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luvdsc · 3 years

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Hey Cat!! I hope you're doing well as always ! 💖 AHHHH huhu I closed the form last Sunday since I've collected enough responses dy! (NOOOOOOOO ToT) I got a total of 221 responses at the end of the week, which is 3x the amount I initially needed! :o I'm beyond grateful and appreciative ToT I've cleaned the data and have proceeded to run some data analysis, but I ran into an issue whereby the scores on the subscales are equal (it has never been reported in past studies! :O) so I'm waiting for my supervisor's feedback on how to proceed. Hopefully it's nothing too serious ToT

Hehe finance is interesting indeed! I just started reading a book on finance for young adults (Rich Dad Poor Dad) and I look forward to learning more from the author's tips! The Coursera introductory course has also made financial terms a lil more familiar, even though it's just the basics and it's really helped w my financial literacy 🥺 I can push myself to study but it's also the numbers and calculations I'm worried of cuz I am rly a nong (idiot) when it comes to numbers * - * it runs in the genes I guess AHAHAHAHA my mom and sister aren't good at numbers either keke

Aww I'm glad yr professor made financial accounting enjoyable and a fruitful experience for you! Some lecturers / professors rly just have that spark in them to inspire ppl and I'm blessed to be surrounded by a bunch of em in the psych department!🥺😭 it truly makes a difference and I'm sure we both are living proofs of that!

After debating for a while, I've decided not to take a minor mainly because I'm so tired HAHAHAHAHAHA and I'll just do my own self-studying and exploration whilst working! Go out and explore the world, live life! Whilst ironically still staying in my room because of the COVID-19 situation in our country (cases are abt 20+k every day :') ) My proposal has been finalized and it's been accepted! It's just that some elements of my proposal is also part of my actual report, so I have some guidance to refer to in terms of structure! :3 and yes don't worry! I got plenty (sometimes a lil too much) rest during the sem break whilst remaining productive! Plus, I got to catch up w some friends and had game nights (maybe too much of game nights hehe) and movie nights w my friends which was truly refreshing! Also cuz I might not see a lot of them again after we graduate so we gotta cherish every moment 🥺😭

I'm a freelance graphic designer for my uni's newsletter! Occasionally, they'd ask us to create both the content and design! I'll place the link to my recent work below if you wanna check it out! UwU I'm trying to incorporate the same practices during sem break in my last sem (current sem) too! cuz yes mental health is so so important and I'm just tired of being academically tired you get me? :(

What makes me most trilled abt learning abt psychology is how to apply it in daily life too! I find it so fascinating and awestruck at how relatable and within reach these things are like wow we can be influenced in such ways?? :o can be both good and bad but imma stick w seeing it as the development and evolution of us humans UwU

Also, the vaccine has fixed my sleep schedule HEHE (another perk of getting vaccination :3) I got some rly good rest and managed to reset my usual sleeping time, thank you science ToT oooo I see I see, we've had cases of nurses injecting empty syringes hence the recording :( but GHIOGHWEOGIOHW I could never do that, I can feel the liquid entering me as it is so that's good enough ToT (* plays Love Talk * I can feel it coming)

OMG YOUR ART PIECES ARE SO BEAUTIFUL, ADORABLE AND ELEGANT! 💖🥺🥰 it must've required a lot of hard-work and effort AHHH thankiew for showing me yr work!! it's truly unique in its own manner despite it's simplicity UwU is there a reason or backstory to yr chosen theme and objects? :3

I just Googled Somi Somi and omg that's such an UwU ice cream AHHHH 💖🥺😭 ice cream is my fav food of all time and it looks like an ice cream haven omg imagine eating it after a loooong hard day's of work ToT and OMG THE SATISFACTION OF EATING THAI MILK TEA ICE CREAM ON A HOT DAY YASSS 😋🤤 hehe if you get the chance to try milk & biscoff, do try it! It's amazing !😍 and ooo i haven't tried alcoholic ice cream before but I will one day!! :3 my alcohol tolerance is rly low though, will I get tipsy over alcoholic ice cream? We shall see UwU (i can only drink half a bottle of apple cider before my face gets red and I start getting a lil tipsy + headache)

and lovie....knowing yr school schedule now...OURS IS DEFINTELY BRUTAL OMG a 3 month long sem break huhu that's only the total amount of sem breaks we get in a year ToT i thought uni was hard but not that hard ToT

