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[taee]

i'm suing (for @bluemingdream ♡)

[heybaetae]

which bts song is your favorite lyrically? (love your gifs sm btw !!! 💓)

thank you!!

AND LMFAO THAT IS SO HARDDDDD. your timing is actually great because i'm literally listening to mikrokosmos as we speak, which is my fave song of theirs in general, but the lyrics are a huuuge reason for that so i guess it'd be this one lol. i also really really resonate with seesaw, zero o'clock, and blue & grey (and if you're thinking omg she's a sad girlie, so true bestie).

my fave single lyric in any bts song is "i grew a flower that can’t be bloomed in a dream that can’t come true" from fake love

[mrbingley]

Dnd Circus Campaign session four recap:

we start with a flashback of theren first finding the circus when he was a ten yr old boy seven year ago. the performers aren’t wearing clown noses in this flashback (aside from la capony the king of clowns). theren doesnt leave after the performance is over and the performers see him sitting alone on the empty bleachers inside the tent. after a bit of talking, they invite theren to stay with them. toodle loo, the strongwoman, lifts him up onto her shoulder and they take theren to seesaw to tell his fortune and see if he belongs here. seesaw tells it and sees a future with him and they say he can be apart of their circus but they’ll have to run it by mindel the ringmaster. he enters into mindel’s tent alone and after some talking she lets him join. the next day, thorne (who is a trapeze artist in this flsahback and not the ringmaster) wakes theren up by hanging up upside down from the ankle with a rope and warns theren that there’s a hierarchy here and he’s not allowed to just come in here and be mindel’s new favorite. theren tries out different acts with the other performers to see what he’d be good at. thorne rolls a nat 1 on his performance and falls from the trapeze into the net (too consumed be jealousy at theren the new kid getting attention from all the other performers and espec mindel). he does well with pogo and it’s decided theren will join pogo as a tightrope walker.

before theren can perform, he has to get good enough. in the mean time, mindel has him do chores (like yoyo does--he’s a soon to be clown who is the animal caretaker in charge of feeding all the beasts). mindel shows him a new beast she has hidden in her ringmaster tent. it’s the mother clown nose. she says she’s trying to research a way to get the implanted gem out of its brain so no one could ever control it. but while she researches, she needs someone to care for it and train it and be a friend. mindel says this is what theren will be to the clown nose mother. mindel assures him the clown nose is harmless and is only hostile if someone procures a gem to control it with and makes it hostile. the clown nose mother is also pregnant and going to have babies soon. which is why they’re keeping the clown nose a secret, so it can stay safe. thorne is outside the tent listening in, jealous and fuming that he’s not the one mindel is confiding in for this.

we cut back to the present.

the gang--tallulah the trophy wife, sinclair the anarchist, and theren the runaway--decide to go investigate the circus grounds together to see if they can find any gem that could be controlling the mother clown nose.

they have to go through the forest, at night, to do so. they can see and hear aprox four foot tall figures hiding behind and up in trees. tallulah messages one of them asking what they’re doing here and they giggle and say “looking for you!” and tallulah realizes these are children, all the children who were wearing clown noses. the clown nosed children start moving in closer to ambush them. one of the kids starts sprinting away, straight towards the circus grounds and tallulah sees them holding something. tallulah uses mage hand to grab the item from them and it looks like it might be a wand. theren sends spotty the blink dog after the kid to keep tabs on what they’re doing.

they abandon their plan to go to the circus grounds and go to investigate the old train tunnel instead.

tallulah is the only one to enter and she goes deep enough to find a train track lever that switches the direction of the track. but the switch doesn’t lead to any tracks. she keeps going deeper and finds three more train track levers. she switches each one so they’re all curving from the main path so the tracks lead to nothing.

theren and sinclair finally go in the tunnel after tallulah is 200ft inside and nothing bad has happened to her. when sinclair enters, the runes on the entrance of the tunnel dimly glow again.

