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Chapter 14 - Read Between The Lines

Warning: emotional issues, family issues, mentioning; hospital, accident, cheating, suicide, manipulation, attempting murder, and physical and mental violence (please be aware of these)

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You sat in Satoru’s car to go to his mansion. You hoped you could find something to motivate you more for your work, so reading Runa’s diaries would be a good idea.

You looked away remembering the day you went to Toji’s house. After everything, you felt better that you could meet Toji and Kiko and talk to them like friends.

Suddenly, the memory of when you talked with Megumi before leaving with Yuji replayed in your brain.

…

“y/n, can we talk?” Megumi grabbed your wrist and took you to his room after you left Toji’s office.

“What is it?” you raised your eyebrow.

“About Yuji, I want to tell you about yuji and Fumiko”

You looked up into Megumi's eyes and nodded your head as a signal that you were ready to hear.

“Fumiko has liked Yuji since we were young. She met him because of me. She...once hurt his first girlfriend. Fumiko pushed Yuji’s ex into the road to get hit by the car, but Yuji helped his girlfriend on time. Fumiko’s smarter, she took a risk and got hit instead of Yuji” Megumi clarified.

“M-Megumi, this is too much for an adorable woman like her to hurt people, when did it happen?” you asked.

“High school” he answered.

“Megumi, that was too young for a girl to hurt people because of jealousy or love. It’s illegal and dangerous. People can die” you commented

“y/n, first, do you think laws can rule all people? Don’t you see how some people get treated in this world when they have no money or power?

And…Fumiko was raised differently. Her mom was the oldest daughter and was forced to marry a weird guy who always cheated on his wife. I’m not saying my life is better or my mom’s life is better than Fumiko and her mom's. Still, Y/n, things are different for each person”

You were silent. It was like as long as humans existed, no matter where they were or lived, bad and good things occurred.

“Why did you tell me these?” you questioned Megumi.

“Because there are more... whenever some people like Yuji, Fumiko will always consider them as a threat and she’ll threaten them or their family”

You enlarged your eyes shockingly. These were too much for a sweet young girl like Fumiko, if a person who told you about her weren’t Megumi, you wouldn't have believed what you heard.

“Those women will say to him that they like me more than Yuji. She wants him to feel low self esteem. She wants him to feel that he doesn’t deserve anyone and Fumiko is the only person who likes him even he’s not good enough, she wants to be a person that Yuji will only look for”

“Megumi, why does Fumiko need to do those kinds of things?”

“Y/n, she’s evil and I pity her. We all suffer in our way” Megumi replied.

“And, why didn’t you tell Yuji, if you knew everything?” asked you.

“She was in ICU for many months. Yuji’s kind, too kind, he blamed himself. What if he knew, the woman who he believed saved his life did all the horrible things behind him, ruin his life what do you think he would feel?”

Shortly, the picture of him and Junpei in the anime played in your brain.

“Megumi, maybe we could talk to Fumiko?”

“Maybe maybe not, some people can change and some can’t” Megumi commented.

“Why are you telling me these exactly?” you asked.

“1. I want you to be careful. You know what Yuji feels now and everyone knows. That idiot doesn’t know how to hide his feeling, so he’ll show everyone and give you everything.

2. Yuji has a soft spot for Fumiko. I guess she will use that and find a way to hurt him even more. She may not use me this time, but use others instead, I think you know what I mean” Megumi explained.

…

You thought back to those conversations you had with Megumi on that day. Nonetheless, you admitted Fumiko was wise, you didn't foresee her doing those cruel things. Humans were truly a mystery.

You deliberately stared at Satoru. You assumed Fumiko would use him to hurt Yuji’s feelings. However, no matter how much you loved someone, you shouldn't hurt them to get what you wanted or change to be someone else that wasn’t them.

“Are you thinking why I am so handsome and what should you do if you want to take me on your bed tonight, baby?” Satoru asked.

“H-huh?” you tilted your head.

“You are gazing at me for many minutes now” Satoru said while reaching his finger to touch your cheek.

“Oh, just so you know, I don't want you on my bed At ALL” you replied harshly.

“Wowww, can’t believe you are so mean!! But luckily, I’m in a good mood today” he replied cheerfully.

“Why? Did you get to meet new girls?” you playfully asked.

“Can’t do that baby, I’m at risk to lose you now. Y/n, thank you for wearing the necklace I bought” He grinned from ear to ear.

“mhmm, it was because of you. You said that day it was okay for me to be myself, so I think this is pretty much I can do to thank you” you lowered your head and touched the necklace.

“I gave you because I think you deserved it. And the night I kissed you I remembered I told you that I love you for who you are. I think you twisted my word” Satoru held your hand.

“Well, did it mean it wasn't okay to be myself? Ohh, you missed her? I meant myself before the accident? Maybe I shouldn’t wear it today, I’m sorry” you decided to wear this because you hoped you could appreciate Runa in this way or maybe, maybe you already gave up and admitted that you should live as Runa’s life.

“Y/n, I think I give you this not because you like the moon, but because you are right now shining to my life like the moon in the dark sky. You are shining so bright that can lead me back to my home” Satoru kissed your backhand.

“I disagree. At that time I was with Nanami, I can’t shine anything” you studied how he laughed at your thoughts.

“First, please don’t mention about his name, actually you know what, don’t mention anyone names with those soft lips. Second, it’s true, but at least it made me realize I love you, even more, It made me know I can’t let you go” unexpectedly, the scene you and that pink haired boy kissed each other played in his memory.

“So that's the reason you chose the moon for me?” you asked.

“Oh, well part of it. I don't know anything about what you like now since you don’t LOVE me anymore and you never SHARE anything with me either. Still, you were born on a lunar eclipse, so I think the moon suited you” Satoru explained.

Your eyes were widened. You slowly looked at him. “H-how did you know?”

“Your mom told me when I was young” he replied.

“M-my mom?” your heart pounded as quick as it had even done.

“Yes, I remembered I met your mom before the accident happened. I would always ask about you and she would always tell me everything about how special you are” Satoru parked the car in front of his house and gazed at you.

You bit your lower lip and understood he meant Runa’s mom. “Do you think I can find more about it in the diaries?”

Satoru's face was twisted a bit although he changed back to his usual cheerful expression, you were confident he was unhappy for a brief moment. “Yeah, I remember you mentioned you asked me to take you somewhere in Turkey”

“Turkey? Hmm Satoru, I’ll go to read those and see you in the kitchen. Don’t disturb me too!!” you quickly got out of his car and ran into the mansion after telling him.

“B-baby, don’t run, you’ll hurt me if you hurt...” Satoru chuckled at how cute you were. You didn’t even listen to him and ran out like a kid, like you ran when you were young.

He got in the house and informed the maids to prepare your favorite dinner for both of you. He walked to his office to do some work.

He remembered the time you were here with him, the time he was back to see you greeting him, the time you always had dinner with him, or the time you both spent quality time in this place. He imagined what it would be like to see you live here with his children.

His face brightened up before the picture of his dad came up in his memory, before the picture of you crying came up in his heart, or before the picture of his mom came up in his mind. His eyes and heart were heavy and his jaw was lightly clenched.

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You came into Runa’s room and looked for her diaries. You started reading slowly from one page to one story until finishing one diary to the second diary.

“Today, I told Satoru I came out to meet my friends from high school. He was so mad and he said I would meet a new guy. I told him I wouldn’t I knew he loved me, I did know that. But why... When I came back home earlier than I told him I would, I found he was on the bed with a woman. It hurt so much, so I cried again… and yes, I knew I was weak, but I loved him. I wanted to, I wanted to be stronger too”

…

“I met a guy at a Gojo company party. He was…a decent guy. His name was Suguru Geto. Seemed like he cooperated with our company. While I was looking for Gojo, I saw he was with Utahime, a person he used to date with. They kissed each other. It hurt me a lot. I decided I would be and I could be stronger. I accepted Geto when he asked me to go on a date. I thought it was time I should love myself more. The date was lovely. I felt loved...with Geto. Still. When Satoru knew, he was mad. He smashed everything in the house and screamed that I would do the same as his mom. It hurt me more to see he was in pain, so I decided to make him happy as long as I lived”

…

“Satoru came back to the house today, he said he had a surprise gift for me. I…I really thought he was gonna ask me to marry him >///<. Stupid me!!! But I was wrong he told me he would find the time to take me on a vacation because he made a good deal with Mr. Fushiguro Toji. My heart almost blasted out. I felt like a teenager. Finally I got to have him all to myself. I would prepare something to surprise him instead…^^”

…

“We went on a vacation to Hawaii. He said to wear something beautiful for dinner. A deep thought said maybe he might actually be ready to marry me this time? It turned out I was wrong again, silly me hahaha. Utahime was there with her friends. Seemed like Satoru invited them. I went back to the room and woke up alone on the bed next morning. Looked like that night, he didn’t come back to the room. What I should do, I loved him so so much, I couldn’t be mad at him :(”

…

“Today I found something interesting on Google @.@ The MOON was as special as I thought! I remembered my mom said I was born to be special too. The moon got a story though most the stories about the moon were too sad for me. TT Anyway, I decided I wanted to go to the Temple of Artemis in Turkey. When Satoru came home today, I would tell him!!!”

…

“Fi-nal-ly after 3 days I got to tell him. As I expected, he said yes!!!! My Satoru is the best of the best >\\\\< I was so happy that we could go traveling together again. Oh noooo, I had to buy some new clothes too. Maybe, he may think I’m beautiful and wanted to be with me like like marry? Aghhh, I was embarrassed. Satoru and I could spend our time together like he and me hehe. Hope he would be happy since he’d been too busy lately”

…

“Satoru had been coming home late and I barely saw him. He didn’t talk to me much like before anymore and he just went straight to bed. Did I do something wrong? Did he think I was useless for him like his dad told me a long time ago? Tomorrow, I would follow him like a detective to see what happened. I wouldn’t believe anyone except my love, Satoru. That was my promise with him since we were young ><”

…

You could stop when you found out about the moon, but you kept reading until finishing more than 4 diaries of hers. Yes, you found what you wanted to know. Though she didn’t mention much, you were sure you could search it on the internet.

However, you were sorrowful your heart was so tight, tears came out of your eyes. Runa was an optimistic person. It would be fun to be friends with her. It hurt you so much to know what she had faced. Why a person who was always kind would meet with bad luck.

You wondered why Satoru's mom and dad were mentioned again and again when Satoru and Runa had a problem. You thought of Satoru's words ‘I am still scared. I hurt you because I thought you would leave me just like my mom, my real mom’.

You stood up and brushed the tears from your cheeks. You were sure that if you continued reading more diaries again you could find out what exactly happened about Satoru’s family. Nevertheless, Satoru was here and he wasn’t the same guy anymore, you believed. It was time to ask him now.

You came down to see Satoru trying to set up dinner at the table awkwardly. It was like he hadn’t done this before. It could be since he had maids and Runa to do it.

You noticed how he calculatedly placed the spoon and fork next to the empty plate, how he fixed a glass of water to find a position he wanted to place it, how he whirled around to meet your eyes with his blue eyes and smiled warmly at you.

The dinner was nice. You and Satoru talked and shared about each other work. You were a bit quiet because of the feelings you had after reading diaries, Satoru also noticed. He chose not to ask in order to respect you, he waited patiently until you were ready, and finally, you were.

You both were comfortably on the couch. “Satoru, can I ask something?”

“Yes baby what is it?” he looked up from his phone to meet your eyes.

“Why did you hurt her?” you asked.

“Who is it? Kiko?” he leaned his head to the side.

“Myself in the past, why did you hurt her? Why did you cheat on her so many times with many women, including Utahime, Kiko? Why couldn’t you only love her so the accident wouldn't happen?”

“B-baby, w-hat’s going on? What in the diaries were in the past, we are good now and I love you, and please don’t refer to yourself as her” Satoru shockingly replied.

“Satoru. I’m not angry. I-I’m trying to understand this body that I have to continue to live in, did you know I followed you? I followed you that night t-the night you met Kiko”

“Baby, don’t say anything more. Don’t talk about it, I-I am sorry” Satoru rushed to sit on the floor at your feet. The fear and guilt that he tried to dig slowly crept into his heart more and more.

“Please, Satoru. If we can talk this out, we can finally move on. We need to understand more about each other. I want to know what happened with you, about your dad and your real mom” you held his hand firmly.

You watched as Satoru lower his head on your knees closed his eyes.

“My mom was a maid in the Gojo household. My grandma hated her so much because my dad fell in love with her, with a maid, not a daughter from powerful clans my grandma found. At first my mom didn’t like him because being in love with the son of Gojo clan was more like a curse than a cinderella story that had an happy ending

Yet, my dad fought so hard to win over my mom’s heart. He had only my mom, rejected and punished everyone who dared to say or do something to hurt my mom both physically and mentally, my dad even fought with my grandma so they could marry. He told my grandma if he didn’t marry my mom, he wouldn't want to live in this world.

Since my mom was young, she was already destroyed by my grandma. My dad just didn’t know. He realized that after my mom gave birth to me. I was 8 when I saw her get in a man's car. I ran following that car until I fell, until I couldn't see a car anymore

I thought I did something wrong because my dad always said I could do and get whatever I want. No one could stop me because everyone was born to be under me. I was born special, I was born to get everything. I didn’t need permission or the allowance from anyone or anything.

I didn’t know why she left me, I guessed my dad knew. After my mom left, my dad had changed from a person who was happy and came home on time. He changed women every day as changing his neckties in the morning. Finally, he ended up marrying someone from a powerful clan too.

Luckily she wasn't a bad person. She did everything as my dad told her to do. She didn’t even cry when my dad brought different women into the house or when my dad didn’t come home for weeks.

I found out I was right. My dad knew why my mom left us, he told me before he died. She confessed to my dad she never loved him. My grandma forced my mom to marry because my dad wouldn’t marry anyone. The clan was worried they wouldn’t have someone who can be the next heir.

They threatened my mom that if she didn't marry my dad and give birth, they would punish my mom’s lover, her real lover. After my dad passed away, I searched for her. I found she had a daughter and a son, and lived a happy life with them, with children and a husband that she loved. Y/n, I wasn’t born from love.

I guessed that was why my dad didn’t want us to be together. You’re sweet and kind like my mom. You reminded my dad of his first and last love. He always warned me you would hurt me, leave me, as my mom did. And you did, you left me many times with those men you dated like Geto and you also left me to be with Nanami”

You studied him. “But, you did it first, Gojo. You changed. You could only have her, but you did otherwise. You cheated, why?”

“I don’t know” he replied softly.

“You do, Satoru, just try to understand yourself. Tell me why”

“I don’t know, y/n” he replied with a stern voice.

“You told me you were scared, what are you scared of?” you asked.

“Stop, y/n” Satoru stood up and walked away but you grabbed his wrist.

“Satoru, wait I-”

“STOP!! I’m scared, scared that what my dad said would be real. You, you left me. You tried to leave me many times. You wanted to have a good life just like that woman wanted. Being with me is bad. Because I didn’t deserve love.

I realized you weren't different from my real mom when I was in high school. We studied in a different school, and you, you had a boyfriend. Then, you went with Suguru and you chose Nanami over me” Satoru shouted.

Things were connected. Kiko was the one who made him distance himself from Runa when Utahime or others couldn’t. it was because Kiko was warm like a mother.