Always glad and honored to have you onboard! and AHAHAHAH the contractions about to start soon 👀 I enjoy talking to you huhu you're such a sweet and supportive person 💖🥺🥰😙 huhu for my period cramps, I've been having them since I was 12 ToT my doctor prescribed me some panadols but sometimes I can't even swallow them cuz I'd puke them out ToT I've settled w heatpacks to reduce my reliance on medicine, but I finally got some upgraded and safe to eat medicine from my gynae! She said it's fine to take it every month to keep my womb healthy and apparently my ms. lil uterus is suffering from inflammation, hence the super crazy bedridden cramps :( the upgraded medicine worked for a while, but after time it kinda didn't help either :/ but I realised that exercise rly does wonders to reduce the cramp too (gynae also recommended exercising) so i take walks and do my back stretches more frequently now! my period in the previous months (2 months ago) have been almost painless and bearable, it's so weird not seeing my bedridden ._. when I was in high school, there would always be a day in every month in which I don't attend classes, and that's solely because of my cramps. It just isn't worth suffering in school, plus we don't have a sick room :/ I hope the pain continues to subside! ToT

And ayy internship is also working experience, yr advice would be of great help to me regardless! 🥺 oh yes, I always remind myself that interviews are similar to the speaking test I took for my Cambridge English exams! That kinda help calm my nerves down a lil, but w nerves comes bigger smiles, so I guess it takes on a rather practical form of coping mechanism (sublimation) AHAHAHAHA

WAAAA WHAT A QUEEN you got an offer from every interview?? I aspire to be like you! 💖🥺🥰 huhu skill wise I believe I have lots to prepare esp in terms of case studies, and I perform rly poorly on certain assessments (*ehem * esp those concerning numbers) so I took the chance to study a lil during sem break too ToT but noted on that! I will work on that too and try to maintain that me element in interviews and overall just be myself keke

That's all from me for now! Imma wait for my supervisor's feedback and journey on w my last semester. Bon voyage! Link to my recent work: https://www.instagram.com/p/CTBqGzjr6sN/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link Other works: https://www.instagram.com/p/CPpv-IyM7Gi/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link https://www.instagram.com/p/CL55EG-MbL2/?utm_source=ig_web_copy_link

hi hello honey bee !!! 💓 omg i'm so sorry for the belated response, i finally got on my laptop 😭 i'm gonna put my response under the cut since it got a little long 🤧

omg 221 responses !!!!! that's so many 🙀 congratulations aaaaa it's amazing that you were able to get 3x the data you needed !!! was it difficult to run data analysis? were you able to solve the issue with the equal scores on the subscales? i hope it didn't create too much additional work for you ):

omg yes finance is really interesting! i enjoyed the classes i took for it :') how is rich dad poor dad? did you learn a lot from it? i know it was a book my prof recommended, but i never got around to reading it 😶 did you learn any helpful tips? and ooo i'll have to look into coursera! yeah, there's quite a lot of terms for finance, and it can be a little intimidating paired with all the math formulas and such, but it's pretty useful imo! how are your financial studies going so far? 💕 omg nong is such a cute word?? i would never think it meant idiot asdkfhlkajsdf omg my whole family is good at numbers and really like math, but i didn't like it 😭 my mom made me study it a lot everyday though rip are the financial calculations getting easier for you as you practice more hopefully?

yessss omg i absolutely agree with this!!!! like you can just feel when a professor loves to teach and is genuinely so excited to talk about their subject, and it just makes the most boring horrible subject into something you learn to enjoy and hate less :') and i'm really happy to hear you have tons of professors like that in the psych department 🥺💗

that's great to hear!!!! 🌷🌷 i'm glad that you're prioritizing yourself and your health, which is so much more important than taking on a minor. what fun subjects have you decided to explore and self study so far? 💞 oh my gosh, the rising cases are so high?? i hope it's gotten better there for you ): are you able to go outside yet?

big congratulations on your proposal being finalized and accepted, lovebug !!!! 🥳🥳 i'm very proud of you and hoping one day i can read your published studies in a scientific journal :') aaaa i'm so glad to hear that you got to rest and enjoy your time with your friends!! i definitely feel that omg i regret all the times i skipped out on movie nights or game nights with my friends because now we're all scattered across the country and the only way we can have them again is over zoom calls 🤧

I SAW YOUR DESIGNS AND THEY'RE GORGEOUS OMG I LOVE THEM SO MUCH !!!! 💖 I'M IN AWE AAAA IF PSYCH DOESN'T WORK OUT, I HOPE YOU BECOME A GRAPHIC DESIGNER 🤩🤩💖 and yes i totally get it ): i really felt the academic burn out when i was in college and it was really difficult at times 🤧 but i hope it's going better for you nowadays, sweetpea 💝💝

omg yeah i absolutely agree !!!! whenever i read about psychology, i keep it in the back of my mind and then when i see something irl that relates to it, i'm like :O amazing. it's so cool to learn about different psych tricks too and see how it works when you test them out yourself and whatnot. and it's really crazy to see how the human brain is so easily influenced at times ??? it truly is an amazing subject !!!

