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[queenlua]

ugh religion/politics venting

* today i read the latest in the depressingly long series of incidents in the saga of, "the Southern Baptist Convention simping for the goddamn child molesters/enablers in their own church." i know i'm phrasing that in the maximally inflammatory way; i don't care. it's not like there's a whole fucking gross awful history here or anything

anyway i have felt bizarrely emotional about it, for someone who left that church over a decade ago and has no strong attachment to it otherwise. i guess it's like, i read that article and thought to myself "jfc, where are people even going nowadays, like, if your church's senior leadership sucks that much you gotta leave, right." and i was sort of tempted to call up some of my old church-y friends and ask "ok where are you going now," but... (1) hahaha a lot of my church-y friends left all churches whatsoever a long time ago, and (2) the ones who remain, like, i'm not close enough to them to ask, right? if i called them and randomly asked them intrusive questions about their Religious Organization Feelings, they would peg me as the obnoxious chick who left to go become a coastal liberal elite and now is being a dick to them. and i mean i wouldn't be trying to be a dick but i would be being awfully nosy and presumptuous, right

anyway, my wondering about that sent me down a whole rabbithole of "which congregations are actually growing in the US nowadays anyway," and while it's gratifying to see that the SBC shrinking, i don't exactly love the growth of pentecostalism in its place, right, seeing as "pentecostal brainworms" is at least partially responsible for like 50% of my trans friends getting kicked to the fucking curb by their parents the second they Deviated From The Script. so, y'know, fuck that

i did learn that the "free will baptist" denomination skews surprisingly young and, wow, what a kickass name for a denomination. i know nothing else about them but i hope they're as cool as the image in my head

...anyway, all that idle research didn't really do much to assuage how fucking weirdly furious i am over the SBC. like, i sincerely think the SBC mostly sucks and hasn't been redeemable pretty much ever, but it was also a cultural juggernaut in my youth, and one sort of hopes one's cultural juggernauts might find some way to reform into something humane, or at least fade away with grace. it's somehow secondhand humiliating and depressing to see it devolve into what i knew was always there at its core: gross old men power-tripping and protecting their own and never never never coming down on the side of anything that felt good and right in my heart of hearts

* unrelated but since i'm being unvirtuous and Politicsing On Main anyway:

every goddamn thing i've read out of netanyahu's mouth makes me want to punch his stupid face in until his skin is paste and the paste is mush and the mush is fine little bits of organic matter to feed the soil. and still the dude will not have suffered enough. not to be former-southern-baptist or anything but: i hope keeping your precious status & deliberately inflaming the most brainpoisoned rightoids in your nation & all that other shit is worth the fires of hell that await you after buddy!!!!

i don't have a Sophisticated Take on the israel/gaza stuff, but. at the end of the day i have cultivated a caveman's sense of morality, as a reaction to my tendency to over-intellectualize, and that caveman's sense of morality imo has served me pretty well, for instance: when The Big Guy is beating the everloving shit out of The Small Guy, the thing that is happening is fucked and i don't care who started it, it's gotta stop well before, i dunno, "bombing the shit out of a bunch of kids" for fucking starters. this works for an awful lot of Big Guy vs Small Guy scenarios. try it sometime

(i hate that i even remotely feel the urge to caveat it this way but to be clear: bibi & his homicidal campaign != judaism. judsaism rules, antisemitism is bullshit. but no more fucking more kids dying in a stupid campaign, ceasefirenow etc)

[beholdthemem]

On one hand I don't have the patience for the kind of people who declare themselves the judge of what does or does not qualify as 'problematic' in a ship, because I've noticed that it inevitably seems to boil down to 'You don't ship the thing that I do, and I don't think that ships besides mine should exist' using progressive sounding buzzwords that kind of fall apart the minute you investigate them closer. ('That's pedophilia!' Two year age gap between an 18 and 20 year old. 'You're homophobic!' Shipping a bisexual dude with a female character.)

On the other hand, I also do not have the patience for the type of people who unironically use the word 'antis' when talking about people who don't like their ship, because every one that I have ever talked to has the BIGGEST fucking victim complex about shipping something unpopular and seems to consider themselves genuinely oppressed because of it to the point where I want to be like

[galadrieljones]

The Walking Dead: Episode 4.12, “Still” Rewatch

So I rewatched “Still” in honor of the Stilliversary tonight. My thoughts are not related much to Team Delusional stuff, more so just thoughts and idle analysis, but I had fun and definitely did not cry.

Here we go!

Beth is already feeling it, right away, after the trunk scene, ie: what he must think of her. She’s just another “dead girl” who needs to be protected. It is both insulting and embarrassing at the same time.

Daryl misses that squirrel and breaks an arrow! Dammit, Daryl. This is just another trial, but it’s interesting in how we see Daryl in like rote provider mode, and yet he makes a mistake.

The suck-ass camp begins with some Garden of Eden imagery: While Daryl skins and cooks the snake, Beth is admiring the beauty of a ladybug crawling on a leaf. The music is actually full of wonder. Beth sees the beauty in the natural world while Daryl sees it only for what he can use. It is an essential masculine vs. feminine moment, in terms of their individual themes, and what propels them and their actions. Their masculine and feminine energies will be subverted later though, and well-complicated, because the writing is good.

Beth brings up Hershel’s death early: “He’s not exactly around anymore so...” She wants to have a drink, maybe to rebel against her father, maybe to honor his memory, maybe to seal her own fate. It is a complicated choice for Beth. It’s not just some “dumb college bitch” moment. She knows this, but how is she supposed to communicate it to Daryl?

Daryl is like an animal eating that snake while Beth tries to talk to him. Literally, out of body. I imagine being her and just like, Ugh. Gross, dude. Then, when she leaves, Beth totally expects him to come after her. When she doesn’t see him right away, she mutters, “Jerk.” She called him a jerk in season 3, too, after he takes off with Merle. I think Beth is used to being treated nicely by boys. Ofc, Daryl, while he may not be an overt gentleman in his scarfing of that disgusting snake, was there watching her the whole time. 

“You wanna spend the rest of our lives staring into a fire and eating mud snakes? Screw that. We might as well do something.”

I sort of missed this before, the mention of “the rest of our lives.” It is a small acknowledgement that they are now “stuck together.” Ofc, Beth’s idea is to “make the most of it,” to go out into and DO something! Embrace the future! Daryl sees only the here, the now, and the past. He would prefer to stay still.

Unrelated but: God, Daryl is peak hot in this episode. 

Anyway, so, the state of Pine Vista, and what happened there. Jfc. It’s very ugly and very sad. The Dogtrot seems a reference to a dogtrot house, which is an old Appalachian style home. Basically like two shacks connected via a breezeway. I see some sort of backcountry types having moved in here and tortured the rich folk. There is evidence that “fun” was had. “Rich bitch,” etc. Maybe it’s the same psychopaths who tormented the OG Terminus crew, ultimately turning them into crazy cannibals.

