#jeroluke

[actualbird]

cw unhealthy abusive dubcon toxic yaoi ship talk ahead, yes, it’s jeroluke

thinking about jeroluke…. this is my most niche tot ship that i know only two other people are into (SOBBBSDSS) and it i ship it Primarily because i want to Harm Luke. but also like, their dynamic is just so fucking juicy

like, jerome (serenely, subtly) antagonizes the Entire NXX Investigation Team, but if we assume (well it’s SUPER OBVIOUS) that main story oedipus is jerome, like. jerome makes it personal for luke. jerome dangles possible cures over luke’s head for the illness that luke so desperately wants to cure. for all the other nxx members, jerome is a suspicious recurring foe. but for luke, jerome is both his lifeline and his enemy, and luke has no choice but to do what hes told if he wants the continued hope of a cure. jerome treats him like an experiment and luke has no choice but to bare his neck. jerome deadass injected luke with a substance that completely knocked him out and cheerily asked “arent you afraid i’ll do something to you?”

it’s so yummy to me. luke hates jerome with all his heart meanwhile jerome treats luke with the same “care” and condescension he’d treat a lab rat with.

thinking about messed up scenarios where they fuck. jerome dosing luke with an aphrodisiac drug and luke hates it hates it but falls into bed with jerome anyway because he needs the relief. thinking about jerome making luke feel good, and laughing at luke, sweetly telling him “dont you see, when you let me handle things, i can make all the pain go away”. thinking about luke falling into the habit of letting jerome fuck him every time they meet. it’s terrible. he hates it. but when hes got jerome’s drugs in his bloodstream and jerome’s hands on his body, jerome is right. all the pain goes away

luke is already taking the very illegal substance he was tasked to investigate. what more is fucking the enemy?

augh…jeroluke

if ever i write a fic for them in the future it will be nasty as all hells and also i will post it on anon. lol.

[actualbird]

i posted a 1,185 word jeroluke smut drabble on ao3 (cw extremely dubious consent, sexual coercion) it's on anon for now so dont mention my name if you wanna comment on it.

but if ever you wanna read it, bon apetit

PLEASE HEED THE FIC TAGS

[actualbird]

thinking of making a jeroluke playlist and of course Gravity by Sara Bareilles will be on it because

[actualbird]

sorry jeroluke posting again but uh

drabble snippet

cw dubcon, sexual coercion, n/s//f///w text

[actualbird]

if you can rate every luke ship, how would rate them? (btw this includes like rosa + the rest of NXX but also i saw you mention jerome and luke before so you can add npc ships if u want!!)

OHHHH THIS IS FUN!!! im only gonna rank the luke ships i actively ship/consume content for, but heres my personal ranking!!

which....i know realize isnt much of a ranking at all and it's just me having my First Place Favorite and everything else is at the backseat HAHAHAH

first place, my tot OTPs of all time: tie between lukerosa and mariluke. of course. marilukerosa also because thats just the best of both worlds

lukerosa is the canon ship that owns my heart, while mariluke is the delusion that has completely consumed me. i write way more mariluke than i write lukerosa, but thats mostly because theres already a Lot of food for lukerosa, both in canon and fanwork-wise. meanwhile, mariluke is technically still a rarepair so i focus more of my own fanwork creation energy there.

theyre both wildly different ships but i adore them so much. lukerosa is simply so fucking well written, particularly during their pre-1st anniv to 1st anniv era, and their themes and tensions were immaculately executed.

meanwhile mariluke is just so damn good. hyv accidentally made two dudes who were two sides of the same coin and have insane chemistry together and also have complementary themes and roles. like, they rotate in my brain ENDLESSLY. and the mariluke shipping community is very dear to me, ive met many many dear friends though this ship and i owe a lot to it

lukerosa and mariluke my beloved //blows a kith to them both

everything else thats second place: luke/nxx polycule, luke/vyn, luke/artem

these are ships i enjoy but im not as insane about them. i like reading fanfic of them and discussing them, but theyre not like....they dont rotate in my brain like a rotisserie chicken 24/7. like, im not obsessed, the same way i am with lukerosa and mariluke.

still, it makes me happy to see them and read works of them!!

SPECIAL PLACEMENT: jerome/luke

........i feel like i cant really rank this ship on a 1st/2nd/3rd place because it is my PEAK DELUSION SHIP as well as a ship i ship solely because i want to make luke Worse. this is my toxic yaoi ship. this is my self-indulgent luke whump ship. this is my "the dove is not quite dead but it sure is on the way there, DO NOT EAT" ship.

i would LOVE to read fanfic of them. alas. THERE ISNT ANY. i wanna write a messed up jeroluke fic one day to remedy this, but im not sure thats gonna happen any time soon because my hands are already full rn with WIPs and fic plans

but....jeroluke rotates in the dark parts of my mind. Very Much. i'd love to talk about them more but im worried people will think im either insane or a horrible sadist HAHAHA, so i'll just discuss them in private w my close buddies....just to be safe....

thats it, i think!! thanks for the ask!

[actualbird]

Regarding toxic dubcon JeroLuke:

Please

PLEASE KSBDKLFBLDSFJSDBFKSJD this is wonderful thank you for this ask, and thank you also to everybody who liked and replied to my deranged jeroluke post last night

im glad to see there will be an audience for my jeroluke fic, once i have the time to get to writing it (most probably after marilukeweek is over)....

luke pearce come here i will Harm You :)

[actualbird]

sorry reblogging this again given the tags i left on the prev post i rb'd just

//vibrating so hard i start to visually blur. IMAGINE JEROLUKE TOXIC YAOI

it's not an equal dynamic. they both know this. luke knows that hes playing into jerome's hand just like how jerome wants him to, but he doesnt have a choice. and jerome, well, hes just oh so delighted that he has luke pearce trapped like this, relying on him as a lifeline. the rush, the power of that control, it feels sublime to jerome. and luke hates him. he absolutely despises him. but he cant break away. he cant bite the hand that feeds. a ferocious guard dog forced into obedience.

is this healthy? hell no! but do i still VIVIDLY imagine their nasty hate sex? OH YOU KNOW IT BROTHER

main story 13 spoilers ahead

since im a believer of chika khickuwa's Jerome Is Oedipus Theory, i am simply enraptured with the wholly fucked up and imbalanced dynamic that exists between luke and jerome.

it's a mad scientist and his unwilling test subject dynamic. luke tells rosa hes working willingly with jerome, but does he really have a choice? when there's no other cure for his illness that works but the substances jerome is testing on him? he doesnt. luke says hes in control to cope with the fact he absolutely has no control over this arrangement whatsoever. the way luke behaves around jerome is with aggression, disdain, distrust, and disgust—a guard dog snarling and backed into a corner—and yet he has no choice but to metaphorically bare his neck to jerome and accept what jerome gives him.

oh and on jerome's end, he can believe all he wants that he's a giver. that he's a healer, but hes not, not really. im still not sure if he truly believes that or if thats a facade he puts up, but if he does believe it, that just makes all of this even more interesting. jerome believing himself a savior when in reality the person he's saving feels like nothing more but a trapped experiment thats being used.

and isn't that just such an fitting role for luke to be in? luke who always posited himself as a tool, a weapon, a thing to be used in the name of service to another or to a greater good, a thing that doesnt deserve agency or desires...and now he's finally found himself in that exact position, nothing but an object to be tested on, wrapped around jerome's finger.

just. hoo boy. it's a messed up dynamic. IM OBSESSED.