ah what a great side benefit of the vaccine - a better sleep schedule 🤩 i'm happy to hear that your schedule has been fixed 💘 and omg what ??? they're injecting empty syringes wth ????? 😭 that's absolutely horrible, are they getting sued?? lmaooooo that love talk reference askdfhlaksjd

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR KIND COMPLIMENTS 😭😭💗💗 there were many late hours spent in the art studio to finish them, but i'm really happy with the end products :') i thought light bulbs are an interesting subject to do, and my prof said that cutting out circular objects or sculpting them is the most difficult since they're made up curves and not straight lines and i was like ok bet i'm gonna do it aND I'M SO GLAD I DID BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE THEM 🥺 and i love honey bees !!! that's why i decided to paint them and we were supposed to paint them in a combined style of two artists so i tried monet's impressionist style with the short brush strokes and pop art triptych style like marjorie strider 💕

somi somi is sooo good and i just had it again a couple weeks ago :') omg ice cream is your favorite food? :o and YES ice cream is so satisfying after a long day of hard work, like it's such a nice reward to look forward to at the end of day ✨ aaaaa i have to try thai milk tea ice cream one day now !!!!! it sounds amazing 🤩 and YES i must look for places that sell milk & biscoff ice cream !! i have milk ice cream from somi somi, but i need to try to combined flavors 💘 i don't think you'll get tipsy over it !!! it's a really faint taste of alcohol, like i didn't even notice it at first, and i don't think they put very much of it in there! aksljdfhals omg you're a lightweight :o at least that means you save money on alcohol LOL i need like nine shots to get drunk 🤧

your school is too hard 😭 you need more than just 3 months of break !!! 😡 we get a week off for thanksgiving in fall semester and a week off for spring break in spring semester too and then the month long winter break and three month summer break. and we have the one day holidays off too like labor day, memorial day, etc. i can't believe they give you so little time off after working so hard???

asdfhlkajshdlksja loool are the contractions over yet? has it been born? what's the current status, doctor? 👀 i really enjoy talking to you too !!! i'm very sorry for the late responses, work is really taking over all of my time, and i never have enough time to get on my laptop to reply to my asks 😭 and thank you for saying such kind things about me 🥺🥺💝 oh my gosh, i'm so sorry to hear that you have such terrible cramps 😭 i can't even imagine going through that - mine are nowhere near as horrible 😖 do the heatpads help a lot? i'm relieved to hear that you were prescribed better medication though! but yeah, your body does eventually get used to the medication and you have to continue taking stronger meds for it to work, but that's not a very healthy solution /: but i'm really glad to hear that exercise has been helping out a lot!! 💖 hurray for almost painless and bearable periods 🥳 i'm sorry to hear that you had to go through that in high school ): that sounds absolutely horrible 😭 periods are just awful, but it's like i'm grateful that i have my period because that means i'm not pregnant, but also please go away aslkhdfaklsj

omg what was the speaking test for the cambridge english exams like? :o it sounds so formal and a lil intimidating askdjfhalsd do you know of any psych tricks that can possibly help calm your nerves? :')

aaaa yes i did !! i was really surprised that i got an offer from them all because at the time, i was not in the right major and i think i was one of the most underqualified applicants 🤧 one person who interviewed me asked why i withdrew from my engr physics class and i explained it in a kinda funny way but in my head, i was like "oof i'm not gonna get this offer anymore" but then he laughed at my response and told me about how his prof told him he should drop a guitar class he was taking because he was doing very poorly and we bonded over that aklsjdhfkals omg how do interviews for psych jobs go? do you have to discuss a lot of case studies? do they give you a list of possible case studies they'll ask about? :o what sort of assessments do you have to do? good luck on all of your interviews, honey bee 💛 i'm rooting for you, you're gonna do amazing !!!! 💘

omg what did your supervisor say about your case study? and how is your last semester going? are you almost done now? 🌸 (also how have you been? what have you been up to? thank you for taking the time to leave such detailed messages for me, i'm really excited to see all the fun updates in your life, lovebug 🌷🌷)

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milkandhoneyscenarios · 7 years

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Summer Lovin’ (Mark Smut)

Author: Admin Honey 🍯 Pairing: Got7 Mark Tuan x Reader Rating: 🥀💍💋 Warning: 18+, contains adult content. Word Count: 2,817 Summary: Mark gets jealous. You get it on. Request: Can I have an angst/smut where mark from got7 has feelings for his best friend but has a girlfriend already. Then one night mark confesses to her but she refuses because mark has a girlfriend. But mark doesn’t take no for an answer. Thank you! You change any aspect of it if you’d like. —–

A/N: I changed it a lil bit, hope you don’t mind too much. Prepare yourself… Honestly. This is the longest thing I’ve ever written.

