#just imagine u are c!tommy and you will get through it. exile arc will save u

[proudfreakmetarusonikku]

anyway the funny shit aside i do wanna talk about my procedure before i go to bed.

i had a colonoscopy and it feels weird to talk about bc like society is so fucking weird about it but it’s not any different from any other semi invasive procedure lmao. i've seen people somehow treat it as sexual when it’s like. the least fucking sexual thing i can imagine like it’s literally just a medical procedure to check your organs lmao. it’s fine.

the worst part is the prep you have to drink because it tastes like cold vomit. and you can’t take the taste out with food or anything. going to the toilet afterwards isn’t all that bad but it gives you horrible cramps and the hunger is unreal you dream about food it’s awful. that is the worst part I was vomiting from hunger and I couldn’t walk.

but like once I was in the hospital it was fine? i got a cannula (and then they tested it by injecting salty water which felt funny haha) and then I got wheeled into the room where they gave me gas and air had me lay on my side and put a tiny bit of sedative in my cannula bc i was already chill and that was like all I had to do. I didn’t feel anything I just chatted to the nurses. and you get to see your own internal organs if you want to so that’s cool. the funniest thing is they took samples and it didn’t hurt even though you could see the blood on the screen lol.

but yeah. 0/10 experience for the prep i was literally vomiting towards the end but the actual colonoscopy was like. literally just lying in a bed and chatting with nurses in between breathing in a Funny Gas it was literally easier than getting a vaccine. no issue at all. apparently it’s difficult for some people bc the nurses were excitedly telling mum about how good i did but like. bro i literally just lay there on calming drugs chilling. the most annoying part was how they made me wait for like 20 minutes before mum took me home after. also i got to wear those hospital gowns like in the movie and it made me feel like c!tommy so that made me happy. I could not have been so calm without c!tommy exile arc saved me

[olwolo]

He's so confident when he's talking but his mind is so messed up rn I'm loving it. I was a little too excited today so I gotta rewatch it again later (which is easier with wilbur's objective and shorter streams lol) but I love everything about it. I like how wilbur seems to have such nice control of his character like u think ur thoughts are out of place? Imagine c!wilbur's lmao but fr, the ranboo bit let me a bit off and abt dream, I really think wilbur like actually thinks he's a god amongst man or something like that. The whole "we have to free him, he doesn't belong here" gave me chills, really. It's almost as if he has admiration and fear of c!dream but like,,, both in a good way, u know? At least, maybe in dream's eye. It's so weird omg I hate it but I love whatever he's doing. I missed lore streams by wilbur, he really has like such way with lore damn it,, semi-lore my beloved 🖤 also, MAN phil and wilbur's interaction really sold me holy shit I'm like really REALLY thinking abt ur syndicate!wilbur now. I still don't think the redemption arc is happening now, bc c!wilbur is too good at fooling others and himself even, but oh my I'm SO ready for the next one. Plus QUACKITY DIARY IN THE END. It's coming, olwolo tumblr user, it's coming. The big revenge boys stream and GOD I wish techno can be somewhere near them when it happens. Although I don't mind the thought of him setting dream free either, but I still have to think abt this headcanon more ig lmao also, bench trio my beloved let's get it. 🧨

okay i checked out all the povs so it’s time to ramble. i’m putting it under the cut!

