#mako talks

[dimancheetoile]

uh, hi.

maybe you're seeing this on your dash and thinking "hum, this username is kinda familiar". maybe you do remember me, in which case, again, hi.

i've been gone for an entire year. it hasn't been a great one. for those who read my posts before, you might already know this, but for everyone else, I was born with a rare genetic condition. on top of that, i had a very serious accident at 13 that more or less destroyed my right leg. i haven't been able to walk right since then, and it hasn't been helped by the following years of botched surgeries, complications from the operation, misdiagnosis and medical malpractice. i'm left with a barely functional leg that has a permanently torn set of ligaments, collapsed nerves and debilitating, constant, torturous chronic pain.

then i had a weird relapse of sorts. a bucketful of symptoms. hives and flushing, limbs and joints swelling, rashes, trouble breathing, sudden drops in blood pressure, heart rate above 100 at rest, stomach cramps, nausea, headaches, migraines, chronic fatigue, confusion, memory loss, dizziness and loss of consciousness. it's called MCAS.

i can't describe to you what it's like to never be well. to never wake up in a body that feels right, even just ok. to always have something going wrong, something painful, something that doesn't work right.

i'm hooked up to an oxygen machine twice a day. i wear a compression garment that goes from my ankles up to the tips of my fingers. i have to do two self-injections every month. i live with additional compressive equipment for both my knees, both my ankles, both my wrists, an elbow. i have a machine with electrodes i can put on painful areas to electrocute them and sometimes, it helps with the pain. i have to use pain-relief plasters and poultices a couple times a day.

i have premature arthritis. the arthritis in my back ate all the cartilage of my last three vertebrae (the ones above your tailbones, your lower back) so i'm like a car with no suspensions. my vertebrae are rubbing against each other with nothing in between to protect them, my discs are crushed, i have severe sciatica. chronic light sensitive migraines.

my joints don't hold. since january, I dislocated my left knee leading to a synovium effusion (big pocket of the lube in your joint that gathers and forms a ball and it pushes on your nerves, ligaments, tendons and tissue); i sprained my left ankle and it tore my external ligament and heel ligament. i dislocated a bunch of my fingers multiple times.

oh, i also got diagnosed with endometriosis and PCOS.

i live bedridden now. i have an entire grocery bag of medication sitting by my bed so i can reach it easily. opioids, neuropathic pain medication, anti-inflammatory medication, a medication that completely stops my period.

and that's without mentioning the hours and hours of hospital visits, specialists, family doctors, physical therapists, etc.

i'm gonna be honest. same time last year, i was having a hard time. i had turned 25 in january and moved into my first apartment since uni. it's in the same village as my mom which is the only reason i could live independently. so i was just 25 and all the MCAS stuff was happening on top of everything else and i had this realisation that this was what the rest of my life would look like, but worse, because my disease is degenerative. it gets worse as you age.

so i was just 25 and i realised i had the next 50 to suffer through this and more, and suddenly i didn't want to be here anymore. there was no ideation, it was more a complete break down of my hopes for the future. what was my future going to look like in this cursed body?

anyway, i collapsed under the mental pressure, my health continued to worsen. what i used to be able to do was no so much harder, and sometimes impossible. i was a 25-year-old in a prison of their own flesh. i couldn't deal with the rest of the world, so i cut myself off from it.

i'm doing better now, mentally. physically, it's only gotten worse. as i write this, i'm reaching for my pain meds because everything below my right knee is screaming in agony and i have a splitting headache. this is a good day for me.

thank you, if you've read this far. thank you, if you thought about me even once in the past year. i'm not asking for anything, except maybe to talk with you if you have a similar story. i feel so alone in this hell, it'd be nice to talk to someone.

i love you all.

-mako

[theshadowwalkers]

Demo Alpha-Readers Needed

Hi everyone!

With the release date getting closer, and me being close to finished with the writing part of the demo-making process, I’m looking for alpha readers who’d be interested in trying it out in advance. To be clear, I’m not looking for beta readers, meaning I don’t need someone who can professionally critique a work, or grammar/spellcheck, or anything like that. I’m only interested in people who’d like to play it in advance and give their general opinion. As if you were a normal reader sending me a comment to talk about the game, only you’d get access to it before everyone else.