Runa was kind and sweet, but Runa was different, she was actually Satoru's first love, he just couldn’t understand, he didn’t know how to handle the feeling when his dad kept painting Satoru from white paper to be a color that Satoru couldn’t recognize.

You were also shocked. You never saw he was furious and vulnerable before. He was scared you could tell. You felt bad for him, you really did.

“Satoru, I know you are scared. You didn’t want to get hurt. You’ve been hurt, so please don't hurt yourself. I know your dad told you, but you can trust yourself. You are the best Satoru right?” you bent your head to meet his blue eyes.

“Then, promise me you’ll always choose me. You will never leave me” Satoru asked with a low voice. His expression told you he didn’t beg, he ordered you.

“No, I can’t” you stepped back from him.

“Why?” he glared straight into your eyes.

You got goosebumps from the look of his intense eyes. “I will be with you and support you, no matter what. Yet, I do have my own life, the life I want to live on my own. Whether what will happen between us in the future, myself right now can’t make a promise anything when I’m still finding myself”

“Let me help you find yourself unless you are a liar like that woman. Don’t you think I didn’t know you kissed that stupid kid? Finally, you found someone you wanted to spend a happy life with huh?

Come on, no one will accept an older woman to marry their child. The Itadori clan is famous for a chain restaurant, they are powerful though less than Gojo clan. Unless you want to destroy his future with your hands” Satoru smirked and stepped forward.

“Gojo” you spoke with a low voice.

“So, we’re back to Gojo now? Baby, you should know you’re mine since you lived in my home”

You were speechless. You began to understand him, but why did he need to say those words? There was the ache in your heart to see how much a cheerful person like him had been in pain, in hell that his family created. Your vision was blurry with tears.

“See? You’re weak. You always cry when you are sad, even though you said you changed after the accident, you still cry, right? I’m always here for you, my love” Satoru stepped close to you, he reached out his long fingers to brush tears from the corner of your eye.

You shoved his hand harshly from touching your face. “No, you’re wrong. I cried because I thought we were friends and I wanted to help you I want you to be happy”

“y/n, we weren't friends and we never are. Friends won't sleep with each other. When you were HER, you slept with me every night since we were 20. We were lovers and still are.

Do you want to know why I cheated on you? Because other women give me love, but you, I have to beg you to come back, have to beg for your LOVE” he yanked your forward by holding your wrist.

You looked up at him. It hurt both your wrist and your heart to see how painful he was. You slowly hugged him.

“I’m sorry. I wish I can do more than say sorry. Satoru, I am not HER and I can’t be HER, can't be a person I used to be anymore. You can hurt me as much as you want, but please release yourself from the fear you have had, from the pain your family poured on your heart. You are the strongest. You can do it, Satoru. What I know is She as this body loved you, I as this soul want you to be free”

Satoru widened his eyes in shock. He had a lingering sadness in those ocean eyes. The fear he had that concealed his heart slowly breaking because of your forgiveness. He was frightened, his eyes were trembling with a foreign feeling.

“Go, y/n. I want to be alone” he said with a weak voice.

“I want to be with you” you replied.

“I don’t want to. I’ll ask a driver to send you back” you didn't get to protest because he left immediately.

From his bedroom, Satoru watched you get in the car. Once he saw the car left of the mansion, he crouched down on the floor and wailed. He wanted to embrace you in his heart fully, wanted to take your body in him. He said he would change and he intended to, but he was never sure if he could do it.

What if he hurt you again, this time you would leave him alone forever. He was disgusting and selfish. He hurt you but why why you still forgave him. He hated his family who made him a disgusting person. He hated himself who caused that stupid accident. If he realized sooner, he would have been with you happily by now.

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Today, you would go to Yuji's baseball game. You asked Yuji to pick you up at the coffee shop because you had an appointment with your boss.

A week passed, you hadn’t talked to Satoru at all. You called him but it went straight to voicemail. You came to his office, but his secretary said he was out. You came to his home but the maids said he wasn't there.

“Satoru, if you aren’t anywhere, where will you be? In your domain? Silly you that try to avoid me. Let’s see who will win” you murmured alone.

It was funny when you tried to find the moon information, you came across the gossip news

‘Back to his usual self. Gojo Satoru has been seen on a date with a model. 3 days ago we’ve seen he left the hotel with a famous actress’

“Ohhh there you are on my laptop, Gojo Satoru” you shook your head slightly and closed down the page of the news. At least he wasn't sick you told yourself.

You began to search about the story of the moon. There were many different stories about the moon. Many names were involved with stories such as Selena, Diana, Luna, Artemis, or Chang’e.

You searched more about each name. These were goddesses and they were related to love. You couldn't tell which legendary stories were true. Each culture passed stories variously from generation to generation.

A couple legendary stories that quite caught you were about how most women had a failing love story. They were mournful and became goddesses on the moon.

Your breath quickened to recall all the dreams you had about Runa, especially the last dreams you met her. You remembered there were many women from western to eastern. The atmosphere was dry and sorrowful though there were colorful flower gardens.

Suddenly, you recalled Runa’s face when she spoke to you. Those words came through your mind “these women were similar to me”.

“Similar to me...” you whispered.

You understood why Runa wanted to go to the Temple of Artemis. She loved the moon. She might feel that her life was miserable. No matter how hard she tried to move on, she was still in love with the same person until the day she died.

She loved the moon as she was born on lunar eclipse day, just like you....

“We both were born on lunar eclipse day...that could have been a reason I got in here...Maybe I should go to Turkey then” you bit your lower lip to finally discover the connection you had with Runa. Then, you quickly texted Shoko.

You placed your head on the table to think about Runa and Satoru, what could you help them? how could you help them? You tried to think how you could help Satoru to be happy. If he was happy, Runa would be happy since that was her last word.

You were busy thinking about what you’d just found out until you were startled hearing your boss call out your name.

“Hey boss!” you shouted.

“Don’t call me that, y/n” Nanami smiled with his red ears.

“Well, you publish my books” you made a duck face.

Nanami chuckled with his deep voice. This was the first time you asked to meet him alone after breaking up. He was so so happy to meet you again after everything.

“Why do you want to meet, just because of work?” Nanmi sipped his coffee.

“Yes! I want to get some advice, as well as I-I, want to ask about Satoru” you placed your palms down flat on the laptop and leaned back to your chair.

“Yes, besides work I want to ask you that too, why did he get back to play around with women again?”

Your heart sank. “I-I don’t know”

“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to hurt you. The last time we met he said he would make you the happiest woman in the world, so I wondered what changed him” Nanimi spoke calmly.

“You’re close to him now?” asked you.

“No, I don’t want and I will not call that too” he replied.

You laughed at how he refused but you could see Nanami cared about Satoru. “Actually I think I knew why he did it, let him be. Give him a chance to find what he truly wants”

“And what do you truly want?” Nanami asked while looking at you.

“Hmm, dunno yet. Maybe I want to start writing a novel book. The genre that I have never thought I would be able to do it. I-I mean again...”

Nanami didn’t feel bad talking to you about what Gojo did. Actually, he felt bad more to see your sad face. It still hurt him to see you were unhappy. It still hurt him to see you weren’t confident in yourself when he knew you were truly capable of doing whatever you set your mind to.

He caressed your head lightly “why don’t we discuss work y/n?”

Hours passed, you were done working with him. You covered your face with your palms. You weren’t aware of Nanami who reached out to use his large hand grabbing your hand out of your face.

“Don’t cover that cute face” Nanami smiled while holding your hand.

Right on cue, Yuji arrived at the disaster moment again...

“Y/n!! W-what a-are you doing with him?” you looked up immediately after hearing his voice.

“Yuji!!” you smiled brightly and gestured your hand as a sign for Yuji to sit next to you. You unconsciously took your hand from Nanami’s grip to move stuff for Yuji to sit.

Nanami eyed both of you in the curiosity of the energy you both shared. You noticed his galre, so you introduced them to each other.

“Nanami, this is Itadori Yuji. Yuji, this is Nanami Kento” Yuji bowed politely to Nanami while Nanami nodded back.

“Nanamin-san, you are really handsome. I would like to be a cool adult like you” Yuji said.

“You don’t have to be like me, just take time to grow up, enjoy your life, do whatever you want, and be yourself. Also, it’s Nanami” Nanami sipped his coffee.

“I don’t want to take too much time. If I’m too young, Y/n would think I’m not reliable and people will think I can’t take care of her. I want to spend my life with y/n. I swear I'll take care of her very well. So you don’t need to worry, Nanamin-san” Yuji smiled cheerfully.

“You do know y/n and I was together before?” Nanami asked Yuji.

“I-I do, but you both are friends now and I believe y/n” Yuji responded with his doe eyes.

“And Gojo likes her too, you know that right?” Nanami questioned again.

You saw how Yuji swallowed hard before answering.

“Yes, but I set my mind that I’ll step back only when y/n tell me to” Yuji spoke with his deep voice.

“Then, I’m happy now to see my y/n is in a good hand” Nanami smiled.

“Don’t you trust Gojo? You both seemed to be best friends” Yuji asked.

You saw how Nanami shot Yuji a fierce glare before replying. “Go check your vision, Yuji. It’s quite insulting to say that and I’m on y/n side only”

“Just so you know, I’m here and I’m not the air or a ghost. Don’t talk to each other about me like I wasn't here” you glared at both men.

“Y/n, you are always in my vision no matter what” Yuji replied with his innocent tone.

Nanami coughed his coffee to hear how honest Yuji was. You quickly gave him a napkin.

“Y/n, we gotta go before the game starts. I parked my car quite far from here, I’ll drive here and you can wait for me outside, so you don’t need to walk. Nanami, sorry for leaving so soon, I have a baseball game and Y/n is going to watch my game. I hope we get to meet again” Yuji bowed politely and walked out of the coffee shop.

You waved your hand to say goodbye to Nanami before getting in Yuji’s car. Nanami watched your back. He slowly touched his heart lightly. It was pain, but he was satisfied to see your smile that he missed, that he used to be a reason for.

“Such a good boy, no wonder why Gojo keeps complaining about how kind Yuji is” Nanami murmured.

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You watched Yuji’s game with his high athletic skills. He was born to be strong and skilled at sports indeed. Yuji was shined in the field. It was like he was the only player you saw.

Megumi sat next to you. Nobara and Fumiko sat in front of you. You and Megumi shared popcorn and Megumi explained rules to you when you were confused.

The result was that Yuji's team won. You, Megumi, Nobara, and Fumiko met Yuji in the field. Yuji was too happy, he ran to hug you before asking to meet you 20 minutes later at the locker room after he changed his clothes.

You checked the time to see 30 mins passed, you walked to his locker room. You waited outside before hearing Yuji’s yelling and things fell on the ground.

You opened the door and stepped in to find Yuji. You saw he sat on the chair and Fumiko was on his lap. Her lips pressed on Yuji’s lips.

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Special Chapter 1 [love from the moon]

Warning: mentioning: cheating, family issue, toxic relationship, sexual suggestiveness, age gap relationship, all characters aged 23+ (please be aware of these)

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After Yuji got into a relationship with you. You both stayed in Mie at his house. The land was big, so there were houses on it. His grandparents lived in a house next to yours. You had to go back and forth between Mie and Tokyo for your work. Every time you visited Tokyo, Yuji always came with you.

It had been 2 weeks since you stayed at your place in Tokyo. You had met Nanami and Chie to plan for promoting your book.

It was 6 am, you shifted yourself to the side in hope to hug your boyfriend on the bed, but it was empty. You got up to find him. You went out to see he was cooking for you.

You gradually approached him. You hugged him from the back and pressed your cheek on his hard and broad back. “What’re you doing so early in the morning, baby?”

“I'm cooking breakfast, so you can work with a full belly!” he beamed and looked over his shoulder before placing a kiss on the top of your head.

“I’m gonna meet with Nanami at 11 though, and he will come to the coffee shop near here. You don’t really need to wake up early every time I have work” you hugged him tighter.

“It’s okay. I’m happy to do it” he giggled.

“Baby, food is not ready yet, so you can still sleep more. I’ll wake you up later” Yuji told you.

You shook your head lightly. “It’s okay. I’ll get ready then. Can't sleep when my boyfriend is not on the bed with me”

Yuji chuckled and nodded to you. He watched as you ran back to the bedroom. He smiled shyly and felt his cheeks were heated. It had been 6 months and 11 days in a relationship with you. He was still shy every time you were sweet to him, especially on the bed.

He had some arguments with you sometimes, but things usually were solved within 2 days. He discovered a lot about what you liked and disliked or how sensitive your body was.

He also learned more about himself of how much he could be jealous or possessive over you. He couldn’t remember his life before having you and he hoped to forget it forever.

He knew you would spend a lot of time meeting with Nanami, especially talking about work. He decided to meet his friends.

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After Yuji dropped you at the coffee shop. He secretly watched you from afar. He trusted you with all of his heart but he just wanted to make sure you were safe and…his white haired sensei wouldn’t come near you.

He wasn’t scared of you cheating on him or Gojo san would do something bad to you. He just couldn’t stand the thought of someone touching your smooth skin. He slapped his face to call his conscious back. Then, he started driving to meet his close friends.

Nobara asked to meet Yuji and Megumi at the park near the university where they graduated from. The park was still lively with a lot of people and so green with trees. He saw Nobara and Megumi did a picnic under the big tree. He waved to his friends and sat on the mat with them.

“You make it!” Nobara yelled.

“Of course!” Yuji shouted back.

“Idiots, stop yelling both of you” Megumi yelled and rolled his eyes.

Nobara and Yuji were stunned when Megumi shouted at them and called them idiots. Behind Megumi’s back, Nobara gathered leaves while Yuji was drawing Megumi’s attention. Suddenly, Nobara poured all the leaves into Megumi's head. Megumi was shocked while Yuji and Nobara laughed their heads off.

“Y-Your head l-look like a bird nest!!! Hahaha” Yuji laughed so hard while wiping his tears.

“Chirp Chirp Chirp” Nobara ran around the tree and flapped her hands like wings next to her body.

Megumi had an annoying face, but he looked at his friends laughing, he just shook his head slightly and hid his smile while picking leaves off from his hair.

After that they continued talking about how each other's life was. Nobara established her brand for clothes. It went well. She even brought some new collections with her to give Megumi, Yuji, and you. She asked Yuji to ask you to wear new collections and posted on your instagram since you were quite a famous author now.

Megumi worked as the financial manager. His dad wanted him to learn at the beginning, be respectful with employees, and understand their position and feelings. He complained how annoying Gojo was when he came to the company for the meeting.

Megumi also told Yuji that Gojo always told him to go on blind dates and bring Yuji with him. Megumi knew Gojo would never want to hurt you but if Yuji could break up with you, Gojo would be pleased.

Yuji knew it. That was why he was a bit protective over you because Gojo san always had a weird idea. Even though you would not change your mind, Yuji didn’t want you to be frustrated. He just couldn't live with the idea that you were touched by another guy.

When it was Yuji's turn to talk about himself, he only talked about yours which made Nobara and Megumi annoyed. They weren’t annoyed listening about you, they were more annoyed about how he grinned while mentioning your name like a fool who was crazy in love.

“Umm. By the way, Megumi, how's Fumiko?” Nobara asked.

Yuji's eyes were clouded with sadness before turning to look at Megumi.

“She got married to a rich dude who owned an oil company. I heard he has a mistress and Fumiko also has an affair too” Megumi said calmly.

Nobara and Yuji were shocked to hear that and looked at Megumi.

