#lololol he just wants people to appreciate their meet cute!

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1.08 / 2.04 - stede being delighted to tell their little gut-stabbed meet cute story 🗡️💕

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Hey there!! Can you write something about the mercs reactions to a GN!Reader showing signs of toxicity towards the mercs and them confronting them and rebuilding their relationship together. It would be really cute :3 especially with scout (I just think he's a soft boyo lololol)

Not gonna lie to ya, this one was a challenge for me, I even asked to have it proofread. It’s not often I see a prompt like this. I really like it though—I don’t think we see repairing relationships and changing toxic behavior enough. It so often gets shut down, and while unfortunately there are times where you must separate, sometimes you can work on it!

So thank you for such a raw and real prompt, Anon. I appreciate you, and I hope that this meets your expectations and makes you smile.

GN!Reader who shows some toxicity from previous relationships

Song used for inspiration: Heart To Heart by Mac Demarco

Characters: Scout (TF2)

Warnings: uh, I don’t know—there are implications of past relationship trauma here (toxic behavior is sadly often learned from previous toxic relationships), so please be wary of that. Also, this may be considered a somewhat “difficult conversation”, but I promise you it ends well.

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You sat on your bed, staring at your feet as they dangled just above the floor. A fast heartbeat pounded in your ears, you swore you could feel the blood coursing through every part of you.

Jeremy had said that he…wanted to talk to you. He wasn’t always the most conscientious of the connotation of his words. As soon as terror flooded your face, he had immediately clarified.

“You’re not in trouble, I promise! Geez, now I know how Ma felt…no, but it’s somethin’ serious…somethin’ important, ya know?”

That still left a good bit to the imagination.

So as the Scout finally made his way over to your room, you felt sick to your stomach. You still got that trademark knock on your doorframe.

“Hey. All set?”

Ready as I’ll ever be. Which is not at all.

You nodded your head, feeling the beginnings of a lump in your throat.

You felt the bed sink just a little as he sat down beside you—light as a feather, always, even holding still.

“I’m sorry that I made a whole big deal here but…well, it is a big deal to me.”

You truly thought you knew what was coming. You’d heard it before, out of people’s mouths, in the things they didn’t say, and echoing for years longer in your own mind, after the people voicing it were long out of your life.

“…you’ve had enough of me?”

“What??”

Genuine shock filled his voice, you could feel him go rigid.

“No. Absolutely not. That…that’s not even a thought in my mind, (Y/N), honest.”

Out of the corner of your eye, through quickly blurring vision, you saw a bandage-wrapped hand reaching for yours. You felt frozen, distant. Giving you a moment to move if you wanted to, he placed his hand over yours gently.

“Could ya just take a breath, babe? Please.”

You did just that, the sound rattling painfully. Why couldn’t you get through things like this without getting so emotional…

“I am not goin’ anywhere, okay? You know I love you, right?”

“…yeah.”

“…does it…not feel that way sometimes?”

The question sort of brought you back a bit, out of the haze of dread that conversations like this thrusted you into.

“…m…maybe…?”

“Yeah. I could kinda tell.”

Oh no. “I’m sorry—”

“It’s okay, don’t worry, lemme just explain a bit here—”

His fingertips brushed the back of your hand. A few tears escaped your eyes, but somehow, the gentle touch grounded you a bit.

“See…I forget stuff a lot. I’m not the sharpest tool in the shed. You know it, I know it. And I know it’s not good. But sometimes, when I do that, even if it’s by accident, it feels like ya kinda…shrink back? Or if I tell ya somethin’s goin’ on… Ya get quiet, even after I say I’m sorry, and…I just worry.”

He fidgeted a little, trying to sit more upright.

“And so…Spy talked to me, the other day. He felt bad revealin’ it—ah, who am I kiddin’, the guy loves this stuff—that you said I’m… really loud. And I’m sometimes too… in your face?”

You could feel your face flush as you remembered what you had said. Part of you was mad at Spy for telling Scout, he surely knew this was sensitive information…but…

“He said he told you that you should tell me to cut it out…and it seemed ta him like ya thought I wouldn’t do anything if ya did.”

You looked up to find that he was already looking right at you. He didn’t look angry. Not anywhere. But surely he must have been…right?

“…was it somethin’ like that?”

Slowly, you nodded your head, feeling your shoulders go stiff.

He looked down at his hand, still over yours, and looked back up at you worriedly.

“…I think ya might be doin’ it now. And I might be too. Do you want me ta move back?”

“N-No!!!”

Jeremy’s eyes went wide, blinking quick, before his mouth went taut on the edges.

“…are ya sure that ya mean that?”

You went to reassert that yes, yes you did…but you knew that you didn’t mean that. The contact had helped at first, but it was too much right now. Slowly, you shook your head.

“…yeah. See, (Y/N), this is why I wanted ta talk.”

His hands folded together, pulling away from you. You couldn’t look at him anymore, staring down at your lap through a veil of tears.

“Ya can look down if it helps ya. I know this is kinda…scary, I guess? But just listen to me, please.”

You nodded, and did just that.

Scout took a breath, and it felt like he was weighing each word.

“You want me to feel at ease when we’re together, right?”

You nodded again. His voice was so soft. The normally bombastic and energetic speed and volume had been dialed down. So careful. Very unlike how he was with the others.

“Yeah. I want you to feel that way, too. And if that means that I gotta knock somethin’ off, I’d like you…ta let me know, ya know what I mean?”

A slightly nervous laugh sounded from him, and you were beginning to see what he was trying to say.

He did forget important dates—you knew he didn’t mean to, but it hurt. And as much as you loved seeing him happy and excited, the volume and the physical contact could be extremely overstimulating.

“I’m not angry at you at all, by the way. I never wanted you ta feel like that. Maybe other people have gotten mad at ya for, for tellin’ em you didn’t like stuff they did. But I won’t. I promise ya that. And you know how stubborn I am about promises.”

A slight smile came to your face, even with how hard you were trying not to cry.

“…did people do that to ya, (Y/N)? People ya grew up with? Or other folks ya dated?”

Your lip quivered, and again, you nodded your head.

“Oh…I’m sorry, baby. That ain’t right. Not at all. You’re never gonna get any of that with me, and if you do? You tell me. Don’t hold nothin’ back, okay? Cuz that’s the last thing I’d ever wanna do to ya.”

Feeling bold enough to look up again, in spite of basically falling apart at this point, you caught a switch between the most serious you had ever seen Scout…and possibly the most adoring look he’d ever given to you.

“…I love you so much, (Y/N). I don’t know if I’ve ever loved anyone so much. I’m tellin’ ya all this because I love ya! You’re such a sweetheart—you’re always lookin’ out for me. Very few people have done that, so it means everythin’ ta me.”

You exhaled softly, a muted laugh, and that seemed to perk him up even more.

“And I don’t just love what ya do, I love everything you are. The way ya smile, the way ya make jokes, the way ya sing…it’s all so…so good, baby. You are so good.”

You couldn’t help but smile at that. If he had a tail, it would be wagging. The voices that so often nagged at you that he’d get tired of you went dead silent whenever he talked like this. And in moments like these, you knew he was telling the truth.

“You make me feel like I’m on top of the world. So, could ya give me the chance ta look out for you, too? Cuz I want to. Tell me anything, and I’ll do the best I can to make it happen. I’m always gonna be a little loud, a little clingy, a little…obnoxious. But…you knew that, right?”

Slowly, you nodded, wiping your eyes, your tears having subsided.

“Yeah. And I love you so much because of…a-and sometimes, in spite of those things.”

“See? There ya go!! That was great. May I uh…”

Scout stretched his hand out, and, now wanting to hold it, you quickly grabbed on tight, and tried to pull him in closer. He caught on quick.

“Oh…oh! Okay, hang on…”

Wrapping you in his arms, Scout held you close.

“Is this good?”

You fidgeted a little, then nodded. “Yeah. This is great, Jeremy. Hey…”

“Hm?”

“…thank you. For talking to me. I know it can be hard to talk stuff through with me sometimes. I was so, so scared…that you were just done…”

“I knew ya were, babe. And I hate seein’ ya hurtin’ so much. But, I think…when ya love a person—like, really love ‘em—you’ll do what ya gotta do to make it the best it can be. Even if that means doin’ scary stuff.”

“Yeah…yeah, I think I got it.”

Giggling a little, Jeremy reached for the side of your face with one hand, and you leaned into it, craning your head upwards to peck him on the lips before you curled up against his chest.

“I know it’s hard when ya learned somethin’ one way for years, and now ya gotta…unlearn it, I guess? Honestly, it was hard not ta mess around with the resta the guys when I first got here, cuz I was used’ta it with my brothers back home. But…honestly, I got a different deal with these wackos, so the change kinda works out.”

Giggling at his teasing the others, you looked back up at him, feeling your once racing heart now only aflutter with joy at being in the arms of the man you loved.

“…I think this one works out too.”

“Yeah.”

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lululawrence's February 2023 Fic List

Previous Fic Lists / Lulu’s List Podcast Masterpost

Happy 28th! It's totally still the 28th... in some time zones... lol I am still working on the amazing Christmas fics that posted this year, but I also read some non-holiday inspired fics as well! And all of them were fab. As always, be sure to show your love and appreciation with kudos, nice comments, and (when applicable) reblogging their fic posts!

syrupy sorrows and gingerbread grief by @adoremelikeasunflower19 / adoremelikeasunflower (68k, NR, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, friends to lovers, teachers Harry and Louis, coworkers and best friends, jealousy, pining, divorce, emotional hurt/comfort, secrets, pay attention to the tags because there are some abuse, gaslighting, and cheating aspects to the fic that might be triggering, but overall this fic is so cute and sweet and the way their friendship is so perfectly supportive is lovely)

The Top of Your Lungs by @zanniscaramouche / zanni_scaramouche (32k, M, Harry/Louis, sequel/completion of part 1, werewolves, pack fic, omega Harry, alpha Louis, angst, slow burn, violence, fighting, scenting, magic, listen okay the first part of this was impeccable and had me thinking about it regularly for MONTHS until this part could post, it was the perfect ending to the story, SO much pining and angst, and it was just so lovely and wonderful and I love love loved it)

Stole My Heart by @haztobegood / haztobegood (3k, NR, Harry/Louis, meet ugly, humor, chicken nuggets, awkwardness, this fic was SO hard to read but was also so funny I couldn't stop giggling the entire time I was reading it, I had to take a break though because the beginning was written so well that I almost died of secondhand embarrassment lol, so great)

(not) driving home for christmas by @justanotherghostblr / BeautifulWisdom (3k, T, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, meet ugly, shifter Louis, snowstorm, snowed in, Harry accidentally hits Louis, but he doesn't realize it's Louis, lololol, this fic is so funny and fast paced and the emotions Harry flips through along with the bantery dialogue is fab)

Give it to someone special by @djtommotomlinson / yourlionheartx (10k, G, Zayn/Liam, Christmas fic, meet cute, lonely Liam, sad Zayn, clueless Larry, ot4 celebrating Louis' birthday who invited Liam to join, emotional hurt/comfort, this fic was so SOFT, the love and friendship between ot4 is so wonderful and they welcome Liam in so fully, it's so perfect and wonderful and a lovely ending for all of them)

12 Days of Courting by mission2feelike (23k, E, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, A/B/O dynamics, alpha Harry, omega Louis, friends to lovers, secret courting, friends with benefits, pining, scenting, nesting, heat/mating cycles, this fic was just like a massive mix of everything that I love in a fic all thrown together, and it was done so perfectly, I loved how clueless Louis was but how much he WANTED it to be real, and just it made me squee a little bit when it all turned out in the end honestly, I loved this fic so much)

From Dust to Lust by @jacaranda-bloom / jacaranda_bloom (45k, E, Harry/Louis, Big Bang fic, road trip fic, enemies to lovers, more like miscommunication to friends to fwb to aching longing messes to lovers, lmaoooo you know whatever works to get you where you gotta go lol, so much banter, flirting, cute old people, dust, bonding, and there's a legit fist pumping moment!, it's so great I love it so much, this fic was so fantastic and had me dreaming of those tiny places in Australia, such a great fic to fall into)

Loved and Lost by @princelyharry / princelyharry (44k, M, Harry/Louis, Big Bang fic, Famous/Non-Famous, Childhood Friends to Lovers, Exes to Lovers, Amnesia, student Louis, Broadway star Harry, angst, happy ending, this fic was a RIDE, I had forgotten it was an amnesia fic by the time it got to that, and it's told in a switch of POV, which is SO powerfully done, it hits so hard and hurts so bad, and you're just SCREAMING for it all to come together and it just, yeah, anyway, SO GOOD lol such a ride too like wow)

Oh Little Town of BATHlehem by @londonfoginacup / LadyLondonderry (2k, G, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, crack fic, humor, meet ugly, fighting over a plastic bath, this fic omgosh you guys, I could hardly breathe, I screamed in the tags of my reblog, and the comments, and then again at Emmu once I'd finished it, because it might just be my new fav fic by her, it's so funny in genuinely every way, like what even?, and it's so sweet too, I cannot fully explain my love of this fic, just know it is GREAT)

Here where you should be by @lunarheslwt / lunarheslwt (19k, G, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, A/B/O dynamics, alpha Harry, omega Louis, strangers to friends to lovers, the friends part is... short admittedly but still there lol, the way they both save each other in small but important ways, is so lovely, and such a great basis for their friendship and then SO much more, idiots to lovers, these two are so wonderful I love them)

A Life Turned Upside Down by @chelsea-frew / Chelsea Frew (chelseafrew) (29k, E, Harry/Louis, Big Bang fic, canon divergent, previous mpreg, exes to lovers, deaf character, post-hiatus, kid fic, the way this fic is constructed and how it revolves around the kid and their reconnection, getting past their differences, all of that, it is just, SO wonderful, such a soft and lovely and hopeful fic)

Wake Up! It's Christmas by @megz1985 / Megz1985 (6k, NR, Zayn/Liam, Christmas fic, established relationship, kid fic, adoption, past trauma, healing, domestic fluff, parenthood, beautiful and lovely and so real)

All I want for Christmas is You by @sparklebootsandvans / hlftanna (43k, NR, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, A/B/O dynamics, alpha Harry, omega Louis, miscommunications, friends to lovers, jealousy, pining, flirting, scenting, dropping, touch deprivation, nesting, fluff and angst, happy ending, this fic is a wonderful mishmash of confusion between characters while trying to get to know each other, pining, the best parts of A/B/O dynamics, and just so much goodness, it makes you wanna shake them but also wanna force them into a closet to kiss and figure their shit out, in the best of ways, lmao it's such a thoroughly enjoyable read)

Once The Dark Divides by @zanniscaramouche / zanni_scaramouche (15k, E, Harry/Louis, childhood friends, friends to lovers, kink exploration, dom/sub dynamics, pwp, this fic, let me just... holy hell y'all, I didn't even mean to read it, not right that moment, I only meant to mark it as to read, but then I wanted to read the author's note, and then I kept reading, and never stopped because I was so immediately pulled in, and it's so hot but it's so much more than just that, it's so emotionally real, and the power struggle, and figuring it out, like Louis' experiences and feelings and confusion as a submissive for the first time feels SO REAL, it's incredible, so sexy, so intimate, I just still don't really have words for it but it's an entire experience, and honestly I feel a little too seen after reading it so I'll stop there lolllll)

The Holes of My Sweater by @harrysmaison / yourdelicatepov (31k, NR, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, primary school teachers, friends to lovers, Harry is the new teacher, lives quite far from everyone else, he's quite an idiot really but who doesn't love a good idiots to lovers story?, obiously I do based off this rec alone lol, it's a fun story and fantastic pining)

falling in love with the stable boy by @sup3rbloom / haveufoundwhaturlookingfor (6k, G, Harry/Louis, Reverse Bang fic, Royalty AU, Prince Liam, Prince Zayn, Prince Louis, Stable Boy Harry, love at first sight, basically, this fic is so fascinating to read because it is so clear that there's so much world building and story that we don't get as an official part of the fic, but you only get enough to keep going, and i want to know so much about the family dynamics now lol, ANYWAY, an interesting and cute read!)

An Extra Surprise by @beanno28 / Beanno28 (7k, M, Harry/Louis, Christmas fic, established relationship, kid fic, mpreg, mpreg Harry, domestic fluff, the funniest part of the entire thing was how Zayn and Liam so openly teased Louis about his need to claim some of the holiday celebrations for his birthday, and the rivalry between them for the gingerbreads, but also the way they help with the kids etc was so lovely, but all of it was so fluffy and tender and sweet)

Grow as We Go by @larryatendoftheday / larryatendoftheday (7k, T, Harry/Louis, Reverse Bang fic, established relationship, the Ultimatum AU, proposal, angst, angst with a happy ending, this fic holy mother, the way they hit the reason for the breaking point, and how Louis is just so caught off guard and so hurt, and then his realizations that he wasn't perfect either and how he wants to fix it, and just all of it, it is so heartwrenchingly painfully perfect, it feels possible and real, if that makes sense?, but the ending is perfect for that too)

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Always Been You || Kuroo x Fem!Reader

Summary: You’ve fallen back in love with your best friend, but does he love you?

Disclaimers: Hi, this is my first piece in a while, and my first smut piece. Please be nice, I’m so nervous about this.

Content Warning: Smut, Some fluff, Angst(?), Jealousy, praise kink, etc.