Beth finds the Washington D.C. spoon. Why?? It’s such an odd, pointed shot, with a slow zoom. Is that where we’ll find her? Does anybody else know anything about this?? Anyway maybe this is a TD post lol.

Beth finds that bottle of wine and it’s a shame she has to break it! I remember feeling so bad about that the first time I watched this episode. Like NO BETH YOUR BOOZE!! She uses it to stab the shit out of that walker though, and to defend herself. She’s kind of pissed at Daryl for not helping her, again used to only the kindest of attention from boys. But Daryl isn’t like other boys (lol). He was there the whole time, once again, but he let it play out, because he knew she could do it. I like that her first (almost) drink here sort of has to become a weapon instead. Nothing is ever easy! And sometimes, the environment IS best observed, not in terms of its beauty or promise, but in terms of how its use can best be served to survive.

Tempus Fugit - Time flies! Oh, yes. Yes it does lol.

Daryl and Beth both need to escape their old selves here. Beth with her pretty cloths and Daryl stealing the cash and the jewels. They need to shake that shit off. Burn it all down, if you will. I think this episode we mostly associate with Daryl changing and having his epiphany, but Beth changes, too. She is just quieter at it.

It is 3 o’clock! The grandfather clock is this interesting motif that puts pressure on the situation literally while also bringing the symbolic pressure of time passing, running out, etc. It makes us feel detached from reality, like this is a purgatory episode. I like when The Walking Dead does this, like when they take us to a new place in which we become critically aware that this thing we’re watching is fiction, and by the rules of fiction, anything (ANYTHING) can happen.

“I know you think this is stupid, and it probably is, but I don’t care.” She just is who she is. She doesn’t give a shit what he thinks. I think that attracts Daryl to her in this moment and emboldens him. I think Daryl actually really cares what other people think of him, that he is keenly self-aware in this way. We see this fear manifest as Merle in Chupacabra, ie: that the rest of the group thinks he’s a “freak,” a piece of “redneck trash,” and that they’re all “laughing behind [his] back.” Meanwhile, Beth is just like, “You probably think I’m just some dumb bitch. But guess what, Daryl? I DON’T CARE.”

Beth sitting at that bar trying to clean out glasses: “Who needs a glass?” She clutches the bottle longingly and then cries. I would argue she is thinking of Hershel and the line of questioning that arises in this moment. Should she do this? Is she betraying him? This moment also contradicts what she tells Daryl in 4.1. “I don’t cry anymore Daryl.” This is the moment that breaks him.

Beth keeps trying to make him feel normal, while they’re walking to the shine shack. She thinks he used to be a motorcycle mechanic. But Daryl’s normal is not hers, and he doesn’t really do small talk. In these little moments, we see him being who he is. Daryl is really good at being who he is when who he is revolves around passivity and silence.

They go from country club to moonshine shack. What we see is how a class divide might differ in longevity. A country club full of walkers, made out of humans who turned against each other, every bottle dry in the house vs. an empty shine shack, no death in sight, absolutely full of booze. When societal protections collapse around us, it is the ruthless and the bereft who will know how best to survive. It’s like Beth sad about Daryl, being “made for this world.” 

They are trapped! Tropes. So many romantic tropes! Lol at people who would like to ignore that any of this happened or that Bethyl was never canon.

This: 

Anyway, I think Daryl is actually pretty mean to Beth toward the end here, out on the porch, like the way he treats her, kind of tugs her around physically. He doesn’t hurt her, but he is not gentle. This puts things into harsh perspective for Beth, as I do think that, while he is not right in how he handles her here, he is right in some ways about who she is. She is not naive but she is used to protection and safety and relying on others, the same way he is used to the opposite of those things. Both of them need to learn how to exist from the other side. 

Beth also sees what’s going on, however. I think she also might be used to this sort of quasi-violent, performative, drunken behavior. Her dad was a drunk. I think it’s interesting that so much of this episode hinges on alcohol in Hershel’s wake. I always thought this might be one reason Beth is drawn to and accepting of Daryl. We only really see Hershel while sober (I mean, mostly). We never saw him in his deep element of alcoholism, but Beth did. She is not innocent to vices or men spinning out of control. It’s why Beth responds to Daryl’s whole insane story about the tweaker and Merle with, “You miss him, don’t you?” She doesn’t care that Merle was a degenerate drug addict. He was Daryl’s brother who died. She has loved and lost an addict, too.

Before, Daryl was just “drifting.” In this episode, Beth gives him a quest. I think that’s very important. She also gives him something to look forward to:

“You got away from it.”

“I didn’t.”

“You did.”

“Maybe you gotta keep on reminding me of it sometimes.”

The hint at their future: “You gotta keep on reminding me,” he says, counting on them staying together. Beth is so kind to him here, too, even doting as she talks about him being the “last man standing.” I can’t imagine a girl has ever treated Daryl like this. I think she scares the living shit out of him.

Daryl suggests they go back into the shine shack, but Beth says they should burn the place down instead. Again, stillness vs. action. See their complimentary traits: Daryl is passive. He needs someone to tell him this is okay. Beth is active. She does what she wants. It is uniquely antithetical to their gender roles and subverts the power dynamic we might otherwise expect from a relationship like this: Daryl is older and a man. Ofc he should be the more aggressive, assertive one. The actor. But he’s not. It’s Beth who makes their choices in this episode. Daryl follows her and protects her along the way. 

The ending is so happy. Oh my god. Anyway.

Thank you for humoring me. Happy Stilliversary!! 😭🥺❤️

[brw]

Thoughts on Dan Slott :)

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truly. my behated. i never liked his writing but ever since he had. like 16-18 y/o aboro propose to val who again is 12 AT BEST but is probably more like 8 i just... why this is man employed!!! he doesn't understand the characters he's writing he literally said that writing a character with powers as strong as franklin's was difficult and that's part of why he's depowered and it's like motherfucker if you can't write the team you're hired to do than give it up!!!! let someone else do it jfc!!

and like his writing of sue is SO bad. her only personality traits are "bitchy" and "overbearing" i am genuinely so fucking tired. why would she fucking stalk her adult brother??? she has TWO fucking kids to look after! she canonically is in charge of the ff's financial situation???? she ran their companies for them???? she's a secret agent sometimes for nick fury!! literally WHERE THE FUCK would she have the time to spy on her GROWN brother!!! sue genuinely just feels less like a character and more like a weird shape-shifting sexy blob that he changes to fit whatever stupid conflict he wants that issue which will never get brought up again.

not 2 mention the gross racism of some of his characters... like cindy when she was introduced was a glorified fetish character. no personality trait beyond "boobs" and "semi naked". and YES he apologised but that doesn't change that he'd thought that'd be okay, and considering how AWFULLY written skye is... like it just doesn't feel coincidence that a brown woman is the one that sue is shown to constantly judge and think negatively of and repeatedly insult her "backwards wrong" culture. it just feels so :/

and more on his weird shit, anyone remember his she-hulk mini where he???? had someone read out a list of all the people jen'd slept with in as she-hulk front of a court????? like WHAT the fuck was that. and he slutshamed johnny in EXACTLY the same way in his ff...