“I know. Fumiko hasn’t learned anything and even makes it worse. At least, she forgot about Yuji and y/n” Megumi shrugged.

They spent about an hour chatting with each other. Nobara told them she was seeing someone. Yuji and Nobara tried to support Megumi to find someone since he was still single. Megumi was quiet and just shoved some bread into Yuji and Nobara mouths to shut them up.

It was time for Yuji to pick you up, so he said goodbye to them. Nobara and Megumi watched as he left.

“I’m really jealous of Yuji. He finds someone he can love and be loved” Nobara pouted while looking at Yuji driving away.

“Ohh, that’s why you’re trying to find a date? You shouldn’t date because you’re lonely” Megumi said.

“Well, if I’m not lonely, I wouldn’t want one duh! More importantly, I’m not like you, Megumi. Anyway, why don’t you want anyone? Do you have someone you like?” Nobara stared at his eyes.

“No” he replied roughly.

“Really?” Nobara raised her brow.

“Megumi, d-do you perhaps like y/n too?”

“W-what!!! What are you talking about? It’s stupid why would I like her? She’s careless and asks many weird questions a-and always smiles. And my dad and my best friend like her” Megumi said.

“Ohhh” Nobara rolled her eyes.

“Well, lets’ go. I gotta meet my date” Nobara told him and began to clean everything with Megumi.

They both hugged before parting. Megumi was driving back home. The car stopped for the traffic light. He then looked at his phone to text you and asked to hang out together.

He beamed when you texted back and said okay. He questioned himself would he like you if his dad and his best friend didn’t like you?

When he saw the green light, he started driving back to his home where he lived together with his mom.

“Well, I think I might” Megumi smirked at himself while driving.

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Chapter 1 - Beyond The Dimension

TW/CW: accident, blood, mental issues, emotional issues, depression (please be aware of these)

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After you read ‘Her Love Her Life', you were still shocked with how it ended. You didn’t understand why Gojo was always an unfaithful guy in a lot of fanfics including this one. You didn’t know whether you should pity or sympathize with the Gojo character. You thought he wasn’t nice to cheat on the y/n with someone’s wife. The y/n shouldn’t just leave the scene like that, you did understand this fanfic and y/n character though you still thought the female lead was too weak. You were sure you would definitely break up with him and didn't care about it.

However, you still had work to do. So, you spent more than 2 hours to complete 1 chapter of your new textbook. You were still frustrated about the end of that fanfic. You sat fully on a chair and leaned your head on the headrest. You closed your eyes to hope that your new ideas for your book would come up, so you could finish 2 or 3 more chapters. While closing your eyes, your head only thought about that fanfiction, lists of Japanese animations you wanted to watch, and foods.

“Ugh, I think I need a freaking break.” You stood up from your office chair and walked to your bedroom.

You took your wallet and changed clothes for going outside. Since you lived alone, you enjoyed doing everything by yourself. You are more like an introverted person. You always enjoyed spending some time alone and hanging out with your friends. You would meet them every once when you had rejected them 10 times. You appreciated that they still wanted to be your friend until now. You also loved walking because it helped you relax. You were looking around while walking to see people doing their own things. It was about 5.30 pm in the winter. The sun was setting, the sky was a bit red and orange, and the moon was seen faintly.

“There it is! Hehe.” When you saw the convenience store, you walked in and walked around to see what you wanted to buy.

You didn’t have any particular things to buy, so you bought a lot of snacks, ice creams, and sausages. You were so satisfied to think you would have a lot of things to eat while working. Tonight, you may complete at least 3 chapters for your English textbook.

Once you stepped out of the door, a minute later, you heard people yelling, screaming, and crying. You were so confused and dizzy. You tried to see what red liquid was on the floor next to you. You felt numb all over your body and the corner of your eyes saw the light and pieces of glasses around you. You blinked once, twice, and realised the light box sign of the convenience store had fallen directly to your head. You thought this was not a cool way to die at all, such an embarrassing death. For a second, before you lost consciousness, you suddenly thought about the y/n of "Her Love Her Life fanfiction". Then, you felt so sleepy, so you closed your eyes.

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Beep, Beep, beep …

You heard the sound of the Heart Rate Monitor. Your body felt heavy and hurt everywhere.You slowly opened your blurry eyes. You tried to recall your memory and the last thing you remembered was that you were at the convenience store and held a bag of snacks, ice creams, and sausages. However, you saw a woman who wore all white was in the room before immediately running out of your room when she saw you awoke. You thought she was a ghost for a moment before a lot of people came in and stood beside your bed. You tried to look at them to see who they were, you recognized these people wore similar clothes as your older brothers when they were at their workplace. You immediately knew these people must be doctors and nurses, so you must have been at the hospital.

After being tested on a lot of things and asked questions, one of the doctors informed you that they had contacted your family, so your family would come here soon. You thought about your family and felt really bad because you knew they must have been worried sick. You could imagine your older brothers would ask you to repay the gratitude for helping you whatever you didn't know what they had helped. Your parents would ask you to move back and live with them, and your younger sister might say why you could still be alive. You only smiled to yourself and already accepted your consequence.

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After receiving the call from the hospital and being informed that his significant other had woken up, he was so happy and guilty at the same time. He knew he was the one who caused this accident to happen.

He asked his secretary to cancel all his appointments for the rest of the day. He rushed out from his office to go to the hospital. He thought he could have stopped by the florist shop to buy some flowers, but he decided not to since he wanted to see her as soon as possible.

While he was driving, he only thought about what he could do to earn her forgiveness. Would she accept his apology? What could he possibly do to make up with her? He had so many ideas, but he was determined to let her know how happy he was that she had woken up from the coma after 3 months.

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Thinking about what to say to your family, you heard the door open loudly. You were shocked by what you saw. It wasn’t like what you had imagined earlier. At the door, there was a super duper handsome guy with white hair and blue eyes who was slowly approaching you. He was so familiar but you couldn’t remember where you met him before. He was saying something you didn’t even listen to since you were stunned with his face. He kept talking to you again and again until you finally were free from his handsomeness.

“I’m sorry. I don’t mean to be rude, but perhaps you have come into the wrong room?” You asked him expecting to hear that he might apologize for misunderstanding you with someone.

You waited for him to answer while observing his expression that showed some painful emotions which you didn’t understand. Whatever he would answer, you never expected to hear this one.

“y-y/n, you couldn’t remember me? I-I’m Satoru. Gojo Satoru, your lover”

“I’m sorry, I didn’t hear it. Can you tell me again who you are?”. You heard it. You heard his answer, but you wanted to make sure you heard it right.

“I am Gojo Satoru, baby it’s me”

Gojo saw you were quiet, so he asked you again, “baby, are you okay? How do you feel? I was so scared to lose you”

“If you are Gojo Satoru, are you a sorcerer? Like from Jujutsu Kaisen? Well, I would like to meet Itadori Yuji, he was actually one of my favorite characters.” you attempted to ask him again as a joke, but his face made you realize this situation was serious for him.

Gojo was confused about what y/n said. He didn’t know how to answer and didn’t know what you were talking about. He decided to ask “y/n, did you remember you got into a car accident?”.

“No, I didn’t. I was at the convenience store and...wait what did you call me?” you asked Gojo.

“I called you, baby?”

“No no not that one”

“ah, y/n?”

“Yes! That was my name, how did you know my name?” you hoped for any answers that you prayed it would be anything but not the one you had a hypothesis about.

“y/n, we were childhood friends. My father brought you to stay with us since you were young because you lost your parents and had no other family”. Gojo answered you with a look of concern on his face.

“uh-huh”. You were always a calm and logical person, so you were good at analyzing and looking through all facts. You put these hypotheses aside because it was impossible that it would happen to you. Transmigration was the first thing you thought of. You were unsure with your situation right now since you were now the main character as the role of y/n. It was confusing since ‘Her Love Her Life’ was the fanfic where the writer let readers insert themselves into the story by using the word ‘y/n’ as [your name], so readers can replace their name in the story. You never thought you had got transmigrated or whatever it was like in other stories or books you had seen. This was different though, ‘Her Love Her Life’ was the fanfiction which the readers used to insert their name as the main character. You were the reader and you now became the main character that was also you!

‘Argh! This is so annoying and confusing at the same time.’ You thought to yourself and decided to keep observing a situation.

“Hmm, the name was the same with me too. It would be confusing for me to call the main character “y/n”, so I'll make up the name and call her...Runa then. Wait, I died already in my world, didn't I?”.

“No no no baby, you are still alive here with me. What are you talking about? Don’t worry.” Gojo answered you while hugging you softly.

“Ahh, you smell nice...oh...d-did I just say it out loud?”

Gojo grinned from ear to ear and said ‘Thank you’ close to your ear.

You cursed yourself, maybe it’s time to stop talking out loud whenever your brain thought anything as you always did. You were not alone anymore, talking to yourself would make people think you were crazy more than you were now. Plus, you should keep your mouth shut and not let your secret out that easily. You looked at him and decided to pretend as if you lost your memory, because it would make things easier for him to understand and for you to cope with the situation “Gojo, I’m sorry but I don’t remember anything”.

Gojo was terrified. He didn’t know what to do. This was the first time that he didn’t know what he could do. Gojo is a chairman of the biggest real estate company in the country. He had solved a lot of problems and always got what he wanted. This time, it was the first time that he wouldn’t get what he wanted and couldn’t solve anything. Gojo decided to discuss it with the doctors.

The doctors did some physical examination and took you to do a computed tomography. From all the tests, those doctors concluded that you got a head injury and lost your memory. You quickly glanced at Gojo. His face was so bitter. You did feel bad for him but you were not her. You were not his lover.

The doctors left the room, so Gojo and you were alone in the room. Gojo was the one who talked. “Hey baby, how do you feel?”.

“I-I’m fine. Could you not call me baby? I meant I knew I was your lover, but...”

“Y/n, I’m sorry. I-I always called you that, but I’ll change. I’ll change everything. I’ll do whatever to make you happy. We’ll be like before b-before you got into an accident. We were so happy. You were so happy”

You knew it. You read the story of how the accident happened. You decided to ask him.

“Er... Gojo...why did the accident happen?”.

“I-I didn’t know. I was at the office when I got reported that you got crashed near w-where I was”

His face was full of guilt and you knew why. You continued to ask him questions.

“Were we so happy like you said? Did you...er...only love me? I meant...have you cheated on her? I meant m-me”. You asked and observed his expression.

Gojo was silent for a minute before he answered you with his happy face.

“N-no baby! I love you as always. I never did it and I won’t do it.” Gojo did feel guilty. However, he didn’t want to lose you, although his relationship with Kiko was still ongoing. He meant it. He meant he would do everything to make you happy. You didn’t need to know about his affair because he would end it soon. His love for you was real, but he would like to enjoy this excitement before he settled with you.

You, on the other hand, were disappointed. You didn’t want to show your emotions because it wasn’t about you, but you felt upset for Runa, the main character. You could still remember her last sentence before she lost consciousness, she loved Gojo so much. Gojo didn’t know you knew, so he lied to you. You thought to yourself it was okay since he wasn’t her lover.

When you thought it wasn't your business to be concerned about, you wanted to use this opportunity to get close to your favorite anime characters. You met Gojo Satoru, a handsome sensei, you decided at least, let yourself enjoy and simp with your favorite anime while being trapped inside this fanfiction!

Before Gojo left to talk to a doctor, you asked him “hey Gojo, um...can I touch your face?”

Gojo was startled but he was so happy. He thought at least you still yearned for him. He knew, deep down in your mind still had him and still loved him. He smiled widely and moved closer to you.

Gojo was so satisfied and thought you loved him so much. He knew why you got into a car accident. You were not a person who liked to leave the house except going out with him. You followed him and that was why the accident happened near where he was with Kiko. Freaking head injury or a car accident would not separate you from him.

On the other hand, Gojo didn’t know you were the reader of the fanfictions where he was a main character and you were not the y/n who was his lover. There was also something he didn’t know, you were only thinking how real he was as a person unlike when you saw him in the manga or animation. You held his face with both hands and analyzed his face and thought to yourself this wasn't like touching paper because he was a real human with beautiful blue eyes that were painted well for a person!

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A month had passed at the hospital. From the medical record, you had found that Runa had Persistent depressive disorder (dysthymia) for the minor condition. You were sorrowful to think how much the main character suffered from her disease and encountered Gojo cheated on her before dying.

Your body got better. Finally, a doctor allowed you to go home. Gojo came to bring you home with him. You asked to have your own bedroom and moved personal stuff in your room. Gojo was disappointed but he knew he had no choice but to agree with everything you asked him for.

Gojo tried so hard to spend time with you. He started to feel you acted like he was a stranger. This made him rush to find a doctor to help you to get all the happy memories and come back to him to be the one who loved him again. Due to the power of the Gojo clan, Gojo had been searching for all the best doctors to help you. A doctor suggested to him that you could continue seeing a doctor for your dysthymia since it is a long-term form of depression. The symptoms could cause you to have low self-esteem, self-criticism, feeling incapable, hopelessness, or feelings of guilt and worries over the past. The doctor told Gojo if you met the doctor for your depression, you could've gotten your memory back.

“y/n I got to talk to a doctor and we found a doctor for your depression disorder. Her name is Ieiri Shoko, but this doctor is in America right now. I-I don’t want to stay away from you, but I want you to get your memory back or at least be happier”. Gojo told you when you both were in the living room.

“Gojo, what if I can't get my memory back, what will you do?”

“Then, I’ll promise you. I’m Gojo Satoru. As your lover, I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU”

Gojo was so charming with the way his smile beamed happily. For a second you smiled lightly and said “Gojo, can't you stop calling me your lover? I knew my past self was your lover but I would like to be your friend. I want to start learning everything again on my own”.

Gojo was quiet. He didn’t know how he could take care of this situation and the feeling of slowly losing you. He thought to himself, no matter how long he needed to wait for you, he would do it. For now, your happiness was the most important.

“Okay, from now on you and I are best friends, okay?” Gojo said while offering the pinky promise to you.

“Okay!” you smiled and hooked your pinky with him.

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A week later after deciding to meet Shoko for the disorder, you didn't know whether you had depression or not, but it could have been helpful to talk to someone when you felt hopeless. You were sure you were lonely and stressed regarding the situation you were in, so talking to a professional person could be productive. You also figured you needed time to stay away from Gojo and learned to live in this fanfiction world on your own. You were packing your personal stuff for going to the U.S. Then, you found Runa’s diary. You discovered she was born on 29 November 1993. Her parents died when she was 10 years old.

Her dad was Gojo’s dad's best friend. They built the real estate company of Gojo together until the company was so successful. That was why he brought her to stay with the Gojo clan after losing her parents.

She started writing a diary because it gave her time to deliberate about her life and kept all happy memories of her and Satoru. That’s how she started to become a novel author. Runa had mentioned her depression as well. She wrote how she couldn’t sleep well and felt down from time to time. It started 2 years ago after she found out about Gojo's affair with his ex-secretary…

“Grr, fthdjdebdjfhf… what wrong with that white hair maniac!”

“Alas, Runa, you did have a hard time. If I wasn’t in your shoes right now, I wouldn’t know you were the strong woman. You weren’t the weak one. I’m sorry I said that without knowing you well.”