sinclair investigates the first lever switch area and rolls a nat 20 and discovers a line of ash about 20 feet long where the tracks would lead to if there were tracks where the lever switch curves to. she sees ash scorched on the wall in the shape of an arch and it looks recent. she puts her hand to the wall here and feels a connection to the runes at the entrance. she can feel a language within her that this tunnel, this arch, would listen to if she were to let it out. a language that few can speak and even fewer dare to speak. this language isn’t something you learn it’s something you feel. something you let consume you whole. and sinclair has it within her.

tallulah keeps going down the tunnel, the wand(?) pulses with stronger arcane energy the deeper she gets. (btw, tallulah’s player did immediately notice that the symbol on the wand and the symbol on her camera are the same and rolled a good enough arcana check to surmise that the person who ensorcelled her camera was likely the person who made this wand).

and we stopped there!

[aegissi]

my bts concert experience in bullet points

this is gonna be long!!!

namjoon looked so good. litcherally. i was ready to risk it all for him. seeing him on screen during the first song (it was dionysus) felt like getting hit by a train. 

speaking of dionysus,,, everyone looked really hot so i was very flustered sgjfvdgb (especially namjoon. especially him.)

hobi was sooo cute during wings like he did a liddle flying move it was adorable 

just dance was such a fun stage!!!! hobi is so charismatic and he sounded amazing too (he kinda sounded very nasal at the beginning but it stopped after a few moments) the part with the water cannons was awesome btw 

jungkook was so smiley!!!!! he was adorable during euphoria and he looked so happy :((( not to mention that he also sounded so clear so stable and so good (and during the last chorus he was like “sing it!!!!” and when he got back on the stage he did a cute walk as if he was on a school trip ssgjfbhkdn)

taehyung had no business looking that good during best of me. thats all i can remember from this song.

jimin sounded kinda weird at the beginning of serendipity (my friend thought that there was something wrong with the mic) like his voice was way too high?? but it was fine for the rest of the song so idk that was random ghhdgfhdb the dancing was perfect btw he was both delicate and powerful (and during the whole concert he was the one i noticed the most bc he had sm energy and he executed every move flawlessly) the whole stage was so pretty with the bubbles and all 

trivia love was so good!!!! namjoon is an amazing performer and i loved all the hearts they put on the screens too that was really cute (it was written “je t’aime paris” at the end of the song,, that was a nice little touch) 

they looked like they had sm fun during boy with luv (and at the end jk changed his love sign to a finger heart but he couldnt find the right camera it was cute)

taehyung said some words in french (i could only hear fantastique bc of all the screaming) and then he asked how his french was (we all yelled that it was good ofc) and then i think that jin said “you’re killing it” but im not sure shvfjgbk jungkook started singing champs élysées and his pronunciation was pretty good imo

jungkook put the rose from boy with luv behind his ear :(((

the whole dope/fire/baepsae medley was so fun (and yeah hobi did the splits and hip thrusted in our faces,,,, namjoon too)

jimin sounded the best during idol imo (with jin ofc)

singularity was a whole religious experience. the audience audibly gasped when taehyung opened his eyes in that bed like. he was so sultry and it felt like i was being hypnotised. that performance was perfect on all levels (and i loved the effects they put on the screen where he was split in red and in blue) icb i had the honor of witnessing that,,, he looked so mesmerising on the screen im still not over this (in general he looked divine everytime he was on screen,,, the charisma,,,,, the presence,,,,,, the aura,,,,,,,,and he looked absolutely adorable when he smiled)

the fake love outfits. incredible. never been done before. extraordinary. fantastique, as taehyung would say

yoongi’s voice sounded higher than i thought it would during seesaw (during the whole concert actually sjfhbkgb even when he talked??) he looked very pretty but it was personally the solo stage i liked the least :// like he didn’t make any mistakes and he sounded good when he sang but it had less impact than the others to me???