Here we go :’) Enjoy. I’ll just be nervously biting my nails, lololol.

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A familiar, corny tune sounded through the bedroom, the buzzing on the table causing an irritable disturbance to your sleep. Fumbling for your phone, you brought it to your ear, ready to chew out your best friend.

“Kuroo Tetsurou. Give me one good reason you are disturbing my weekend morning to sleep in, or I swear--”

“Chibi-chan, please,” Kuroo’s voice cut in, “Bokuto was calling me until I picked up and just yelled in my ear. Something about having some important thing, I don’t know, but apparently he wants to meet up with us.”

"Mmm," you groaned. You rubbed your eyes, taking a moment to process his words. Then it hit you. "Wait, he's here for a game?!"

"Hmm, oh yeah, that makes sense," his voice a bit clearer now, the sleep wearing off. "Anyway, let's go."

"Whoa, whoa, whoa. Go where?"

"He said he'll send me the address. Just get ready, I'll come over as soon as I'm done.”

You huffed. “Who said I’m going? Do you know what time it is? It’s early.” You don’t bother to check the time, it didn’t matter; anytime period of time where class or studying wasn’t necessary meant that people were not to wake you up -- Kuroo should know this.

“Fine, I guess I’ll tell Bokuto you don’t love him,” he chuckled. That woke you with a start, his voice sending tingles down your spine.

“Do that, and I will shave your head while you sleep,” you hissed. “That will take care of your bedhead concern, you dork. And I’m up, I should be ready soon. I’ll open the door for you.”

“I have the key to your place, don’t worry, I’ll just let myself in, ok?” Kuroo said softly. “You just get ready, I know you probably need all the time to fix out your cute mess.”

“Kuroo-” you pretend growled. “I swear--”

“Oh no, the signal.” And the call ended with a click.

You huffed, and headed into the bathroom to take a shower. It wasn’t until you had started washing your hair that you stopped in your tracks.

“...Cute...”

Did you hear him right? Did he call you cute? Did he just let it slide out, or did he mean it? To be fair, he did put ‘mess’ after it, but what made him say cute at all? All he did was tease you unless it was something serious. Besides, you two are best friends, it’s not like there was anything going on, not now, not in the past, and not in the future, most likely. You felt your heart clench in your chest.

Well, maybe there was one thing that happened. Back in high school. You two were top of your classes, always fighting over who had top scores ever since middle school (it was always back and forth between you two). Not only that, but you both were talented volleyball players and captains, always organizing practice matches together, trying to improve your skills and techniques against each other; it wasn’t uncommon to have small training camps with Fukurodani and Shinzen, as well. At one such training camp was when the moment that would forever lurk in your mind occurred.

Official practice for your team had ended, but you stayed behind to work on a few more setting techniques. Your fixation on the accuracy of the sets made you unaware of your best friend’s presence, his tall frame leaning on the doorway of the gym.

“Oi, Chibi-chan,” he called out as you set the ball in the air. Startled, you turned to search in the direction where the voice came from. That momentary distraction left you open to the ball falling and bouncing off your head lightly.

“You idiot, you scared me,” you groaned, rubbing the spot on your head, while Kuroo started laughing. “If you’re going to be here to bother me, you can at least be useful and help me out with a few of these sets.”

Kuroo managed to calm his small laughing fit and made his way over to the net, his face donning a somewhat soft look. “You ok there, Chibi-chan?”

You huffed, turning away. “It’s fine. Just hit a few of these sets, I would appreciate it.” He complied, like the devoted friend he was, running through this extra practice until you realized how late it had gotten.

“Damn,” you rubbed your neck. “Have we been at this for two and a half hours?”

“It’s alright, it’s what this camp is for, remember?” He looked as if he had remembered what he came to the gym for, snapping his fingers and pointing at you. “You know, I didn’t see you grabbing dinner, did you eat?”

Cue a very well-timed stomach grumble. Your team had their individual practice slot right before dinner, but when you stayed after, you forgot about it, not grabbing anything to help sustain you. Despite feeling slightly drained, you shrugged it off.

“Oh, uh, you know, it’s not a big deal, honestly,” you had said, collecting the balls that were throughout the gym. Looking back at Kuroo, a rare, serious look appeared on his rather handsome face.

“(L/N),” he frowned, his voice stern. He rarely called you by your name. “You need to eat. Come on, I’ll help find something for you to eat in the kitchen.”

He reached his hand out, turning his face away. Slightly taken aback, you started to wonder if he really wanted to hold your hand. Involuntarily, your pulse picked up, though you dare not to get your hopes up. It was at a recent practice that you had realized what you were feeling for him, when your vice captain almost smacked some sense into you, while the rest of the third years on the team rolled their eyes; why your heart started racing when he sent a genuine smile your way, the way his voice just warms you, the way he always knew how to make you feel better. Everything about him just made you feel things you’ve never felt before.

But you couldn’t say anything. Not when the tentative new manager of your volleyball club with whom you were just becoming friendly with, Misa-chan, came up to you, her eyes shining in humble earnest, asking if you were going out with Kuroo. When you had reassured her that you weren’t, your heart tensing all the while, she brightened up and asked if you could ask to see what he thought about her, because she wanted to go out with him. Even though a pit in your stomach was forming, you agreed, the words tasting bitter in your mouth. You didn’t want to go back on your promise to help her, even though it hurt you. So you tried to push your feelings down.

But in this moment, your heart took the reins, reaching for his outstretched hand, your face feeling warm. His hand was warm and calloused from the years of volleyball, but so were yours, you were sure. It was comforting, yet exciting. None of the previous boys you went out with made you feel this way, not even the ones you thought you liked a lot. This was different. He was different.

You would worry about being selfish and betraying Misa-chan’s trust later. All that mattered was how his hand holding yours made your heart beat faster as you walked out of the gym. You tried to look at your friend’s face from the corner of your eye, only to see that his face was also turned away.

“You know, I worry about you,” Kuroo broke the silence. “I sometimes worry about you just as much as I do about Kenma.”

“Hey, now, that’s a bit harsh. I just happened to miss dinner once or twice, it’s not--”

“I worry about you almost in the opposite way. You work yourself to the bone, whether it’s for school, practice, at home...you’ll burn yourself out. And that’s coming from me.”

“Well, hey,” you shrugged, chuckling. “If I do burn out, you’ll easily get the top spot, you know. And besides,” you curl your hand in a weak fist and nudge his arm, “you don’t have to worry about me. I’ve been doing this for quite a while, you know that.”

You felt your hand get slightly tugged as Kuroo stopped in his tracks, slightly tightening his grip on your hand, forcing you to face him. You looked up to see his brow furrowed in concern, his lips pursed.

“I will always worry about you,” he let out with a sigh. “You’re...you’re always on mind.”

You’re slightly taken aback, but you tell yourself to not jump to anything. “Well, I should hope you think about me at least a little. I’m your friend after all,” you chuckle.

He shakes his head lightly. “No, that’s...that’s not what I mean.”

“Well, look at the master of provocation looking so serious now. Whatever you’re thinking must be weighing down on you.” Chuckling, you tried to rationalize in your mind, trying to calm your heart, to no avail. “What’s on your mind, Tetsu?”

He opened his mouth, but nothing came out. His hand still enveloped yours, his thumb gently rubbing the back of your hand, gently pulling you a bit closer. You looked into his eyes, the lights of the night causing the hazel to appear nearly ethereal. His face inched closer, to the point where you could feel the featherlight touch of his breaths on your face.

“Have you ever thought about how we would--”

“Oi, Kuroo-senpai! (L/N)-senpai!” you heard Yamamoto call out for you all, which caused the warm hand to drop yours so fast, the boy attached to the hand turning towards the voice, running his hand to the back of his neck. You turned away from him, taking a step back from him, your thoughts spinning. You hardly registered anything that happened when the younger boy approached you all and started talking to his captain.

You walked off to the direction of your sleeping quarters, slightly dazed. You were confused by what he could have wanted to say? Was there something that you had missed? Just what did he think of you?

No, that doesn’t matter, because you were going to help Misa-chan. You were grateful to her for wanting to take on the thankless occupation of being a manager, so you were going to keep your promise. Just keep your feelings down, you were sure they would fade away eventually.

Right?

As you let the water pour over your back, you thought that you had done a good job of doing so. You did eventually get Misa-chan and Kuroo to date for nearly a couple of months, while you had cried yourself to sleep, night after night, until you picked yourself up and even dated others, squashing away your emotions until you couldn’t feel them anymore.

It seemed as if things between you two had returned to normal. Neither of you brought up that night ever again. You didn’t want to relive that uncertainty, it was better to stay in the past. It should have stayed in the past, so why did everything reopen again?

You stepped out of the shower, drying your hair and wrapping a towel around your body, before stepping out of your bathroom to get your clothes ready. Remembering the laundry you had left unfinished the previous night, you groaned and walked out of your room, hoping you could take care of at least finding something to wear before Kuroo came.

Except when you had left the room, you saw a wide-eyed Kuroo in your living room. You both froze for a moment, like two deer caught in headlights. You saw his eyes look down your body, a slight tint of pink coming to his cheeks. You turned away, squeaking in embarrassment.

“Well, Chibi-chan,” he cleared his throat. “If you wanted to seduce me, you could have just said--”

“Agh, turn around!” You could feel your face heat up, but what was worse was that you could feel yourself being...aroused? By what? You shook your head and ran back into your room, closing the door and leaning against it. Biting your lip, you gave yourself a moment to cool down, dry yourself off, and search through your drawers for clothes to slip into.

After getting dressed, you left your room to find Kuroo still turned around, in the same spot as before. “Tetsu, why are you still turned around?” you chuckled, walking up to him. “You do know I changed in my room, right?”

When he turned around, you stole the chance to admire him, thinking back to the difference between high school Kuroo and the present. He grew to be even more handsome through the years, still somehow growing even taller. His face had just about lost all the boyish charm, instead taking on a more angular, masculine shape. The hazel eyes exuded an intelligent confidence that was rather charming; though when he smiled, they warmed and softened, revealing the rare quiet side. The workouts had definitely trained and formed his body into perfection, the kind Michelangelo wished he could model his sculptures from; he took care of himself. The black t-shirt and jeans ensemble accentuated his build. His hair was still his trademark bedhead, but you loved it on him, it just wasn’t Kuroo without it. Overall, he was so damned attractive, and it was utterly exasperating to resist his physical appeal, damned near impossible when coupled with his caring, easygoing nature.

Mr. Devilishly Handsome Bedhead smirked. “Chibi-chan, maybe you should take a picture, it will last longer.”

“Whatever, Tetsu,” you rolled your eyes. “Do I look alright?”

Kuroo fell quiet for a moment, and he looked you down again, before looking into your eyes again, clearing his throat. “You look more than alright.” He shook his head. “We need to go now, so we can catch up with Bokuto a little before he gets busy and causes chaos somewhere.”

You nodded and grabbed your bag, phone, and keys. Kuroo brought his hand to your back, ushering you towards the door. His touch was light, but it still made your insides do flips. Damn it, stop reacting this way to him, he said he was interested in somebody. All you’ll get is a broken heart, you thought to yourself. Recalling one time after studying in the library, he asked a hypothetical question about how he should approach someone he was romantically interested in.

“So, Tetsu, any updates about that someone you’ve got your eye on?” you asked, locking the door, pulling away to walk alongside him.

His eyes widened a little, and he brought his hand to his neck. “Uhh, well, uh, I-,” he stuttered out. “She is, uhm, she’s doing alright. Yeah, I see her a lot.”

“You do?” you asked, your heart dropping a bit, cursing the stupid fluttering at his adorable reactions. “That’s good. I’m glad, is she nice? You haven’t told me much about her.”

“Well, yeah, she’s really nice. She’s very caring, driven, hard-working, almost to a fault. It’s like she can’t seem to-- Oh, whatever, it’s not that important.”

“Uh, yeah, it’s important. You’re my friend, of course I’ll care about this. Don’t brush it off like it’s nothing.”

“Well, it’s just...I’m not ready to talk too much about her, I don’t want to get my hopes up. Besides, I don’t think she likes me that way.”

“Are you kidding me? I’m sure she’s interested, I know quite a few girls in my classes who ask about you, hoping I’d introduce you. But if you’re not up for talking about her right now, I’ll drop it.” Secretly, you were slightly relieved as well. Whoever this girl was had him on his toes.

You both started talking about studying, quirky facts, old friends, Kenma, and other usual conversation topics for a while, until you both reached a cafe, seeing Bokuto and Akaashi sitting at a table. Bokuto was waving excitedly, and you couldn’t help but grin seeing him and his energy. Akaashi was sitting quietly, but he softly smiled at you.

“Kuroo! (L/N)-chan!” Bokuto exclaimed. “It’s been too long!”

You both took your seats at the table. “It’s good to see you again Bokuto. Akaashi, let me guess--Bokuto knocked on your door and ambushed you?”

Kuroo chuckled next to you. “Bokuto, it’s good to see you, man. How’s everything going on the team?”

“It’s been great!” he beamed. He went on to talk about recent skills he’s picked up, matches, teammates, and so on. You felt Akaashi’s eyes on you, and you turned to look at him. You two were rather close, having played the same position in high school, as well as hanging out regularly in the library to study. He knew about your returning feelings for Kuroo, so you pouted when you saw him raise an eyebrow at you. You knew what he was trying to imply, and you shook your head. He rolled his eyes, as if mocking your inaction.

“Akaashi!” Bokuto looked to the younger man. “What are you and (L/N)-cha miming over there?”

You shook your head, chuckling. “Oh, it’s nothing. We’re just telepathically communicating, you know, like we do.” You pressed your fingers to your temples and squinted your eyes, pretending to send messages to Akaashi, who rolled his eyes in turn, shaking his head.

“Yeah, I’m telling her she’s being a coward.”

“Am not!”

“What are you being a coward about?” Kuroo jumped in. “Is this something I know about?”

“Hmm, I don’t know, when will you ask out that one girl you like?” You retorted. “You’ll never know if she likes you if you don’t ask her.”

Bokuto quirked an eyebrow and turned towards Kuroo. “Does she not kn--”

Kuroo slapped a hand across the other man’s face in a panic. “I have no idea what you’re talking about, man.” He turned to you. “You see, it’s a bit more complicated than that.”

“Is it?” a voice came from behind you. You all turn to see Kenma, looking down at his phone, walking towards the table. “I don’t see the problem in asking her.”

“Kenma!” you greeted. “Wait, do you-- of course you know who he likes.”

“Kenma, don’t you dare,” Kuroo warned.

Kenma shrugged, sitting down at the table, between you and Akaashi. “You’ll figure it out eventually.” He went back to his phone, checking through his emails and social media.

You looked at him, pouting. But you knew if Kenma said something like this, you had to trust him. It hurt that Kuroo seemed to avoid the subject around you, but you couldn’t help it at this point. You would just wait for him to tell you more.

You all enjoyed yourselves, catching up with Bokuto. You found out that he had a match against the Adlers tonight, and he managed to get tickets to see the match for the group. He took a small break to see everyone before he had to leave to get ready for the match. He was excitedly chattering about his teammates, some new techniques he picked up, and other things that had been going on in his life. At some point, Kuroo mentioned a gathering at someone’s place, and Kenma reluctantly offered up his apartment to meet up afterwards to celebrate Bokuto’s achievements. Some time had passed before Bokuto had to leave early (at Akaashi’s reminder) to get ready for the match. You and Kuroo offered to walk Kenma home, but he declined, saying he had to meet up with some investors for his company he was going to found.

So the two of you walked back home, this time in relative silence. You looked up to his face and found it looking a bit distant, as if he had the world weighing down.

“Tetsu?”

He looked down towards you, his trance seeming to be broken. “Hmm, what’s up Chibi-chan?”

“What’s up with you? Ever since we left, you’ve been silent.”

“Oh, just thoughts.”

You fell silent, biting back the quip you wanted to say. You didn’t want to mock him in his serious state, he could feel vulnerable in his thoughts. “Well, if you feel the need to relieve your stress, you can rely on me, ok?” Falling silent, the two of you

Reaching the apartment building, you both stopped at your door. Standing over you, he peered into your face, his eyes searching yours for what felt like years. You couldn’t describe what was in his eyes, but the color was...somewhat intense. His lips parted, as if he wanted to say something, but he closed them again. He brought a hand up, it being nearly centimeters away from your jaw, before it switched directions to land on the door, turning his face down to clear his throat.

“Uh, so Chibi-chan...listen, I’ve been wondering, but…” he hesitated a moment, “a-are you and Akaashi a thing?”

You raised an eyebrow, hoping you were doing enough to mask your slight emotional flustering at his closeness, confused as to why he would think this. “I--no, why?”

“No reason. Anyway, Chibi-chan,” he seemed to revert to his more confident persona. “I guess I’ll see you in a bit to go to the match, and then we’ll go to Kenma’s? What time are you thinking you’ll be ready?”

Giving him a time to meet, your heart fluttered as he slowly pushed himself off the door, turning to walk next door to his apartment. You both stood at your doors, briefly staring at each other, before entering your respective abodes.

What was with Kuroo? You grabbed your phone to text Kenma and Akaashi, the two people who could help sort out your thoughts.

Y/N: Guys, I think something is up with Kuroo. Kenma: You just noticed? He’s always been weird

Y/N: No I’m serious >:(. Y/N: I mean, he just asked me if something was going on between Akaashi and me.

Akaashi: …

Y/N: What’s with that response?

