12yeahiminluvwu · 4 years ago
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Betty
pairing - JJ Maybank x Reader
summary- JJ finally apologizes for what he did, but apologies only go so far...
word count- 1.6k+
warning(s)- swearing, cheating, mentions of underage drinking
So, i skipped some of the lyrics, but it’s almost the same concept :)
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Betty i won’t make assumptions about why you switched your home room but i thinks it’s cause of me
The group of friends sat talking and laughing, waiting for their last friend to walk in the door but she never did. 
“Where's y/n?” Kie asked and JJ scratched the back of his neck, having a sinking feeling that the reason she wasn’t here was because of him. The events that took place last night still fresh in his mind. 
He felt bad, but he had no energy to start a fight with the pogues so he stayed silent. 
Pope and John B looked at each other confused when they saw y/n sitting at a lunch table alone a few hours later. It was unlike her to not sit with them, or even talk to them. She had sent no text indicating she’d be late or anything.
She looked up from her book and saw the boys approaching her table so she got up quickly and walked out, avoiding them at all costs.
Betty, I know where it all went wrong your favorite song was playing from the far side of the gym
The worst thing that I ever did was what I did to you
JJ watched as y/n danced with John B as her favorite song blared from the gym speakers. He offered when JJ told her he didn’t want to dance because the crowd was making him feel claustrophobic. Y/n didn’t think anything of it, but he used that time to sneak away to see someone, a girl.
JJ wasn’t proud of it, but y/n had been busy lately and hadn’t had much time to spend with him so he got bored. 
Inez, a girl in the same grade as the pogues, was the one that saw the pair making outside the gym doors and ran to tell y/n. By that time she’d been off by herself looking for JJ, the song having ended a while ago. When Inez showed up next to her with a picture of her boyfriend with his tongue down someone else’s throat, she felt the room start to spin and quickly ran out to see if it was true.
Tears welled in her eyes as they came into view. there he was, leaning against the wall with another girl stuck to him. She was heart broken, so she left. 
She spent the rest of the school year avoiding the pogues and making new friends. 

If I showed up at your party, would you have me?
Would you want me?

“JJ just apologize, we fucking miss her dude and it’s your fault that she doesn’t talk to us anymore!” John B pressed as the group of pogues walked down the hallway on the last day of school. They heard that you were throwing a party tonight to celebrate the beginning of summer and immediately thought that this was the perfect opportunity for the blond to apologize. 
You hadn't talked to any of them much, other than simple niceties when it was necessary. You hadn’t changed much though, you just had new friends. None that would ever replace the pogues, but they would do. 
“She doesn’t want to hear from me guys. She’s made that very clear.” You had blocked him on absolutely everything the moment you got home from the dance that night, and ignored all of his attempts to talk to you. You avoided him like the plague. The whole time you’d been with JJ, you made such a big deal about how important loyalty was to you. So it killed you when you caught him red handed with another girl. 
“Please try again. You know you miss her just as much as we do!” Kie added and the boy looked down. It was true. He missed you more than anything in the world, and it killed him knowing that he broke the biggest promise he’d ever made to you. Loyalty. 
JJ wanted to use the excuse that he was just being stupid and wasn’t thinking straght, but he knew better than to waste your time on stupid lies. 
“Guys, I-... Of course I miss her. I’m in love with her. But I hurt her. I broke her trust in a way that I don’t think I’ll ever be able to mend. I mean, yeah I’ll try again, but if she turns me away tonight then I just have to let her go…” He said and the group all nodded, praying to whatever was above that you missed them as much as they missed you.
Betty right now is the last time I can dream about what happens when you see my face again
JJ stood with sweaty hands, outside the house he’d grown to know so well over the past few years. It had become a second home to him, since you’d come to the island. He took in a shaky breath, wiping his palms on the fraying cargo shorts he wore too often, and made his way to the porch. Music could be heard from inside, flashing lights shining through the widows. The door was open and there were a few stragglers littered across the lawn, but you were nowhere in sight. Not yet at least. 
He walked through the crowd of sweaty drunken teenagers, looking for the eyes he loved so much. He found you in the backyard, smiling with some of your new friends. When one of them looked up from the conversation, they saw him and alerted you of his presence. His heart dropped as he saw your eyes finally meeting his. This didn’t seem promising.
You just looked at him, waiting for him to make the first move. You saw him mouth, can we talk? in your direction and nodded, excusing yourself from your friends.
Time seemed to slow down as you made your way through the crowd. The music sounded quieter, just white noise in the background, as your throat began to try and your heart rate began to speed up. When you got close to him, you started heading the direction of your bedroom, a place JJ was familiar with. 