You kept packing all the stuff you needed for your flight tomorrow. When you were done, you went downstairs to meet Gojo. You found Gojo had prepared dinner for you. On the table, Gojo had prepared A medium-rare steak, caesar salad, and a bottle of red wine. It seemed to be a homemade meal but fancy and warm. You sat on the chair across from Gojo. He assisted to move your chair before he sat on his.

“y/n, I prepared this meal for you. We used to eat this often. Even so, I like your curry the best, you know! I hope I can cook it for you but it’s too hard for me to make it as delicious as you do, so please come back to me soon and make it for me, okay?”

You smiled faintly to him as an answer and realised that. You knew how to cook since you lived alone, but it was harder when you needed to cook deliciously.

“Poor me”, you murmured softly. “Umm Gojo, has my appearance changed? Was I the same as before?”

Gojo paused and answered “Nope! You looked more beautiful than yesterday”.

“Please Gojo for once just to answer seriously”.

“Y/n, you never change at all since my dad brought you home and lived with us. To me, you are always a beautiful, kind, warm, and supportive person. No matter how much you’ve changed, you are and will be my princess always”

You felt his sincerity when he answered your questions. Your heart was beating so fast. You quickly asked him another question. “Gojo, how will I pay for all expenses for the trip and what was my job?”

Gojo heard your questions and laughed. “No worries, I’ll pay everything for you. For all the time, you don't need to work for a living. I always take care of you and you also have some stocks in our company. My dad left some stocks for you since your parents were his best friends. Your writing job is your hobby. Mainly, you stay home. You always welcome me after work, take care of everything in the home as my w-wife, and your presence is my energy. We usually discuss a lot of things together about company and daily life”.

You saw his face while answering shyly. His face was reddish and he didn’t look at your eyes directly while talking about Runa. You admired Gojo for how charming and easygoing he was. His personality made you feel at ease. He was also so cute when he was shy, but how come this cute person dared to cheat on his lover! You made a pout secretly to him while he was eating his steak. Anyway, you knew your life would be a bit easier since you didn’t need to think about working or living that much for now.

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Being 13 hours long on the plane, you finally arrived at New York. The jet lag had hit you so hard. You spent 2 days resting at the hotel. You loved walking, so this was the first time you got to enjoy your life in another country for relaxing. You kept walking around the central park area for an hour before heading back to the hotel since tomorrow, you were going to meet Shoko. You were excited to meet another character from Jutjusu Kaisen.

At the clinic, you were sitting across a woman who had long brown hair with the mole under her right eye. Her eyes looked tired indeed just like in the anime. You thought to yourself ‘even in the fanfiction, Shoko couldn't rest well too’.

You were tested for your body, completed some tests, and answered questions. Finally, Shoko concluded that part of the causes were from a level of chemical abnormalities in your brain along with your personality which you thought might come with Runa’s body.

You attended the first session with Shoko and it went well. She was a nice doctor. She stated that you made the right decision to meet the doctor when you knew you needed someone to talk to. Although you were not sure about the degree of your symptoms, it would be better to meet with a professional person to get help.

You had an appointment with her every week for a couple months along with taking her medicines regularly. You began to enjoy your life in New York and thought more positively. You tried to find what you could do as a textbook author. You were searching for a publishing company to discuss with them.

It had been about 6 months until Shoko said you got better and didn’t need to meet with her anymore. You still kept doing whatever it made you happy. Until one day you found out the draft of a novel that Runa wrote. You read it and seemed like Runa was a very genius author for the romantic genre. It was also based on her love story about her life and Gojo. It was twin princesses who one was bad and the other was good. A prince rescued a good princess from her bad twin. You analyzed that Runa compared a bad twin as her agony from depression. Gojo was the prince who helped her. Anyway, you thought it was more like Gojo was a bad twin who hurt her and caused all the troubles in Runa’s life.

Gojo usually called you from time to time. He awfully wanted to come to New York. You stopped him and explained how much you needed time to heal yourself. You were debating with yourself to go back because you were sorry for Gojo to be alone. However, you decided to call him and let him know you would like to stay a bit longer because you needed more time for yourself which he was okay with.

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Gojo received the call from you. He was a bit unhappy to hear that you would like to spend more time there. He missed you so much. Therefore, he spent time with Kiko who was Toji’s wife whenever he thought of you. He still met her though he knew it wasn’t right.

“Who did you talk to on the phone, Gojo?” Kiko asked while cooking in his kitchen.

“It was y/n. She wanted to stay longer in New York”. Gojo told her while hugging Kiko from behind.

“And you were okay with it? I thought you missed her”

“I MISS her of course, but I know she will be back to me no matter what. I just need to wait till she’s ready”

“What if y/n has changed her mind and loves someone else?”

“Aww, I would be sad.” Gojo laughed and gripped his heart pretending he hurt.

“Gojo, I’m serious. If she knew about us, what would you do?”

“I would break up with you since I’ll do it one day anyway just sooner. I’ll apologise to y/n and will do everything to get her forgiveness”

“Do you think y/n will forgive you?” Kiko turned her head to look at Gojo who was resting his chin on her shoulder.

“I know, she will. Since we were young, she never leaves my side for once. And I won’t let her go too”

Kiko didn’t say anything, only thinking of her husband. She imagined if Toji could love her as much as Gojo loved you, then Kiko wouldn’t cheat on him. She was jealous of you to get this much love from a guy like Gojo. Kiko thought it was normal for men to have many women, but at least Gojo had placed you 1st in his heart, unlike Toji who never loved her. Kiko didn't care much if Gojo ended this affair with her. However, that would be too bad to end it because Kiko yearned to have someone cherish her like Gojo did.

Gojo walked to sit on the dining table while thinking about what Kiko said. He was a bit worried if you found someone you loved more than him. However, he was certain you wouldn’t go anyway because that was what you always did. You never left him for once, you needed him. While he was thinking about you, Kiko was done cooking and brought food on the table before sitting and having dinner with Gojo.

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You had lived in America for more than 8 months now. After your sessions with Shoko were done, you were disappointed because you thought you could be friends with her. However, after months had passed, you met Shoko again at the coffee shop. You and Shoko got to talk to each other since you were no longer her formal client, you and her became friends. You discovered that it was okay to be introverted and met with people sometimes. This was something you never did while being in your world.

You also found that meeting people could help you relax, especially when you had a good friend who could listen to you. You did perceive your feeling got better. You did well to adapt your new life into this fanfictional world. Moreover, you picked up a new hobby which was taking pictures everywhere you went.

At the coffee shop, you were hanging out with Shoko again. “Hey Shoko, I had a finished draft of a novel that my past self wrote. Do you know anyone who could help me publish the book?”

“Hmm, why on earth you referred to yourself as your past self though I knew you lost your memory, it is still you. Anyway, what is the novel about?” Shoko asked while sipping the coffee.

You rolled your eyes “it’s about a romance novel, but I didn’t have the name yet”.

“Lucky you! I knew someone and he’s here in New York right now for a business trip. He’s the CEO of the media company but also a founder of his own publishing company and we’ve been friends for a long time. I’ll ask him to meet you at 11 am here then”. Shoko smiled mischievously, but you didn’t realize the meaning of her smile.

You quickly stood up from your seat and jumped to hug Shoko after hearing it. “Shokoooo, I know you are the one who will help me! I’m glad to have you as the first friend in this world”.

Shoko made an annoying expression to you because she thought you were exaggerating to say she was your first friend in this world.

The next day, you came 10 minutes early to meet Shoko’s friend. Shoko didn’t tell you what his name was but to say you would see a good looking guy who would come on time and I would realize that was him. Shoko said he was also a famous person in our country due to his publishing business and Shoko had shown your picture to him already. You didn’t know how to tell her that you just came into this fanfic world, so it was impossible to know who was famous besides Gojo.

She didn’t lie, you knew immediately when that guy walked in the coffee shop at 11 am. He walked slowly to your table as if he remembered you. He said hi to you and told you he was Shoko’s friend. When you looked at him, you saw a tall, blond-haired man who wore a business suit with a yellow necktie that had a dotted pattern.

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Chapter 2 Begin Again

TW/CW: mental issues, emotional issues, depression, panic attack (please be aware of these)

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It was a rainy day, but still beautiful. You could see sunshine behind those rain clouds. You were at the coffee shop, full of many people who came to take out or stay at the coffee shop for working, studying, hanging out, or waiting for the rain to stop. You were also waiting for Shoko’s friend to discuss publishing Runa’s book. It was crowded, but he stood out among the crowded people, slowly approached you, and you realized this blond haired man was Nanami Kento.

“You must be l/n y/n. I’m Shoko’s friend. My name is Nanami Kento. I appreciate you coming earlier to wait for me”. Nanami smiled faintly.

“H-Hi, Nanami. Thank you for coming. I heard from Shoko you're a busy person. I am thankful and it was a pleasure to meet you”

You were bewildered and thought to yourself ‘Oh my goodness! This is Nanami. He’s in this fanfic too’. You were nervous due to Nanami’s presence. He seemed placid, but powerful. Looked cold-blooded but could sense his kindness through his tender brown eyes.

Nanami could tell you were anxious, so he tried to lighten the mood to make you more comfortable.

“Miss l/n, it’s not a problem at all and the pleasure is mine. Please forgive me, but I think you look better than the picture Shoko showed me” Nanami really meant it. You looked better than a photo and it made him eager to meet you.

“T-Thank you. You can just call me y/n. And you look very handsome too”. All your cheeks showed blushing. You sipped your coffee to distract yourself.

“Okay, y/n. You can call me Kento too. I prefer you to call me by my first name. Ahem, about the book Shoko told me briefly that you have a finished draft of your novel right?”

“Ohh, yes. It’s in my laptop here. Would you like to read it?”

Nanami moved his chair to sit close to you. He grabbed your laptop to read the completed draft. You were observing his gesture. His fingers were slender and long. He put his left hand on the table and sat his back straight while using his right hand to place it on the trackpad keyboard. You were on cloud nine just to look at him. It truly reminded you that you were in the fanfiction of Jujutsu Kaisen. Normally, you only watched them in anime or read manga, but this...this was unbelievable to actually sit next to him and look at him like this.

“y/n, If I was a paper, my face would certainly be a hole. But I'm glad, you keep looking at me like this”

“I-I’m sorry. I just think your face has a nice shape especially your cheekbones”

Nanami was surprised by the way you were so honest although you were so awkward. He gave a small chuckle and just said. “Thank you”.

Nanami spent a couple of hours reading the finished draft. “Have you named this novel yet?”

The time paused for a moment for you to think about it. You hadn’t thought of a good name for it because you realised it wasn’t right for you to name what wasn’t yours, even so you wanted Runa’s book to be published to show the world how talented she was. However, Runa wasn’t here, so it was your duty to name it.

“Kento, what do you think about Once Upon A Time?”

“May I ask why?” Nanami looked at you directly.

“B-because the story is gloomy but it ends with happiness. The prince successfully rescued a good twin princess. I wanted people who read this book to realize that the nightmare can be ended if they won’t give up and reject people who support them”

You didn’t know if this was what Runa intended to write or not. For Runa, Gojo was her savior, for you Gojo was more a pain for Runa. Nevertheless, everyone had a right to find their own savior as long as that would make them happy.

Nanami had judged before came here that you must be naive and shy but you actually could be inventive and straightforward when you must, which he was impressed about. He really hoped to get to know you more.

“What do you think if we'll be working on this book together? There are some parts we could've changed before publishing. I like the story. It looks like normal romance fiction, but it has a lot of deep meaning inside. You’re a clever author, y/n”

“I don’t know if you knew it, a year ago, I got into a car accident that caused me to lose my memory. I didn’t know if I would be able to help you much. Also, I’m still in a recovery stage”

You were ashamed because you weren’t the one who wrote but also bliss to hear that Runa got a compliment from him. She was talented and a lot of people should know about. You were the author too, but you were a textbook author which was different. You would like to assist Nanami. However, you didn’t know how much you were capable of doing this romance genre.

“I’ve heard about your car accident from the news and Shoko has told me about you too, in a good way of course. That’s why I would personally like to work together with you. Don’t forget, I’m the owner of a publishing company. I've also written some books before. I’ll help you as long as you need me”

The Gojo clan was outstanding and a lot of people knew about Gojo’s company and his personal story. Nanami met Gojo in high school though Nanami and Gojo weren't close due to attending different universities. It would be impossible if Nanami hadn’t heard about yours, just not that much. However, there was gossip that you were his secretive and naive lover. He got wind of this from some of his friends when he joined some social events.

At first, he judged you to be a meek or obedient lover of Gojo, those personalities weren’t bad, he just didn’t think you would be different from what he had in mind. When Shoko told him about how kind and brave you were, he was so interested to meet you. Nanami wouldn’t want to ask you much about yourself. He respected you and he would wait until you were ready to tell him about yours.

“Well, at least she didn’t talk crap about me” you whispered to yourself.

“Maybe” Nanami answered and sipped his coffee with his stern face.

“W-what!” You didn't know what or who you should be shocked either Shoko might say something embarrassing about you or Nanami heard you talking to yourself.

“So, what do you think about my suggestion, y/n?”

“Umm, yeah, let’s do it then! Please kindly look out for me, Kento”

“No worries and do you have any pen names in mind?”

“I would like to use ‘Runa’”

“Okay, I’ll let the team know about your pen name.”

Nanami smiled. The way his eyes looked at you were so gentle. He observed the way you smiled back at him, the way you paid attention to him, the way you explained your ideas, or the way you drank your coffee and choked on it, so he needed to find a napkin for you. Everything about you was charming, fascinating, and sometimes cute and funny at the same time. He wanted to know your next move, what you were going to eat for dinner, he wanted to know more about you. He felt like he wanted to protect you.

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Since then, Nanami and you had been spending time together for about half a year. You learned new techniques of writing fictional stories. He had been a great help for you both in your work and your personal life. He was always there for you. When you needed advice for your book or when you wanted to know which clothes looked better on you, he was there to discuss everything with you all the time.

For Nanami, he went back and forth between countries just to help and see you as well. He was keen and joyful whenever he saw you or answered your call. You also looked forward every time you knew you were going to meet him. When you spent time with him whether it was for working or simply hanging out, it always brought the safe and warm feelings.

“y/n, in a month I think your book can be published and we can release it in America first since we’re here”

“Really! It's wonderful, Kento. Also I’ve planned to stay here a little longer. I want to travel around the country. I haven’t gotten the opportunity to do that before. I can also go to many states to observe bookstores too”

“ahh...I have no problem with your plan and have you talked to your family about that?”

“Not yet”

“Your family?”

“Mhm, will make a call tonight” you were busy scrolling your phone.

“To who?”

“My family’’

“Who??” Kento raised his eyebrows.

“Who???” you were confused about the conversation you just exchanged with him. Then, you attentively watched Nanami to see what exactly he wanted to ask. Quickly, you remembered you never told him anything about your relationship with Gojo. You assumed that maybe he wanted to know.

“Kento, Gojo and I are childhood friends. I can’t remember anything about the past, but now we decided to be just friends. He has supported me to be here. Lately, we don’t talk to each other as much as during the first few months, but he’s someone who I appreciate.”

All you said was true. You might be excited because Gojo was the sensei in your favorite anime, but in this world, he’s the one who hurt Runa and you wouldn’t want to end up like her. Of course, it was joyful when you met or talked to him, but that was all.

“Thank you for telling me. I-I wasn’t that curious anyway”

“Ahaaaaaaaaaa, yeah yeah”, you narrowed your eyes suspiciously.

