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chrisbangs · 1 year

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#it's crazy how much my mom doesn't care abt me #not really crazy i've been alive for 24 years . i get it 👍#but also 🫠👍#she made a huge fucking deal today abt why haven't i graduated yet and i'm keeping her here and blah blah blah #and she goes 'you're not trying hard enough to finish school so i won't go... i don't wanna wait till you graduate to go back home' and i #was like lmao?? then fucking go idgaf ??? why didn't you go if you don't wanna wait #and she was like basically the gist of what she said was bc she didn't want to leave my sister before her grad or go without my dad and i #🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠#like ok i'll just go and kill myself #whatever !#i'm going to drink alcohol and be miserable 👍 lol i fucking hate my life #i hate her ! i hate me ! i just !!!!!!#there's no winning #guess i ruined her life by being born 🤩 so lol ofc she hates me #i'm so ?/!:$:&::8:#like if you hate me so much just ! /!$3&:8:8: idk ILL JUST KILL MYSELF DAWG LIKE ????? 😭#i'm so miserable #whatever i'm gonna get drunk and not think abt this #lol i hope i die !#dl #neg #li.txt

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beneathsilverstars · 8 days

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the dissociaterrrr

(They're good enough at Tetris that a couple dollars in quarters will last them a decent amount of time, but sometimes they splurge and get the $12 all-you-can-play pass. The album they're listening to is harsh noise!)

#isat siffrin #in stars and time siffrin #in stars and time #isat #siffrin #perhaps someday once he's friends with the crew they can all go to the arcade #and actually have fun trying out different games instead of just dissociating to tetris for hours in order to kill a day off <3 #silverstarsart #café chick #i'm so glad i have a modern au now... a context for any modern au things i want to do... it was sooo smart of me to make café chick heehee #btw i drew all the shit on the cabinet myself #can you BELIEVE this was supposed to just be a small doodle?#me: i feel like i haven't truly drawn in ages bc i've been doing sprite edits instead so i think i'll do a quick silly doodle!#me *picks a difficult angle*#me *absolutely fucking kills it at the difficult angle*#drew that face and was like damn ok guess i'm spending the next couple hours drawing an arcade cabinet to match

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todayisafridaynight · 23 days

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plane scene is so funny cause why is mine a sleeper agent that wakes up whenever daigo is mentioned

can’t wait to see it in dragon engine :3

mine has been the winner for Funniest Character Imaginable for 15 consecutive years and i have yet to see anyone come close i fear

#snap chats #originally i wrote 'funniest character alive' and then remembered. HAH im so funny //throws up//#all my fave charas know how to do is get crazy on planes over men they love its disgusting #utterly hilarious cause after making the last post i went on twitter and they mentioned ANOTHER plane scene i throw up over #diff franchise so not important it is just SIMPLY funny how coincidences work and further confirming I Have A Type #BUT NO BACK TO MINE IT'S STILL SO FUCKIN FUNNY I HAVE TO REWATCH IT #i have to replay it .... all of y3 ...#if anyone remembers my friend from college and how we used to stream she asked me if we could stream #and i was like 'girl i havent streamed in Fuck Ever huh' and yk what maybe i'll stream y3 with her #at the very least ill stream y3 for myself ... legend mode .....#ive beaten y3 legend mode one (1) time and it was the worst experience of my life because if its not shadow the hedgehog #i am not good at the game i am playing !!!!!!!!!!! it'll be funny tho #i remember wanting to do a y3 drinking run but i told myself id stop drinking so i simply think. i will substitute drinking for hot sauce #its an idea im ironing out and i also have to like. properly set up a twitch- or maybe ill stream through youtube #ive always liked youtube streaming more ... at least as a viewer #these are all details for plans i will not be enacting literally any time soon can i stay on topic #the topic being i love mine. i love that plane scene forever the casual Whats Goin On Here :)#and he is the embodiment of :) in that scene casue :] is gen friendly but :) has an underlying aura of Im Going To Kill You #thats him in that scene. and i love him. for the third time. im ending this post now forever and always stan mine #if and whenever y3k comes out i cant wait to see !! but i personally believe that's well and away from us at this point #not impossible since they did mention it but yk. i dont think itll happen within the next year or two #maybe next five or ten realistically. if that jVLAEKJVLAEKJ ok bye fr now

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ayrennaranaaldmeri · 1 month

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working on a gifset and can i just say phia saban the ACTRESS THAT YOU ARE:

the sharp fucking turn when he's like wubuwbwu its a lieeee, the withering looks she gave him. it was excellent.