Closing the door behind himself he took in the space he hadn’t seen in months.
I’m only seventeen
I don’t anything
But I know I miss you
Silence filled the room as all the two of you could do was stare at each other. Tension ran thick throughout your room as you, again, waited for him to make a move. 
He took a deep breath suddenly, readying himself to speak. 
“I’m sorry,” He paused and you raised your eyebrows at him, as if you ask if that was all he had to say for himself.
“I have no excuse for why I did what I did, but I want you to know that these past few months have been absolute hell. I miss you every second of every day. You have no idea how much I miss you. Fuck, I wish I could go back to December and beat my own ass for doing what I did to you, for fucking up the best damn thing that’s ever happened to me, that will ever happen to me. I love you, y/n, I always will and I understand if you never want to talk to me again . I would understand if you told me to just go fuck myself and never saw me again, but I couldn’t not tell you how sorry I am…” He rambled all in one breath. You sat quietly, not quite knowing what to say to him. 
“JJ, I-... fuck. JJ you just about killed me, you know that? You know what loyalty means to me but you still went and stuck your tongue down some chicks throat, and god knows what else you stuck in her. What the fuck am I supposed to do with that? My dad cheated on my mom and I had to watch her go through that. I had to watch her divorce the man she loved for 15 years and fight for custody of me. I had to watch her rebuild herself from the ground up, by herself JJ. You knew that. You fucking knew that, but you went and did it anyway.” You finally said, tears welling up in your eyes. JJ nodded, moving closer to you and taking a seat. 
“I know baby, I know I fucked up. But I promise you that if you let me try again, I will never leave your side ever. I want you forever, and it took losing you to understand that but I know now that I can’t live without you baby girl. Please, give me another chance to show you that I love you. I won’t fuck it up this time, please.” It was JJ’s turn to shed a tear, and you could feel your heart start to break, the walls you’d build around yourself in the last months crumbling down. JJ didn’t open up easily, you knew that. Which also meant you knew that this was genuine. 
If he didn’t care, he wouldn’t be here, crying his eyes out and trying to get you back in his life. 
“I just need time to think JJ…” You said, placing your hand over his and squeezing it. 
“I’d wait forever if you asked me, I hope you know that…” He whispered and you nodded, reaching up to wipe the tear that had fallen down his cheek. 
“I know, J… I know..”
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aurorasrpt · 3 years ago
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every time I see the name jonothan daviss I keep thinking people want the dude from korn in their rp’s
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12yeahiminluvwu · 4 years ago
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A Little Bigger Now
pairing - Rudy Pankow x Little Sister!Reader
summary- Requested by anon! here 
word count- 887
warning(s)- mentions of losing your virginity, underage drinking, underage smoking, sappy sibling relationship :)
pt.3 in the little sister series :) it’s not exactly what the request was but i thought this would be a little cuter!
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“Rudy come on, she’s almost 17! Let her have some fun!” Bailey said, handing you a beer. Everyone was scattered around the apartment, doing their own thing, and Bailey had her heart set on seeing you drunk at least once before you went home at the end of summer. Rudy didn’t like the idea quite as much. He didn’t want you to get hurt in any way. 
The few friends you’d made, that didn’t care that your brother was THE Rudy Pankow, liked taking you out to parties and going out to do stuff so this wouldn’t be your first time drinking this summer. Rudy didn’t need to know that though. 
“Bailey, if my mom found out that I let her drink, she would kill me!” Was his argument of the night. You just rolled your eyes and took the beer anyway, opting not to listen to his protests. 
“She’s not gonna find out dude, get the stick out of your ass!” You said, cracking open the cold can. You took a sip and he watched you, waiting for you to gag like he had the first time he drank. The look on his face was enough to make everyone around you laugh. His jaw was slack, his eyes wide, and you made direct eye contact as you took another sip, drinking it as if it were no more than water. 
“Wha-” He began to ask but you cut him off before he could finish his sentence. “What were you doing at my age in our small ass town?” You said, eyebrows raised, proving a point. His mind went back to when he had been your age and nodded. Small town Ketchikan, Alaska = teen drinking every Friday night. 
“Exactly so shut up.” You said and continued drinking. When you finished the first one, Bailey was the one who handed you the next, and this continued all night until your eyes felt heavy and everything was significantly funnier. Your body felt light but so heavy at the same time, and you felt as if you could fall asleep right where you were sitting. Your mind was clear though. You were in control of what you wanted to say, it was just harder to put words together, making you stumble through sentences you otherwise would have been able to say with ease. 
