#like;;; i always imagine touya as *at least* five years older than me no matter what

[inkykeiji]

I gotta share the silliest thought I have whenever I see Tnii - because I'm older than what you have him placed at, so whenever I see any content of him, the brat in me is like "that's ONEE-sama to you!!!" And then I die inside a little every single time because it's a become a knee-jerk reaction at this point 🤣🤣 (older, but TINY, everyone who sees me thinks I'm at least 5 years younger than I actually am LMAO).

HAHAHA awww that’s so cute hehe (*/ω＼) he’d fight you so hard on that though, would vehemently refuse to use such respectful honorifics with you + would punish you for even attempting to insist that he does—how unbelievably rude of you to even suggest it! touya-nii absolutely is the type to make/force you address him with honorifics, even if you are older than him—some sort of misplaced, misguided ‘respect’ thing; age means nothing here, he is the boss, and you will address him as such! and all that stuff (especially if you are physically smaller than him!!!).

[dabis-dream]

Dear siblings,

Dear siblings,

I’m curious… I’m curious to know what you three think of me. Do you think I’m dead? Alive? Hiding? Which is it? Maybe it’s none of the above, maybe I’m a distant recollection now, faded from each of your memories. That’d be sad, really- but perhaps it’s for the best. 

You three need to know something, and it’s that I never meant to hurt any of you. But becoming what I am today, it had to happen. It doesn’t matter how many times I try to think back, to remember, I just get the same outcome each time. This was bound to happen, always. 

Fuyumi~ As your older brother, and twin, I feel like I owe you an apology. I owe all of you one, but we’ll get to that. Since the beginning, I made it my duty to protect you. Anytime those little pricks at school would bully you, whether it was for your hair or your glasses, I made sure that they paid for it. They might’ve gotten off easy with just a few burn marks… to their faces… but I always paid for it ten-fold by Enji’s punishment in the end. But I didn’t care, you were safe, and at the time that’s all that mattered. I was your older brother, your twin- and it was my job to protect you. I’m sorry that by me leaving, life at home probably drastically changed. We used to work together, to keep things under control, and I’m sorry that all got handed over to you when I left too, just like our mother. Growing up, we were always the closest, you knew me like the back of your hand at one point… And then things changed; they got worse for me, for everyone, and I stopped talking to you. I pushed you away, closed myself off, put many walls up. I thought that was the right thing to do, to protect myself, and everyone.

Natsuo~ You were always kinder than me. We were very alike, but the big dividing factor between us, has to be your heart. Before things got bad, we used to wrestle… constantly. Physically, you always won. Our quirks though? I always won. We had a lot of fun growing up, despite the constant grey clouds that never seemed to leave the Todoroki family. There was always such a suffocating weight over all of us. We’d distract ourselves with games, but we always feared for the time Enji would come back home. We knew what that meant, and though it was a constant, it was never less scary. Eventually, I think I became the most numb to it, just accepting that this was our sad reality. I thought of us as equals, but that never meant I dropped the need to protect you, either. The amount of hits that I took for you, it’s a lot, but it’s okay. It’s okay. You are strong, Natsuo. You’ll never be a monster like our father. I know that, because throughout the constant abuse, your heart remained the same. Truly golden. 

Shouto~ Little Shouto… I suppose you’re not so little anymore, are you? I think you and I, we’re the least close. It’s only expected, I left when you were just a child. Eight years old. That’s all I got with you, just eight small years. I knew the day you were born, Enji would sure have some fun with you. Your quirks, they’re strong. Stronger than mine, stronger than his. He was was surely to exploit that in every way imaginable. I’m sorry, Shouto. I knew, I knew that when you turned five, your life was about to get immensely harder. There was no mercy for you within Enji’s heart, just like there was none for me. I screamed, fought, pleaded so hard for you, always. It was my job, as your eldest brother. You deserved none of his abuse. Nobody did. Fire and ice, it’s powerful, and I know that one day, we will meet again, officially… and on that day, who will you help? Endeavor, the ‘hero’, or your presumably dead oldest brother, the ‘villain’? Who’d wanna help a ghost anyways, right? I’m sorry for letting you, Natsuo, and Fuyumi down. All three of you, you never deserved anything that either of you got. Neither did Rei.

I’m sorry for disappearing. But it had to happen. It just had to. I broke free from that hell, and sprinted right into the next. Except this time, it was on my own accords. This hell is never, ever going away… I know that. It’s a sad truth that I can only attempt to look passed. Us Todoroki’s, we’ll never be free. We are chained to our name, like Lucifer is to his throne below. 

I’ll see you all someday soon. I apologize in advance for what I must do, but I’m not backing down from it. 

Signed,

Touya Todoroki, the fallen brother

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