Akaashi: Nothing. I mean, everyone knew I had a thing for you...

Y/N: O-O What?

Akaashi: But you were too focused on him, so I gave up.

Y/N: I-- Wow, I was blind.

Kenma: Yes, you are*

Y/N: Hey!

Kenma: It’s true.

Akaashi: ^^

Y/N: Anyway, I could have sworn he was going to touch my jaw. But that’s probably nothing.

Kenma: ...your jaw? Is that what you texted us for?

Y/N: ...Yeah, sorry, I knew it was stupid. It’s just that he switched his hand direction and leaned against my door instead.

Akaashi: The “sneaky” kabedon ;).

Y/N: ...Nah, couldn’t be…

Kenma: You’re in denial. Just come tonight, don’t worry, things might reveal themselves.

Y/N: ...Is the girl Kuroo likes gonna be there?

Kenma: …

Akaashi: …

Kenma: You know what, yeah, she will be. There, you happy?

Y/N: >:( Tremendously. Whatever, I’ll see you all later.

You entered your room, picking up a few things and putting them away, before plopping yourself on your bed, musing thoughts over. Before you knew it, you had drifted off, the bed providing a small, soft comfort.

Feeling someone’s hand on your back, shaking you awake, you opened your eyes, turning your head to see Kuroo chuckling at your face.

“I should have known you had fallen asleep, it’s so like you.” He sits down on the bed next to you. “You had me worried there for a second, not answering my texts or calls.”

You grabbed your phone and checked the notifications to see nine missed calls from Kuroo, 15 texts from Kuroo, and one call from Kenma somewhere in between. You sighed, burying your face in the bed. “Sorry,” you muttered.

“It’s ok, I’m lucky I have a key to your place to check up on you.” He brought a hand to brush the hair away from your eyes, the light touch stirring your feelings again. “Anyway, you should probably get ready. You kind of need to fix yourself up,” he teased, which earned him a whack with a pillow from you.

“Shoo shoo, let me get ready,” you urged him out, shooting back with, “I think you need to take a look at yourself.”

“Wha- You liar, I look damn fine, and you know it.”

“Yeah, yeah, whatever you say, rooster head,” you retorted, though you silently agreed with him. As you pushed him out of your room, you changed into your outfit to watch the match and the meet-up afterwards.

Stepping out, you picked up your wallet, purse, keys, and phone, then turned to Kuroo who was gazing at you. He looked as if he was trying to memorize the outfit on you, and you couldn’t help but think that maybe you weren’t the only one with feelings.

“Tetsu? You ready to go?”

He blinked a few times, shaking his head. “Uh yeah, yeah.”

“Wait.” You went into the bathroom to grab a comb you kept around only for him to use. You went over to him and started combing through his hair, trying to fluff out his hair a bit more. “Damn it Tetsu, how did you get even taller than you already were in high school?”He tried to back away, but you grabbed him by his shirt and pulled him down, trying to adjust his wild hair. “Just hold on...there, now you’re ready.”

He smirked, ready with his usual quip. “Damn Chibi-chan, if you wanted to--”

“Seduce you, I could have just said so?” You finished for him, shaking your head, chuckling. “Come on, you’re so predictable.”

That seemed to hit a nerve with Kuroo. His eyes went slightly dark for a second, his smirk dropping. “Predictable? We’ll see about that.”

Caught off guard by his sudden shift, you let go of him, clearing your throat. He stepped back, rubbing the back of his neck, the flash of dominance dissipating. “Uh, I mean...let’s just go, we don’t want to keep Akaashi and Kenma waiting.”

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You all made it to Kenma’s after the game, with an extra person in tow. The match was highly entertaining. MSBY had won, 2-1, in close sets, even with the formidable spiker Ushijima and the genius setter Kageyama on the Adlers. Bokuto had played extremely well, along with the rest of the team. After the game, he came out with a dyed blonde-haired guy you recognized as the setter of the team. Bokuto introduced him as Atsumu Miya, saying he wanted to have him hang out with the group.

So there you all were, enjoying a few snacks and learning about each other. Kuroo and Bokuto were laughing in one area, Akaashi standing next to Bokuto, while Kenma was sitting down, playing a game as usual. You were chatting with Atsumu, who turned out to be quite charming, if not a little full of himself, but you couldn’t help but enjoy his company. Easily transitioning from topic to topic in the conversation, you got to know each other fairly well, laughing at his jokes and stories. Sometimes you would glance over at Kuroo, catching him staring in your direction with a hint of envy.

~~~~~ Kuroo POV ~~~~~ Kuroo couldn’t help but feel uneasy looking at a new rival with (y/n). He didn’t express it fully, but he was seething. Atsumu seemed like an alright guy, but at the moment, all he could feel was bitterness towards him.

“Kuroo, man, whatcha thinking?” Bokuto drew his attention away from the two. “How much I kind of want to punch you right now.” Kuroo looked at his friend with a pained smile.

“Over (y/n)-chan and Atsumu?”

“Noooo, over you and Atsumu, yes about them.”

Bokuto smiled and lightly punched Kuroo in the arm. “Come on, man, it’s not like you two are dating,” he said, a mischievous look on his face.

“Bokuto. Spit it out.”

The grey haired athlete shook his head, chuckling. Even Akaashi seemed to smirk a bit. Something was definitely going on, there had to be if Bokuto was in on it. He pursed his lips, forcing his gaze away from (y/n) laughing with Atsumu, his heart clenching. He gritted his teeth and glared at Bokuto and Akaashi, then went over to talk to Kenma.

“Yo, I know you’re in on whatever Bokuto and Akaashi are plotting, so you’re gonna have to spill.”

Kenma didn’t look up from his game. “Mmm, no.”

“I figured. Whatever.” He turned to see Bokuto getting on the couch, cupping his hands around his mouth.

“Guys, let’s spice this up and play a game! We’ll get to know each other a little, like truth or dare, but with small little consequences if you don’t do either.”

Atsumu turned around, grinning. “Alright, this oughta be fun. (L/N)-san, ya gotta sit next to me.”

Kuroo glanced back, throwing daggers at the blond-haired setter, but trying to avoid his eyes. He then shifted to see (y/n) smile and nod, which only fueled his jealousy.

~~~~~~ (Y/N) ~~~~~~~~

You were all having a fun time, especially listening to Atsumu’s little truths whenever he was picked. Bokuto was boisterous and fun as always, following through on all the dares given with no shame. Akaashi was shaking his head at his best friend’s antics, holding back his laughter, while giving vague answers when truths came up. He would occasionally give pointed looks between you, Atsumu, and Kuroo, but you rolled your eyes. Even Kenma seemed to be mildly amused, a glint appearing in his eyes when he looked up at you and Kuroo occasionally.

Kuroo, on the other hand, seemed unusually sour, especially when Atsumu occasionally would lay a hand on your shoulder or arm, laughing and getting your attention. His eyes would avert away as soon as you looked back at him, but it didn’t stop him from stealing glances at you.

“Oi, (L/n)-chan, before ya do yer dare, tell us, any men in yer life?” Atsumu asked.

“Well, all of these guys are in my life, as well as a few others,” you laughed.

Atsumu smirked, leveling a flirty gaze at you. “Ya know what I meant.”

Before you knew it, you stole a glance Kuroo’s way before your mind took over and made you look away from him. “Uh, well, currently, it’s a no, no boyfriend at the moment.”

“Hmm, interesting. Well, I dare you to kiss all the guys here,” Atsumu dared. “At least one of them has to be on the lips,” he tagged on, as if expecting a loophole.

Your eyes widened, and you looked down at your fingers. You could feel your face heat up at the dare. You could get away with kissing the guys on the cheek, but who would you kiss? Would you be bold enough to kiss Kuroo? This was your one chance to do so. But what if he didn’t want you to? He could push you away, and your heart would just shatter. But there was no one you wanted to kiss.

“Hey, she shouldn’t have to--” Kuroo started to defend you when another voice cut in, one you didn’t expect.

“Come on Kuro, it’s fine.”

You whipped your head to Kenma, who actually looked up at you from his phone, a slight smirk on his face. “You’re a big girl, you can handle yourself, can’t you?”

You huffed and pouted at him, but stood up anyway. Walking over to Kenma, you grabbed his face and planted a goofy kiss on his cheek, being obnoxious about it, knowing he would hate it. This elicited a few laughs from the group.

“Come on (f/n), that was uncalled for.”

“That’s what you get,” you teased. “Bokuto, you’re next.”

“Yes!” He fist pumped the air. “Get over here, I want a (l/n)-chan kiss!”

You giggled, wrapping your arms around his neck before kissing his cheek. “There you go, big boy. Congrats on your playing today!”

Releasing yourself from him, Akaashi was next. You softly press a kiss to his temple, then ruffling his hair. “And there’s pretty boy Akaashi’s kiss.”

“Was the hair ruffling necessary, (l/n)-san?” He said, before glancing towards Kuroo. Turning your attention towards to the latter, you could see his crossed arms and his slight scowl. Shaking your head and sighing, you turned to Atsumu, wearing a small smile.

Walking over to the confident setter, your intention was to kiss his cheek and quickly move on. However, it seemed that the young man had other ideas, slightly turning his head in a split second to catch your lips, bringing a calloused hand to your cheek. It only lasted for a moment, but he pulled away, a cheeky grin appearing on his face.

“Well, pretty girl, ya have one more guy to kiss on the cheek, and then yer free.”

Your heart started racing, thinking of whether you should go through with kissing Kuroo. Swallowing the anxious feeling, you stand up and walk over to him. You paused, heart pounding, looking up into his eyes. There was something unreadable in his expression that left you feeling conflicted about what was about to happen.

Lightly grabbing his collar, you leaned in, gently pressing your lips against his. Briefly, the thought of pulling away crossed your mind, but Kuroo’s firm hand on your neck removed all thought. He snaked a hand around, pressing you closer to him. The feeling of his soft lips sent your heart soaring, those years of daydreaming could not compare to this moment.

Reluctantly pulling away from the kiss and letting him go, you shift your feet away, feeling his hands slip down your body before dropping to his sides. Avoiding his gaze, you turned away, excusing yourself and heading into Kenma’s kitchen to try to calm down from the slight rush.

Gripping the counter, your thoughts swirled in a cloud, not being able to form anything coherent. Nothing seemed to be any clearer, no matter how much you sighed and shook your head.

“Hey, ya seem to be deep in yer thoughts.” You looked to see Atsumu leaning on the doorway of the kitchen. “Mind telling me about ‘em? Won’t do ya any good huffing them out to no one.”

Chuckling, you contemplated the tempting offer. “I have a feeling you know more than you’re letting on. I mean, it’s pretty obvious what I’m feeling.”

He stood up straight, walking over to the cabinets to reach for a glass to fill with water, placing it in front of you. “Drink this. It won’t hurt ya.”

You shook your head, giggling at the action. “I didn’t take you for someone who would look after someone’s well being. It’s sweet of you.”

“Well, for a pretty girl like you, I think I could make myself a bit more chivalrous, don’tcha think?” He smirked, appearing to search your eyes. “Anyway, you, uh, look like ya need some company. I’d be willing to listen.”

A wry smile appeared on your face. You spoke of your feelings for Kuroo, how you’d thought you’d given up on him until a few months ago, how sure you were that he didn’t like you back, how you just compared everyone to him as a standard, how you hated feeling this way. Atsumu stood there, leaning against the counter, listening attentively, nodding along to your words. It was kind of a relief to spill these feelings onto someone else.

“Ok, I see what’s going on. I mean, I had an idea of what was going on from Bokuto, but I didn’t really care about his drama until he roped me into this.”

“Of course Bokuto told you,” you sighed, rubbing the bridge of your nose.

“He told me some friends needed help getting their asses kicked into action, and if I would be willing to help,” he continued. “I was going to refuse, but I heard about a damsel in distress, and I knew I had to meet this lovely lady. Now...I kind of wish I didn’t agree.”

“Oh? Why’s that?”

“Because I’ve half a mind to steal you away,” he angled his head a bit bashfully, contrasting his confident tone, having edged slightly closer to you. “Listen, if he doesn’t treat you well, I’d snatch ya up in a heartbeat.”

“Very funny, Atsumu,” you giggled. “I’m glad I met you, ythough. It’s nice getting this off my chance. I really appreciate you, you’re not so bad.”

“(F/N), are you still here?” A voice approached from the entryway. You knew who it was, feeling the slight jolt down your spine every time he spoke. “Have you seen Miya-san around? I can’t seem to--oh, he’s here.” The last statement took a slight edge to it, something you weren’t used to hearing from him unless he was really upset.

“Ah, Tetsu,” you started, feeling the temperature rise a couple degrees to something a bit uncomfortable. “Yeah, Atsumu’s here, he’s been keeping me company. Don’t tell me you’re stealing him away from me.”

You swore you could hear him huff. “Bokuto was trying to find him to see when he was ready to leave. But it seems you two have gotten cozy with each other. I’ll let you two carry on.”

"Ah nah, it's getting pretty late," the younger man sighed, backing away, shoving his hands in his pockets. "I'll grab Bokuto and get to the room. Maybe we'll see you tomorrow before we have to head back."

"Yeah, I hope so," you nodded. "Here, let me walk you out."

Exiting the kitchen, you saw Bokuto standing around the door, a smile springing on his face when he saw you. "Hey hey hey! Did you have fun with Tsum-Tsum here?"

"Bokkun, I told ya not to call me that around other people, come on now," Atsumu frowned, crossing his arms. "And I think so, (L/n)-chan here is a delight. I'm glad we get along so well."

Chuckling, you nudged his ribs, and he wrapped an arm around you, messing with your hair. “Yup, Atsumu and I are thick as thieves now.”

You didn’t need to turn around to sense an intense glare at you two coming from Kuroo. You could see it in the way Bokuto’s face slightly twisted as he grabbed Atsumu’s arm and pulled him away, saying “Well, we best be getting on now. Have a good night everyone. Hopefully we’ll see you soon.”

Bidding them a farewell, the rest of you stood around for a moment in awkward silence, before Kenma asked Akaashi to help him out with something, leaving you frozen under Kuroo’s hard stare, his arms crossed. Taking a silent breath, you gripped your wrist, unsure of what to expect next.

“You seemed pretty close with Atsumu, considering you two just met,” he all but hissed out.

Your eyebrows slightly drew together, eyes narrowing at his comment. “Yeah, I made sure to know he’s welcome in the group. He’s a pretty nice guy to be around. Why?”

“Oh, nothing. Just kind of weird.”

Shifting your weight onto one leg, you crossed your arms, your eyebrows furrowing. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“Chibi-chan,” he smirked, but his tone was nothing but full of edge. “You normally don’t jump to the first guy who shows you attention.”

“Excuse me?!” Your voice level raised a few decibels, disbelief in what you were hearing. “I was not ‘jumping’ on him. We happened to talk a bit.”

“Yeah, I noticed,” he scoffed. “He seemed to cling to you.”

“And is that so wrong?”

“He has a thing for you, can’t you see?” Exasperation seeped in his voice.

You rolled your eyes. “Wow, is that so bad that he does? Besides, we just met, it’s not like--”

“Do you have a thing for him?” Kuroo cut in, his stare piercing right into you.

Pausing, you took a moment to try to understand this line of questioning. “W-Why does it matter to you?”

He shook his head in what seemed to be in disbelief, bringing a hand to his forehead, and sighing out. “You know, (F/n), you can be really heartless sometimes.”

“Heartless?! You’re the one who kissed me back, even though you have feelings for another girl!” You were fuming. What on earth was he getting agitated for, and why did he drag you into his tantrum? You turned your back to him, grabbing your stuff and opening the door out. You tuned out the voices from inside calling your name, pleading you to stay, but you were not having it. You slammed the door behind you, marching in the direction towards your apartment.

~~~~~ Kuroo ~~~~~~ Standing in the same spot, he stared after the door, the bitter feeling of jealousy slowly ebbing, giving way to remorse. Why did he let his anger cloud his judgment? He’d gone and fucked things up now, she would hate him. He dropped his gaze towards the floor, bringing his hands to his face, his fingers digging into his scalp. Breathing heavily, he clenched a fist, turning towards Akaashi and Kenma. They exchanged looks with each other, looking back at him.

“Kuro,” Kenma broke the silence. “Listen, it’s--”

“I fucked it up. I fucked it all up. She’s going to hate me now,” Kuroo muttered.

Akaashi stepped forward, placing a hand on his shoulder to get his attention. “Listen, Kuroo-san. You really are a pain in the ass…”

“Thanks, but now’s not the--”

The younger man held up a hand, motioning for silence. “...but you’ve a heart of gold. And (f/n)-san knows this. She wouldn’t hate you after one intense argument, that’s not how she is.”

Starting to become distraught, he shook his head. “I don’t want to be like my parents. I-I can’t lose her, too. She’s been there for me. I just can't believe I let her see that side of me.”

“What, that you’re jealous? Listen, if you tell her how you feel, I’m sure it’ll clear up things,” Akaashi insisted.

“I don’t think I can tell her like this.”

Kenma, doing the most unexpected thing, set down his game, walked over to Kuroo and looked him in the eyes, fully gaining the latter’s attention. “Kuro, listen. I don’t normally spill her secrets, but this is probably the one time I will: (F/n) has been in love with you for such a long time. She knows you pretty much everything about you, and she still loves you. She would still forgive you, if you hurry and apologize about what an ass you’ve been.”

Akaashi and Kuroo just stared at Kenma, speechless. Akaashi cleared his throat. “Yeah, what he said. Run over to her and spill your feelings. Don’t worry about anything, just let it all out.”

“I got you a ride to get you back there. You can probably make it before she does if you hurry,” Kenma piped in, smirking, “go and grovel before her.”

Kuroo opened his mouth to say something, but he was immediately shoved out the door and told to get in the car. The rest of the ride was a blur, thoughts racing in his head, heart pounding in his chest. God, he wanted to make this work. He’d never seen her so angry at him, she’d never stormed off like this. Seeing the pain in her eyes just upset him to the core, but jealousy was a cruel mistress, only wanting to wound. He should have stopped, he should have just let it go.

“Your stop.”

The driver’s voice snapped Kuroo out of his spiral. “Oh, uh, thank you, is there--”

“Don’t worry, you’re deep in your troubles. Just make sure she accepts your apology.”

Kuroo nodded, feeling the pressure. He quickly stepped out of the car, thanking the driver, and ran up the stairs to her apartment. Seeing the lights out, he realized she hadn’t arrived home yet, so he waited outside, not wanting to enter her home with the spare key, feeling like he couldn’t enter her place.