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It was a warm, Summer night in July. Mark, his girlfriend and you had travelled to a nearby beach earlier in the day with some other friends to enjoy the sun. GOT7 were on a break from promotions so you all finally got to relax together as a huge group. You were wearing denim short shorts and a free-flowing crop top that showed off your figure. It was partially due to the fact that it was so warm but also because you wanted to tease Mark.

Let’s backtrack for a moment. Mark is your best friend. He’s also your long-time crush. You’ve been friends ever since you were really young but you lost contact when you both went to separate high schools. Somehow, fate brought you back together again when you moved to Seoul to teach English two years ago. Since then, Mark and you have been inseparable. However, this meant that you began to crush on him for afar.

Things could have happened if Jaebum hadn’t introduced Mark to his friend, Seohyun, six months ago. You were glad to see Mark happy but sometimes, you did wish that it was you. It was starting to cool down and you were starting to regret not bringing a jacket or a cardigan. Jaebum had noticed you shivering and placed his jacket over your shoulders. You thank him and smile softly at him as he sits down beside you.

Mark noticed Jaebum’s affection towards you and felt a deep-seated anger. He wasn’t sure if it was because you were his best friend and he was being overprotective or if he actually had feelings for you. For Mark, this had been a recent development. He knew that he felt something more than friendship for you when you met after so many years but he didn’t realise until he started dating Seohyun how deep it was. Mark looked at Seohyun and smiled before looking back towards you and Jaebum. Jaebum had now placed his arm around you and the anger that Mark felt inside began to show on his face.

“Mark, are you okay?” Seohyun asked.

“Hmm? Oh yeah, I’m fine. Just thinking.” He responded, going back into his own world.

You were now laughing at something Jaebum had said and that was the last straw. Mark now knew what he had to do and how he felt about you. He decided in that split second that he could not go another minute without you by his side.

You, on the other hand, were happily laughing at Jaebum’s jokes, trying to ignore Mark’s leering stare. You were wondering why he was glaring at you both but you just assumed that he was off in his own world as usual.

“And then, Youngjae-” Jaebum was interrupted by Mark grabbing your arm and pulling you away from the crowd. You were pushed into a beach hut (aka a changing room) and Mark pinned you against the wall.

“Mark… W-what are you doing?” You stutter, surprised at his actions.

“Claiming what’s mine. Don’t ever look at Jaebum like that ever again.” He almost growled before roughly moulding his lips to yours.

Your eyes widened as you feel his lips on yours. Your second reaction is to kiss back. Mark’s hands moved to your shoulder and slowly make their way down to your ass. Your hands found his hair and you gently tugged at it making him moan. The sound he produced made you smirk and gave you an extra dose of confidence, sliding your tongue into his mouth. He was taking you to a level you had never quite been before. You were euphoric. The only way that it could have been any more perfect would have been if he wasn’t dating Seohyun.

Seohyun.

“Mark.. We can’t do this.” You whispered as you pulled away, placing your hands on his chest and pushing him off of you.

“Why not? I see the way you look at me, don’t you know that I want you too?”

“You have a girlfriend, you asshole.” You spat, pushing past him and running out of the hut.

You wanted to get as far away as possible from him and forget that this ever happened. As you tried to find excuses for him, you realised that there was no going back from this.

You were so caught up in all that was Mark Tuan that you had forgotten all about Seohyun. Your selfish instincts had not only hurt her but possibly the person you loved the most in the world; Mark.

Without a second thought, you walked over to Jaebum, who was still sat in confusion at Mark’s sudden dominance.

“Hey, Jae? Can you drop me off at my house? I’m tired and I need to get up early tomorrow.” You lied, hoping that Jaebum would fall for it.

He nodded, sensing that you were uncomfortable with something. Jaebum knew when you were upset and you thought for a moment that maybe you guys could have had something. But after the escapade with Mark, you honestly felt like giving up and just sleeping for a few days.

The ride to your apartment was silent but not awkward. Jaebum knew it was best to not reopen the wounds just yet. He knew to wait for you to tell him yourself. Seohyun had left earlier, he assumed with Mark, but she did not tell him that she was leaving. He was more worried about her, to be honest, because at least he knew where you were.

