#look at mickeys sad little face😭😭

[takeyourpillsbitchh]

You said you can’t do this.

You said this isn’t you any more.

But I don’t believe that.

The way you’re looking at me, tears shining in your green eyes says otherwise. You caress me and pull me tighter in a kiss that tastes like goodbye.

I pour everything I have left into this kiss. Hoping—begging it’s enough to change your mind. Like if I force my love into your mouth you’ll stay with me.

But when we pull away I see it in your eyes. Your mind hasn’t changed…but you don’t want to let me leave either.

Don’t do this.

[sleepyangelkami]

AHH I’m seriously so jealous of your writing😭 can you write something about carls girl never realizing when people are flirting with her and he doesn’t get jelly but can help but get a little protective? ❣️❣️

OBLIVIOUS c.grimes

 ☆ WORD COUNT - 2.1K

CARL GRIMES X FEM!READER

 ☆ SUMMARY - oblivion was your middle name, never seeing the various places flirting came from. but carl noticed. of course he noticed. and with your harmless oblivion, he had to take action into his own hands.

 ☆ WARNINGS - ditzy + oblivious!reader, ron, flirting, protectiveness, (3) use of y/n, petnames, intended lowercase, nothing i write is ever proofread 🩷

carl wouldn't exactly say he had a 'wide group of friends'.

when they moved into alexandria, carl had already been on the road so long that he'd lost interest in people his age. he preferred the strong fighters he stood by like his father and daryl. he didn't seem to have much time for anyone else.

well, anyone but you.

you were the opposite of them, friendly and kind, oblivious as a bat.

rick adored the fact that even in a world like their own, his son had managed to find love. he'd let you into the family with open arms, seeing nothing but pure intentions behind your pretty smile that had half the town whipped. if only you'd glanced around to notice. you were too busy trying to avoid the poles you almost walked into, though.

but despite his love for his sons loving nature of his own, he worried for him. he was constantly on his back about being a 'normal teenager' he was supposed to grow old surrounded by people, not just wither away when you weren't around.

this was what possessed carl to invite ron over. well, technically he didn't invite him over, rick did, and technically, it was supposed to be ron, mickey and enid. however, enid and ron had just recently broke up and mickey was trying to support her through it (they were stealing whiskey from his dad's liquor cabinet.)

he would have invited you over too, if only ron wasn't so... "hey, man, so where's y/n?"

carl couldn't help but roll his eyes before picking up his console controller. the only good thing about ron coming over was the fact that carl got to absolutely obliterate him in console games. which was sort of embarrassing for ron seeing as carl had spent his childhood fighting off the real things they fought against in pixles. "at home." he answered sourly.

cue the oblivion.

you'd been friends with ron longer than you'd known carl. but that didn't mean anything to him. you were friends with everyone. the only problem was that you were completely oblivious to the fact that he was downright in love with you.

carl wasn't exactly jealous, no, he had more faith in you than that.

however, he'd be lying if he didn't find himself bubbling over every time your name slipped from between his chapped lips. ron barely knew you. you were carl's.

"ah." smacking his lips together annoyingly as he sat against the cushion beneath him, cushioning him from the carpet. yes, ron needed cushioning from the carpet. "she's always been like that, a hermit, that one." as if he'd known you for centuries.

carl barely glanced forward, a look of un-amusement on his face before turning back to the screen.

ron stuffed his face with the chips next to him. "what?" voice all muffled.

carl didn't even get to answer for before his lips so much as parted, a sound was heard from the front of his house. he could make out your girlish giggles before he could hear the door open and close. you were such a soft person but there was nothing soft in the way you tossed the door closed excitedly. "carl!" your voice echoed through the house, stopping his heart momentarily.

there was something so regretful about ron perking up on carl's living room floor. your giggles slowed to a stop and carl saw you standing in the doorway, glancing at ron as your smile faded. "hey, baby." ignoring the look across your face.

you weren't sad ron was here, you were happy carl was hanging out with people. it was more confusion, he hadn't mentioned this. you shrugged it off, thinking perhaps it was a surprise visit. you did like surprises. you didn't so much as think twice, the sound of his voice soothing you and turning your brain to mush.

"hi! hi ron." smile suddenly returning. carl always found it funny, how quickly your expressions could change. but he liked you this way, easy to read. "look what I made!"

you were prancing over to where he stood on the couch within seconds. carl watched as you let wool unravel.

there wasn't much to do around alexandria seeing as you worked in the gardens most days and some days it was much too rainy or muddy so you spent most your time in your room and with carl, of course. sometimes both.

when you'd told carl weeks ago that you'd decided to take up crocheting he looked at you funny, wondering what the hell was a crochet.

you'd read somewhere about it and told him it was basically knitting. then he asked why you couldn't simply knit. he didn't get it, you realised.

nonetheless, he'd been awfully supportive as you came about this new hobby. he watched the pink and white wool against the couch, made yourself with some new stitch you'd learned. there were bows on it too which only made the boy smile. he was sure that if he entered his bedroom now, there'd be at least twenty bows he could spot somewhere around the room that you'd left.

perhaps you were marking your territory.