#tbd #anti helaemond #i guess sorry lol #full offence but i would just throw myself into the godseye if helaena looked at me like that #anyway listen the show is trash and yeah x sucks and y sucks but like i know she channelled all the energy for this one #l'm so bitter about like the lack of helaegon and even saltier bc tom and phia tried to get scenes #they fucked like the worst moment of these two chars lives and didn't even let them share in a loss that only the two of them could fathom #but man i felt it here she was channelling it here ok that's all i can say #it was sooooo you come onto my balcony after you tried to kill my husband and now u try to lie to meee????#will anything come of this? no because condom and hiss are trash but like i am sorryyyyy for enjoying this but i'm not #it's all nonsense but i'm willing to take my CRUMB!!!#but yeah like to be clear: it's frustrating that she's relegated to this no taste for flying shit and i hate it so much #genuinely a disgusting thing to throw in there for a char who canonically loved nothing more than flying on her fucking dragon #bc if they are so determined for her to not wanna burn people there is literally everything to gain and nothing to lose #by having her fly around on dreamfyre just as a show of strength or scouting or anything #and faux feminist sara piss i'll never forgive you for your gross writing #like fucking hate show clownmond so much but like yeah she is his only option i agree #but i'm just going to enjoy this in isolation bc it was so cathartic after rr and a*mond continued to torture a fucking bedridden aegon #and an entire season of his fam treating him like shit #hotd spoilers

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tomfrogisblue · 10 months

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I have finally finished O Segredo Na Floresta.

I have cried more than I thought possible.

And I fear I shall never be the same.

#i have discovered that however bad quarentena was - cellbit has tons more angst material ready to unleash when least expected #it was so so so good but my god - i have never felt more empty #you ever see a piece of media and think yeh this is gonna change the way i view certain things forever - yep.#but now i enter the ordem episodes that arent captioned and only have the youtube autotranslate - the final boss for my portuguese knowledge #cellbit #ordem paranormal #this post is sort of my proof to myself when i actually finished the bastard - this season was three billion years long i swear #and still so long to go #cellbit will continue to stab my emotions for many more hours to come!!!#it is very late at night and i am very sad. TIME TO START THE NEXT ONE :D #o segredo na floresta #enigma do medo #bro i need to yell at someone about the last like hour of the damn thing because i have many things to say. or maybe just cry some more #at least my portuguese is much better now lmao. I'll get to a point where i can just listen to an episode with no subtitles if it kills me!!#hopefully cellbit will be back on the qsmp soon to rip my heart out with a cute lil cubito delivering heart wrenching angst for some variety #qsmp #ok sleep time lmao

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bunnihearted · 5 months

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#im glad i went today to hang out with my friend c:#it was nice to just hang out with another person and talk and stuff #i also just like how considerate she is #and she's accepting and chill. i can like tell her that oh im sorry if im low energy now im just overheated bc of the weather and im feeling #sad. and she'll be like dont worry thats ok! and it also is ok she doesnt get annoyed or anything #plus she doesnt look at me weird when there's awkward pauses and i cant express myself properly lol #i overanalyze too much i know :c but anyway it is always nice talking w her so it was nice today #we walked to a sushi place and then to the library #i only stayed for like 30min at the library even if i wanted to stay longer #i realized that it's bc like she had sushi which gives her energy #but i cant afford to buy things out lol so i never eat and refresh my energy #so after 3hrs i got so low energy and just wanted to go home #i should try to find smth easy and cheap i can bring to snack on so i can stay longer!! T-T ugh.. next time!!#we also met a dog! :o she was just standing alone outside a house and stared at the gate #and we came by she walked up to us and looked at me and was like 'get me inside :)'#so my friend went around the house and the owner came and was like omgggg she ran away again!!!#im glad it was so easy to help the dog bc i could not have left her alone by a street w cars and stuff #but she was so sweet and cute and let me pet her 💗#hmm yeah! then i walked home in the heat that killed me... and now im sitting in front of the fan ^-^#im not cut out for summer!!! anywaysss it was just a nice time #i wish i could've stayed longer. i'll make sure to bring a cheap snack next time so i can hang out more

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spocks-kaathyra · 9 months

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might switch to a bio major. what if I kill myself

#please humanities is so easy............. do I really want to go into medicine that badly.................#linguistics is like ok here's the 6 courses u have to take and they're all fun and u don't get any homework :))#biology is like TAKE THESE 40 COURSES CONCURRENTLY ALL OF THEM HAVE 8 PREREQS. IF U DIDN'T START LAST YEAR THEN UR TOO LATE. KILL URSELF #I might as well kill myself right now it'd be the same outcome just quicker #sorry. it's literally not that serious I'll take some courses over the summer. life is hard suck it up #narcissus's echoes