~~~~ Y/N ~~~~~

You saw a figure stand at your door, startling you, since it was dark. “Hey, you there, what are you doing?”

“Chibi-chan, it’s me.”

Hearing that voice, a swarm of emotions you thought you had pushed down on your walk here threatened to overwhelm you. “I don’t want to see you.”

“Please, hear me out.” His tone was pleading, desperate, and painful for you to hear.

You hiked up the stairs, rushing over to feel his face. “Tetsu, you’re cold! How long have you been waiting here?! Oh, nevermind, get inside.” You fumbled for your keys, opening the door, and dragged him inside. “God, why were you waiting for me out there?”

“I have to come and apologize. Please hear me out.”

Sighing, you motioned for him to sit down on the couch. “Alright, fine. Lay it on me.”

Kuroo sat down, hunched over, seemingly biting the inside of his lip. He sighed, lifting his head, his gaze meeting yours, which still made you catch your breath. “(F/n), listen. I’m so sorry for what happened back there. It’s not my place at all, but I just… I kind of snapped. All those years of being on the sidelines, seeing you with others…it all came flooding back. I thought I had the chance of letting you know how I felt, but seeing you settling in with Miya...it just stoked my jealousy. And, without really considering anything, I just lashed out on you.”

You held up a hand, pausing his words. “Wait, telling me how you felt? What do you mean?” Your heart picked up its pace again, not caring about getting its hopes up for naught. He expelled a short breath through his nose, almost in disbelief, standing up over you. “What, you don’t know? Do you need me to spell it out for you? Fine, damn it, Chibi-chan--I love you. I always have, and probably always will. It’s always been you, since pretty much the day we met in middle school. But I never did anything because it was you, me, and Kenma, and I didn’t want to ruin anything.” He gently grabbed your hand, bringing it up to his face, his lips touching the back of your hand, ever so lightly, before continuing. “There wasn’t another girl, it was you. No matter how much I tried getting over you, I couldn’t remove you from my brain.” Noticing how silent you went, he stopped in his tracks, lowering your hand, still holding it. “Chibi-chan? Please say something.” His voice had softened, uncertainty coloring his tone.

Stunned, you just stared up at Kuroo, words failing you in that moment. Here he was, admitting his love for you, the moment that you had yearned for years. The floodgates opened, and, without thinking, you placed your hands on his face and pulled him in for a kiss. The moment his lips touched yours, his arms slid around your, one hand gripping your waist, the other snaked around the back of your head, his fingers running through your hair. Your own hands slid down, wrapping your arms around his neck, trying to get as close as possible. The kiss was gentle and slow, as if you were exploring each other the way you hadn’t before. The way his lips moved against yours caused your heart to beat faster than before. It felt like it had been ages before you pulled away, coming for air.

“Does that explain at least a fraction of what I feel?” You asked, biting your lip.

Kuroo let a devilish smile creep on his face. “Oh, just a fraction. Chibi-chan, I’m a little greedy, I’m gonna need the entire thing.” He slid his hands to your hips and pulled them closer to him. “That is, if you want me to show you how I feel.” You nodded your head, to which he leaned back in, his lips capturing yours, fiercely and passionately.

This kiss held nothing back. The tip of his tongue lightly swipes at your lips, begging for entry. Opening your mouth, he explores your mouth, pressing you against him. A small gasp escapes your mouth as you feel his lips move to your jawline and neck, his teeth ever so slightly grazing against your skin.

“Chibi-chan, you sure you want to go through with this? Because there’s no way I can hold back after this point,” he groaned near your ear.

“Tetsuro, don’t you dare hold back,” you hissed, biting your lip as you felt his hand reach up to your chest to feel you through your bra. “You have no idea how much I want this.”

“Oh yeah? So naughty, I didn’t know this side of you existed,” he chuckled, bringing his lips to your neck again. “Well, then, let me treat you right.” His lips make their way back to yours, tenderly, bringing his hands around you, he lifted you up and carried you to your bedroom, gently kissing you all the while. As he reached the bed, he gently tosses you on it, before stripping off his shirt, jacket, and pants and climbing over on top of you. “I couldn’t help but notice you staring at me earlier. Like what you see?” He smirked down at you, his overly confident attitude turning you on even more. Biting your lip, you couldn’t help but admire his body.

Kuroo brought a finger to your pants, unbuttoning them and sliding them down agonizingly slowly. You started to whine and shift your hips to shake them off. You could hear him chuckle, clicking his tongue. “So needy, Chibi-chan.” His fingers traced over the top of your panties, leaving you squirming. “Let’s see how long I can go before you start begging.”

Your breath hitched, your legs rubbing together, feeling your arousal growing. You sat up and stripped your shirt off, pulling Kuroo in for a quick kiss. He pulled away enough just to let his lips brush over yours, then sank in, bringing your bottom lip in between his teeth before letting go. He pushes you down, one hand near your panties, tracing the lines and getting tantalizingly close before pulling away; his lips going to your neck, gently biting and marking his way down before reaching your breasts. “Chibi-chan, I can feel you getting so wet, and I barely even touched you.” You moaned in response, trying to lift your hips to press against his hand, but you were met with the clicking of his tongue, telling you to be patient. He wrapped his arm around your back, unclasping the bra and pushing it up, bringing his lips to one breast. His tongue swirled around, his teeth gently touching the nipple, then moving to perform the same action to the other breast. “Oh, Chibi-chan, I have such plans for you, just you wait.”

He resumed his marking of your skin down your abdomen, one finger finally looping around your panties and sliding them down. “Well, look what we have here,” he said, bringing a finger to touch the slick left on your panties. “So, so wet for me.” You whined, gripping the bed sheets, not able to stand the teasing anymore.

“T-Tetsu, please.”

“Please what, Chibi-chan? Come on, use your words.” He started rubbing a finger ever so slowly along your fold. “I want to hear you beg for what you want.”

“I-I need you to fuck my cunt. Please, with something, anything!” You whined out. “Fuck please, I need you so bad.”

He brought his head down to your sex, the devilish grin back on his face. “Hmm, what a good girl you are. See, I knew I would have you begging so soon for me.”

He wrapped his arms around your thighs, making sure you wouldn’t leave, and dragged you to his mouth, his tongue starting to lick at your clit. You cried out, the sudden touch you’ve been craving for brought you close to the edge. He kept licking against you, adjusting his arms to slowly finger you, one digit, then another. “Mmm, good girl, my Chibi-chan, so close already. It’s alright, you can cum for me.”

“F-fuck,” was all you could manage to hiss out, your breathing growing ragged. “Just like that.” You felt your orgasm build up quickly, his tongue playing you just right. Your hand quickly flew to his head and you dug your fingers through his hair. Tears started to spring forth from your eyes, your legs started shaking, and then you felt the coil snap within you, and you climaxed right there.

“That’s a good girl, there you go.” He drew out your orgasm, removing his mouth and his fingers slowly. He dragged his coated fingers across his tongue, savoring your taste. “But we’re not done yet. You got any contraceptives?” You mumbled out something about your birth control, saying it’s taken care of.

He stripped off his boxers, letting his pretty cock spring free. He pumps it slowly a couple times, before lining himself at your entrance, slightly grinding. You bring your knees up, readying yourself. “Tetsu,” you whimpered.

“Yes, Chibi-chan? What is it, baby girl, talk to me,” his look grew slightly concerned.

“I love you.” You looked away, not being able to handle his reaction after that. You heard him chuckle before feeling his hand on your cheek, coaxing you to look up at him.

“I love you so much,” he whispered, tenderly. Leaning down to kiss your lips and neck softly, he sighed against your skin, then pulled away. Gripping your thighs, he pressed the tip at your entrance, causing a small moan to escape from you. “You ready for me?”

You nodded. “More than ready.”

“Fuck, that’s all I need.” And with that, he pushed himself into you slowly, groaning at the tight feeling of your walls surrounding him. You gripped the sheets, panting out his name as he stretched you. “Damn, you’re doing so good for me, keep taking it, my pretty girl.” He kept going slowly until he bottomed out, both of you moaning out. “That’s it. Tell me when you’re ready.”

You took a moment to adjust, nodding to let him know he could continue. Muttering a curse, he pulled back and started his thrusting at a slow pace. “Fuck, Tetsu, you feel so good.”

“That’s it, take my cock. Fuck, you’re so good to me,” he praised, hiking your leg above his shoulder, trying to hit you deeper, his hips driving in to you slightly faster, kissing that sweet spot within you, sending you higher and higher. “I want you to take my cock so deep that you can’t think of anything else.”

At that last statement, you cried out, tears streaming down your face from the pleasure. You were still feeling sensitive from your first orgasm, but you were feeling your second build again. “Fuck, Tetsu, I think I’m gonna cum soon.”

Kuroo leaned over you, his breathing ragged, nearing his end, bringing a finger to tease your clit. “Oh fuck, ‘m close, too. Come for me, call out my name. God, I love you so much, you’re doing so, hngh, so well for me. Where do you want me?”

“Fuck, I need you inside me.”

“Damn it, what you do to me.” Growling at how lewd you were, he dropped your leg and worked your clit slightly faster, leaning down and growling from the sight of you beneath him. He kept thrusting as he marked your neck and shoulder, licking them to soothe you, trying to keep the pace as best he could. Wrapping your legs around him, you chanted his name, crying out your orgasm, shuddering your high came and washed over you. Throwing your head back, your walls clenched around his cock, creaming around him, to which he hissed out a curse. “Fuck, ‘m c-cumming, Chibi-chan,” he panted, before he buried your cock deep inside, feeling his cock twitch as he came inside of you.

You fell limp on the bed, while he stayed above you, still inside of you, trying to catch your breath together. You stared at the sight of Kuroo above you, a small smile forming on your lips as you brought your hand up to his face and wiped the hair out of his face, admiring his beauty like this. He smiled down at you, his panting beginning to slow down, and then he rested on top of you, his head near your face.

“Fuck, I’m so happy,” he breathed out, pressing a kiss to your temple. “I love you so much.” He then slowly pulled out, groaning at the drag, as you arched your back, moaning at the sudden emptiness, feeling the cum drip from between your legs. You scooted off the bed and tried to stand, but your legs refused to work.

Kuroo rolled out of bed, immediately scooping you up. “Here we go princess, let’s go get cleaned up.”

After you both washed up, you plopped down on the bed, Kuroo sliding in next to you, wrapping his arm around your waist. You heard him chuckle, and you gave him an inquiring look.

“I’m laughing because I don’t think Kenma meant this when he said I should grovel for your forgiveness,” Kuroo remarked. “If he asks, you tell him I got on my knees before you.”

You laughed, before leaning in to kiss him gently. “As if I’d pass up that opportunity.” You stared into his eyes, bringing a hand to his cheek, caressing it.

He brought you in close, kissing the top of your head. “I know we didn’t do this quite the right way,” he laughed, stroking your hair, “but would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?”

“I wonder,” you pursed your lips, pretending to think. “I guess I’ll go out with you and spare the women of the world your horrible chemistry pick-up lines.”

“Ouch, that hurts,” he replied, his hand going to his heart. “But I’m glad. I’m so happy I have you now.” He leaned in and kissed your lips sweetly.

You smiled against his lips. “Well, I’m not letting you go either. For me, it’s always been you.”

[sinkix]

♡ Haikyuu!!│Boys as your Roommate HC’s Pt.2│Ft. Kuroo, Bokuto, Kenma & Kageyama ♡

Since the last one did well I decided to do another 2am shit-post consisting of my bby HQ bois as your roommate so I’m v sorry if it’s messy and seems like rambling but honestly what did u expect. <(￣︶￣)> The more I write these the more I just want to summon satan and make them come to life man I love them sm.

You can find Pt. 1 here

E N J O Y ~ <3

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Kuroo:

So. Damn. Annoying

But in like, the best way possible??

Constantly teases and irritates you while cooking or when it’s your turn to do the chores.

“(Y/N)-kuuun I think you missed a spot”

Proceeds to show swabbed finger with the tiniest speck of dust on it with the biggest shit eating grin he can muster

You have constant competitions who can clean more thoroughly and rip into each other as a result.

I mean there’s worse things to compete over I suppose??

He likes to make it a habit of waking you up by throwing his HUGE ASS BODY ON TO THE BED IF YOU OVERSLEEP.

WHOLE BED JUST CREAKS AND DIPS UNDER HIS WEIGHT.

Wraps his arm around you and gives amazing cuddles tho so its worth it

Borderline suffocating you though just so you get up.

Also, don’t wake Kuroo when he’s had only a few hours rest

just, don’t. If you value your safety.

Last time you tried to haul him out of bed in this state he threw a pillow at you and BITCH WENT TO GRAB THE ALARM CLOCK NEXT but u dashed out the room before he could lob it. 

Speaking of which, pillow fights. 

so many.

 Y’all are always throwing random stuff at each other just to startle one another

You both make a conscious effort NOT to aim for the head though so I guess its ok???

The aroma of coffee always greets you in the morning and it’s become hella comforting since you’ve just come to associate that smell with him.

His bed head is 1000x more extreme in the morning which you tease him relentlessly for and def has bags under his eyes but it looks cute.

sleep deprivation but make it chic.

He is much more of a night owl i’m making it canon idc - however usually has to sleep early due to club activities starting first thing in the morning.

He wakes up especially early because he knows he not only has to haul himself up at an ungodly hour but Kenma as well since he NEVER gets up on time otherwise.

Kenma lives a few blocks down from you guys and you often kick it as a three.

Sometimes he stays over just to save the extra effort of Kuroo going to his place.

It’s always v chill with the three of you as you get on really well and just play mario kart till 2am.

which again, big mistake. They end up nearly being late to practise so it’s kinda counter productive lmao

worth it though.

Kuroo is a salty loser js and will definitely wave his arms in front of you or shove his ass in your face to block the screen so he can overtake you.

Sometimes forces you to go on early morning runs with him but it’s actually really nice since you watch the sunrise together while sitting for a water break in an empty field

Almost poetic if it wasn’t for the constant teasing and bickering like an old married couple.

Kenma is VERY thankful you have become his new victim for those morning run routines.

Bokuto:

SCREAMS FROM THE ROOFTOPS EVERY DAY

MY GOD

Actually pretty quiet in the morning?? Like the lil owl is just waking up so he usually just mumbles a good-morning and rubs his eyes its so damn cute

Usually pretty good about getting up on time but some days he needs a kick up the backside to get him out of bed.

He fully made you drag him out of the covers once before he was even willing to entertain the idea of getting up.

those 30 seconds felt like a 30 minute workout since he is so HEAVY.

I feel sorry for the neighbours on that day tbh

“Bokuto-san wake up.” 

“NNNgg-aaagGGHHHHH AGGAAASHIII”

“It’s (Y/N) you dumbass G E T U P”

You aren’t safe for long though because ONCE HE’S AWAKE HOMEBOY IS RARING TO GO.

Frequently makes y’all pancakes for breakfast with a frilly pink ‘best chef’ apron on and it’s fucking hysterical. 

actually has several aprons and one of them has a stock image of abs printed onto the front.

Pancakes is the only thing Bokuto is competent at so don’t expect anything else without the kitchen combusting

His pancakes are SO damn good tho like bitch who taught you to flip like dat.

Does a lil shimmy with his body and throws it back each time he flips so it basically aggregates as a performance too since hes so extra

One time the pancake landed on the floor and he was in emo mode for a whole day LMAOOO

boy was spiking while mourning the fallen soldier.

Akaashi was so confused as to why he walked into practise in such a solemn mood.

had to stifle his laughter once you told him the reason.

For some reason you have this tradition to play board games on a Friday night

Obvs you have to let him win and be a cocky ass bc otherwise he will be sad until the next morning.

sis will be in a slump while brushing his teeth over losing a game of monopoly.

Doesn’t expect you to come to practise with him but is always grinning like a dork the whole way there when you accompany him.

His game is always A1 on those days so Akaashi is eternally grateful.

Often tries to make you go to the gym with him SINCE Y’ALL BEST BELIEVE BOKUTO BABY AIN’T SKIPPIN LEG DAY.

Actually a really good workout partner though, he’s so hype and encouraging.

Grocery shopping is a nightmare, y’all come back with 3x as much as what was on the list while Bokuto just looks really sheepish and guilty like a dog who shredded up the sofa.