"wow." he gushed at the piece of fabric. "that's amazing, sweetheart." watching your cheeks go pink.

ron watched from his space on the floor, swallowing the crunchy chips in his mouth. you were close with carl. of course you were he was your boyfriend. but even so, you were close with carl.

always cuddling up to him, getting so close. come to think about it, there wasn't much times he'd seen you both in the same room and not touching. if you weren't, you were usually busy wandering off leaving a distressed carl behind you, holding his hat on his head as he searched for your whereabouts.

a 'thank you' was on the tip of your lips, ready to thank the boy for his constant praise. how could he not? you were making blankets now, that could benefit the whole community. and you'd already given away at least a dozen. "yeah, that's really amazing." ron intervened.

truthfully, you'd almost forgotten he was here.

you'd turned your head to him, little guilt swirling in your veins. you were probably interrupting their 'bro time'. "thanks, ron."

"'course, y/n." the way he said your name had carl's stomach feeling off. "can I see it?"

of course you were much too oblivious to think anything of it, the sweet "sure!" leaving your mouth. carl watched you part from his side, sitting next to ron on the carpet, avoiding the chips that were spilling onto the ground and passing him the blanket.

"wow." his praise seemed sort of... forced but it felt good nonetheless. praise from anyone nowadays felt good. "this is just amazing, you have to teach me some day."

his tone was nothing short of suggestive. luckily for carl, he wasn't the jealous type, at least not with ron anderson. he had enough to be thinking about, like a break in on alexandria and someone mauling you in your sleep. he didn't waste a second thinking of you running off with ron. there wasn't a chance in the galaxy. but that didn't help the knot in his stomach.

not jealousy. but he didn't like the way his hands were straying so close to yours.

you were too ditzy to notice anything of it. but that was the whole thing. you didn't take notice of much, always confused, the perfect target for anyone to prey on.

now, carl didn't exactly think ron was a bad person. however, he wasn't so inclined to leave the both of you alone, he was sure that whether or not you were with carl and whether or not he had been with enid, ron wouldn't hesitate to make a move. and you'd be stuck not knowing what to do, too afraid of hurting someone elses feelings.

"okay." you shrugged your shoulders, missing carl's touch too much to think about teaching ron how to crochet. you often did this, letting your mind stray to the things most important.

like carl, for example. you did it at the worst of times. perhaps you were having an interesting conversation with enid but she spent a little too long getting to the point. before you know it, your mind is on carl or something or other. you moved so fast, never grasping what was said to you. carl always found it sort of adorable. especially when it was you that was telling the stories, venturing off to your side quests along the way.

"yeah?" you didn't nod nor did you answer, your eyes were grazing the blanket and carl could tell you were far away. "how about friday?" this snapped you back, though.

you pondered for a brief moment. you thought nothing of the interaction aside from the fact that you'd have to teach the boy to crochet. you couldn't really teach anyone to do anything, much too side tracked.

you didn't pick up on the way his head moved, his lips quirked and his body leaned into your own, eyes flickering up to carl as his own mouth opened.

"she can't." he answered for you. you were lucky, you knew so much. with carl around, you hardly ever had to think. imagine being so comfortable, to not even have to use your brain. you always joked that he was going to make you lazy. brain dead, even. "we're doing something together."

this you perked up at. "we are?" excitedly turning to the boy as you pondered what it was you could be doing this friday. he often took you outside the walls, leaning against his shoulder and listening to him read the comics he stole on runs. you liked the way he imitated the sounds like 'bang' and 'wack' because he'd always yell just to get you to laugh.

"yeah?" ron's tone suddenly changed from suggestive to not curious but something you couldn't quite put your tongue on. it was as if he'd been challenging the boy. "like what?"

carl tilted his head. he had enough of the boy's childish gimmicks as of now. there were many things he could be doing tonight such as bringing you upstairs and throwing on a dvd for you both or perhaps you could teach him to crochet. but jealous or not, carl had no intentions of leaving you with ron.

"like none of your business." this caught you off guard. carl only really had one tone with you and that was lovesick, filled with admiration. but as he gave ron a kind of glare, you wondered if there was a side to carl that you didn't know.

however, the thought left as soon as it came when you spotted the new cushion covers the grimes' couch had recovered.

ron shook his head, teeth grasping at the inside of his cheek. "I think i'm gonna go." practically daring you to dispute, but your mind wasn't even in the argument.

"i think that's a good idea." carl merely answered, eyes focused on the boy.

ron stood from his place, not bothering to take his wrappers with him. it'd been all you'd noticed, how rude of him. "see you tomorrow, y/n."

"bye." you chirped, still oblivious to the tension in the room.

carl watched as ron stood, glaring at the boy, as if he was trying to get some kind of a reaction out of him. would he really have to fight to the death for him to leave you alone? carl couldn't help but scoff, leaning against the couch without the faintest hint of jealousy in his bones, knowing that as you sat against the carpet, all you cared for was him.

most girls liked the jealousy. carl could think of one thing better than that, though.

certainty.

as ron left the house, he made sure to shut the door extra loud. carl's glare hardened against the white wood. "carl?" your pretty voice could be heard, sweet as honey.

he shook his head, turning away. "yeah, baby?"

"what are we doing on friday?" confused as to his plans. carl couldn't help but grin at you, shaking his head. even through his tension face off with ron, you hadn't suspected a thing, mind much too innocent to the silence cruelty of others. when he didn't respond, you frowned. "i'm confused."

a laugh puffed from his lips. "you're always confused." you gave him a pathetic attempt of a glare. "come on, dvd?"