You thanked Jaebum and handed him his jacket back before getting into the elevator. The elevator pinged and you walked to your front door, opening it, and locking it behind you. Sighing, you pressed your back against the entrance and wondered where it had all gone wrong.

It would have been so perfect. It would have been so romantic. It would have been so hot. But it wasn’t. All you could think about was how shitty you felt for allowing Mark to kiss you when he already was in love with someone else.

Did I let him do it because I’m a bad person? You thought to yourself. Did I let him do it because I just want him to love me?

You silenced your thoughts and walked to your bedroom. For a second, you thought about getting changed to go to sleep but you laid yourself face first onto your bed, your face into a pillow, hoping to drown out the world. Slowly, but surely, you fell asleep.

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You were awoken by a loud knock echoing through your apartment. Groggily, you checked the time. It was 2am. You’d been asleep for 3 hours. The knocking came again and you were ready to yell at whichever drunk person it was this time. Who on Earth knocks on someone’s door at 2am? Why? Even if a person is not asleep, it’s an ungodly hour.

“I’m coming!” You yell, practically to yourself because the person behind the door more than likely could not hear you. The knocking came again and you grumbled to yourself about how somebody needed to learn the word “patience”.

A few more seconds passed and you got to the door. Looking through the spyhole, you saw a disheveled Mark, trying to catch his breath. It honestly looked like he had ran up the eleven flights of stairs it takes to get to your door. You thought about how cute he looked for a brief moment then remembered that you were mad at him.

He was just about to knock again when you opened the door.

“What do you think you’re doing? It’s 2am!” You whisper-yelled.

“Well, I wouldn’t have had to come to your apartment in the dead of night if you hadn’t ran off and just let me explain!” He whispered back.

“There was no explaining going on as far as I could tell. It was mainly grabbing.”

“Look, Y/N, we need to talk.”

“Oh boy, we sure do. But not at 2am! It’s dangerous on this street, you should know better than to come here late at n-” You rambled, more to keep yourself sane than to yell at Mark.

“Seohyun and I broke up.” Mark talked over you.

“-night alone… Wait, what?” You finally caught what he said.

“Seohyun and I. We broke up.” He stated, again.

“Oh, nice to know I helped you end your relationship.” You rolled your eyes.

“No, before we kissed.”

“Oh, so I was a rebound? Nice, Mark… Real nice.” You said, starting to shut the door. A strong arm reached out and held it open.

“You weren’t a rebound because I’ve liked you this whole time.”

“Oh wow. Reassuring.” You said sarcastically.

“Y/N. Don’t you see how much I like you? Do you not see how jealous I get when other guys show you affection? Do you not see how much I care about you?” Mark pleaded., leaning against the door frame.

You pondered for a moment, thinking of all the times that Mark had cared for you, had become jealous or told you that he liked you. All this time, you had just assumed it was that’s how he was with everyone. Sure, Mark was caring towards everyone but not quite the same amount he was to you.

“You’re an idiot.” You smirked.

“Thanks.” He smiled.

You pulled him by his shirt into your apartment, making him stumble a bit. Giggling, you kissed him quickly on his lips. Mark responded with lightning speed and kissed you again passionately. He kicked the door shut behind him before spinning you around and pushing your back against it. Still kissing you, he began to move his hands so slowly down the curve of your spine.

“Jump.” Mark almost whispered as he broke the kiss. You caught your breath and obeyed Mark’s demand, placing your arms around his neck and straddling his waist.. His strong arms grabbed your thighs and he gave you a peck on your lips.

“I didn’t think that this would ever happen.” He smiled.

“I’ll say.” You agreed, kissing him again.

Mark carried you to your bedroom and sat you on the end of the bed. You smirked and pushed yourself backwards to the pillows. You gave a ‘come here’ motion to him with your index finger and he blushed, climbing onto the bed too.

He loomed over you, his face turning a soft shade of pink. You could only imagine that your face was also a similar colour. Both of you looked into each other’s eyes and softly smiled. Mark broke eye contact first, blushing even more.

“Oh, so you choose now to be all shy?” You teased.

“I guess it’s just because now you know how I feel.”

“I guess it is.” You smiled before he placed his lips on yours again.

It didn’t take long before things began to heat up again. Mark’s hands were roaming all over your body as if he was memorising every curve and every form. Your arms were slinked around his shoulders.

Beneath him, you were a groaning mess. His hands grabbing your hips as he began unconsciously grinding his hips into your own. You pulled back to let out a surprisingly loud moan that made your head tilt back into the pillow.

Mark smirked from above you, now knowing what he was doing with his hips and how much you were enjoying that.

