released The Heart Part IV in late March, the single that would act as the precursor to an all-new body of work, it is needless to say that people lost their minds.

Three weeks later, Kendrick Lamar would release DAMN, his third studio album under a major record label (fourth studio album overall because we cannot overlook the wonderful debut album Section.80). This album is already radically different from any previous album released by Cornrow Kenny: with a minimalistic yet bold album cover, a relatively short track listing with no features from other rappers and a simplistic title that is less of a name but more of a proclamation made whenever you listen to the content, DAMN is clearly…special.

The Front and Back Cover

Upon listening to DAMN, it was clear that my previous feeling about it was true…it was unlike any of the previous three albums in Kendrick’s discography. Unlike the previous efforts, DAMN generates a more accessible sound. Gone are the over-elaborate jazz and funk influenced beats of its direct predecessor TPAB and in comes more traditional hip hop beats as well as trap influenced instrumentation. This album is not a “short film” nor did it include a large number of concepts talking about a million things at once. This formula has been able to do something that has been holding Kendrick back…garner the immense commercial success that a celebrated artist deserves. Gaining his first solo number 1 hit with the highly addictive HUMBLE and outselling Drake in first week sales by a large margin, DAMN is already, on paper, Kendrick’s most successful album and it is clear it can only go higher.

HUMBLE. The first single of DAMN and one of the most exciting songs of the year. With its infectious beat produced by Mike WiLL Made-It, a varitey of flows and memorable lyrics, it was an amazing choice as the first thing to hear from the new album

One thing that makes this album so accessible is its high repeatability. I love all his albums but it took a long time to truly understand them. I was 16 when I first heard GKMC and 18 when I first heard TPAB…nearly everything he was speaking about flew over my head. My views and my ideals had not fully matured so it took me years to gather what he was truly saying. While this is not the fault of the artist, it can put off an entire youth portion of the rap audience as “he is too political” or “he raps about boring stuff”. They just want a hot beat and a catchy hook (a wise man by the name of Marshall Mathers said that once) and they would not want to listen to a Kendrick project more than a couple times (if they listen at all). With its shorter length, more impactful beats and catchier lyrics, DAMN becomes remarkably easy for listeners to just leave this album on repeat and play it over and over.

Get it? Because I mentioned Eminem…? Taken from Eminem- Bezerk

It is not all flash and no substance, though as DAMN is still a KENDRICK LAMAR album. DAMN is riddled with socio-political commentary, religious references and personal anguishes like any other project and is not a watered-down version of himself. One of the most prominent takeaways from the album was the Black Israelite Theory, which he references in YAH before it is fully explained in the outro of FEAR. To briefly paraphrase Deuteronomy 28, the Israelites are God’s chosen people and they were destined to live in the promise land however if they were to disobey God, the Israelites would become cursed, becoming the ill and persecuted people of the world. Verse 43, in particular, says “the foreigners who reside among you will rise above you higher and higher but you will sink lower and lower”. If you now place American minorities (African Americans, Latino Americans, Native Americans etc) into this context, they can be seen as the cursed people of America after disobeying God, suffering through racism, economic inequality, mass incarceration, police brutality and so much more all while white people (the foreigners in this context) continue to rise higher. Despite this rather bleak outlook on the destiny of coloured people, Kendrick has been able to take this all in and use it as a means of empowerment, believing that he is one of God’s chosen people and uses it as his strength against the adversity he faces.

He is able to bounce between so many subjects in a far more concise manner in this project. He frequently discredits Fox News reporters who ignorantly dismissed a lyric from the 2015 single Alright, labelling him as a negative force in the world (One of the reporters said that hip hop was more damaging to young African Americans than racism…is he functioning correctly?). He references the failings of the American system and the mentalities of the American people. He looks within himself, addressing his past feelings of depression and is able to raise through his own fears or pride, discovering his own strength. When you sit down to truly listen, DAMN is a thought-provoking experience.

Geraldo Riveria and other Fox News Reporters discrediting Kendrick Lamar following his 2015 BET Awards Performance

BUT, here is a problem with DAMN. While it is thought-provoking and it talks about a lot of topics…it feels too simple. With the exception of the discussion regarding the Israelites (which takes one Google search or reading Genius annotations), DAMN can be taken at face value. Unlike its predecessors, you can listen to this album a few times and understand nearly everything that is being said instantly. It does not feel layered in my opinion. While this would not be an issue for some other artists, Kung-Fu Kenny has created this expectation for grander concepts regarding his albums and it leaves fans wanting more from it or generating wacky theories in an attempt to make it more than what it is (For example, the day the album was released, there was a theory that stated there was a second album called NATION that was supposed to be released on Easter Sunday, a few days after DAMN was released, to signify the Crucifixion and Resurrection of Jesus Christ).

DNA. The second single of DAMN and one of my personal favourite songs from the project. To put it simply, Kung-Fu Kenny absolutely murders this interesting trap beat all while saying introspective and self-empowering lyrics. Oh, and Don Cheadle is in the video lip-synching the song…which is nice

In addition, this will most likely go down as Kendrick Lamar’s most successful project but I believe it raises a few questions: Does DAMN push Kendrick down the path of more mainstream music and less elaborate concept albums? And due to DAMN being susceptible to the current trend of “viral music”, can it be as highly acclaimed as good kid, m.A.A.d city and To Pimp a Butterfly in the future? Is this album another classic album or will it just be stuck in the times? Who Knows?

What I do know is that DAMN is a spectacular project. It is a rollercoaster of production brilliance and lyrical content that is able to be catchy and memorable while being introspective and openly conscious, showing that Kendrick Lamar is able to move units without having to completely give up his artistic integrity.

Other recommended songs  ELEMENT, LOYALTY featuring Rihanna, FEAR and DUCKWORTH 

Rating: 4/5