"okay!" you chirped, instantly grinning.

forgetting so quickly.

main masterlist/carl's masterlist

[mythicalartistx]

Opinions of KH2 novels that happen that are funny/interesting

I saw a lot of sections recently

Riku Axel & Namine are a trio

Their interactions are nice

It's something I didn't know I needed

I love seeing them do stuff in the background while Sora does basic (game moments), instead of focusing what happens in the games during Disney worlds, it shows them

Axel being a grey character

He doesn't know himself if he's bad or good

But some of the others noticed it and gladly call him their friend.

Also when Goofy "dies" he helps him to see if he's alright and even gives him a potion

Instead of initially kidnapping Kairi, he does so with good interest in mind, thinking she's in danger because the organization is after her— Riku and Naminé were going to her but got caught up in a battle with Saïx.

Then Saïx fought Axel and won, obtaining Kairi.

Also Naminé helps heal Axel after he lost to Saïx.

I love his banner with Riku

At one point Mickey is like, I'm glad you're not alone Riku, Riku responds, He's my friend, but then Axel says, Nobodies don't have friends, it's not exactly word for word, but similar.

Axel comments to Riku

Riku eating ice cream and Axel is like is it good, You're like a little kid even though you look like a mean old man. Then Axel steals his ice cream and Riku like bruh really dude there is plenty of ice cream in there.

After Land of Dragons, Axel tells Riku, Seeing Sora made you that happy, and Riku is like I don't feel like telling you. Then afterwards he's like it's creepy how you smile with Ansem's face.

Mickey and Goofy can smell

So Pluto is in the novel sometimes around Axel and of course Kairi. When Mickey first sees Axel after Riku leaves, he sniffs him and is like oh it's you I thought it was Riku but you smell like Pluto.

Then later when Axel helps Goofy after his "death" he is like you smell like Pluto and at this point Axel is like AGAIN!?!?

Maleficent and Riku

Honestly I find this kinda charming and kinda nice.

At one point she calls Pete useless and how Riku was so much helpful and even got him what he was trying to do and gave him Kairi. She then admits that she was using him, but it made her kinda sad or a "thorn in her heart" that he left her without hesitation.

Then at one point Riku goes to see Maleficent and Maleficent is like oh you're alive and he says I see you came back from the dead. And it's great exchange.

He wanted to see if she'd fight the nobodies/ organization 13. But when he goes to her he wonders if he is betraying Mickey by doing that and he thinks it's all for Sora.

Riku opinion of DiZ request

So DiZ got Riku to do some things... that isn't great and afterwards he wonders if that was right.

After seeing how DiZ treated Naminé and views nobodies he is like Should I have fought Roxas? He was thinking Should I have destroyed him for him to go back to Sora? What if there was another way so he could still be here?

And I wanted to point it out that he obviously questions whether it was right and he was just following DiZ because he wanted Sora back and thought it was the ONLY way and much would have rather Roxas to stay as a person too.

DiZ offers Naminé ice cream

At one point Naminé goes back to the mansion in the middle of KH2 and she finds DiZ which she is surprised by. DiZ was harsh and mean to her at the beginning of the game and is weary of him,

But this dude straight up offers her sea salt ice cream like he didn't want her destroyed or want Riku to get rid of her (which Riku was like NAHHH I won't because he saw them as people and Sora was waking up). And then he says there are plenty more, you can share with friends 😀😁 LIKE COMPLETE SWAP

Saïx fight Riku and Naminé

First when Riku and Naminé is fighting Saïx while Axel gets Kairi, Saïx slaps Naminé and causes her to fly back.

Then he is like oh you're trying to protect your home from darkness (assuming he might corrupt it or by getting Kairi) and then he's like but you did that once before. LIKE 😭😭😭 THAT WAS UNCALLED FOR

And then he tells Riku he sold his Soul for Power. JUST wow, great character but man is he cold sometimes.

I never want Saïx to touch Naminé again though... Saïx over here hurting Axel and Naminé.

Donald and Goofy no longer tease about Kairi

So... In KH2 there are moments where Donald and Goofy tease Sora about Kairi with possible romantic implications

(though I'm not exactly sure since that is the English version which could have some transaction errors and there's a lot of added romantic moments because of English version)

In Halloween town, Sora also imagines himself dancing with Kairi when Jack and Sally dance, but in the novels none of these things happen. Donald and Goofy don't tease him about Kairi.

Shang and Mulan = Sora and Riku

So in land of the dragons when Sora sees Mulan and Shang he tears up and thinks of himself and Riku cause he missed him.

This does happen in the game, but it's more explicit here that he missed him and thinks of Riku and himself when he sees Shang and Mulan.

Sora always wanted to fight by Riku's side

In the novels throughout the ending battle Sora is so excited and is just glad to fight by Riku's side and he had always wanted to have him as an ally.

He states how he always hoped and dreamed he'd be able to.

He feels so excited and just glad to be able to do so.

Also want to point out that they feel better together and they're okay in the dark realm because they have the other

Sora doesn't care as long as Riku is okay

At one point Sora says, so what if he's in organization 13, it's fine.

Donald is like it's not they're a bad group of people.

This just shows how much he cares about him.