“You like that, huh?” He asked, rhetorically.

You nodded in response and moaned out his name, closing your eyes . He stopped moving. Your eyes shot opened and questioned him. He smiled awkwardly back at you.

“What?” You asked.

Mark didn’t answer but he pressed his hips against yours again. That’s when you felt it. You understood now. Smirking, you lifted your legs up and wrapped them around Mark’s waist before pulling him closer. He moved forward so that his hands were at either side of your head. The friction as your hips collided made you both moan.

“Mark… I need you.” You whispered in his ear.

“I’m down. But… Are… Are you sure you want to do this?” He asked.

“Mark. Take me.” You breathed, your lips ghosting his ear.

That was all the confirmation that Mark needed. His whole demeanor changed as he pulled off your shirt to expose your bikini top. Mark’s eyes darkened and you readied yourself for the ride of your life. His lips gently kissed down your naked torso until he got to your denim shorts. You could feel the excitement bubbling in your stomach and the thought of Mark’s tongue was driving you wild. Mark pulled back and growled.

“These things have been pissing me off all day. Do you know how good you look in them? Jaebum certainly noticed.” Mark commented, jealousy seething through his words.

“Oh really? Well, maybe I wore them for Jaebum.” You teased, trying to get a reaction out of him.

“Very funny.”

Mark didn’t waste any time and yanked your shorts and bikini bottoms off together without even unbuttoning the denim fabric. He kissed the inside of your thighs before attaching his mouth to your throbbing bud.

You sharply inhaled, surprised at the sudden contact. Your hands found his hair and gripped it tightly. Mark moaned into your heat sending a vibration through you and almost knocking you over the edge.

“I don’t think Jaebum could make you feel this good, baby.” Mark smirked as he pulled away.

“Hmm… I don’t know.” You sighed, trying to act as though you were calm and collected even though you really were not.

His tongue suddenly ran it’s way through your folds and you almost let out a scream. You suppressed it out of fear that your neighbours may here and it came out as a strangled moan.

“What was that, baby?”

Mark did it again but this time you were not able to control yourself. His name echoed through the silence of the night. He smirked to himself and went back to work. You could feel your stomach knotting and you were edging closer to an orgasm with every flick of his tongue. He seemed to sense this and stopped, pulling away to climb off the bed and disrobe himself and put a condom on.

You whined at the lack of contact but Mark spoke before you could complain, “I want us to come together, y’know… at least the first time.”

For some reason, that elevated you higher and you felt a sudden emptiness. You needed him now. Right now. Mark saw the desire in your eyes and he seductively spoke: “I know, baby.”

He got back onto the bed and crawled over to you, a smirk on his face. You backed up even closer to the headboard. As you began to reach for his member, he calmly stated, “No, tonight is all about you.”

You blushed and let him lean over you again, his hand leisurely travelling down your body and stopping right on your womanhood. He let his fingers push your wetness apart and he grinned slyly before whispering, “Damn, did I really make you feel this good?”

Rolling your eyes, you replied with a straight “yes.”

Mark moved away from you slightly, pumping himself a few times before lining himself up with your entrance.

“You ready?”

You nodded.

As he slid into your, you felt a mixture of pleasure and pain. Quickly, you adjusted to his size and the pain subsided. You gave him a look as if to say that he could move.

Mark began to slowly roll his hips into yours. The sound of your melodic moans echoing around the room harmonised with Mark’s bass grunts. He picked up speed as you began to grind your hips back into his. His hips found a rhythm that you both enjoyed and you could feel your stomach beginning to knot again but before your body could do anything about it, Mark flipped both of you over.

“Ride me.”

The look in his eyes said that he had thought about you doing this before. You complied and rolled your hips into his. After a few moments, Mark’s breathing became ragged and his thrusts became harder yet sloppier. You could tell he was as close as you. Both of you moaned each other’s names, as you came together.

Softly, after your release, you pressed your lips to his. Leaning back, you smiled. Mark looked incredibly content and it matched exactly how you felt too.

Climbing off of him, you laid next to him on your bed, both of you covered in sweat. He disposed of the condom and patted his bare chest. You shuffled over and placed your head there.

After you had both caught your breath back, Mark laughed, “Round two in the shower?”

You giggled and ran towards the bathroom.

“Only if you can catch me first!”

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weareequaliser · 6 years

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Siren’s Sybil talks music, dancefloors & behind the decks

Ahead of our winter party on the 8th December, we chat to Siren member, DJ & producer Sybil…

What does dance music mean to you?