Drew and Rudy had decided to stay sober so they could both keep an eye on you, and so they would remember what you were like when you were drunk. They sat back as everyone played a harmless game of never have I ever. 
“Ok, never have I ever not lost my v card!” Maddie said, thinking she would get you to put a finger down, but you didn’t. Your eyes scanned the room, watching everyone look at you expectantly. Before tonight, they all had just thought of you as a little kid, despite your age.
“Y/n come on don’t lie!” Chase said and you laughed, still not putting a finger down. 
“I’m not lying!” You defended, giggling at the sound of your own voice and the shock on everyone’s face. 
“What do you mean you’re not lying? When the fuck did you lose your virginity?” Your brother said, getting up from his spot on the chair across the room. 
“Why are you yelling?” You asked. The mood in the room drastically changed as he got closer to you, taking the drink from your hand. 
“Why are you freaking out over it dude? She’s old enough to decide what she’s comfortable with!” Bailey defended you and you nodded, suddenly losing the high bubbly feeling you’d had only moments ago. 
“I’m freaking out because she’s my little sister! I changed her diapers! She’s my little baby and I don’t want her growing up!” he said, his features softening lightly, sinking down to your level and holding your face in his hands, “I don’t want you to grow up!” 
“Rudy…” You said, reaching up to place your hands on his. His hands felt warm against your already warm skin. He always did this when he wanted to get through to you, he had since you were a little kid. At that moment, you truly felt like one. 
“You’re growing up so fast and I had no idea. I’ve been gone for the last few years, and I feel like you’re a whole different person! I just want you to be my little sister forever!” He spoke. You could see him holding in a tear as he talked to you. 
“I’m always gonna be your little sister Rudes, I’m just a little bigger than I used to be!” You giggled as a smile broke onto his face, a small chuckle falling from his lips. 
Everyone around you two smiled at the moment you were sharing. Your brother pulled you into his arms and buried his face in your shoulder. He always gave you the best hugs when you were down, but he definitely needed this one more than you did. 
“Promise?” He asked and you nodded, a smile breaking out on your face. Your arms wrapped tighter around his body, giving one final squeeze before he sat next to you, keeping you close to him.
“So who’s this boy?” He asked and everyone started laughing at the change of pace.
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12yeahiminluvwu · 4 years ago
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Wildest Dreams
pairing - Drew Starkey x Reader
summary-  requested by @starrystarkey93 ! “hellooo, i saw that u wrote a couple of things based on songs of taylor swift, so i was wondering if you would be up to writing something based on Wildest Dream with drew, like reader is a cast mate of him and he cheats on his girlfriend with reader (in the filming period) and they decide to keep it a secret but they both know there are feelings there. idk if this was comprehensible but u can always dm me and if u don’t want to write this it’s okay!!!”
word count- 1.1k+
warning(s)-  cheating, mentions of sex, heartbreak. not edited lol. 
I hope you like it lea!! 
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Nothing lasts forever
But this is gonna take me down
You watched as Drew held his girlfriend, who had come to set to surprise him, and wished it was you in his arms. The love you felt for Drew Starkey was unlike any other love you had felt before. When he touched you, it was like sparks igniting against your skin. He built a fire inside you that burned hotter than any other. When he looked her in the eye, you saw something that wasn’t there when he looked at you. It was like he could see a future in her, that he didn’t see with you. 
Knowing this made it seem like the light at the end of the tunnel burned and fizzled out, no longer illuminating the path you were on, like there was no point anymore if Drew didn’t want you the way he wanted her. But you knew going into this that the secret affair never gets picked in the end. 
I said “no one has to know what we do” 
His hands are in my hair
His clothes are in my room
Nothing but the lamp outside you apartment lit up the hallway as you and Drew stumbled back to your empty living room. His hands roamed over every inch of your body, igniting the familiar feeling of fireworks beneath your skin, leaving nothing but goosebumps in their wake. 
His lips felt like heaven against yours, moving in perfect sync. The kiss you shared was hungry. He wanted you. Bad. It had been too long since he’d been able to touch you, and he felt like if he didn’t rip your clothes off right now he’d simply die.
Your fingers found their way to the nape of his neck, tugging on the short strands of dirty blond locks that you had grown to love so much. Rushing into your room, you didn’t realize all of the shirts he’d accidentally left strung across your bedroom floor. To anyone on the outside, it might seem like they were meant to be there. Like he was just waiting for laundry day to pick them up. Like he lived there. But he didn’t...