Axel pretends to betray Riku and Naminé to help Kairi

He told them he was going to and would give them their location and reassures them that he doubt Xemnas would come over.

And Xemnas ends up being the one going over....

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

HAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII ARIIII IT IS IIIIII!!!!!!!!! i'm here to bombard you with the very same questions of the question game bc i really wanna hear your answers too!!!!!! so 1. your comfort characters pleaseeee pretty please andd 2. a scenario that you've replayed multiple times please pretty pretty please!!! luv u btw wait also u are 10000% that gojo cover is the most beautiful thing in the world and nobody can tell us otherwise<33333333333

- @catchuuu

MICKEY IT IS YOUUUUUUUU :33 welcome welcome!!!!!! take a seat……. here is your ari delivered pastry and drink 🍩🍵 <- some tea bc it’s late. it’s gonna help you sleep better trust !!

wahhh you’re so sweet to drop in w these…. i had a crisis answering them bc . i am …. indecisive,.,…… but i’ll try just for you :’3

1/ HHHHHHHHHHHHH what is there to say………… you already know a lot of them i think 😭😭 gojo our belovedest ALWAYS makes me happy and suguru too!!! i think gojo is a bit more of a comfort though… sugu makes me pretty sad….. ANDDD ofc kenjaku!!! my silly emotional support queercoded villain. he makes me smile :3 would also throw in nobara bc her existence feels like a warm hug. she’s my Everything. i had a crush on her when i first watched jjk and i will adore her always!!!!!

jjk aside though…… THIS is where i start getting indecisive bc i have too many fandoms to keep track of + my memory is bad :’3 but ummmm um. kunikida is my angel wife!! and reki from sk8 the infinity makes me sooo happy 🥺🥺 (you would LOVE him btw he has the brightest smile ever) ALSO NOYA FROM HQ…… and ryoji from persona 3….. and kazui from milgram… and tsukasa and emu from pj sekai……….

i could mention more but!!! i’ll finish by saying saber and archer from fate/stay night :> saber is the reason i started loving knights and archer is the sexiest man on this planet + the reason i’m into motherly men + voiced by junichi suwabe <3333 the fate series is soooo dear 2 my heart mickey…. my favorites r actually sakura and kirei but they both make me too emotional to be called comfort charas…. same w shirou……. and every single csm character too 😔 sigh .

2/ hhhh this one was . also tough……. :cc since you went w a childhood near-death experience i will do the same >:3 i was almost brutally murdered (<- grave exaggeration) by a cow when i was like . 10…. it might’ve been a bull?? i was too scared to look it in the eye 😞😞

it was raining a bunch right … and there was this lil nature reserve near my house . w a path you could walk up on a hill but also down by a river….. and it was raining sm that the whole thing was just FLOODED. you couldn’t see any of the rocks in the river…. or the grass you could walk on beside it…… so little ari decided to go down there anyway. for the sake of adventure. and i made it to the end of the path to a fence that you could jump over to get to The Normal Road Home .

BUT …. gasp ………. little ari came face to face w a bunch of cows . up on the hill. right by the fence. they were eating the grass and i was scared bc they were fucking HUGE mickey :((( i was shaking n shivering and trying to blend in w my surroundings……… carefully making my way towards the fence that they were kinda blocking.

BUT THEN …. another gasp….. suddenly i was face to face w this One cow/bull and it just stared at me. for a couple seconds. and then it ran right towards me and my childhood instincts kicked in …. so i like. ran down the hill and then back up so i could jump over the fence . and then i was ok :) but ever since that fateful day i’ve been scared of cows….. i can only admire them from afar 😔😔😔😔

hehe these were so fun to answer… ty mickey my angel <333 ALSO SO TRUE SO REAL i knew i could trust you…….. he’s so pretty!!!!!! ig we just have to bear the burden of understanding him better than anyone else …. a heavy burden but. it is what it is <//3

[rayslittlekitten]

Ok, I'm in our inbox because I can't help myself. Toff Girl is so great (I must catch up on some reblogs for that fic) I want to know everything you're willing to share about what you have so far.

I am overwhelmed by all the reblogs and comments 😭 Thank you so much for loving that series! I will address each and every one of them when I have the time. As for new stuff, I have a few ideas, but ultimately, I am gunning for them to have their happily ever after. There were some very cliched possibilities but it didn't make sense for them. I, as the writer, am negotiating with Mickey to figure this all out, but the next chapter is all about Ray and his feelings in all this. Very similar style to "Breathe Again" but in his POV and it gives me the opportunity to really dive deep and explore what's going on in his head and how he's been dealing with all this. Thought about also exploring a bit of domdrop which I am not super knowledgeable about. I may have shared some of this before, but if so, here it is again:. Also, thank you for this ask because I found a HUGE chunk of text I don't ever remember writing and it's GOLD! I apparently wrote two different versions and I am picking out my favorite parts and marrying them together as we speak. Here is a preview:

Many times, things got steamy and delightfully playful - and painful, in the bedroom, but occasionally, Ray was the most gentle lover and those were the times you didn’t brat out. You were more than just a good kitten for him. Those were the times Ray needed it the most when he needed reassurance. Sometimes he needed tenderness, especially on days he witnessed or participated in violence. It didn't happen often, but it still affected him when he did. Despite all the impact and punishment he loved doling on you, he didn’t enjoy actually hurting anyone, but he understood sometimes it came with the job when necessary. “Come sit,” he patted his thigh. You got up from your kneeling position and straddled his lap. He wrapped his arms around your naked torso and held you close, rocking you a bit. He buried his face into the top of your chest, inhaling your scent. He found it comforting.You reached up and stroked his hair and back of his head. The tips of your manicured fingers softly dug into his scalp and gently massaged it. Ray took in a sharp breath as he held you tighter. He must have had a particularly bad day. He never let you in on details so you never asked but when he was this needy, you knew he needed some extra tender love and care. He pulled back when you did and he looked up at you as you cradled his face in your hands. His eyes told you everything you needed to know, how he felt. You started planting little butterfly kisses on his face. “Are you okay?” you asked quietly. “I already hurt someone today. I don’t want to hurt you too,” he answered. “You know you never actually hurt me, right? I want it,” you told him, pulling back to look at his defeated face. “You’re a good person,” you assured him, cupping his face. “You know that, right?” “Am I really? Some days it’s hard for me to see that,” he answered, looking back at you with sad eyes. “Oh, Ray…” These were the times where you knew he needed you as a girlfriend and not a sub, where he allowed himself to be vulnerable and you were the one to hold his hand and lead him instead. Sometimes he needed a reminder of who he was. You caressed his face and he leaned into your soft hand with his eyes closed. He gripped your hand and turned his head to kiss the inside of your palm. You kissed his forehead and pulled him into a tight hug again. You held each other for a while in silence as you continued to stroke his hair and back. “I don’t now what happened today, but you’re a good man, Ray. If you weren’t, I wouldn’t be with you,” you reassured him. He then pulled back and looked up at you. He hesitated at first but he nodded and flashed a small smile. His eyes wandered down to your neck and your collar reminded him that not just do you belong to him, but that you chose him. You were the key to this relationship. He may be the dominant one but ultimately the submissive is the one who makes or breaks the dynamic. He guided you, but you taught him how. You had as much control as he did and you did so by relinquishing yours. You trusted him implicitly and that is something he kept closet to his heart.

[gardenerian]

hi hi! i hope you’re doing well <3 it’s so lovely to see you be so uplifting and positive to everyone on here it truly feels like a safe space from all the negativity that you can sometimes stumble on to on this app <33

i also enjoy reading everything you write sm the garden fic was such a treat!! if you’re still taking prompts i’d love to see anything about these pictures 😭❤️❤️. maybe the boys reminiscing about the past/how long they’ve been together, the fact that they’re each other’s first loves (!!) etc etc? 💗💗💗💗

hey there kre! you are so sweet, i’m glad my goofy little blog makes you smile! and thank you so much for sending this prompt! i put a bit of a spin on it... hope you like 💕

Mickey’s lounging on the couch, blissed out from an afternoon spent playing xbox and eating pizza rolls while Ian worked on the Gallagher house with Lip. Sleep is just about to pull him under when -

Ian chooses this moment to burst through the door, struggling over the threshold with a comically large box. Mickey sits up, rubbing the would-be sleep from his eyes and smirking as he watches Ian maneuver it into the apartment.

"No, don't get up, Mick," he calls sarcastically, "I got it. Didn't struggle to get this up here at all."

"You made it this far and all," Mickey teases. "Didn't wanna deprive you of your victory lap."

"You're - so generous," Ian pants, dropping the box unceremoniously on the floor and throwing himself on the couch beside Mickey. He tosses an arm over his face like he's just flopped over on a fainting sofa.

"Are you not going to tell me what's in this giant fuckin' box?"

"Shit from the house," Ian explains, voice muffled by his arm. "Lip packed up what no one else wanted, I thought we'd take a look."

"Oh great, I'll be sure to thank Lip for all the trash he saved for us."

Ian just chuckles and hauls himself upright, pulling the box closer and popping it open. Together they poke around in the remains of a life in the Gallagher house.

A hand mixer with only one beater.

A bag of aquarium rocks.

Old textbooks, passed down from sister to brother and onward.

And stacked between them: a photo album, thin and worn. Ian frowns as he picks it up.

"I don't recognize this," he says, laying it in his lap and running his fingers over the cover. He opens it gently and gasps at the first photo that greets him.

Mickey never met her, never got more than a glimpse of her as she tore through the neighborhood, but he knows Monica Gallagher by the crinkles of her face as she smiles up at him.

She beams at the camera, holding a baby in her arms - and Mickey knows without reading the notes scribbled underneath that it's Ian.

"Wow," Ian breathes, tracing Monica's face with his fingers. Mickey reaches a hand forward, lightly touching baby Ian's head. There he is.

There are only a few photos in the album - mostly combinations of Lip and Fiona holding Ian. They don't look at the camera; their gazes remain firmly on Ian.

There aren't any photos after this day. The shine must have worn off on the domestic bliss after that.

"No one wanted to keep this?" Mickey asks, suddenly sad that Lip had tossed these moments in a box of garbage. Ian's first day alive.

"They probably didn't see it," Ian guesses. "Family photos are few and far between. You know how it is. Not like now, where we all have hundreds of Franny or Fred pictures on our phones."

Mickey does know how it is.

Did anyone capture his first day in the world? He tries to conjure images of Iggy's chubby fingers reaching to hold him, of his mother smiling down at him. Birthday parties, first days of school. Did his first steps go unnoticed? Did anyone clap?