also. and this is something less to do w/ his bad writing and more with the fact that he haunts me. but when i was reading the 90s wonder man story. no mention of him at all! until i got to the final issue where it was finally cancelled. the guy who'd been answering the letters? dan fucking slott. i KNOW its not a big deal but it was so fucking creepy i feel like he's following me via the medium of comic books. it was insane. dan slott???? explains how fuckin rude some of the replies were tbh... jrjdnfn

there's also his ableism... like in the wedding buildup they called reed stupid & talked abt him behind his back when he was displaying some Symptoms Of Neurodiversity™ (hyperfixating) and was doing stuff in his lab and thought he wouldn't show up to the wedding like... this is his FAMILY they're supposed to know him and love him i'm 😩 can u. at least not use characteristics heavily associated w/ autism if you want to have his family insult him & whatnot it rlly is just. upsetting. and that STUPID "it's on bitch" panel everyone loves is just 😑 like hank was very obviously Not Well in that, not feeling great and you're telling me reed richards who shows sympathy and understanding to multiple supervillains who have tried to kill him and his family who once talked down someone from committing s*icide, would just belittle hank like that??? hank who he respects enough to ask for his expertise in robotics???? like just... in WHAT fucking world...

and that's not even getting into the crimes he committed in tony stark: iron man because dear fucking god they are numerous. he's been dead for 6 years dan. leave hank pym alone we have been through enough!!!!

ANYWAY. tldr he sucks i hate him wishing bad things for him ONLY. my beloathed.

ask “thoughts on ______”

[phobiadeficient]

Holy fuck i just read that ask by "hiatus13", the one with sniper pinning snipes to a wall, and holy fucken shit im in need of a second part, if u wanna of course. Jfc when i learn how to draw better, imma try and draw on of these shortfics cuz holy damn (of course if you'll let me and with full credit, totally okay if u dont want me to) ❤️❤️❤️❤️🐑

dude fuckin Bet. dude do it like Bet

(no warnings)

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They ended up in Sniper’s camper since they were halfway there, and Scout found himself kneeling on a hard, thinly-carpeted floor, watching maybe too intently as Sniper muddled with his belt.

As an afterthought, Sniper reached over and grabbed a pillow and tossed it to the ground, and Scout situated it beneath his knees after a moment’s thought. Then Sniper’s pants were open and being shuffled down his legs, and the front of his shirt rucked up a bit, and Scout was finding out that apparently Sniper didn’t wear underwear even with his uniform which he found ridiculously attractive for reasons he couldn’t even totally articulate.

Sniper had himself in hand, working in idle pumps as Scout got a look at him. And, y’know, locker rooms and all, he’d caught glimpses of pretty much all of the guys by then, but it was way different looking at him straight on and when he was hard and looking right back at Scout.

“Never sucked a bloke off, then?” he asked, as if for clarification.

“Nah, no,” Scout replied, still eyeing him.

Sniper exhaled, halfway to a sigh. “Right. Just...” He thought for a second. “Just keep your teeth out of the way, use your tongue, and try not to choke yourself, awright?”

“Y-yeah, okay,” Scout said, and licked his lips, and leaned in.

Sniper moved his hand away and let Scout take over, taking it by the base and angling up towards his mouth.

And it wasn’t, like, rocket science, he’d gotten sucked off a few times before and knew what he liked and what worked, but he still hesitated for another second or two before he carefully, cautiously, leaned in to lick the head.

Sniper shifted as if relaxing, and Scout considered some stuff. First of all, the nightmare scenario was off the table, the taste wasn’t bad. And of course it wasn’t, Sniper was one of his cleaner teammates, but he was still relieved. Second of all, he wasn’t going to look like a total idiot, because up close like this he knew he’d actually be able to get this a pretty good way into his mouth.

But he pulled out a move he’d had done to him a few times before and warmed up into it, starting with licking and kinda-sloppy kissing, just kinda getting a feel for what he was doing. And he was apparently doing a pretty good job, because Sniper was relaxing further, and at one point made this gravelly kind of humming noise that made Scout feel real damn pleased with himself, a real ego boost that most people would probably argue he didn’t need.

But at the very least, it was enough to convince Scout to lean in that much further and take him into his mouth. And that got another hum, and Scout had to concentrate hard on keeping his teeth out of the way.

And he didn’t know what it was, maybe it was just like, the idea of what he was doing, but there was something about this that made him feel superheated, antsy, maybe even desperate, and he just kinda did what he was pretty sure was the thing he was supposed to do, slowly starting to bob his head, and when that almost immediately got monotonous he started to suck in counterpoint.

And he was like, 90% sure that every time he’d ever had this done to him, they were much less messy about it. He hoped the little noises weren’t too distracting. But it was either make sure he kept his teeth out of the way or not make a bunch of noise, he couldn’t focus on both. He was pretty sure he was doing at least an okay job, though, because Sniper was starting to make more of those raspy growly hums, maybe more like groans, and in his periphery he could see that Sniper was grabbing onto the sheets on either side of his hips pretty hard.

At some point Scout remembered some other stuff people would do to him—he cupped Sniper’s balls and rolled them in his hand, and that got a whole moan, and he tried to take him deeper into his mouth until he felt his gag reflex starting to argue about it, and then he felt Sniper’s hand on the back of his head down near his neck and—

And he realized, okay, maybe he could get into this. Or maybe he already was. Because he was starting to get pretty hard, actually. Like, distractingly hard.

And he dipped too far at one point and gagged outright, and pulled up to cough, his eyes watering, and fuck, okay, that was that lesson learned. And Sniper exhaled hard, his grip going a little tight, but rather than complaining he managed a throaty sort of “You awright?”

Scout waved him off, still coughing a little, and god his face had to be red, he felt like he was burning up. “I’m fine, just... fuck.” He cleared his throat hard, blinking a few times. “Sorry.”

“Getting off on this, then?” Sniper asked, and Scout glanced back up, and Sniper was looking down at Scout’s lap, and, okay, so he was caught. He flushed further. “Nothing to be embarrassed about, you know. It happens.”

“Yeah? What, happens when you’re blowin’ dudes too?” Scout asked, trying to look a little less flustered.

“Sometimes,” Sniper shrugged, and Scout started coughing again. “Don’t tell me you’re going to try and act like a prude when you’re currently on your bloody knees.”

“Just—just shut up,” Scout mumbled, and leaned in to set back to work with a vengeance. Sniper did indeed shut up.

Scout didn’t want to choke again, so he gripped around what all he couldn’t get in his mouth, trying to remember to pump and squeeze between bobbing his head and sucking. And Sniper’s hand migrated a little ways up his head to card into his hair, and it was all the easier to work Sniper up into where he was making actual noise.