Kageyama:

Your conversations are very minimal at first until he adjusts to living with you.

Hella private with his living space and his bedroom

You always suspected he’s got some like weird alien cult meeting from Fiji going on in there with how shady he acts sometimes.

After a while though he’s pretty chill and doesn’t mind TOO much when you invade his personal space or go through his stuff.

I’d still be careful though an angry Kags is not a pleasant one.

He’s a minimalist, so if you ever get decorating done it’s usually you that takes the reigns since as long as it’s got a roof, a stove, a bathroom and a bed he could literally not give a fuck.

Unexpectedly easy to please over the smallest things, make a meal for him after a long day of practise and it’ll be hard for him to contain an appreciative smile.

Do NOT pull him up on it though bc he will get defensive 

just embrace it bro you won’t see it often.

V good at getting up on time and hella quiet in the morning when going about his routine, it’s easy to forget he’s in the house a times so at least he’s considerate.

Honestly doesn’t care whether you come to practise or not it makes no difference to him. Though the closer you both get he will sometimes wait for the moment you walk through the door and mentally slap himself for doing so.

Sometimes plays music in his room but it’s always really quiet and hard to decipher unless you press your ear up against the door.

The boi plays some BOPS though which is really surprising???

Usually takes charge of stuff like grocery shopping, cleaning etc. 

Control freak™️ here to assist your household services. 

He’s pretty dense though with these matters and needs some guidance at times lmao

Will not get the item on your list unless you CLEARLY SPECIFY AND INCLUDE THE WHOLE DAMN TITLE OF THE ITEM

You’re surprised he doesn’t request you illustrate the fucking bar code.

In the end you sometimes end up caving and just either going with him or going in his place.

Once he warms up to you y’all like cracking little jokes at each other and pulling one another’s leg.

if you get up even the slightest bit late he’ll just throw a lil “good afternoon” with a smirk on his face.

Sometimes he will come and chill with you on the couch to binge watch shows and it’s just a really relaxed atmosphere.

has really good taste in movies and series??

Honestly just a hella respectful roommate as long as you respect him and his privacy in return.

You once stuck his knee-pads in the washing machine on a high temp and they came out ready to fit a 6 year old.

You still suspect he holds a grudge to this day.

He also tried to give them to Hinata and never have you seen him more genuinely offended lmao.

Kenma:

The pair of you always end up oversleeping and it’s a genuine problem ur the definition of a disaster duo.

If it wasn’t for Kuroo strolling into your sleeping quarters most mornings you guys would sleep till the suns ready to set again.

Bless up Kuroo.

Constant video game marathons and y’all always compete to top each others time

It’s basically just the speed-run side of YouTube but under one roof.

Cannot and will not cook he is too LAZY for that.

Only thing he will do is stick an apple pie in the oven.

He’s courteous though he leaves you like,,, a 1/8th slice

smh.

You mostly get take-out or you’re the one that ends up cooking.

Veeryyyyy quiet, only noise in the household is the occasional snicker or lil conversation.

he has such a soothing voice hnnnnnnnnnggggg

The only time it’s remotely loud is when you play video games but even then the volume is quite low.

You usually end up crashing in his room from playing games till the crack of dawn and Kuroo frequently scolds the two of you.

you don’t listen though lmao.

For some reason you both end up in a hugging position when you wake up and neither of you have addressed it.

Except for the sus side eye look Kuroo gives the pair of you when he finds you like this.

He knows if he mentions it you’ll both infiltrate his apartment and choke him out with a console cable lololol.

You order most of your groceries online bc Kenma’s social anxiety will skyrocket and not allow him to be in a store full of more than 10 people, poor bby.

It works out for you too since why tf go there when you can have it delivered to your door.

You often binge watch anime together and he has GREAT taste mind you.

You made him watch a romance anime once and he secretly enjoyed it.

Since then he will very awkwardly request to watch them occasionally and you can’t help but smile.

The only time you clean is when you have to, like bins brimming with trash before you decide to take them out.

You accidentally broke his fav controller once and he didn’t talk to you for a week LMAO.

Still handed you one to play split-screen though so you knew he wasn’t entirely resentful.

[kyutown]

Good evening my liege! 💖 I was intrigued to find out about you while diving deeper into tumblr hell so, I am here with a plead to ship me with nct and svt, of you'd be so kind ✨

Alright so for starters, I'm an infp! I'm a generally well-mannered person with people I meet for the first time, borderline sweet and awkward at the same time. I like not to overinvest in first meetings with people and sometimes I think I am somewhat defensive of myself. My emotions always show on my face, both the good and the bad ones. So if someone does say something that I find offensive or whatnot, it SHOWS. I generally hate rude and offensive people all together, as well as people who are vulgar if we're not well acquainted first.

I'm not good at starting conversations and I usually just tend to listen to my friends talk most of the time. It's not like I have nothing to say but I really like listening to my favorite people ramble on about things they love or generally talk about their lives. Im a pretty good listener and I am always objective, even with my family. I won't hold back and I will give you my honest opinion in every case. I always try to see from all perspectives, maybe that's why I'm often somewhat indecisive.

That being said, I really don't shut up about things I love or my hobbies. I'm usually the mood maker of the group as I hate conflict and tension. I am a very sarcastic and cynical person in general and that reflects on my humor, which can vary from vulgar to very dark and inappropriate. Yes, the type of person that will try to hold in their laughter cause I made a mental joke to a funeral. I love witty, stimulating and deep conversations. I'm not that big on casual chitchat but it's okay most of the time I guess.

I'm the personification of open-minded and im also quite opinionated and I can back up my arguments if needed but I tend to avoid getting into heated conversations cause again, my mind reads it as tension. I love being around friends doing nothing and everything but most of the time, I find alone time to be very healing for my mind and soul. I find authenticity and weird little quirks that people have extremely attractive. I'm somewhat stubborn as well.

I also used to have stress and anxiety issues, not anything serious but enough that I had trouble sleeping at night. It was just a few years ago that I decided to not care about every single thing and have a more of a "fuck that" approach in life and honestly, I've never imagined that it would be so liberating. I regained my confidence, physically and mentally, it was an empowering process! I really do believe that self-exploring and healing is the no1 most important thing that someone can do. Love yourself first and foremost and fck what anybody thinks.

So, moving on xD I am a romantic and soft deep down, even though I try not to show sad emotions when around people. But you can be sure I cry at random rescuing dog videos, or videos with people helping each other. I love humanity but hate it at the same time? 😂 Idk if that makes sense, it is what I feel lol I love to learn new random stuff! I'm currently studying linguistics and uni and I aim to be a translator or interpreter, cause i love languages and the cultural differences that come with it. Hence my undying love for music of different genres and languages! Music relaxes me and I couldn't imagine going on without it for more than 3 days. While I do tend to listen to kpop which is more upbeat and experimental, I also LOVE Latin music and rock. I love love traveling around the world! My hobbies include drawing which I'm self taught, fashion and creative writing! I tend to daydream A LOT during the day and so many ideas pop up in my head. I love exploring other cultures' religions and beliefs as well as mythology. I always found it fascinating. I love plants as well! My room is basically a garden xD I also love mystical but also borderline creepy and gory stuff xD I call skulls "pretty" the same way I would call a puppy "cute" 🤣 I'm aware οf that but I can't help but enjoy the look of horror in people's faces xD

oh, I really enjoy observing people as well! Not in a weird way! Their mannerisms, the way they speak, their features. I also love thriller and horror movies the most as well as dark social drama ones. You know, with murders, suicides etc I like how in even the tiniest ways they depict our society as people and frankly, it's sad but I try to be optimistic and keep a positive approach in life. I also really appreciate stand-up comedy xD

Closing up this huge essay, some last things xD I, and I cannot stress this enough, am unable to flirt. Like at all. I can't even maintain eye contact for more than two Seconds. I wish I was kidding. Sadly I'm not 😂Weird thing is, turns out I am actually able to flirt but I'm not aware I'm doing it?? I'm a master at text flirting apparently lololol. What I am, is also called DENSE AS SHIT when it comes to couple things. True story, if you want to do the freaky with your s/o and you need me to leave the room you better TELL ME RIGHT TO MY FACE or else, we gon be there aaaaall night xD And its actually a remarkable feature of mine, considering how dirty minded I usually am lol

I also think I'm touch starved sometimes, like I really like hugs and cuddling and teasing but I'm not gonna ask for it🥺I'm a night owl and I tend to procrastinate a lot. I can't work efficiently if there's not a deadline, like I need that pressure on me in order to function xD My weak spot is actually to act whiny and needy and cutely in front of me. I can do ANYTHING that u ask me of when this happens. And if I show any resistance, JUST KEEP IT UP. I'm jelly on the floor when this happens. Idfk why, it just works?? My sister is abusing the sht out of this method 😭I can't say I make friends easily, cause I believe I do come off as maybe off-putting or weird at times, plus as I said if you're really cant shove your conversation in my face the first time we meet, imma be just an awkward ball of giggles and smiles and "can I go home now pls" 🤣 My general aesthetic / vibes would be sunsets on beaches, soft grunge, cottage core, lofi and hedge witch aesthetics!

Okay so, I think that's everything and probably way more than u needed, so thank you for reading everything my stupid ass wrote❤️

hi! thank you for responding!

for nct, i think yuta would be a nice fit! yuta also likes rock as his favorite band is one ok rock which is a rock band. i feel like you guys would always listen to music (not always rock) and would enjoy making time go by like this!

for seventeen, i think you would match well with the8! the8 would be the type to enjoy exploring new cultures with you and new religions, he would also love to dress up with you and put together outfits with you!

[ekicanons]

Hey! Can I request a Levi x reader where Reader is a closet weeb and maybe levi finds this out because their ringtone for their DDD is a vocaloid song?

Hi there! Thank you so much for your request! There are two of us working on this blog, so you’ll get the scenario from two perspectives. Under cut for length.

Levi x Reader; Levi discovers that reader is a closet weeb. 

Scenario A: (headcanons)

You hadn’t been in the Devildom very long, but you were starting to get to know the brothers more with each day.  

One of the ones you were having trouble with getting to know was Levi.  

When you heard his brothers teasing him for being an Otaku, you thought that you’d probably have a lot in common because you were also a closet Otaku.

If only you had the chance to talk to him.

The demon would lock himself in his room playing video games and watching anime. When you would see him in passing or at breakfast, he would just call you a normie and ignore you.

That was until one fateful day.  

You were on dinner duty and while you were stirring a pot of some bubbling stew that Beel had requested, your phone went off.

Your Vocaloid ringtone echoed loudly in the kitchen, but your hands were currently too messy to grab it.

It was only a few moments later that Levi came running into the kitchen.

“WHAAAAA?!?! WAS THAT VOCALOID I HEARD?!” he shouted enthusiastically.  

You explain to him that it was your ringtone and he starts going on a very long excited tangent about backstories and it somehow ended up on him talking about TSL.  

You listen to him talk while you cut up some ingredients, a small smile on your lips.  

When Levi realizes that he’s been talking so much with you, he suddenly stops and turns a bright crimson.  

“I-I didn’t know you liked that kind of stuff. I thought you were just a normie.”

You explain to him that he never gave you a chance to even tell him

Levi ends up admitting to you that he wasn’t trying to be stand-offish, but he is pretty socially awkward and it’s hard for him to put himself out there and warm up to people. It’s easier just to stay in his room. He also admitted he thought you were really attractive, which only made him more nervous, so it was easier to be mean to you.  

You tell him that you want to hear more about TSL and find out more about him, so he ends up helping you with dinner while you guys talk.

Levi tells you that you should come by his room later and watch a few episodes with him.

This is the start of something amazing. It’s almost like you guys are at the beginning of a Shoujo anime.  

Scenario B (1,100 words) : 

((I love this question, thank you! I’m a weeb who loves Levi 😩 I don’t know a whole lot about vocaloids though so I hope it’s okay!💜)) 

Dinner had finished up not too long ago.  It was just you and Levi now clearing off the table.  It was your job to do it today so you were shocked when the demon stayed to help. 

“I’m updating my game and there’s still a lot of time left, that’s the only reason why I’m helping.” Levi had shrugged off when you asked, though a hue of pink was playing on his cheeks. 

“The help is still appreciated,” you beam a smile at him. His cheeks were definitely a red now, as he stammered trying to think of something else to say. 

Just then, your DDD started to ring, the sound filling the room. Looking at your phone and seeing a number you don’t know, you decline the call, it was probably some Devildom spam anyway. 

“Y/n !!!! Was that _________??? The vocaloid??!!” 

“Whaa- ? I don’t know what you’re talking about, Levi!” You hastily finish cleaning up and try to run to your room. 

“Y/n, wait!!” Levi chased after you. “Do you like vocaloids?? Did you create that? DO YOU HAVE A FAMOUS VOCALOID CHANNEL I DON’T KNOW ABOUT???” Levi was right on your heels.  

His horns came out, going demon form due to his excitement.  You could see his tail wagging slightly behind him. 

“I- I think you’re imagining things?” You laugh nervously just as your DDD starts ringing again. 

“DON’T LIE TO ME, Y/N!! That’s _______!” 

“Okay fine, but sshhh!” You say as your grab Levi and shove him in your room, closing the door behind you. 

“I’d recognize that voice anywhere.” The demon smiled to himself, knowing his accusations were correct. “Why are you trying to hide it?” Levi asked as he took a seat on your bed, genuinely confused. 

“I don’t know,” you admit, “I enjoy this stuff so much but I guess it’s embarrassing when other people find out? And hearing you bring up my ringtone out loud, I guess I panicked.” You let out a shaky laugh as you rub the back of your head and turn away from his gaze. Still sitting on your bed, Levi reached out and grabbed your wrist, tugging slightly just so your attention was back on him. 

“If it’s something that you enjoy, something that makes you happy – you should never feel ashamed of it.   Yeah, my brothers make fun of me for being an otaku, but they accept me anyway.  You learn to get used to it, and honestly, it doesn’t really bother me anymore since Ruri-chan, my games, shows, and manga all make me happy.” He encouraged you, his hand moving from your wrist to now hold your hand.  He idly caressed the back of your hand with his thumb as he looked into your eyes. 

“Yeah… you’re right.  I guess that since I’m in a new place and meeting so many people, I just didn’t want to be classified as weeb right away without them trying to get to know me first.” You ponder, though your heart is beating fast at the genuine look in his eyes and the feel of his hand on yours.  You gulp, meeting his gaze right back. 

“But… I am a weeb.  And I guess people are going to find out sooner or later.” You try to shrug it off but you can feel your face start to get warm.  It seemed rather strange to admit, but out of everyone in the house, Levi was the only one who would not judge you for your interests. 

“Y/n!!” Levi’s eyes sparkle over now at your confession.  He couldn’t contain his excitement anymore.  He pulled you down onto his lap til you were sitting on him, facing sideways.  Your arms instinctively wrapped around his neck to keep you from falling backwards. 

“I’m sorry, it was just adorable hearing you call yourself a weeb!” He laughed as he held you in his arms, still in his demon form due to his excitement.  “You should call yourself a weeb more often, I love seeing that cute look on your face.” He smiled his face close to yours, “OH! But don’t say it in front of my brothers.  I don’t want them to see that kawaii side of you, I want it just for myself. I am the Avatar of Envy you know, lololol.” 

You chuckled, maybe it wasn’t so bad that Levi heard your ringtone.  You run your fingers through his hair on the back of his neck, getting over the initial shock of ending up in his lap and just enjoying the closeness. 

“Hey, y/n.  Early I told you about enjoying the things that make you happy… would it be okay if I did something that would make me happy? And hopefully you too…” Levi was blushing as he looked at you.  

Your heart was racing, hoping it was going where you thought it was, and that he wasn’t just going to ask you to help him farm in a game (though you wouldn’t mind that either). 

“S-sure.  You should follow your heart.” You say, your own heart pounding so loudly now. A soft smile formed as he brought his gaze down to your own lips.  

The demon slowly pressed his soft lips against yours.  It was very tender at first, like he was afraid the moment was so fragile and if he rushed, he could shatter it. You instantly respond, kissing him back as your hands tangle in his hair. After a few moments, the kiss naturally broke.  You look at each other, both breathing a little heavily. 

“That does make me very happy,” he smiled, but started to shift on the bed til he had you laying down and he was hovering over you, “but I’d like to indulge more.” And he brought his lips to yours once again, this kiss more passionate than the last.

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The next day. After class, you head back to your room after class.  Still giddy about what happened with Levi and where it would lead. Entering your room, you see a box with a handwritten note on top. 

I had an extra one, so I hope you’ll enjoy it and take good care of it.  Plus, every weeb needs to have some merchandise in their room lolol.  See you soon.  ♡ Levi

A huge smile displayed on your face as you open the box to see a limited edition figure of the vocaloid you had as your ringtone.

[nagatsukinura119]

Japan Expo Malaysia Closing Ceremony (28th July 2019)

For the closing ceremony I arrived at the venue 45 minutes earlier than schedule since I wasn’t gonna risk losing my usual spot which I have now dubbed as ‘the lucky spot’. When I arrived, Kousuke Atari was doing his performance. About Kousuke, he is a self-trained musician, and performs in the difficult shima-uta (island-song) style of his hometown. He had a really gentle voice and one can feel calm when listening to him sing, and feel the nostalgia hit. Most of his songs were Japanese, but there was one song that he sang in Chinese, which surprised and impressed me. While his singing was not my cup of tea, but that did not mean I couldn’t appreciate it, and judging from his facial expressions, he was clearly feeling it. Respect to this man. For those who appreciate slow music, this man is the one for them.