"I don't remember anyone even taking my picture until -"

Until Ian.

He thinks his mother must have, at least in those early days, maybe on some disposable camera. Maybe he just wants to think that. And if she did, that was all. They never made it to a frame. He never saw his younger self grinning down at him from the mantel.

But with Ian, he remembers.

During that summer before everything went to shit, he remembers Ian watching him. Then he'd surreptitiously hold up his phone, trying to snap candids of Mickey as they roamed around the neighborhood, drank beers at the dugouts, or lounged at the Milkovich house.

Mickey noticed him every time, but chose to let Ian have it. Chose to let himself be watched and seen. Sometimes he acquiesced to a fucking selfie, screwing up his face and pressing in close to Ian.

Those photos are mostly gone now, another victim of those lost years. There weren't any real photos of them together until they'd left prison. Ten years of history, existing only in the minds of those who lived it.

"I wish there were more," Ian says a little sadly. "Pictures of you. Of us. As kids."

"They'd be shitty, man," Mickey tries to joke. It comes out flat and bitter. "We'd have black eyes and dirty fuckin' faces in most of them. Don't need pictures of that."

"What do you think our photo album would have been," Ian asks, "if we'd grown up in a normal place? With normal parents?"

"I dunno," Mickey answers. He doesn't really like to think this way: what's done is done. But he indulges Ian a little. "Prom photos?"

"You never would have gone to prom," he laughs. "Parties, though. We would have gone to parties together. Costume parties, maybe?"

"Pool parties, eh? Fuckin' tailgates, or those lame high school house parties? With the red cups and shit."

"Graduation parties."

"Yeah, maybe."

"We would have had a lot of fun," Ian sighs.

"We did have a lot fun."

Ian leans over and kisses him swiftly, soundly.

"You're right," he says, still hovering by Mickey's lips. "I do wish I had pictures of us. Young, silly - safe. But I'm glad things are how they are."

"Yeah?" He leans in for another kiss, then pulls Ian into his side.

"Yeah," Ian tells him. "I don't need the pictures. I remember it. The Kash and Grab, the bleachers. I remember all of it."

Mickey hums happily, warmth spreading to his toes. "Me, too."

They're quiet for a moment, until:

"We have wedding photos," Ian says, clearly on the cusp of a very earnest train of thought.

"We do," Mickey agrees.

"That's - that's really special, Mick. And it's kinda the start, right? We have family photos now. We could start making albums of our own."

"You wanna stuff a bunch of photos in a book you'll probably never look at again?"

"Fine," Ian relents, "but we should start framing some, hang them up."

Mickey stills for a moment, considering. Photos of him, his life, on the walls of his home. The permanence of it settles warmly in his belly.

"Yeah," he says, kissing the top of Ian's head. "We should."

[heymacy]

What do you think are mickey’s top 5 favorite moments of his life?

oh god anon!! just rip my fucking heart out why don’t you?! 😭❤️‍🩹

1) his wedding day, obviously. i think that it was so much more than just a wedding to him. i think that to mickey, marriage has never been just a piece of paper. it’s always been something big and important, something he never believed he could have. it was just an unattainable concept for so long and then it’s there, right in front of him, in the form of the man he’s loved for a decade and they made it. they did it. after everything, there they are. i just know it was his absolute favorite day 🥺

2) reuniting with ian in prison. the risk & the planning that had to have gone into that, for it to be executed the way it was? insane. but the look on ian’s face?? that’s the way he looks at mickey after all that time? like he can’t even believe he’s real? i just know mickey was like “yeah. this was all worth it.” 😌

3) his first kiss with ian. sure, what happened after the kiss wasn’t great 😬 i mean, getting shot in the ass is not a vibe 🥴 but the kiss itself? i know he’d been thinking about it constantly since the “he isn’t afraid to kiss me” moment, maybe even longer. and he got up the courage and he went for it and ian just smiled and looked at him like he put the fucking stars in the sky 😭 he was so, so happy. he was euphoric. he tried to lift a clock, goddammit!! 🥺

4) i like to think he has a beloved childhood memory with his brothers and mandy. it just makes me really sad how little milkovich sibling content we were given. i have a headcanon that they were extremely close as kids, bonded by similar traumas and a need to survive, and as they were released from the hold of the milkovich house of horrors, they grew apart a bit, then eventually all together (and then back together again bc i need my happy endings) 🥺 but i know there were bright, happy moments between the dark ones, and i like to think mickey smiles at those memories sometimes 💛

5) the anniversary party. it was such a huge moment for them. not only did it mark 1 year of marriage, which is an accomplishment on its own, it was a way of showing themselves & the world how far they’d come. he spent a lot of time and money putting it together, and just imagining him seeing ian’s face go from devastated to shocked to blissfully happy and then pulling him in for a kiss — i could cry. i will cry. like…they did it 🥺💛

[taylorkellyreporting]

hope no one minds if i liveblog this bitch: random episodes of svu edition<3

choosing to watch this show while i’m alone and sitting in the far was truly one of my more dumber decisions

“the show isn’t real it can’t hurt you”

the show:

scavenger really is that bitch

not me having to watch this ep on hulu bc the site i usually watch stuff on is freezing :/

baby eo!!!