“Close,” Sniper warned, voice a little breathless in a way that made Scout absolutely throb. “If you’re—gonna pull off—“

Scout didn’t, mostly because he was curious. And a few moments later Sniper swore hard, and then he had a mouthful of—

Okay, so every porn he’d ever seen was made by liars. The taste wasn’t good. He wasn’t gonna like, throw up, but definitely gross. He fumbled off to one side for the trash can and spat into it as quick as he could, twice for good measure.

“Not bad,” Sniper said, well out of breath. When Scout looked back over, he was settling his pants back into place. “Bit sloppy, but being new and all, I’ll give it a pass.”

“Hell yeah,” Scout said, unreasonably proud of himself, wiping at his mouth with the back of his hand.

Sniper moved to pull him up to sit on his lap, and Scout went along with it with little hesitation. Then Sniper was popping his pants open and Scout was leaning in with greater enthusiasm.

“Sure seems like you enjoyed yourself,” Sniper teased, and Scout flushed. “See that being something you’d, er... want to learn more of?”

“Yeah!” Scout chirped, and then Sniper’s hand was in his pants, and he jolted a little. “F-fuck, uh, I mean y-you don’t have to do that you already kinda—got me off once—“

“What if I want to?” Sniper asked, raising an eyebrow at him, and Scout stuttered about that for a little longer until Sniper apparently got impatient and turned them to lay Scout down on the bed, pulling his pants out of the way enough to—

“Holyfuckingshit!” Scout yipped as Sniper bent down and swallowed down like half of him in one go, settling into a damn near expert rhythm within a few seconds, and fuck, okay, he already got Sniper off so it really shouldn’t matter but he was pretty sure if he came within a minute and a half of Sniper starting to suck him off he would literally have to go into witness protection he would be so embarrassed but on the other hand Sniper was sucking his dick and that was an idea so hot he could never even jack off about it.

So he curled his hands into fists on either side of his own head where he was gripping at the sheets and he squeezed his eyes shut hard and he choked down noises and he held out for as long as he could. And it felt like a marathon, like pushing a few extra miles at a dead sprint, the effort making him jittery and half-convinced he was going to pull a muscle somewhere, but he held out as long as he could force himself to before he finished, swearing a blue streak the whole way down.

His head was fuzzy and fizzy when he came back down to earth again, and his tongue felt heavy, and Sniper was lying beside him, smoking and blowing out the window on the exhale. And he was feeling so goddamn pleased with himself that he found himself vocalizing the first coherent sentence he could get his head around.

“Hey,” he said. “Maybe next time you walk me through what like, actual fucking is like.”

Sniper raised an eyebrow at him. “...It’d be you on bottom for the first time of that,” he said slowly.

“Think I’ll be a natural at that too?” Scout teased.

“...Maybe,” Sniper said, looking slightly more amused at his antics than before, and Scout relaxed, sank back down to try and get his brain together, and maybe eventually to get his pants back up.

[yiangchen]

I dont understand why the writers keep addressing abuse, addiction, suicide or any trauma at all when they DONT KNOW HOW TO. Also i dont understand wtf they are doing with some characters, like echo, kane, even raven, they seem so out of character or with no story at all. What do u think? It will all come together at the end like a puzzle or is it poor writing?

Bruh, I’m so with you, but I also kinda have mixed feelings because sometimes the writers handle things well and other times they don’t, which is The Most Annoying Thing.

I’m gonna break this down because there’s A Lot to this ask. (This got kinda long, so sorry in advance.)

Addiction

I don’t like Abby (haven’t liked her since she slapped Raven in s2 for no reason and never apologized), but the way they are handling her addiction storyline is gross. It’s always about someone else, and the focus is never on her. Also, the way Kane handled the situation was just…jfc that is not how you handle addicts, especially when you’re supposed to be their loved ones. (It reminded me so much of when Octagon did the same to Lincoln in s2.) Like, there’s a difference between setting emotional boundaries and belittling your loved ones.

A perfect example of this is the differences in how the writers have handled Memori versus Kbby this season, specifically the way that Emori has set emotional boundaries in contrast to how Kane has belittled Abby. 

Which is why the writers confuse me so much honestly. Here they have Emori handling the situation in the right way, and the narrative supports her, but then here they have Kane handling the situation in the wrong way, and somehow, the narrative also supports him. It doesn’t make any sense.

Suicide

Yeah, they definitely did not handle this well with Jasper in s4. At all. We never got to see people reacting or for some even finding out at all about his death, and they’ve all been friends since s1. It was just really shitty. 

However, I will admit that in s5, they’ve handled it a lot better. It’s been six years, but Monty is STILL struggling with Jasper’s death. We also got Clarke breaking down when she finds his suicide note, Bellamy saying he misses him, a whole scene where Monty read Jasper’s suicide note in front of Harper, Bellamy and Clarke, and Monty’s entire arc this season being inspired by Jasper. 

A major theme of this season has been “breaking the cycle”, and the reason for that is JASPER. It shows that when Jasper killed himself, his story didn’t end, and that’s a really important message to send. It really seems like that, in this case, the writers have learned that last season was not how you should write a suicide storyline.

As for the way they’ve handled Clarke…that’s another story, and it kinda contradicts what I just said, WHICH IS SO FRUSTRATING. They’ve learned with Jasper, but somehow, Clarke almost kills herself and goes through so much trauma and it’s not even a fucking focus of the season? That’s bad writing. I’m sure some of what she went through will be addressed when she and Bellamy have their inevitable reconciliation because it was touched on back in 5x05, but still. Clarke should have been a focus. Not someone that falls into the background along with her trauma. 

Trauma 

I kinda got into this with Clarke above.

Abuse

Of all the things that piss me the fuck off about this show, this is what gets me the most heated. I really don’t understand how sometimes the writers condemn abuse and others times they excuse it.

A glaringly obvious example is the difference between how they’ve handled the Blakes in seasons 3 and 4 versus Raven and her relationship with her mother growing up. I was so happy that the narrative condemned the abuse that Raven’s mother put her through, but it also pissed me off. I know that Raven’s mother isn’t even in the story and Raven’s relationship with her is (obviously) by no means a focus of the show like the Blakes are, but that’s no excuse. 

Octagon beat Bellamy bloody, and it was NEVER addressed. She emotionally and verbally abused him, and it was NEVER addressed. The narrative was framed as though Bellamy was the one who needed to wait around for Octagon’s forgiveness and not the other way around. There was just a shit ton of victim blaming excused by the narrative. Also, I will never understand how the writers can have Bellamy say, “It’s pathetic, right? She hates me, but I keep coming back for more” and somehow be completely ignorant of the fact that they are writing an abuse storyline. Somehow, they recognize abuse when it happens off screen (Raven and her mother), but when it’s right in front of their fucking faces, they are blind to it.

And don’t even get me started on Octagon being portrayed as badass and strong when she’s an abuser…

Echo

She doesn’t seem OOC to me and she does have a story this season (doing whatever it takes to protect her new family, even when they don’t agree with her methods), but I just don’t care about her at all. Her redemption would have been the most intriguing aspect to her character and they passed over all of that with the time jump.