Everything! No, but really, for some reason I’ve been possessed with an obsession for this music which means I could happily listen to it 24 hours a day without getting bored. I’m always looking for new music, and actually decided to pursue doing something in music when I told a friend I’d been YouTube digging for about 5 hours without moving, and he said “You know, you should really consider doing something with this passion, if it’s something you love doing so much.” And he was right! So I guess I’m riding this music train until it dumps me and I am no longer interested in it.

How do you feel gender plays into DJing? do you think it’s important for non cis-men to be visible in the music scene?

I don’t feel like gender affects my DJing much as I’m just a human or lil’ alien playing music that I like. I came to want to DJ through being obsessed with going out and dancing and listening to music. Dancer first, DJ second. I guess there is something that feels ‘feminine’ about dancing to me. So for me, dancing whilst I DJ or listen to dance music feels like embracing some kind of femme force through movement, but that’s not even much to do with being a woman, but more just enjoying feeling femme. Otherwise, I wouldn’t say gender affects my djing at all really. What is frustrating is if I am discriminated against because of my gender in spite of my djing. E.g. People judging me based on my gender. Like when Lauren (re:ni) and I were playing some techno and some guy leans over the decks to say “Why are NICE girls like you playing DARK music like THIS?!?” There’s still a lot of sexism in the scene, and in patriarchal society women and non-binary people must be twice as good as men at something before they are given half as much respect, as that old saying goes.

I think it is very important for non cis-men to be visible in music. We should prove that there’s no need for sexism or any other kind of discrimination based on someone’s identity when it comes to DJs, the more non cis-men the better. Everyone has music to share with people and move dance floors, there’s never too many DJs. When I started going out most of the DJs were alllll dudes, so it was hard to ever see myself as a DJ and for so long I just didn’t think it was something I could do. So it’s very important for inspiring more non-dudes out there that they can do this too if they want. It’s been so so great to see so many more non-cis men behind the decks in the last few years, now I feel like most of my favourite DJs are all women and non-binary people.

Where do you feel your music production and tastes are headed? What has your musical journey been so far?

My tastes are probably headed in a rogue direction, I am always looking for new sounds, and it’s cool to be able to observe my own tastes morphing. I’m currently really into 145-155 BPM techno and other fast dance music experiments, strange alien sounding things. It’s fun. My musical journey has basically been a continuous search for new music and new sounds. I started off as an obsessive indie kid at school going to gigs every week, but quickly started getting into electronic music first via bro-step ‘dubstep’ like Nero, Flux Pavillion and Doctor P, then Four Tet and Nicolas Jaar. It’s been a rather stereotypical journey through every shade of dance music since then, and I’m nowhere near done yet. More weird musical creations, please!

What is one tune you can’t get out of your head, why is this?

I adoreeee emotional 90’s IDM, this track is my new fav - Vespers - I feel like it’s saying “I see you, you are not alone, everyone is alone, none of this matters, one day you’ll be where you really belong.” It’s like it’s accepted confusion for now with the promise of resolution in the future. That’s what I see in it anyways, it resonates with me on that level.

What is the most important part of djing to you? Is it all about selections, technical ability or is it more than that?

It is about emotions for me. I feel music very emotionally and very visually. I have a kind of synaesthetic thing where I feel music in colours and ‘auras’. When I’m djing I’m mixing tracks together based on how I ‘see’ them to be related. I try to build up swells of energy and then pools of release. My djing style is based on what I would want to hear on a dancefloor, and I’m always trying to keep people moving and keep people feeling. That’s not to imply my music is soppy, it can be every shade of feeling: frustration, introspective apathy, mourning, longing, hoping etc. Obviously, track selection and technical ability are important, but for me, those are just the tools by which I can paint colours with sound and move people.

What excites you about being part of SIREN and why do you feel groups like SIREN are important? What is one thing that Siren has done that you’re most proud of?

These days I am just so so grateful for the amazing friendships I have formed with everyone in SIREN. It’s thanks to this crazy ride we’ve all been on together that I have formed close friendships with other people who are interested in music as much as I am. It’s so important to form groups and communities with people like you who like this stuff too. I feel like by working in a group, you can achieve so much more than if you’re on your own. I think the thing I’m most proud of is seeing people blossom who we have supported from the beginning. It’s so fulfilling to see people getting opportunities and being able to share their talent with the world. There are a few people who we gave their first gig, object blue, SPFDJ, Ifeoluwa, who now have burgeoning careers in music. That isn’t to say that’s because of us, no, not at all, but it’s so wonderful to see them getting the recognition we feel they deserve, and maybe the opportunity we gave them came at just the right time, and now they have more opportunities. We try to use the opportunities we have to help others where we can. Such as by having a guest on NTS each month, it’s a platform we can provide to artists we believe in. I hope people feel we have left a positive impact on the scene, all I could really hope for is that we’ve helped even one person.