the old squad 🥺

gahhh i forgot how good this episode is

if the show could bring back eps like this maybe then i’d consider watching future seasons

WONG MY BELOVED<3

we deserved the scene of fin & munch at the funhouse

jeannette :(

he’s so creepy

i’m calling it. he has mommy issues

“ i know every trick in the book. i’ve written 27 of them” “i know i saw your rejection letters” 😭

i should read the room but el saying “baby” is doing things to me sorry not really

pls the way elliot bitch slapped humphrey 😭

skfjfjfjs they locked his ass in a darkened closet

that episode is def still my #1

alright time for twenty-five acts aka the first ep that includes the shows best prosecutor rafael barba

the whiplash i just experienced going from elliot to amaro

one of the bad things ab this episode is that i hate rollins. i’m still pissed that they spent most of s19 developing her as a character just to revert her back to her old ways in one (1) episode

classic amanda, scaring someone into a rape kit. if i was liv i would have fired her ass a long time ago

THE LOVE OF MY LIIIIIFEEEE

“you may not like me when we’re done” “i don’t like you now” lmfao

had no idea rita calhoun was in this ep

woah what if the professor is her ghost writer?

called it

oh my gosh is this the belt scene????

rafael barba, one of the baddest bitches on this show

that ep was so so good

alright ballerina is up next

oh my gosh stuckey is in this one

can’t believe i’m just now realizing that stuckey is mickey from shameless 🤦🏼‍♀️

i don’t know how they didn’t realize in that first episode that stuckey was a hyperactive spaz who was a little too coo-coo for coco puffs

not tutus and tongue jobs??? 😭

matthew lillard looks so different here omf

not her sleeping with her "nephew"????? I-

that entire confession scene had me holding my breath

that episode was insane. i feel so bad for chet, it’s obvious that birdie groomed him from day one

i watched the lost traveler next but was too engrossed to liveblog

now i’m watching parasites

i have a feeling this woman killed her sister and took over her life

knew it. well at least the took over her life part. no idea if she actually killed her but considering…

“we should talk to the husband” “you mean the brother in law?” lmao

okay then having a little sister was not expected

that ep was good but so sad

alternate is next. this ep is crazy

all it took was one wink from stabler and she’s in love

“call me if you change one of your minds” pls

olivia’s “wtf” face while stabler is lowkey flirting with the suspect is sending me

april’s mother??????

if i was kathy i would’ve left stabler’s ass years ago. getting threatened with a knife isn’t worth it when he’s in love with his partner

“she’s kinda fat” she’s literally pregnant 😭

this should teach stabler to not flirt with suspects

“DA flops, killer flops” lmfaooo

SHE WAS FAKING IT?????

i can’t believe her and her sister planned it all

savant is next

what an opener

katie is adorable

“it’s so hard for gay couples to adopt” LAKE PUTTING HIS HAND ON FIN’S THIGH IM CRYING

ooh the fbi

SHE WAS PREGNANT?????

lmao maybe that woman’s husband was the father. he seemed super sketchy at the hospital

I KNEW HE WAS THE FATHER

HIS FREAKING SON????

this episode has me on an emotional roller coaster

i have a feeling that the plot twists aren’t over

damn she told them about mr kim

this hospital scene is heartbreaking

this is an absolute banger of a season. probably one of my favorites after s19.

i know i said i would be reacting to random episodes but i’m gonna watch s9 straight through

avatar is next. if it’s the one i’m thinking it is, it’s crazy

so…he’s gonna condemn svu and then plead for people to call their hotline with any information regarding his kid? kinda…biting the hand that feeds him, don’t you think?

so this isn’t the episode i thought it was but it’s interesting nonetheless

this ep is so creepy

woah lauren could be rachel’s twin

omg she’s alive

i’m sorry did she just say she’s waited 25 years????

not him calling he old

“you’re sick” where was that energy when they told her that he killed rachel???

“she didn’t love me” “i loved you” “too late” im-

“she’s never grow up in a computer” i have chills

that episode was hella creepy

impulsive is next

i cant watch this ep it’s gonna taint melissa for me

ok i skipped ahead to harm

they just completely dropped the first storyline for that second one. don’t know why since his death had nothing to do with svu

now i’m watching svengali

oh my gosh poor woman

nothing like a portrait drawn in blood

“women with no breasts and no arms are attractive?” “aren’t they?” skdjfjfksk sir that was not a statement

A BOMB

why is he targeting liv?

her wounds being self inflicted would explain why everything was intact

“i brought you this far, please give me a peek” wtf

well damn

“you made a deal” “and it was a masterpiece” lmao

that episode was one of my favorites

blinded is up next. i vaguely remember it

“i’m not some senile old bitch” pls

i know the ep is gonna be good when it opens chaotically

this ep is wild

casey got exactly what she wanted

ooh mccoy is pissed

what did she think was going to happen?

he tried to kill himself? *pretends to be shocked*

that ep was so good and so conflicting

okay fight is next

“what’s that?” “her lips” *laughs nervously* wtf?

lmao not lake being a fighter

“your new nickname would be tiny” bye

oh shit he killed him

“you know you guys lost the war?” i love fin

“the brothers? got a lot of balls saying that to my face” “no, they’re real brothers” lmfaooooo

“damn, white, black, i’m getting it from all sides today” “i got called a mexican” “is that a bad thing?” 😭

“you’re a gang-banging picasso?” pls

death by garbage truck. that’s…new.