Kane

Doesn’t seem OOC either to me, and he does have a story, but it’s the same one he always has (keeping the peace). And it’s just so boring. They should have killed him off in 5x02 instead of Jaha, who imo would have a far more intriguing relationship with Diyoza.

Raven

Don’t get me wrong, I love Zaven, but that seems like her only storyline this season. The writers haven’t given her much else to do, which sucks because Raven is always behind the scenes saving everyone’s asses, but somehow not this season?? Also, side note: it makes no sense that Echo was in charge over her when Raven is Bellamy’s second. Not Echo. So, they could have given Raven a storyline where she’s in a leadership position within her family, but instead, they gave that to Echo.

Will this all come together?

Man, I really hope so. Honestly, the only thing I have hope for is Bellamy and Clarke getting a proper reconciliation. Because Blarke is the one thing that the writers have never messed up. As for the rest, guess we’ll have to wait and see. 

I also wanna binge the season sometime during the hiatus for s6. I’m 99.9% sure that things will run a lot smoother. A lot of times it just seems like it’s bad writing when really the issue is that we are watching this show episodically instead of binging it. So, we have a lot of time to dwell on something that may be addressed, resolved, etc. at the very start of the next episode. 

[ais-n]

Current favorites

So, nobody asked for this... I just think it’s kind of fun to stop and think sometimes about what my favorites are. This list is for primarily anime/cartoons and similar media. After the title, I list if there are pairings or not - to be clear, that’s not based on if people ship anyone in the series. It’s just based on the story itself and if it has pairings directly included in the main storyline.

In the gifs below, I tried to highlight funny/cute parts + badass parts of each.

Favorites:

NO PARTICULAR ORDER (except One Piece which is rightfully at #1)

One Piece *on this one, I do prefer the manga to the anime. Also, couldn’t decide on a gif so I did a few ohoho that’s what you get for my fav! :D No pairings - sort of a background m/f love interest, sort of. But also there are basically a bunch of trans and gay characters in the background. As for reason: I mean. It’s One Piece. I fucking adore One Piece. But for the 5 people in the world who haven’t heard of it, or maybe skipped over every time I mentioned it - one reason I love it so much is it’s super great storytelling. It’s SO good at bringing plots together even across literal years and decades. Also, the characters are really good, and it spans the emotions really well - from humorous, to sad; from super dark and fucked up, to light and dorky. I love range like that, and I love complicated plots, and I love interesting characters that actually have development over time. Therefore, One Piece is A+ #1 fave.

Avatar: The Last Airbender M/F love interest. I was soooooooo late to the party on this one, but I LOVE IT SO MUCH JESUS FUCKING CHRIST! It’s incredible! Aang is one of my favorite MC’s, period, across all genres and media. You never get to see characters like him... and rarely have I seen anyone since. He’s a wonderful combination of pure cinnamon roll sweetheart and someone who is totally willing to stand up for his morality and his beliefs when needed. I love his monk aesthetic, I love that he values all life, I love how strong he is not only in his powers but also in his heart and soul. I just. UGH. I LOVE HIMMMM T___T (Also the other characters are great too! Don’t get me wrong. That absolutely adds to how great ATLA is. It’s funny and endearing, sad and interesting. But if I had to choose one thing that makes me love ATLA so fucking deeply, it’s 100% my boy Aang)

Noragami M/F love interest. Noragami is SOOO GOOODDDDD UGGGGGHHH. Again, like most of the things I love, it has a really wonderful range. It’s very sad in places, heartbreaking even, and in other places it’s so unexpectedly funny. It volleys so effortlessly between those and more emotions that it gets me right in the feels. The anime is absolutely beautiful - very well animated - and the manga is drawn very well. Yato is a favorite of mine in general in anime/manga characters. He tries so hard, and sucks so much so often XD But he doesn’t let him ever stop it. I am currently stopping myself from starting the series all over again just because it’s ridiculous to do that. If you think this is just another anime/manga, give it a chance first. You might love it like I do.

Beyond the Boundary / Kyokai no Kanata M/F love interest. GODDAMN THIS FUCKING SERIES IS SO GOOD ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?? This is a funny one, because legit the reason I watched it was I saw someone on my tumblr feed post some pretty animated gif and I was like, what’s that? Looked up the name. Didn’t look AT ALL what it was about, just popped it on when a friend was over. We both got so obsessed we watched the whole thing in one sitting. Later, we tried showing the first eps to mutual friends - and THEY got so obsessed that we watched the entire thing in one sitting again. It is absolutely not your typical anime where one character has special powers in high school. It’s just. jfc. I can’t really explain it without going into spoilers or details, but this fucking show gives me SUCH GODDAMN FEELS. I loved it so much I immediately bought the entire series the second we finished it. Also, the animation is absolutely beautiful. But it isn’t just that - it’s also the story, and the characters, and the fact that for once in life, an anime I watched bothered to make a m/f love interest that I actually believe in and 100% ship and root for, and that gets me so emotionally invested that I can’t stop watching. It’s a really great series. Try watching the first episode or two, just to see if you get into it. If you do, you will not be disappointed by the rest.

Honorable mentions:

Natsume Yuujinchou / Natsume’s Book of Friends No pairings. So, I love Natsume. This is one that I almost didn’t add just because it’s been so long since I watched it, but because I love Natsume so much I wanted to make sure it stayed on the list. Natsume is such a sweet and sad character, and the stories that are told are so bittersweet. I love this series which manages to be, at once, gentle, heartbreaking, and uplifting. Haikyuu!! No pairings. To be fair, it’s been so long since I watched this that I almost forgot to add it. But I loved the fuck out of this before so it probably will go right back onto the main list when the anime comes back, or when I finally read the manga. I’m still only as far as the anime.... -_-

Bungou Stray Dogs No pairings. So, this was one where I was recommended it and I went into it not sure what to think. But I ended up loving it SO MUCH that I couldn’t stop watching! I obsessively watched the whole thing as fast as I could, and then later went on to buy some things connected to it. It’s a great series. Great characters. I thought the animation was really nice. I got the manga too, but it’s throwing me off how one MC’s speech patterns are like a 180 difference between anime and manga so I’m slower to read the manga. I still really recommend though!

Adventure Time No pairings / M/F love interest. I super didn’t get into Adventure Time the first 2-3 times I tried, but the fourth was the charm. I LOVE Finn omg. It has great characters, fun stories, is both dark and humorous, and just generally I heart it.

One Punch Man No pairings. It’s just so frickin funny XD I absolutely love the MC, but all the characters are pretty great. I appreciate the satire. I read the manga more than watch the anime on this.

Aoharu x Machinegun M/F love interest. This one is more iffy. I like the manga a lot. I liked the anime. I’m a bit undecided on if it should be on the list or not, but since I thought of it, I’m adding it.

Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood M/F love interest. Another one I almost forgot to add to the list because it’s such a given and I haven’t watched it in literal years. But this series is super good, and although I liked the first FMA anime when it came out because it was fun to watch, there’s no question FMA: Brotherhood is by far the better anime. The animation (especially of the fight scenes) is just so *___* and the story itself is one that I feel will continue to age well. I haven’t reread/rewatched in years and years, but I continue to remember loving it. It’s just... such a good story for things that are massively fucked up, but also super cool.

Is It Wrong to Try to Pick Up Girls in a Dungeon? & re:Zero

M/F love interest, more or less. For both of these - my friend and I almost didn’t watch them because we thought they would be too full of tropes. They’re very different stories, but they’re both really good. Both of them impressed us. The story of re:Zero is really great, and the characters in Dungeon are great. I recommend them both. Especially if you wouldn’t have otherwise given them a chance. Seriously, dungeon especially surprised me.. I really thought it would be kind of gross because of the title, but that turned out to be an unfounded bias on my part.

[melancholy-queen]

REIGN SPOILERS AHEAD

i’m putting all of my thoughts about the series reign on this, i probably forgot a lot of shit, but thats okay. also I’m sorry if this is very long, i have lots of opinions. scroll past!

so im on season 3 episode 7 and here are my thoughts as of this moment:

- francis is everything but also he was so controlling of mary jfc

- nostradamus is really hot

- im sad for mary that francis is dead

- frary is endgame

- but i was totally down for bash and mary to get married

- conde was so hot. i miss him already

- i was not down for the whole cheating plot line with mary

- antoine needs to chill and stop being so vengeful

- kenna is a piece of shit, i mean stop self sabotaging yourself please for the love of god

- so apparently, kenna was masterbating on the staircase in the pilot? i thought she ran out of breath from walking up all those goddamn stairs (chill, this is a joke, but i still think it's funny that she couldn't wait to get to her room)

- henry was fucking gross from the minute he walked on screen

- did everyone forget about aylee?

- poor lola, she couldve been so much more

- on the topic of lola, where tf did john philippe go? like he hasn't been in the past few episodes

- bash is so great

- bash does no wrong, i love him

- i liked diane and i miss her

- leith is honestly the most tragic character in this whole show, i love him

- megan follows does such an amazing job, like she is such a good actress

- why tf couldn't greer marry leith? i guess im just not understanding

- they totally brushed off the whole incest thing between claude and bash, gross

- but also good for greer, she's a great madam

- i don't give any shits about lord narcissi

- i loveeee claude and leith, get married pls

- i really wanted mary and francis to have a child and i almost cried at the miscarriage

- charles is a dick, but also fuck me

- catherine de medici is the best thing to have graced this show, i mean fuck me up bitch ahhh

- poor mary! its so sad that she was raped. to me, the show handled the repercussions fairly well

- i liked the whole catherine going crazy plot line, i thought the writers did a good job with her emotions towards her children

- the end did not pay off though, like how did she get better?

- also, the crazy henry plot line was ass, but i liked it almost?

- i thought the francis killing henry was done very well, subtle, but not out of the blue. plus, you could go back and look at the clues in previous episodes to aid to the murder

and now these are my thoughts past season 3, episode 7 all the way to the end:

- yes i want some bdsm in this bitch fuck it up queen

- catherine and mary are so kinky hahahaahahha

- mary's pussy literally killed don carlos (jk)

- this is the best plot line on this show so far lmao

- i like it better when mary and catherine get along

- god i love princess claude

- i hate narcisse

- fuck narcisse

- even though claude's fucking stupid for writing that her mother poisoned her in her diary and not hiding the diary well, i still love her

- narcisse's secretary is hot in a lowkey kind of way

- also, his death scene was very unrealistic

- thank god lola is leaving, fuck narcisse

- i don't like elizabeth, but i guess im not supposed to

- why does claude have to fuck up leith like that? he's already traumatized by greer

- greer is honestly the secret mvp, what a good woman

- i am more invested in claude and leith's story then anything else in this entire show

- i feel so bad for dudley's wife, she didn't ask for this

- catherine is a sex queen and i stan her

- stubble leith is so hot

- adelaide kane is so fucking pretty goddamn

- honestly, fuck the prince of spain

- charles looks like mary and francis' child grown up tbh

- i have no investment in any of the england storyline

- why do none of the ladies in waiting get a normal marriage and life jeez louise

- CLAUDE DESERVES BETTER

- LEITH DESERVES BETTER

- FUCK THE DUKE WHO MARRIED CLAUDE

- CLAUDE IS A QUEEN WTF I LOVE HER SO MUCH I WANT TO MARRY HER OML

- narcisse can suck my dick

- im all for in charge charles

- i don't like gideon

- i have no investment in the elizabeth/dudley shep, but i still find it really sad

- god i hope that gideon doesn't stab mary in the back

- christophe is really creepy

- my inStiNctS weRe cOrRecT jEsuS ChrISt, christophe is insane

- gideon is also insane

- bash is perfect

- bash needs better sleuthing skills

- i fully support the lola and elizabeth friendship

- mary and gideon have no chemistry haha

- DEAR GOD I LOVE LEITH AND CLAUDE

- greer is so strong, i love her

- I’m so for greer and leith’s friendship

- jc not the bash love storyline again

- i totally forgot mary killed narcisse’s son

- wait at what point did mary meet her ladies??

- literally the only part in this show so far to make cry is when mary went back to defend catherine tbh

- idk why i feel sympathy for catherine

- if bash dies i will stop watching

- thank god

- elizabeth is honestly a better friend to lola than mary was

- charles is so dumb

- god why can’t he learn anything, obviously his friend was a traitor

- charles’ traitor friend is bobo nick jonas

- dark mary is my everything

- claude is her mother’s carbon copy

- the valois children have other siblings? where are they and why haven’t we heard of them?????

- munro is so hot

- bash is actually fucking insane

- why is charles so trustworthy?

- when did james become hot?

- mary is so great when she’s not needy and crying for a romance

- how does everyone just kill people so easily??? i can’t even get my blood drawn without wanting to throw up

- lola is HEARTLESS

- IM SO DOWN FOR A CLAUDE/LEITH WEDDING

- also troye sivan? i love it

- charles totally sucks

- wait what happened with the pagans in the blood woods?

- i cannot stand gideon and mary together

- i’m so sad for lola, she was such a good character

- dear god, this was the only death that i’m actually sad for (and this includes francis)

- i want more for john philippe

- NO I TAKE THAT BACK POOR LEITH

- knox is such a creep

- marys brother needs to stop

- i’m so down with seer bash you guys don’t even understand

- mary is wild omg i love this turn around

- when did james get so hot

- lola and francis’ child is so fucking cute omg

- charles’ mental breakdown is crazy

- ewwww gideon and mary are gross af

- I’m all for darnley

- poor claude honestly, but she is a saint

- if he hurts her, ill beat him up

- damn charles is a vampire

- leith deserved so much better

- i love him

- dude i don’t even give a shit about the other relationships in this show, leith and claude are the greatest

- poor leith, I’m so sad

- agatha’s death is so fucking depressing

- i love mary when she actually has a backbone

- yes motherfucker, murder darnley

- i have no sympathy for darnley’s true love dying, he’s so rude and deceiving

- i love the friendship between catherine and mary ahh

- i don’t know how i feel about greer and james

- where did lady kenna go?