“y/n, do you want to take a break from work? There was a well-known church named ‘St. Patrick's Cathedral’ that is about 7 blocks away from here. If you want, let's walk there together”

You stood up quickly and blinked your eyes like a puppy to Nanami. His brown eyes widened at how cute you were and gave a half-smile before walking to the door and opening it for you.

You walked side by side with him. Every step with him made you feel secure. Even though you didn’t hold his arm or hand, you could sense the warmth from him. For Nanami, he felt peaceful and warmhearted when he was with you.

Both of you arrived at the church. The church was decorated in Roman style. It was grand and magical. You could sense the holy feeling by just looking. You were about to walk inside with him. Abruptly, you were dizzy and your breath was short. Your chest was hurt and burning. Nanami saw that, so he clutched you close to him firmly in order to prevent you from falling. He decided to take you to a coffee shop that was the closest, so you could take a rest.

“y/n, I ordered hot tea for you, here take a sip”

“Thank you, Kento. I’m sorry we didn’t get inside the church”

“That’s okay. Are you sick? Is that possibly related to your depression?”

“I guess so...it could be a panic attack. I assume I’m stressed a bit about the book”

“y/n, don’t worry about it. I’m here with you”

Nanami glanced worriedly before placing his left arm on the table and using his right hand to gently pat your head. At that time, you learned that talking to Gojo gave you an exciting feeling like riding a roller coaster. However, the feelings you had with Nanami were more complicated. You felt comfortable and assured like...home.

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Gojo was having a meeting with Toji. Zenin’s company became a partner with Gojo real estate more than a year ago since Zenin’s business was about architecture and furniture. Two powerful clans became partners and made both businesses more successful.

“Gojo, it has been a while since we didn't hung out. We should catch up with each other sometimes” Toji asked Gojo after the meeting ended and everyone left the meeting room.

“I’ve been busy with a lot of things,” Gojo replied casually.

Toji chuckled softly “I’ve heard you have time to meet some women, but don’t have time for your business partner huh?” Toji gazed straight into those blue eyes.

“Now now, Fushiguro Toji is interested in my personal business huh? Shall we have dinner at your mansion? I’ve heard your wife is good at cooking”. Gojo gazed back and smiled viciously at Toji while placing his arms on the chair armrests and sat comfortably on the chair.

Toji stood up on his chair before he headed out of the meeting room, he turned his head to Gojo, “yeah, Kiko’s good at cooking. Hmm, isn’t y/n also good at cooking too? Also, I’ve heard y/n is good at writing. Well, I hope to meet her someday. Anyway, let me know when you want to come to my mansion for dinner. I’ll ask Kiko to prepare”. Toji gave the vicious smile back to Gojo and left.

Gojo stared at Toji’s back furiously. He acknowledged the last time he talked with you was a long time ago. He’s too busy with his work. Moreover, you had been asking to have time for yourself. He just wanted to respect you since you lost your memory or at least that was his excuse of not calling you often like before. He enjoyed seeing many different women and one of them was Kiko. He did hate the way Toji mentioned your name like he knew you well.

Right on cue, his phone rang and it showed your name on it, he picked up quickly.

“Hello y/n, I’m glad you called. How are you?”

“Hi Gojo! I-I am fine. How have you been?”

“Umm, not so good. I miss you so bad. What should I do if I die because of missing you so much? "

“Keep that to someone else Gojo”. You laughed playfully.

Gojo was panicking. He thought you may hear something and got jealous. He never wanted you to get into an accident or anything to harm you. He knew he was dishonest to you, but you were the one who said wanting to be friends with him.

“Gojo, are you there? Are you okay?”

“Yeah, I’m here. Sorry I was thinking about work”

“Anyway, what is the reason my baby called me today?”

“No calling baby, Gojo! haha, anyway, just want you to know I’m about to publish my first book in America, s-so I want to spend more time here to travel around before I get back there. Would that be alright?”

Gojo was quiet. This was the second time he didn't know how to reply to you. Something had definitely changed, but he couldn’t figure out what had changed. Was it you who changed? Nevertheless, he was happy to know you were doing well. He totally rejoiced with your book. He remembered it was your dream since you both were young. He also was uncomfortable and scared. He had so many questions in his head. Why didn’t you want to come back soon? Didn’t you want to be with him? How did Toji know about your writing? Right...he thought how Toji knew that you were good at writing.

“Hey, y/n did you know Toji and his wife?”

“No, I didn't know them personally, why did you ask? What happened?”

“Nothing, well...If you spend more time, how long do you need?”

“Not so sure, but I’ll be back for sure if that was you were worried about”

“I-l’ll wait then. Y/n, congratulations on your new book and if you need anything, please call me. And y/n, I miss you”

“mhm, thank Gojo...I-I’ll go now!”

“Ahh, she didn’t even say she missed me too” Gojo looked out the window and gripped his phone tightly.

There was an uneasy feeling that he didn’t understand. However, he tried to tell himself. You would be back here soon and things would be the same.

He then texted Kiko.

-Kiko, come to my home tonight-

From Kiko

-see you then-

Gojo looked at the text and continued his work. He wanted to be busy just to distract himself from the uneasy feeling in his heart.

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After ending the call with Gojo, you were surprised why he asked about Toji and his wife. You learned about them from reading this fanfiction as a reader, but it was true you didn’t know them personally. You hoped you wouldn’t be involved with them since you had the biggest problem which was adapting after transmigration into this ‘Her Love Her Life’ fanfiction.

A month had passed, Nanami came to announce that today the book was released. The anxiety and bliss were poured into your heart. Finally, people would know how great Runa was. You wanted people to know the author of the book was strong enough to overcome her depression and fight for her life. ‘Once Upon A Time’ would be sold around the country under the pen name which you made to appreciate Runa. At least, you hoped people would remember the name ‘Runa’.

At the same time, Nanami was watching you. He was aware of how nervous you were. He didn’t say anything, only held your hand up to kiss your wrist. You could sense his warm and tender lips when he kissed. Your cheeks were getting florid, but it didn’t stop there, all your face was reddish and your head now was like a tomato. You turned to peer at him. Nanami was working on his laptop while holding your hand tightly.

‘Would it be uncomfortable for him? Wouldn't you bother him? Would it be okay to be here with you?’ These thoughts were in your brain while looking at him.

As if he could read your mind, he looked into your eyes and just said “y/n, I want to be here with you as long as you would let me”

Like the time was freezed, you gathered your courage and asked him “Then, will you be willing to slowly walk and hold my hand like this forever with me?”

His eyes gleamed. He didn’t expect you would be the one who asked him. He always liked how you could be frank when you must. Then he replied to you confidently. “As slow as you want, and I do not know if the forever will be true, but I assure you that I don't tend to give you up or let you go from me”

His smile was the only thing that you could see right now. His warm presence, his big hands, his brown eyes had washed away all your worry. All of your life you had held back your love and your feelings toward others. Sometimes, you felt like no one understood you. You’d tried to share your story with some friends. They always said they understood, but it was your fault to suspect whether they actually did or not.

You thought if they understood, they wouldn’t say it happened to them too, but their situation was worse than yours, and if they could get through it, so did you. Your family would understand you, but it was different. There were always many things you couldn’t tell anyone, you felt like you were alone in the sea of humans, like you were always walking on an unstable bridge.

Maybe you were introverted, scared, or not ready to accept anyone into your life, into your small space. Once you got into this world, you were alone and went through a lot of things by yourself. Tried so hard everyday to adapt in the new environment, in the new body, and with new people. The time may seem fast, but the fear or agony made everyday longer ten times. However, right now, you wanted to walk with him to begin a new life, a new journey in this world.

“Kento, I want to go to Strand Book Store, I want to see how the book is displayed!”

Nanami stood up from his chair, still held your hand tight, and walked hand in hand with you to the bookstore together.

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At first, ‘Once Upon A Time’ wasn’t that famous and didn’t sell well. However, it could be the blessing of Runa or the magic of the book that sold itself, you wouldn’t know. Now, the book had spreaded word of mouth until it got more and more popular as well as Kento’s publishing company.

You were still traveling around by yourself and sometimes Kento would come to travel with you whenever he could. During spring, Kento and you went to Savannah, Georgia. The sky was so bright and clear. The flowers bloomed and were colorful. The city was wonderful. It was well known for being one of the oldest and historic places.The town was antique but glamorous. Kento and you enjoyed those moments together. When you both took a walk to a park or riverfront, he never once forgot to put his arm around your waist or intertwined fingers while walking.

When you decided, you were going back to Japan. This summer, you visited Portland, Oregon. You remembered Kento loved coffee and Portland was famous for it. Kento and you walked around downtown. It had been a week that you both tried different coffee shops. You also went to Powell’s book just to stop and see your book. It was a bestseller in the book store. You couldn’t even stop smiling just like Kento. However, he smiled because he saw how happy you were and that made him happier. After you were back to the hotel, you helped Kento to pack his luggage since tomorrow you both would go to Cannon Beach for the last destination for your long trip.

The next morning, you and Kento drove to a hotel. The room was comfy. There was a bedroom separated from the living room. From the room, you could see the breathtaking views of the Oregon coastline. You were so proud of yourself to find a good place for Kento to take a rest since you knew Kento liked more quiet and natural places rather than busy and crowded attractions.

Due to the summer, the weather was so nice. Kento sat outside the balcony where he could see the beach while reading a book. You were about to sit next to him, and suddenly Kento grabbed your wrist and pulled you to sit on his lap, so your back leaned against him.

“Kento, what is it?”

“Nothing, sweetheart”

“I know, there is something! And I can sit on that chair”, you pointed to the chair next to him.

“I am aware, you can sit on that chair, but you can sit on my lap as well”

“W-why?, Kento. You’re reading and If I sit on your lap, you’ll be uncomfortable”

He sighed before closing and placing his book on the table. He wrapped his arms around your abdomen. He lowered his head on your shoulder, so his mouth was next to your left ear.

“y/n, I was uncomfortable for a few months because I couldn't meet you, so may I feel your existence a bit more to make up for the time we aparted?”. He whispered.

You twisted your shoulder a bit, so you could turn to look at his brown eyes. Then you opened your arms before wrapping around his neck firmly. You placed your right cheek to rub with his left cheek and kissed the cheek. Kento chukled with his deep voice before kissing your right cheek. Then, he looked at you to ask questions.

“By the way, have you talked to Gojo about living with me when we go back next week?”

“Uh, not yet. I haven't talked to him for many months now. We don't call each other that often anymore”

“Ahh, I see. Well, we do not need to tell him now. We can just go back there and tell him when we get a chance”

Kento didn’t want to admit it, but he was complacent that you didn’t talk to Gojo. It had been almost a year, Kento and you were together. He was slightly worried sometimes when he thought about Gojo. On that day, when you asked him to walk and hold your hand, you told him you and Gojo were childhood friends and you couldn’t remember anything before the accident.

He listened to everything you said and he trusted you, but he didn’t trust Gojo. He knew Gojo was a womanizer, as your boyfriend, he wouldn’t want Gojo to be close to you. Kento understood the bond you had shared with him was complicated to cut off, but he determined he wouldn’t let you go whether the forever was true or not.

While Kento was lost in his thoughts, you studied him carefully and thought about what Kento told you a long time ago about the bond you shared with Gojo. However, you giggled quietly because the only bond you had shared with Gojo was through Anime or Manga.

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Finally, you were back in Japan for months. You lived in the penthouse with Kento. You were so busy because of jetlag, releasing your book in Japan, and adapting your life with Kento. He was very disciplined and tidy. It wasn't that you were a messy person, but you just weren't on the same level as him.

“y/n, when you take the shoes off, don’t forget to always keep it in the shoe cabinet”

“y/n, thank you for cleaning my office, but please don’t move my documents because I sorted them by alphabets”

“y/n, I like the flower, but it would be better to put it on the dining table”

You were a bit nervous when he commented on what you did. However, he always did it politely. You also sensed he did his best to adapt his life with you. It was hard since you used to live alone, but this was a pleasant moment to be with him.

At the evening, you and Kento were having dinner together. “y/n, don’t lick your chopsticks like that” Kento sighed.

“Ah! Sorry~ I forgot”

“It’s okay, I just don’t want you to be used to it. Then, you will do it outside our home. I don't want people to think you’re rude which you are not. Anyway, I have something to tell you. Sweetheart, next week, your book will be released here in Japan, and in 2 weeks, we are going to a charity gala. I would like to bring you there with me because I want people to know who the author of the popular book is and who your boyfriend is”

“Hehe, you are a jealous boyfriend, my sweetheart~”

Kento choked his food and was bashful. He didn’t know he should be surprised when you said he was a jealous boyfriend or called him sweetheart. He was with you for a while now, he knew you were not the one who expressed your emotion or feeling through words. You liked to show through your actions. However, it always made his heart warm when you said these sweet things to him.

“Do you perhaps dislike a jealous guy?” he asked you calmly while focusing on his dish.

“I do like Kento who is jealous”

“Ahh, Thank you. So, what do you think about the gala?”

“I-I don’t like to be around a lot of people”

“I will be there with you, of course. You can trust me”

“O-okay...I’ll go then”

“hmm, then I will reward my good girl by watching a movie and cuddling you to sleep”

You were stunned how sweet he was. You talked to yourself about who would need a real man when you could actually have a 2d man as your boyfriend in this life, teehee. That night you slept peacefully while Kento cuddled you close to his chest.

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Runa’s book was popular in Japan as well. You predicted this would happen because Runa wrote based on herself and her feelings. You assumed people liked it since it was real and touching. Obviously, no matter where you were in this fanfiction or the real world, there were people who suffered and needed encouragement. That was why Runa’s book sold well.

Tonight, Kento and you were going to the charity gala for your first appearance as ‘Once Upon A’ Time’ author and as Kento’s girlfriend. The gala was more like people had a party and created more connections. You were so nervous, but you knew things were going to be fine as long as you had Kento next to you.

You were dressed in a beautiful gown that you specifically chose for tonight. [please imagine the gown that you like].

Kento was wearing a light brown suit with black shirt inside. You thought if this was in a manga or anime, flowers should have been placed around Kento because he was too beautiful for a person. You were so proud of how you got a good eye for having this attractive boyfriend.

On The other hand, you didn’t notice Kento was scrutinizing you. He admired how you always knew what you liked to wear and were confident with it. He wondered why he took this long time to meet you and how glad he was about to announce to people he was your boyfriend.

Kento held up his arm out for you to hang your arm in his. You were uneasy because there were so many people and this was your first time to join this big gala. You usually avoided events where you needed to meet and talk to a lot of people. If it wasn’t avoidable, you would do it. Still, this time was different since Kento asked you to come with him.

At that time while you and Kento were holding each other's hand, the white hair man who wore a dusty pink suit with white shirt spotted you. He watched you holding hands with a man who wasn’t him shockingly. It had been more than 2 years. 2 freaking years for him, he hadn't seen you.

Now you were back, but you didn’t even tell him. His heart and mind were confused and angry. Gojo totally forgot he was with Toji and Kiko. They saw Gojo didn’t pay attention to them, so they turned their heads to where Gojo was gazing. Then, they saw what captured Gojo’s attention.

Kiko looked at you. She thought you were radiant and adorable. She was jealous at how happy you were with that blonde haired man. She perceived you were truly happy from laughing with people.

Toji was impressed by how beautiful you were. The beauty he sensed wasn’t from your appearance, but it was from your hidden confidence and independence.