Ideally, I’d like around 5 people for this, but more is always better, that’s just a minimum I’m shooting for. if you’re interested in being an alpha reader, just send me a message here, either an ask (you can’t be anon for obvious reasons) or a PM. If you want more information on what The Shadowwalkers is about, check out the pinned post on my blog, and there’s a dedicated section for the LIs on the sidebar.

Reblogs are much appreciated, as well as sharing to people you think might be interested. Thank you!!

Mako.

@interact-if​

[ateezbiia]

Just wanted to pop in and say it’s okay if you don’t have motivation to update your OC. It happens to me all the time and you should let it come back naturally. I’m always here for you Milan!

thank you so much mako! it means a lot when people truly understand how i’m feeling. and i hate losing motivation because i love being here and having an oc and seeing everyone else update there’s, it just brings a certain happiness..

[twixnmix]

Talking Heads with Duncan Hannah, Lance Loud, and Christopher Makos at the Factory in New York City, May 1976.

Photos by Andy Warhol

[karizipan]

can anyojen hear me PLEASEEEEE

[bogcreacher]

I want to absorb your artstyle, your SHAPES and I especially love the markings you give ur wof OCS just oughfhdhdjx

Also do you mayhaps have any fullbody refs for mako and wolf for absolutely no reason that I will not use whatsoever 👀

ahhhh thank you so much, that’s very lovely to hear!!! :D

I’m afraid the closest thing I have to full body refs of them is Kissing:

[alevolpe]

Since I ranked the senshi as parents the other day, I figured I'd rank their parents as well.

In case you need a guide:

Kino family (Mako's parents) (deceased)

Ikuko Tsukino (Usagi's mother)

Kenji Tsukino (Usagi's father)

Risa Hino (Rei's mother) (deceased)

Saeko Mizuno (Ami's mother) (divorced)

Mr. Aino (Minako's father)

Mrs. Aino (Minako's mother)

Mr. Mizuno (Ami's father) (divorced)

Souichi Tomoe (Hotaru's father) (complicated)

Takashi Hino (Rei's father)

[rocketbirdie]

destiny intersects with the ruined reactor...

little details!

[whackacole3]

so them core

[comradekatara]

instead of prince wu….existing, the mako frame of the inane book 4 clip show (because they didn’t have the budget to write animate a full episode) should’ve been set at his monthly book club meeting on air temple island with jinora, and when their discussion of literature veers into rehashing his relationship history, jinora is just like “hold up. you fumbled the two most beautiful powerful women in the entire world and now they’re into each other?? that’s gotta hurt” and mako’s just like “what no they’re not!!!!” jinora’s like “umm i have eyes.” smash cut to korra and asami in the gazebo framed by a brilliant sunset.

[theshadowwalkers]

Looking for an artist

Hello artists of tumblr!

I’m looking for an artist to create a couple of character pieces for The Shadowwalkers, my IF (in case you don’t know why you follow me lmao). I’m looking for a rather rendered style, fairly realistic is preferred. If you’re interested, please send me a private message with your prices and a couple of examples of fantasy character pieces you’ve created.

If you want an idea of what I’m looking for, here are a couple of artists I’ve either commissioned in the past and loved it (but they’re not taking commissions anymore) or I’ve just found their art recently. If you feel your art is similar, don’t hesitate to contact me! Also, you can go to https://theshadowwalkers.tumblr.com/tagged/totl+art to see the art already made by me, to get an idea of what I’m looking for, or here https://theshadowwalkers.tumblr.com/totl for a commissioned piece I got a while back by an amazing artist.

https://harumeau.tumblr.com/

https://shalizeh7.tumblr.com

https://twitter.com/aerroknot

https://bluerbell.tumblr.com

https://marceline2174.tumblr.com/

I’m looking forward to hearing from you!

reblogs are very appreciated, as well as sending this to your artist friends!

[nyamadermont]

You Never Cared

#FFF245 You Never Cared

@flashfictionfridayofficial

Avatar: Legend of Korra

462 words

Every eye was on him, but he just couldn’t be nervous. Not today. Not now. 

He knew what needed to be said. 

“I am honored to stand here, before you, and help you remember Lin Beifong."

"Most of you never knew her. Many of you were never directly affected by her. You never cared about the person Lin was, and she was happy for that. The spotlight was never her goal.”