- i like the juxtaposition between mary and francis’ wedding and mary and darnley’s wedding with the flowers and attendees and just overall feeling and how adelaide kane acted in it. you could tell that she truly loved francis but doesn’t love darnley and feels scared with him

- also the fact that mary doesn’t match with darnley’s outfits is an interesting choice

- the timeline on this show is very strange

- claude’s character development is beautiful

- the horny witch is my fav

- umm what she’s pregnant?

- nicole can suck my fucking ass fuck her stupid ass

- i wish the end wasn’t so abrupt tbh

- the last five minutes was so good, i teared up

- ugh now i feel empty inside and want to watch it again!!

ugh this show is so good, like insanely good. i feel like most of the time the characterization was wonderful. claude was my favorite, so its no surprise i like claude and leith the best. i didn’t like francis most of the time while he was alive but i missed his presence on the show. bash was an absolute gem. adelaide kane is so hot oml i died multiple times. i really enjoyed watching it!!!

rate: 9/10 archduchesses falling out of a window during sex (still my favorite part of the show)

favorite character: claude! queen catherine!! runner ups: bash, greer, leith, sometimes mary, elizabeth at the endish

favorite season: season 1!! can’t beat the drama!

[idonotbiteclits]

so, i was bored in class and decided to answer all those dumb 100+ question things even though nobody asked, but bc theres so many im gonna put a keep reading so yea

How many bruises on you right now?

For the first time is forever,, none,, that sounds bad, but i actually run into stuff alot

Is trust a big issue for you?

The issue is i dont know who i shouldn’t trust

Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

Yea, i like yesterday

What are you excited for?

Idk, finishing Daria

What happened tonight?

It’s currently morning so idk

Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

I think it’s disgusting the way people treat girls who are wasted

Is confidence cute?

very

What is the last beverage you had?

Gatorade,, it tasted like a waterdown cherry

How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

I wouldn’t say i Fully™ trust anyone

Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

No, what, never

What are you gonna do Saturday night?

Cry probably

What are you going to spend money on next?

Probably cheetos

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

Bashin (he’s my lil brother)

Are you in a good mood?

yea

Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

Depends would they be able to eat me?

Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Probably

Listening to?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FtAtR1gRliI

Who was the last person you danced with?

My dog bella

Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

Absolutely not

Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

Not really

Do you sing in the shower?

Most of the time

Do you dance in the car?

no

What do you wear to bed?

Typically just underwear, but sometimes i also wear a shirt and socks

Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Idk, loving me

Can you curl your tongue?

no

Who would you like to see in concert?

Fall Out Boy

Tea or coffee?

Hot coco

Are you patient?

I bet everyone around me wishes i was

DJ or band, at a wedding?

A band that isn’t suck-ey

Do you want to get married?

probably

Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?

Well, you see, i hope to end up dating an 18 yr old at my current age bc Marcus is turning 18 in a few months and hopefully we’ll still be dating then

Can you commit to one person?

Yea, probably

What exactly are you wearing right now?

A yellow shirt and black skinny jeans

How often do you listen to music?

always

Do you wear jeans or sweats more?

Sweats are gross

Are you a social or an antisocial person?

yes

Are you good at hiding your feelings?

I wish

Do you care if people talk badly about you?

Very much so

Are you going out of town soon?

Probably not

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

Yea

Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

Who hasn’t

Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night?

My friend Hayden @html-shutup

Does anyone hate you?

probably

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?

My brother

Are you a jealous person?

Lol, very

If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?

Okay, so could i delete the year i was born? Like all of 2000, and if i did that would i delete my birth and then end up Never existing bc thats the only year im willing to delete

Did you have a dream last night?

Probably but i don’t remember it

Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to?

I mean there are people, i just won’t tell anyone EVERYTHING

Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

I hope not

Do you think someone has feelings for you?

I sure hope someone does

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

Marcus probably is

Is your life anything like it was two years ago?

Kinda, but it’s still VERY different

What’s the best part about school?

Seeing my dear friends

Do you replay things that have happened in your head?

All the time, jfc do i ever stop

a fictional character you familiarize yourself with

Whenever i start to relate to a charter i cry and ditch the series or book bc Yikes

hair colour you want to try

I want green hair agian

what do you have as your desktop background?

Um well,,

which feature do you like about yourself?

My hips are cute

which animal do you like best?

foxes

last thing you bought?

I think it was soup ? idk

christmas or halloween?

halloween

meaning behind your url?

Well, there is no meaning, but i would like it to be noted that candied yams are fukin gross

last time you smiled and why?

At lunch, bc my friends we’re being happy and joyful and we we’re all laughing and having a good time

favourite animation?

Like animated movie? Bc i guess that would be Mulan

longest relationship?

Idk, like a couple weeks past two months

mention 3 things you’re excited for?

The next time i get to see marcus

Summer to see my best friend

Its a couple years away, but ive always been excited to finally move away from my mother

weirdest thing you’ve done when you were drunk/high?

I don’t

last book you read?

I don’t remember

last time you kissed someone?

December 29th I believe? I was like half asleep and kissed Marcus, I don’t remember it too much and what I do remember of it feels Mostly like an actual dream (probably bc i was basically asleep)

who was the person you last gave a hug to?

I don’t remember i gave like 4 people a hug at lunch but i don’t remember who was the last one i hugged

how did you celebrate your last birthday?

I went to the mall with my bitch ass sister,, i hated it

something you love doing?

Trying my best to annoy Marcus ♡♡

what would you love to be/ do when you’re older?

A stripper/ baker

fave subject at school?

I don’t really have one

something you regret and something you don’t regret doing?

I regret everything, but i also don’t regret anything

fave colour?

yellow

best childhood memory?

What memory?????

any siblings?

Yea,,

Bashin

Bitch ass sister

A few half siblings

where do you see yourself in 10 years?

In lace lingerie by a window sill petting a cat and drinking wine

fave outfit?

I don’t really have one

fave chocolate?

Chocolate makes my mouth feel like cotton so i don’t really have a favorite

which magical world would you transport yourself into?

One where the bee’s are not dying

something that makes you laugh?

D & p videos

something you’d love to do but never did?

Be a Serious Hoe™

what was the last present you got and from whom?

A tiny bee stuffie from aidan

favourite drink?

Apple juice

something you’re good at?

crying

describe the perfect date?

A trip to the van gogh museum

dogs or cats?

yes

take a selfie and post it

Follow my spam ig if u wanna see selfies   @ sir_dikk

fave pizza toppings?