Gojo always realized you were a pretty person, but he had to admit that you changed. Tonight, you were not only pretty, but also captivating from your aura that shined out in your every movement. Gojo was also irritated. His chest was burning from the anger to see you here. Right at the moment, he determined things between you and him would not just end easily. Gojo was slowly moving toward you. Once he got close enough, he yanked your left wrist hard until your head hit his chest.

“Gojo?!” you asked surprisingly.

“Hey, y/n long time no see”. He gave a nasty smile, but it wasn’t for you. It was for Kento who was grabbing your right wrist

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Chapter 13 - Cut To The Chase

Warning: emotional issues, mentioning hospital, mentioning cancer (please be aware of these)

Masterlist LFTM

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Megumi walked to send Fumiko to her room. Megumi didn’t hate her, she was still his cousin but he disliked her. He disliked how she manipulated people and how she hurt Yuji by using him. Megumi stopped in front of the door.

“Stop doing whatever you plan with y/n. It’s not gonna work this time” Megumi said.

“Ohh, I know. I can’t do the same with her like I did with those stupid women who dared to like Yuji. Y/n is different” Fumiko crossed her arms over her chest.

“Stop before I told the truth with Yuji”

“Hmm? Will you? Will you break his heart like that?” Fumiko grinned from ear to ear.

Megumi disliked this the most. He disliked how she acted so innocent and sweet but had a dark mind and heart.

“Leave y/n alone, Fumiko”

“Why? Ohh because you felt guilty that you used her?” Fumiko smirked.

“What?” Megumi was shocked.

“Yeah, your mom talked to my mom and I overheard. You see Megumi, we are Fushiguro. We do what we have to, to get what we want”

Megumi shot her a furious glance and walked away.

Fumiko stepped into the room. She laid down on her bed. She looked up at the ceiling and thought about Yuji.

She recalled when she saw her mom crouched down and cried when her mom knew her husband cheated on her again. Since then, Fumiko hated how mom was weak and let those stupid women took dad away.

Nevertheless, Fumiko knew she was different. The first time she met Yuji, she thought he was stupid to let people take advantage of him. As time passed, she realized how naive Yuji was to believe her.

Fumiko decided Yuji was hers. Whoever dared to take him away, they would pay for the consequence. Just like that woman who was Yuji’s first girlfriend. Fumiko remembered she pushed that stupid girl into the road.

It was so close. That woman almost got hit by the car until Fumiko saw Yuji ran to help that girl. Why Why Why Why Yuji. Nonetheless, Fumiko was clever, and she turned the situation to her advantage. She also ran to help Yuji and got hit by the car instead of him.

It didn’t work as well as she planned but it was better. Finally, Yuji cared for her more than anyone until y/n came. Still, it wouldn’t be a problem because Yuji would always believe her.

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After Yuji brought you back to your room, he was back to the room and saw Megumi was on the bed.

“Stop that stupid grin, will you?” Megumi asked.

“W-what I don’t” Yuji used his finger to brush his lips slightly.

“D-don’t freaking do that, don’t act weird, you look more stupid” Megumi rolled his eyes.

Yuji tried to hold his smile, but the happiness in his soul wouldn’t let him. He walked to the bed and dropped down.

“That was my first ki-”

Yuji couldn’t finish his sentence because his head got slammed by the pillow that Megumi threw.

“What's wrong with you? It’s not my fault you saw. You stupidly stepped out like that” Yuji pouted and threw the pillow back.

“Who knows you would do that outside” Megumi yelled.

“Because I LIKE HER!!!!” Yuji yelled back.

“Idiot, do you want people all over the country to hear that? People are sleeping” Megumi scolded.

“Well, I don’t mind if people know...Megumi, I’m actually scared” Yuji lowered his head.

“Of what?”

“What if it ends up the same” Yuji murmured.

“It won’t. She’s different” Megumi replied.

Yuji chuckled with his low voice. His face was clouded with sadness. “Yeah, and she has sensei”

“For my sake, stop calling him sensei. And why do you like her that much?” Megumi asked.

“At first I saw her at the gala. She's so gorgeous, all the people gathered around, and she smiled at them. Then, I met her again when I dropped you at your house on the day you told me you had dinner with your family and their friend.

My car passed hers and I saw her again and again with you. I know it’s ridiculous, still, I can’t control the feeling inside. One day I realized I like her a lot”

“I don’t think your feeling is ridiculous. As you can’t control your feelings, you can’t control others too, especially other people’s heart” Megumi commented.

Yuji said nothing, only felt thankful to have Megumi as a friend. It was true in the past he had experienced love with some people.

Although it all went well at first, it was close to go to the first base, but couple days later, they came to him and admitted that they liked Megumi more because he was the one.

Since then, he was afraid to like people, he wasn’t good enough to love or be loved by someone as Fumiko told him.

He never hated Megumi, deep down he understood it wasn’t Megumi’s fault to be a good guy. If he was them, he would rather like Megumi too.

“Hey Yuji, I actually have something to tell you” Megumi glanced at his friend.

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Satoru slept peacefully after you left. He shifted himself a lot until he was awake. He was thirsty, so he decided to get some water.

He drank water then searched for you. It was an unforgettable moment for him. It was like his heart was torn. Everything that his dad warned him came into his head as his dad whispered to him ‘I told you so’.

His jaw tightened. A vein popped out in his neck. He clenched his fits. His glare was empty. He used his tongue to push the bulge of his cheek. He chuckled in his throat when he saw Yuji kiss you.

He got back to his room and slumped on his bed to listen to the footsteps of you and Yuji. Hours passed on his bed when his brain sorted his thoughts. Once the house was quiet, he walked out of his room.

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You were on the bed and recalled everything that occurred today. Your heart pounded fast, especially when you thought of the specific moment, it was even faster like it said it wanted to get out of your body.

You shook your head to calm yourself down. Your eyelids were so heavy and your body was weary. Your eyes gradually shut and your body began relaxing.

You opened your eyes to see the white ceiling. You saw monitors and the beep sounds. You blinked a couple of times and heard the voice of a woman.

You turned on your side to see your mom was there. Your eyes were widened. You called her name many times, but it seemed she didn’t hear your voice.

You perceived how her eyes were dull, how she had more wrinkles than you could remember, and how her hair had more white. You focused on what she murmured.

“y/n, today is another day that I’m happy. Your mom giggled brokenly.

“I’m happy because your dad gets better now though a doctor said he’s still in a risk condition”

You looked at her in shock. Your dad was in a risk condition? The last time you met him, he was fine. You tried to continually listen to your mom.

“My baby, you’ve been sleeping for more than 3 years. Are you bored? Your mom’s smile was angelic.

‘Mom, I’m sorry…’ you could only say that without her hearing your voice.

“Right, also your sister graduated next month. She said she would come here to show her diploma too.

And don’t worry about your dad. You brothers do their best to take care of his cancer”

Your heart dropped to hear ‘cancer’. Your dad had cancer. That was impossible…

“But y/n” she smiled and looked at your sleeping body

“don't worry about us, we're fine. If where you are makes you happier, go for it. No matter what you choose, this mom and this family will always support you because we know you are so so special”

Right, your mom always reminded you how special you were. Not only you were born to be, but also you were born on lunar eclipse.

You recalled when you were young, your family never told you what to do instead they always said doing what you were happy, doing what you sought for yourself. Yet what you chose could be wrong, they said it was okay, you got them.

She couldn’t see or hear you. However, her touch was gentle, the warmth spread all over your body. You learned the love that your family gave you, sometimes it couldn’t fill the hole in your heart but it was always soothing.

Tears brimmed in her eyes. You understood your mom meant every word she said. You also hoped she would know you were fine.

You closed your eyes when you felt an ache nudged against your heart. You sensed the wetness on your face and the light fingers brushed your cheek then you opened your eyes.

“Why is everything still white and it’s tickled?” you muttered.

“Of course it’s my hair!”

“G-Gojo??” you shouted.

“No, SA-TO-RU and do shout baby, people will know we slept together” he smirked.

“Why are you in my room?” you tried to get up but Satoru placed his hand on your shoulder to stop you.

“I didn't want to sleep alone. And why did you cry? Did you have a nightmare?” Satoru pulled you close to his chest.

“U-umm, Satoru let me go” you attempted to push him with both hands.

Satoru encircled your body with his arms tighter. “Tell me”

“Satoru let me g-”

“Ah choo” Satoru sneezed so loud.

“Are you sick?” you asked.

“I’m just cold, so let me hug you like this, please” he said.

“So, what did you dream about? Your mom?” Satoru continued.

“How do you know??” you questioned.

“Nanami told me. You usually have nightmares. He is worried, so am I. BUTTTT don’t think about him, think about me only” he caught your chin to look into his eyes.

You focused on his alluring blue eyes until you heard the loud ‘bang’ next to him.

“What was that?” you asked.

“Sorry sorry, my hand accidentally hit your lamp on the nightstand” Satoru explained.

You got up to check his hand to see if he hurt before you heard the door open. Everything happened so fast your wrist suddenly got caught, and you were dragged to lay on Satoru’s chest.

You heard someone gasping, so you whirled around to see the pink haired man standing at your door.

He paled and his lips were pressed together. You studied how his body shook.

“S-sorry. I heard the loud bang I-I thought you got hurt” After Yuji spoke he closed the door harshly.

“Ohh, that was harsh” Satoru commented.

You were upset as well as Yuji. You recollected how the look in his eyes was tormenting.

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After that hassle morning, Megumi informed you and Satoru that they would be back at Yuji's home since he, Nobara, and Fumiko would go back in a couple of days.

You didn’t get to talk with Yuji at all. It was like he avoided you. You watched as their car left and the house was quiet.

Until you heard the whining of Satoru, you got inside to find him.

“What happened?” you questioned him.

“I was lonely because you weren’t next to me” he whined.

“I was there, outside the house when you were here in the house, Satoru” you pointed.

“Anyway, don’t you have a job to do?” you sat on the couch.

Satoru ran across the room to shove his head on your lap. “I have a COO to do that. She’s good at what she does”

Satoru stayed with you a couple weeks before he was asked to be back at work. He cried and begged you to come back with him.

You told him you had a month left and would be back. He pouted but he had you promise him to meet him often and you did, so he could stop crying.

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You stayed at your home all the time after Satoru left. You had the idea of what to write for your new book. You thought of Runa, your life, and your family.

It was always like this when you were in the mood of working, you would keep doing it. Well, it wasn’t like you always had the work mood everyday, so you had to take this opportunity.

You were too focused on your work, you didn’t hear someone call out your name until he was at your front door. He shouted like the world could shake from his voice. You turned to see Yuji kneeling on the floor and kept saying sorry again and again.

You opened the door and sat on your legs “Yuji, stop. Don’t shout and why did you kneel on the floor?”

“I’m sorry because I was childish. I told you I could wait but I was irritated to see you and Gojo-san together. I avoided you so many days. You didn’t come to see me, so I thought you hate me” his eyes were on the floor.

“I don’t hate you. I didn’t come to see you because I’ve been working” you dragged Yuji from the floor and brought him to the couch and sat together.

“B-but Fumiko said you must hate me because no one like a jealous and stupid guy. When Gojo-san visited our shop before he went back, his face was so happy. When I called with Fumiko, I told her and she said you both must get together again” Yuji clarified.

You were speechless. Your brows were knitted in a frown. You wondered why Fumiko said things that could have hurt Yuji like that.

“I won’t hate you. And I have nothing to explain about what you saw, but Satoru and I are still friends”

“I believe you” he beamed.

“Yuji, don’t force yourself. I understand it’s unbeli-”

“I really do, y/n. I don’t force myself. When it comes to you, I know you won’t lie to me” Yuji gave you his bright smile.

Suddenly, you had a wild idea. You inhaled and exhaled deep and long.

“Yuji, listen I'm not the person who you think I am. I got transmitted or you could say transferring or whatever you want to call into this world in this body. I’m from another world, Yuji. The famous book wasn’t written by me, but by a person who owned this body” once you finished your quick speech, you bit your lower lips and studied him.

Yuji was quiet. He didn’t move or even blink his eyes at all. It was like he stopped breathing. Well, even in your world, no one would believe it. It was something that only happened in the novel.

“Nobara always lies to me and I believe it every time. When I do, she always says I’m so stupid” Yuji confessed.

“I’m sorry. It was ju-” you tried to make up an excuse but he cut you off.

“Y/n, you didn’t think I’m stupid right?” he asked with his doe eyes.

“N-No I- Woahhhhh” you were surprised with his unexpected action.

Yuji cuddled you in his lean body. His arms wrapped around your back and waist. He placed his chin on the top of your head and your head placed on his muscular chest. His heartbeat was so stable. His scent was clean from the cloth that was ironed.

He slowly stroked your back up and down carefully like when you used your hands to fetch water and you didn’t want to drop any of them.

“What do you want me to call you?” Yuji asked.

“Eh? Why do you ask?” you looked up at him from his chest.

“Because I want to call you by your real name” Yuji smiled.

“y/n is also my name” you told him with shocked eyes.

“And how do you look like?” Yuji continued.

“I-I think I look like this, like umm like I look right now” you clarified.

“Ohh, so you are always beautiful” Yuji said with his husky voice. He used the hand that just stroked your back to comb your hair with his fingers smoothly. His eyes were lustrous.

“y/n, it must be hard right? Is this also… a reason you are always anxious when people mention your book?” He kept combing your hair.

“Huh? How do you know?” you bewildered.

“I was there at the charity gala. I saw you came in with Mr. Nanami. I couldn’t stop looking at you. Then, when you were alone and people gathered around you, you were pale and nervous. I was about to walk to you but Fumiko came and when I turned around again, you disappeared.

Ummmmm, another time would be at Ise shrine. Your eyes were unhappy when people asked you to sign the book that the owner of this body wrote” Yuji explained.

You giggled to hear he mentioned Runa as the owner of this body. “Yuji, are you a stalker?”

“N-no no no no. I am not. I’m just crazy about you, so I want to know more about you and always have my eyes on you and only you” Yuji spoke with a deep voice while toying with your hair.

“Yuji, you sound exactly like a stalker” you and Yuji laughed together.

“y/n, you must miss your family so much because when I am back in Tokyo I miss my grandparents too” he mumbled softly, pressed your face to his neck to envelope your tighter in his muscular body.

You recalled the dream of your mom. The uncomfortable feeling crawled in your heart. The tears slowly streamed down to your cheeks. You began with a soft sobbing until you cried your eyes out.

Finally, someone knew who you were. Finally, they acknowledged your existence after everyone thought you were someone else. Finally, someone listened to you as who you were. Finally, you could come out from the shadow.

His neck was soaking with your tears but he didn’t mind. He still asked you a lot of questions about yourself and your world. You told him everything, told him how you adapted into this world, and how you managed to learn so many new things.

He asked what he was in your world. It was difficult at first but you chose to tell him that he was a character from the manga and this world was fanfiction.

“Yuji, but you are real now and so is everyone” you were worried he would have negative thoughts.

“I know it’s real. I do know y/n because every time you are around me. I can feel my heart” his embrace was still firm.

“y/n, you don’t know the end of this story right?” Yuji asked.

“No, I don’t” you replied.

Yuji cupped your face with both hands to look at him.

“Yeah, that’s enough to prove this world is real because we all have to choose our own path, be yourself and be confident to walk on the path you choose” he tilted his head before lowering his head to place his lips on yours. He chewed your lips gently, but he had improved. He twirled his tongue with yours.