He straightened his notes. 

“You never cared that her mother, Toph, treated her like an adult from the time she could walk. Handled her training like she did for police cadets in their twenties. Absolved herself of the need to parent Suyin because Lin was old enough.”

He looked up at his audience, and back down at the pages in his hands. 

“You never cared that her scars were handed her by her own sister, just that you could smell the scandal on them. You never cared that her own mother swept the injury under the rug to save her own reputation. Only that you knew that the Greatest Earthbender retired in honor and glory that reflected on the city Toph called home. Until she abandoned it.”

He slid the page to the back. 

“You never cared why Lin was upset that day when she dismantled the Thousand Steps to the Air Temple. But you celebrated with Master Tenzin and his new bride. Whose name you never cared to learn. And who has siblings you never cared to recognize.”

He took a deep breath. 

“You never cared about her over ten years of quiet peace until the return of the Avatar to the city. But you were quick to turn on her and join in the mayhem. You never cared that Amon took her bending because she knew it was the air benders who were actually important.”

He ground his jaw, and turned another page. 

“You never cared what she sacrificed over the course of her life. You never cared what she suffered.”

He pulled a slow, deep breath. 

“And she never cared about that.”

He paused. 

“She cared that her officers acted with respect and honor. She cared that crime was found, judged, and dealt with appropriately. 

He folded his notes, dropping his hands to his sides. 

“She cared that the citizens of Republic City lived their lives in peace. She cared that her family was protected.”

He drew his shoulders back, folding his hands behind his back. 

“You never cared who she was as a person.”

He took a breath. 

“And that was just fine with her.”

He waited for some reaction, but got none. 

He reached over and handed Pabu his treat. 

“Thanks, buddy. I’m so glad you never cared that she acted like she didn’t like you.”

[doctorbeans]

yknow what. fuck it. hollow knight x ff7 au

[thornheartless]

I'm sure some of these have been done already, but I found the website people use to make these and couldn't stop myself

[low-budget-korra]

Let's Talk about TLOK book 3 finale

An analysis on its writing and narrative choices.

We all know that is the best season but what make the final episodes so epic? As I like to say, is when words became art.

1. The script.

The Narrative of the season is the best alongside with season 1. The choices they make, the pacing, the development but most importantly: The Stakes. They were all there.

Sure, we saw Tarrlok murder/suicide in season 1 and Korra being sad in front of a cliff (as I interpreted as she being suicidal but nothing about that is canon so) but we didn't saw the air being sucked outta someone's body.

And the death of the earth Queen is the exact point where everything changed. Everything could happen at that point. Right after, Tenzin was almost beaten to death and I remember the fandom panicking about it. He didn't but P'Li blew her own head and Korra's torture was really hard to watch.

We got happy when Korra fought back and almost was able to kill Zaheer but then we remembered that she was highly poisoned. And after all we saw the last 3 episodes... everything could happen

Also, at that time, a lot of people didn't know we would have a next season. Honestly I don't remember if Korra was renewed before, during of after season 3 but I remember a lot of fans freaking out thinking that was the end. And if the fans simply forgot we would have a next season so Korra, obviously wouldn't die, it shows how good was the writing of the season since we were all so sunken on what was about to happen that we couldn't think on the future.

2. The masterpiece on animation and soundtrack.

It's been almost 10 years and the show didn't age a day. The choreography of the battles also helped to raise the takes and also tell us a story: How the Krew learn how to fight against the Red Lotus. From the most obvious of Bolin lavabending ex machina, Mako aiming in Ming Hua water arms before she could be able to use them against him and Jinora showing Zaheer the power in number, what exactly means being united as one.

And the soundtrack omg I listen and still get emotional to this day. When Korra is suffocating and the music goes from dark to soft, the airbenders theme (a version more emocional and sweet of the Avatar Aang's theme) . This is cinema! This is art!

The Legend of Korra is such a underrated masterpiece

[bogcreacher]

I love how every time we see Mako interact with Whalefall he seems to be some level of confused or unsettled. Whalefall is a baffling creature and I love that for them

(sorry if you got this ask twice my tumblr has been acting up and i want to make sure it actually sent)

hehe, Whalefall is an odd duck! Mako struggled to get a read on them for a long time, but fortunately met em at a time when he really needed someone new and strange in his life