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born-to-lose · 2 years

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#ok to rb because this handmade meme is good #but i need to vent a bit so you either skip the tags or read my suffering #no i'm not actually gonna kill myself (now) but like. what if i was dead #i just feel like absolute shit and completely helpless with everything and i'm (not even slowly) losing control of myself #i need to work on myself and my issues asap before i get Really Bad but i have no idea where to start #i'm planning to go to the self defence area of this one shop on friday because at this point you need it here if you're out alone #probably getting a pocket knife and i'm highkey scared because i'll have to keep it out of my room just to be safe #or else i can't guarantee that i won't cut myself or even end it for real when i get bad and it's just there on my desk waiting to be used #anyways i closed the 'it is what it is' chapter and i'm now going to spiral out of control #maybe not hopefully. not if i finally do something immediately #mel talks #tw self harm #depressed bitch posting

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yamikawaii · 2 months

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OK WHAT DID WE LEARN TODAY KIDS!

DO NOT PUT EXFOLIATING SOAP OR ANY TYPE OF PRODUCT WITH LITTLE GRITTY BITS ON OR AROUND OPEN WOUNDS NO MATTER HOW MUCH OF A HURRY YOU ARE IN. FOR THE LOVE OF GOD LOOK FOR SOMETHING ELSE.

#CHEESUS CHRIST. WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT.#I CAN FEEL MY HEARTBEAT IN MY LEGS.#MY THIGHS FEEL LIKE THEY ARE SIMULTANEOUSLY COMPLETELY NUMB AND IN EXCRUCIATING PAIN.#AND IT WAS A HOT SHOWER NO LESS.#WHAT. HAVE I DONE.#sh implied #yknow yknow -_-#anyways totally unrelated my aunt told me in less simple and less polite terms that she does not want me in the house anymore #and its like huh. on one hand yes please id love to leave on the other hand ok guess i'll kill myself #bc despite the fact that i DO want to go its almost as if... no matter where i am... everyone gets sick of me... huh!!!#at my parents house it was because i started failing academically. here its because i'm failing at just doing what i'm supposed to.#hell at the crisis house they got tired of me in less than the TWO WEEKS that i was there!#but all of them also had one common denominator.#i was too sick for any of them to handle.#too childish. too attention-seeking. too sensitive. too selfish. too disorganized. too stupid. too self-destructive.#too. sick.#too sick to handle.#too sick to understand.#too sick to love.#ive even seen it happen with people i havent even lived with.#ive seen it happen too many times to be a coincidence.#there really is no way around it at this point.#i really am too much for anyone to look me in the face and sincerely say they love me.#and if they can they have no idea whats coming.

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the-acid-pear · 3 months

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Need to finish my Dave design so I can draw him with Mori

#luly talks #as in Lucis. Mori is like calling me myself my second deadname which I'll reveal bc who gives a fuck its Luz #luluco literally is bc each is an initial of my names #but like i dont Have much to draw w L.L. and Dave like they're just dating.#LUCIS on the other hand has some weird familiar platonic love hate relationship w the guy #bc a Huge trait of them is that if they dislike you you won't find out. bc they're very polite.#bc they're shy y'know? and just honestly a dgaf-er. like they dont like you but that's ok they wont be rude there's bigger worries #that is unless they like. pick trust. in which case they lose the shyness.#and while L.L. is sopping wet i need y'all to understand Lucis killed himself on a suspicion of danger.#like they're volatile as FUCK #they keep it down mostly bc there's No need to let it out but sometimes something tips them over and they go wild #and they love Dave but they'll also hold him hostage for a while if they have to. doubt he'd mind THAT much #this is a joke bc of me using him for emotional stability btw #Lucis digging their nails into his shoulders like YOU'LL HELP ME. and he's just like ugh fine -_-#i like to think of Dave seeing them in a paternal light. i mean lucis is a young cryptid without parents too so he sees some of himself in #them. lucis doesn't always Pick on this tho so they get a bit uncomfortable like fuck does this guy want.#lucis does appreciate having a fellow cryptid tho. even if they're way different dave is some lizard mori is a little demon #but hey. he has a tail.#it's also an excuse to have this be like. a happy au. bc it means less reasons for Dave to kill kids he's busy being the dad he never had to #this weird freak. and! jack is helping him :)#jack is technically related to lucis too. brothers in law 🙏#lucis still can't stand Dave bc he's obnoxious and also mean but likes him bc he's silly and nice and sticks with them #wags hand around tis but thr nature of them. ask lucis about the mermaid.