While you were closing your eyes, you thought of Yuji in the manga. He was innocent, yet he was a character that was driven by his courage and selflessness. This Yuji was also kind and determined.

Yuji came to your place more often. You and him got closer after you told him everything. You told him a lot of things with him at the same time he asked you a lot of questions about yourself.

The day you had to go back, you visited Mitsu and Taro to say goodbye. They gave you so much seafood. You went back with Yuji since he drove here and he had to go back to his school too.

You arrived home safe and said goodbye to Yuji. He kissed your forehead before leaving. It was a long time, finally you were at home.

You laid down on your floor before your phone rang.

“Hello, this is y/n speaking”

“Don’t you see who called you before picking up? I’m Gojo Satoru and you should know”

“I do, I pretended I didn't know” you smirked.

“Liar” Satoru scowled.

“Okay, hang up now” you pressed your lips together so as not to laugh so loud.

“If you hang up, prepare to see my face in 5 4 3 2 1”

“Huh?” then you heard knocking from your door.

“Open the door y/n” Satoru said seriously.

You were startled but you unlocked the door and saw a tall figure with white hair being there. He hung up and got in your penthouse casually.

“I bought some food. Let’s eat baby”

You chatted with him to update about your book. You felt better now. Your head was clearer though you still saw your mom’s face every time you close your eyes.

“y/n, I’m tired. Can I stay over at your place? Pleaseeeeeeee” Satoru made fists and placed them on his cheeks.

“Do you think making a cute face would help?” you questioned.

“I am cute and handsome. I can cuddle you and you can sleep happily like we…er… we used to do all the time” he shyly said.

“I don’t remember” you shrugged and began to walk away.

Once Satoru saw you turned back to him, he ran to shove you on his shoulder to your bedroom. The night went fine though Satoru’s hands were like octopus tentacles.

You had to scold him otherwise you would sleep outside. After that he placed his hands on his chest, well not all the time obviously.

The next morning, you woke up to be in his warm embrace. You smiled and shook your head. You got up to prepare breakfast. You made chicken congee for you and Satoru and added egg on his congee.

You saw he wore a different clothes from yesterday. “Did you bring your clothes with you yesterday?”

“No, I put them in your closet last time I came here” he admitted.

“What?” you blinked.

“You have a big closet. Can’t you share? Don’t be a selfish person. You need to learn how to share” he walked to settle on the chair and start eating.

“It’s not that. Aren’t you in a hurry to work? It’s about 9 am”

“Baby, I’m not Nanami. I don’t want to work, but I do because I’m Gojo Satoru” he replied.

“Satoru, I haven't had the mood to work too” you pushed your lower lip out.

“Umm, why don’t you come to our home to read your diary more? You may get some ideas. You can come to my company around 1 or 2 pm tomorrow and we’ll go there together” Satoru beamed and reached to squeezing your cheek with his slender fingers.

“Sure, I’ll taxi to your company” you smiled.

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Later in the afternoon, you got a call from Megumi’s dad.

“Toji!” you shouted.

“Princess, my ear hurts” Toji laughed.

“Sorry…”

“But I’m happy that you are excited to hear my voice“ Toji said.

“T-thank you”

“Princess, are you free today? Wanna come over at my place? Megumi and Kiko are home too”

“Ummmmmmm” you pretended to hesitate.

“Want me to kidnap you? I hope I can see that stupid white hair face sufferring” Toji laughed with his deep voice.

“I’ll see you in an hour! Bye”

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You saw many cars at Toji’s mansion. You stepped in to hear screaming voices from some people.

“y/n” Toji called out your name.

“Toji!” you smiled.

“Let’s go to my office. It’s loud here. Megumi got a friend to stop by”

You wondered if it was Yuji. Sure, you always talked to him. Still, you and him were not always tracking down each other every moment. You both respect each other privacy.

You followed Toji to his office. You sat across from him. You both sip some tea and cookies that Kiko brought for you.

“Toji, you look happier”

“Y/n, you look happier too” Toji patted your head.

“Really? I thi-”

“Y/n!!” a man shouted your name.

You saw Yuji standing at the door.

“Why are you here?” you questioned.

“I’m here to meet Megumi and you?” Yuji walked and bowed to Toji before sitting next to you.

“I’m here to see Toji” you answered.

“Oh, umm. I’ll go back to help Megumi with his project. When you are back home, tell me. We'll go back together” he rose from the seat and bowed to Toji before leaving the room.

“y/n, are you close to Yuji? When did it happen?” Toji asked.

You explained to him how you met Yuji and how he helped you when you were in Mie. Toji listened to you quietly. While you were talking, Toji bent his upper body close to you. He used his thick finger to shove some hair off your face.

Then, the door was opened again. “Y/n!!! Ohh W-what are you guys doing?” Yuji asked nervously.

You sighed. You did feel bad for Yuji. He always chose a disaster moment to appear every time.

“Nothing” you smiled at him. Then you saw he smiled and nodded before closing the door.

Toji observed you sercelty. He realized something was going on between you and Yuji.

“I still don’t mind to have a daughter in law who is older than Megumi and I believe Kiko doesn’t mind too”

“What are you talking about?” asked you.

“What do you think I am talking about, princess?” Toji smirked.

Toji shook his head and smiled before coming to sit on one knee in front of you. “y/n, some people may think it’s weird that an older woman is in a relationship with a younger man, but it’s okay if a man is older. I think it’s unfair. Love doesn’t prohibit genders, ages, or status. It's a human who sets a prohibition”

“Y/n, no matter what other people say about you, trust yourself. Even if the world says you are bad or not worth it, I do believe you are worth risking everything to be with. Err…well including Kiko and Megumi believe that too” Toji’s cheeks were slightly pink.

You studied his almond eyes. He was so sincere and good-looking. He looked like Megumi, actually Megumi looked like him. You nodded and smiled radiantly at him.

Toji felt like he was charmed by you. When you smiled, it always melted his heart and warmed his soul.

Hours later you decided to go back to your home. You waved your hand to Toji and Kiko, and got in Yuji’s car.

“Toji, did you tell her?” Kiko asked while watching Yuji’s car leave the home.

“Tell what?” Toji rose his browns.

“Tell her that you like her” Kiko stated.

Toji rubbed the back of his neck. “I can’t. I think it’s too late now. And Kiko I’m not ready to take care of anyone. I want to make up for you and Megumi first”

“Toji…” Kiko caressed Toji’s shoulder.

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You were back home with Yuji. He cooked Yosenabe with seafood you got from his grandparents and added some vegetables in. The hot pot was so good. Yuji was good at cooking.

“Y/n, I have something to confess” Yuji spoke with a hesitating voice.

“W-what is it?” you knitted your brows.

“I disturbed your private time with Toji b-because I-I was j-jeal-ous. I’m sorry for my bad behavier” his eyes were on his bowl.

“Ohh, you knew it wasn’t nice to do that right?” you pretended to be serious.

“Yes...” he pressed his lips together like forcing himself not to cry.

“There there don’t cry. I forgive you but be a bit more considering next time okay?” Yuji nodded slowly when you patted his soft hair.

“Y/n, I-I am going to play a baseball game at school, c-can you come next week?” Yuji asked with his doe eyes.

“Ohhhhh, yeah I can” you smiled warmly at him.

“I’ll pick you up okay?” Yuji suggested.

“Sure, looking forward” you replied.

Yuji cleaned all the dishes. You offered to help him, but he refused. He wanted you to take a rest and let him take care of you. You later knew his house was close to Megumi, but he drove to your house, just to have dinner with you.

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Next morning, you prepared yourself to go to Satoru’s company. When you got in the company, everyone bowed to you. Seemed like they knew who you were, well of course Runa was a part of the Gojo clan. You both hugged each other when you met him.

On the way, Satoru told you so many things about his problems. He was mad at how Toji always smirked at him. As well as he was mad at how Nanami never picked up his phone unless he sent a message that he wanted to talk about you.

“Ohh, that was the necklace I bought for you!�� Satoru shouted happily.

“Yeah, umm Satoru. I’ve been curious why did you choose the moon for the necklace?” you asked.

“Oh, you always said you like the moon since you were born on lunar eclipse” Satoru explained.

Your eyes were widened. You slowly turned your head to look at him. “What did you just say?

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Chapter 12 - When One Door Closing, Another One Opening

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Yuji bought tickets for the jet boat and you all waited for the boat to arrive. You sat at the waiting area. Satoru and you sat on the same bench when Yuji, Fumiko, Nobara, and Megumi sat somewhere behind you.

Satoru laid his head on your shoulder as he said he was comfortable with this position. Satoru asked you to open your palm, and you did. He drew his finger as pictures on it like a child while you could feel someone’s stare at your back all the time.

Fumiko entwined her arm around Yuji’s shoulder. She told him about her life before coming here, but got no response. She followed Yuji’s stare to see he was watching you.

“Yuji, Yujiiiii” Fumiko called out his name with her cute voice.

“H-huh? Sorry, what did you say?” Yuji looked away.

“I heard Miss l/n got into an accident many years ago and Mr. Gojo was there to help her. I knew Mr. Gojo is a playboy, but I do think their love is pure and beautiful. I am sure, they will end up together”

“Oh…Why do you think that, Fumiko?” Yuji's voice was heavy with emotion.

“Well, I think Mr. Gojo will stop being a bad person for Miss l/n like he stops seeing Megumi’s mom. He is rich, handsome, smart, and always chooses her at the end of the day. If I were her, I would choose him too, no one will be better than him. Still, it’s weird”

“What’s weird?” Yuji asked.

“Well, I know Mr. Gojo is a perfect guy. I still have an eye on you, Yuji” Fumiko replied with her shy voice.

“Aha” Yuji replied lifelessly. His heart was heavy. His brain was full of thoughts. Maybe Fumiko was right, he was so young for you. Who would have chosen a kid to be their partner right?

A moment when the boat arrived, you all prepared to get in the boat. The boat was quite big, seemed 20 people could be on it. When you and Satoru were about to step in, Satoru was pushed hard by Megumi.

You were stunned to acknowledge what happened, but you saw Nobara sitting next to Fumiko. You were about to sit behind them, but Yuji grabbed your small hand and sat at the back of the boat which was pretty far from others.

You enjoyed the view and took a lot of pictures of it, and also pictures of yourself and Yuji. You chatted with Yuji. Nevertheless, you were confused to hear Yuji’s statement.

“Date with you?” your voice was uncertain.

“Yes, I really like you. Please d-don’t, don’t reject me yet until we know more about each other. Don’t reject me because I’m young or I’m stupid, well I know I am, but I can be useful with something else too.

Please don’t reject me because I have pink hair, I-I can’t change it. I really like my hair color that my parents gave me. If you need to reject me, please reject me because you can’t love me back after we try to get to know each other very well.

I’m done learning about you from the internet, from the news, or from someone else. I want to learn more about you, know more about you, y/n, and I want you to be the one who tells me” Yuji sat straight and gazed into your eyes.

“I-I. Yuji. Umm, I-I” you tried to say something, but you couldn’t think of anything to say.

“y/n, it’s okay. I’m sorry. Let’s take it slow okay? Just be the same with me and try to get to know each other little by little” His voice was deep but soothing. It was like he was confident with his decision.

“Yuji, I’m not ready to love anyone again. I just broke up and I got involved with many affairs and I don’t think if I ca-”

“Hey, hey I know. That’s why I said we can take it slow, just be the same as we are and I’ll wait for you. Don’t think you can’t do anything if you haven’t tried, please” Yuji grabbed your hand firmly.

“Just like what we are now?” you asked.

“Yes, but I may change a bit” the tip of his ears turned red.

“W-why? Why do you need to change?”

“Well, because I feel weird. It’s like my heart overflows with the emotion of liking you a lot. I don’t get it too, but I’ll do my best to control this new feeling, don’t worry. I don’t think I’ll die” Yuji leaned his head to the side and smiled brightly at you.

You gazed at his glittering brown eyes that weren’t shakable, like they apprised you that this pink haired boy didn’t know how to lie and everything he said was from his heart. While you and Yuji talked with each other. You weren't aware of Satoru and Yuji exchanged their glances.

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Satoru was wise. He always knew what was about to happen or what happened at the moment. He was a president and CEO with reasons. Though people thought he was childish, he could solve whatever problems in a blink of an eye. That was why people accepted him as an heir of the Gojo clan.

He loved challenges and loved receiving all attention from others. He knew he was special, but he wanted it to remind him he wasn’t alone, he needed it to replace the loneliness in his chest.

One problem he never solved or it should have said he never expected it to happen was how you changed into a different person. You were out of reach even if you used to always be by his side no matter what, so why you left him.

He let Nanami have you because he couldn’t deny how happy you were. He thought things had changed now till he met Yuji. A boy who was too kind and heartfelt had everything he couldn't have. Still, he intended to get you back with him. He wouldn’t let you go again this time.

Yuji was young but not too naive, well some people did say he was an innocent young boy. He cared about people around him sometimes more than himself. He experienced first love of course and had experienced love with some girls, yet it always ended up sadly.

Yuji usually spent his life with family and friends like others. He was famous wherever he went due to his generosity and energy. He never thought he would fall in love with someone again after experiencing some unfortunate events until he met you.

The best decision in his life was when he decided to go to the charity gala with Megumi's parents. He then realized he was capable of liking someone. He remembered all the movements of yours when you entered the gala with your ex.

Yuji began to research about you on the internet. One led to another, he found more about Nanami and Gojo. These made him truly realize he was nothing. However, he wondered why you could make him feel like he should try his best.

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Today was a long day for everyone. They all dozed including a white haired man whose head was on your lap. Except for you and Yuji, you both eyes found each other once in a while.

Technically, Yuji always paid attention to the road but he was worried why you kept looking at him like you were mad at him. He guessed maybe you were hungry since he took you guys to so many places. At the same time, you were concerned that he was the only one who drove today.

Once everyone woke up, they all decided to stop by the market to buy ingredients and beverages for a barbecue at your place and stayed over there since your house was so big.

“Why are they so energetic after the long day?” you murmured alone.

“Maybe we’re old, but I’m still fit, you know” Satoru smirked from your lap. He slowly used his slender finger to touch your cheek.

“Don’t care and just stay still” you chuckled and pulled his finger out of your face.

Satoru smiled warmly. He observed how you smiled back at him. The smile that had changed, yet melted his chest and mind.

It took almost 4 hours to arrive at your Airbnb. You had helped them prepare for a barbeque. You secretly observed how sensei and his students had fun and chatted with each other.

You were so delighted to experience the scene that you had read in manga or watched in anime. They all were comfortable together to make a barbeque.

You weren’t aware of Fumiko approaching you until she was next to you.

“Miss l/n, could you help me to prepare the salad?”

“Oh, sure. Do you like salad?” you asked.

“No, for Yuji. I want to prepare something extra for him. He’s so energetic, so he spent a lot of energy with everything he did today. I want him to eat more with healthy food too” Fumiko said with a sweet voice.

“Ahh, I see” you replied.

“Don’t you usually do that with Mr. Gojo?”

“We…er…we don’t live together” you answered.

“You and Mr. Gojo look good together. It’s like you both were born to be with each other” Fumiko commented.

“Ohh, why do you think that, Fumiko?”

“Well, you are a talented author in this century while Mr. Gojo is also a brilliant CEO and the youngest president that has happened in the business world. I grew up in the Fushiguro clan, I learned a couple things.