“i swear i didn’t see him smoking crack” 😭💀

we know damn well that gun isn’t lost. i love it.

she’s dead. oh. my gosh.

i love detective lake so much

that episode was suspenseful but so sad

oooh paternity is next

tommy and el 🥺

did he just say the nanny?

those aren’t sounds of displeasure, liv 😭

well.

besides liv and kathy’s crash, there’s a lot i can’t remember

ohhh right he’s not biologically his

liv and el: *fighting over whether jake should know he’s not tommy’s father* jake: *finds out anyway*

i am once again thinking about the wheatley is eli’s biological father theory

tag yourself i’m kathy sleeping peacefully while elliott is questioning if he’s the father of their unborn baby

this ep is about to get so good

every time i watch this ep it leaves me holding my breath even though i know exactly how it ends

this has nothing to do with the show but those aha sparkling water commercials are annoying as hell i hate hulu so much

can we talk about the way that hug between olivia and elliott in the hospital said so much?

that episode was just as good as it always is

snitch is next

lmfaooo liv’s face while el and that woman are talking ab her no longer hearing from him cos he’s back together with kathy

not method man being in this ep

okay sister wives

this ep is boring me so i’m skipping it

okay i think i’m gonna pause s9 and go back to random eps for now

desperate is such a sad episode i feel so bad for everyone involved

poor tommy he’s so scared of his dad

“he had everything i couldn’t give him” except safety

sir you’re literally the maniac who murdered jill

when kim says that dan scares her and tommy says he scares him too 💔

that episode was great but so sad. as all of them are.

missing pieces is next

man these parents had me convinced in the first half i’m not gonna lie

the baby was so adorable :(

amaro is looking at this woman like “how can you sleep when you’ve killed your baby?”

this episode gets me every time it’s so heart wrenching

that episode was more brutal than i remembered

manhattan vigil is next

the hector rodriguez case wasn’t an actual episode, was it?

not him dating the waitress who used to be the kids babysitter lmao great guy

i feel horribly for hector’s mom

“i’m still waiting here, waiting for you to come home” they got me crying with this song

that episode was great

holden’s manifesto is next

oh he’s a classic “nice guy” isn’t he?

he’s so creepy ew

there he goes calling himself a nice guy™️

poor baby noah :(

i forgot how much i dislike dodds

this dude acted his ass off

“please tell me they both have their vests on” “won’t stop a head shot” fin that is not at all what she needed to hear lmao

about to watch all the eps with yates & rudnick i am not at all prepared to be creeped out but they’re some of my favorite episodes so…

oh erin i miss her so much

the way he literally had nadia in his backseat

i just wanna know why chicago pd gave nadia character development when they were just going to kill her off. like what was the reason?

i forgot he had a fiancée

after lewis, i think yates is the only other character that genuinely scares the shit out of me

alright this is long as hell so i’m gonna start a new post. if you read this entire thing i love u

[gardenerian]

Do you think that because of Ian's Emt experience and medical knowledge all his siblings kind of treat him like a doctor sometimes? Asking him health questions and what they should do for their ailments. Like when Franny is sick Debbie calls Ian over to check on her. Or I can imagine Carl asking tmi questions that no one should be asking their brother.

oh my goodness oh my gosh, yes i do think that! i bet ian kinda serves as their preferred option before escalating to the doctor or clinic. like veronica was 😭 and you know he loves the chance to flex his skills and look out for his people!

he fixes lip's broken nose when he gets his face punched in for being a smart ass, patches up liam's scraped knees and elbows, soothes franny and feddie's lil runny noses 🥺 and yes, 100%, carl goes to him with his fungus issues bc he knows ian gets it and he trusts his brother askfasjdfh

i bet it makes him a little sad sometimes, but he still gets that little thrill when he opens up a first aid kit and tends to his "patients"! mickey in particular appreciates the booboo kiss treatment that ian employs.

[gardenerian]

Now I'm thinking about crying and I definitely think when Ian gets emotional his eyes will well up a bit, maybe a tear or two will fall out. We've seen that in the show. With Mickey, I think when he was growing up, like any little kid he had big emotions and would start to cry but very early on that was conditioned out of him.

This might just be me but when I see Ian get teary eyed whether it's happy or sad, his face looks very open and like he's not holding back, that's just what his reaction is. But when we see Mickey's eyes get like that, for example when Ian was leaving for the army, it looks like he's being strangled and choking it back. Like there's so much behind it that he can't let out and it's building up inside him.

So I think now that Mickey's life is more stable and he has no reason to hold these emotions back , they come out hard sometimes. Crying like he did in s11. He has so much grief that's been bottled up for so long and it all pours out and Ian is there to hold him through it. It's much more healthy to get it all out

oh my god 😭 yes mickey feels things so deeply and so strongly - but especially early on, he swallowed it down until he absolutely couldn't anymore 😭 but he still tried to fight it 😭 now that he has the freedom to feel and express himself, i hope he does!

ian is such an enigma - bc yes, there are moments where his emotions spread across his face and and he's open... but he also keeps himself so guarded. he might have had more freedom to feel, but he still struggled to express himself. i guess it depends on whether or not he's feeling comfortable with the vulnerability. they both spent so much time hiding! but no more 🥲