Cheese and spinach

favourite alcoholic beverages ?

Wine and champagne bc they're pretty

favourite hangout?

Idk, Bailey’s house

happiest memory you have?

Dude, so many recent events that i remeber make me happy and itd take me 8765123 days to sort through and decide which is the happiest

summer or winter?

summer

want any tattoos? if so what?

A bee tattoo kinda between my boobs with flowers under them

A whale tattoo that matches with bashin, it’d be on the side of my left hand

A small space scene above the back of my elbow on my left arm

A small geometric fox  below my elbow on my right arm

- probably more but those are the ones i picked out Years ago

how did you celebrate christmas and nye?

Christmas sucked and my mother made me cry, so it wasn't a celebration

NYE, i was with marcus and our friend nathan, it was fun we ate cheese and played cards against humanity, and after we left nathan’s I spent the night with marcus which was Really nice

how do you plan on spending today?

Im gonna go to the library and see some friends

favourite movie?

Weird science, it’s from the 80’s

mention a place you’d really like to visit?

Van gogh museum

your favourite book and why?

I don’t have a favorite

mention something that fascinates you?

bees

ever done drugs?

no

favourite song?

Currently,, Ever After by Marianas Trench  

last time you got drunk?

I didn’t

favourite quote?

“Thanks pete”

have you ever been abroad, if so where?

No unfortunately

weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

One i was trying to spell baguette but all i could spell was egg and i got so angry i woke myself up

where do you like going in the weekends?

Anywhere away from my house

any hobbies?

baking

favourite meal?

Lasagna

Who was the last person you held hands with?

Marcus i believe

Are you outgoing or shy?

yes

Who are you looking forward to seeing?

marcus

Are you easy to get along with?

Kinda ?

If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you?

I hope so

What kind of people are you attracted to?

The gay kind

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now?

Yea, i sure hope i am

Who from the opposite gender is on your mind?

hahahhahahahhahahha, ,,,, devon bc i just saw him and remembered Every single time i have ever hugged him

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable?

Not really

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Phinnley probably

What does the most recent text that you sent say?

“im going to school now, i hope you have a good day and that i get to talk to you later ♡♡”

What are your 5 favorite songs right now?

Loser, Julian Moon

Stereo, Mike Mains & The Branches

Anything for You, Ludo

Sophomore Slump or Comeback Of the Year, Fall Out Boy

In The Mourning, Paramore

Do you like it when people play with your hair?

Omg, yESSSSS

Do you believe in luck and miracles?

Not really

What thing are you looking forward to the most?

Idk, the next time i get to see marcus,, i miss them

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

Most likely

Do you think there is life on other planets?

Yes, and i hope humans never come in contact with that life bc humans ruin everything

Do you still talk to your first crush?

no

Do you like bubble baths?

sometimes

Do you like your neighbors?

They once looked in my window while i was changing but later gave me cheese so im okay with them

What are you bad habits?

All of my habits

Where would you like to travel?

Far away

What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?

So, i shoved my insecurities so far down that i don’t even remember what they are i just know they’re there but well hidden

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker?

lighter

Who are you most comfortable around?

Bashin probably

Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?

Yea, a few

Do you ever want to get married?

Maybe, id have to REALLY be in love with the person

Is your hair long enough for a pony tail?

Yea, but id look like an onion

Spell your name with your chin.

no

Do you play sports? What sports?

Ahahhahahhah, what? Me? Sports?

Would you rather live without TV or music?

Preferably neither

Have you ever liked someone and never told them?

yea

What do you say during awkward silences?

Idk something dumb and more awkward

Describe your dream girl/guy?

Rich,, marcus is actually everything ive ever wanted in a significant other

What do you want to do after high school?

die

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

no

If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?

Im probably day dreaming

Do you smile at strangers?

Always, and i get sad when they don’t smile back

What makes you get out of bed in the morning?

Morty whines like a lil bitch and it gets annoying so i get up to kick him out of my bed

What are you paranoid about?

everything

Have you ever been high?

no

Have you ever been drunk?

no

Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?

yes,,

Ever wished you were someone else?

often

One thing you wish you could change about yourself?

How annoying i am

Last thing you ate?

cereal

First thing you ate this morning?

I didn’t eat until lunch and the first thing i ate then was a fry

Ever won a competition? For what?

Yea, i made the best lasagna in my whole church

Been suspended/expelled? For what?

no

Been arrested? For what?

Kinda but not really

Ever been in love?

probably

Tell us the story of your first kiss?

I don’t remember my first kiss lol

Do you like your internet friends more than your real friends?

I love my internet friends just as much as i do my irl ones

Facebook or Twitter?

no

Twitter or Tumblr?

tumblr

Names of your bestfriends?

Bailey

Bashin

So many more the list would last for days

How many pillows do you sleep with?

four

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?

Yes,, three lil stuffed bears, i love them all

How many stuffed animals do you think you have?

Too many

What colour is your underwear?

Yellow, but like an ugly neon yellow

Favourite ice cream flavour?

Im not a fan of ice cream

Favourite tv show?

Rick and Morty

First person you talked to today?

Phinnley, i believe

Last person you talked to today?

Idk, i just spoke to eli

Name a person you love?

So many persons

Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?

myself

In a fight with someone?

I don’t think so

Last movie you watched?

Idk, i dont watch movies often

Favourite actress?

Leslie Mann

Favourite actor?

Nicolas Cage

How are you feeling?

Idk buddy

Do you type fast?

Type badly

Do you regret anything from your past?

All of it

Do you miss anyone from your past?

So many

Ever been to a bonfire party?

Yikes, yea,   ):

Ever broken someone’s heart?

So many times, i’m the worst

Have you ever been on a horse?

yea

What should you be doing?

School stuff

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt?

yee

Who was the last person you cried in front of?

Idk i cried in my history class earlier so people saw me

What was your childhood nickname?

Danny, but that’s now my name but spelled better

Have you ever been out of your province/state?

yea

Are you listening to music right now?

Yea, Fall Out Boy

Are you afraid of the dark?

sometimes

Is cheating ever okay?

no

Can you keep white shoes clean?

no

Do you believe in love at first sight?

Not hardly

Do you believe in true love?

I want to but i feel like it’s not very realistic that true love is real

What makes you happy?

marcus

Would you change your name?

I done did that already

What’s your zodiac sign?

cancer

Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

“No you don’t”

Favourite lyrics right now?

“There's a little bit of loser in us,, Just two weirdos who fell in love,, I guess were made from the same weird stuff,, Being a loser with you doesn't suck”

Can you count to one million?

Can i count at all ??

Dumbest lie you ever told?

All of them

Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?

closed

How tall are you?

5”4

Night or Day?

Both are super great

Favourite month?

May

Are you a vegetarian?

nah

Dark, milk or white chocolate?

Chocolate milk

Was today a good day?

So far yea

Mars or Snickers?

mars

Do you believe in ghosts?

no

Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?

“And summarize the work.”