EPIPHANY!!!!!! jin sounded perfect and he wore glasses and i almost died. epiphany is better live than on the album imo,,, i just wish armys would have stayed QUIET!!!!!! they almost sang the whole song like bitch i payed to listen to jin not u!!!!!!! anyway jin was so stable and the background made him look like an angel (which he is) and his last adlibs were *chef kiss*

vocal line was perfect during the truth untold but i wish armys would have just,,,shut up svdbjg like this is a ballad?? why r u yelling??? why r u singing over the professional singers??? i kinda wanted to actually hear jungkook sing the “but i still want u” part???? anyway jimin and jk were in full vocal kings mode at the end it was amazing i’ll never get sick of this song (and taehyung’s voice is a gift, truly,,, jin too ofc) also the outfits were so good pls give the styling team a raise they litcherally looked like princes

TEAR WAS SO FUCKING GOOD OMG SGHVJHBGKJBKDJ okay so first off the effects they put on the screen with the green things were so fucking cool and rap line themselvesb too!! namjoon was incredible but hoseok??? mistre jung????????? in that dior outfit?????????????? his stage presence is unmatched. to be more detailed, namjoon sounded better live and had sm energy and hobi too (his part at the end... i am deceased) but i kinda felt like yoongi was a bit off? he was good ofc but idk it seemed to me that he had less energy than the other two (he was probably just tired or sick idk this is not me saying that he sucks ofc) 

i didn’t film anything for mic drop so i enjoyed it to the fullest hehe it was awesome (especially hobi’s part)

jin wore a cap during the encore. it was great.

anpanman was cute!!! i have to say that i was barely focusing on the song i was just looking at the bangtans playing around on those bouncy things and they looked really happy

my tits were almost out during so what bc i was jumping too much it’s definitely a song u have to see live 

im pretty sure they made us do a wave twice so that jimin could count to three in french and that tae could say “magnifique” afterwards (the army bombs became a rainbow too it was beautiful)

it was difficult to hear them during the ments sometimes bc everybody was screaming :///

they kept saying that they would come next year

jk said “je n’oublierai jamais tous mes souvenirs avec vous” (i’ll never forget all my memories with u) it was very sweet and then he said smth with “pour toujours” (forever) at the end but i didnt catch the beginning of his sentence

jin, tae and yoongi imitated all the people who were trampling on the bleachers (those fans were so loud and did this shit at the randomest times....)

taehyung said his pronunciation wasn’t good but that he prepared a few sentences in french and then he said “paris si vous aimez pouvez vous nous dire (?) l’année dernière était comme (?) pouvez-vous nous (?) s’il vous plaît? j’aime vraiment paris. je n’oublierai pas (?)” (paris if you like can you say (?) last year was like (?) could you (?) please? I really love paris. I won’t forget (?)... and at the end i think he asked us if we would come next year but im not sure bc people were screaming at some points) and he ended by saying i love you in korean and he teared up :((( it was so sweet of him to prepare all of this!!!

jimin talked for a while (in korean instead of french bc he wanted us to feel his sincerity) abt how during this tour he realised that he was really happy being around his members, the staff and the fans and that he genuinely hoped that we were too and that happiness was right next to us (and that he hoped that bts was in that happiness too) and he also thanked us several times and said i love u,,, he’s a sweetheart :((

hobi said that he prepared stuff in french even tho he wasn’t confident and said “aujourd’hui c’est la meilleure nuit de notre tour (?) on a terminé notre tour sans accident et ça nous a permis de sentir à quel point vous nous aimez (?) vous êtes vraiment notre espoir, merci d’avoir passé un bon temps avec nous, je vous aime, merci beaucoup” (today is the last night of our tour (?) we finished our tour without any accident and it allowed us to feel how much u love us (?) u guys are really our hope, thank u for spending a good time with us, i love u, thank u sm) im sorry i missed some words bc i genuinely can’t understand what he said shgvdjf other than that his pronunciation was good and it’s so sweet that he prepared all that,,, he looked kinda nervous but he smiled a lot and i think he was actually reading from the prompter??