Drew knew somewhere in his mind that this was wrong. That he had a girlfriend he should be faithful to. But you made him feel some type of way that she never did. He’d spent the last few months thinking he had the best of both worlds, even though in the process he’d managed to grab a hold of your heart and shatter it to pieces. 
He’s so tall
Handsome as hell
He’s so bad but he does it so well
And when we’ve had our very last kiss 
My last request is… 
“And that’s a wrap! Thank you, everyone, for making this such an amazing project. I can’t wait to see you all again!” The director said as you and Drew finished your last scene together. You hoped that the kiss you just shared wouldn’t be the last but part of you had a sinking feeling it would be. 
“Can you meet me in my trailer?” You asked him, after you both finished saying your goodbyes to the cast and crew. He nodded and you left him to finish up, hoping he wouldn’t take too long. 
A few minutes later, Drew walked in with a small smirk on his face. 
“Couldn’t wait until we got  to your apartment huh?” He chuckled but you pushed his hand away when it went to meet your waist. 
“Say you’ll see me again… that this isn’t the end of us.” You whispered, desperately trying to hold back to tears threatening to flood your eyes. Instinctively, his hands went to grab yours. You let him, but looked down when he tried to meet your eyes. 
“Y/n… you know we can’t keep doing this. I have to go back to her, I can’t just leave her…” He said, hoping that it would make things easier on him. Deep down, his heart was breaking at the thought of never getting to hold you again. But he had to let you go. He had someone to go home to, and it was time for him to shape up and be the man that his girlfriend thought he was, instead of the man he’d become. The man that was in love with two different girls at the same time. 
You’ll see me in hindsight
Tangled up with you all night
Burning it down
Someday, when you leave me
I hope these memories
Follow you around
Flashbacks of the nights you spent tangled up in the sheets played through Drew’s head like a hazy dream. Seeing you all dressed up for the premiere was making him wish you’d been the one he showed up with. He hadn’t seen you for months before this past week. You spent every waking moment together, doing press for the movie you were both starring in. 
The moment your eyes met, that first day, all the feeling you had worked so hard to suppress came rushing back in full force. You fell madly in love with him all over again but there was nothing you could do about it. Absolutely nothing. You just had to sit there and act like he was your best friend.
Little did you know, the same thing happened with him. He’d fallen out of love with her and further in love with you, but he couldn’t tell you that. There was something stopping him. Whether or not it was fear of rejection after all this time, or some weird attachment he had to her, he didn’t really know. 
So as you stood there, posed together for the pictures, you both put on a fake smile, hoping for the night to be over so you’d never have to see him again. 
As the movie played in the theater, you were reminded of all the moments you’d shared with Drew, but as you looked over at him, you saw that he was looking at her. 
Drew looked at you longingly before he looked back over at her, deciding finally that he couldn’t put himself through this pain anymore. 
You quickly stood up, excusing yourself from the room, and made your way out to the car you’d come in. 
He whispered in her ear that it was over and looked back over to see you gone. He rushed out, watching as your car pulled away. It was that moment that he knew it was too late. 
He’d lost you. 
Say you’ll remember me 
Even if it’s just in your Wildest Dreams. 
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12yeahiminluvwu · 4 years ago
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A Little Bigger Now (Alt. Scenario)
pairing - Rudy Pankow x Little Sister!Reader
summary- Rudy comes to pick you up from a party when he catches wind that you’re a little tied up...
word count- 1.18k
warning(s)- implied sex, swearing, mentions of underage drugs/alcohol usage, protective older brother, probably some typo(e?)s, shitty writing :)
Rudy’s Little sister pt.4!!! I’ve gotten quite a few requests for another one, so I thought this one would be fun :) I hope y’all like it! 
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Your ears buzzed at the feeling of the bass booming throughout the crowded living room you had been sucked into. Bodies crashed around like wild animals to the beat of the music, everyone lost in the moment, drunk and high off of pure teenage ecstasy. You didn’t quite remember how you ended up here, at this party, with your friends and your boyfriend. Nonetheless, here you were, dancing and drinking, having the time of your life. 
“Baby, let’s go upstairs…” Your boyfriend whispered from behind you. You could feel his smirk on your neck as your body grinded into his, creating a friction you had never felt before. You nodded to him and led him up the stairs, disappearing into the night. 
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Rudy pulled up to the house and sighed, knowing it would take him a while to find you. Walking into the living room, his eyes scanned the crowd, thinking maybe he’d get lucky and you’d be sitting right there. You were nowhere to be seen, only fueling his frustration. 