After his performance, they showed us the highlights from Day 1 and Day 2, and man did I go all hype when Naachan appeared in the video sequence lmaooo. Aki and Austin then came out and called for all of the artists who had come. The first one was ZIPANG (whose concert I attended on Day 2 for a little while), then Himika Natsume, WIN=W1N (whom I will say had a really cool T-shirt by the way), 0TU1, ToumeinaKankei SampunSanjubyo, Sorgenti (whoooo!), Banzai Japan (yaayyy!), Yoyogi Jyoshi Ongakuin, KiREI (YASSSSSS!!! Okay, I will not hide the fact that I immediately screamed Hanapii’s name, and seriously what luck was bestowed upon me that they stood close to me *seriously this spot really is the lucky spot*), Kiiyama Shouten, *Chocolate Bomb!!, cosmic!! (they stood closest to me ohmygodohmygod *pant pant*). When cosmic!! came out I remember I cheered for them and I think that caught Hanapii’s attention and she spotted me and started waving heartily! She’s just so amazing! I love her so much! After cosmic!! Harupiii came in (whooo!!) and since they needed more space for other artists to stand on stage, KiREI members had to scoot closer to cosmic!! members when Riona was called in. Right when Kousuke was entering the stage, Mianyan saw me and waved at me too! OH GOD! At this point it was really hard to focus elsewhere since the girls were standing so close! Not to mention the cosmic!! boys were also having a blast and started dancing so close to me pahahaha! I tried to film elsewhere but my body seemed like it had its own brain and it was right! Cuz when I focused back on Hanapii, she looked at me again, waving and giving the heart finger as she was leaning forward. Funny yet endearing thing was, Chori-chan next to her followed along and now she saw me too! I loved the fact that when she really realized it was me, she tapped Hanapii’s arm and pointed at me. Oh for goodness’ sake, my heart couldn’t take this much happiness (I’m tearing up as I’m writing this down TvT)!

After all the artists were in, it was time to call the organizers and the important people for photo taking and some speech (I feel bad I didn’t focus on this). Soon after there was a countdown, and five seconds later, the confetti blower started blasting. But here’s the thing I didn’t realize it was there, and I don’t think KiREI members knew either cuz poor Hanapii was startled more since the blast was right in front of her (^w^”). The hype was exhilarating; all the high tension from the artists, the audience and the beat of the blaring music, it was all just so great to be there! Then Hanapii once again turned to me and waved, and I knew I had to use this chance to communicate with her. With just one hand I tried to convey that I was really grateful they came here, and that I was sad that they were about to leave (I used my finger to trail a tear on my cheek lmaoo and she clapped her hands together while nodding). I should mention it was so cute that she kept responding with the same hand gestures that I gave to her. I should also mention that one of cosmic!! members, Tomi started to dance vigorously, and I just couldn’t help but laugh considering our small distance lololol. I kinda wished that I talked to their fangirls to ask more about them ahahah. After a while the artists on stage were called down to the floor, to interact closer with the fans. Sorgenti came first and man Hiroshi’s smile was so wide it was so cute! Trust me when I said my heart was beating so hard even though I wasn’t expecting anything (more like I didn’t want to hope much in order to avoid disappointment lmao). BUT! KiREI members actually came to my side first! HOLY MOTHER OF ALL THAT IS HOLY! As I said before, I CAN’T HANDLE THIS MUCH HAPPINESS!!! Chori-chan was filming with her phone while Hanapii and Mianyan focused on interacting with the fans, and I was so joyful Hanapii took a few seconds to once again look at my camera (gosh I love her!). And Chori-chan had so much fun immortalizing the moment in her Instastory lolol!

Next, *Chocolate Bomb!! came and I’m really a sucker to good-looking people cuz I got enticed by their flawless looks (^v^”). They trotted past me and right behind them was Hiroshi (Sorgenti) and he was walking straight at my way and started passing some tickets (I honestly don’t know what it was) and I thought he was gonna give one to me too but he ended up giving it to the people around me lolol. After going around passing the tickets he came back at my area and looked straight at my camera. I thought he would put some distance between us, but holy crap! He came so close that I was like “Chikai! Chikai! Chikai desu! (Too close! Too close! You’re too close!) But hey, I got lucky to get nice shots of him, yeeeee! From up-close, you could tell that this guy is a chill guy and fun to hang around with. After Hiroshi, the Banzai Japan girls came and I’m glad they did since I really liked their cheery energy. They didn’t really reach me cuz another girl group came in, ToumeinaKankei (for short). They were SERIOUSLY close that I thought in panic, “Girls, girls, too close! Please think about your safety! You don’t know what kind of maniac could be lurking around here!” At least what I respect about these girls were the fact they went to every bit of every corner to reach out all the audience on the floor, making them feel appreciated to be there and for that I was really touched. The girls from Banzai Japan did the same, but with an extra level, in which one of the members crouched in front of two little girls next to me, so there was barely a distance between us and again, I was like “Guuurl, please be careful!” while flutteringly took pictures lolol. Soon after, the cosmic!! members went back on stage and noticed me and started posing for me, SO ADORABLE AND COOL! I need to mention that I STILL HATE MYSELF FOR GETTING BAD QUALITY PICTURES OF THEM (I’ll learn how to use DSLR cameras better after this)!

Okay, by now the artists were slowly climbing back on stage one by one and made their way to the backstage stealthily and I thought that was enough pictures and videos for the night. I couldn’t really see KiREI members since they were being blocked by other artists but I was content with that and I hoped they could get some rest real quick, and wished for their flight to be safe (I didn’t know when their flight was, and I assumed it would be on the next day lolol). So, while at that I was enjoying myself with cosmic!!’s funny antiques and random dances. Just when I thought nothing was gonna surprise me anymore, and I seriously did not expect this because I’m just a regular visitor who happened to really like Hanapii, she totally surprised me by peeking in between Harupiii and Riona, AND THEN STARTED WAVING AND GIVING ME THE FINGER HEART SIGN!!! I swear I’m not making this up, you can actually find this scene in a video on YouTube (I’ll share the gif here). And I don’t care how much I’ve said it, I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!! Right then and there I just, I just cried, like there was no way I couldn’t use my towel right then and there. But before letting the waterfall happen, I responded back to her as much as I could until it was time for them to go. I had to leave the crowd and just took a bit of time to take a breather. I then ran to the backstage to see there was already many people gathering and all the artists had a group photo. Knowing that there was no way I could squeeze my way into the crowd I left the venue. Honestly, I don’t know how to end this report, cuz that’s how it ended. I only remember that I walked to the exit with tears and tried to keep it low.

I will say that, my experiences with KiREI were so much more fun and exciting than my experience with AKB48. I know, to be fair, I spent more time with KiREI and even had direct conversations with them for 3 days straights, in comparison to AKB’s limited one-day visit. If I had to put the satisfaction in numbers, I’d say my experience with AKB48 was 70-80%, while with KiREI it was around 150%, mainly because of the eye contacts with the members during performances and the way they interacted with me during the meet-and-greet sessions. Chori-chan and Mianyan were very very sweet and charming and I wish I interacted with them more. But that’s just how I roll I guess, the first person who charms me will get me first lmaooooo. I will never forget that first and only wink that Hanapii gave to me which had indefinitely fished me towards her and forever turned me into her fan. So, as a KiREI fan, I’m here to spread their name as much as I can, considering they’re not a mainstream idol group, and they deserve more recognition. I know it’s not easy to follow an underground idol group, but it’s not impossible. Especially when they’re going to perform in Mini Tokyo Idol Festival in Bangkok on October. So please follow their Twitter accounts and discover the other 11 members who are attractive and charming in their own ways. Follow them on Twitter, Instagram, watch their Showroom, subscribe to their mail services, go to their live performances, buy their merchandise, but most importantly, show them your support and appreciation and spread their motto “I want to make everything beautiful”.

I’ll make it easy, here are some links for you guys (Their Instastories are LIFE). KiREI: Twitter || Utaten (Mail services) Tanaka Hana: Twitter ||  Instagram Konatsu Mia: Twitter || Instagram  Miyadera Miho: Twitter ||  Instagram

Day 3 report is here!

[curiousdelights]

A Little Bit of Fate [1/?]

Pairing: Yoosung Kim x CMC (Areum Lee)

Plot: An odd request for help brings Areum to an apartment where she meets a group of people through a messaging application, plunging herself to help them towards a charitable goal. She forms friendships within the group and soon rekindles a spark with a member who she hasn’t seen in almost a decade.

Background: Inspired by this. When I first played Mystic Messenger, Yoosung was my very first route and guess what? I actually chose the name Areum for my MC lololol. So when we got to this part of the chat (Idk, I think this was around Day 3 in Casual Story), I was surprised lmao but it gave me this idea that MC (Areum) and Yoosung could have been classmates before haha. So anyway, this fic will be multi-chaptered so good luck to me. It’s almost like a rewrite of Yoosung’s route, probably.

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I. A little bit of spark

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They say first love never dies.

A cliché statement, but a famous one nonetheless.

To some, the idea is a normal component of one’s life, ironically forgotten when more loves come around to replace it in later time. To another set of some, it is simply a silly sentence that’s overused in literary and film, and not something to ponder much about; just a fleeting flick of emotion. But of course, to yet another set of some, it is a nice thought: a pure and innocent thought and proof of one’s own heart beating for another for the first time in their lives.

Most of the time, first love exists during youth when the heart is at its most tender stage, when the idea of love is a mere bud on a stem, with emotions being the nurturing guide towards bloom.

Do you remember your first love?

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Thursday afternoons always held art classes under one of the most carefree teachers Yoosung has ever had so far in elementary. He looked forward to it because it gave him a break from all the textbook reading and problem solving. However focused he could be in those subjects, art class was a welcome change in pace. He wasn’t all too good at it (he’d be lucky to draw what could at least look like a horse?) but he liked this time of day and he liked trying to draw the animations he watched on television with his friends.

Yet if his eleven-year-old heart would be much more honest, those were only little parts of the reason.

The biggest reason was because he could approach a certain young girl he fancied. Due to the freedom provided in this certain art class, all of them were quite free to wander around the classroom and mingle with their classmates, provided that you were still discussing the current project, not making any noise, and actually doing the assigned task to be submitted at the end of the period. So Yoosung takes this chance, albeit in careful portions.

He was a shy and sensitive kid, but he had an excuse to walk up to the aforementioned girl. She had a friend that was good with art. He could pretend to need help from that one but talk more with the other.

Today, they were tasked to draw sceneries with the use of pencils. Shading and outline were the focus. Yoosung was thankful they didn’t dabble with watercolors this time around. He hated watercolors. He thought they were messy under his fingers so he wondered how artists didn’t mind and still end up with masterpieces.

He may never really know.

Yoosung, along with his friend, Hyunsik, tabled with the group of girls. They had been doing this for about a week now and the former only hoped it didn’t seem all too weird, although it seems nobody minded anyway.

“Hi!” Yoosung greeted the group. There were three of them: Hana Kim, the artist he could actually learn from, Miyeon Park, the quiet one, and last but not the least…

“Hey, Areum!” Yoosung’s smile towards her was usually brighter compared to the others.

Areum Lee, the pretty one. When she smiled back at Yoosung, hiding the thin streak of blush on his cheeks would have been almost impossible. Her whole being, he thought, truly lived up to her name. He remembered she had longer hair in the first half of the year. She cut it short this time and always pulled it back with a red headband. It suited with her hair which was the color of sweet milk chocolate. How come she could still be pretty in any style? Yoosung saw others when they changed their appearance and sometimes he didn’t think it suited them.

That’s not the case with Areum.

“Heya, Yoosung! Time to draw again.” She laughed. God, how it hit Yoosung’s heart like a shooting star. “Got a scenery in mind now?”

Yoosung and Hyunsik took their respective seats beside the girls as they maneuvered their tables around to group together. The former made sure he could sit beside Areum and Hyunsik couldn’t manage to even hide the snicker that erupted from his throat. He knew about his friend’s crush but paid no mind. He knew he’d probably break down in embarrassment if Areum somehow found out.

Yoosung thought for a while, but drew a blank. “I… have no idea. I’m never really super prepared for art class.”

“I know, right? Hana probably doesn’t need to think so much about it compared to us!” She said, elbowing said best friend.

Hana stuck her tongue out at all of them. “It’s not my fault I like drawing.”

Areum winked. “We know! We’re just teasing.”

“Might as well start now. We only have about an hour left.” Hyunsik reminded them. He was already starting to outline his shapes. Yoosung thought it looked too round for a mountain but kept his mouth shut.

“Any thought now, Yoosung?” Areum asked, turning her attention towards the brunette and his blank sheet of paper.

He thought sitting beside her was already the nearest he could get, but she almost leaned towards him and he grew flustered.

“A-Ah, no—not yet!”

Areum huffed then turned back to her own desk. Then, as if the bulb in her head lit up, so did the expression on her face and she offered an idea to Yoosung. “Why don’t you draw a night sky with a lot of stars? It pretty much fits you and we can use colored pencils anyway!”

“Ooh, not bad!” It really wasn’t, but how come he didn’t even think of something that should have been obvious to himself? “How about you? What are you gonna draw, Areum?”

Her mouth formed a pout. He thought it was cute.

“I’m still at a loss but…” She tapped her pencil on her paper, then looked back again at Yoosung. “I think I’ll draw a beach. I went there last summer with my family. I thought it was pretty! What do you think?”

“That sounds good. I’m sure you can draw it well.”

“Yeah! It’d be nice to use a lot of yellows and oranges for it. I watched the sunset then.”

“I should do that next summer. It probably looks nicer at a beach, huh?”

Their discussion kept on going between the two of them until Miyeon had to speak up. “You guys do know that you could run out of time by talking about it so much, right?”

Yoosung and Areum looked at each other and then scrambled on to their work. Even if neither of them was good at art, their teacher put in a lot of grades for effort and that wasn’t to be overlooked.

“Ah, Areum, I forgot my eraser.” Yoosung said, not looking up. “Can I borrow yours?”

She nodded, busy with her own work. “Sure. It’s by the pencils.”

“Okay, let me just…” He reached over to the bunch of pencils blindly, patting his hands over the table while his focus was all on filling up the hillside drawing with a deep shade of green.

Areum was on her way to doing so as well, unsure if whether Yoosung knew where it was so she might as well get it herself for him. Her reflection of the orange sun on the sea seemed to be lacking, so she colored it more to bring out the vibrancy, digging her pencil a little harder than she did earlier.

With one similar action towards one small item, two hands met in the middle and startled the owners. Both Areum and Yoosung looked up, first to the source of the surprise, and then to each other. It was easy to see that Yoosung was the most flustered and Areum giggled more at his reaction.

She was the one who got the eraser first, so she put it in Yoosung’s palm. “Here you go!”

“T-Thanks!” To save himself from any more embarrassment, he took it gratefully and turned back to his work. All he wanted was to talk to her today, but it seemed fate was being more generous than usual.

He wasn’t complaining, though. No, not at all.

But he did grow slightly nervous.

After some time, most of them were done with their artworks. Hana and Miyeon had submitted theirs already, waiting for grading from their teacher. Hyunsik was finishing with the details. Yoosung still thought his mountain seemed too round, but who was he to judge? His hillside might as well be almost flat.

He was staring at his work now, wondering what was still lacking, when Areum popped up to speak again beside him.

“Looks good! I knew you could draw that.” Her eyes seemed to be beaming with delight, appreciating the better drawing from her classmate. “Are you gonna draw a person in it, too?”

Yoosung offered a confused face. “I don’t know. I thought we were only supposed to draw the scenery?”

She shrugged. “People can be a part of it. I think it’d look nice if you drew yourself there.”

“I think it’s lame if it’s me. I should… draw someone else to make it better.” Yoosung laughed it off lightly as he started to take a brown shade of pencil to start.

“Oh? Who’re you gonna draw?” Areum watched as Yoosung continued to sketch, then realized there was no need to ask. The red headband and brown hair was a big giveaway already, and even she felt a warmness rise up to her cheeks.

To be fair, she went back to her own drawing and smiled at the idea. It was playful and fun and harmless. She took up the same shade of pencils Yoosung had used and drew a person on her own beach. Once done, Areum stood up and admired her work. It seemed Yoosung was also done with his and ready to have it graded.

“Yoosung, look.” Areum brought up her paper, a yellow-orange dominant version of a sunset on a beachside. A small, brown-haired boy sat on the sand. “Fair enough, right?”

He was surprised. His face clearly showed it to her. “You drew me.”

“Yeah.” Her grin towards him was laced with appreciation. “Thanks for drawing me in yours, Yoosung. I really like it. Come on. Let’s get these graded. We’re the last ones to finish.”

He ended up following her to where their teacher was, but he couldn’t help but feel flustered at what just happened. It was a silly sort of exchange, but Yoosung found it to be more than enough. As far as he was concerned, his day was more than complete.

They were fortunate to be able to pass it on time and still get a good grade once the artworks were handed back. As soon as art class ended, everyone started preparing for the next one. Was it Korean history already? The day was going to end soon. Yoosung had to part ways with the girls to go back to his seat in the classroom. He sat quite some distance away from Areum so talking to her during class was never really an option available to him. His extracurricular activities also prohibited him most of the time to hang out during the afternoons.