If you get married to someone who isn’t appropriate with you, you can lose everything like how Megumi’s dad married aunty Kiko to protect his status”

“Fumiko, what do you want to say exactly?” you looked at her eyes.

“Hmm, I’m sorry I don’t know what you meant. I just want to share what I’ve learned in our world. I know you may not understand because you’re not from famous clans. I just...I’m worried about Yuji, he could lose everything if he keeps being kind to everyone without thinking of the consequences.

In our world, there is something called suitability and perfection, and they matter. I hope you see how suitable you are with Mr. Gojo. Oh!, I’m done. Thank you for all the help, Miss l/n”

You watched how polite Fumiko bowed to you. She gave you an adorable smile that you understood instantly. Fumiko wasn’t only a beautiful and well mannered girl, but a smart one too.

The whole situation didn’t go unnoticed by Megumi. He exhaled heavily and whirled around to find Yuji. Hopelessly, he saw Yuji and Gojo cheerfully enjoying cooking together. He then watched how you were deep in your thoughts. ____________________________________________

Everyone got together to eat barbecue and enjoyed chatting and playing games. You laughed from time to time how Yuji and Gojo annoyed Megumi. You drank some beer and looked away at the dark sea.

You could barely see anything since it was night time. You shut your eyes and listened to the waves. You heard how the waves crashed into the shore and the fire burned meat, felt the breeze blow through trees and your skin, listened to how people laughed when they had fun, and smelled salty in the wind and fire from a barbecue grill.

You breathed in and out deeply until you heard a weird noise like moaning and breath fanned your nape. You opened your eyes and turned around to see the bright red cheeks of Satoru.

“Satoru, why are your cheeks so red?”

“Huhhhhh ai dunnowww” Satoru tipsy walked and sat next to you.

“Are you drunk?” you brushed his cheeks with your fingers to feel the warmth.

“Meee, nahhhh. Satouruuu will not be drung” He spoke while having a hiccup.

“I think you mean you will not be drunk?” you giggled.

“Yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh” Satoru slowly encircled his arms around your torso.

“Megumi!!!!! What did you do?” you yelled at him knowingly who made Satoru drink.

“Sorry, he was stupidly annoyed” Megumi shrugged.

“Then, do something!” you demanded Megumi's responsibility.

Megumi didn’t listen and walked away. You rolled your eyes before catching a glimpse of Yuji's gloomy eyes. You avoided looking at him because you knew why he was sad.

You watched at the white haired man on your shoulder who babbled a lot of things you couldn’t understand. You had no choice but to take Satoru back to his room.

“Hey guys, I’m going to take him to sleep because someone makes him drunk” you shot a fierce glance at Megumi. Megumi only rolled his eyes back to you.

“I’m soooooo exhausted, Megumi Yuji, clean everything here. I’m gonna go to sleep first!” Nobara said and ran to her room after she finished her sentence. Megumi and Yuji were shocked and looked at all the mess around. You heard Megumi hard sigh.

“I”ll be back to help you guys after taking him, no worries” when you informed them, you slowly carried Satoru to his room. Luckily, he hadn’t fully passed out yet, just unsteady walking.

You wrapped your arms around his sturdy torso when he placed one arm on your shoulder and followed your lead. Once you entered his room, you gradually brought him to settle on the bed while he kept blabbing a lot of things that you didn’t know.

When he sat fully on the bed, he tugged your wrist to sit next to him.

“Please don’t g-go yet” Satoru took your hand to feel his soft cheek.

“I have to help them clean, Satoru”

“Just a moment please” he used another hand to cup your cheek.

“Umm, Satoru, you should go to bed. I'm gonna go” you were about to get up from the bed but he used both hands to cup your face to look into his alluring eyes. His eyes were as deep as the true ocean depth.

“I want to say this properly. I’m sorry for everything I’ve done. I love you. I love love you so much. I knew there was nothing I could do to make up. I know how self-fish I am. Y/n, I was and I am still scared. I hurt you because I thought you would leave me just like my mom, my real mom”

You watched his blue eyes that were trembling, that were frightened, that were vulnerable.

“You don’t need to tell me about your mom. I don’t think I deserve to know it” you said.

“You don’t deserve or you don’t care about me, y/n? I know I’m a bad person who only hurts people. I deserve to be alone, just like what my dad told me” Satoru slowly let go of your face.

“N-no, it’s just I can’t remember anything. I’m not a person you loved, a person that you had a beautiful and important memory together” you felt ashamed to be here in Runa’s body, be with someone she loved, and be with someone that loved you without knowing who you really were.

Satoru gradually traced your face features. His long finger went from your brow to your eye and continued caressing from your nose to your mouth.

“Y/n, I know you’ve changed but no matter how you change or what change you will be, you are a person that I love and I always will. My love for you will not change. I love you no matter what” Satoru used his thumb to stroke your cheek gently.

You were speechless. You had no idea how to respond with this situation, happy?, sad?. It was so overwhelming to figure it out right now.

“Do you still love Nanami” Satoru asked.

“I still miss him sometimes” the sadness clouded your features.

Satoru deliberately wrapped his arm on your back to place his hand behind your head. Since you were so small, his hand could cover all over the space of your head. Another hand was still placed on your face and kept stroking your cheek. You were caged inside his both arms now.

“Can you please please from now on, I beg you to miss me more” Satoru said softly. He slowly moved his face close to yours. Though you realized what would happen, you couldn't get out from his steady body that locked you inside.

You looked up to meet his eyes. Surprisingly, his eyes were tender, determined, and full of affection. You inhaled before closing your eyes and feeling the soft lips on your lips. Your body shivered from the taste of his juicy lips that mixed with the beer.

It felt like having a small electric shock, as when you were cold and touched someone else's body or fluffy sweater. Satoru lightly grasped your lower lip using his both lips and slowly yanked your lip and then repeated the same action with your upper one.

You caught his biceps though you didn’t know you wanted him to stop or want to hold on something. You slowly opened your eyes to see his sparking sky orbs that pierced straight to tell you how passionate he felt before you closed your eyes again. You gasped to breathe in the air, before you sensed the tender texture of his moist tongue slipped into your mouth.

You then widened your eyes, but this time you saw he closed his eyes. He leaned his head to the side to twine his tongue with you. You could tell his body was burning from the contact he made as well as yours. You placed your both hands on his wide chest, then you sensed he bit your bottom lip playfully before moving his head away from your face.

You panted due to needing the air into your lungs. You watched how he gazed into your eyes and the way he shifted himself to close the space between you both again. Your heart skipped a beat to see he was getting closer before you could do anything, Satoru fell asleep on your shoulder.

You opened your mouth to breathe the air in deeply. Being with Satoru was totally like riding a roller coaster. He made you feel wild and surprised at the same time.

You looked at how he slept peacefully, brought his head to lay on the pillow to sleep on the bed properly, and covered him with the blanket before leaving the room.

You left the room and leaned on the door. You could still feel hot inside and outside your body. You didn’t know how you felt now. It wasn’t embarrassing or shy, it was heated.

You shook your head and went to where Yuji and Megumi were. From upstairs, you saw Yuji and Fumiko happily helping each other clean. Fumiko laughed with her lovely voice while Yuji smiled with his sunshine signature. You didn’t want to disturb their time, so you chose to wash dishes in the kitchen.

Megumi watched your movement before he turned to see what you saw. He realized immediately how stupid his friend was. He walked toward where you were and talked to you.

“Why did you take much time just to put that man child to sleep?” Megumi asked harshly.

“Ahh, h-he w-was too drunk” you responded nervously.

“I didn’t know he couldn’t handle it. Anyway, why don’t you go down to help Yuji?” Megumi asked.

“Well, there are so many dishes here too, and this is helping, Megumi” you turned to meet his eyes but Megumi wasn’t there. You shrugged your shoulders and continued washing.

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Megumi went downstairs to see how Fumiko tried so hard to get close to Yuji. He didn’t mean to eavesdrop on the conversation because he intended to be here to help them.

“Yuji, I want to be valuable to you. I feel bad that I can’t help you with anything” Fumiko spoke sadly.

“Don’t say that Fumiko. Since we were young, you have helped me a lot. I’m grateful for that” Yuji smiled.

“Really? Well, that means I’m also important to you, right?” Fumiko beamed and moved close to Yuji’s face.

Yuji was stunned by the closeness he and Fumiko had. “Oooh, ummm, like Megumi and Nobara”

Fumiko dropped her head and slowly sat on the chair near her. Yuji was curious at first and then he was shocked to hear Fumiko sobbing.

“F-Fumiko, what is it?”

“N-no, I-I just think. I-I’m the most important person for you s-since I am always there when those w-women left you” Fumiko spoke with her crack voice.

Yuji kneeled down next to her. Yuji patted her back slowly and was startled when Fumiko hugged him. Yuji didn’t know what to do and they both weren’t aware of Megumi's presence until they heard someone coughing loudly.

“Megumi, are you sick?” Yuji pulled Fumiko out of him before asking his friend.

“I am worried about you, Megumi. You coughed like your throat would rip out of your mouth. Shall we take you to the hospital in case you have a serious disease?” Fumiko tilted her head to ask Megumi.

Megumi walked with one hand shoving in his pocket and stepped close to where they were. He looked lower on Fumiko “Well, maybe I cough because some secrets want to slip out”

Fumiko went poker face and gritted her teeth before changing quickly to smile at Yuji. “I’m sleepy. I’m sorry, Yuji. You’ll have to clean everything with Megumi”

“That’s fine. I can send you back to the room” Yuji said.

“No need, I’ll do it. She’s my cousin anyway, let’s go” Megumi pointed the way with his head as a signal for Fumiko to follow him.

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You just finished washing dishes until you heard someone walking. You whirled around to see Megumi and Fumiko walked inside. You were about to call their name, but you sensed some uneasy feeling from them.

You later decided to close your mouth. When they both went inside, you leaned forward to see Yuji’s cleaning alone downstairs. You went to help him.

“Yuji, let me help”

“U-umm, you’re here. Did he sleep?”

“Yes, he might be dreaming about his harem now” you chuckled.

“Umm, what do you mean?” Yuji asked you.

“I meant don’t be like him, just be yourself, okay?” you commented and continued packing some food left.

“Umm, okay” Yuji muttered.

“Let me help you throw garbage” you said.

“Umm, thank you” he replied without even peeking at you.

You took a quick glimpse at him. You realized he was a bit too quiet. He crouched down to pick trash cans from the ground and some plastic bags. 10 mins had passed, he said nothing at all. This was it, you were done with this awkwardness he gave you.

You approached him and stood in front of him. “Are you giving me a silent lesson?”

Yuji was surprised and twisted his glance from the ground to meet your eyes. “H-huh?”

“What did I do? Are You mad at me or something?”

“N-no” Yuji turned his eyes to the side.

You stared at him and crossed your arms over your chest. You were tired. This made you feel uneasy to see him act like this around you when he was just happy. You drew in a long breath.

“I’m sorry. I just don’t like to feel uneasy around you. You always make me feel lively. I think I should go to sleep. I washed all the dishes already, so good night Yuji” You pivoted your back to him before you sensed Yuji gripped your hand.

“Y/n, I’m sorry. I’m so so so sorry. Please forgive me” Yuji drew you to be in his embrace. He hugged you from the back and clutched you tight but gentle. He needed to feel your warmth and hoped you would feel his warmth either, he later laid his chin on your shoulder.

“I am stupid. I’m sorry. I-I wanted to say I’m fine, but I can’t lie and I feel weird” Yuji clarified.

“What do you feel?” You asked worriedly.

“My chest is tight like someone squeezed it. It hurts and I feel like there is a big hole too” he replied.

“When do you start feeling it?” you turned around to meet his eyes and placed one hand on his chest.

“Every time I see you close with Gojo sensei, I can’t breathe at all” he eyed the ground.

“Yuji…” you patted his arm lightly.

“Y/n, can I-I ask you something?”

“Of course”

“Fumiko told me that you might do some adult things with him in the room. That was why you took a while to come out, is that true?” there was a haunted look in his eyes when you gazed at him.

You swallowed hard. You began to think of what to explain to him. You considered whether you should tell him the truth or lie.

You, later on, made up your mind and decided to tell him you did some kind of adult thing but not that serious. You were about to say it but Yuji immediately placed his hand to cover your mouth.

“Waitttt, don’t tell me. It’s fine. I-I want to know something else. H-Have you decided you want to have someone again? I-I mean like having a boyfriend, like a lover. Well, I-I mea-”

You decided to cut him off before he went too far with his imagination. You dragged his hand off your mouth and spoke to him. “No, I’m not ready with anything now and Gojo knew that too”

You saw the way his whole face lit up. You were amazed at how his smile spread all over his face.

Even at night, Yuji was still radiant more than the moon in the sky.

Yuji’s large hand rested on your lower back while another hand held your nape and his thumb fondled your cheek lightly. He was close to your ear, so close that the hair on your neck was blown by his gentle breath. He whispered with a husky voice. “ That's enough. Thank you, y/n”

You deliberately gazed at his unshakable brown eyes. It happened again. This situation was repeated. Yuji got closer and closer.

His lips delicately touched yours. He used his soft lips to chew your bottom lip and upper lip gracefully. His touch melted your heart.

His lips were warm so that you were able to feel the consolation in your chest. You could definitely hear your heartbeat and you bet Yuji could hear it too.

You tried to get the air in from your mouth. You expected Yuji would slip his tongue in the mouth. Still, he kept nibbling your lips and sometimes bit your lips with his teeth slightly.

You didn’t close your eyes at all while Yuji didn’t open his eyes to look at you. You saw his face flushed as well as his whole ears. You thought he was so cute like a puppy with his innocent personality.

You both were startled by the sound of Megumi. Hence, you used both hands to cup his chubby cheeks and broke the contact between you both.

“Ahem, I-I am going to sleep. Bye” Megumi hurriedly went back to his room.

You and Yuji gazed into each other's eyes before chuckling.

“I think he saw” Yuji glowed radiantly.

“It’s your fault” you hit his chest lightly.

“Err...y/n… I’m sorry about the kiss. It was m-my f-first kiss, so I-I don’t know how to do it. I remembered from the movie” Yuji rubbed his nape. He believed if it wasn’t because of you, his heart may have popped out of his chest already.

“Ohh, umm, it’s good” you bit your bottom lip.

“Really?? I’m so glad. Let’s go to sleep together. I-I mean you sleep in your room and I-I sleep in my room though this is your place”

Yuji beamed and interlocked your fingers with his. He walked side by side with you. He stopped in front of your door.

“Good night, y/n” Yuji said.

“you too”

“Y/n, I-I have to tell you something. I know I’m young, a lot younger than you, but I want you to know. I do want to be with you. I can't teach you anything but I wish to learn a lot of things with you”

He caressed the back of your head and kissed your forehead. From kissing your forehead, he moved to rub his nose with your nose. You met his eyes again before giggling together. Yuji then opened the door for you to get in.

You stepped in and heard his footsteps heading to his room. Today was a very tough day of your life. You were confused and felt like you were a player.

You walked lifelessly to your bed. You pinched your arm to check if it was true, it hurt, therefore it actually happened. You got kissed by two guys, by two of your favorite characters from your favorite manga.

Suddenly, you recalled what Runa told you. She said one was destined to meet and one was destined to love.

“I just want to have a peaceful life, why is it so hard?” you sighed.

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