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charlesemersonwinchesteriii · 1 year

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Garak in "Second Skin": I will NEVER sacrifice myself for you people I will ALWAYS selfishly save my own life that is a PROMISE

Garak in "The Search, Part II", three episodes earlier: [sacrifices himself for these people even when he could have selfishly saved his own life]

#WHEN GHEMOR OMINOUSLY WARNS KIRA AT THE END THAT GARAK WILL BETRAY THEM LIKE AS IF HE'S BEEN TRYING TO DECEPTIVELY ACT TRUSTWORTHY???#sir please. this man's whole Thing is to go around like ''ohoho I sure hope nobody notices my evil and dastardly deeds!!!#oh my super evil schemes only ended up benefitting the good guys after all? what an astounding turn of events!! oh my!!''#Star Trek: Deep Space 9 #for context I've only seen up to Second Skin so far and I'm sure soon I'll finally get to an episode where Garak does Evil Demon Crimes #and then I'll look like a complete idiot for making this post. but so be it. I asked myself WWJSBD (What Would Julian Subatoi Bashir Do?)#and the answer was love and trust and have hope despite all the odds until absolutely forced to do otherwise <3 #Starky's Original Posts #although you know what maybe he just said that because Julian wasn't along this time lmao #''Is my dear doctor going on this mission perchance? No? Ohhh ok this time's different then. Fuck all the rest of you :)''#''[remembers Julian's strange human trait of being sad when people he knows die] AGHHH FUCK. OK. CHANGED MY MIND STAY ALIVE PLS''#the search part 2 is so fucked. btw. literally he died in Julian's arms. tv show written by SICKOS and PERVERTS and BASTARDS #anyways Garak was never going to kill Natima & Co. in Profit And Loss btw. change my mind.#OK I'M DONE

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4arconinoma · 7 months

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Ok so I haven't finished it yet But I'd like to ramble just a little about some thoughts on Marble Hornets so far that being: 1. WAY sadder than I had ever expected it to be 2. I find it really entertaining how the protagonist is honestly kind of terrible

#txt #By that I mean to say that well Im not sure how much of a consensus this opinion is but as I see it Im just honestly surprised at the #lengths that Jay goes to investigate. and you know there's conviction and all but god DAMN. Ill avoid spoilers till I have a proper tag but #Suffice to say i didnt expect him to go from trespassing to . Psychological manipulation...? Im 90% sure he just re-ruined this guy's life?#And this isnt a complaint. On the contrary i really appreciate it because I think hes a really interesting protag #Usually something like MH would bore me seeing as a lot of it is just walking with a camera while being kind of clueless?#But i feel so invested in the characters that im actually always eager to find out what will happen. I think theyve pulled off tension so #well this entire time. Its really thrilling to watch this #Anyways when it comes to the first point Im not even going to try and explain the emotions that I feel towards Tim Wright.#You can figure that out on your own. I can assure you that NONE are normal and it is very DIRE. thats all i'll say on that #Lastly Im honestly a little scared to finish it. i think i only have some 20 entries left but I know for a fact things will get bad #and im Scared ;((( so Im putting it off and I'll do it in a few days so I can get ready Ok. if Tim dies I kill myself in front of everybody #uhhmmm autism over sorry byeee [skitters away

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strwbrymlkshake · 2 years

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the experience hurts, but I think it's so romantic that we both feel like the world is ending whenever we accidentally upset eachother ♡

#mine #🎸#irl darling #yancore #irl yandere #darlingcore #yandere vent #the word darlingcore seems like the sweetest artificial strawberry dessert in the history of the world. a dessert thats past the due date #like leftover valentines cupcakes no one wanted to eat bc they taste musty. OK ANYWAYS #i do post the unhealthy aspects of myself/my feelings but i never post about the good things as often #seems like all i do is complain on here. rest assured its going well! like we are both insane but with communication its going good!#i am making a lot more progress in being possessive setting boundaries etc! even if its probably a basic thing he changed his pfp #without me going balls to the wall batshit insane<3 plus im learning to take things at face value rather than trying to decipher #the possible hidden meanings. the killing and violence is still prevalent but what can be expected? from me ofc?#he may not be outwardly insane but he is plenty deranged in his heart and thats what counts<3 #i sort of made a threat in his stead today. felt so alive. invigorated dare i say. it wasnt real polite though #and im trying to be nicer instead of violence killing forever. i can still have a little bit of violence killing as a treat though #i may make a tag for a certain guy who annoys me. not sure if its worth it. idk how long he will be in my life #i'll just do a quick complaint. hes fine and all but sometimes i want him to explode. he says the most uncomfortable things and it can be #insufferable to be in a convo w him cause he makes it about his own misery OR makes it nsfw.#he called MY DARLING. MY! DARLING! the special nickname that i call him no one else can fucking call him that #i wanted to tear out his spine tear off his face literally maim his corpse unimaginable violence death death death burn him alive etc #we are 'friends' though :) he is good natured. i guess. whatever i felt white hot rage but its back to my default pink demeanor now #idk if i said this here before but he really is just the small fish id buy so my favorite fish could have friends #keeping him around just because he makes my fish happy. though he does make my fish inconvenienced sometimes and i want to #donate him to blast testing for this. wow i can truly be the most awful manipulative person on here. gay rights and goodnight everybody