namjoon said “do u know why paris is always the last date? bc u guys are the damn best (개짱)” but the interpret omitted the damn sjfdghk he also said “on se revoit très bientôt i love u” (let’s see each other very soon)  and “paris est la ville des lumières” (paris is the city of lights) after making us take out our phones with the flash lights and then it transitioned right to mikrokosmos,, that was litcherally poetic cinema

other random things i remember: taehyung was in a really good mood (everyone actually, they were playing around a lot), hobi’s smile is so sunshiney, they poured water on each other a lot during encore (i watched jin sneaking up behind namjoon and spraying him sgfvjd they also watered jimin), there were some points where the mic quality wasn’t that good? idk maybe i just imagined it, i absolutely love how they used the screens it really added to the concert’s visuals, jin did a flying kiss during the first ment, jungkook went to the audience at the end but i was focusing on jin so i only realised he did that when jin was like “jungkook-ah” sjvfhjdgbkj, they weren’t extremely synchonized when dancing but they have great energy so it still looked good and overall i really enjoyed myself (me n my friend were ready to fight that one girl who kept screeching stuff at jungkook at random times tho,,,, icb she yelled shit at him during the truth untold like have some respect???)

[alltouchyfeely]

Day 4

24/08/2020 4:45 am

I wanted to keep a chronic diary and write about everyday, but whatever.

Last night Sam stayed with me till around 4, we were watching a movie and he fell asleep. it was kinda cute when his breathing got heavy. this is the first time ever a boy falls asleep in my bed, too soon to happen on only the third day. but the again, whatever. 

I woke up today around 8, and then again around 10 when the police knocked to do the daily check. but that’s not really important! moving on! I found a shared room online with 2 Pakistani girls that was supposed to be just within budget and immediate move, so I was excited. The girl had told me that it was a 2 bedroom flat where there is a single room and a double room. so I took Sam and Jo and went to see it, it was in a pretty neighborhood with a little seesaw in the parking garden where the three of us played. Then the owner came and we went up, it turns out that it is a one bedroom apartment plus the living which had two sofa beds. Bummer.

Then we came back and met with Nassif and Saher and Alaa’. we hung out at starbucks while Nassif studied. Alaa’ had received a letter in the mail that had a red quarantine sticker and for a moment we thought she tested positive. but it turned out to be just an old overdue letter that gave us a mini heart attack.

 I had found another flat that’s near my campus and had a reasonable price. so around 4 I went to see it and Sam came with me. we took the bus, which was nice. at first we were waiting in the wrong place, we were supposed to be waiting in the opposite direction, so we missed the first bus. but we caught the next one and got to the flat. it was so nice I liked it. when we left we decided to walk a little to take a look at our campus, which was kinda nice, we did not see it all but what we saw was nice.

when we got back everybody was already gone. so we went to get lunch from aladdin and we got a huge bottle of hungarian cola (btw nassif showed us a cool, cheap vending machine that I forgot where it is as soon as we walked away). anyways, we got the food and met up with youssef who had bought a mini butgas to make himself some food. we all ate and then I went to talk to the two Brazilian girls who I told that wanted to be their roommate and tell them that I changed my mind. 

when I got back up I met allison and he was standing in front of his room with a guy from the room next door. I said hi and went on my way but then I heard them talk about me being egyptian so I went back and had a convesation with them till sam came to get me. but sam was also drawn to the conversation and soon enough we were 5 people standing in the hallway chatting: me, sam, youssef, allison, nikolas. allison is from brazil, nikolas is from ecuador. they were really nice and we spent around an hour talking to them and we did not even feel the time. but we had to go down because fathy has arrived and he was pissed that we left him to make new friends or something. 

when we got down we sat for a little bit till mahmoud came by. we stayed like that for a while. so far I really like mahmoud and sam, they feel safe. 

then mahmoud and fathy left and it was just me and sam. we sat for a little bit playing music until three hungarians that do not speak english came by, elizabeth who idk how to describe, rebecca the pretty blonde, and david. they wanted to play some music on my phone, we communicated through google translate. Sam was so generous, he rolled them 2 cigarettes and I kept encouraging him to talk to the pretty girl but he was just out of it. 

the music they played was turkish, even though they did not understand turkish. david told me that people with mental illness listen to it and it calms their soul down. later I saw blood on his white shirt and cuts on his forearms.

it was a long day. but a good one. I just hope things dont get awkward with sam because he is the closest friend I have here.