One of our friends had accidentally called him, asking if you were with him because she couldn’t find you, resulting in him getting worried and coming to find you himself. 
He found your friend sitting at the kitchen counter with a drink in her hand, laughing amongst other people. 
“Hey, have you seen y/n?” He yelled over the music, making sure she’d be able to hear him. Looking over, she shook her head, then continued her drunken conversation that didn’t make any sense to him at all.
Your brother resorted to showing people a picture and asking if they’d seen you. After many “Nah man, haven’t seen her’s”, and “no but could I get her snap?’s” he finally found someone who recognized you. 
“Yeah man, saw her walk upstairs with some dude!” The person said. His eyes widened at their words. 
“Wait what? She went upstairs with someone?” He asked and they nodded, turning away and going back to dancing. 
Rudy knew exactly what that meant. He also knew you were very drunk, or at least he thought so. That’s how your friend made it seem… So he rushed upstairs, hoping to find you before it was too late. As he rounded the corner of the upper hallway, you could be seen slipping out of a room, hair a mess and clothes disheveled like they’d been ripped off. 
“Y/n!” He yelled, rushing to you, pushing through the people that had gathered upstairs. Your head shot up at the sound of your brother’s voice echoing through the hallway. 
“Fuck…” You whispered to yourself, smoothing out your messy clothing to the best of your ability and trying to come up with an excuse that your brother would actually believe. He came to a quick stop in front of you, immediately checking you for any injuries you might have. 
“Are you ok? What happened? Are you sober? What happened in there? Are you ok?” He rushed out in one breath, overwhelming you even more than the party had. 
“Rudy, I’m fine… What are you doing here? And yes, I’m sober, for the most part…” You said, swatting his hands away from you and taking a step back to try and catch your breath. 
“Your friend called and said she couldn’t find you so I thought you were in trouble, so I came to find you… What were you doing upstairs… alone in a room with someone?” He asked, eyebrows perked. Your face flushed and suddenly any excuse you had conjured up to try and get out of this situation went out the window. You had never been good at lying to your brother. 
“Uhh, I- I was… you know… hangin’ out. With a friend. Yeah, a friend. We were just, hangin’ out…” You stuttered out, capped by a sheepish smile, desperately trying to get out of telling your brother what you had actually just done. He was quiet, processing what you had just word vomited at him. Your hand began to sweat, in anticipation of what he was going to say. 
It started to sink in that he knew what you were doing, but he wanted you to say it. 
“You were hanging out… with a friend…” He repeated and you nodded, too quickly for it to be believable. 
The look in his eyes was prying. Your breath caught in your throat at the thought of even saying it in front of your brother. He’d never talked about it with you, you had never talked about it with him, and you’d like to keep it that way. 
“Y/n…-” 
“Ugh, Rudy you don’t want to hear what happened in that room ok, just drop it!” You finally said and his eyes widened. Ok, maybe he didn’t know… Or he did but he didn’t think it was actually true. Who knows. 
“You… like right before this? Like, in there?” He asked and you nodded slowly. 
“Gross.” 
“Oh shut up, don’t act like you don’t!” You defended yourself, pushing his shoulder. He turned away, grabbing your hand in the process and started walking down the hallway. 
“Where are we going?” You asked, having to yell as you got into the living room to be heard over the music. 
“I came all this way, I’m not gonna come all the way back to pick you up. Let’s go!” 
“Ugh, Rudy, I wasn’t ready to leave yet!” He turned around, looking you straight in the eye. 
“Y/n, I just found out that my baby sister had sex, and has probably had it before tonight too. I need to get out of here and process this information. So please, let’s go!” Heat rushed to your cheeks once again and you sighed, realizing you just dropped a bomb on your brother. You followed him out to his car and got in quietly. 
“You’re not mad are you?” You asked after a while. Before now, your eyes hadn’t left the road in front of you, but now they shifted to your brother in the driver’s seat. You saw him shake his head. 
“I can’t be mad y/n, I was the same age when I lost my… you know. But it just shocked me because I didn’t realize how grown-up you were getting… I thought you were always gonna be my little sister, but you’re not little anymore,” You saw him tilt his head back, as if he was trying to hold in tears. You felt your eyes well with tears at the thought of making your brother cry.
“Oh, Roo I’m always gonna be your little sister… I’m just a little bigger now…” You said, reaching over to grab his hand. He latched tightly onto you and didn’t let go until it was time to get out of the car. He came around the car and wrapped his arms tightly around you, swaying the two of you back and forth for a few minutes. 
“Don’t get any bigger ok?” He said and you nodded, laughing as the two of you walked up to your apartment.
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