But tomorrow was Friday and he was free then. Maybe he could ask her to hang out then. He could wait until tomorrow to ask, just so he can gather up some extra courage to do so. Besides, it wasn’t as if he wouldn’t see her at school again, right?

… Right?

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“Didn’t you hear?” Hyunsik asked, his tone expressing surprise peppered with a tinge of concern. “Areum moved.”

Yoosung frowned. He had barely even arrived at school that next morning and that was the first thing he’d hear. “What?”

“Miyeon told me.”

“But we just had class with her yesterday.” He said, glancing over at what was once Areum’s seat. He thought she was just oddly late today or that she wasn’t feeling well. But moving away?

It made him sad.

Yoosung walked over towards where Hana and Miyeon sat, hoping to hear something about it all. Hyunsik followed him.

“Areum left?” Yoosung asked.

Hana looked up at her classmate and nodded slowly. “Her dad’s work thing made them move. We already knew about it a couple of weeks ago.”

“Where?”

Miyeon shook her head. “We’re not really sure. Areum didn’t say much about it.”

“I see. Too bad we couldn’t hang out much.”

Hana agreed. “I know. Yesterday, you two seemed to get along pretty well.”

“She’s always been nice.” Yoosung shook his head once and bid the girls goodbye. “Thanks for telling me. Hope she’s well.”

It would be a clear lie to say he wasn’t upset about Areum’s leaving, but he never got close to her much to expect her to say something about it to him. At least he had yesterday to remember by.

Yoosung sighed.

He really did like her.

He went back to his seat and started fiddling with the contents of his bag, ready to pull out a pen and pad to distract his mind. That was when he saw a small object chucked inside the corner of his pencil case.

A rubber eraser.

He chuckled.

That was Areum’s. Did he forget to return it?

Maybe he did, and he decided to keep it as a small token of knowing her.

With little contact they shared prior to this, it seemed impossible to see her again.

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Do you remember your first love?

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[ Areum has entered the chatroom. ]

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Aaaand there we go! I really wanted to post this now since it was eating at me and I felt like I should try to move onto the next part soon or else I’ll lose my ideas. 💕

So this was like a background for everything else. I forgot how 11-year-old kids work?? But I remember we can have really big crushes on others by then lol sorry. I knew someone who ended up with his first love since elementary haha.

Anyway, I hope you guys liked it. Please tell me what you think! 💕

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[seekingluckynumberseven]

Day 5 : I’m Watching You... Every 2.35 Seconds

Author Note: This contains a chat and a phone call. Trying to keep them in a format as close to the game as possible with Tumblr’s lovely editors. Also, all chats with Seven need more memes.

Kali tossed her handheld console to the side and flopped back on the couch with a heavy sigh. Even romancing 2d pretty boys was getting boring. Sorry, Nat-chan. Not even his beautiful voice could lure her back. She stared up at the ceiling. If someone would have told the girl from just a few months ago who was frantically trying to juggle her thesis and Juno’s crazy demands that she’d be bored, that girl would have died laughing. Her brain just couldn’t come up with things to keep it occupied. V may have given them a date for the party, but other than emailing the growing list of ... eclectic... guests, there wasn’t much to actually do.

Everyone was worried about her safety with the new hack. Seven, especially. No matter how much she tried to reassure him, all he could do was beat up on himself. So she was staying put for his sake. Not her’s. Yoosung and Jaehee had both expressed amazement at how calm she was. It was a hacker, no one was pointing a gun and pulling the trigger. Her fingers ran over the soft cloth covering the pock mark on her thigh. She knew what that was like, how the pain of a bullet piercing flesh felt. This was nothing. “Freaking out never helps in situations like this. I can’t do anything and I trust Seven.” The redhead had seemed flattered 

The apartment was to tiny for her to work out, especially with the gift her uncle had slipped into her backpack with the wink that always promised chaos. Seven kept reassuring her that there were no cameras in the apartment, but still. The rest of the security system was an unknown and she couldn’t risk the power signature of the weapon being picked up. That and with her luck recently, she’d likely trip and end up slicing the couch in half or something.

A chime on her phone drew her attention. The memelord had emerged. Kali found a smile growing on her face for the first time that day.

<707 has entered the chatroom>

707: alkgj;aelj

JAEHEE: Seven, hello.

707: @tlj3oj3$

707: ;3piu9jqt’ae’of

707: (Utp9iotjkj

KALI: 8h;aw4ietej

707: 9e;itj3;jf

JAEHEE: Please stop there ^^

707: dlkjg

707: eoipk

JAEHEE:

707: ..

707: .

707: ok

JAEHEE: Have you found anything about the hacker?

707:

707: Not yet…

707: I have so much work for the agency…!!

707: can’t focus…

707: Sorry KALI T_T

KALI: 

KALI: Cheer up!

707: T_T

707: 

707: I’ll work harder

707: just for you, Kali!

JAEHEE: Nothing’s wrong with Kali for now then?

707: Nope.

707: I checked the CCTV

707: and nothing strange happening!!

707: I’ve been looking at it

707: every 2.35 seconds

707: just in case something happens.

JAEHEE: 2.35 seconds?

707: Ya.

707: But just looking at the screen

707: makes me so frustrated…

KALI: I knew it! I felt as if you were looking at me every 2.35 seconds!!!

707: We even locked our eyes once, right?!

707: You seemed to be going to the convenience store earlier.

KALI: I was! Food resupply time.

JAEHEE: ….Isn’t it a bit strange to communicate through CCTV?

707:

707: I want to go and protect her myself!

707: Can’t believe there’s nothing I can do…!!!

KALI: It’d be so great if you could come! Pretty lonely here

JAEHEE: Unfortunately, Seven says he’s busy… What can you do.

707: Ya…

707: I can’t give you a body guard… and I can’t go…

707: So…

707: I’d like to make a body guard robot for you…

707: But I guess that would take a long time. T_T

JAEHEE: you could simply finish your work for the agency and catch the hacker.

707: Body guard robot…

JAEHEE: Or, go there yourself to protect her…

707: Maybe you’d like that…

JAEHEE: ;;;

KALI: I, for one, welcome our robot overlords

707: Ooh!

707: Me too!

707: All hail, B.B. Rodríguez!

JAEHEE: I see you two have managed to find another thing you both have in common;

707: Because we’re the awesomest!

JAEHEE: Are you listening to me?

707: To be honest, I was planning on creating a small watch dog just to test it out,

JAEHEE: You are not listening to me.

707: I’m not confident enough to send it to ur place.

707: 

KALI: Ermahgerd~! SO KEWT~!!

707: really!?

707: I’m glad you like it lololol

JAEHEE: It is cute.

707: Ms. Vanderwood did tell me to just work

707: if I have the time for that….

JAEHEE: I completely agree with that…

JAEHEE: But it does seem to have turned out nicely. It’s very cute.

707: +_+

707: Right? It’s so cute!

707: So lovely~

707: So adorable~

JAEHEE: Yes… You could almost sell it.

707: It spits fire from its mouth. Do you think the government will approve? ^^

KALI: Growlithe has come to life! 

707:

707: OMG YOU LIKE POKEMON TOO?!

707: So perfect...

JAEHEE: …No, I doubt you’d be able to sell it.

JAEHEE: You might actually go to jail for creating such a hazardous product. ^^

707: ;;;

707: But still, isn’t it pretty?

707: I thought

707: it would be perfect for Kali

707: while making it.

707: Since both of them are cute…!

KALI:

707: Haha.

707: You caught my cute side!

707: I feel like my great secret has been revealed;;;

JAEHEE: Okay…;;;

JAEHEE: Well;

JAEHEE: I’m jealous that you’re the only one who knows how Kali looks like.

707: Haha…

707: B

707: U

707: T…

707: Even if I make things like this,

707: it won’t help Kali….

707:

JAEHEE: Yup.

KALI: It does help! Growlithe, use flamethrower! 

KALI:

707: it also might explode because of the gas tank T_T

KALI: Explosions be no bueno.

707: I should create a cute version that doesn’t spit out fire lolol

JAEHEE: Why don’t you simply work if you have the time?;;.

707: Yeah…

707: I should just work…

707: Why did I do that??

JAEHEE: Because sometimes you simply cannot work.

707: ...

KALI: Sounds like you need to clear that noggin. Go take a walk or something.

JAEHEE: I agree.

JAEHEE: People do say that you should take your time the more anxious you are.

707: The more anxious you are… smell your time.

JAEHEE: It’s take your time.

707: okie dokie

707: I’m gonna clear my head a bit

707: and come back.

KALI: I’ll be waiting for you! Cheer up!

KALI: 

707: Yup!

707: I’ll be keeping an eye on you even while I’m taking a break

707: so don’t worry!

JAEHEE: …Is that really taking a break though?

707: It is.

707: See u later!

JAEHEE: Good bye.

<707 has left the chatroom>

JAEHEE: But…

JAEHEE: How did he manage to create that robot in just a few hours? ;;

JAEHEE: No one can deny that Seven is a genius.

KALI: Hacking and engineering genius. Amazeballs! 

JAEHEE: I think if he really puts his mind to it… he’ll create the body guard robot in a couple of days…;;

JAEHEE: Besides, he made it just for you, Kali….

JAEHEE: He is being very kind.

JAEHEE: Luciel may seem quite ridiculous

JAEHEE: because he likes to joke around all the time

JAEHEE: but sometimes even I get surprised at what a genius he is.

JAEHEE: Oh.

JAEHEE: I’d like to talk more…

JAEHEE: but Mr. Han’s meeting will end soon.

JAEHEE: I must go.

JAEHEE: Anyways… Please take care of yourself, Kali.

KALI: Hurry and go! I hope he doesn’t mention anything related to cats!

JAEHEE:

JAEHEE: You understand how I feel.

JAEHEE: Thank you.

JAEHEE: Good bye.

<Jaehee Kang has left the chatroom>

Kali opened the picture of the “Growlithe” robot and stared up at it in utter disbelief. Who the hell was this man? Not even her uncle who built things that went into space could put a robot together that quickly. And one that could be used as a weapon? Shit. The Seekers needed someone like him badly. She needed someone like him badly. No one had ever made her smile and laugh quite as much and with a brain like that, Seven could probably stop the demon in its tracks. And he was super cute. Ugh... why was she thinking about that? People like her didn’t deserve cute, smart, funny guys nor deserve to be loved. It wasn’t like they’d even met yet. Already she was beginning to suspect that the face in the chatroom was a mask. Probably a lot like her own. But what was it hiding? As if her train of though was a summoning spell, the phone started vibrating; Seven’s picture filling the screen. The sudden call was startling and Kali bobbled the phone in her suddenly clumsy hands. Ninja reflexes a total fail as the heavy piece of technology smashed its screen against her nose.

K: “Fuck... Hello?”

S: “Oh! Potty mouth!”

K:“I dropped the phone on my face.”

S: “You... dropped...” *hysterical laughter*

K: “Not funny. That shit hurts.”

S: “Sorry.. sorry. You ok?”

K: “My pride is mortally wounded.”

S: “Oh do I need to kiss it better?”

K: “Please.”

S: *sharp intake of breathe* “Oh... hahaha. Don’t tease me. My heart can’t take it. Anyways, what did you want to talk about?”

K: “Umm... you called me and rudely knocked my phone out of my hands.” 

S: “Oh so now it’s my fault your hands can’t hold a phone?”

K: “I’ll have you know I’m good with my hands.”

S: “Phew. Is it getting hot in here? ...Hey Kali, I’m really sorry about the hacker. I promise I’ve reinforced the security system and am hunting him down.”

K: “Do I need to come over there and spank you until you understand?” 

S: *unintelligible muttered words* 

K: “What did you say, Seven?”

S: “Ahhh... nothing, nothing. I’m going to take your advice and have a date with my babies. If anything happens...”

K: “I know I know, send you a meme.”

S: “A call, Kali. A call.”

K: “Call? You can use phones to call people?” *laughter* “Drive safe, Seven.”

S: “Laterz.”

Seven ran his hand through his hair, staring at the dark screen of his phone. Had “yes, please” really came out of his mouth at her spanking joke? Thank God, Jesus, and Buddha she hadn’t heard. This woman was different than any other he’d met in his entire life. A mixture of kindness and sarcasm with just a hint of dirty that was all too intriguing. Someone who appreciated his jokes and gave back as good as she got. Nothing in her dossier had prepared him for this. Kali was beginning to get under his skin and that was dangerous.

Groaning, his attention turned back to the screens that lit up the bunker. Better get back to work before Vandy starting waving around the taser again. His babies would have to wait. Too many people were relying on him. She was relying on him, trusting him, and he was terrified what would happen if he failed her.

[dimplesnj]

I was tagged by @shutupjefferey and I know this is a day late but I’m just so lazy and antisocial I haven’t looked at my notifs for anything lol

1. What color reminds you of home?

Orange bc my dad is extra and went overboard when decorating one day

2. What’s your favorite season and why?

Winter bc it’s also Christmas season and my birthday season and the atmosphere is usually so much happier and loving

3. What’s the first feature you look at when you meet a person?

Eyes or lips but mainly the eyes :-)

4. What type of song do you like?

Honestly I like so many types of music but ballads are the best don’t @ me on this

5. What are you afraid of at the moment?

How am I going to pay for college when I’m broke and the American government hates millenials lol

6. What is one trait you have that you wish people would appreciate more?

Either my independence or humor. Because I tend to be more reserved around most people, I am constantly thought to be stuck up or snobby when in reality I just don’t need to cling onto others 24/7. My humor is also a little skewed or just plain weird which in turn makes only me laugh so :(

7. What’s your favorite AU?

Used to be highschool au but soulmate au!!

8. What’s your favorite MV concept?

Cozy coffee shop concepts

9. Name a song that you want to dedicate to your ultimate bias and why?

Namjoon deserves a song telling him that he’s wonderful and worth it. That he’s perfectly imperfect and that it’s okay to not always be the role model he expects himself to be. That it’s okay to put himself before others so I would say A Little Too Much - Shawn Mendes even if it’s directed towards a female.

10. What languages do you speak?

English and halfway fluent in Spanish

11. Favorite line from a song.

oh no I have too many too choose from

12. Favorite book.

I really like Attachments by Rainbkw Rowell bc it’s not solely a story of romance. It’s also a story of personal growth and there’s good character development. Plus, there’s a nice mix of humor in it.

13. Favorite movie.

La La Land? Idk it’s hard for me to choose bc I don’t watch many movies but I liked La La Land bc it’s isn’t a cliché musical. Not to mention the gorgeous cinematography

14. What is your philosophy?

It’s okay to be selfish since at the end of the day the only person you’re stuck with is yourself.

15. Who’s your bias and why?

Assuming this means my ultimate bias, I’m gonna say Kim Namjoon because I see a lot of myself in him. (This is going to be long. Feel free to skip lol) He is someone who was expected to graduate at the top of his class and go into some boring office job and make as much money as he could but he said no. He refused to let himself be swallowed by the oppressive, demanding society where everyone is expected to be lawyers or doctors that South Korea developed. He recognized the faults of the system and fought against it through music. Yeah, he was aggressive and a bit cringey at first but that just makes him seem all the more real to me. I was the same way: trying to prove myself and be accepted. But he pushed through it and grew up. He matured and realized that that’s not who he is or who he wants to be. He’s an amazing leader and an amazing rapper and musician. He constantly out does himself and leaves me in awe each and every time he does something. Joon is also the guy who is expected to act one way but turns around and does the complete opposite while still being true to himself. Many people expect him to be all badass and tough when in reality he’s the type to scrunch up his nose and scream when something cute is happening. This man literally has his room filled with Ryan plushies and merch. He wears matching Ryan pajamas and yelled out of happiness when he was given a Ryan cake. He’s expected to not be affected by cliché scenes in dramas but screams and kicks his feet when he sees Jimin acting like a fuckboy with an older woman in an acting scene. Joon is the guy that everyone laughs at (lovingly of course) instead of laughing with him and he accepts it, letting everyone have their fun. Namjoon isn’t confident but he’s working on it. He’s trying to love himself and is constantly giving ARMY and Bangtan everything he has. Kim Namjoon is truly the biggest inspiration to me and if I knew him in real life, there’s no doubt that I’d actually be in love with him to the point where it’d pain me.

16. Are you the kind of friend you would want to have? If so, why?

I mean kinda? I’m a great listener and would love to play therapist if you ever need it but I’m also someone who likes to shut herself out from the world days at a time.

17. When you’re in a bad mood, do you prefer being alone or being with friends?

I’m never angry but I get sad a lot which is where I’d prefer being alone even if I know I’m only going to get myself sadder.

18. If you could start over, what would do differently?

I would try to not care so much. In my younger days, I would worry about everything and anything. That developed me into the person I am today: someone I’m not very proud of.

19. Favorite thing about your favorite thing?

He’s not a thing but his smile :)

20. What’s your favorite thing about yourself? Why?

Uhhh physically I would say my eye color. I kind of preen whenever someone mentions it lol. And as an actual person? My ability to get things done right and on time even if I have to ask for help.

21. What do you think is at the edge of the universe?

death. the inevitable death we all face

22. When you don’t like yourself, how do you make yourself feel better?

I honestly don’t do anything to make myself feel better. I kind of just wallow in the darkness and self pity and hatred and turn on depressing music. Sometimes I cry to myself and feel a little bit better that way.