i really missed wilbur’s streams as c!wilbur they are just so good. at some points i literally can’t tell if he’s being genuine or just bullshitting his way through. like the whole apologizing thing seems all good and well but then his response to jack with ‘yeah i am [sorry] yeah. i am’ and immediately leaving, talking about how everyone seems to be disgusted with him and the ‘i feel really bad for everything i did, uh, and i shan’t do something similar to that again’. sir i have doubts. like you can tell he’s up to no good from the lines like ‘there’s a little bit of fun in being bad’, ‘[dream] kept my throne warm’, ‘i’ll be back in the saddle soon. i mean, it’s only a matter of time’ and ‘i’m done apologizing’ and the call back to the pre election speech he gave quackity with ‘and i was right all along’. man! trying to figure out what’s going on with him hurts my brain but that’s why i enjoy his character so much!! and the way he sees ranboo and can’t understand why he’s liked so much. cause ranboo isn’t a leader or an amazing fighter and he just can’t wrap his head around why people gravitate to him if not because of those things. and it’s really hard to tell for sure what he thinks about dream imo because he does put him on that pedestal of being his hero and saving him from the limbo and paints him as someone who stood up to injustice and people wanting power after wilbur died and also thinks dream should be let out. but also i feel like he’s dismissive of what dream is actually capable of doing. like he knows about exile and pretty much says that he doesn’t care about it now because he wasn’t there. he doesn’t know why dream was actually locked up and believes dream was keeping a seat for wilbur until he comes back. so it’s almost like he sees dream as like being second to him and a means to an end that will help him get that seat back. which is kinda funny because dream sees wilbur in the same light so i’m interested to see how that goes. the family reunion was so good!! i love how cc!wilbur and cc!phil acted it out. like wilbur running to the cabins until tommy slows him down and you can hear the smiles in their voices. just the way they are excited to finally see each other. i love it here. wilbur recognizing that phil must feel guilty and apologizing for lying in the letters.. yeah. but also i have trust issues so i’m keeping an eye on you revived man. and yeah if we get a redemption arc it will be later. he just acts too conflicting for it to happen right now. i’m so ready to see how the interaction with quackity will go!! and can’t wait for techno to find out that your bestie’s dead son is now also your neighbor. the canon of techno just hibernating is so funny. and bench trio!!! they are just apologists for each other and i love it. tommy being protective over ranboo whenever wilbur was around and then ranboo defending tommy’s brashness to phil by recognizing that wilbur caused tommy a lot of pain. and speaking of that. oh boy. we definitely got the pogtopia!wilbur here. he’s so dismissive of whatever tommy has to say it kinda hurts to watch. he’s so sure he knows what’s best for tommy he literally doesn’t care what he has to say and puts words in his mouth. the ‘do you believe i’m about to turn over the new leaf, tommy?’ ‘i believe you’re about to change the server again-’ ‘you believe i’m about to turn over a new leaf.’ and cutting him off so much throughout the stream. wilbur very much ignores any time tommy tries to speak up about the pain wilbur caused him and the whole l’manberg thing.. obviously wilbur cared about it just not for the same reasons as tommy did because tommy saw it as home, a family as he said multiple times and just the conversation in the camarvan. it’s obvious that tommy still in a way cares about wilbur and even seeks his approval after everything that happened and it just hurts man because wilbur doesn’t care in a same way. i feel like wilbur’s care for tommy is very superficial. like yeah, he says he would kill dream in exile (even insisting that he and tommy would do it together) ‘because dream can’t go around hurting tommy like that’ and wants tommy to be included in whatever the hell he’s planning but he constantly ignores the fact that tommy doesn’t want to be around him or be involved in his plans. the ‘listen, do you want something to do?’ ‘i’ve already got things to do!’ ‘do you want something to do that i think would be a good idea for you?’ really made me want to punt c!wilbur. that and the ‘it’s just tommy’ when he tries to tell phil wilbur has been acting weird. and i’m very hesitant to call c!wilbur manipulative but that conversation about getting stone? stinky. and even c!tommy is aware that wilbur is tricking him into helping out and wants to play along to stop him but he keeps assuring himself that he could easily get the stone if he wanted to and admits it would be nice to impress wilbur and just! give this kid a break! the ‘you’re like a caterpillar’ and ‘i feel thinner’ i love how cc!tommy has this way of explaining stuff in a kind of child like manner but at the same time it paints such a good picture of how his character sees and deals with what is happening to him. also the whole ‘i won when i pressed that button’ after they fight. c!wilbur (derogatory(affectionate)) also also the whole conversation between phil and ranboo after wilbur and tommy left was really nice and the ‘he promised. why would he break a promise?’ is another reason for me having trust issues lol