You recently interviewed and wrote about Eris Drew who has a really interesting perspective on spiritualism and raving, do you hold any similar philosophies?

Talking to Eris for three hours certainly strengthened my pre-existing spiritual views. I relate a lot to what she is saying. When djing, I definitely am thinking about moving people in a way that is more than just ‘here is a track I like’. Music is this inexplicable force which I still can’t wrap my head around. I find it truly amazing that I can listen to music and so quickly be immersed in a vision or feeling, something so specifically strange. Eris’ philosophy gave me a lot of clarity on these intuitions. I think music is the universe speaking to us somehow and is a way to access planes of mind that are otherwise hard to reach day to day. If I can take people to those kinds of imaginary worlds while I DJ, then I’ll be very satisfied with that. When I’m out listening to music, I live for those moments where you and a friend are dancing together, and suddenly something happens in the music, and you have this shared experience, and somehow this music is affecting everyone in the same way, and you have all these feelings and it’s just unexplainable why that is. That’s the magic I’m looking to create when I DJ. I certainly don’t hit that mark every time, and it’s rare that all the factors lineup to create moments like that. But that’s the ultimate goal.

Do you mainly use turntables? How do you feel about USBs vs Turntable conversations?

So I learnt how to DJ only on vinyl, and didn’t feel comfortable using CDJs for a long time. But as I got used to CDJs more and more, that’s now the dominant way I DJ when I’m playing out, bringing along just a few special records. When I started djing more regularly, I realised the advantages of using CDJs and playing digital tracks are huge from an organisational perspective. I have playlists upon playlists, and I can be pulling together and downloading tracks for sets I have coming up as and when I have free time on my laptop. It’s so much more affordable too. I love my records, I love playing them, I love having music on vinyl, but realistically I go through music so fast and can’t financially justify buying tracks on vinyl I’ll quickly get bored of. I have shelves and shelves of records I’ll just never play now. These days I’ll buy something on vinyl if I really love it and want to keep it forever, or if I can’t get it digitally. Also since reading about the really bad environmental impact of vinyl (it’s totally indestructible and made of super toxic material), I made a pact with myself not to buy any more new records. So I only buy second-hand records, and the handful of new records I have bought have been by friends or on friends’ labels to support them. I’ve also grown to absolutely love hot cues and the loop functionality of CDJs, they add so much dynamism to my djing which I just can’t get on vinyl. But I mean the format is just the format, everyone should just DJ on whatever format works for them, it’s great there are so many options, but it’s about the music at the end of the day, not what you play it off.

How did you get into djing? What was your first introduction to dance music?

My first “DJ set” was for a charity night at university and I played off Virtual DJ on my laptop, this was just because I liked music and somehow ended up volunteering last minute to do it, but I wouldn’t really count it as I hadn’t ever DJ’d before that. I took up djing properly when I graduated from University and bought my turntables. I was living back at home and just practising constantly. I got introduced to dance music when I started going out at Uni, though had been listening to bad ‘dubstep’ at school, but not sure that counts.

Do you feel music is inherently political or has the ability to be? Does it provide you with any solace or liberation?

Dance music is inherently political yes. It’s very privileged to even consider that it wouldn’t be political… Dance music was formed in marginalised communities, and this must not be erased or forgotten. It is empowering to see groups formed of non-cis-men reclaiming dance music and taking up space in the scene. Music is such a powerful creator of communities, and so so important as an axis through which marginalised groups can come together and feel free of the oppression of the world for a night. It’s also a wonderful tool through which people can express their identities, something Eris spoke about with me very articulately. Sadly the structures of oppression which affect marginalised groups day to day play out in dance music as well. As a very privileged person in so many ways, I try to be conscious of this and do what I can to counter this in dance music spaces.

Music definitely provides me with both solace and liberation. Solace from the insanity of the world. Liberation from my own mental limitations. I can be feeling apathetic or confused and music will take me away from that to somewhere else. Sometimes I wish I could just vanish and exist within some kind of musical consciousness space forever. I ultimately feel that that feeling and place you access when listening to music is much closer to the realm we all came from than most other things you can experience living in the physical world. Because it isn’t physical, it’s pure imagination, but still real. You know when you’re lying in bed in the dark listening to music? Like that feeling of total immersion. I just want to stay there forever. I guess that’s why I’m not bored of it yet, nor suspect I ever could be. It’s where I feel most myself and most free to be myself and most alone and at peace. I hope I get to keep sharing that with other people.

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