I’m not going to tag anyone because the less people that see this depressing post, the better lololol

[alwayssomuchrunning]

PAX 2019

October 12th 2019

I don’t normally write posts about conventions. But PAX this year is an exception! Holy shit, it was amazing lol!

Alright, so I had some main quests walking into PAX. These were:

Meet Former UFC Middleweight Champion Robert Whittaker. He happened to be attending PAX for the weekend, so meeting him was a must.

Meet a Twitch Bae (Wolfy) from WA who I followed a week prior to PAX LOL.

These two quests were of absolute necessity to pass in order for a successful con to be successful. I’ll be honest: I’m not much of a gamer these days (filthy casual!), and playing games and shit was more of a side aspect of it hahaha.

Meeting Robert Whittaker was going to be a real pain in the ass. One: he’s consistently on the move in a huge convention centre with a sold out capacity and not a stationary target. And two: he looks exactly like a normal guy. He’s not going to stand out like say, an Alistair Overeem or a Francis Ngannou. 

In order to find him, I had to form a squad. Me and two of my guys formed a team to find him, and had a group chat too lol. If any of us were to find him, we’d tell the group ASAP and then the person who found him would tail him so that the other members can tail him so we can meet him lol.

Anyways! After about 1.5 - 2 hours, I had a lead! The first lead I had (his IG story) had me find his location. Me and the boys full analysed the story lol, such as the texture of the floor, the surroundings; and we now knew he was wearing a red shirt, which made the search hella easier! Unfortunately though, we missed him by mere minutes LOL. FML!

Another full scale search of the convention center ensued... and we still couldn’t find him. We were about to give up. But then with me having his Story notifications on, I had another lead of his location. I sent it to the boys, and they quickly figured out where he was. Unfortunately, I was split up from them at the time. 

So my guys headed out to the location, while my other guy met me at an in between point to escort me to the location after confirming him as being present at the location (he was having lunch); as I had no idea where the fuck it was LOL. Anyways, we made a MAD run for it!

And what do you know! I FINALLY see Robert Whittaker! He’s a mad cunt, and I’m really out of breath but fanboying hard at him! I tell him that he’s a National Hero of Australia, a true inspiration to Aussies worldwide, a legend, a sick cunt, as well as Australia’s champion lol. I also told him about how hard me and the crew were searching for him lol. He had a good laugh and also appreciated me for the kind words.

He’s so kind! What a legend! Anyway - that’s the first quest complete! My only regret is that I should have asked him for a follow on Instagram lol. He might’ve followed me back if I asked him lol, as he’s a very kind guy, and the fact that I was trying to track him down for 3-4 hours lol. 

He might’ve especially followed me if I referenced it like a nerd, for example: “Hey Robert my man, is there any chance you could follow me on the Gram? I’ve been trying to find you for 3-4 hours bro, and it would be the ultimate reward for my quest if you could follow me on Instagram.” LOL. But it’s all good: I was really puffed out when I met him, as I ran full speed with quite a lot of equipment in my bag, as well as in sneakers lol.

Now for the second quest! Meeting up with Wolfy who I’ve been following (although not for too long lol). I easily find her location thanks to Discord, and then I meet up with her as well as other people who wanted to meet her lol. 

This is cool and all, but tbh, I really would’ve preferred to meet her 1 on 1 lol. This would allow me to get to know her on a more personal level lmao. So we all end up watching a WWE panel together (I really needed the rest as well so this was good lol I was mentally and physically exhausted from the mission to find Whittaker) which was nice. Then from there, we just walked around the convention for a bit.

I was getting a bit bored to be honest, as her attention seemed to be more towards people she was more familiar with lol. And I ain’t great at navigating through group social situations where I know nobody lmao. Although she did talk to me a bit, which was nice. 

So I just split up from them, but not before getting a nice solid hug lmao! I fkn love hugs from good looking girls lmao.

But more importantly, I asked if we could do a follow for follow on Instagram. And yay, she follows me now! She doesn’t follow too many people on Insta either, so double yay! Haha! I hope my posts and stories and shit I do in the future impresses her lmfao! Cause she’s a super nice and great girl! Hahaha!

...if she was Melbourne based, I’d totes be trying to date her. Not gonna lie LOLOLOL. Alas...

But yeah! What a great con! The mission to find Robert Whittaker was just pure comedy and fun, and meeting Wolfy (Twitch streamer) was cool too. She’s so cute, nice and awesome hahaha. I consider getting her to follow me on IG to be a win, as I can’t really talk to her too in depth in a group situation haha!

[thirstyfortom]

RFA + Saeran and V meet MC’s really nice ex

I decided to combine these two since they’re similar. And can I just say how I’m all yours when you start a request with “I always see things like this and that, but I want you to do different”?Iit makes me feel really special <3

So here it is, hope you like it! ^^

Zen

He thought he was the perfect man... until he met your ex.

What the hell? The guy is handsome, smart, rich and… did he mention he’s handsome?

Like, this man looks like he just stepped out of an Emporio Armani ad! Zen never advertised for Emporio Armani.

And the way he interacts with you, fuck! He’s a true gentleman, Zen bets he never has to be worried about a beast trying to come out everytime you smile.

He wanted to hate the guy, but… ahhh, it’s impossible! He’s nice as fuck!

“Babe, why did you two break up?” he needed to know, he asked as soon as the guy got in his hybrid car and went home.

“We just realized we were better as friends.” “Why? Why weren’t you better as a couple? He’s… great! He’s… perfect, MC!”

 “Yeah, and perfection is boring!” well, at least he knew he wasn’t boring, but that meant he wasn’t perfect either…

You notice he got insecure. “Look, Zen. Nobody is perfect. I’m not perfect, you’re not perfect, he’s not perfect. And he is somebody I chose to share a friendship, you’re somebody I chose to share my life with.”  Oh wow…

“And you have better abs too.” You winked and smiled at him, and the beast woke up immediately. This time he wasn’t worried.

 Yoosung

Oh shit! This poor cinnamon roll…

He can feel the smell of testosterone emanating from the guy. It’ just Old Spice, Yoosung, chill

And he’s so manly, but he’s also cool and fun. And he’s also a gamer, how come he doesn’t have dark circles under his dreamy eyes?

He’s making you laugh all the time! Yoosung wished he could be this funny, he’s always so flustered around you…

He’s not jealous of you two, he’s legitimately envying the guy!

“Why did you break up, MC?” he felt awful and great at the same time.  Great for being able to say this out loud, awful for sounding so bitter.

 “He is great, but just as a friend.” “But MC, he’s amazing! Why did you let him for… me?”

You were legitimately shocked, sometimes you hated he couldn’t see himself the way you did. “I never compare the people I date, Yoosung. Everyone is unique.”

“Yeah, he is a unique good and I’m…” “You’re both unique. Period. And he’s a good friend, you are the greatest boyfriend ever!”  you hugged him and he knew you weren’t comforting him, you were telling exactly what you felt.

“Also, let’s say his gamer fingers aren’t as good as yours.” You kissed him, and it was halfway through the kiss he actually got it what you meant. For the first time, he wasn’t flustered (not that much)…

Jaehee

Your first girlfriend, the woman who introduced you to all of this.

Now she could see why you were so chill, this girl definitely was a great influence on you embracing your own sexuality.

Yes, she was so chill, so confident, so adorable, she was basically a older and more experienced version of you.

You two laugh together loudly over the silliest things, she never feels that comfortable like this, she barely giggles when you two are watching Zen’s musicals.

She wants to be besty with you two. Well, mainly with you, but the girl seems so cool…

 “She’s really nice, MC. What happened between you two?” something must have happened, right?

“Nothing. It didn’t feel like a romantic relationship anymore, she was like this big sister, you know?”  “Oh, but sometimes I feel like I’m your big sister, MC…”

“You do? I never noticed, I think you’re great at showing your… romantic affection.” “That’s because you’re blinded by love, I’m actually terrible at it.”

Oh god… you hated when she got all insecure… “If you were terrible, we wouldn’t be together. Do you think I would stand a relationship where I’m not appreciated?” you got a point, yes, she really appreciates you.

“Now, can I show you how much I appreciate you?” she laughed, but you weren’t joking, she got that pretty quickly…

 Jumin

He wasn’t really seeing the appeal of this guy at first.

Yes, he’s interesting, he’s smart, his jokes make sense, he looks elegant and refined even in a casual outfit, he… okay, Jumin sees now.

He could do business with this guy, he felt reliable and professional, and also very comfortable and never tense about anything.

And the way he treats you, he knows the perfect balance between being a gentleman and being a buddy. Jumin still struggles on the buddy part…

Ugh, this guy has charisma, he hates how not even him can dodge from all this charisma…

“Your friend is quite something, MC. Why did you two decide to keep it as friends?” he didn’t want to sound bitter, but… he was.

 “Hmmm, no special reason. We didn’t work as a couple, I guess.” “Why wouldn’t you work together? You look like a soap opera couple…”

“Well, and this is real life, so…” “So you’ll realize that, realistically, I’m not a good match for you.”

Oh my god… insecure Jumin was the weirdest and saddest thing ever. “No, realistically I’ll just enjoy a good friendship while I get to spend the rest of my life with the man I chose and love.” You swear you saw a blush there…

“Now, realistically, it’s time for me to fulfill some fantasies of you, right?” oh, and now there was a blush, but it quickly faded away…

Saeyoung

That guy was a professional comedian!

He’s also really hot, clever and his glasses look cooler too!

Saeyoung is almost leaving you for him, lololol

Seriously, this guy feels… natural. Saeyoung feels like he has to try so hard with you, this guy is effortless.

“He’s really cool, MC. Why did you break up?” he asked as casually as he could.

“No special reason, we realized we worked better as buddies.” “Oh, sometimes I feel like I’m your buddy, does that work for you?”

“If I weren’t so desperately in love with you? Yeah, sure.”  He gagged on his Dr. Pepper,

He wasn’t waiting for such a honest and direct answer like this, though it was exactly what he needed to hear.

“Now, buddy, why don’t you give me a little of your Dr. Pepper?” he was reaching his can to you, but you stopped him “I meant from your lips.” He smirked, well, he didn’t really need to effort to oblige your wish this time, did he?

Saeran

Okay, even if the guy were a prick, he would feel intimidated

But that’s not the case, the guy is cool! The super confident type who doesn’t give a shit about what other people can think about him

It’s almost like he’s a male version of you. He’s not that cute, tho, but… you get my point.

He usually doesn’t feel comfortable around your crazy and loud friends, but this is one he feels he could hang out with if he… wasn’t your ex, as in the man who probably saw you naked.

“He’s cool, why did you leave him?” he asked all of a sudden, you looked at him, puzzled.

“I… didn’t leave him, we decided together that we were better apart.” “Why? Do you really think you’re better now that you’re apart from him and… together with… me?”

“I do. Why? Is that a problem?”  “I don’t know, you tell me.” “Tell you what? That I love you?” “Yeah, exactly that!”

What was happening? Was this a fight about… you loving him? And he… loving you back, apparently?

“And I love you back, okay?” yep, it was a fight about love.

“So prove it. Show me how much you love me!” you tried to stay at that mad tone, but you couldn’t, now you were both smirking mischievously to each other, you know where this is going…

V

V would  like this guy no matter what, ad you told him how much this you admired and respected this guy

And yes, he was everything you said he would be.

He was a trustworthy and respectful young man, so clever and sweet!

And the way he treated you, not even V could compete with how much he cherished you.

Of course he liked this guy, he was the one you loved before him. Any person that is worth of your love has V’s unconditional respect.

“He’s amazing, MC. I almost don’t understand why you two broke up.” He just noticed the resentment when he said this out loud.

“Well, we… didn’t really have a reason. We just worked better as friends, I guess.” “I see… you guess.” Shit, you didn’t mean it like this…

“I mean, I… am sure. He’s really great, but…” “You can’t really finish this sentence, can you, my love?”

“Yes, I can! I’m in love with you now! Can you blame me for having such a good taste in men?” he blushed, he couldn’t blame you for anything, never. So he just gave in to your charms…

[trixiedragon]

Little Things about Yuri!!! on Ice Episode 5

in the home stretch!!!

this is one of my favorite episodes and minami openly and unabashedly thirsting for yuri is about 85% of why  

yuri's boss-ass game face is about another 10%  

yuri is the oldest by five years but he looks about the same age as the kids. also, yuri's terrible no good luck at the draw + minami openly laughing about it...!!!!  

only minami (of the guys) also has a japanese national team jacket, so the other two guys (one of who is older than minami) must not have made it last year  

yuri explaining his epic failure from last year in front of everyone in that rapidfire voice is def a highlight  

back in episode one, you'd think yuri would be the one who would like cutesy tissue box holders and victor would be the sophisticated one who tolerated it.  you would have been wrong.  

MINAMI BENDING OVER TO GET A BETTER LOOK AT YURI'S ASS  

HE LITERALLY SKATES BY AND THEN BENDS OVER WITH SPARKLY EYES  

GETTING A BETTER LOOK AT THE GOODS  

MINAMI HAS HIS OWN LITTLE GAY GASP FOR YURI  

YURI WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO THE WORLD  

but oooooh yuri remembering his failures from the previous year... ;______; also remember that celestino was NOT with yuri at nationals. who was with him? who was there to comfort him when he failed? .____________.  

victor in his HIGH CLASS SUIT. and when he says it's his debut so he should be in formal wear, YURI CAN'T ARGUE WITH HIM LOLOLOL SON IT'S TOO LATE FOR YOU YOU ARE PERMANENTLY TRAPPED IN HURRICANE VICTOR. ENJOY THE RIDE, WINK WINK NUDGE NUDGE BOB'S YOUR UNCLE  

minako is done with being in awe of victor lol  

I LOVE SO MUCH THAT MINAKO NOTICES INSTANTLY WHEN YURI IS NERVOUS  

yuri REALLY isn't good at listening to his coach. but victor knows how to get his attention  

(i have to admit, i cringe a little when people complain about the repetitiveness of the programs because a) that's how figure skating works, sorry, and b) i could literally watch ten thousand different versions of yuri's programs. i don't care. they're beautiful, and each time they do it, there are slight adjustments and different 'things' about them that stand out so...)  

lol poor yuri everyone there thinks he was amazing but his coach is totally unimpressed  

he gets a personal best and victor is all 'awww i thought you'd get over a 100 hmph'  

victor using his makkachin plush to give yuri instructions is something i never expected from his character and feel so blessed that we get from him. also, victor barking... why didn't i make an audio clip of victor barking? do people want that?  i think someone already posted it actually but  

YOU DON'T HAVE A DARK PAST. MINAMI I WILL LOVE YOU FOR FOREVERS.  

i love how morooka is a big fan of yuri's, but he shows it in SUCH TERRIBLE ways. yelling at yuri after the gpf, getting excited because yurio said he'd destroy yuri, getting excited because minami challenged yuri and reminding the world that minami beat yuri last year...  

it's SO IMPORTANT that in JUST the last ep, we saw that victor was unwilling to show how annoyed he was at yuri, because when he scolds yuri HERE, it means so much more  

yuri cheering for minami is so embarrassingly cute and unjapanese and sweet and wonderful and minami's tiny heart nearly exploded with joy  

PLEASE LET THERE BE AN OVA OF JAPAN'S NATIONALS SO WE CAN SEE MINAMI SKATING AGAIN  

yuri is quick to see his faults in the stumbling of others, but then he doesn't see his strengths...  

i really appreciate the fact that the difference in skating quality between minami and yuri and the skaters we meet later is obvious. like, it's clear he's still an amateur, that he lacks experience. that's pretty hard, too.  

yuri's warm up and then coming back in with his game face on... slapping minami... getting his lips attended to by victor... just... ☆_☆  

yuri's free program is where things change between yuri and victor... more specifically, the choice victor makes at the end of yuri's free program in how to treat yuri... but that's a thought for another time  

yuri being stubborn is another great quality to have given him. it would have been SO EASY to just blanketly characterize him as being mentally weak, but they didn't  

victor covering his face with the makkachin plush like son you can wearing ten thousand dollars on your back and you're still a dork i love you  

almost all of yuri's jumps are wobbly but he has such great flow... this free program is truly our first introduction to yuri's full potential as a skater  

faceplant meep  

omg victor please catch your bf from now on  

victor is so torn when minami shows up like he's really displeased that his cuddling time got interrupted but he JUST scolded yuri about being a good role model so he's stuck...  

minako being proud of yuri for treating his competitors with respect...!!!  

YURI'S FACE ON THE PODIUM LIKE HOLY HELL IT IS ILLEGAL TO BE SO CUTE STOP IT  

poor yurio's phone... you know he goes through like five of them a year...  

i get so much second hand embarrassment from yuri's speech on love omg but lololol morooka's face when yuri is declaring his love for victor...  

((i'm sorry but after living in japan from april to probably like october when this press conference is, and given that he and yuri have already talked about all these themes since victor KNOWS the story of yuri's free program, there is 0% chance that victor starts talking about yuri's tie because he has no idea what yuri is saying. he starts talking about yuri's tie because a) the tie is ugly and b) he's in a room with yuri's friends and family when yuri has just declared on tv that he's in love with victor and he never really knew what love was before victor despite being surrounded by loving friends and family... can we say awkward? what else was victor supposed to do??))  

celestino, you're not wrong about your prince phichit, but it still annoys me that you insist on comparing him and yuri constantly and that you see this as a competition with victor...  

but seriously phichit is the best