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todayisafridaynight · 11 months

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professor just told me we dont have class this week and to instead watch a movie where a chara has a mental illness and to make mental notes of their behavior and how they're treated for it so anyways which ttm movie should i rewatch

#snap chats #HELP #'pay attention to treatment' alright well he keeps wanting to kill himself does that count as 'treatment'#also FINE ill cave and start blogging about nakai and ttm stuff. ONLY SOMETIMES. because stream said it was ok #i just finished watching Monday by the way- EPIC MOVIE i really really liked it #sabu's feeding me by repeatedly putting ttm in situations where he's losing his mind and on the verge of ending it all #sorry having a kira yoshikage moment. sorry to everyone when they eventually figure out what that means #POINT IS jokes on you prof i already make mental notes of Whatever Mental Shit a chara's going through... lol...#my 'assignment' on thursday is to do something good for myself so.... OH WAIT THTAS WHAENG AIDEN COMES OUT FUCK #YOOOOOOOO gona play gaiden thursday for class.. haha... jk i already said i'd do it friday #i'll figure out something to do that day.. maybe y0 stream if i havent finished it by then #ok bye im gonna try to draw something. maybe stream y0 later we'll see how i feel

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southislandwren · 1 year

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oh so HUGE fucking update. asked advisor if i was throwing away my degrees to go to trucking school immediately after graduation and he said im just adding to my skill set. called dad and asked for permission to renew my lease and go to trucking school and he said i can run free for 1 more year. so now im doing trucking school research so i can get my CDL hopefully by the end of summer 23. then i can long haul truck or milk truck for like 2ish years. then if thats super lucrative i'll stick with it to keep saving money, otherwise i'll put my degrees to use and get some management or quality job at a dairy plant. then still by 2030 have money for land and goats

#hopes and dreams post #it was a crazy meeting. i went in there and i was like H am i wasting 5 years of effort and 110k dollars for a stupid escape plan #and he was like no... CDLs are useful within the dairy industry you could be a milk hauler or do your own distribution for your creamery #and i was like ok. im going to call my dad now #so i called dad and i was like ok so i want to be a trucker and H says thats okay. is that okay with you?#and he LAUGHED and long story short hes fine with it. hes okay with paying my rent for another year but i'll need to figure out truck schoo #the freshman was in there with me and she was like wow your dad is so supportive.... like yeah duh hes my dad we love each other #and hes okay with me being truck driver despite watching his hs classmates truck drive and i know we both have biases to work through #because i KNOW there is nothing wrong with being a truck driver but like. im more than that you know?#idk like i had all these opportunities and privileges and im using it to be a truck driver and dairy farmer.#and maybe someone who can only be a trucker would kill for the chance to do computer science or ornithology or marine science etc etc etc #and maybe ive taken that spot away and i dont deserve anything ever #but whatever. i get to just drive around. like ive always wanted. sword by my side. tunes blasting. by myself.#and at some point i;ll make cheese and ice cream and hang out in a field somewhere #idk. im not gonna make it but i can still make plans as if i will

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piplupod · 2 years

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last bit of paper mache finished off, teacher emailed while i was working on it :') aaaaa

#its nothing bad afaik fndkdl just a check-in but like #i havent done anything #idk how to explain my poor work ethic as of late fnfmdl like...#sorry i have been dealing with robots appearing in my brain and I've been using all my energy to not kill myself #sorry one of the 6-8 year olds got stuck driving the body for a few hours last week and it freaked the rest of us out #(hence the robots appearing)#and I'll get to work asap i prommy i just have to make sure i dont kill myself because i have access to supplies and several plans to do so #so I'm just making sure I don't go through with any of the plans :] which understandably is taking up most of my mental energy atm!#ok thnx byeeeee #LIKE THAT'S DBDBSKL NOT ANYTHING I CAN SAY TO PEOPLE DBFJDKDL #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide mention

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